#itoshi Sae

[seneon]

Hey hey🩷

Could you maybe write a headcannon with blue block boys when they lash out on reader bc they have a bad day and call them annoying or disrespect them? Reader (female) is not sure abt forgiving them. I love angst. Could you maybe pls do it for Isagi,Nagi,Bachira,Reo,Barou Yukimiya,Rin,Sae or actually for whoever you like want to write for. If its to much Im really sorry 🥺🩷. I really enjoy your writings and I hope you are alright.

WILL YOU LOVE ME WHEN I'M DEAD ──── bllk various.

notes. featuring yoichi, seishiro, yukimiya, and the itoshi brothers only. and angst. for everyone, i'll have the same scenario of them coming home angry after football practice, then we'll escalate from there onwards. not my best work since my blue lock knowledge has gone rusty butttt ya :v

𖥔 ݁ ˖ ISAGI YOICHI

he's so so stressed after football practice that he can't keep his cool. yoichi didn't mean to raise his voice at you, vulgarity spilling down his tongue like ancient curses. you're terrified in disbelief, and he doesn't notice it. not until you slowly nodded and pursed your lips in a tight line that makes him regain some senses of himself. you then walked away, and he follows you the second you moved your muscles. "my love wait, i'm so sorry," he calls out softly, voice almost breaking and you tell him to give you time, locking him out of your shared room so he could think upon his actions. yoichi will stay outside your door, even sleeping by the wall just waiting for you to come out from your room so he could apologise.

𖥔 ݁ ˖ NAGI SEISHIRO

silent treatment creeps into the air even hours after he tells you that you're annoying and pestering, always nagging him all around. he appears to not care by occupying his attention in his games. but truly on the inside, he's so bothered that you're not beside him doing your own thing as he played his game. he feels empty beside him, so used to having you by his side all the time. he could tell you were in no absolute mood to see him right now, and his inexperienced self has no idea how to apologise or make it up to you. maybe he'll try some other time when you come home from your late night drive to cool off from a brief argument with seishiro.

𖥔 ݁ ˖ YUKIMIYA KENYU

he's an expressive young man, thus when he comes into your room with your favourite snacks in a basket properly and you're ignoring him, his lips is all turned downwards into a guilty frown. kenyu knows he's in every wrong that he called you annoying for simply wanting to check up on him after practice. he didn't mean any of it, just an 'in the heat of moment' occurrence. kenyu yearns for you as he kneels by your bed and holds your hands just to get your attention. then he apologises. he knows he's hurt your heart and soul. he'll have to keep trying because he's going to earn it.

𖥔 ݁ ˖ ITOSHI RIN

in an absolute crisis mixed upon the events that happened at practice along with a million of thoughts and possibilities swimming in his mind that you will leave him. when his strings break at how you forgot not to touch a jersey of his that he has hanging by his drawer, rin leaves you first— to his room. a heavy pessimistic, even if it looks like he's fine with simply cleaning his football shoes. you've shut him out, as he did to you when he came back home and refused to speak to you like he usually would. tonight will be long if neither wants to see each other eye to eye.

𖥔 ݁ ˖ ITOSHI SAE

does not take no for an answer when he apologises. that is a bad trait of his— sae thinks everything will go his way. so when you flat out said you wouldn't forgive him this time for even disrespecting you in the first place, his anger heightens. when you want to walk away, he will simply pull you back, heartfelt apologies he muttered in hopes of you forgiving him. but you're so hurt by him that he could see it in your eyes. it held the fading reflection of the last chance. and maybe, just maybe... you've lost the spark with him. he died a little on the inside at that surfacing realisation.

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[angelfishe]

# 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐘𝐎𝐔

Blue lock men x reader

Character : isagi yoichii, Nagi Seishiro, Reo Mikage, Rin itoshi, Sae itoshi, Shoei barou, karasu tabito

Ever since you were a kid your parents always pressure you to be perfect if not your good for nothing, everything was dark until he came...

Warning : contained child abuse and violence

( if you ever experienced this please call for help )

ISAGI

+ Your relationship was forbidden by your family, believing it will distract you from your school as well after school competition. But he didn't care, he always was there for you when you were tired or needed a shoulder to cry

+ after your parents realize about your secret relationship, they forbid you from going anywhere taking your phone away not allowing for you to see him for 2 weeks

+ after avoiding him like a plague, when you were at the gym, isagi was at class his eyes were on you. He realizes you look fatigued more weaker, exhausted, you were also extremely pale and suddenly you collapse.

+ he immediately rushed out of class ignoring the teachers yelling rush towards the court yard where you were being treated by your class mates, he carried your pass out body to the nurse office and stayed there until you were awake

+ when you wake up, he is right beside you and when he sees you wake up, he immediately rushes asking thousands of questions, after you tell him how burnt you were after the pressure he decides for you to live with him or move in.

+ his parents allowed it because they love you well what about your family they were against it but since he has proof of abuse, you will live with him in the meantime. That night you and him cuddle under the moonlight and you release a small "thank you" falling asleep peacefully in his arms.

NAGI

+ at first he never really noticed anything about your home life believing it was bad but it was not as bad as this. What woke him up was reo asking why do you ask you always wearing long sleeves, and then it also clicked to him why you were always wearing long sleeves.

+ at lunch you were about to reach over something he caught a glimpse of a bruise it was purple and it seems to be very fresh as if it was a new bruise inflicted on you, he grab your wrist and lift your sleeves showing bruises to bruises in your arm.

+ he ask with a serious tone who did this to you, it was your parents due to getting a 98 they would hit you with a wooden Cain as punishment what click towards him was that you see yourself in the wrong not them.

+ he suddenly went silent, and when you asked if he was okay, he grabbed your hand and told you to stay at his place, he will help you grab your stuff, he's getting you out of there no matter what. And he doesn't hear any word that declines This is good for you and makes you safe he will protect you

+ after school he would follow you home and be told to pack up your stuff, your parents scream and yell about what he is doing but he just stands there and glares at them, when you were about to finish your parents manage to pass him and about to land a hit when he stopped it

+ he pushes them to the ground glaring at them and telling them if they ever land a hand on you he will kill them, he grabs your hand and walks you both towards outside the door, Making you are unharmed.

REO

+ he will always find you weird, he can always sense that your smile is a big act to put up towards everybody not knowing what's lurking under it, you and him are by far one of the top students in school, and he will always find you in a state of being perfect.

+ when you both got into a relationship, of course your parents are both joyful of you being the girlfriend of REO MIKAGE the heir of the Mikage cooperation and since he's the heir of the prestigious company so you must be more extra perfect for him

+ your studying would become 24/7 no breaks because Mikage reo wouldn't settle for less of course so you gotta be more perfect for him. So it means no skipping on lessons as well as music practice.

+ reo started to notice black eye bags under your eyes and every time, he suggested on a date you would reject and saying that you have lessons or need to study even tho not having an exam.

