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[iwritewhateveriwant]

dan sesungguhnya aku tak lebih

dari hanya sekadar pelampiasanmu

atas kesepian yang tak mampu kau atasi

atau gundah yang tak kunjung berlalu

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And this is how the semester ended. And yes these were class notes #iwritewhateveriwant (at Seoul, South Korea)

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BestFriend..

Gusto kong magkaron ng ganyan. Noon pa siguro. Gusto ko kasing maramdaman na meron akong malalapitan sa oras na wala akong matakbuhan, sa oras na parang wala kang kakampi, sa oras na walang nakikinig sayo, sa oras na masayang masaya ka, sa oras na kinikilig ka dahil nakita mo ung crush mo, sa oras na alam mong palagi kang may karamay sa saya at lungkot.

Ang saya siguro ng may ganyan. Naalala ko lang nagkaroon ako ng BestFriend noong bata pa ako mga Elementary pero parang joke joke lang. Ahahah! Pero after nun wala ng sumunod kahit isa. Hmmmmmm. Wala ba akong potential maging BestFriend? LOL! :)). Ang saya kaya pag may napagkukwentuhan ka. Meron naman akong mga kaibigan na napagkukwentuhan kaso nga lang pag nagkwento ka sa isa dapat sa iba din makwento mo dahil magagalit or magtatampo sila. Ahahah! Gusto ko lang nung may mga bagay na kaming dalawa lang ung may alam ung parang ganun. Ahaah! :))

Ang hirap pala makahanap ng ganyan no. Lalo na kapag parang magtatanong ka ng "Ui pede ka bang maging BestFriend?" hahaha! Alam naman nating lahat na ayaw natin ng REJECTION. Syempre parang mahihiya naman ung taong pinagtanungan mo kapag ni-reject mo sya kaya parang mag-Oo nalang sya dba? :))

Hahaha! Siguro hindi lang talaga ako makahanap kasi madami akong kaibigan. Ganun ba un? LOL! Ang hirap lang. Ahahah!

<LOL! Ang drama mo. Ikain mo nalang yan gutom ka na eh>

[Naiisip ko wala naman akong BestFriend gumawa nalang ako ng another blog then dun ko ikukwento lahat. Wahahah :P]

[iwritewhateveriwant]

it was not the presence that you crave for. it was the absence that you fear the most.

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sometimes people come into your life to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave

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do you know how bad it feels to wake up in the morning with something you wanted to forget last night?

—iwritewhateveriwant

[iwritewhateveriwant]

kita tak serupa, namun tak juga jauh berbeda. sama-sama pengkhianat. kamu mengkhianati hubungan ini. dan aku mengkhianati diriku sendiri.

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[iwritewhateveriwant]

cahaya bulan tak lagi perak. kilauannya tenggelam bersama kepergianmu.

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[iwritewhateveriwant]

laki-laki paruh baya itu heran. apa yang membungkam anak gadisnya. ia lupa kapan dara manisnya menyentuh makanan terakhir kalinya. ia tak tahu pula apa yang begitu keras memukul darah dagingnya. tatapan lirihnya; letihnya... terpaku. cahaya buah hatinya redup. mati jauh hari.

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yang telah tiada, namun realitanya dibutakan.

sendirian, ia mengorek masa lalu. berteman debu, tak kunjung ia temukan.

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[iwritewhateveriwant]

perempuan itu tahu benar ia sakit. terengahpun ia masih tersenyum. pernah kau dengar sengau nafasnya? ia berteriak minta tolong, sesungguhnya. hanya aku terpana, teriakannya teredam deretan gigi yang membingkai senyumnya. ia tak roboh, meski telah hancur.

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[iwritewhateveriwant]

aku tahu benar bahwa jalang tak pantas digenggam tangannya, atau dibasahi oleh cinta. tak usah menggurui, sungguh benar aku sadar diri.

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3:19 AM Thoughts

we were almost good for each other. our parents, are connected coincidentally. our families, connected biologically. our friends, shared the same things amazingly. i wonder why we stopped before it reaches day 365. we did not share the same feelings. our blood are the same, but it doesn't work for our soul. i am too ugly, in looks. he is the otherwise, incredibly perfect. eight months we keep holding hands. separate by distance, we are looking at the same sky. not believing in God, but we still have faith in love. he is my sibling. he and i, share the similar dna. people said we were twins; a perfect match. we forgot, a perfect match meant to burn each other. we burnt it out till we turned into ashes, fading away.he gone by the wind, i ended up in darkness- making friends with insecurities and depression. i tried to stitch the wounds, pulling up the broken pieces that left. while he was busy putting them away. i screamed for his name, as he walked away through the door. i thought we were meant to be together... but again, i was wrong.

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he wanted me to be a doctor. i wanted him to be my husband. God wanted us to break up.

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we were lovers. now we can't be friends.

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[iwritewhateveriwant]

dapatkah sejenak kau hilangkan ambisimu?

lihatlah peluhku.

tengoklah hatiku.

masih aku bertahan.

walau aku paksakan.

sampai batas waktu keadilan datang.

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