#its crazy cause like yea dark hates himself too n all tht dai was crying about is literally. LITERALLY exactly how he feels ab himself too

[dnangelic]

' it's not . ' immediate , and just as matter-of-fact . his voice nips low , a snarl without any bite . ' ordinary people ... ' and yet , despite the strength of his initial decline , the rest of the words start to feel strange in his mouth . would a thing like him really try to talk about what ordinary lives it hardly should have known ? even his most stubborn ideas about humanity were nothing more than ideals . and yet , he hisses and bares his teeth ; growls out his thoughts from between the long , razor points anyways . ' ordinary people are always allowed something beyond just that . what is it you're so afraid of ? ' the slit pupils of his eyes cinch , each thinning line trying to needle into the other , and yet it wasn't enough ; would never be to slice the master open and place all their parts into vivisection . all he had to work with were ritsuka's words ; vague confessions and self-lashings .

( ... so you're the same , huh . )

' in the first place , it should be enough that you're there . whether it's a servant or even an ordinary human being , there's nothing more precious than anyone's time . second , even if there's a wall , don't you want to try to break it ? to crack and smash it into pieces , just so you can reach person on the other side ? even if you think you have next-to-nothing to give , you can still give it your all for the sake of someone , right ? '

it would have been hypocrisy to call the master a coward , and yet it still might have been a truth . ' --- when i think about her , i want her to trust me . when i call her cute or beautiful , when i call her clever , even for insulting me ... even if she can't believe it about herself , i want her to at last believe me . it's only natural , then , that hearing the opposite would hurt , ' like the ache in his borrowed body , stemming from the heart and bruising him all the way down to the very bone . even this sense of violently being pulped --- was love , too .

' master , we might not be a couple , but we're still friends . if i can make a hole even just the size of my hand in any wall that springs up between us , then that's good enough for me . ' his fist raises and approaches , only to blossom its fingers into an open , waiting palm . ' a box that can't be broken from the inside might still be able to be broken from the outside . if you can find someone to accept things , then there's nothing wrong with living like that ... so believe in me . please . '

an empty thanks would never be enough . ' --- i want to meet you at least halfway . '

ㅤㅤRITSUKA blinked at the accusation, taken aback by how annoyed Dark was by the prospect. He listened to Dark's reprimands with an unreadable expression before a simple smile took his lips in response. " ... When you put it that way, I guess it can be pretty selfish. I mean, it's not like I don't understand where you're coming from; I have been on the same end more times than I can count so I do agree that it's pretty frustrating but ... isn't it normal to feel like you shouldn't be loved by anyone ? " He said it so matter-of-factly to the point it seemed like a given. " Well ... people have varying reasons for feeling this way but it's not as if we don't consider your feelings. It just feels ... unfathomable, I guess ? Like there's some kind of unbreakable glass between the other person and I. At least in my case, I still don't think I have much to offer ... rather, there's nothing that I can give at all. " His gaze momentarily faltered and flicked elsewhere as if he resented that very fact but the moment came and went and he was back to his usual smile ( it was if he hadn't just said anything at all ).

ㅤㅤ" That's the spirit ! If there's anything that I admire about you, it's that you're determined. Or maybe persistent is the right word ? " He laughed. " I really hope things work out for the both of you either way. Even if nothing happens now, you can at least look forward to the time you have with her. " That was the great thing about being in love after all. " H - huh ? Ahaha ... you don't need to go out of your way return the sentiment. I mean, we've been a lot less clumsy about it compared to the start so I think we're finally settling in. Besides, it's pretty embarrassing when you bring it up but ... well ... right. " The brief fluster had come to a wane and there it was again, that same distant expression with a smile still somehow plastered with a smile.

ㅤㅤ" Thanks. "