+ until one day when you are in the library, he grabs your hand and tells you he's taking you somewhere special, it's the cafe you both go on dates, where he ask you what's wrong and why do you always look tired.

+ you finally lay on him on what's happening at home and by your state and what your family told you, you believe you're not good for him and both of you should break up because you're not good for him. And left him at the cafe stunt

+ when you showed up to school your entire body was filled with bruises he immediately realized you were in serious pain, he dragged you towards the nurse office to get patch up and called his personal doctor to do a check up on you. As well hiring a private investigator to make sure your parents lost custody over you

RIN

+ he would always see you as a quiet and smart person always minding your own matters not involving yourself in other problems, during your relationship he started to realize something going on.

+ at first he would stay silent and observe from afar because he believes it's not his place to get involved, as well him lacking emotional capabilities is confused what to do. He knows you love him and he loves you too but he doesn't know what to do.

+ after sometime you and him decided to break up it wasn't an argument it was just a natural agreement, when he was about to drop off some of your stuff at home he saw that you were about to be hit.

+ his body moves by itself and grabs your fathers hands and twists causing him to scream in pain, he glared at them at yell what the hell they were about to do

+ he pushes them off and grabs you, and pulls you towards his house, his parents are aware of the situation of you and your home so they allow you to stay, during at night you question why would he do this he answered with I love you and kiss your forehead.

+ the next following days your parents would try to get you back but him and his parents protected, and when he answered the door towards Infront he would immediately shut the door immediately. Not letting them take you away from him.

SAE

+ he had already known in the beginning you were suffering and he was already planning on moving away somewhere and taking you with him to run away with him and be happy with him.

+ and that opportunity came when he was invited to play at lil Madrid in Spain, he askedj you to meet him at the park where you both met after school, and when you made it there was sae patiently waiting for you.

+ he breaks down the news of him going to Spain and asking if you wish to run away with him, he will provide everything house, food and anything else in your life as long as you come with him. He's already making a decent amount from competition and savings.

+ you disagree at the Idea first but he kissed your forehead saying to think about it first as well promising you safety for you far from this hell hole, and during the night you were up at night, you already made the decision your running away with him sending him with an okay text.

+ you secretly pack your stuff when your parents was working and left immediately with sae towards Spain only living a letter for them to read, the entire plane ride sae is holding your hand and whispering words of affection towards you sending a feeling of freedom.

+ by now you both are waiting until you guys are 19 or 20 to get married, you are happily living with him in Spain and every time your parents try to attempt contact they will be blocked immediately.

BAROU

+ your parents already disprovel of your relationship seeing he was a gangster and a stain towards your prestigious and perfect reputation believing he will cause pain but in reality they were the one causing pain and he saved you

+ even tho he seems rough and rude he would never do horrible things to you he's always sweet making sure you are taken care, buying you food and more.

+ and you started to live with his family because you were unable to hold the pressure and the abuse your home life is causing you, so he recommended you to live with him

+ during packing your father tried to confront you but barou was there and it managed to push down your father's ego because look at him, he's taller and has more muscle than him.

+ and when you guys were walking out the door barou would leave one message towards them to you again and he would kill them and close the door.

KARASU

+ why did you stop talking to him, both of you guys went to different schools but became acquainted thru friend groups, honestly its weird you haven't replied towards his messages for 3 days now and when he tried to visit your school you have already went home.

+ you usually wait for him to show up so you guys can walk together but this is strange, he started to ask your friends about what's happening but they told him you been looking more exhausting than ever.

+ meanwhile your phone and all of your devices have been confiscated unable to make contact with him, as well your parents always monitoring you. You were studying when suddenly the door bell rang it was karasu and he was worried about you.

+ your parents were about to shut the door and when he saw you he immediately rushed in and checked up on you asking as if you were okay, your parents answered for him saying that you've been fooling around with him too much so they doubled your study time which caused a glare from him.

+ he immediately took your hand and pulled you towards the door saying towards your parents he has unfinished business and you will start to live with him, before they could react he slammed the door, he rolled up your sleeves and saw the many bruises cover your body. He's already planning ways to get away with murder if they harm you again.

[fish-with-more-eyes]

we need something stronger than a get along shirt

id under the cut:

[video id: digital animation in monochrome teal of chibi itoshi rin and itoshi sae. initially, they sit facing away from each other. sae has a flat expression and a speech bubble with an elipses. rin is side-eyeing sae with a displeased scribble by his head. a jar then pops up around them and they are shaken violently. once it stops, both fall to the ground with dizzy eyes. sae falls first; rin spins around before plopping on top of him. end id.]

[vmlnrzmp4]

𝘱𝘢𝘱𝘢'𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘮𝘱𝘪𝘰𝘯.

—when their daughter's event is coming up but they can't attend :(

itoshi sae

natsuki has been preparing for the piano contest for months only for sae to leave to another country at the last moment. when she was practicing alone, you could see her shaking, her little fingers couldn't press on the keys fully. you had to phone call sae because natsuki was so so nervous. she told how she missed her papa to which sae just sternly tells her to stop wasting time then. if she's that nervous then all her hardwork of months would go to waste. and tho his words were harsh, natsuki knew he was right. she could handle criticism just fine. she tells how much she misses him and he tells her he misses her more. during the contest, all of natsuki's hardwork made her win and without a doubt, sae took all the credit for her victory.

itoshi rin

sakura was so scared. whenever she did commercials, she had her own manager aka her papa always with her. so the school play was nothing right? wrong. and even tho you were there with her, she couldn't help but feel sad looking at the empty space beside you. after the rehearsal, sakura immediately ran to you, her little arms hugging your waist. you quickly took out your phone and called rin. rin asked her what's wrong. if anyone's forcing her. if anyone's criticizing her. if anyone's doubting her acting skills. and who he needs to fight. but it was sakura who was doubting herself. rin talked to her, promising to be there for her future acts, telling you to make sure to record everything with the expensive camera he bought.

isagi yoichi

yuki had her math competition coming up but ofcourse her papa had to be away. the night before the competition. yuki was studying so hard, and when you got her dinner, she dismissed you, focusing on the equations infront of her. you were left with no choice but call her papa. he was the best, encouraging her cheerfully, "youve got this kid! you've been working so hard. and im proud of you. ma's proud of you! everyone is! but skipping dinner won't do, will it?" and ofcourse, she listened to her papa. and the next day, she happily jumped into your arms, urging you to call her papa. and boy he was so so sooooo happy.

michael kaiser

anne gripped the painting brush so tightly. she was practicing. her sketch was messier and she accidentally mixed the wrong colours. when she spoke with her papa over phone and ranted about how she thinks her painting looks ugly, he exhaled, making sure to critisize her without making her feel sad. "practice. got it? you're my little artist, and i know you'd do well." "but papa—" "anne." his tone was firm, "listen to me. you didn't spend your precious time and hardwork to be like this. all i can do is guide you, buy you paints, brushes, canvases, everything you want. but you have to stand up on your own feet. your papa isn't always going to be there for you, you hear me?" like natsuki, anne would also take criticism well. and when the results came in and she took the first prize, her papa was so so proud that even he won the soccer match, as both of them showed their achievements with a smirk. like dad like daughter.

