#its also annoying pushing this view and standard onto others who don't do this. like its truly something i dont like about myself
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um love is. uh. some people are saying it's unconditional? anyone else heard this? cannot wrap my mind around it.
#personal#i think ive talked to therapists about this before as well bcs i just struggle with definitions but i cannot understand the concept#which isn't like. normal or good. apparently. love cannot be exchanged for goods and services ? and vice versa?#i genuinely cannot grasp just being liked for who i am as a person#in part also bcs who i am as a person is different when im alone than when im with others. like everyone.#i do not understand how friendship works if it is not a perpetual exchange of favors#hey you can tell im my father's child haha everything is transactional !#no but really how do i get rid of it. its getting annoying feeling unloved based on ridiculous standards.#its also annoying pushing this view and standard onto others who don't do this. like its truly something i dont like about myself#therapists haven't been able to make it make sense but maybe tumblr will#last tag is a joke but genuinely if you have insight. spill.
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f1twt has been popping off since the race ended too. someone posted a clip of lando asking his engineer to "SPEAK up" bc you know, his engineer was giving him important information about the tyres and gaps to other drivers at that point. heaven forbid lando want to actually hear that information. anyway they posted that clip with this big rant about how "if yuki told his race engineer to shut up, we/f1 would be attacking him instead of laughing about it" and i was genuinely sitting there reading all of the replies like. people just say things without even listening to the 5 second clips they're discussing anymore because you can very clearly hear him ask his engineer to SPEAK up. it doesn't even remotely sound like shut up. (not to mention lando had been asking will off and on the entire race to please speak louder because he was having trouble hearing him). but point is these people really just say anything without 1 second to check if it's really true. i also. idk. as a poc, find it rlly weird to be using the actual racism faced by drivers on the grid to push an agenda against a driver you don't like, instead of viewing it as it's own separate and real issue? like do u actually even care about the racism or is it just looking for reasons to hate and push an agenda against another driver u care about. anyway sorry this is long, that pissed me off since i saw it but there are 0 braincells among f1twt as a collective so i rlly did not want to say anything and have them coming at me fjskcks
ok this is kind of bizarre bc i DID see the post talking about lando telling will to shut up and how yuki would've been crucified for it, but it DIDNT include the clip in it. tbh u couldve seen a similar take but i actually think ur misremembering the post, mostly bc no one was picking on lando for the 'speak up' radio (even outside of that post), they were talking about when he cut will off somewhere in those last 20 laps saying "i see i see i see, i'm pushing mate". and then the yuki fan CONTINUED TO SAY that lando's radio was 'nothing serious', they were just pointing out the double standard of how the journos / comms / fandom / marko rinsed yuki and claimed he was not fit for f1 because of his 'angry' radios. i do think that fan was wrong bc lando very much got similar critiques after sochi21, but to be fair to them most fans on twt weren't watching f1 3 years ago so like i wouldn't hold it against them. idk like twitter IS full of idiotic takes & the algorithm will push the most annoying ppl ever onto ur timeline in order for u to take the ragebait and engage, but like. i rly dont think this fan was hating on lando in general or was even in the wrong for venting their frustrations w how yuki is constantly carricaturised and underestimated. which again - maybe im talking abt another fan but its unlikely bc its this one who caught ALL the flack from all my lando stan mutuals so i think its the tweet ur also referencing.
anyways i dont think its necessarily making it a race thing to point out if theres double standards between drivers (especially re: british bias) even though again i dont think in this case they were correct specifically abt lando. but i also wouldnt find it outlandish to consider the outrage re: yuki's swearing is part of a bigger pattern of how east asian men r treated. i think yuki has been infantilised and woobified bc of his race and height throughout his career, and the cognitive dissonance created when he swears a lot (perfectly normal for ppl who dont speak much english / are ESL to swear liberally) is bc ppl cant concieve of the innocent little baby yuki in their heads being an adult man who can use swear words. and i think in that respect his career & public perception has had a similar trajectory to lando (who is infantilised for different non-race-related reasons lol), which is why i have a lot of compassion for yuki fans who r frustrated with it. especially in a casual liveblog situation that wasn't meant to be a Big Statement. but idk maybe thats my yuki bias showing
#you guys know its SO rare for me to defend smth that looks like lando hate#but i legit am not mad at that one tweet#i woke up to this ask after id already gotten mad on twt abt the same situation yesterday night#so i just immediately got pissed off and closed the app LOL#anyways i think abt ku's essay on the infantilisation of drivers of colour (and esp asian drivers) ALL the time i need to find it again#and like also just to add like. i am white so like i hope it doesnt sound like im speaking over ur opinion on what u think is or isnt racis#i feel its super fair to think that ppl r performative abt their anti-racism in fandom spaces and esp f1 bc its SO true like 100%#i just feel like in this one instance the fan was entitled to say what they said#yuki#lando#meta#ask#anon
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I don’t view people criticizing the story (whether they’re using the words “bad writing” or not) as a direct attack on the ccs though? Everyone writing analysis, positive or negative, is just expressing an opinion online. And a lot of time it’s because they’re having fun and like to express themselves on the internet? And if they weren’t having fun they wouldn’t do it? Someone who says something is “bad writing” could also praise the ccs’ acting a day later. It’s a little 😐 to make it out like any literary critique is pushing past the boundaries of the creator, even something like the smp. I don’t understand this hyper-positivity mindset and don’t understand how people reach that conclusion without some form of defensiveness. It’s media. /nm /gen
I wish I could explain why the "bad writing" thing feels different to me from a lot of other criticism. Because I'm definitely not hyper-positive - in fact people would call me hyper-negative well before they'd say that - and I cover A LOT of discourse. Some of it really, genuinely heavy; this, in comparison, is incredibly small potatoes. And yet something about it unsettles me - I don't know why.
I think it might be the sheer amount of posts that were EVERYWHERE about it - or the way some people imply that you're stupid or wrong for disagreeing with the idea that it's poorly written - or the standards that some people are holding this RP and its creators to - or just the ~vibes~ I was getting. (Or maybe I'm just being a worrywart and projecting my irl stress onto this LOL.)
I don't think I implied that anyone was pushing boundaries of the creator ? Sorry if I did, that wasn't my message at all. I'm just saying that when you criticize the writing, that's different from criticizing the actions of a character in-world. It doesn't mean it's a hyper-personal attack against Tommy and Dream - I'm aware - but it isn't "lore discourse" in the traditional sense, y'know? (Though I don't agree with what I think you're implying about people praising cc's acting in the next breath - I could call someone annoying and then tell them I like their hair but that compliment doesn't negate what I said first lol)
If they're having fun being critical I'm happy for them ! Genuinely, I do a lot of that and I hate when people call me a poor sport. (I know that Spoon - my beloved - thinks it's bad writing and is just vibing.) But - and maybe I'm misreading the energy here - it just didn't read like they were. It read like they were genuinely frustrated and sad and annoyed at the direction the writers chose to take and that's not fun for anybody (which sucks - like I want them to be having a good time)
I don't know ! I really am pro-criticism so maybe I'm the hypocrite here - I just feel off about the wave of discourse that's happening.
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