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[jaestrz]

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤 - 𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐜 𝐬𝐨𝐡𝐧 손영재

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𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: fluff | angst | established relationship | idol!au

𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴: eric sohn x afab reader

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴: pure pressure on reader | mentioned of anxiety

≡;- ꒰ ° when eric had to find out about your deep struggles you’ve been keeping over a podcast.꒱

“what if I’m someone I don’t want around?” -hs

You had known youngjae since… let’s say forever.

From the states to Korea, you knew every single one of his secrets, personality, character, abilities and interests. Or maybe at this point you know about him more than you know yourself.

He was like an angel sent from God. Someone that had been your comfort person, someone you could rely on and someone who was good at being a secret keeper. At least from what you had been telling yourself because you were the hardest person to open up to people. Even youngjae . You just couldn’t find the courage to speak about it.

If a balloon is filled with too much air, the more air enters the sooner it’ll explode.

“I heard there was a time where you said in vlive about how scary it was for you to think about the pressure being put in a group last minute during your trainee days. You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t feel comfortable doing it.” Eric Nam said. Somehow you realised you haven’t talked about this kind of situation to youngjae before. Youngjae’s eyes turned soft when caught you in his sight.

“I don’t think I had ever told eric or the members about what I had truly felt joining a group that I didn’t expect to end up with especially when the choreographies and music were different than what I was taught back then when I was a trainee” you forced out a laugh while you felt youngjae’s hand rubbing the palm of your hand as a sign of showing he was here with you.

You were good at holding yourself back. “ I joined the company 2 weeks after Eric did. I think that time he was the only friend that I had in Korea because i had to rely on him. He was the only person who could speak English before I met Jacob and Kevin. We still do until now because talking in Korean with him, Jacob or Kevin would be a bit more awkward.” You added. What you said were true. You never actually thought about speaking Korean unless you were with the members who couldn’t understand English.

“So the both of you are actually childhood friends?” Eric asked and Youngjae nodded. “i didn’t actually think she was going to debut the same group as me either.” Youngjae laughed.

“I had a hard time adjusting myself to fit in.” You confessed and you had never seen youngjae looked at you that fast in your life.

His eyes and touch softens. Almost like his eyes were saying ‘how come you never told me this before?’. “what was it like?”

“scary, frustrating. Sometimes it’s just me alone. I think that was one of the bad habits I had. I tend to forget that I had people around me to open up.” You didn’t feel sad- well, maybe you did a little. But if you were buried in this kind of trouble then might as well confess it.

Because back then and now, at the end of the day all you have is yourself.

Guilt rushed in youngjae’s body.

-

This would be the first time in a while since you had been giving Eric the silent treatment. He seems fine. You said to yourself.

But something wasn’t right with today. At least that’s what you had in mind. It can’t be the stunts. Not even the dance moves. You weren’t satisfied with what you had done today. Even the simple copy Juyeon asked you to follow made you a little annoyed with how different it had look.

Of course Eric had noticed it. He had noticed it since this morning.

The first thing he thought was you were on your days. Which was wrong because he checked the tracker app on his phone that yours had recently end. So it wasn’t about that.

He saw the tears you were holding in. Seeing how you went somewhere else made him follow you. No, he couldn’t see you being sad alone. If the tears were going to spill at least let him be your own comfort person. His heart stings at the sight of you sitting alone in the locker room, your sobs echoed.

It felt more than a sword through the heart. The sight was painful.

You looked tired. You look like you could die. And he was disappointed he couldn’t be the reason of your happiness.

With light steps he walked up to you, feeling how you were inhaling the familiar scent of his cologne. Your racing heart had calmed. “i’m here baby. I’m here now. It’s okay love.” He whispered, fluttering his eyes shut when he rested his chin on the top of your head while hugging you. Something about a hug filled with love and affection. God. His hugs were too comforting to pull away.