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[cheralith]

characters ; itoshi sae, shidou ryusei || cw ; gn!reader, no pronouns used, polyamory

rin sees you, sae’s supposed partner, kissing shidou in celebration after their team’s victory in a desolate hallway and gets absolutely infuriated at the fact that you’d cheat on his brother with shidou out of all people.

he figures it’s none of his business at first. after all, sae is grown—he can take care of himself. but guilt unfurls inside of him and he’s bursting at the seams as the hours of the day go by. it especially starts to boil ever when rin gets mad at himself for being deceived by your gentle and soothing nature, a perfect match for sae—only for you to turn out to be nothing but a backstabbing snake.

so just when midnight is approaching, rin rushes into sae’s apartment using his spare key and bursts into the bedroom, ready to tell sae all about his best friend’s and your dirty, unfaithful act…

… only for you and shidou to be sleeping and curled up with one other, right next to sae who quietly reads a book in one hand and affectionately strokes your head in a semi-lethargic manner in the the other.

sae looks up, his brows ever so slightly furrowing when shidou stirs in his sleep at the sound of the door opening with a bang. from the top of his reading glasses, sae says nothing to a shocked, owl-eyed rin, merely putting a knowing finger up to his lips.

[kuronarnze]

a/n: hihi! New writer here :)! I actually started writing hxh fanfics, but i HAVE A FULL BLUE LOCK OBSESSION, sooo here am i writing a itoshi sae x reader fanfic! I reaallly hope y'all can enjoy the story (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)!

Itoshi sae x reader !

─── ･ ���ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Nostalgia in His Bangs

You had one mission in life: to keep Itoshi Sae’s bangs down.

It was a goal you had since childhood, when little Sae would always have his bangs falling over his forehead, framing his face so perfectly that it was impossible not to find him adorable. But then he grew up, became Japan’s genius midfielder, and started styling his hair back like some professional businessman.

Unacceptable.

“Sae, put your bangs down.”

You were sitting next to him in a quiet café, a rare moment where you managed to steal his time. He sipped his coffee with an uninterested look, barely sparing you a glance. “No.”

“Please?”

“No.”

You pouted, leaning forward to inspect his hair more closely. “It doesn’t even look bad when it’s down. In fact, it looks way better.”

He scoffed, setting his cup down. “It gets in my eyes when I play.”

“You’re not playing right now,” you countered immediately.

Sae sighed, already knowing he was losing this argument. You had been on this crusade for years, ever since he started slicking his hair back. At first, he didn’t take you seriously, but after countless attempts—including surprise attacks where you ruffled his hair when he wasn’t expecting it—he realized you were determined.

And honestly? A part of him didn’t mind.

“You’re obsessed with my bangs,” he muttered, staring at you with a bored expression.

“Yes,” you admitted without shame. “It reminds me of when we were kids. You always had your bangs down back then, and you looked so soft and cute.”

Sae stared at you, then sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I’m not a kid anymore.”

“You still look cute.”

A faint flush dusted his cheeks, but he quickly masked it with an eye roll. You grinned, knowing you got to him.

After a few seconds of silence, Sae clicked his tongue and leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. “If I put them down, will you shut up about it?”

You gasped. “You’re actually considering it?”

“I said if.”

You nodded eagerly, watching in awe as he ran his fingers through his hair, messing up the perfectly styled look. Slowly, the strands fell into place, covering his forehead just like they used to when you were kids.

Your heart squeezed at the sight.

“There. Happy now?” Sae asked, glancing at you with mild amusement.

You reached out and gently brushed his bangs, a soft smile spreading across your face. “Perfect.”

Sae exhaled through his nose, watching you with a rare fondness in his gaze. “…You’re ridiculous.”

“And you love it,” you shot back playfully.

He didn’t deny it.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

I hope there arent any grammar mistakes 😞😞, english isnt my first language heh. Sorryy if sae is ooc, i tried my best to write sae perfectly :)! Thank you for reading! Have a nice day/night (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

[mixolya]

ᓚᘏᗢ — golden hours, golden hearts : chapter 029 !

the hum of the airplane was steady, a low vibration that filled the cabin as you stared out the window, watching the endless stretch of clouds below. kyoto was already far behind, but your thoughts lingered.

sae's family. the warmth of his mother's gentle insistence, rin's girlfriend's smiles, the easy way they all seemed to fit together. it had felt so natural and real.

and then there was sae.

the memory of his lips against yours flashed through your mind. it was so quick. and brief. yet, the feeling still lingered. the way it had stolen your breath, the way he had acted so casually afterward - as if it was nothing.

as if your heart hadn't been racing ever since.

you frowned slightly, lost in thought, when suddenly, a sharp pinch landed on your cheek.

you jolted. "ow-"

sae pulled back, the corner of his lips barely lifting in amusement. "what are you thinking about? i wanna think about it too."

you scowled, swatting his hand away. "no."

he tilted his head slightly. "why not?"

your heartbeat stuttered, but you masked it quickly, leaning back into your seat with a sigh. "it's nothing. go back to sleep."

sae let out a soft hum, eyes still on you for a moment longer before he finally closed them.

you turned back toward the window, pressing your lips together.

nothing, you told yourself again, even as your fingers unconsciously brushed against your own lips.

meanwhile, your phone exploded with notifications and messages which you couldn't see, obviously.

as you sat there, your mind drifted back to that conversation in the café. that talk. the one where you and sae - or rather, you only - had carefully laid out the rules.

no unnecessary touching. no crossing boundaries. you were in a fake relationship, after all. nothing more. nothing real.

you had agreed on those terms, both of you, to keep everything in check. it made sense. and yet, as your thoughts spiraled back to his kiss, you couldn't help but feel irritated at yourself for forgetting one of the most important points of that conversation.

you straightened in your seat, glancing at sae, who had his eyes closed.

he broke the rules.

without thinking, you shook him.

he opened his eyes, startled for a moment, but when he saw you, he smiled.

ugh. that dumb ass smile of his.

"why'd you do that?" you scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest. "what about the rules we talked about?"

his smile only grew. "what?"

