#its better when i sleep and have more energy to spend on not crying in grief and terror

[bitchimasnake-sss]

sfw alphabet ft. roronoa zoro! (because im down bad for him)

enough horniness, now we shall weep and cry cause of how much we love this moss head 🤭🤭

yes ur honor this is the man im in love with :/

💗affection (how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?):

affection (in it's traditional sense) comes hard to zoro. he doesn't really know how to go about it to be very honest. to him affection is sarcasm and acts of services ("acts of service" include calling you mid in 5 languages (joke), making fun of your exercise form and the way you sometimes drool in your sleep, offering you sake etc.). but as time passes by and you both start getting more comfortable with each other, he gets on board with it. every time you both are spending time alone, he holds onto you one way or the other. don't expect him to call you sugarcakes or something because he won't but he will let you know before drifting off to sleep that you mean the world to him. i dont think hes a huge pda guy but if he's super drunk then he cannot possibly keep his hands off of you, its quite weird for the crew to see him so openly affectionate (cue sanji gagging).

💗best friend:

what would they be like as a best friend? how would the friendship start? he's lowkey the bestest of best friends. he has the energy of "idk what you're doing but ig do it anyways cause i know how to fight" an opinion on everything but he doesn't have the time or energy to say anything (between his sleeping and training). doesn't mean he's any less nonchalant, no, he's just super opinionated for some reason. so, when you're sitting next to him on the deck on those late nights, asking him absurd questions, best believe he will deliver peak (nonchalant) commentary. especially after the two years when he's back from living with perona!!! HE IS A CERTIFIED FASHION KING. "zoro," you nudge him and he hums in response, "i was thinking of getting nami that silver bracelet for her birthday, should i?" "i mean i wouldn't give that debt collecting witch anything but-" he winces lightly when you punch him in the arm, "-but. i think silver will look look washed out against his complexion. gold seems better" "you think?"

💗cuddles (do they like to cuddle? how would they cuddle?):

at the start, he thinks cuddles are lowkey dumb (and like he probably has gone years without them), so, he puts up this weird drama like "uh no i dont wanna do it" ofc he's lying. cause you're so soft and you smell so good and his hands are literally shaking trying not to hold you against him. after a while, he will unironically announce to you that he is the little spoon tonight and you need to suck it up. (lowkey gives the best cuddles because he literally envelopes you whole till you have to physically push him away) he wants to cuddle but you're DYING. YOU JUST KNOW YOU ARE. because this man is a heat radiating hot heating device heater. he is like a portable sauna. he needs to give you some space but he wont.

💗domestic (how are they at cooking and cleaning?):

cooking? cleaning? you should be grateful that he's showering everyday ever since you started dating him. he knows some basic cooking and cleaning skills (cause he did survive on his own for a good few years) but he doesn't know them in a socially acceptable manner. he just caught a fish, burnt it and ate it cause ✨proteins✨ okay? it's not like he does it on purpose, it's just that he's too focused on training and getting better and you have a chef so, he doesn't have to bother too much about it. but if you both were living together, then i think he will obviously learn them cause he doesn't want you to be the only responsible one cleaning after his messes. and he actually has kinda started liking cooking cause it's relaxing (he's also good at chopping up veggies and stuff so you both can cook together). the only part of cooking he hates is when sanji starts giving him tips cause like genuinely, sanji mind your own fucking business okay he'd learn pasta himself. tldr; the first time you teach him these things, he makes a mess and almost burns down your house but afterwards, you can rely on him to get the things done semi-nicely.

💗ending:

if they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it? i think if zoro had to breakup with someone it will probably be over focusing on his dreams of being the best swordsman or if you cheated on him or broke his trust. i don't think he will pursue a relationship with someone if he didn't see it lasting, so, he won't break-up for petty reasons (nor do i think he will ever cheat). i also think he's a practical man. he won't try to sugarcoat or make you false promises. he sure as fuck won't tell you that you both can "still be friends" or some shit (i mean unless you're in the same crew then it kinda goes without saying). he'll probably ask you to come have a chat with him. sit you down and tell you directly and exactly why he is doing it. and he absolutely won't let you have any residual doubts if you "weren't enough" for him or so. just because he has to make this decision doesn't mean he doesn't love or respect you. so, even tho he won't ask you to be friends, if you ever need someone to rely on, he will be there for you. bottom line, he will still be a friend to you (though prepare to ignore each other for a long time after the breakup cause obviously it hurts and you might punch him)

💗fiance(e):

how do they feel about commitment? seeing as his character is super ride or die, he definitely doesn't have a problem recognizing how much you mean to him. but he is pretty emotionally constipated, so, he will take an eternity to actually accept how much you mean to him in a non-friendly manner. how quick would they want to get married? settling down??? no. he's not settling down. not until he's the best swordsman atleast. marriage is lowkey scary to him cause he didn't grow up with healthily functioning relationships to look upto but once he started dating you, he could see it potentially being a "forever" sort of a thing. he's probably not gonna say that out loud tho, thats a topic reserved only for wayward day-dreams or super drunken nights. so, as for the marriage thing he'd want to take his time. he would probably choose to achieve his own goals (and support you to reach yours) and then, think about settling down.

💗gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?):

physically: zoro is acutely aware of his super-human strength but it still comes as a shocker to him to see how fragile, almost dainty you are in compare to him. simple things like comparing hand sizes or how large his t-shirt looks on you when you wear it to sleep genuinely leave him awestruck (and slightly lovesick). so, he makes it his number one priority to always be gentle to you, as if he's scared that you're on the cusp of breaking. and he treats you as such always. (unless you ask with tear-lidden eyes and trembling lips how badly you want him to demolish you because then, maybe he is ready to comply) emotionally: like almost everything else, gentle words come hard to him at the start. all he has known is tough love. so, understanding that making fun of you when you're having your weekly breakdown was the wrong choice took him a while. he's not like emotionally stunted but he still doesn't trust his choice of words to comfort you. rather, he lets the way he holds you against him and pets your head when you sob against his chest do the talking. but if you go out of your way to teach him what he should probably say when you're sad then he might have some luck with it. until then, enjoy the cuddles.

💗hugs:

do they like hugs? after starting to date you, this man realized he loves hugs. and he loves giving hugs. but he's incredibly selective and thus far the only two (2) candidates have been allowed to pass through his tedious selection process. that being you and chopper (both of you are in a binding contract so you cant tell anyone about it either). well, luffy too if you count how clingy he can get 👍🏼 how often do they do it? he does hug you atleast once a day even if it as subtle as holding you from the back, resting his head on your shoulder. what are their hugs like? his hugs are genuinely bear hugs. okay. like he will engulf you and you will stand back and allow it to happen. he doesn't really hold on too long tho, so usually you gotta pull him back towards yourself and hug him tighter when you want it to last longer. pulling him towards yourself usually ends with him smiling and pressing a chaste kiss on your temple as his hands snake around you yet again.

💗"I love you" (how fast do they say the L-word?):

i think he says it fairly sooner than you anticipate. like however long you think he will take, it takes significantly lesser time. this is because (as i said), he probably spent a long time in denial and then in pining, so, naturally by the time you got together, he was sure of his feelings for you. anyways, one of my first fics on this blog was of how zoro probably said "i love you" to you when he was drunk and forgot about it when he woke up the next day. i still stand by that. i think it was a genuine, drunken confession but when you shyly confronted him about it, he just replied, "yeah, i meant that. i love you." his words were nonchalant but you could notice the dusted pink of his cheeks when he admits it and then his unsure gaze as he looks over your face and then the ground. (truth is, he only acted nonchalant. internally he is ready to jump off the ship incase you didn't say it back. thank god you said it back.)

💗jealousy (how jealous do they get? what do they do when they’re jealous?):

omg this man is simultaneously the most secure and the most jealous whore in this world. does he know you're not gonna cheat on him and ignore practically any man throwing himself on you? yeah, he knows that. but does he also want to cut off all those guys' heads if they even look at you? kinda, yes. i think he gets really shy to admit he's jealous. like he'd blame his irritable temper on the weather or the fact that he got less sleep last night. but you did notice how he clenched his jaw when a random guy in the market had been ogling you. and so, you tease him relentlessly. "zoro," you laugh, poking him in the chest accusingly, "are you sure? i think there might be something else going on" "like what?" he huffs, "i just got less sleep last night." "babe are you like jealous?" "no-" "you totally are" "stop saying that" "jealoussss" as to how does he deal with it? he fucks you. quick 'n easy. (im so sorry if youre a minor and reading this, in that case he pillow fights you to death.)

💗kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?):

what are their kisses like: after a long day, he always unwinds with you. so, his kisses are usually slow. he relishes in the way your lips feels against his, the way your cheeks feel like under his palm and the way you smile at him when you pull away. there's no haste because he has you right there and you both know you're not going anywhere. but on those nights he's pent up, anger and frustration strewn across his veins, he chooses to kiss you till he forgets just what he was angry about. his kiss-bitten lips are hot against yours, his hand roughly kneading your waist as he pours his anger into your desperate kisses. where does he like to kiss you: in public, his favourite spots are definitely your cheek or your temple as they are relatively tame pda tactics but still gets the point across. he gets to show his affection towards you without making a huge show for it. he also loves kissing on your shoulder as he rests his head on your shoulder and holds onto you. he can feel your pulse under his dull, soft kisses and heard your breathy hums and moans.

💗ittle ones (how are they around children?):

well, i hate kids. so, im gonna be biased. okay i don't hate kids but i hate toddlers. fucking devil spawns. i truly believe they will sacrifice us all for the beginning of the dark ages. anyways, zoro's not great with kids in theory. but somehow, when he interacts with kids he does end up somehow being a good (annoyed) dad figure (remember when he fathered three kids? cause i do)

💗mornings (how are mornings spent with them?):

morning with this green-haired ass start with you pushing his heavy arm off of you. you mumble that you're hot, trying to turn away from him and into the cool sheet. but it's no use because he just traps you against him yet again. zoro definitely doesn't give morning person vibes so i believe you are up before he is. you run you fingers softly against his scalp, bringing down your drumming fingers to his bare shoulders. you press an innocent kiss to his forehead and smile when he leans into your faint touches. when he finally wakes up, he looks up at you through sleepy eyes. he greets you with a tired "morning" before closing his eyes and draping himself you again. "zoro" you whisper half-heartedly, "everyone else is up, come on, we should get up too" he mumbles into your skin, "they weren't the ones keeping a watch last night, were they? come on, 10 more mins." "zo-" "please" he looks up at you, flashing you a soft smile, "10 mins." "10 mins only, okay? then we get up" (well, 10? more like 2 mins. luffy started yelling about breakfast and tried to eat before the food was served. and so, sanji (naturally) kicked him to near-death, so, you both had to wake up)

💗night (how are nights spent with them?):

walking out of the shower, you dry yourself off before cladding yourself in your pajamas. your limbs feel tired, body devoid of any and all energy as you climb into your bed to relax. sometimes you read, other times you just stare at the ceilings and think about stuff (we've all been there). zoro usually slips into the room silently, closing the door behind him. he plops down next to you and you curl up against him. sometimes, you both exchange small talk, if something fun happened while the other person wasn't around or gossip you heard from nami and ussop. but most days, you both simply enjoy the silence in each other's company till you're ready to fall asleep. every once in a while, he slips into the shower with you. (keeping this kids friendly) he gently washes your scalp and you rest your bare back against his chest as you ease yourself into the warm water. you return the favor by giving him a back massage. after this youre both so tired that you immediately pass the fuck out.

