#its 6 am and i havent slept but holy fuck im so damn happy

[graveyarddeer]

holy shit this sounds so stupid but while yeah im still severely mental of ill and i have a ton of problems i have yet to face ive genuinely felt happier than i have in years- im finally soing online school so i can finally focus moee on art and finally having time to learn how to code and do comics, im finally taking birth control so my dysphoria is lower, im away from my now ex toxic friend group, and im finally learning how to love the dream smp (my biggest special interest to date) again now that im in a place where someone isnt constantly bringing me down for my likes just- yeah the worlds on fucking fire right now but im finally in a headspace to where i can say with certainty that everythings going to be okay. i can throw away my pencil sharpener bc i wont need it, i can finally eat without guilt, i can finally look at my life and my body and say "im content with this" and just- holy fuck it feels so nice to finally be able to say that. im content with my life. im content with my body and my identity. im learning how to love myself again and holy shit, im happy. i may not have a partner, i may not have a binder yet, but holy shit im finally fucking happy.