"the rules. no unnecessary touching. and you broke them! you kissed m-"

before you could even finish your sentence, sae crashed his lips into yours. your eyes widened, but it didn't take long before your body responded, your lips moving against his, returning the kiss.

you hadn't meant to kiss him back, but the moment he pulled you in, everything else just faded. your breath caught, but you melted into him, unable to fight it.

the kiss deepened, slowly at first, but then growing with an intensity that left you dizzy, your heart pounding against your chest, completely caught up in the moment.

why did you kiss back, you dumbass?

what about the wall you built?

are you crazy?

when he pulled away, just barely, your faces were inches apart.

he smirked, his gaze playful. "oh, no. i guess i broke the rules.. again."

chapter 028 > here > chapter 030

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[sweetfuchsia]

ex bf! sae x reader who likes to play around w/ him pt 2

ex bf! sae isn’t too surprised when he hears rustling from outside his window. he can always tell when you’re visiting him— how could he not?

you’re giggling to yourself, clearly finding your little prank very amusing. ex bf! sae eyes you from his spot on the couch, watching you through the window as you carry a— a baby!?

he almost flinches when he spots it. no, it can’t be? ex bf! sae looks away, his gaze shifting back to the TV screen. he knows that you have more fun when he ‘doesn’t see it coming.’

you lift a hand, knocking at his front door as your lips curve up into a wide, giddy smile. you cool yourself down at the familiar sound of his footsteps— and this kind of brings you back to the days where you were still dating ex bf! sae.

when the door opens, your expression shifts to a perfectly practiced expression. sullen, and almost shameful; as if the toy in your arms was a real baby. but you hold it close to your chest, ensuring that your ex won’t notice easily.

“name?” ex bf! sae addresses you, his expression just as impassive as it’s always been. “what’s that?” he questions, looking down at what he believes to be an actual baby— and ex bf! sae finds it hard to hide his confusion.

“sae.. this is your baby.” you say, your tone low and your gaze downcast. you adjust your grasp on the toy— you mean, the very real baby, and look back at ex bf! sae.

the look on his face is absolutely priceless— pretty teal eyes widened, lips parted and eyebrows raised so high you’re sure they’re reaching for the sky.

“…what?” ex bf! sae sputters, one of his hands lifting hesitantly. his?! baby?! he has to move his free hand to clutch at the doorframe for a second to make sure he doesn’t fall over.

and you’re quick to hand the toy to him, a loud laugh escaping your lips as you turn on your heel and run away from his place.

note: not much plot today but a little bit of fun. i’m thinking of writing more silly parts like this (with some plot mixed in before we get to the actual big big good yummy plot!

[neeeooon]

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[narcjsistx]

— 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐄?, 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐄 𝐖𝐄 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍'𝐓 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒... | sae, kaiser, rin

SAE ITOSHI - for me, you never left

... wish you'd let me stay, i'm ready now 🎶

It was complicated for you to explain your relationship with the prodigy of Japan, the one who most commonly for you was Sae. Everyone looked at him for what he actually was, that is, the lethal midfielder of ReAl, the ace who refused to play for his country; but to you, he was simply the boy your father coached on your prefecture's soccer team. It had always been like this, even now that he had no longer lived in Japan for some years, even now that the crush you had kept secret from him for practically always was finally getting over you after years of suffering

You knew he had cut ties with everyone, from his Japanese teammates to his family, but nothing had ever changed with you. From the first day he arrived in Spain until today, your relationship had never had any problems: you spoke every day, called, everything. For you, Sae Itoshi had never left the another country to pursue his dream

He was jealous of you, even though he never admitted it. He was jealous if you told him that Rin had helped you repeat english that day, if you told him that a boy from your school had left a note in your locker on Valentine's Day. He didn't admit it, but you knew his habits, and you noticed

In fact, you could say that on the one hand your relationship had changed, but you couldn't say whether in a good way or not: your intimacy with each other. You didn't even know why Sae often called you at night, the black circles under his eyes that you immediately noticed, but he had never dared to tell you the reason for all this tiredness that was reflected on his body

"I'm damn tired of studying. In less than a few months I'll finally finish the session tho"

"You could come to Spain"

"I don't have the money to do it, you know. I would have to pay for the place and airfare"

“I simply asked you if you would like to come. I didn't mention money"

"As if you paid me everything"

"And that's what I'll do. I want to see you here in a month, understood?"

These were not gestures that friends made, especially considering the large sum of money involved, a sum that you would not have been able to pay him back even if you had worked all your life. Yet he wanted you there, to see you after a long time. Maybe your crush on him hadn't definitively passed, now that you were about to sleep in the same bed as him due to the arrangement he had made for you

MICHEAL KAISER - my first in everything

... face it, you want it, you crave it 🎶

It's not normal to be so physically attached to the one who was always the child who shoplifted from your mother's shop, all those years ago: it's not normal that he was your first kiss, your first serious fight, your first time. It is not normal that a person with whom you shared such things is not your boyfriend. And even less normal that he refuses human contact with everyone except you

You had decided together to share these important steps together, saying that you would never trust another to do something so important. And you never regretted it

But Micheal has always been like this, since he was a child: he started to hate physical contact right away, but with you he never had any problems taking your hand, hugging you, lifting your chin when you kept your gaze down. Him, who hates it when even Ness touches his shoulder, having no problem yelling at him

But with you Kaiser cried until dawn in your arms, so many times that you struggle to remember the exact number. With you he never had any problems treating you as if you were his wife, even though you weren't even his girlfriend. With you he never had any problems wrapping his arms around your waist, kissing you, making you decide which arm he should get his tattoo on. With you he has never been any problem in treating you as if you were his precious diamond, his impossible but possible blue rose. With you, it's always yes

"Every time I remember crying in your arms I feel like a piece of shit, absolutely pathetic. Yet I'm in your arms, and so I feel a little less sorry"

"I'm sorry when you can't vent, however. I would like to help you more often"

"You talk like you're not the only one I cry to. Maybe you're as pathetic as me, but I like it, you don't know how much. Continue to be, continue to be beautiful and a good girl for me, yeah?"

His team, Ness, his fans, everyone thought you were already a couple. You were, more or less, or at least the gestures represented this... but you had never talked about it, never

Yet, you wondered if you were really just friends, because friends don't end up in each other's bed at least once a month. Maybe you weren't friends, maybe he wasn't ready, maybe you weren't ready

Maybe he wasn't ready to tell you that you were always the one, from the first moment he laid his eyes on you. Maybe you weren't ready to tell him that you loved him. Maybe you were both simply afraid to tell the truth for fear that the other would take it badly. But you wanted and craved it

RIN ITOSHI - dating, but my heart is yours

... just tell me what you're doing with that other guy 🎶

After having dreamed all your life of becoming the girlfriend of Rin Itoshi, the genius of the school and the prefecture, you didn't know why you found yourself squeezing Nagi Seishiro's hand as you walked through the corridors. Even after confessing to Rin, you were now dating to none other than the lazy genius, your brother's best friend. And you were happy, more or less

You knew Rin from your shared classes, plus he had been playing in the field right below your class for a long time, giving you the chance to observe him a lot more. And so, you soon found yourself falling in love with him, perhaps a little too much for your brother's tastes, who however never said he was against it. You and Rin looked at each other often, both in the hallways and during class. Often his hand lingered a little too long on yours when he showed you how to write that particular word in english, perhaps feeling his hand on your thigh a few times during lessons was like dying and ending up in heaven

Maybe it wasn't normal for him to wait for you at the end of class to walk from your class to the gate together. Maybe it wasn't normal that he gave you his jersey with his name written on it

And at a certain point, you declared yourself. And you had kissed, but from that moment on neither of you had dared to do anything else. This way you understood that he wasn't really interested, otherwise he would have given you confirmation that he was your boyfriend... right?