💗open:

when would they start revealing things about themselves: i feel like he'd know a lot about you before you find out anything important about him. he wears his loyalty and his dreams on his arms, but you don't find out why his dreams are so important or why he is so fidgety around tashigi until you're a good few days into dating. other small things about him are revealed to you thru his actions as he never mentions them, so, be prepared to be a persistent observer. do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly: he always reveals himself in little ways, never revealing too much. not because he doesn't trust you but because he's never had to talk about anything like this out loud. but anytime he does end up telling you something, it ends up being a heart to heart conversation. also, since he does get very drunk very often canonically, i don't think he's the type to slip up and tell things only cause he's not in the right headspace. so i imagine he only tells you things sober and in solitude, further cementing his trust in you.

💗patience (how easily angered are they?):

in moments of actual anger, as a swordsman, zoro is pretty good while handling his emotions. he knows how to differentiate between irrational feelings and actual solutions needed to get to the bottom of something. so, even when he gets mad he wouldn't necessarily act on it unless and until it is truly something that makes him tick. and things that make him tick includes people talking/doing something wrong to you or anyone in the crew, in that case he's going god mode. that being said, he will get easily irritated if someone is just joking around in the crew (especially sanji). he's incredibly patient with you tho, so, don't even worry about it and just accept him dumb antics for what they are.

💗quizzes:

 how much would they remember about you? i see yall sleeping on my man and i hate it. yes, hes kind of an idiot and not the best with memory but if it's anything about you or your relationship?? best believe he knows everything like the back of his hand. but he only claims that kind of power when it comes to you cause he will not really bother to remember other stuff if its not important. do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything? even though he wouldn't outright keep saying he remembers, he will often mention it in passing. like if you bring up someone while recounting a story to him, he will probably remember the last time you mentioned that guy. that being said, his memory is still kinda ass. so, he sometimes mixes things up if they aren't that relevant to the plot. so forgive him okay? hes trying

💗remember:

 what is their favorite moment in your relationship? i def feel like zoro prefers the mundane moments with you over any extravagant things. living on sea is insane, it's one thing after the other so knowing he has you to himself even for a few hours and in those hours, he gets to do nothing but love you truly means a lot to him. he isn't a cook by any means but this one time, when the rest of the crew had gotten off at a new island to restock and had only left you and him to keep guard, you had suggested you wanted to bake a cake. "i don't know how to cook" he mumbled softly, trying to convince you otherwise, "i can only do some cutting, slashing yk" "you dont even have to do anything!! just sit there and look pretty, i can do the baking." he eventually caved in. but now the memory of you making batter while he sat on the counter, talking to you is etched onto his every nerve. there had been a little bit of flour on your eyebrow and he used his thumb to clean it away before pulling you towards him and kissing you hard. you looked up at him, "i love you" "i love you too"

💗security:

how protective are they? i feel like zoro isn't as territorially protective as one would assume. like i said in the best friend section, he is more a laid-back "i know how to kill and get rid of the body, do whatever you want" kind of a vibe. that doesn't mean that he isn't gonna be on the verge of pulling out his swords the second someone even utters a word against you (but usually his dirty looks get the job done before he even pulls out the swords) how would they protect you? slash slash, stab stab and cocky remarks at the opponent (sometimes pure, unfiltered rage) how would they like to be protected? he's the roronoa zoro, he doesn't need physical protection. that being said, he wouldn't admit it out loud but just because he doesn't need you to pull out a gun to save him doesn't mean it doesn't give him pesky, little butterflies in his stomach whenever you defend him with your words. even if its something as small as calling out someone else's jokes that were targeted at him (and were just straight up offensive). or getting into actual verbal altercations (it happened once when you were drunk)

💗try: 

how much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks? not a lot, tbh. look hes tired, you're tired, just cuddle and sleep okay? that being said he does put decent amount of efforts to surprise you every once in a while. he doesn't put on an extravagant show, so, mostly his surprises are just kinda lowkey and sweet. so on your anniversary, maybe he'd finally get the stick out of his ass and accept nami's idea of booking you a table somewhere expensive. but the memorable part isn't that, the memorable part is him asking (almost) shyly if you just wanna walk around town after dinner while he holds your hand and you bitch about your crew (in a loving manner).

💗ugly:

what would be some bad habits of theirs? omg obviously the drinking!!! i know he has high tolerance and shit but bro your liver's practically CRYING RN. please introduce yourself to some healthier coping mechanisms other than drinking and going stabby-stab. i also do think he's egoistic (it lessens with time) but its still a pain in the start

��vanity:

 how concerned are they with their looks? this man does not give two fucks about his looks, like legit couldn't care less. he does know he looks decent tho (i mean casting mackenyu was a choice, i see you oda sensei). but ever since dating you, he has been putting in little efforts. i think partially cause you bully him into having a skincare routine and showering daily and partially cause he just wants to be a pretty boyfriend to his favourite girl.

💗whole: 

would they feel incomplete without you? yes and no. this is conflicting cause on one hand, ofcourse your absence will be equivalent to having daggers through his heart. but also, he seems like the guy who hyper-focuses on themselves after a breakup. i don't think he'd feel "incomplete" without you if you both ever broke up cause however dumb he is, he knows sometimes things don't work out and that's that. besides, even if you have to go, he still have people (the crew) to love and care for. but he would feel that glaring absence and it'll take a way heavier toll than anyone anticipated (cue him blasting heavy metal in his room and face-timing perona drunk and (almost) crying. perona suggested she takes care of you which made him actually cry cause perona dont be fucking mean)

💗xtra (a random headcanon for them):

zoro is so good at doing eye makeup specifically. i mean like because of all the sword-training and all, he has really good hand-eye coordination and very precise movements. so, like if you asked him to do your liner and give him specific-ish directions for how you want him to do it, he will 100% ace it. he doesn't really do well in other departments but he can learn (if you can make him learn thru that attitude of his) also, i theorize that he's ticklish but in the randomest fucking places. one time you lovingly ran your hand through his hair, bringing it playfully down to his nape and he fuckING GIGGLED?? another time you offered him a leg-massage cause he seemed to have pulled a muscle and you were working on his calf, trying to help him out and he yelped cause it tickled???? hello what do we do with this info now?

💗yuck:

what are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner? he wouldn't like judgmental people or people who are very uptight (cause although his jokes could be hit/miss, he doesn't wanna hear a fucking lecture). also dont be disrespectful to him/his friends. and also, i think he would have a thing against people who are too nosy (pre-dating mostly), like if he wanted to tell you something he would other than those basic things, he's chill.

💗zzz:

he's asleep before you can say "good night" because he's a simple man who needs to sleep 10 hours a day (minimum) see he isn't going off ruining lives, he's not fucking things up for someone else, he's just taking a nap. its like the least horrible thing he can do, let him nap. i do think he should get checked for some vitamin deficiency tho caue uh, just in case. that being said, you go to sleep now. i would too. goodnight!

a/n: loved making this so much that i might make one for literally every character ever once i get the time lol

[miaoua3]

My Home

Pairing: dino x gn!reader

Genre: fluff, just…fluff

Description: dino has a very hard day. dino’s day gets considerably better because of you. dino is in love with you.

Note: I LOVE DINO SM I WANT TO CRY PLS GOD TAKE ALL OF HIS SUFFERING AND GIVE IT TO THE TOXIC KPOP STANS PLS

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you have come to the point in your relationship where you knew how dino felt simply by how his presence felt.

so last night when he came back home and you could barely feel him (as well as hear him because he was just so quiet), you immediately knew that the love of your life was exhausted.

when he came in through the door, he only greeted you with a little, raspy “hello” instead of something cute and flirty like “good evening my beautiful lady” like he usually does. not only that, but during dinner you noticed that he barely talked, mostly just humming or saying filler words like “oh really?”.

if all those things weren’t enough for you to see how tired he was, the dark circles under his eyes certainly were.

that’s why after he took a quick shower, you immediately took you both to your bedroom to sleep, pulling him in your arms so his head was resting on your chest and scratching his head just the way you knew he loved whenever you did it.

the poor boy fell asleep in the matter of minutes, squeezing you to death, almost as if he was seeking your comfort for him to be able to float away and into the dreamland.

you didn’t feel offended by his behaviour, or as some might interpret it, ignorance, but rather you felt your heart break for your boyfriend. even after the most tiring days he usually still had enough energy to spend a little quality time with you. so you knew that he must’ve been beyond his limit and that he was deadly exhausted.

which proved to be right when even after 11 hours he still hasn’t woken up yet.

knowing he will wake up sooner or later, you decided to make him breakfast, just something simple that won’t overwhelm him.

and like clockwork, the door of your bedroom opens and in comes your boyfriend, shirtless and with puffy eyes, blindly and directly going towards you.

“good morning baby”, you wish him just as he reaches you. your boyfriend just grunts in response as he wraps his arms around your waist from behind, rubbing his face against your shoulder.

the difference in the grunts he was letting out as a response yesterday and the one he just let out isn’t all that big, but still you can tell how much better he’s feeling. it’s actually because his presence feels lighter today-more at peace.

chan just continues to hug you and rub his face against your shoulder, making you smile gently.

“slept well?”, you ask him gently. your boyfriend-expectedly- just grunts in response, making you chuckle lightly.

he, in response, kisses your cheek sweetly, mumbling ‘i love you’ with his lips still pressed against your skin.

deciding to give your boyfriend your full attention, you turn in his arms, your own automatically wrapping themselves around his neck, fingers playing with the back of his hair, a few weeks of growth being noticeable due to its length.

dino, bless his heart, can barely see you with his puffy eyes, just slowly blinking at you. not being able to resist his cuteness, you lean in and leave a gentle peck on his lips, your hands sliding down to rest on his bare shoulders.

your boyfriend hums deeply in response, unconsciously pulling you closer. after a second, your lips naturally fall apart.

chan blinks his eyes open, your beautiful face being the first thing his sight falls onto, and it overwhelms him a little bit.

knowing that he has somebody to come home to, but not only that, a somebody who he can come home to and be in a bad mood without them taking it personally and starting a fight about it, but instead taking care of him with such gentleness…it makes his body feel like it’s brimming with love, almost overflowing. sometimes it got so overwhelmingly big that he didn’t know what to do with it, a sense of panic washing over him.

like right now.

“i’m sorry if i was in a weird mood yesterday. it’s just that practice was a lot, and the tour is nearing with everyday, everyone was feeling irritated and so we all fought a lot, hoshi-hyung had a scream-off match with coups-hyung and it was all just-“.

before he can continue, you just put your finger on his lips to shut him up.

“do you feel better now?”, is the only thing you ask him in return.

chan, confused, just nods his head in response.

it seems like that’s all the confirmation you needed because you smile gently at him, leaning in to peck his lips again.

