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hotsugarbyglassanimals · 4 months ago

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I have this continual fear that if i keep telling people about deadlines i set for myself and failing to deliver that they're going to get increasingly impatient with me and Dislike working with me. this is more specific with the research program im in ftr but like. the worry is that aspect of me will be seen as such a sore point that it will negate all other positive aspects they see in me. and then i get shocked when people verbalize how much they enjoyed working with me or how much they like my work

#i guess what also happens is the fact that my failure to reach deadlines usually has to do with how much effort i put into what i do #usually what people say to this is 'hey don't worry about the quality of it' but like #it's not even about quality its about the fundamentals of the arguments im making #i really cannot tunnel vision about the type of arguments i want to make cause i view them as all being Very Important #like ok i'll worry about word choice and grammar later. thats usually the last thing i think of. and normally thats effortless i suppose #i'll be easy on myself though cause. concerta literally gave me serious brainfog #ive been back on adderall for a bit and my thoughts feel quick and sharp! typing out these tags like this wouldve taken a lot longer before

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