And so a few months later, you had agreed to go on a date with Nagi, and you started to like him, you couldn't say otherwise: as lazy as he was, he was extremely sweet to you. And so you had decided to make it official, especially knowing that Reo would be happy about it

But making it official means saying it, proving it, even to the boy who nevertheless occupied a part of your heart that you knew Nagi couldn't occupy

But Rin had already noticed it for a while

"Are you happy? With him, I mean"

"I am. I certainly am"

"I'm happy about it. Enjoy this feeling"

"You say it like you don't know that I love you"

"And you act like you don't know how I feel"

Nagi was stable, maybe one day he could even become your husband if he continued to be so sweet; and honestly, you didn't mind the idea. But Rin had been making your heart unstable for years, even in moments when you thought you had everything under control, moments like this

And the feeling of adventure was something the lazy genius you knew couldn't give you, neither now nor when married, if it ever happened

✶ 𝐌𝐘 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ; take a look, trust me!

this shit is so ass im gonna cry (i want to delete it)

[seneon]

STRANGE GIRL ──── mafia¡sae itoshi × fem¡reader.

about. in which, the boss of underground japan bought himself a strange girl. dark romance. a specific reader ( a nihilist with black eyes ) blood tw, mentions of blades and glass, nihilistic concepts, human trafficking. wc of 2700+

notes. this fic is me vomitting my words out so it pretty much doesn't make a lot of sense?? yeah beware. i was a lil unhinged when i wrote this. rushed ending btw

in the darkest cities of japan, there lies an underground club with the air thick with smoke of the cigars and desperation of needy souls. but unlike those of the underground ruins, a blindfold covers your field of vision and ropes surround your skin to hug them tight.

sae itoshi, if you are not mistaken— he who rules these underground cities and visits these clubs like they were his only way of spending time through the night. you have heard his name crossing your ears a few times as you spent your life under these darkness.

the man who leaves trails of bloodstains everywhere he steps on. a brutal, ruthless, heartless man, some would say. yet you do not bat an eye when the people of this darkness bind you and shut off your vision to the world.

you have been sold to this … sae itoshi.

his heavy footsteps echo as he approaches your bound form. the blindfold is suddenly pulled off, and there reveals the chilling turquoise eyes fixed intently on yours. he watches you for a moment, drinking in your appearance as if to commit them to his tainted memory.

sae watches as your eyes moved around, before they settled onto him, to hold onto that one piece that has you grounded.

“such beautiful eyes,” he commented, voice laced with deep silk that it has your soul entranced. “i like them. two little black holes just waiting to be filled.”

“i never knew someone could be so interested in plain, black eyes,” you replied, gaze still locked onto turquoise eyes. it was not long before his long and warm fingers wrapped around your neck, holding it with enough pressure that your breathing stills. it stills because you feel that it might falter and you might lose your breath.

“you’re snapping my neck?” your question striked a scoff from the itoshi. “no. i just want to see how fragile you are.”

“are you satisfied?”

“you’re like a delicate flower, growing in the cracks of the sidewalk. unappreciated, yet so beautiful.”

he leans back slightly, fingers loosening around your neck but not quite letting it go as he studies your reaction carefully.

“maybe,” his fingers trace your jawline, then move up to your hair, tangling in it. “such grace under pressure... tells me you’re not just another pretty face,” sae’s voice drops to a whisper as he releases his grip around your neck and steps back.

with a gaze still on the man with auburn hair, you replied, voice dripping with sarcasm, “how nice of you. it swells my heart.” and his face darkens, anger piqued by your indifference.

“you’re quite maddening, you know?” he said, eyebrows furrowing slightly in confusion and agitation that felt like it was being tickled by your feathers. he tells his men to unite you and bring you back to his haven.

sae couldn’t quite grasp you, for you are quite the strange girl.

when it was the dead of night, you brought his hands to lay them on your chest, silent for a few moments as you glanced at him.

“can you feel my heart? i think it’s broken.”

the man stiffened slightly at your touch, clearly caught off guard at your unexpected gesture when he was simply in your room to check up on you. sae’s hand remains on your chest, feeling the steady beat of your heart. a small frown forms on his face as he listens to the quiet admission.

“broken, huh?” he murmurs and searches your face for any speck of emotion that might surface right through that oblivion gaze of yours. but he found none.

his fingers splay out wider, pressing gently against your chest. he can feel the rhythm, slow and steady, but with an underlying ache that he can’t quite put his finger on.

“you know what i think? i think your heart isn’t broken. i think it’s shattered. like glass, sharp and jagged, waiting to cut anyone who tries to get close,” sae ceases his words right then and there, watching your eyes move to your chest.

“is it cutting you?”

there was a momentary silence in the air, hundreds of implications swirling thick. soon after, sae looks down at his hand on your chest, as if expecting to see blood. then he looks back up at you, his eyes searching.

“you tell me. am i bleeding yet?”

no hesitation is needed in your position. “blood trickles down your hands,” you replied, hands moving to trail on his fingers in such an eerie and strange matter that sae couldn’t help but feel hundreds of spiders crawling down his spine at your touch. you trailed his hands as if to trace the blood that flows.

the man’s eyes widen slightly as he feels the warmth of the imaginary blood on his hands. he watches, absolutely fascinated— as you trace the imaginary red liquid with your fingers.

something about you made him swallow hard, his throat suddenly dry. he looks at you with new eyes, seeing you in a way he never has before.

you’re not just a challenge, not just a pretty face. you’re something else entirely. and he feels the threat that saturates his veins with fear and excitement from your fingertips on his skin alone.

“you’re quite the psychopath,” said the man as he stared at you. his turquoise eyes pierces curiosity right through your skin and when he really looks at you for who you are, he realises something.

you are simply nothing but a metaphor. a concept and idea of insanity and death. the void that swallows up all logic and reason. a riddle— something sae itoshi despises with pure passion that burns away at others’ souls.

in this room at this moment, there are only two rotten souls dancing on the edge of a blade. and the best part? neither cared enough if the soles of their feet sunk into the blade.

he stares into your black eyes, searching for any hint of emotion, any sign of life. but all he sees is darkness, an abyss that mirrors his own soul but somehow seems even more empty. “nothing in your eyes...” he whispers, his voice barely audible.

sae itoshi takes a step back as he knows he’s doomed upon the purchase of a strange girl. he didn't buy a person, he bought a void. he bought nothing.

and he fucking hates it.

days turn into weeks. sae throws himself into work, trying to drown out his frustration with you. he orders his men to keep an eye on you, to report back any changes in your behavior. but you remain the same— silent, expressionless, empty.

all just like a strange void that your eyes have.

one night he comes home late, suit drenched in blood and his mind hazed with violence. he stumbles into your room and freezes when he sees you sitting there in the dark, your black eyes reflecting the moonlight like a pair of soulless orbs.

sae stands there for a long time, just watching you. the moonlight casts sharp shadows on his face, highlighting the sharp lines of his nose and the cold fury in his eyes. sae is covered in the reminiscence of blood and gore, a walking testament to the violence he’s capable of.

