#ive been thinking about the things i like about shuake and akechi more lately

[dreamsy990]

not to get all analytical about a ship that is at the end of the day the consequences of our desire for toxic yaoi but i think the reason shuake works so well (even in a platonic context) is that it just. works well with the themes of the game. like in a game about defying authority and ideas of predestination ofc the idea of the "fated rivals" deciding to be anything else is good. its a strong thematic choice! enemies by fate and friends by choice is actually a very good dynamic in that context i think. anyways thats it just saying things

[x1e3ju]

hi friends^_^ this app has embarrassed me 2 times today i hate my life

drinking my appy juice...... sigh.... ok so life update im blonde now and drawing traditionally again! .. exciting ! oh what a year this will be what a year indeed but i still have so many shuake bungles all up in my head and i was rly thinking abt their transness and stuff as of late i finally re-did my pinterest and made it based on headcanoned character aesthetics and UGH goro akechi the beautiful transfemme u are so ive been thinking abt that a lot recently ALSO i watched mean girls ! what fun, i LOVED the movie the musical... not so much but i saw regina and js the main trio and was like !!!! akechi would love this... like in secret lol so ill be using that and specifically regina and cady as reference?? eherh lol

i love thinking abt his transness bc i didnt rly have like a set line-of-thought on what i was thinking at the time like last yr when i got more seriously into shuake and js the game in general but ive cleared my head on them a lot more now, i think watching mean girls and just being thrown back into that "girly pink" aesthetic of the early 00s its like making that pinterest board and thinking about all that encompassed the "girly" aesthetic in 2014 and the time in which akechi wouldve grown up in and all the standards that come with it, its interesting to place him into that and just think about it. its like with akira too, its interesting to imagine what they wouldve imagined as their "ideal versions" of themselves like what is prime masculinity and femininity to them, if that makes any sense. i envision and feel like what fits with akechi's character the most in terms of how he would express his transfemininity would be like that 2014 tumblr girly aesthetic and im rly horrible at describing things so lemme attach some pictures :0

ok so i did a general overview video of it instead lol and i hope i didnt add anything that could potentially trigger anyone i tried to add some not-so-nice things (lmao) to the board bc i wanted the boards to be as cringe and realistic as possible lmao (i emphasized that especially with sumire ToT) again, i think its rly interesting to see these aesthetics like how they wouldve seen it or how they wouldve wanted and envisioned for themselves. i dont think akechi wouldve been open to this with anyone at all, he definitely wouldve had like an anon tumblr page and only wouldve logged on on super extra not busy days and it wouldve felt almost like a guilty pleasure for him, like being super embarrassed and always freaking out thinking someone was watching him lol ToT and i think even with anything and everything, the things he wouldve seen online that he wanted to be.. very badly still wouldve been reflected in the way he dressed and presented himself and i think sae and everyone else wouldve gave him weird looks for it definitely wfhufew its like for example i like to draw his little brown suit thingy with little flaps and i think he wouldve done that himself to give a more "flattering" feminine look to it, thinking he was being subtle abt it even tho... it definitely gives the look lol ToT and just so many things, i think his internalized transphobia would even affect his connection with akira too and just like even the way he interacts with others and himself and not in the usual way if that makes sense.

its like how i mentioned earlier, i watched mean girls and i saw regina and was like omg akechi would DIE for her but at the same time, i dont think he would like her as a character at all ToT he's very much the cady to me like that scene where cady was like "i didnt do anything wahh!!!" reminds me sm of him and how he was and i think so much of his personality wouldve been affected by that as i stated before due to the way femininity is perceived by like, everyone and everything ever omg. like he would definitely have that view that femininity is almost like oversexualization especially since they wouldve grown up at a time where the whole girlboss troupe in media was making its debut but at the same time, he'd have this burning passion for how "girls can be strong too!!!" its kinda like all those skit videos ppl would make where the parents are like "why are u defending gay ppl sm" like hopefully that makes sense lol but i think thats how itd feel to him and ultimately it'd just lead to him closely it off completely from himself. like for example, he'd see how free akira is to express himself in like all ways and be like "wow.. so uncivilized" lol even though canonly he envies him for being so much free about things and not constantly holding himself back like akechi did. ofc not in the trans aspect but u get the point lol so again, he would kind of be like the cady. cady was so scared of becoming like regina and she tried so hard, literally became a pick me and in the end, she was just like what she feared? same thing with akechi but reverse. he wouldnt stand with regina's character and motives/morals at all but would ADORE the way the plastics like dress and all that, especially with how much the actors SERVED in mean girls, the confidence is certainly admirable but would get embarrassed aside from being a man who expresses femininely and thats already an automatic no from society it also is viewed that the more feminine a woman is the less they are taken seriously and even from someone who has struggled with that myself, he would alr be like against being more feminine thinking that those thoughts he has are js negative or intrusive when in reality those things are FAR from synonymous

ok i feel like im repeating myself here and i had rly good points to bring up when i thought of this the other day but i hope yall understand what i mean!! this is such an important topic to me cuz i fucking LOVE trans ppl and always will and i LOVE transfemme characters and just dealing with that storyline, although im not femme presenting myself necessarily by choice but i love it sm and diving deeper into it is so fun to me and very healing, especially for my little girl lol. i think it fits rly well with his character and it js automatically made sense to me even if most ppl see that as "dumbing down" a character, i love connecting that to all the other serious bits of his story and i think headcanons as a whole give sm depth to a character and so much personal special love lol

ok i got sick ig and my throat is bothering me SO BAD like if it isnt my head my back ITS SOMETHING ITS ALWAYS SOMETHING maybe some other time ill get into akira and naoto and their transmascness like i had hoped but i think the world is telling me to hit the hay :'( ugh i hate my life... god bless u t4t shuake erbheu

