#its 3 days at school opposed to 5 and yet i'm still struggling to stay on top of hw and stuff bc i just Cannot Focus
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anyone got tips for burnout bc i have it Bad and all the google tips are just "do some activities you like! mindfulness!" and those do not work for me ever
#clai speaks#i want to vent in the tags... i know i dont post negatively here ever but. hhdbdhhfirhfjhejfbf dying#look college is ok but. honestly i'm not coping with the change well#its 3 days at school opposed to 5 and yet i'm still struggling to stay on top of hw and stuff bc i just Cannot Focus#i havent felt well rested in fucking years!! i can have no work due and still dread GETTING work later or feeling i forgot something#its a vicious cycle that i never get a break from ever no matter what. its so fucking exhausting i'm so tired all the time#i canhave the simplest task as hw. idk upload some files. and it takes like 2 hours to hype myself up to do it#and then another hour to Fucking Do It bc i get distracted so easily or stare at my screen for no reason other than I Dont Want To Do This#even a five minute task just drains me completely and i feel exhausted. its so awful#it sometimes even makes me too tired to do stuff i DO like doing because then they ALSO feel like work!! and i despise it!!#on top of that my mom keeps nudging me to find a job. yeah i get it i need one and want one so i can make some money and all that#but also i dont want it. the thought of a job right now makes me feel sick#i'm already struggling with schoolwork ypu want me to add more actual work on top of that???#i'm out of the house at 6am. get home at 3-5pm. hw on top of that. 12+ hours of work in a day is inhumane#but i cant tell my mom any of these problems bc she already thinks i'm lazy!! she never takes my problems seriously#wish i could go over this shit with a therapist but she stopped taking me to therapy skgdkvdkdbdj fucking let me speak to her i'm begging#someone just teach me how to Focus On My Work how do people do it i just. cannot.#you could probably threaten me with death and i'd still not be motivated to do anything but still panic over it
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