“I tried. I can’t get it off my chest.” You said, swallowing the lump in your throat. “I had been letting everyone down since day 1 I had been here and-”

“you didn’t baby. You never let anyone down before. Not Sangyeon, not Juyeon, not Hyunjae, not Changmin and not even anyone else. You were the reason why everyone could smile everyday without having the sense of worry about a performance, an interview, or even filming something.” The male confessed, staring at you with adoration in his eyes while he tucks strings of your hair behind. “You are our source of energy and our comfort person that could get us through tiring schedules. If you can’t lean on us then we would be losing you as well.”

It shattered his heart into millions of pieces just thinking about it. You went through a hard time alone. Yet you managed to stand in front of people with a smile on your face like nothing had happened in your life. You endured everything without taking a break for years.

You don’t know how long had it been since you felt this kind of weight being lifted off your shoulders. Because when you said it felt good, it really did. When Eric saw that you had calmed down, he started cracking up some of his jokes.

Bad ones but they managed to get a laugh from you.

“hey! I made you laugh.” Eric remarked, pointing at the way your lips went upwards.

“but your joke were funny. I’m allowed to laugh.” You replied. There was a moment of silence before Eric speak up.

“Then I would rather make bad jokes for you everyday just to see this kind of smile from your face love.”

[ambivartence]

Every Month of 2023

Tagged by @mizugucci @baekhyunnybyun @irlvernon @wayvs

rules: link your favorite and/or most popular post from each month this year <3 (it’s totally fine to skip months!) and tag some CCs you love!

Tagging anyone who sees this and wants to join!! Just say i tagged you^^

i posted the art version of my every month of 2023 here but since I got tagged so many times again I wanted to do my giffing version as well since i've been doing it more regularly!!

January - most popular: monsta x minhyuk silently dying with laughter aka when he became my mx bias 🥺 - favorite: my top 10 albums of 2022 as vinyl records gfx :)

February - most popular: in the soop mingyu in his black hoodie - favorite: giant mingyu cramming himself into tiny fishing canoe (and catching a fish!)

March - most popular: 12 gifs of mingyu enjoying himself having evening drinks with the members <3 - favorite: dancing line of tbz ot11 in a single gif ft shy red hair chanhee as the caboose

April - no gifs this month ! was traveling and then missing moonbin a lot :(

May - most popular: 230511 bae173 hangyul GT stage aka the beginning of my peak time era and my bae173 GT stage spam and specifically my hangyul brainrot :') - favorite: hangyul wearing cute bear ears from a 2019 vlive

June - most popular: 230513 bae173 hangyul GT stage which was a coloring nightmare - favorite: 230620 dkb d1 more than 100 reasons stage bc i love him and this song

July - most popular: 230625 jeno broken melodies fancam specifically that brief moment when he's not on stage and looked so good readjusting his mic - favorite: picnic time hangyul playing at the pool when he still had long hair and i was hopelessly in love

August - most popular: jacob lip gloss mv aka my song of the summerrrr - favorite: shirtless jacob lip gloss mv behind with my favorite caption of the year hehe

September - also no gifs this month but it was my most productive month of drawing :D

October - most popular: 230810 jeno yogurt shake fancam when he temporarily dyed his hair mint blue <3 - favorite: team 24:00 sungjoong's vlog for lotti^^

November - most popular: the boyz watch it mv but just the night motorcycle / warn ver. outfits - favorite: this very large gif of jacob stretching that was sideways in the watch it mv but i rotated it back to its vertical glory hehe

December - most popular: bada lee x hanbin smoke challenge MY WIFE AND SON!!! - favorite: pocket-sized cutie maknae last christmas woonhak^^

[hongyangi]

the fact that jacob mentioned in his bday vlive how he would never reveal his abs on stage BUT is okay helping us to get the other members to do it??? like hello?? man was even asking us which one do we wanna see next im-

friend, he's so evil for that. so we're just going to forget the existence of these? 🤨🤨

[gluion]

thanks for the tag @winterchimez and @from-izzy !!

rules: you're going to pick 10 of your biases (or as many biases as you have and then fill in the rest of the spots with idols you like) and number them 1-10. then answer the questions below! try not to look at the questions before you make your list!

