#itz okay if you forget it – becauze ill be the one to remember

[spookythesillyfella]

I just wanted to let you know that no matter how often you vent, rant or talk about anything I think you would possibly be the last person I'd ever get sick of. I mean this with my entire whole heart because I'M SURE you've seen my excessive excessive venting and you never turned me away despite how often I imagined you would have. You're a special and unique person Spooky, There is no one quite like you which is extraordinary not terrible horrible end of the world thing. One of the things I look forward to MOST is logging onto Tumblr to see you talk! Even if it is when you're expressing emotions, I find your presence somehow really peaceful? I think it's just seeing you around that gives me sound mind. I don't want to try to imagine a world where you're not in it and I hated getting attached to anyone but you're such an important person in my life! The younger sibling I wish I could just go take to a trampoline park or something haha I'm unsure what people do for fun. I know these words are repeated things I've said before but I feel like you do so much for me I never know how to say "Thank you" enough. I only hope others see how special you are more often! And stop judging you so harshly! There is nothing wrong with you, Nothing you need to change! Keep being the best you can. If you do need tim away you can always take it but you would be missed 100%!

itz completely fine – az if id know how to thank any of the people who absorb my rantz nd ventz . especially you

i get that attachment thing. i really do ; the thing iz that i know itz so harmful for me in the long run to get attached to people who show me just . a crumb of attention . yet i still do it – it would be so much eazier if you weren't "doll the best person in the world who in my eyez sparklez like the sun and makez fresh flowerz grow on the patchez of grass that they step on" and were instead just "doll the tumblr mutual" but here we are ..

i dunno ; ive wanted to stop talking about all theze stuff for a while . and just when i feel like i might be getting better and ready to move on . therez something that happenz that endz up setting me back further than i waz before – a "take one step forward and get pushed two stepz back" sorta deal

but thank you ; i feel so anxious and . if i can even say . dreadful when i post about my feelingz . so having the confirmation that im not actually bothering anyone iz actually kind of nice

take care . dear <33 don't forget that you're loved and cherished . even if the people who hold thiz admiration for you aren't there physically 💌💌