#jack delroy x fan character

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WOOOO ANGST MOMENT!!!!

My headcanon/self insert lore weaved into the canon events of LNWTD!!

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Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (they/she) is a non-binary girl!

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Proship + adjacent DNI

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Separate post for this because it’s goooood (not to pat myself on the back lol)

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Thinking abt the implications of this lore and how Essie is literally this story’s final girl.

She got out.

Despite her own battle with mental illness and emotional dependency on Jack, an unstable man in his own right, despite the horrifying descent of Jacks’s mental state happening before Essie’s eyes- she got out.

And she does her best to forget. Move on. Live her life to its fullest. And she does. She succeeds. She eventually finds love and a stable, successful career in astrophysics just like she wanted.

But every now and then the memories creep back to the forefront of her mind.

Memories of longing. Longing for the light and joy Jack brought her, even if he didn’t love her the same way she loved him- he was her sun and she was just a planet to him.

Memories of fear. Recalling the horrifying last encounter she’d had with Jack. He’d desperately insisted it wasn’t him- it was some malevolent entity burrowed deep inside him come up to the surface to attack her. “Abraxas”, he’d called it. She didn’t believe him at the time, walking out of the hospital doors and never looking back. But sometimes, just sometimes, she wishes she’d looked back. She wonders if she would have seen Jack in his eyes again- the Jack she knew when they first met.

She knows she would not have.

Still, she wonders.

WOOOO ANGST MOMENT!!!!

My headcanon/self insert lore weaved into the canon events of LNWTD!!

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Esther ‘Essie’ Watkins (they/she) is a non-binary girl!

———

Proship + adjacent DNI