bias list:

kim sunwoo (tbz)

jacob bae (tbz)

ji changmin (tbz)

kim namjoon (bts)

kang younghyun (day6)

choi soobin (txt)

kim jiwoo/chuu (loona)

im yeojin (loona)

hong eunchae (lesserafim)

nakamura kazuha (lesserafim)

questions under the cut!

between 7 and 5, who did you bias first?

i stanned day6 since 2017, but i def biased chuu first!! i was sadly a jaehyung stan then, but i started biasing youngk like around 2019??? i think. chuu has always been one of my biases since heart attack was released :3

between 2 and 6, who are you more attached to?

BROTHER IN CHRIST!!! i am very much more attached to jacob :') i love him so much as a lesbian..... like bro he is MY future like i am his teehee. idk like his vlives really are something i listen to before sleeping and they bring so much comfort </3 BUTTT i forever love my soobin :')) i biased him longer and he is my bestfriend forever and my boyfriend...

if you were to spend the day with either 3 or 1, who would you choose and what would you do?

BYE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY.... I CANNOT CHOOSE BETWEEN MY SUNKYU!??!?!?! OHMYGOD I THINK I'LL JUST PASS OUT... but okay realistically tho.... i would love to spend my day with sunwoo and play a lot of video games and talk about anime with him tbh... like idk its always fun to just visit a pc cafe and play with friends IM SORRY!!! i would also expand his silly horizon with more anime recs

BUT OKAY HEAR ME OUT I WOULDVE LOVED TO SPEND IT WITH JICHANG :'))) BRO THE READING DATE .... THE PICNIC AND READING IN EACH OTHER'S PRESENCE... ANNOTATING EACH OTHER'S BOOKS... UGH I CRAVE IT I DO!!!

what is your favorite physical feature about 9?

EUNCHAE HAS THE PRETTIEST EYES!!! AND HER SMILE <33 THAT IS MY KID I LOVE HER FOREVER!!!

what is your favorite part of 6's personality?

i love how soobin is the introvert who gets progressively chaotic as you get to know him. LIKE IDK BRO THATS SO ME!!! and i think he really does have one of the biggest hearts i know <3 he cares so much for the others like i just know how lucky it would be to be loved him <3

if you were to tell 8 anything you wanted, what would you tell them?

ah my yeojin <3 i love you and im proud of you always. i'm so glad you got to debut, and i hope you spend more years with loona very happy :]] proud of you always my shining girl!

between 1 and 2, whose closet would you raid?

urgh okay fashion wise, i prefer sunwoo's more! i really like his style now tbh! but jacob's closet would def have a lot of hoodies and just pieces that are sooo intimate like hoodies etc </3

what is a style that you want to see 3 try?

OHMYGOD CAN I PLEASSEEE !!! I WANT TO SEE JICHANG IN MORE CAMP FITS !!! I KNOW WE KNOW HIM FOR THE ALL BOYFRIEND NEUTRAL COLORED FITS BUT HOLY SHIT I WOULD KILL!!! FOR A CAMP FIT!! I WANT IT!!! i want the most colorful craziest pieces on him!!

between 5 and 4, who are you closer to in height?

im pretty sure its youngk LAWL namjoon is like 6ft right

between 10 and 9, whose music do you like the best?

well they're both from lesserafim so GFYUSDGFYSGFG i love my girls!

tagging @wuahae @juyeonszn @mosviqu @sungbeam and anyone else who wants to play!

