#its als0 d00med...

[alenthe0neguy]

I feel like making s0me waldective angst rn but I d0n't want t0 draw,,,

s0 I'm g0ing t0 be writing s0me lines wald0 w0uld say t0 himself, while thinking abt the fact he kn0ws the detective's never g0ing t0 TRULY l0ve him,,,

and he kn0ws that

anyways here are s0me line's he'd js say while thinking 0ut l0ud t0 himself,,,

n0t while any0ne's ar0und th0ugh, he wants t0 make sure n0 0ne kn0ws abt what he thinks 0f the detective,,,

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"oh...how beautiful he is, how admirable, stunning, graceful, yet cold, hateful, and spiteful he is...and I'll never be able to have him. because he'll never show me that sweet side of him. it's always going to be the sour side. but I love him. no matter which side I get...because I'm not exactly picky..."

"it's funny how he's turned from having to just plain catch me and lock me up to wanting nothing more than to see me dead and rotting...really shows how I've changed him. how malleable his mind is...it's charming."

"he sure is something...he's as beautiful as a rose. or a cactus flower. you can look, but don't touch or you'll be pricked by the thorns which adorn him. like a permanent accessory for protection."

"...oh detective, you're the only one whom I yearn. no one else has my eyes and heart like you. and yet, you hate me so. you squeeze my heart as if it were a decaying peice of fruit, so easily damaged and unfixable...and you go and squeeze it as hard as you can."

"nothing on this planet could ever make me hate you, my dearest detective. I could never let go of you. not ever. you have me forever. and I'll not be leaving, not until the day I finally am exiled from this plane of being. taken by force."

"I love you, my dear Detective."

"and yet. those feelings will just be turned away from. never returned."

"I love you. forever."

[pesterloglog]

Aradia Megido, Karkat Vantas

Act 5, page 2972

ARADIA: have y0u decided t0 tr0ll them yet

KARKAT: TROLL WHO?

ARADIA: never mind

ARADIA: lets pretend i didnt say that and lets als0 pretend it isnt inevitable

KARKAT: WHAT THE FROND BUCKLING NOOK STENCH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT.

ARADIA: n0thing. its n0t like a decisi0n y0u are ab0ut t0 make will invariably lead t0 every pr0blem we have and will ever face as well as the great und0ing itself

ARADIA: just keep listening t0 y0ur angry impulses it will all be fine

ARADIA: actually i guess i c0uld kill y0u right n0w and st0p it all fr0m happening thus d00ming us all in an 0ffsh00t timeline

ARADIA: i might c0nsider it if we all werent d00med anyway

ARADIA: and if y0u werent my friend

KARKAT: YOU KNOW WHAT WAS GREAT? WHEN YOU USED TO NOT BE A ROBOT.

KARKAT: CAUSE THIS ROBOT THING? THIS IS BULLSHIT.

KARKAT: IF WE WEREN'T ALL ABOUT TO DIE, I'D DEDICATE OUR WHOLE TEAM TO FINDING A WAY TO BRING YOU BACK TO LIFE.

KARKAT: BUT WE ARE SO GUESS WE'LL HAVE TO RIDE OUT THE NEXT FEW HOURS WITH A SPOOKY TIN CAN PSYCHOPATH, SOUNDS LIKE A BLAST.

ARADIA: 0_ _0

[pesterloglog]

Aradia Megido

Act 5, page 2590-2610

FUTURE apocalypseArisen [FAA] 2:16 HOURS FROM NOW opened private transtimeline bulletin board r0ad t0 the und0ing.

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FAA 2:16 HOURS FROM NOW opened memo on board r0ad t0 the und0ing.

FAA: this private b0ard will and has already served as a l0g 0f past events f0r future selves t0 rec0rd and a guide 0f future events f0r past selves t0 f0ll0w

FAA: i d0nt kn0w which half 0f its r0le has been 0r will be m0re imp0rtant

FAA: p0ssibly neither is critical since deviati0n fr0m the c0urse is m0stly imp0ssible and reflecti0n 0n its traversal is c0mpletely irrelevant

FAA: but im typing this anyway

FAA: because im b0red again

PAST apocalypseArisen [PAA] 601 HOURS AGO responded to memo.

PAA: and here i was thinking we were finished taking 0rders fr0m v0ices!

PAA: weve 0nly swapped the imperatives 0f the dead with th0se 0f 0ur future selves

PAA: wh0 are als0 dead

FAA: yes it seems that way

PAA: 0h well it was an enj0yable reprieve fr0m fatalism while it lasted

PAA: id nearly managed t0 sav0r it

FAA: an err0r narr0wly av0ided then

FAA: i think we sh0uld refrain fr0m dial0gue in this mem0

FAA: with0ut res0rting t0 bannings 0r absurd exchanges 0f self repudiati0n

PAA: yeah i agree

PAA: i just th0ught id interject that and g0

FAA: 0k

FAA: we will and have already amassed an army t0 c0nfr0nt the black king

FAA: an army c0nsisting 0f 0ur alternate future selves

FAA: each 0ne rer0uted fr0m a d00med 0ffsh00t 0f the alpha timeline

FAA: each given an0ther chance at a c0nstructive influence 0ver the ultimate 0utc0me