“you smell like blood,” you asked, gaze still locked onto the mother of the night as sae simply replied. “do i?”

“yes. is it your blood or others’?”

you hear his shoes clicking against the hardwood floor. the scent of bloody copper grows stronger as he approaches. “does it matter?” sae carefully asked. he’s always been careful with you, treating you like glass.

as if his pathetic nonexistent prayers of you to move and not remain posed like a damned statue, you tore your gaze from the moon to glance behind at him. he thanks the god or gods above for such a change.

when you glance behind, he sees the flicker of curiosity in your eyes. it’s the first spark of life he’s seen in you since he bought you. sae watches as you take in his appearance. the wine red stains on his clothes, the scratches on his face, the masked violence underneath his turquoise eyes.

“others’ blood.”

you hummed. sae reeked of the scent of other soul’s blood anyways. it should be obvious already. he stands there watching for a moment before stripping off his bloodied suit jacket and tossing it aside. the moonlight catches on the various bruises and cuts decorating his torso.

“does it bother you at all?” soft voice rolls down his tongue, yet it carries a dangerous edge, and you said that it doesn’t bother you at all.

in one swift motion, he grabs your chin firmly between his fingers, forcing your gaze away from the mother of the night and towards him, the threat of the night.

sae stares into your black eyes, searching for any reaction. anger, fear, disgust. anything. but he finds nothing. just that single empty void that has become all too familiar. it infuriates him. he slams his other hand down on the windowsill beside your head, caging you in.

“what crosses your mind at this moment?” you asked, looking up at him like you even had a choice to look elsewhere.

in this moment, as he stares into your empty eyes, thousands of thoughts crossing his mind. sae thinks about breaking you, shattering that icy exterior and revealing the person beneath. he thinks about killing you, ending this enigma once and for all.

but most of all, he thinks about understanding you. as a man who deals with underground dangers, he is a man who has built his life on understanding people, using their weaknesses and desires to his advantage. and yet, here he is, stumped by a simple girl with no soul. and it eats at him.

he leans in closer, his face inches from yours. he can feel his own heart pounding in his chest, the blood pulsing through his veins. the moon faintly reflected in your black eyes.

“let me tell you something, y/n,” he squeezed his fingers on your chin just slightly.

“i’m the one who decides who lives and who dies in this city. and you… you’re no one. nothing. a blank slate. a puzzle with no pieces. and you’re not worth killing at all. and i’d only waste my bullets in darkness.”

silence took over the atmosphere as it grew thicker and thicker when the seconds passed.

and out of nowhere, you brought your hands up to cover sae’s cold and bloody ones gripping your chin. he freezes— for the contrast is stark, almost jarring. his heart rate spikes and adrenaline mixes with something else, something he can’t quite place. his grip on your chin loosens slightly, but he doesn’t pull away.

his chest heaves as he tries to regain his composure, anger still simmering beneath the surface. sae looks into your black eyes, expecting to find the same empty void, but instead, he finally sees something that almost looks like a spark in your void of a gaze.

“you wound me.”

sae itoshi, ruler of underground japan, came to a mere conclusion that you are simply, metaphorically speaking— a vacuum. devoid of emotions and any lingering feelings left to face earthly life.

yet he sought to pierce some sort of signs of humanity right into the center of your soul, all just so he could see an unbreakable porcelain doll break.

your feelings have been forgotten. you have forgotten how to feel, forgotten how to even graze at the tiniest bit of sunlight. at the same time, you sought some kind of connection to the soils of the earth. to feel like a human, to cherish and appreciate your existence.

but it all feels so foreign. foreign to the point where fear starts to seep through your veins at the unexpected. it creeps and slowly crawls into your skin, gnawing and clinging to your very bones and bask in the warmth of your blood.

not even when your nose touched sae’s own nose do you feel a speck of emotion. though, he could tell in your vacuuming eyes that a glimpse of connection sparked. he tells you that you should not do such a gesture if it does not matter.

however, does it really matter? you cannot feel anything either. you are nothing but a poor little feelingless creature.

“have you ever wanted to know what it’s like to feel?” the man asked as he sat opposite of you at the dining table where you consume a meal which flavours danced around your tongue.

“i wish to feel,” you responded, chewing your food. “what is it like to feel?”

and you have gotten curious, which tells sae itoshi that the chains and locks around your heart are beginning to rust and come apart at your curiousity. it is a progress that he sees morphing into your colourless life.

sae is drawn to your blankness like a moth to a flame, desperate to light even a single spark within you. just as he has been desperate in his mind, so has your own desperation covered in a light layer of deceit that seems as if it is trying to eat away at your desperation to feel something.

the man stands up, presence commanding the vacant seat beside you as he finds his haven to sit. you watched as he brought his hands up. and the next thing you know, you feel his fingers wrapped around your cold ones.

yes, you felt.

his touch is what you feel when his warmth kisses your skin. it is an electrical feeling, an odd sensation that feels… nice. so to say.

“what do you feel when i touch your hand like this?” sae’s voice pulled you out from your thoughts as your gaze was set upon him, other hand still holding onto the spoon.

“warm,” you speak softly. “i feel your warmth.”

you are beginning to feel in the midst of this brutal man who reeks of blood. the fragrance of victory wafted into sae’s nose as he watched your hand that turned upwards to lace your fingers with his.

as strange as you could get, sae itoshi thinks he is falling in love with you, with the way your cold touch feels against him and your now curious black eyes that seems to tug at his soul.

you will be the end of him.

so what exactly is it that could twist in the ropes of fate and change a concept called destiny? what exactly happens now that such a long period of time has passed like a dive down a bridal veil? what ceases to exist when it is that one thing that has been keeping your feet to the ground?

you shattered.

you simply shattered into nothing but mere broken glass pieces— unable to be picked by the skin of a human as all it does is pierces through.

six, seven, eight, nine, ten… scratch that. who knows how many weeks it has been ever since you were brought into the legal possession of underground ruler sae itoshi.

gosh. how you have risen into a new light of the world that once shone upon your soul. you have always been falling endlessly into a void that seemed to never have a solid ground. but how, you are present in this world— this time. and sae has his lips pressed against yours.

to have his warmth that courses throughout your entire body from his lips to yours was the final key. breaking apart and melting from the man’s gentle yet intoxicating lips is enough to tell him that you have shattered.

when your lips press against his as if to test this newfound feeling, he wastes no time but to tilt his head slightly and deepen the kiss with the work of his tongue.

are you still a strange girl in his eyes?

in all honesty, you are. you will always be a strange girl to him. nothing is ever going to change the fact that your gaze still reflects a shine of threat, albeit it has been brought back to life now. you still harbour a presence that could undoubtedly stab venom into one’s body, mind, and soul.

but sae adores the feeling of your lips against him. he loves the way your body feels against him. appreciates the fact that he bought you out from a hellhole and gave you the glory you deserve.

and you gave him everything as gratitude. from the intoxicating kisses to the sweet moans and flowery praises, every inch of your soul belongs to him now.

you are his strange girl.

