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lunarflare64 · 1 year ago

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Us: we said we'd take around a month hiatus for major tournament blog plans and we've been mentally viewing the end of that as early October but its been Days we must be like half way through that time oh god oh god we don't feel like we've had a break at all-

The one holding the braincell rn: guys its not even fucking September yet calm your time-blind amnesiac asses down

This shows so fucking much about how we view time and why having distant future plans stresses us out as much as (if not more than) plans that are happening the next day. Its the fucking worst.

#doing our best not to let it get to us #its not so bad with the tournament blog stuff since its extremely flexible and early october is just for PLANS #we wont even be actively doing anything on the blog at that point #still stressful but easier to get over #what REALLY causes problems is rigid plans #like theres a trip in just under three weeks and we've been losing our minds over it #started freaking out at people irl recently and it was a big sign to slam on the breaks and stop thinking #the fact that it can go that far at all is just-#our disabilities can be stressful and inconvenient and generally terrible #but we never genuinely want them gone because we feel like it would erase all the seriousness of the pain we went through #(a dumb mentality to have but nothing we have is curable so whatever)#but this? these time-blind panic attacks over things that are weeks or months away?#yeah we want that gone #its probably the only reason we dont typically make big plans when its an option. which isnt good for us as people

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