“then that’s all i need to know”, you finish.

and dino isn’t sure where the words come from, nor when the thought itself appeared in his mind, but all he responds with is.

“marry me. like, for real. be mine. and let me be yours. forever.”

to say that his words got you shocked is an understatement. but no matter how shocked you felt, answering a question of his never felt as easy as answering this one.

“of course i will.”

it didn’t matter that he didn’t have a ring (or a shirt for that matter), or that it was unplanned and that it was just you two present for it.

it all felt perfect to you.

it felt like home.

[blueberry-pride]

DIASOMNIA PLAYLIST SCREEN

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Berry: JUST IN TIME FOR THE RELEASE OF MALLEUS' GROOVY SO NOW ALL 22 BOIS ARE COMPLETE legit crying tears of joy right now

Malleus Draconia "There will come a ruler, Whose brow is laid in thorn." -To be honest, I do see this song fitting both Malleus AND Lilia but ultimately chose Malleus upon thinking about it more. I consider him all three, soldier; because he has to train to be a fighter and to be an adept wizard longer than anyone has to. Poet; has an exceptional vocabulary and is in tuned with his creative side. And finally, ruler; bearing the huge responsibility of his kingdom, his parents' legacy at such a young age.

Lilia Vanrouge "I'll carry you home. No, you're not, alone. Keep marching on." -I really liked this song before going into TWST so it was quite nostalgic while listening to this song. I thought this would definitely fit Lilia, a Fae who showcases his genuine side. He looks after others and tries his best to raise Silver, Sebek and Malleus in a way that would make them better and stronger people.

Silver "When you get older your wild heart will live for younger days Think of me if ever you're afraid." -This is sort of a connection to Lilia's song. Silver wanted to live out his life to the best of his abilities all from his father's words. He trusts Lilia's experiences so even though he has his sleeping habits, he wants to spend it as much as possible with Lilia along with his friends when they all still have the time and energy to do so.

Sebek Zigvolt "If you can't fly, run. Today we will survive." - Sebek is ride or die especially about to Malleus. He sticks to his beliefs and is stubborn at it too. He doesn't give up or give in, this half-fae will find ways in order to achieve his goal. He's the shield of Diasomnia, strong and dutiful to its king.

[multifandomer537]

TW: ME WHINING AGAIN BUT I'LL BE FINE BY MORNING AGAIN, DW

I wish I wouldnt feel responsible for other peoples happiness. I wish I didnt feel obligated to always text back last so the person doesnt feel like Im ignoring their last message. I wish my anxiety wouldnt bully me before going to sleep, but for some reason I wish it would at least ct like normal axiety where it terrorises me even after I lay in bed and not only until that point so I would at least feel like its a normal kind of anxiety. I wish my stomach didnt drop everytime my phone buzzes, and I wish it wouldnt twist up when its a notification from Whatsapp and Tumblr. I wish I wouldnt feel guilty telling people if its not the best time for them to vent right now. I wish my neighbours kid would stop holding a grudge over a pencil from six years ago. I wish I wouldnt be so scared of coming back to school after this break. I wish I wasnt on the verge of tears everytime I stay up late like this (crying right now and have been for the past hour). I wish I wouldnt feel so weird when venting. I wish I wouldnt feel guilty about venting. I wish I had someone I can vent to without my brain making me feel guilty about it. I wish I wasnt so afraid for everyone at all times. I wish listening to other people venting wouldnt make me feel their pain, making my chest ache and nose get stuffy. I wish I wouldnt have eating as a pastime. I wish it would be easier to get out of that habit of eating out of boredom. I wish I didnt get panic attacks from not being able to eat whenever I want to. I wish my metabolism would at least reflect how much I eat so that it would force me to work on it. I wish my skin didnt peel so much. I wish my brain wouldnt ruin every other good moment Im going through. I wish I wouldnt be tempted to take this down the moment I post this. I wish I didnt want to change so many things about myself. I wish I would always be okay with myself. I wish my grandma wouldnt be immobile and wouldnt be on the verge of amnesia. I wish I wouldnt have been in the room when she asked me "wheres grandma?" And I had to tell her that her grandmother had been dead for 50 years. I wish I didnt see the tears in her eyes in that moment. I wish my dog was still alive. i wish I wouldve felt more when he died so I would know Im normal when it comes to grief because he was the first being from my life that was taken away. I wish all people I interact with would be safe and happy. I wish everyone would be okay and me with them. I wish nobody I love would ever be in pain again. I wish I wouldnt be an ugly crier. I wish I wasnt afraid of ghosts. I wish I wouldnt spend all my day in pyjamas. I wish I had a clean room. I wish I had the energy to do that. I wish it wouldnt be 1am right now. I wish I was better in school. I wish I wouldnt apologise everytime I complain about something without irony. I wish my cousin would stop acting like my other dog is hers. I wish the dog wouldnt be 30x more excited to see her than me. I wish I wasnt so jealous. I wish going to church wouldnt be such a task for me. I wish I would get into writing again. I wish I was skinnier. I wish I wasnt lazy. I wish I didnt have such a weird taste in music. i wish my teeth didnt clatter when I cry. I just wish there would be peace for once.

[feral-fitz]

😇🫠👋🏻🙋🏻‍♂️😸🐰🪢🚂🪟

- @sub-butch

You want me to do sooo many things to you don't you darling <3

😇 I promise I'll be good (lying) - aww sweetie, don't worry I'll make you be good! If you struggle that clearly means you have too much energy and need wearing out, if you are too talking back too much that means your mouth needs better things to occupy it. Its not the subs fault if they act out, they are too silly to know better, its like punishing a dog for barking. You've got to find what they need and to solve it with something satifying to both of you!

🫠🐰🚂 Please fuck me until my brain leaks out + whimpering crying begging sobbing because you're not breeding me yet + Please rail me at your earliest convenience - Needy, needy, don't worry its cute <3 I'll make sure to fill you up like you so desperately need :P

👋🏻 Hit me harder - if you aren't bruised, scratched and bitten until there are enough marks that you can't look at yourself without seeing something to remind you of me then clearly I didn't spend enough time tormenting you

🙋🏻‍♂️- Submitting an application to be your favorite sex toy - application form to be filled in being sent your way <3 (that would be fun to make... when I have less projects)

😸 Requesting head pets (and rough sex) - Yay! I can brush your hair out and put it up all pretty like, something that will look fun all messed up later <3

🪢 Tie me up and use me - I have been meaning to try out shibari more than the basic ties...

🪟 Leaving my window open and doors unlocked - aww so sweet! I have a bit of an odd sleep schedule so I'm sure you won't mind me popping in and wanting to play in the middle of the night right? How heavy do you sleep again?

[silent-raven13]

You were everything, Sunflower!

Warning: Angst!

Hobie walks down the hallway seeing nurses passing by him, his heavy boots thud against the tile floor. His accessories would jingle or clink whenever he took a step. Hearing the sounds of beeps, the smell of medicine, chemicals and old office tickled his nose. One hand dangled in his leather pocket while the other hand carries a bouquet of Sunflowers.

The closer he got to his distention, the more anxious he felt. His heart pounding against his chest, he suck in his lip piercing playing it- a bad habit of his when he's nervous. He heard his friends' voices talking, "Miles, you have to try it. It's so good." Gwen's being first.

"Yeah, I would love to." Miles' voice rings Hobie's ear.

"Yeah, they got so many flavors!" Pavtri happily said, "Next time we'll go!" His laughter dies down.

Miles softly said, "Yeah..."

When Hobie enters the room, he found his Sunflower on sitting up on the hospital bed. It's been two years since Miles been in and out of the hospital, he gotten extremely ill. Turns out he had develop an unknown cancer that is greatly affecting his whole body. He went through chemo, tries many treatments- none were working. In the end, Miles refuse to take it all and rather live the life he wanted.

Now, the cancer has taking its toll. One mission, Miles passed out from the lost on energy, taking him to med-bay in HQ. Miguel had worked on finding a cure. The treatment with Miguel's new drug were working for a bit until the cancer came twice as strong. Miles was dying and he knows it. They all know their friend is slowly leaving them.

Day by day they saw him losing weight, so much weight. His once golden brown skinned turning dull, skinny limbs and hollow cheeks. Bags under his eyes grew from the lack of sleep. Weak and fragile to the point he needs help to be taken to the bathroom.

Peter and May would come by to cheer him up. It didn't stop Peter from crying in another room watching his student, his son withering away. Miguel worked long harsh hours to do whatever he can to help Miles' to get better, failing at this one last chance.

Miles refused anymore treatments, now ready for death. He's planning to go home to spend his last time with his family. Hobie saw how Rio and Jeff put on a brave face for their son, and it's the worst sight to see. They couldn't do nothing to save their son.

Parents who love and protect their child with their lives, are unable to save their son. Rio develop a habit of taking pills from time to time with a glass of wine. Jeff working long hours, drinking more often. They were on thin ice with many cracks, soon they will fall. The destruction of child lost is so close.

Hobie saw how Gwen and Pavtri were sadly looking down at Miles. They were there from the beginning trying to do anything to keep the illness off their minds. It's ignorant bliss, but it works. Until they saw Miles coughing up blood, and refusing to eat anything. His thin fragile body ready to shut down. It's the worst.

Miles's lit up the same way Hobie's did. When they saw each other, it felt like they can live a life of peace. "Hey Hobie." Miles finally said even with his head shaved having a beanie on to hide it, his fragile thin bones and chapped lips- He's still the most beautiful man in Hobie ever seen. Just breathless.

"Hey, Sunflower. I got you something." Hobie holds a bouquet of flower out.

Miles' eyes lit up with joy, "They're beautiful." He reaches his hand out to hold them. The bouquet of Sunflower felt heavy but he slowly hugs them, then sniffs them. "Mmm, they smell so fresh."

"Hey, man. Nice seeing you." Pavtri gave the punker a side hug.

Gwen weakly smile at him, "Yeah. Good to see you." Then she saw Miles then saw Hobie giving her a look. Right. "Hey, Miles. How about I get a vase to put them in."

"Yeah! They would look nice on the drawer over there." Miles nodded handing them to Gwen.

Gwen took Pavtri's hand, "Come on, Pav. let's go find a vase."

Pavtri saw Hobie nodding at him. "Okay! Um will be back Miles."

"Okay." Miles chuckles then he coughs a couple of times with his weak thing hand over his mouth, "Sorry."

"Nah it's all good." Gwen softly said before the two left leaving the punker and artist all alone.

Hobie stood with both hands in his pocket as he saw the eighteen year old, looking at him. "Oi, Sunflower, lookin' good with that shabby beanie?" He ruffles the beanie making Miles giggles.

"Thanks, would you be surprised that Pav made it for me." He fixes his beanie, it's a bright colors beanie similar to Pav's Spider-man design.

"Nah, I couldn't tell." Hobie pulls up a seat to relax and get comfortable, having to joke.

"Hahaha, yeah. it's so not Pav's colors." Miles teased back. "So, how was band practice?"

There wasn't a day Hobie missed to be with Miles, every single day he comes by even if Miles is sleeping or having one of his moments. Hobie will forever be there. No matter what.

