#its hell but also i orefer it to the depression

[pathologising]

what are the mania signs

well for me I feel euphoric, like I can do anything. I get really hyperactive and motivated out of nowhere. I talk really loud and really fast. My thoughts race. I get really impulsive in my spending. I start seeing "signs" from the universe more often (angel numbers in clocks and shit that could be easily explained away if I wasn't manic)

Physically my pupils dilate, I get really fidgety and pace a lot

Me realising I'm manic doesn't snap me out of it, that's not how mania works. But it means from this point onward I can try to be more conscious and present in my actions and how I interact with those around me.