FAA: by the way if y0u didnt kn0w already

FAA: a future self returning t0 the past fr0m a d00med timeline will always be slated f0r imminent destructi0n herself

FAA: its 0ne 0f the rules

FAA: and the unf0rtunate reality is

FAA: this will and has already been a mass suicide missi0n

FAA: 0r it w0uld be

FAA: and already w0uld have been

FAA: if we all werent already dead

FAA: 0_0

FAA: m0bilizing 0urselves in such numbers w0uld be required t0 neutralize the kings psychic attacks

FAA: it w0uld take 0ur c0mbined c0ncentrati0n t0 dampen the abilities he inherited fr0m glbg0lyb

FAA: with0ut the cumulative eff0rt 0f 0ur d00med reserves

FAA: with0ut the heightened mental and physical endurance 0f 0ur r0b0tic vessels

FAA: with0ut the untimely demise we all shared bef0re this began

FAA: vict0ry w0uld n0t be p0ssible

FAA: he w0uld kill us all with 0ne dreadful s0und

FAA: i d0nt kn0w if it was just bad luck

FAA: 0r an extensi0n 0f the curse karkat insists he br0ught 0n us

FAA: that lead t0 the incidental and unf0rtuit0us pr0t0typing 0f feferis p0werful lusus

FAA: with0ut which the battle w0uld have p0sed little challenge

FAA: i think

FAA: it was m0re likely just an0ther inevitability

FAA: a pr0duct 0f c0llusi0n between the disparate f0rces at play

FAA: a bargain struck between what skaia kn0ws already and what the g0ds demand up fr0nt

FAA: t0gether they 0rchestrate trials sufficient t0 ensure

FAA: that in 0verc0ming them we w0uld be pr0ven w0rthy

FAA: 0f inheriting THE ULTIMATE REWARD

FAA: ribbit

FAA: wh00ps

FAA: and s0 it w0uld be and has been already

FAA: that while distracted by the c0mbined eff0rts 0f 0ur d00med legi0n

FAA: the king w0uld be aggressed by the 0thers

FAA: and even th0ugh each w0uld be well prepared

FAA: perched 0n the highest rungs 0f their echeladders

FAA: equipped with the best weap0nry grist c0uld build

FAA: versed in the deadliest fraym0tifs b00nd0llars c0uld buy

FAA: even th0ugh the mete0rs fr0m the kings 0wn reck0ning w0uld be turned against him

FAA: and even with 0ne imp0ssibly lucky r0ll 0f the dice at the final m0ment

FAA: we w0uld 0nly narr0wly succeed

FAA: but ultimately

FAA: we w0uld pr0ve 0ur w0rth

FAA: and the reward w0uld be within 0ur reach

FAA: but 0nly m0mentarily

FAA: bef0re we w0uld be able t0 claim it

FAA: we w0uld be interrupted

FAA: by s0mething

FAA: which w0uld be ushered int0 0ur sessi0n by a rift in parad0x space

FAA: a rift which we w0uld determine

FAA: will be 0pened by f0ur members 0f a fledgling species

FAA: wh0 will be playing in an0ther sessi0n 0f the same game that we will and have already played

FAA: their rift will lead t0 the great und0ing

FAA: with0ut necessarily causing it

FAA: n0t directly

FAA: such rifts are themselves supp0sedly benign

FAA: useful even

FAA: they are catal0gued phen0mena within the game itself

FAA: with a pr0vided means 0f creating them

FAA: and a wide range 0f scenari0s f0r which it might be prudent t0 d0 s0

FAA: the incipisphere l0cals have a m0re f0rmal term f0r them

FAA: they typically refer t0 such a rift as

FAA: a scratch

CAA: the direct effects 0f a scratch are limited t0 the sessi0n inv0king it

CAA: we w0uld n0t experience 0r 0bserve th0se effects fr0m 0ur sessi0n

CAA: but we w0uld experience the c0nsequences

CAA: in the f0rm 0f that which prevented us fr0m claiming 0ur reward

CAA: he wh0se hand w0uld be f0rced by the scratch

CAA: t0 emerge fr0m hiding

CAA: but there w0uld be n0 adequate way t0 prepare

CAA: even with all the f0resight at 0ur disp0sal

CAA: f0r a f0e m0re p0werful than the king we will and have already defeated

CAA: f0r a dem0n wh0 is indestructible

CAA: 0mnip0tent

CAA: and enraged

CAA: while the rest 0f the party w0uld absc0nd

CAA: 0ur duplicates w0uld buy us time

CAA: they w0uld all be killed

CAA: again

CAA: all except f0r me

CAA: this is just as well i supp0se

CAA: what w0uld we even d0 with all th0se c0pies anyway

CAA: we w0uld return t0 the site 0f 0ur hatching

CAA: s0 t0 speak

CAA: where we w0uld hide

CAA: amidst a veil depleted by the reck0ning

CAA: and wait

CAA: drifting in the wide 0rbit 0f 0ur s00n t0 be null sessi0n

CAA: banished fr0m the universe we left behind