"Yeah it was alright. Had to steal new guitar strings for this lass, right here." Hobie shows off his guitar having new strings.

Miles nodded, "Aye, pretty sweet. I like the gold colors."

"Yeah, it was the expensive kind." Hobie let Miles hold his guitar. "Feel them. it got a nice crisp to it."

"Hehe, crisp?" Miles's dainty thing finger tips slowly pull one string giving a beautiful note. "Ahh, I get it."

"Right. Right!" Hobie chuckles.

Miles coughs again, "Oh, sorry man." He coughs harshly this time grabbing a napkin to cough up the blood.

Hobie quickly took the guitar away, he handed Miles some glass of water, "Easy. Easy." He saw the napkin with splotches of blood, it made him sick to his stomach.

Miles noticed the way Hobie looked at it so he quickly hide it. He sips a bit of his water with a straw, "Mm, I'm good. It's been happening a lot lately." His sunken eyes exhaustedly on Hobie, "Ohh is it fine if I just lay a bit. I'm pretty tired from that."

"Have you eaten?"

"I don't hungry much."

"You should try to eat." Hobie softly said.

"I ate Jello." Miles turns to him having to admire the punker. "So?"

"So?" Hobie gave a warm smile.

"So, have you met anyone? You lookin' good. Smelling good, too."

"Nah, I'm always like this, Sunflower." Hobie never some anyone to be with in a serious sense, not since he first laid eyes on him. He only care about his appearance to catch Miles' eyes on him, to see those doe eyes admiring him.

"You're right." Miles snickers, "But you should try. Didn't you use to go out with someone?" Miles always find Hobie so cool, so well experienced. Everything Hobie did always amazed him.

Shame the two never told their feelings for each other. Miles knew at one point he has to tell him before it's too late. He worries to be rejected but it should be okay. Hobie had always be there for him.

"Nah," Hobie shook his head, "I met a friend but she was only a friend." There was a point when Hobie was in depression, he and Miles fought about the treatment. When he heard about his Sunflower stopping the treatment, it sent him in a fits of anger. He went to the club to get drunk and sleep with someone, but his heart aches- He cries to Gwen and Pav about his fear of losing Miles.

At least, Gwen knock some sense into him. She had to tell him that if he doesn't be there for Miles, then he will regret for the rest of his life. Which is true, because that's the day he saw Miles' broken down.

Miles' crying into his hands, "I hate feeling like this! I can't do it again, Miguel! I need to feel good. I hate the fucking drugs. It's making me feel like shit!"

"Miles, por favor. At least, wait for till I create another treatment. I swear, I'm so close. This is only one error, but I promise I will fix this. I will find the cure!" Miguel placed one hand on Miles' small back, his voice calm yet afraid of giving up. He knows he can find the cure if he had more time.

"No. I can't! I'm tired, Miguel. i'm so tired. I hate how everyone is giving these looks- My mom and dad aren't talking to each other. I'm being a burden! Even I had to argue with my friends about my decision! I'm tired, I'm so exhausted. I can't do this anymore. It's better this way. I know, I'm dying. There's no hiding that. Please, let me have this."

Miguel sighs in defeat, "Alright. Fine. But I promise you, I will find it. At least hold out." He left feeling upset with himself. Miguel couldn't save another child, leaving him in a deep depression. He was determined to find a cure for Miles. Was it for forgiveness from their past? Perhaps, but he couldn't see this Spider-man go out like that.

As for Miles, he weeps in tears. His trembling hands hugging himself being alone in the room. Hobie watched from the door. Hearing his Sunflower crying to himself, broke him. He didn't want to leave him all alone, he couldn't.

When Miles weeps himself, he felt a heavy jacket around him, "Huh?"

"I'm sorry, Sunflower. I'm selfish to think about you getting better instead of thinking what you want." Hobie weeps with him, his hand caress Miles' cheek wiping off the tears from his eyes. "Don't cry no more, luv. Please. I'm here." The two hug in silence they stayed like that the next day.

They were talking for a bit. Mostly Hobie about his day, while Miles listens. Lately he normally listens being so tired. "You know, I've been wanting to tell you something for a while, luv." Hobie clears his throat. He finally has the strength to tell him. The courage had came up to him, he wants to be Miles' partner, even if it's a short while.

Why he never confessed to his Sunflower? He doesn't know- Maybe the fear of rejection or the fear of finally having him! To be with him and love him to only see him buried. Hobie knows he's not good with abandonment, but he knows he will regret it if he doesn't confessed.

So with a deep breath he continues, "You know, we been friends for a while." He clears his throat.

"You need water, man?" Miles force himself to sit up being concerned, "Here, drink some of mine."

"Thanks, luv. I'm fine. Don't fret too much over me. Just rest. Here, tuck yer'self in." Hobie went to over to let Miles lay back down with a quilt by Miss Morales give for her son to keep warm. "Look, luv. I've... I've-" Miles caress his cheek, "Shh, Hobie. Shh." He used the last bit of energy to kiss Hobie's lips.

Hobie froze feeling chapped lips being so gentle, so cold like he kissed a ghost. It took a moment for him to realized, Miles pulled away from him looking at him being worried. "Hobie? I'm so-" Hobie quickly kisses Miles again and again. He carefully leans over to deepen the kiss. They both felt like they were on air, their love showing. When they pull away, Miles let out a boyish giggle, "You like me." He sang at his punker.

"What can I say? I'm enchanted by your beauty, luv." Hobie lowly said.

"I'm always been this beautiful." Miles jokes, "lay with me."

Hobie slowly got on the bed letting Miles have more space on the bed, "You are." He smiles at him.

"How long you were you into me?" Miles finally asked.

"For the longest, Sunflower." The punker rest his arm on Miles' thin waist, "You don't know how long I've been wanting to kiss you."

"Me too." Miles' eyes lit for the moment then a tear shedding down his cheek, "We could've been together already if..."Hobie quickly wipe his tears off his face, "Shh. Shhh, luv. We're here."

"But what if," Miles weeps, "You hate me or you leave when..." His hand holds onto Hobie's hand, the one touching his cheek, "When I get too sick? Or you'll hate seeing me-" Hobie hushes him, "No, I promise to you I never leave by your side, Sunflower. I love you! I love more than anything in these bloody multi-worlds." His eyes watered, "No matter what. You are my soulmate."

Miles' lips quiver feeling so touched yet upset, "I don't want to leave you." His hand grips on to his punker's large rough hands feeling the callous on the finger tips. "I just got you and- I don't want to die." He finally broken down.

"Shh, Shh. I'm here. I know, luv. I know." Hobie pulls him into his chest, his nose buried into Miles' beanie. It smells like a mix of spices and Miles' citrus scent. A tear drips from Hobie's eyes, "I know."

"I'm just so tired, Hobie. So fucking tired. I hate feeling this way." Miles cries, "I can't do it anymore but I don't want to leave you, Gwen, Pav... Peter and May- MY mami and dad! Everyone- Fuck, even I'll miss Miguel."

"Shh, luv. I know. I know. I don't want you to go, but it's okay too." Hobie whispers, "I see how exhausted you are. It'll be selfish of me to want you to be here in this fucking terrible room with the these machines."

Miles sniffs finally staring at Hobie, "And it's not fair that we couldn't be together longer."

"I know, luv. I know." Hobie kisses Miles, "Let's be together as much as possible. No more wasting the time we have left."

Miles pulls away calming down, his arms wrapping around his Hobie's body. "You were a wonderful experience, Hobie Brown." He finally said in a calm tone, his eyes on his punker already making his final moments.

"You were everything, Sunflower." Hobie sniffs, as he leans over to kiss him again. He left Miles rest in his arms, having the saddest worries- his heart aches knowing this will be one of their final moments to talk about it.

"I love you." Miles rested his head onto Hobie's chest feeling relieved, knowing he had everything he ever wanted in his arms. His eyes closed softly feeling his energy slipping away.

"I love you, too, Sunflower." Hobie softly said.

Just like that Miles let out his final breath feeling so cold, his face looked so angelic. Hobie weeps into his lifeless body, never wanting to let him go. He cries so much that day, a sorrowful cry like never before. His beautiful Sunflower can finally rest in peace.

[bp4545]

Don't Be Like Him (Angst, Fluff)

Word count: 900

Warnings: Dysfunctional family, crying, angst, toxic marriage, 

Summary: Your parents have lots of fights, and there hasn't usually been any like this one. You're on your mum's side, because your dad calls your mum a lot of nasty things and burdens her with his family. You come home one day, crying to your husband Draco, and you tell him to promise you that he will never be like your dad.

a/n: This was requested by my close friend who went through a similar situation, and to all of those who relate, I am so sorry, I know that its hard to see parents fighting, especially when the outcomes are never good. Just know that you aren't alone, and that there is always other family and friends to support you. <333

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You sit in your bedroom, alone, heart aching as you can hear your parents fighting in the living room across you.

You just came over to spend some time with them in the muggle world since you haven't seen them for so long, but practically nothing has changed. Still the same old screaming and shouting, the same one that haunted you as a child.

You toss around in your childhood bed, memories flooding as you cry yourself to sleep, wiping your tears on the hem of your blanket, where you can see tear stains from years ago; when the same thing happened.

"YOU EVIL WOMAN! WHY DID I EVER MARRY YOU" You can hear your father scream at your mum, followed by her hysterical sobs. 

"DO YOU EVER THINK THAT MAYBE I AM UNHAPPY? HOW COULD YOU SAY THESE THINGS ABOUT YOUR OWN WIFE!" You wince as your mum retaliates.

You hate these fights. Mostly because its always your dad who wins. You mum will say sorry, her opinions won't be heard. Because she's the woman, she's meant to be weak. In your dad's eyes she is nothing but someone to push around and bend to his will.

Part of you want's to go out there, support your mum, help her fight. The other part of you doesn't want to get involved, because it hurts too much to have to come in between your parents.

You take the third option; go back home to Draco.

You get up, pack your bag quickly and open the door. Staring your mum and dad in the eyes as they fall silent. You don't say a word and exit the door, not looking back. 

You don't want to leave your mum there, you don't want her to suffer alone, you want to stay and cry with her, make the pain hurt less. But it's too much. You don't have the energy to deal with more screaming. What did your mum ever do to deserve this. Why couldn't she just be blessed with a happy life.

Before you leave the driveway, you cast a silencing spell on both of them, so that they aren't able to hear each other or fight more. At least they could get some rest that way.

You sigh as tears brim your eyes as you head home to Draco.

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As the night falls silent, you insert the key to yours and Draco's apartment. Inside is dark, but you peek into the bedroom to see the nightlight on, and Draco reading a book in bed, shirtless.

You make eye contact with him and he smiles, but a smile fails to form on your lips as tears start streaming down your face, as if you've been holding them in for an eternity. 

Draco's face drops as he sees your change in mood. He quickly gets up and walks over to you, cradling you in his arms as you cry into his chest.

"My love what happened what's wrong" he gently spoke.

"My parents..."  you sniffle "They're fighting again, I hate it"

He shushes you softly, and sways in a comforting manner.

"Are they okay now?"

"They only shut up because I put a silencing spell on them, but..." you start to cry again.

