#ive had such a stressful day cause I completely forgot im scheduled for work today lmao

[littlcdarlin]

Hey I loved this fic (Event Horizon) and i want to read more of it!!! I don’t know if you are gonna make it a serie but it would be great to see more of them 🫶🏻❤️🫶🏻❤️🫶🏻

Oh you’re just the sweetest, thank you so much 🩵 I wasn’t planning on continuing it but everybody is showing it so much love, so I might write a second part in which reader’s parents find out about them or something. So glad you liked the fic 🥹❣️

[beyondthebarricadephotos]

Sup,

I am wholly convinced square1 doesn't exsist. Ive been trying to figure out all day to word this stuff. A lot's happened the last week- week and a half. Uh, first and foremost, i went back to the GI doctor. They weren't sure if my ulcers were agitated again or if my pancreatitis had flated back up causing the other problems so they decided to do a shit ton of blood work and a CT AND schedule a Colonoscopy. CT went fine also got a call telling me im anemic now (weeeee) so they decided to go ahead and just do both an upper and a lower GI Found out that APPARENTLY you're anxiety can stress your pets out to the point they make themselves sick. No joke, anemia has always been a fear of mine and hearing that sent my mind spiraling. And to make things even better it stressed my cat to the point HE became completely impacted. Im genuinely not exaggerating when i say i thought he was dying on me on Sunday he got that bad between being flushed out and refusing to eat or drink anything. Had the upper and lower yesterday. Essentially my colon is fine, my ulcers are still good, small hernia still there, and my pancreas is a-okay. Cat had to go back to the vet today because he still wouldn't eat, found out he fell into ileus (basically his intestines forgot how to function) but its easily treatable and honestly he looks so much better than he did Sunday which has been a huge help since he's practically a therapy cat for me. As for everything else; we did find that my stomach was quite irritated and has been for a while it seems(don't know why though) but im not bleeding internally so we still don't know where the anemia is stemming from. So still kind of sitting here at square 1 although we have ruled out a lot of whats NOT wrong with me so that's pretty decent progression and they're also referring me to a hematologist since its not an internal gut problem as well as testing for H. Pilori and Celiac. As for how im handling all of this: well i had two panic attacks within 3hrs of each other today if that tells you anything. Other than that honestly at this point I feel like im trapped inside a sound dampening box where i can SEE everything happening around me but its not even going in one ear and out the other, it's just flat out not registering anymore. Kind of like being cemented in place but still having a plexiglass window in front of you where you can see your dreams just sitting there waiting and being helpless to reach out to them. I honestly don't know when I'll have more to update since we're waiting on a lot of test results but yeah, its been a funnnnnn two weeks over here im just gonna keep moving forward as best i can considering i cant do much else🤷🏼‍♀️