[wuahae]

how should i start stanning tbz? i watched them on rtk/kingdom and i liked their performances but idk where to start 🫣🫣 pls help

right in time for their latest comeback too.............you’ve come to the right person.

so in my opinion the best way to get into the boyz is by watching their variety content! usually when i start out these guides i send people clips of their rtk performances but since you've already watched them i can just skip straight to the variety content <3 if you wanted another guide for like . song recommendations from their discography i can do that too! just say the word hehe <3 personally i started liking them because of their variety content and their endless out of context vlive clips LMAO but here's my starter pack:

for a brief overview of tbz: introduction to the boyz

it actually IS brief okay it's just 40 minutes because there's 11 members to get through 😭 it's from 2021 so it's a little old but i'd say it provides a really good basis for future the boyz exploration! you can get a pretty good feel of each of the 11 members and their little quirks from this video, and it's a good mixture of it being a serious introduction (showing them being good at their job) and unserious (showing them being literally just some guys)

optional viewing: the boyz flower snack

flower snack was like their predebut show where they were officially introduced to the world! they're like super young here and while i wouldn't consider this essential media (esp since they've grown so much since then) i do think it's a good pick-me-up because of how feelgood the show is :") it's definitely cringy at parts and you can tell they still have that trainee air to them, but personality-wise i don't think a lot has changed since then till now :"") they're still a bunch of dorks and some jokes are still mentioned now and then (eric doing watermelon cpr)

the two links below are less of a beginner guide and moreso for when you want to dive deeper into each member's personalities and their inner thoughts! personally i would watch the fun variety stuff first and get a feel for each member before getting into the interviews, but you could also watch the photoshoot portions and then watch the variety stuff and then go back to the interviews for more context. any way is fine, it's up to you! - generation z

the guide from above uses the gen z clips for each member but so the photoshoot portion isn't anything new but! i think the full gen z playlist is really worth watching :3 because of the interview format it allows a glimpse of insight into each member, and honestly it was one of my very first tbz media where i started to really Get them ykwim...... the way they answer each question is so specific to themselves and the topics for each interview is very individualized, so even if you don't have the urge to dissect their brain like i do it's still a very interesting (and visually pleasing) watch! and also ..... the iconic juyeon yellow lambourghini clip is from here. for your own viewing pleasure.

- be your own king

speaking of viewing pleasure. this is very reminiscent of the gen z photoshoots but instead of doing video format interviews they decided to do it through written form instead! here is the thread for all the translations, but a few are missing bc their accounts got deleted :( for the members that got deleted, i found hyunjae's, but i can't find jacob's anywhere :( but basically the entire format of the interviews were that the members would write the interview questions for themselves, and then they'd answer them. i think because of this a lot of them have spoken about how much they liked this interview, because it let them reflect on themselves a lot! they were also a lot more comfortable with this interview compared to gen z because gen z was like ,,, their first time every doing something like this, but with byok the combination of having experience and writing their own questions let them be a lot more relaxed in the process ^^

weekly idol eps to watch: stealer era | thrill ride era

the stealer era episode is just soooo ... JWJSADJFL like they start airing out their dirt on national tv (younghoon and sunwoo get the brunt of it) and for a bonus johnny and haechan from nct are special mcs in this ep! the thrill ride era episode is so cute lolll it shows the individual traits of each member so well... like eric is there being a social butterfly and golden retriever right from the start and then juyeon is just being thrown boyfriend material scripts so he can act them out with hyunjae LMAO it's just a total mess but it's very... them. they have a few other weekly idol eps from other eras so you can definitely check them out too, but personally the stealer and thrill ride eras are my favorites to watch and rewatch ^^

dive studio podcasts: kevin | jacob | eric | english line

this is just a lot of fun to watch! they're definitely a lot less serious than the gen z and byok interviews, but they're still a good insight into how the english members came to become a part of tbz! a lot of fandom jokes come from here (mostly about how eric is friends with his friend's dad, jeff) but overall it's just a good time! they are Just some guys /pos.........