"Baby... please tell me anything" he coos

"My dad" you started "He called my mum an evil woman" you cry again "And said that he wished he never married her" you start to breathe hard and grip onto Draco's arms harder.

"I don't understand how he could say something like that Draco! I-I wish my mum had a better life" you cry, the tears aren't for you though, they're for your mum.

"No one deserves that my love" he whispers "You don't deserve that either, to see your parents fighting"

I fall silent for a bit, calming down.

"Draco?" my voice breaks again "Would you... ever say those kinds of things to me?" you say, feeling vulnerable.

Draco looks taken aback, "My love I would never. I love you too much to say those kinds of things, no matter how angry I am I would never call you evil, or regret marrying you, believe me my darling." he hushes.

"Good. Don't be like him "I wrap my arms around him, sighing into his chest. "I love you" I whisper.

"I love you too darling" he says.

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a/n: I could really relate to this prompt and I know that seeing your parents fight is a very hard thing to watch, especially as a young child. If you are experiencing this or still have past trauma, please reach out to family or friends you can confide in because sometimes it's really good to talk about these things and let your feelings out<3 Take care everyone:) 

[astroyongie]

Sorry to come here and vent, you're probably busy with your life so don't worry if you don't feel like replying, I just needed to talk to someone as I don't feel comfortable doing it with people around me. I'm very scared for the future, I feel like I'm not good at anything at all, I'm not good at studying, I really want to graduate this year but then again I have no idea what I want to do afterwards, I'm not naturally talented in the things I'm passionate about and it's hard for me to focus and actually work hard to improve, so it makes me think that maybe those passions aren't really big, cause if they were I'd do something instead of laying in bed. I feel so much pressure coming from within even resting is exhausting. I just want to cry, go to sleep and wake up with my life sorted out. Idk why I always feel so empty and hopeless all the time, I feel like I'll fail no matter what I do.

Hey love. Please never apologize for such a thing ❤️

It sounds like you are feeling lost and overwhelmed and I’m really sorry that you feel like that as it must not be easy to deal with this.

When we are under pressure sometimes it’s very difficult to clear our minds. Because of it we have the tendency to self doubts and to procrastinate in order to remove responsibly if something ever goes wrong.

Its okay to feel lost, it’s okay to want to give up, it’s okay to feel sad, to feel pressured and just wanting to stay in bed and not get out. I understand.

Take your time and remember you matter. Incorporate smash things into your routine in order to change the energy around you. Take care of yourself more, work out, eat better, go out get some sunlight, spend time with people, organize your studying life with a schedule you can follow. You feel overwhelmed and helpless because you energy isn’t balanced love and you doubt yourself because it’s getting too much. So breath. Just take a night for yourself. And come back stronger

[asoulofatlantis]

Current state and future plans and so on...

(This is probably just me mostly rambling away on a Sunday early afternoon...)

First of all: Will I ever finish ANY of the games I have started the past year or so? Yes! Yes, I will. I plan to finish most, if not all of them (as you can see I did finish Trails in the Sky FC just in time for the Remake announcement XD) eventually, but I am slightly overwhelmed by the huge amount of games I currently want to play and so I am easily distracted, especially from games that might not capture me as much as I was hoping. In addition to that, there is Kai no Kiseki on the way. The release is close. I am likely not going to finish anything until I have finished my live reaction to the Lets Play I will watch. At the moment I am playing Two Point Hospital, as it is a game that doesn't require too much thinking and the Trailer for Two Point Museum reminded me that I have yet to finish both Two Point Games eventually. (I do like them a lot... but I like to take my time with those kind of games as I am REALLY bad with money in all freaking games ^^') BTW... I will get Two Point Museum as well when it is out and I am thinking about recording and uploading my first real lets play with that game. But I will likely chicken out at the end of the day ^^'

Secondly: Yes, I have seen all the questions in my inbox but I am really busy at the moment. I can not even truly say what the hell is going on but in addition to the fact that I work more hours a day again now, somehow I also never managed to gets home fast. Something always stops me and makes me go somewhere else before or stay longer at my parents for some reasons or whatnot. I already feel bad because as I go to bed early because I have issues sleeping and don't function on less than at least 7 hours of sleep I barely have any time of the day left to spend with my 3 adorable cats. Less alone doing as much of the shores that I need to. My health is also not cooperating. I am not sick enough to go see a doctor and stay home for a week or so but not healthy enough to feel really good. Kinda sucks. Its also very inconvenient because I gained A LOT of weight over the past months and I want to go back to counting calories and working out at least 3 times a week but with my neck constantly hurting for whatever reason and me feeling under the weather this isn't exactly and easy task. Not to mention that there was so much stress at work that I solely eat for the happy-hormones these days and counting calories in that kind of stressed state is not fun. We lack an immense amount of staff at the moment. Inlcuding our boss and the one in charge now is... well... but the whole situation isn't easy for her either. Either way it is really tiresome at work at the moment. And that takes whatever energy I have left away from me really easily.

And lastly... my two cents about the recent Kai information we've got: I really do not know what to say anymore. I am worried about Agnes. I am worried about Rean. I am worried about multiple of my ships sinking with this game. I might also be worried about my sanity if this game really ends with a cruel cliffhänger á la Cold Steel 3 or worse. (I've bought extra tissues because I assume strongly that at some point I WILL be crying in this game ^^') I am honestly in a weird state when it comes to Kai. I am absolutely terrified of this game at this point. So terrified of whatever ruin it may bring me, that the only reason I want the release date to be there soon, is the fact that I want to get it over with so my anxiety about all the stuff that could happen and go wrong is finally gone ^^' (Then again, with a possibly cliffhänger at our hands I fear that might be a bit naive of me to think that way...) In any case, next time you'll see me here (aside from maybe reblogging some Kai news beforehand...) is when Kai is released and my live reaction starts. Lets hope I feel a bit better by then, finally get enough sleep again and some of my anxiety regarding this game has left me XD

I think after that, we will likely go back to Persona 3 Portable. But no promises!

[saisons-en-enfer]

It's not easy to write this

but things are looking really fucking bad... just this past week I lost 5 kilos from not having any appetite, i had to be heavily medicated to get any sleep at all, i didnt do anything that used to excite me, i tried going out multiple times and i just felt worse and wanted to puke, ive been smoking multiple packs of cigarettes every day, i break down emotionally twice a day (which used to never happen), I spontaneously cry multiple times a day (and i never cry), and im not looking after myself... I drive recklessly, i mix medications and alcohol, I spend all day in bed because i have no energy or desire to do anything else, when someone tries to talk to me im emotionally catatonic and struggle to utter a single word of a response, daydreaming was my biggest source of comfort and warmth and i cant even do that anymore my mind is completely closed off to the idea of anything good ever happening to me

I don't know how else to convey that ive reached my breaking point, life has been impossible enough already ever since I realized I dont desire to live it... but now that ive truly lost hope... i really can't bear it im at my fucking limit, i cant humanly tolerate any more mental anguish... i always always stopped myself from harming myself because, just like how i deleted my old blog out of panic, i would only do something irreversible and just hurt everyone else. but what choice do i have now... ive been going through this for 9 years now and honestly ive been getting worse because before i had hope but now i have nothing just the stress of having to wake up in immense pain and having to endure it day after day for nothing because:

I don't make anyone happy, I'm just a burden and a mess, no one wants me around, and things will be better if i were to just die

I just don't know what else to do... do I just have to ask permission from every single person i know to allow me to let go...

i just cant do it anymore it's torture, the emptiness is suffocating

whatever the case, I don't know how much time I got left and...

if anything happens... I... I'm so fucking sorry and please don't mourn me when I'm gone I don't fucking deserve it.

I'm just saying all of this because i never want to leave without at least saying something; that I tried for so long and so hard, and its the only solution left

[itztim3todi3]

Hello! Can I request the dorm leaders from TWST's reactions to being happily dating a male reader, but then one day the reader is cornered in a high place by someone from their dorm, who starts going off about how he doesn't deserve to be dating their dorm leader, which prompts the reader to try to leave, but is roughly stopped by the other student, causing him to lose his balance and fall off the edge to either die or be severely injured on the ground below?

ғᴀʟʟɪɴɢ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ sᴋʏ

Ooooo love this. very big-brained anon

Requests | Open (read rules on pinned first)

Fandom(s) | Twisted Wonderland

Platonic or Romantic? | Romantic

You didn't know how this happened, you were simply cleaning the windows and this student came up behind you, a student from your boyfriend's dorm. They seemed mad as they almost scolded you for touching their dorm leader, for simply being with him. And before you know it, your surroundings were blurring past you as you plummeted towards the ground.

Riddle Rosehearts

when he finds out what happened to you, he's fucking pissed

he's storming through the school demanding the student to come forward, the one who did this to you

later when he's in his room everything comes down like a avalanche on him and he breaks

he's ugly crying and screaming as loud as he can

he's clutching his head as he things about you dying, how much pain you must be in, how scared you must have been

he doesn't ake the news that you're on the verge of death very well

his health weakens, he starts showing up late to class or not at all, he's starting to fail his classes and he's falling asleep in said classes

he just broken and its obvious that he's not doing well

Leona Kingscholar

when he finds out what happened to you he's marching down the hallways looking for the student

he can smell their scent on you from their hands pushing you back as you tried to leave, he can smell them and he's coming after them

they're going to be gone by the next 15 minutes once he finds them

after that he just goes back to his room and stays there

he doesn't leave at all, he's missing all his classes and he's barely eating

he's terrible he cant sleep he get nigjtmares of you dying, of watching as you fall and not being able to do anything

he loses a lot of sleep and energy

he can barely leave his bed

Azul Ashengrotto

hes frozen, hes having a hard time processing the information he's received

he demands floyd and jade get that student here immediately

he's blackmailing them till the end of time and making them give over their life

he's pissed yet he can't show his anger

he's stuck in his office worrying over you as you lay in the nurses' office

he buries himself in work and such, to get his brain off of you

he's just trying to cope with this but he doesn't know how to besides doing work

he cant sleep he cant eat and he barely show his face around school and the lounge

