#ji soehoon

[ahfuck-why]

OKAY

from the very introduction of soek jaebom's character as 'the one who lost all his memories' who seems to be a nice kid friends (?) with literal piece of trash gi osung ive been thinking:

imagine one day waking up with no memories of yourself for a good recent chunk of your life. you dont know your friends, you dont know yourself, what kind of a person are you, what did you use to do, what were your interests... (i imagine its similar to wearing your shoes but they feel just enough Wrong and foreign for you to double check and it turns out the shoes belong to someone else but look identical to ones you own)

anyway

you dont know who you are, but still life gotta life so you move along, and you start living again and you meet new faces that shouldn't be new and you make new friends and you start carving a life out, make a new path.

and then one day all your memories come back

and it turns out that you were a completely different person, with a completely different life, so much so a third person point of you would have trouble believing that both those persons are you .

how do you deal with that? how do you reconcile these two parallel versions of you? how do you begin to fit your pre-memory-loss self into the self you are now? does it make any difference? why? how do you even begin to sort all of this out?

and i think, this is the main reason why this plotline with soek jaebom rubs me the wrong way (aside from all the shitty "representation" of DID and and the general bs of this 'twist'). i think losing one's entire self, then building a new one in this place with barely any clues from what stood prior, to being in a position where both the selves stand side by side - is such a rare, complex, layered and like a hundred other ineffable things which this show in its last few episodes has stripped it off and made a cheap 2 dimensional caricature of. in fact, adding another deeply complex layer of DID should ideally make it even MORE interesting if explored and done right, but of course, its just used as another angle for a bad attempt at "spicing things up" or whatever the fuck the writers were going for idek atp what the fuck the intention was.

this whole plotline was just wholly flat, without any depth or complexity, so much so it sorta takes away from everything that the show had built up to till this point in terms of characters, their relationships and the general trajectory of the show.