come on the boyz!: summer rpg | in nyc | godsaeng

there's another original come on the boyz series but i ... haven't watched it yet so 😭 i can't recommend it in good faith BUT the ones on here are stuff i Have watched and they're all very very cute :") tbz are like 1thek's sons HAHA so they have a lot of 1thek variety content but each one obviously has a different concept to it! they're sorta all in the name but personally my favorite is godsaeng :"") maybe cause it was the most recently filmed (and even though eric was still on hiatus during this time :( ) but it's just soooo fun and all the members are so goofy and lame and it just feels like you're watching a bunch of friends go on a 3d2n road trip together 🥹 the members' personalities really come out in all the installments and the editing is just so funny from the 1thek staff LMAO its just a lot of fun <3

for vlive content:

honestly my best advice is to watch those edit/compilation videos that fans make on youtube! they're such a good way to get the best highlights from the vlives without wasting your time with like. 1-2 hour long lives HAHA my recommendations for channels to browse through are jellykims, txtbz, and jichangminluvr! you can probably rabbithole through the yt algorithm from there HAHA you'll have lots of fun i promise <3

there's obviously so much more content that i think is worth watching but this is just the starter pack that i think makes a pretty good beginning on stanning the boyz !! if you have any more questions or you want to talk about any of the members pleaaasseee let me know!! i'm always so so happy to talk about tbz HAHA i'm a fairly new deobi myself (its only been a couple months) so i'd love to have other deobis or aspiring deobis to talk to and/or convert!! thank you for trusting in me with this starter pack LMAO please update me on how it goes and if you start stanning ^^

[tbznopsd]

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[mooncobs]

Jacob ‘Checkmate’ acoustic

[theboyzbzone]

moonbae of the day 😉

[haknew]

never let go !

[ambivartence]

Hi Siyuan my lovely lovely friend 💚

For the ask game: 🎵 and 💗👯‍♀️🌟 for The Boyz!

🎵 recommend a song based on your vibe/blog

i'm recommending you pang! by seventeen!!!!! it's one of my favorite svt songs eVERRRRR THE LYRICS R SO CUTE AND THE SONG IS SO CUTE AND THE CHOREO IS SO CUTE AND U ARE SO CUTE AND UR VIBE IS SO CUTE AND UR BLOG IS SO CUTE SDFSLDFDSF IN MY MIND IT'S A MATCH FOR SUREEEEE!!!!

💗 send w/ a group, and i'll tell you my favorite thing(s) about one of the members (you can choose or let me decide who!)

ooooooh okay well i'm literally paid to talk about jacob (jk i wish) ! one of my favorite things about him is how competitive he is :') he's normally very kind and angelic and puts others first BUT when it comes to winning he does NOT hold back hsieofaksdfasdlf he's srsly so competitive that it's so funny and entertaining to watch the drastic measures he'll take to win (like that one time he fully picked up Q like it was a wrestling match but rlly they were just supposed to flip the square tiles over....)

👯‍♀️ send w/ a group, and I’ll rant about a favorite friendship

i love sunnyu so much they're so tom (chanhee) and jerry (sunwoo) !!! always bickering and sunwoo is always baiting him (or worse, spilling flying roe all over his computer caught in 4k on vlive rip) and and then the trio of sunnyukyu (sunwoo, chanhee, and changmin) always get along so well together and are constantly laughing and taking turns picking on each other, this combo just never fails to brighten my day!!

🌟 send w/ a group, and I’ll talk about my favorite era, concept, and/or album

ok im honestly obsessed w the current concept christmas in august ! it's so whimsical, and it's true that tbz comebacks really make it feel like christmas is here early with all the gifts they bring us in the form of new content (and praying for more tour stops announced....) ALSO having eric back just makes everything feel right again!! but honestly my fave era/concept might be their debut era with all 12 of them (hwall 🥺) and their cute predebut show Flower Snack and their predebut single I'm Your Boy and their debut song Boy! it was all so wholesome and fun!!!! i watched a lot of their super old ot12 content when i first became a deobi spring 2022 ! beyond that, i think my fave tbz album is either Reveal or Thrill-ing <3

> kpop emoji ask game <

[yoonxhy]

🍐 ft. a tiny kebin

[baejoonyoung2]

endless days of jacob bae ♡ [ 27 / ∞ ]

[lhyunjaes]

psa from jacob ♡

[baejoonyoung-archive]

k: just today? 😐 j: that’s enough for me 😤

[tbznopsd]

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[prince-dongju]

2/?? Random Sunwoo Gifs