#its like anytime im slightly upset bored anxious i smoke and its just becoming a pacifier and i recognize in order to grow i have to stop
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Want to quit smoking weed...
#its just becoming expensive and id like to be able to function without help but i use it to manage anxiety and im just terrified of what ill#go through while trying to quit#its like anytime im slightly upset bored anxious i smoke and its just becoming a pacifier and i recognize in order to grow i have to stop#but im so anxious#but i wanna quit but i want to have that quick calm down but i also dont want to be reliant on it#im terrified im not strong enough and that i wont be able to find different healthier ways to cope with stress#also like im enabled so easily bc my mom never lets me run out so she doesnt have to deal with my shit mood her words#like i realize its as easy as just not letting my mom know ive run out but also it isnt that easy its been 12 hours and im already stressed#i remember i was able to quit cold turkey in highschool bc i couldve been kicked out of my nursing class but i have nothing like that now#my throats always sore from smoking and i hate that my things smell like ash or smoke and thats like one of the only other reasons to quit#it drains energy too lik ill smoke and then just go back ti bed so if i stop ill be able to do more#yeah its helping thinking about things that can improve instead of get worse#im worried my mental health wont improve but its nice to think it might#ill be able to enjoy old hobbies without the need for weed to make it pleasurable hopefully#wondering if people ever regreting clicking the see more thing on the tags bc it goes from a short post to a fuckin book lol#also sensory overload hits like a brick everytime i come down and i dont know if itll stop if i quit and thats terrifying
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