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© SENEON 2025 ♰ do not repost, alter, or translate.

[xoxoaugust]

the cut that always bleeds

what happens to him after you tell him you want to take a break? And does he convince you otherwise?

featuring: Isagi, Rin, Bachira, Kunigami (post wc), Chigiri, Nagi, Reo, Shidou

an: inspired by The Cut That Always Bleeds by Conan Gray. CHIGIRIS IS SO BAD IDK WHY, HES TOO PERFECT I CANT DO ANYTHING. (could you tell I got lazy at the end)

But even though you’re killing me !

Rin

Rin began playing soccer because of his elder brother, and he keeps playing soccer because of his older brother, but this time the motive is revenge. You guys probably broke up because his obsession with beating Sae and Isagi was so intense. The constant distance and miscommunication because of how long he would practice, you slowly fade into the background of his life. Day after day, it was like you were begging for him to even spare you any attention. You couldn’t take it anymore, so you called for a break. He cared, correction, cares. He still loves you, so much. And he hates himself for letting you go, even for a little bit.

I need you like the air I breathe !

Nagi, Isagi

Nagi

Nagi never thought he’d ever be with anyone, mainly because it was a hassle and that no one would really want to deal with the laziness. During the time of your relationship, you would be doing all of the work. Cleaning up, making sure he ate, making sure he bathed himself. It felt like a never ending chore. He tried for you, he really did. He’d try to do what he could, but he could never find the energy to do so. The relationship felt one sided to say the least, even though it wasn’t, he truly cared. The break was… rough for him. He mustered the energy to beg you to stay, but it wasn’t enough. You said that he didn’t love you, but to him, loving you came as easy as breathing.

Isagi

Isagi is a kind boy, he’d never hurt you on purpose, but alas here we are. You knew soccer would always be his top priority, his first love, you didn’t know it would be the cause for your demise. Though he’d spend time with you, it always felt like he was somewhere else, in his head. On the unfortunate day prior to when you brought up the concern, his practice didn’t go well. He didn’t mean to snap, he’d never do that to you. He stayed up all night waiting at your door. When you opened it the morning after, you were met with him sleeping on the floor. The guilt was overbearing but to prioritized yourself, he agreed to go on a break with him for a bit. In the end you did get back together, he treasured you like no other. He loved you like oxygen.

I need you more than me !

Reo, Bachira

Reo

Reo loves you more than anything. He treated you well, divided his time equally for his career and for you. So what’s the catch? His status, his family. You grew up a normal person, not too much not too little, you were humble and kind. That’s what he loved about you, unlike all the other rich girls his parents would set him up with. Going against his parent’s wishes came with consequences. Every event, every dinner, every meeting, they would disrespect you. The worst part? He couldn’t even do anything. He’d try to defend you, but it would get shot down instantly. You gave up, you were tired of it. Every little comment, his father telling him to marry a proper woman, his mother talking about some pretty rich girl who is top of her class and wants to meet him. As soon as you brought up the issue, he went to his parents and told them off. It didn’t work though, but he tried. You told him that the both of you needed a break. He flipped out. He was willing to cut off communication with his parents, or even give them an ultimatum. He needed you more than he needed himself, more than his connections and relationships. It’s safe to say that break never happened.

Bachira

Bachira is a playful soul, he was childish and sweet. Growing up being bullied takes a toll on one’s self esteem though, even though he’d never say it. He’d cling to you like a child, he’d go everywhere with you, following you around like a lost puppy. At first it was sweet, he loved you so much and it was obvious that he did. Over time, he’d become a bit possessive. It wasn’t on purpose, he’d prevent you from hanging out with certain friends, he’d want you to stay with him all the time. When you broke it off with him, he’d show up at your door with flowers, candy, a random Knick-knack that reminded him of you. He loved you more than he loved himself, and it broke your heart to see him this way, but you told him it wasn’t the end. You told him to focus on himself, protect his own peace and learn to love his own self before loving another.

I need you more than anything !

Kunigami, Chigiri, Shidou

Kunigami

Kunigami was your boyfriend before he went to blue lock. Your relationship was perfect, he was perfect. When he got selected for the Blue Lock project, you were so excited for him. Your boy was going to make his career that he deserved. Imagine your surprise when your kind and sweet boy with bright eyes comes back completely changed. He didn’t smile, didn’t laugh, the light in his eyes was gone. Everytime you tried to make him smile, it just didn’t work. His face would look stoic and unfazed. You were considering bringing up a break, but you knew that he needed support more than anything. He needed someone to rely on. One night while watching a movie, you finally asked him what had happened in that facility. You saw his face pale and his demeanor shift entirely but he gave you a dry answer and moved on. Moments later, you cuddled into his side while caressing the side of his head. Confused at the sudden affection, he asked what happened. You smiled while replying with “I figured you needed one.” There it was, the bread winning smile you wanted to see so badly. As soon as you thought things were going well, he call you over to tell you he wanted a break. He said that in his current state of mind, he couldn’t bring himself to love you like you deserved. He promised to come back to you, and to love you with all he had.

Chigiri

Though Chigiri wasn’t as sensitive towards his injury, there were moments that he’d get so jittery that he’d lash out horrifically. You were an understanding and supportive partner, and he’d never hurt you (EMOTIONALLY) on purpose. It had been a while now that you felt pushed aside when it came to his soccer career, but you cared for him and his dreams you stayed put. One day, during a game, he pulled a muscle in his leg. He went nearly insane, praying that it wasn’t going to render him injured. When he went home that day, he was cleared, it wasn’t a severe injury but the mental repercussions did immense damage. You congratulated him on the win, telling him how proud you were of him. He completely ignored you. When asked what was wrong, he lashed out. “Why are you always nagging me?!” Uh woah? You were so confused, you were just expressing concern for him. “I don’t need your pity or your concerns, just leave me alone.” So you did, and he didn’t like it. You didn’t bother him, didn’t speak to him and didn’t look at him for almost a week before he finally broke the silence. “Why are you ignoring me?” You gave him the nastiest look before replying with, “didn’t you want that?” He looked down in embarrassment, because he did say that not too long ago. That’s when you suggested a bit of time away from each other to focus on oneself. He didn’t like that idea but he understood, and he promised to wait for you. (He’d wait a thousand lifetimes if it meant he could be with you).