Kalim Al-Asim

hes calling in all the best doctors his family doctors he's spending as much money as possible to get you better fast

he's a lot less happy and positive

ofc he still has his positivity about the situation but this has taken a large toll on him

he has a hard time falling asleep and eating, he's not used to doing it without you it doesn't feel right

he cries at night, he's not a loud crier (my hc) so hes just sits in his room as he hugs a pillow and just lets it all out

he tries to stay positive he really does, but he just can't stay so positive for so long

jamil is the one who takes care of the student who did this to you, he will nit allow himself to see kalim so sad

plus they hurt you, he doesn't like that

Vil Schoeneit

hes worrying hes crying hes all over the place he's trying to hold everything in

but once he's alone hes broken down in tears he's falling to the floor he's just gone

he's lost it a bit he's mad he's terrified he's disgusted he's everything all at once

he just wants the student gone he wants them away he just wants them dead

he's a lot more stressed hes not as neat as before

it shows, but no one says anything, they know how important you are to him

Idia Shroud

hes even more stressed

hes staying up for longer times, more days playing games watching shows trying not to cry hysterically

he's not showing up to class w/ his tablet he's not answering anyone

he hasn't left his room in forever

he's worried but he's trying not to make himself worse by going out of his little bubble

to get him to sleep Ortho has to knock him out or he passes out himself

he's blackmailing the student finding evyerhting he can about them

he's not leaving them alone until they're crying and running and screaming for their mom

he's pissed and sad he wants to die but live he's this he's that

Malleus Draconia

its thundering instantly, he's pissed hes sad its going to flood

they have to evacuate the school as malleus is flooding it and setting things on fire with his lightning

however no matter what the nurses' area is not getting destroyed or touched in any way

you're in there hes keeping that place safe from himself and others

he cries he does he has his students track down the one who pushed you off

hes dealing with them himself

hes calling his personal doctor from his home

hes giving you the best treatment he can

almost overblots

[scuderiamh]

red-nosed baby || n. de vries x reader

pairing: nyck de vries x reader request: yes / no summary: your first christmas as a family – except the little one got sick right before. word count: 900 warnings: tess makes a return <3 rushed revising. two days late again... oops?

a baby’s first christmas was always something to look forward to. and not to get you wrong, you were excited. emphasis on were, past tense. 

there was nothing more you were looking forward to in the months leading up to christmas than the idea of spending it with your newly wedded husband nyck and your near one year old child, tess. sure, you knew full well this wouldn’t remain in tessie’s memories in thee years to come, but it was still important to you, just as it was to nyck. you’d have the memories. she would have the pictures in the future.

and it was all so exciting. you truly went all out. you’ve baked more cookies than you have in your lifetime, went over the top in decorations, and maybe went a little too far in buying gifts for your little one.

but it was going to be fun.

now to the emphasized past tense - tess got sick. right before christmas.

to say you were devastated would be pretty fair.

maybe it wasn’t that big of a deal, but it sure did feel like one. not only was christmas going to be spent with her too sick to really enjoy it, it was her first christmas, too.

the highs of your excitement were high, but now the lows were just as intense. you tried to keep the christmas spirit going, telling yourself she’d be fine by christmas morning, but then when she wasn’t… it was nyck who had to try and keep the mood high.

“hey, at least its the one she won’t remembered.” he said, making a weak attempt of brightening the atmosphere. you two were half sat, half laying on your bed, with tess in between. she was sound asleep, but after the long night you’d just had trying to keep her from crying too much, you knew it wouldn’t last too long. not only were you all upset, you were beyond exhausted, too.

“yeah,” you smiled half-heartedly, appreciating his efforts but not feeling much better. “i guess so.”

in terms of talking, the room went silent, but your daughter’s consistently labored breathing rang throughout the room. then, nyck checked his phone, and the action caused you to glance over.

“a couple stores should be open now,” he said, propping himself up a little more. “i can go get the medicine now.” “no, you stay. i’ll go.”

“you sure?” he asked, watching you say you got up.

“yeah.” you nodded. maybe it was a little selfish, but you needed to get out of this room. it started to get depressing, and you needed to breathe a little. seeing all the christmas spirit outside was not something you were looking forward to, but it was better than feeling cooped up. “i’ll see you in a bit. love you.”

“yeah, you too, schat. see you.” he responded with a little sigh, sinking back down and returning his attention to a sleeping tess.

you put little to no time into making yourself presentable, only making yourself look decent enough to escape concern. it took a little online searching to find the closest grocery store open today, but the driving itself only took about five minutes.

once at the store, you’d made your trip for cold medicine quick. you averted your eyes from any of the decorations and successfully blocked out the christmas music with your own headphones playing something of the complete opposite energy. while there, you grabbed some chicken broth you figured would likely come in handy later.

the overall time to the store and back must’ve taken less than twenty minutes total, but you’d come home to an entirely different scene.

while the lighting outside hadn’t changed, it seemed as though the mood brightened the house significantly by the time you were back. jolly music was playing from a speaker somewhere, and, on the couch-

nyck holding a slightly better looking tess, who was awake and… not crying. giggling, actually. it was a sight so normal you’d almost forgotten the circumstances, but as you remembered the past few days it came as a shock.

little tess, way too sick to do anything but sleep or cry just hours ago, was giggling. a laugh impossibly even sweeter to hear than normal times.

“and would you look at that!” nyck exclaimed in a hushed voice, clearly talking to tess though looking at you. “mom’s back!”

it was now that they were turned your way did you realize they had… red… something? on their noses. approaching them with something resembling caution, you looked more than confused. “what’s on your guys’ noses?” you asked tentatively, putting down the grocery bag before sitting down next to them.

“face paint.” nyck shrugged, as if it were the most obvious answer in the world.

“why?”

“we’re red nosed reindeer!” he said, and tess burst out in another fit of giggles. “like rudolph.”

your smile was impossibly wide as your head hung with your laugh. now, that’s what he wanted to see. a silly antic to make both his girls laugh.

“tess… the red nosed baby?” you said, and he nodded enthusiastically. 

at the mention of her name, tess’ attention was on you and her arms were outstretched your way. you took her into your arms immediately, tapping her painted nose once with a smile. when she sneezed, you knew it was still going to be a long day ahead of you. but maybe it wasn’t going to be as dark as it felt.

[k3rm1e]

cuddling headcanons! ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

this is more of a test thing to see if i like writing this way and if this blog does well

other imagines and headcanons won't include everyone i write unless it is specifically requested and is a prompt i really like

includes: wilbur nihachu karljacobs quackity dream georgenotfound sapnap p!tommyinnnit p!badboyhalo p!skeppy p!eret p!philza p!tubbo p!ranboo

cw: cursing

wilbur:

wilbur is a very cuddle-y guy

to me he seems very soft

i always see people saying he would like spooning, but i disagree

i feel like he would do more of a half-spooning thing with his head on your chest or the other way around

mans would DEFINITELY make you run your fingers through his hair

i feel like he would lay on your chest and just *nuzzle* into the space between your shoulder and neck

anytime you tried to leave him, whether it was because he had to do something or you had to, he would whine. so. fucking. much.

It would probably always go something like:

you - i need to piss

wilbur - no <3

but the moment he decides its time to stop cuddling its fine

and if you complain that you’re gonna miss him he’ll just call you clingy and tease you

like??? sir???

all in good fun though, no bad intentions :)

nihachu:

i feel like you and niki would face each other

with your head like under her chin and in her chest (this is a bad description but look at the “honeymoon hug” on the list for better explanation ;-;)

she would always want to protect you

so she does that by like almost guarding you and keeping you close

niki would definitely do the arm thing where she just lightly moves her hand up and down you arm

i’m so sorry if you don't understand that, it just feels like something she would do

if you haven't experienced that it kinda sorta feels like spiders??? but in a good way???

but generally she is very protective

she just holds you so close the whole time

even if she doesn’t want to let you go, she’s more understanding about it

she would be upset but wouldn’t show it because she doesn’t want to make you feel guilty

niki is generally just an amazing cuddle-r (is that a word?) and has a super comforting presence

karljacobs:

karl would definitely keep your head on his chest

the whole time he would just absolutely squeeze the life out of you

he would constantly bend his neck down to kiss your head

and instead of just like leaving his head down so he could kiss you it would just be:

*inner monologue karl* hmmm i wanna kiss them on their head

and he would lean down to do so which, cute

but then five seconds later he would do it again

and again another five seconds later

and again

very cute karl but please sir, your neck is gonna be so messed up after this

when you had to leave he would be upset, but like niki, would try not to show it

except karl is very bad at that and his pouting would be so obvious

so you would feel guilty and layback down with him

immediately he just becomes (●´ω｀●)

like a happy little puppy

karl is just too adorable for you to deny

quackity:

now we all know this, quackity is a huge dork

which is why i believe he would DEFINITELY use your butt as a pillow

not even in a weird way

i just feel like quackity isn’t too comfortable with touch so this is sorta his way of being close to you without it being a whole serious thing

like he still is able to be goofy and comfortable without it being a whole big thing

him doing this would almost always come with a flatty patty joke from you

which always causes him to threaten divorce, even though you aren’t married

while it isn’t a very good position for things like physical touch, it is good for talking and having conversations

for some reason i feel like he’s the type of person to text someone when they’re right next to each other

so while he’s laying down he’ll just send you random photos of himself

very annoying when your phone is spammed, but also good blackmail material >:)

i don’t think he’d be too clingy

obviously, he enjoys spending time with you

but if you told him you need to go do work or something he wouldn’t throw a fit or pout

big q just seems like he’d be more rational about stuff like that

overall a 420/69 cuddle partner

dream:

one word: spooning

mans just envelops you and has no shame

very big: “no you are mine! >:(“ energy

while he’s sleeping he’ll unconsciously nuzzle his head into your hair/the back of your neck

when you guys got to bed patches usually climbs in and you hold her

i love patches so much i could write headcanons just about her

dream always wants to be cuddling you

if you try to leave he won’t pout, there simply isn't a discussion on whether you’re moving or not

incase you haven’t caught on yet, the answer is no

you need to do work? just bring the laptop to bed

he needs to edit? just sit in his lap at his desk, duh

obviously, he knows at some point you guys need to stop cuddling

he just isn’t too stoked about it

when it comes time where he absolutely can’t cuddle with you, i feel like he’d be more chill

mainly just annoyed

georgenotfound:

i feel like george, like quackity, also wouldn’t be too touchy

i’m pretty sure he has a hard time expressing emotions (please correct me if i’m wrong!!) and i think that would crossover to his sleeping habits

i think he would prefer a sort of back-to-back cuddling position

it seems cold, i know

but also he would most definitely kick at you

so every night while trying to go to sleep suddenly you would just feel *kick*

and then instead of sleep you’re suddenly playing footsie

lots of laughter and warm feelings involved

george would probably pretend that you kicked his leg hard or something and act like you hurt him

the first few times you were actually worried

but then after a few months your only response was a sarcastic “cry about it”

which just led to more laughter

sapnap:

sapnap and you would do a sort of leg hug thing

you both you try to go to sleep in a cute spooning-type position

but the moment one of you fell asleep it all unraveled

you would wake up apart but you’re legs would still be touching

sapnap would joking blame it on you

“wow can’t believe you don't wanna be close with me even when we’re asleep”

“it’s not my fault! i can’t control where i end up when i sleep!”

“no, no. you don’t have to lie. i see how it is.”

