#ive berated myself incessantly this past year for my mistakes

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my work is not ai. nor is it stolen or copied.

you can very clearly see my brush strokes and even my line art shows through my pieces. starting recently i have begun providing recordings of my progress. i have been more proactive with providing references where notable. i have consulted with various artists through the years. i know i do not do anything other artists don’t and this is more than what most artists offer regularly.

i have felt the impacts of these repeated allegations on the engagement of my works. i feel defeated knowing there are people who without considering the sources blindly believe accusations. i feel defeated knowing it does not matter how hard i work on my pieces, it does not change things. it has become difficult for me to draw recently without getting extremely upset. it has been difficult for me to speak up without being struck down, in bad faith.

it is incredibly unfair that i must continue to put up with this while witnessing how the internet has been embracing other artists who were caught copying or are secretly using ai in their process.

i am angry. i blame this wholly on nk: unlimitedhollow. when you spread those lies on twtter based on scarce speculative evidence, when you deliberately misquoted me and ignored my evidence of accountability, you were actively trashing someones hobby and joy in bad faith. i believe you must have personal issues to resolve. but your choice to then take it out on me and warp the reality of the situation to paint me in such a negative light was wrong. to crawl into my messages asking to talk and then not follow up was pathetic.