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Today has been tough. I recognize I started my blog with the intention that it would be purely about the music I have been creating and my work at UMG. I recognize that by being a person you make mistakes and me the perfectionist that I am is starting to realize I am full of mistakes. Love is so hard to except when you feel incapable of loving, or the only love you have felt has come at such a high cost. So maybe this has to do with the music. I wrote this song a a little whiles back called “breath me in” that I will be recording in a few weeks, post Christmas (WOAH TIME IS FLYING). It’s all about trust and addiction. I’m an addict, not to any drugs or booze but to my codependency. I rely on my past, my abuse, my inner child who’s shattered. When a 13 year old leads in a 22 year olds body woow, can that boy make some serious mistakes. Now, it’s not all bad but yes, I know how to manipulate, two, I know how to control, and three, I know how to break a heart. I’m learning to be esteem-able, that word is crazy but can alter every choice you make. Step one is being honest with myself and than others. The picture above is me and my best-friend Mer. Our friendship is honest, and we made some serious memories this past weekend. No pressure, just pure love. “You breath me in and you burn me out... You broke my heart but I’ll come back around” Sometimes it’s a mistake to come back around because we trust the chaos. Why is it so difficult to live in peace? When it’s bliss like that night in the pic above I feel like I’m loosing control. “Tap the ashes, blow out smoke. I’m addicted and I can’t let go.” Chaos is an addiction. Maybe self induced after a little while. Today, was big. Painful. But a realization that I’m not PERFECT.

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Capitol Records BABY!!

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BUT WAIT... Who is Jake Lancer? 

Today is about tomorrow and tomorrow is about the next day. That phrase may sound very (UN) therapuetic but when I create I capture moments in my life for the following day for the next moment. In the image above you see a clothing rack that is carrying some of my favorite pieces. I like to change, evolve, never feel compelled to one choice, rather I like options. That rack on the street could mean anything. Did you know this image was taken in Boston in 25 degree weather. My point is I am still in the unknown. I have my few key pieces to choose from but I think of them as toolbox rather than a limitation. 

TOMORROW, I go into the studio to begin recording my debut EP. I will not tell you who is producing this album, what its called, or really much about it. What I want to say is as we grow we have to make choices. We face realities, we find truths in people and ourselves and these moments can disappoint us. Growing up is not easy, saying goodbye is not easy, and rebuilding is not easy.

I have a voice lesson in 25 minutes, and tomorrow I am off to the studio. Stay tuned for some BTS footage. I promise you this is no MAIN LINE SUMMER NIGHTS this EP is going to be raw and new. It’s for tomorrow. 

LANCER

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HI NYC!

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So we began. Day 1. Jake Lancer. New Music.

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