“>:(“

but it's okay!

your legs are the first thing to react in a flight-or-fight situation, so they usually react in an honest way

which is like your legs are both reaching to hold each other!

p!tommyinnit:

i don’t get a very touchy vibe from tommy

i feel like the most he would do is put his arm over your shoulder

not in a flirty way, just in a “hey, there isn’t a lot of space, this will make sitting down more comfortable” way

he will let you sorta fidget with his hand/arm

i don't know if that makes sense but what i mean is that he’ll pretty much let his arm go *flop* so you can control it (by like moving it around or playing with his fingers)

in the beginning he would get annoyed

but eventually he would get used to it and wouldn’t really care

it sounds a bit strange but i personally find it very comforting to just have something to fidget with while watching youtube or netflix in bed with my friends

and it’s entertaining (sometimes i do this to me sister to annoy her :>)

he would act like he didn’t mind if you left him

but holy shit he is so clingy

If you try to leave it’ll just be “no, why??? stay here dumbass”

you would be slightly annoyed when he had to leave  but knew he had to film and stream and all that so you would be okay

p!badboyhalo:

you would kinda sit within bad’s lap

like not on his lap, but more of in between his legs

he would have his arms around you

and his phone would be in front of you so you two could scroll through twt or instagram together

or you guys could watch skeppy’s youtube ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

rat would sit in your lap

she’s just;;;;;;;; so adorable

rat is just so soft and fuzzy in your lap and everytime you move to pet her she just melts

rat is the the superior cuddle buddy to any of these block people

p!skeppy:

skeppy, similar to quackity, is a total dork

he would make sure you guys were in a position where he could effectively troll you

so if your head was near his lap he would just flick you or some

“dude can you please stop hitting me in the head”

“it turns out i am not actually hitting you in your head because based on the perpendicularity of the bisector multiplied by the photosynthesis of the dividend, it is impossible for me to do so”

“wtf”

lya is so goddamn sick of you guys

she's trying to get him to actually do something but instead he’s just sitting there throwing paper airplanes at you while you sleep

he’s an annoying asshole but it's okay because he gives you money for absurd reasons

p!eret:

eret has such a comfortable presence

i feel like she wouldn’t be up for cuddling too much

more of like putting your head on a friends shoulder so you can see the tweet their showing you

but they do like to hold hands

holding hands isn’t very intimate but it's also just such a sweet comforting thing

she even holds your hand when you guys are out walking around

like if you guys were getting food somewhere (post-covid of course)

you most likely would get addressed as a couple

and he would just be like”...wut?”

it’s happened so many times at this point you just go along with it

“you guys look like such a cute couple!”

“oh we aren't-” “thank you!”

can you tell that i love eret?

p!philza:

phil always has such dad vibes

i feel like the closest he would get to cuddling is hugs and hand holding

even though cuddling isn’t inherently romantic, he is married to kristen

so i fell he would get most of his touch in with her

but with you he’s just so fatherly

hello dadza

whether you have a good or bad relationship with your father, everyone can admit that philza minecraft is dadza

this is such a dad thing, but tries to hold you hand when you cross the street

no matter the age, he just feels the need to protect you

hugs are similar

uses hugs as a way to comfort you and protect you

just so amazing all around

p!tubbo:

tubbo would love cuddling in any way, shape, or form

if you guys are hanging out at like the park or something and lying down

get ready to become this mans pillow

this is really fun to do with your friends but imagine you guys are hanging out in a field type area (with my friends we hand out in the field next to the cemetery but it can be any open grass area)

tubbo would just use your lap as a pillow the whole time

and when you guys were walking back to his house he would sorta drape his arms over your shoulders (assuming he’s taller than you)

he would do the same thing when you guys were sitting in chairs or at a desk

just drapes his arms over your shoulder with his chin on your head

if it's really late and he's tired he’ll just hug you

p!ranboo:

if you thought tubbo is bad, ranboo is even worse

not even really cuddling, he just likes having a sort of skin-to-skin contact

so handholding and laying on top of eachother

if he’s streaming he will legitimately message ou to just sit next to him

so sometimes if he’s just chilling by himself on the smp you’ll end up on his streams

he’ll have you next to him just because he likes be near someone

and so randomly it’ll just be like “chat, a real human is here, behave”

chat does not behave

(they heavily bully him)

he’s pretty clingy but when you HAVE to leave he’ll understand and just be a bit bummed out

holy shit this took me so long-

if you read this whole thing thank you!

[softxsuki]

hello, i don’t know if this is an urgent request but my mom died a few weeks ago and i’ve been up and down with my emotions. i feel like its going to be isolating this christmas because it won’t ever be the same. could i request a drabble with izuku comforting reader going through it during college, any time it is too much for reader, izuku is always there. and each year they do something to commemorate the loss, until one year he proposes? sorry again if this is a lot

Midoriya with Reader Whose Mom Passed Away

Pairing: Midoriya x Gn!Reader

Warnings: mentions of mother passing away, crying, isolation, sadness, grief, eating, kissing

Genre: Hurt-Comfort

Post-Type: Oneshot

Word Count: 1.6k

Summary: In which Midoriya commemorates the loss of your mother each year on her death anniversary, but one year ends up becoming more special than the others.

[A/N: Hey lovely, thank you so much for trusting me with this request. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know nothing I can say or do will help you feel better, but I'm here if you ever need to talk. Fun fact: when my abuelo (grandpa) passed away I remember sending balloons up into the sky for him on his birthday (probably not the best for the environment, but I was a child at the time and didn't know any better). I always prayed that my balloons would reach him safely as I wished him a happy birthday. One year when I did this, there was a star in the sky that was glowing very brightly. I remember being so fascinated by this star so I watched it the whole time my balloon flew up into the night sky. Suddenly, that star turned even brighter, almost like a door in the sky suddenly opened up and I swear my balloon went through that opening. To this day, I like to believe that it was my grandpa receiving my balloon :). That's why stars are very special to me and why I decided to mention them in this post. I truly hope this is able to provide you with a little comfort and happiness as you deal with all these very confusing emotions. I actually cried a little while writing this because it reminded me of my aunt who I lost last year. I wish you nothing but healing and good energy. Praying for you <3]

“I miss you mom. I really wish you were here,” you whisper to yourself, the death anniversary of your mother once again arriving.

Even though it’s been a few years since she passed, the pain was still the same as the day when you first found out. Trying to balance the grief of losing your mother so soon, along with being a college student, and lover to your boyfriend, was very hard at times. Most nights you spent crying yourself to sleep, you spent most of the days locked up in your room, not able to face the world outside, and you could hardly find the strength to properly feed yourself.

Thankfully though, your boyfriend, Midoriya, was always by your side to help you through your ups and downs. He gave you enough space so you could comfortably let your emotions out, but always stayed near enough incase you called out to him. He’d hold you tightly each night, kissing your tears away as he whispered comforting words into your ear.

On days where you felt a little better, he’d take you out to try and fill your days with some excitement and fun. He hated to see you isolating yourself from your friends and family, and even him at times. So, on days when you guys didn’t have any class, he'd spend the whole day outside with you. Showing you new, exciting places just so he could see that little light in your eyes again; all he wanted was for you to feel happy again.

Each year on the day of your mom’s death anniversary, he’d plan something special to commemorate your loss; something to never let her memory die out. Some years he’d attempt to cook either your mom’s favorite meal, or one of her special recipes she used to make for you all the time. He wasn’t the greatest cook, but he always took his time and contacted Bakugou for help if he needed it (Bakugou is a bit stubborn to help, but he gives in eventually, saying MIdoriya owes him one). But the food always comes out great.

You’d both sit down in the living room together, enjoying the food as you watch old home videos that included your mother. Tears would fall, and sobs would leave your lips, but Midoriya knew it was important to watch those videos so you could see your mom and never forget her (not that you ever could anyway).

Other years he’d take you on a late night picnic at a nearby park with some of your favorite food. After eating you’d both lie down and watch the stars. Midoriya would point at one that shined the brightest and say, “Look, it’s your mom looking down on us. She’s here to spend some time with you.”

As cheesy as it was at the time, you were happy to believe his words. Wanting to believe that your mother was looking down on you at that moment.

Today marked another year without her and this year, your boyfriend was doing some cooking on his own, without anyone’s help. But instead of having you around, he told you to just wait in the living room, saying he’d call you out when everything was done.

Your mind wandered through all the memories that still lingered of your mother. There was never a day that went by that you didn’t miss her. And with the Holiday season approaching, you felt a little more empty inside knowing she’d never be around to celebrate Christmas with you anymore. You’d never be able to buy her a gift anymore. Regrets started to fill your head of things you should have done for her that you never had the chance to do, but thankfully Midoriya’s sweet voice breaks you out of your thoughts as tears continue to fall down your face.

With a small smile, Midoriya walks over to you and holds a hand out for you to take, “Let’s eat some dinner, sunshine. I made one of your mom’s recipes this year,” he says, wiping your tears away as you take his hand and you both walk over to your small dining table that’s decorated very nicely–perhaps maybe even a little more romantic than usual.

“I’m sorry for crying, I don’t mean to ruin the evening,” you apologize, trying to calm yourself down.

“It’s alright Y/N, we’re here to remember your mom, so you can cry as much as you need to, I don’t mind.”

You nod, sniffling as tears continue to fall down your face, but you take a seat and dig into a familiar looking dish that your mom used to make you. One of your favorites that she used to cook.

After one bite, the nostalgia hits you like a truck, making you cry even harder as you continue to eat.

“Just like mom- used to make,” you choke out between sobs.

Dinner was great to say the least, and Midoriya ended up moving his chair beside you, grabbing your hand through the rest of the meal to let you know that he was there for you.

Thankfully, you do manage to calm yourself down and really soak in the flavors of the meal, never wanting to forget the memories that came along with the food in front of you.

“Thanks ‘Zuku, that was incredible. Just…thank you for always doing little things like this to keep my mothers memory alive, you have no idea how much I appreciate it,” you thank your green-haired boyfriend.

“Anything for you. I loved your mom too, so even I enjoy doing this for you,” he responds, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek, “Hmm, but the night’s not over yet. Your mom’s star is waiting for us.”

And with that you both head to your usual spot at the nearby park. Just like each night on this day every year, the sky is perfectly clear so you can see each star. The brightest star in the sky glows invitingly to you, spreading warmth within you at the prospect that it could be your mom.

“Hi mom,” you whisper, wishing you could reach up to touch the star, wishing you could hug your mom again, “Thanks for coming.”

You laugh sadly to yourself, tears once again welling in your eyes. They were a mixture of happy and sad tears. Sad because you of course missed your mom, but also happy, because it felt comforting to have the star glowing brightly over you with the idea that it was your mother watching you from above.

“Y/N,” you hear Midoriya call your name from beside you.

You were standing, looking up at the stars, but turned your head to the right, where his voice came from. The sight before you was very unexpected and almost had you falling to the floor.

To your right, Midoriya was down on one knee with a box in his hand as he looked up at you with watery eyes and a gentle smile. The glow of the moon and some nearby street lamps illuminated his face, making him look particularly handsome–more handsome than usual as he was completely vulnerable in front of you in that moment.

“I don’t know if this is the best time to be doing this. And by all means, you don’t have to feel obligated to say yes, but I’m a man who loves getting permission from my partner's parents before deciding to marry them. Tonight you mom is here watching over us,” he points up at the star that you’d both labeled as your mother’s before continuing his speech, wiping the tears out of his eyes a bit, “So, what better day to ask for your hand in marriage than right now with your mom here as a witness.”

Your breath catches in your throat at his beautiful, thoughtful words, but he’s not done yet.

“Y/N, I love you so much. Maybe even a little too much, but I have no regrets being with you. These past few years have been some of your hardest, yet I only seem to fall even deeper in love with you as the years progress. Whether through your happiest or darkest days, I want to be by your side forever as your husband. I want to be able to officially call you mine and have your pain become my pain as we become life-long partners. So, Y/N L/N, would you do me the honor of making me your husband?”

