#its 12 o clock and im on a harry potter rant

[gaylienz]

i fucking REFUSE to believe that Draco Malfoy went on to marry a pureblood girl and have one (1) pureblood son/heir and did basically nothing with his life besides being rich with hints of longing to be something more. 

Like YES JK ROWLING it is GOOD that he and Astoria decided to raise their child in such a way that he doesn’t hate muggles or halfblood or muggleborns but COME ON GIVE ME MORE. 

Give me Draco Malfoy who was every inch the bully, every inch privileged and cruel who suddenly found out that everything he believed in was false and watched it crumble to dust around him as he fought to find it inside of himself to be a killer. And is UNABLE TO.HE CAN’T FUCKING STOMACH IT.  He spends nearly two years being terrified for his life, for his family. He fuckin weeps, loses weight, is uninterested in the things he once loved. 

YES. His fucking conscious is awakened. I say a fucking LOT is awakened. It fucking BETTER BE. Like the realization that his whole situation fucking sucks and JK ROWLING uses the word “conditioning” to describe his life up to this point. Conditioning. I’d maybe call it a bit of brain washing.   And the boy is SMART. He’s second in their year. He HATES not knowing things. And if he suddenly realized everything he’s been taught is one big LIE...then what is the TRUTH??

He’s gonna fucking find out. 

Even if it’s humiliating or mortifying or confusing (like going into muggle London and walking around and exploring) because he is no longer standing fully on power and pride. No, most of that is gone. All he has left is money and curiosity and a burning desire not to let this tiny bit of light inside himself burn out into nothingness.  

And maybe yes, JK ROWLING he DOES love his parents, they love him, its one of their few redeeming qualities. That wouldn’t stop him from being resentful, from never trusting them fully ever again, questioning everything they ever told him and will tell him. 

he does NOT want to be his father. he doesn’t want to keep the cycle going. he loves his father but, he is gonna fuckin do his best to be as FAR from him as possible.FUCK your living off the money (he’s gonna do stuff with those alchemy books you say he reads whimsically, he’s going to learn even if it isnt for the money), FUCK your long hair and pony tails and dark severe clothing looking exactly like Lucius, FUCK your perfect Slytherin, pureblood but NOT Evil wife and 1 child who looks like Draco (like Draco looked Lucius) (bc as JK Rowling said, it “ is perfectly consistent with Draco’s character that he would find it easy to shut down emotion, to compartmentalise, and to deny essential parts of himself”.) DING. DING. DING.

HE’S GAY.  DRACO MALFOY IS GAY. DRACO MALFOY IS FUCKING GAY. even if the wizarding world is super accepting of lgbtq+ people, i bet bigoted purebloods probably arent because hey, gotta carry on the name, the line, the blood. 

And he was an awful asshole not at all a good person or any kind of person u want to look up to, but a incredible character. And he deserves so much more than this. he deserves more than “some unextinguished good at the heart of Draco.” He deserved to let that good GROW, to become a fucking fire. God im so MAD