Shidou

I have this feeling Shidou had some internal complex with his own personality. He knows he is a lot, unapologetically so, but he just wants to be loved and appreciated for who he is. You gave him that, you matched his energy, you laughed at his stupid jokes. You were are perfect for him. Everything was perfect with you two until you noticed his… unique closeness with a specific someone. That someone being none other than, Sae Itoshi. It felt silly to feel uncomfortable about it, so you kept it to yourself. It wasn’t until he began spending more and more time with Sae, that you said something. He brushed it off, saying that they’re just good friends and it’s all in good fun. This was a constant in your relationship. No matter how much you expressed how uncomfortable it made you, he kept acting the same way with Sae. You decided to take a break, not permanently, but just long enough so you can have time to self soothe and he can spend all the time with Sae he wants. When you suggested it, to say he went crazy is an understatement. He asked maybe a million questions. “Did I do something wrong? Is this about Sae? Are you breaking up with me?” You urged him to relax, emphasizing that this was in fact temporary. You told him this was just a for-the-time-being matter and that you will come back for him. The defeated look on his face could fill you with enough guilt to fit into maybe a thousand barrels. You told him that your story together wasn’t over, there was still so much that the two of you have to do together, to just wait and see.

xoxo, august

[animentality]

i would actually consider it very hot if a dude could literally not stop himself from cumming around me and told me I make him harder than anyone else and that he wants me forever.

so. I get why sae gave him his number, is what I'm saying.

I understand this little soccer queer.

[escapenightmare]

sae itoshi was not a nonchalant boyfriend or a chill guy, despite how much he tried to seem like he was. you don’t ask him for his opinion on your outfit? do you not want him (to compliment you and ask you to do a small twirl so he could see the ensemble properly and then pepper your cute face with kisses)? you don’t want him to share his food with you? okay, so basically you’re saying you want him to go to hell.

you tell him to quit liking flirty comments from random people under your posts? what’s wrong with that, he agrees with them— you’re absolutely stunning. and no, he isn’t doing it just so those randoms get a notification that saeitoshi, with a silly picture of you and him with your cheeks smushed together as his profile picture, has liked their comment so that they now know you aren’t single and looking for some sleazy jackass who thinks they can get your undivided attention just by commenting ‘🔥🔥’. seriously, how dare you accuse him of such pettiness?

but really, none of that is compareable to how he feels right now; damp hair sticking to his forehead, towel over his shoulder, one hand buttoning up his loose shirt while he’s looking at his phone, fresh out of the shower after the usual training. his teammates are yapping about something like they always do but it’s all silent in his head as he takes in what feels like utter blasphemy on the screen.

zero notifications.

well, actually, he had a shit ton of texts messages from his teammates and people he considered somewhat his friends but none of them really matter— only you do.

and you hadn’t texted him since yesterday (almost 24 hours ago!), when he was on his way home and asked you if you wanted him to bring you extra snacks or something.

do you hate him?

he clicked out of the messages app and checked instagram, where you’d usually have flooded his dms with chronically online shit that he had no idea how you found funny. seriously, what the heck is all that about divers going into small spaces and eye of dih? he visibly deflates when he sees you hadn’t sent anything on there either (the last text was from him, when he’d said ‘???’ to your text that read ‘what is a father?’).

Sae [16:43pm]: Do you hate me

nah. scoffing to himself, he deleted the words, exited the app and pocketted his phone. since when was he such an attention deprived, needy little shit? whatever.

by the time he opens the front door to your shared home, there’s still no text, no call, no reel, nothing from you. “angel?” he calls out in his usual, casual tone, nudging the door shut with his boot. “’m home.”

“in here, sae,” you call out from the bedroom and he quickly takes off his shoes, drops his duffel bag onto the couch and trudges into the bedroom, feeling as if if he were a puppy, his tail would be wagging harshly behind him. “i was just about to text you.” you tell him with a small smile from where you’re sitting on the office chair behind the desk, your laptop in front of you and notes strewn all over the desk. you were.. studying.

ah, right. no wonder you hadn’t texted him.

you barely register his silent footsteps and fast pace until he’s right behind you within the time it took for you to blink, one hand on the arm of the chair to turn it around before he’s half hunched over you, his other hand pressing on your back to tug you into a hug. “missed you,” his voice is muffled as he buries his face into the crook of your neck, the soft tufts of his moist hair tickling your chin and neck. “thought you hated me.”

“what?” it was said so quietly that you almost didn’t hear it, but you do and now you’re pulling back a bit to look at him properly. “what gave you that idea?”

“forget about it,” he tries to avoid the question in a painfully untactful manner, attempting to hug you again, but faltering as he sees the look on your face. god, this was so humiliating. “y‘didn't text me today— or call, or send me stupid reels,” he points out with an embarrassed grunt, standing up to his full height and running a hand through his hair. “thought you were pissed at me for beating you in monopoly or something.”

huffing, you grin up at him. “you didn’t have to bring that up, jerk. but no, as you can see,” you gesture to your table and he notices the splotches and lines of dried ink on your fingers from your pen. “i’ve been studying. or trying to, at least.”

“huh.” he lets out, grasping your hand in his and intertwining your fingers before untangling them again so he could toy around with them. his brows furrow and he scoffs when you continue, saying something along the lines of ‘i didn’t think you’d notice.’ “yeah, well, i noticed. i dunno. kinda hard to miss the zero texts from the only person i reply to, yeah?”

your eyes brighten at that, but you tease, “ohh, yeah, right. sorry, i forgot you’re a friendless loser.”

“look who’s talking,” he shoots back, and you’d almost be offended if it wasn’t for the playful look in his eyes. he sighs and dips his head to press a kiss to your temple before walking over to the closet.

“were you really sad that i didn’t send you stupid reels?” you ask him with a curious look while watching him pick out a random t-shirt and sweats, not making fun of him like you’d usually do, just genuine curiousity in your tone.

he hums in response, undoing a few buttons of his shirt before tugging it off his head and glancing at you, with his teal eyes narrowed in contemplation, shirt still hanging around his elbows. “guess so. ’s stupid, huh?”

“nah,” is your immediate reply, followed by a small shrug. “i think it’s sweet, actually. in a pathetic sort of way. you’re kinda sweet.”

during his 10-minute break from training the next day, he finds himself on the bench of the locker room, resting his aching legs with his half empty water bottle next to him as he’s scrolling through your dms with a soft smile. a shit ton of reels and one ‘good luck at practice!!’ message stares back at him.

yeah. he thinks you’re (kinda) sweet too.

[casey0w0]

More fem sae cuz I’m actually so gay for her