Tears were falling down both of your faces. You were filled with so many emotions, but in the moment, joy overpowered all your other feelings. You were at a loss for words, and your endless sobbing wouldn’t allow you to say much, so you just said whatever came to your head first, “It would be my honor.”

He places the ring on your finger, happy tears falling down his face as he scoops you up in his arms, pressing kisses to your lips. He was the happiest man alive now that he was your fiancé.

Now a day of sadness would be a day of happiness and celebration for the two of you as a future married couple, but you’d both still of course still commemorate the loss of your mother. This was a huge step for the both of you–no longer would you be alone, but your life-long partner would be by your side every step of the way to help you navigate through life without your mom. New happy memories together were just waiting to be made, and your mom will be there every step of the way, watching over you.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D

Posted: 11/18/2022

[fischltao]

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AOT SQUIRTING HEADCANONS

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request by: @multi-fandoms-stuff

"can I pretty request an imagine for aot eren, erwin, levi, connie, armin, jean, reiner, bertolt, ymir, and mikasa about them making there s/o squirt for the first time and there reaction, have the reader get all shy and trys to hide her face??"

notes: ahhh thank you so much for requesting, again im very sorry for the delay and late update, im back on writing now!

warnings: smut, squirting, overstimulation, bodily fluids

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Eren Jeager:

You and Eren have got it going on for a few hours with him and his titan stamina plunging into you without letting you rest for a minute. You haven't even kept track of how long it's been or how many times he's made you cum that night, only focusing on his cock stretching you open and the way he is holding your throat. It's not long until your next orgasm arrives but oh, this time it feels different and suddenly you're squirting all over him and his cock as he keeps fucking you deeper and harder.

"Eren, I need to clean up, Im so sorry I didn't know this would happen, oh my-" You wail while pushing your hands over your face but instead of him stopping he just snaps his hips against yours harder and says:

"No. You're doing it again" Needless to say, you do, indeed.

Erwin Smith:

On your break you had snuck inside Erwin's office to steal a couple of kisses which soon ended up with you laying on the table all over his paperwork and him taking out his emotions on your poor pussy, to the point where you swear someone's going to walk in with a noise complain- not just due to your loud moans- but also due to the fact that his unsteady table is repeatedly creaking on the wooden floor.

"Erwin, I'm so close, Erwin I-ERWIN" You scream as you realize what is actually happening and not being able to hold it in. Both of you are freaking the fuck out. On any other situation he would find this really hot and treat you so good for squirting on him but you just came all over important papers which needed to be delivered awfully soon and neither has zero idea of what the hell you're supposed to do now. You freaking out must have been even louder than your sex noises and now you're adamant that everyone heard.

This was a different walk of shame

Levi Ackerman:

He had just changed the sheets to your shared bedroom when you walked in half naked after your shower, instantly igniting something inside him. The past few weeks had been really tiring for both and the only way to take your exhaustion away was having you bounce on his cock until you were in tears and shaking.

"You're gonna cum baby? I'm so fucking close too" He whispered in your ear like a lullaby in-between heavy breaths as he moved your hair out of your face and locked his eyes with yours. His movements were so gentle and passionate until you both grew desperate for your release and soon he was guiding your hips faster and sloppier while smacking your ass. It wasn't long until you started shaking while he filled you up. After you both came down from your highs you gained awareness of your surroundings and immediately shrunk to yourself.

"What are you hiding away for?"

"You just changed the sheets"

"I can always put another ones" He said awkwardly as you tried to shift away from his lap, when he pulled you right back in "It would be a shame if i changed them while they're only this wet. We might as well just ruin them completely"

Connie Springer:

Sasha and Jean were sleeping on the couch next to you after a nice dinner and Connie was feeling really turned on, right from the start of the night when you felt his fingers creeping up inside your panties and circling over your clit before teasing their way inside.

"Can we at least go somewhere isolated? I feel bad for-" You choked trying not to make a sound as his finger where now dipping in and out of your cunt in a desperate need of feeling your walls clench around them "Connie-"

"It's too comfy here, try to be more quiet baby" He whispered back as he lifted your skirt and pushed his tip inside not letting it all in but rather slipping it in and then pulling out and rubbing on your clit until you felt yourself cumming. Hard.

You were trying so hard to not make a noise until you realized what actually happened and turned around to look at your boyfriend in shock with heat rising up your cheeks. This cheeky motherfucker was looking back at you with the biggest smirk before plunging his entire length inside. Definitely proud of himself... And you definetely have to clean up before a) Jean and/or Sasha wake up b) Captain Levi haunts your dreams.

Jean Kirschstein:

Jean and you had been sent on different expenditions for the week so it was safe to say that you really missed spending time with each other. And him inside you.

Once he closes his room's door he already has you pushed against the wall and taking you right there while standing up. Jean is the romantic type but missing you made him desperate for your touch. You were sure you were seeing stars at one point, the way he pressed against you was magnificent and it just kept getting better and better until you felt the bubble inside you burst and soon your juices were everywhere on the floor. Everywhere.

You instantly felt like hiding away and audibly apologized while he still fucked the shit out of you. Confused he started slowing down and voiced his concern over your sudden apology until he realized what went down and blushed. 'Thats it, its over' you thought. Suddenly the most unexpected thing happened. A huge smile crept on his face "I made you squirt! Oh my god you look so hot, I bet Eren would never be able to make a girl sq-" He exclaimed before you kicked his leg.

Armin Arlet:

Armin is such a sweet young man. He had you laid on the bed for him as he slowly fucked into you, gasping in between kisses and telling you just how much he loves you. Gaining more confidence in yourself your moans became louder and louder and soon his pace changed into sharp and quick thrusts.

Your orgasm hit you like a freight train and cherished the way he was the one to make you scream and breathe like that. He felt so blessed that you chose him as the man to have inside your velvet walls and-

Why is the bed wet? Did the rain get through the wooden roof? Why are you trying to hide away? Armin genuinely had no clue.

"Is everything okay baby? Do you feel uncomfortable with the waters?" He asked as more color rose up to your cheeks, refusing to look in his eyes as you awkwardly tried to explain what had happened was not a leak in the roof "What did you say?"

"I squirted"

"Oh"

"Yes"

"This is way more exciting than a leaking roof...Way more"

Reiner Braun:

Reiner is an emotional man and it shows when you get intimate with each other. One time he has you on all fours, with a finger deep in your asshole as he rails your guts.

"Noone else can fuck you like that fuck- what is it baby, is there anyone else that will fuck you this good? Have you crying from their cock? Use your words princess come on" He gasped as his own tears were threatening to fall, seeking emotional validation as well as pleasure as you tried to form a coherent sentence while sobbing "Didn't think so darling, you're such a whore for me"

And in the heat of the moment the offspring of his actions and words erupted from your throat as a loud scream and your juices squirted all over his lap for the first time. The sighting made Reiner cum in an instant and neither had the energy to talk about it, until he embraced you tightly from behind and thanked you for allowing him to be with you and sharing your most vulnerable moment with him.

Berthold Hoover:

His cock felt so good as you bounced on it . In a way it was therapeutic and for the past 7 minutes you've been in this position you've felt constantly on the edge and your thighs burned until sweet release washed you over and soon you were clasping poor Bert's shoulders as you screamed and squirted all over him while he pulled his dick out of your spent pussy and slapped its head on your clit as he watched more liquid come out.

After your orgasm died down a little, instant shame washed over you and you tried hopping away before he hugged you tightly and swayed you without realizing that hes accidentally rubbing you on his cock again and that you are about to pass out....

Ymir:

Ymir is a big tease. A really big one. Proof being her refusing to finally push her fingers inside your soaked slit, instead choosing to just rub up and down while slipping half an inch inside before you grew desperate and moved your own fingers to your clit and rubbing vigorously.

"Fuck" You heard her exclaim before plunging two of her fingers inside "Don't stop touching yourself baby, wanna make you cum like that" She commanded as her fingers dove in and out as fast as she could while you screamed under her touch. Your orgasm came fast and before you knew it, Ymir was soaking wet with your juices . "Never knew my girl could squirt, makes me wish I ate you out instead" She says before diving in.

Mikasa Ackerman:

It was a quiet night with Mika as you laid on your bed next to each other. Your conversation ended with your fingers in her pussy and hers in yours. Both struggled with the pace as you chased your release and her moans in your ear caused you to lose control and instantly let go and clench around her fingers as clear liquid soaked the sheets right beneath you and she turned her head to look at you in awe.

"I'm so sorry Mikasa I didn't know this would-"

"Do you think I can do this too?" She asked with flushed cheeks and an innocent look on her face.

"Eh? Squirt?" You asked and before she had the chance to nod you took out the dildo from your drawer and plunged it deep into her dripping pussy.

[suguru-getos]

(Omg I almost forgot the 2k event shame on me-)

I'm here for a matchup ! I'm an INFP-T 6w5 and a Capricorn. I'm also a depressed bitch relying on humor and bad jokes to survive the hazards of life (and music too. Lots of music. Looots of music. I can't go through a day without music.)

I'm a hypersensitive individual, meaning I can take things very seriously, emotionally speaking (I'm not saying I'm crying over everything but oof I sure get depressed.) I also have a poor physical constitution, so no stamina, no strength, and I overall struggle a lot to keep up the rhythm because of it. In short, I am w e a k both mentally and physically

My love languages are physical touch, gift-giving, and quality time ! (And bantering haha) I love giving hugs and headpats to my loved ones and I melt when I receive some (I'm actually very touch-starved...) Nothing makes me happier than seeing them smile so I often go to great lengths to do so, whether it's finding the perfect gift, helping them when they're into trouble, or just finding time for them in my overbooked schedule.

Finally, I exude the energy of a cat. I like to lay around, I'm easily scared/surprised/panicked and I like to mess around my loved ones. I would spend my day sleeping in my bed to wake up at night and bullshit around and spam my friends.

Hope this will do, have a nice day En <3

thanks for participating 🤍

I SHALL GRANT YOU ALHAITHAM AS A MATCHUP

this man has no interest in music and other things. he feels they are distracting in a way. but then when he fell for you? he HAS to know all ur favs, he wants to be a part of all the things you do <3 behold him, sitting beside you and listening to songs. sometimes he thinks deep and thinks of any deeper meanings within those songs. then, scoffs at himself, saying it’s pointless anyways. its not to him anymore

he sometimes takes the mum role and asks you to take care of urself. no he will not stop, he will make sure you eat well, sometimes even goes on walks with you w the assurance that he will carry you later on. and how much physical movement is necessary.

in the beginning yall had arguments bc this man as no filter 😭 but upon understanding more about you, knowing which things would be okay as banter versus which could actually hurt you. man’s now stored w knowledge about you better than any knowledge capsule 😤

alhaitham has all your gifts stored, the cards you gave laminated, everything is kept like a precious monument to be treasured for generations grr! also, he is also very meticulous at gift giving. so expect the same from him

man titties good for hugging. headpats always whenever u finish the soup he made for u? headpat, whenever u worked out a little? good job w a headpat.

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