#its 1am dont talk to me

[guessilllive]

Spot the difference!

Just two smol hamsters. Doing hamster shit.

Consistent art style? Don't know her. Wish I did tho.

[ganondoodle]

everyones more than welcome to send me asks about stuff* btw, i know i havent been that good in answering, but i think thats largely bc i always want to do too much, like .. drawing entire character design sheets and everything and then never having the energy or motivation for it so it sits around like all of my hundreds of wips i never finished bc i lost energy/motivation, waiting for it to come back .. which might never happen (and i still dont know how to handle compliments ,, i might never will tbh- if i havent answered a compliment its very very likely i dont know how to properly convey my gratitude- feeling like theres no amount of things i can do or say to 'pay back'? ... kinda weird if you think about it .. but i am weird so what do i know jsklfnhsdk, i promise you i treasure it)

im pretty sure not everyone that sends an ask expects a drawing or multiple and pages long text right? thats my skewed perspective isnt it?

*stuff being like .. about my ocs, about my zelda comic, about the totk rewrite project, suggestions, ideas, rants too, kind of anything though im less likely to respond to personal things (and in case theres anyone newer to tumblr, asks dont have to be literal questions, you can write in those what you want, i like them alot bc its a lil message without the chat type of commitment to it ... im even worse at keeping up responding in chats (not intentionally .. my short term memory sucks) o3o)

[chamom1le-t3a]

hi i made this today *gets rotten tomtoed*

[hollowfacility]

Agh, I've been feeling kinda distant to people lately. It's probably my fault for not really reaching out, but I also kinda feel it online. Idk, im probably feeling like this because I havent slept lol. I feel really bad for needing validation and reminders that people like me, but it's easy to get just by doing simple things, which you would think means that people do like me, but it just feels fake and cheap, and I dont want to ask too much of people, so it feels like im caught between feeling like shit because I constantly need validation and feeling like im a fake friend because the things that get me validation are simple for me to do. Im not doing them just to get validation, but the fact that I get it makes it feel like im taking advantage of someone, when its just really that they like the things I do. Idk, ill probably delete this if I remember to

[shutup-andletme-go]

I cannot rely on one person for me to be happy my happiness isn't allowed to be only triggered by one person I can be happy at every little thing it doesn't matter about this one person

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

i should stop starting video games so late at night bc now i dont want to sleep <3

[todayisafridaynight]

what are your interests that aren’t yakuza

uhm. a lot !!! I think !!!

[favoriteliar]

forgot what my inquisitor looked like so i just made Some Guy and when they walked on screen i was literally like "who the hell are you"

[pineappical]

so that finale huh.

[cairmyart]

i JUST watched bam's house ep with mark today and honestly (for me) it feels so different to watch got7 content from other groups. i always say i feel like they're like my best friends or family and it feels so warm and safe watching them just talking abt their stuff and laughing together :(

[kinkassassin]

i just redirected a sip of my drink mid-gulp to unchoke myself...i’ve ascended beyond my earthly shell...a slay beyond comprehension

[solcarow]

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[superchat]

Hey fathör. Genuine question. How do you get like okay with the idea of like "it's better if I'm alone"? Cause I really resonated with some of the posts you've made talking about that but like the idea of being alone also kinda makes me scared. Like how do you get over that feeling?

uhmmmmmmm, im not the best person to ask cuz i have Problems and have had zero therapy in my life. im on no medications and have no diagnosis i am confident in saying i have, other than general depression but even then i dont know the extant that i have it, or the ways i feel it or deal with it.

generally the feeling doesnt go away. for me itts an unhealthy battle of "will my selfishness win or my will?" cuz its always conflicting feelings of "i dont think i should be friends with ppl cuz i can be shitty and im not mature enough for them" vs. "i am lonely and want to talk and connect with ppl" and eventually my selfishness wins and i start talking to ppl again even tho i cant justify itt to myself so

ive always been kind of a solitary person, or someone who enjoys their alone time. over the years its gotten more? worse?

humhumhum i noticed a ttrend over time where i like. get in like, a better mood and then act like an ass in some way or another and that will knock down my self esteem and stuff

last year was very eventful in a lot of bad ways and after it ive had enough things settle in my head that its okay to stay away from others for my own good as well as theirs. i kind of live in a constant "i dont think im being a good enough friend" while also feeling very exhausted as if im doing a lot but like really, im not. after many months this is still the case so i think itts just the new standard for me

[necrothezma]

I feel like I have to apologize for reblogging from a random ass person but sometimes I go to people's to study them then I find content from a deactivated person and it's like fuck! I have no choice now

[preicia]

we love to see it! (sarcasm)

[zhuhongs]

ya ever feel a feeling and you're like. so fully aware it is a poor response to smth but all u wanna do is indulge in that knee jerk reaction... yea