[x1e3ju]

its that time of the night again.

its 4 am, the eepiness is calling me but the voices are louder so ive come on here to rant abt shuake instead of doing smth productive like drawing❤️ i waste away ranting abt shuake on tumblr to drown out my sadness and overwhelming nostalgia at random times of the day, how wonderful!

i did one of those song association annotation thingies to capable of love by pinkpantheress (she’s so queen may i add) and it got me thinking so much about shuake and just as of late ive been thinking of them bc schl is ending so i finally have time to replay and play the games like p3 or tactica and q1/2 and be able to focus my time on them and also bc im seeing a psychiatrist very soon from now! which makes me think abt shuake a lot bc they are like. HUGE projection dolls for me and i think on that.. quite often especially akechi since he’s the main one for me, the one more personal to me. i think abt his bpd and mentally unwell brain quite often (lol) and i think the way their love is is just very fascinating to me.

i guess its nice or interesting i guess, to see the way i feel and view love be shown in a character so out of the blue. the way akechi’s love is for akira can be viewed this way and again, i think it’s all very interesting. i love shuake so much for this reason and what i wanted to talk about mostly today is how much they truly mean to each other. This is one thing i hate ppl in fandom spaces for bc they always manage to find SOMEWAY to ruin any nuances anything COULDVE had (ik atlus did not try past queerbaiting lmfao) and i hate how to anyone else not apart of these spaces but aware of them just sees anyone talking abt a ship and specifically any popular gay ship and is so quick to assume like wait i actually care lol 😭 and i bring this up bc i really love to view their characters like akira and akechi’s characters individually through the shuake lenses and perspective. tbh i dont really care for persona outside of them and obviously a few other things of course but shuake is the real reason why im even fixated on that game still in the first place so of course, naturally i will focus on this.

i love to think on how akechi subconsciously views akira in his head. i like to interpret akechi as just a nerd girlboy who has a little crush and all the fun cutesy things abt being a teen or whatever 😆 i think that’s all so cute and fun for him and i believe its so him and i love to view him as the teen he is, the child inside of him that’s ridiculous and goes off for hours ranting about his favorite things repeating himself over and over until he tires himself out or the lovey dovey part of him that thinks about akira in random parts of his day and cant stop giggling and smiling at a simple text yk like all the cutie things ☹️ it doesn’t remove nuance and it doesn’t remove character bc thats how teens act, obviously not as stereotypical as i described but that’s how ridiculous we are sometimes! and i love to think on how he views all these big horrible issues in a simple lenses.

doing the song associations with so many taylor songs and then a pink one really reminded me of this bc of the fact that taylor’s (OLD) lyrics are just so serious and more “mature” and i mostly mean folklore and evermore bc im talking abt cardigan specifically rn (that song is just so akechi im sorry) to now doing capable of love bc pink’s lyrics are simple! not bad just obviously more simple so i get to really view akechi in these lenses. I get to have that minute of writer relief even if he isnt my character but yk wtv ig😞 anywhoanywho, again, i love to view akechi in a simple lenses as the simple teen girl he is, its fun and why particularly? bc i personally feel it adds so much more depth to their dynamic. akechi has. ALL these problems going on, akira does too but they still make time for each other and ik i dont focus on akira much (im so fake lmao) but he plays into this just as much! although the council of the world has decided for him he must save it not them, he still makes friends with the enemy and enjoys their time together as if none of that wouldve mattered. he still loves unconditionally like if nobody was going to take that all away from him someday and i think thats so beautiful.

akechi still loves akira so much as if they really were together and akira loves him just the same. akechi is going through all these problems mentally and on the outside but still that child part of that craved love and connection/affection seeps through and overtakes him and his emotions, allowing his crow persona to like be free ig? and of course, that was not the only reason i like to think that it couldve been a part, even a teensy part bc again, they are just kids in love lmfao (so cringe) and yes, it is going to be cringe and a bit ridiculous BUT ITS SO SERIOUS YALL DONT UNDERSTAND

the way im not even done unpacking 25 PERCENT OF THEM YET there’s just so much depth that can be added to their connection, i love them they are so cringe-friendly i hate atlus but god bless shuake frfr 🙏🙏 but i just wanted to highlight this a bit bc i felt like i didnt enough in the insta story and tbh still but yk, to get some of it off my chest. i love gay people i can project on always a great flavor im off to my cave of inner thoughts now hopefully i knock tf out ❤️