#it's why i'm taking a semi-hiatus to go back to just having fun with it

[encrucijada]

realised i'm supposed to be having fun while writing. i will learn nothing of this experience

[slashthrashandcrash]

I've been looking at the slasher x final girl oc's (and I love all of them) I was wondering if you'd give us anymore details about them, their first interactions and basically any thing interesting you'd be willing to tell us?

(I'm obsessing over your characters and knowing what little I do about them is making me mentally ill, especially the stranger, he reminds me of my favorite slasher (Jason) quite a bit)

I'm so glad you're enjoying them!! It's been a while since I've used 'em so it's been fun dusting them off from time to time--

Ashley and the Stranger are meant to be a homage to 80's horror in general, both the classics and the cheesy. The first time they met was during freshmen year at a frat party, although Stranger had seen her around campus a few times prior. She was drunk, but still friendly and wanted to get to know him a bit, even warning him to be careful because frat hazings these days were getting so ridiculous and she'd hate to see him get hurt.

By the next day after she sobered up, she completely forgot about the interaction and probably didn't even bother to get his name. The fact that all records of him being a student disappeared shortly afterwards didn't help, it was like he never existed to her after that night. But he never forgot their brief time together, that pretty little cheerleader who was the only one ever concerned for him...

Constantly dying and coming back as a vengeful killer only worsens his insanity with each "sequel", including his warped obsession for her. Each time, he's more hellbent on having Ashley, convinced they're meant to be for no other reason than she was nice to him for like 10 minutes years ago. He doesn't even register her fighting back or stabbing him or setting up traps, he's so blinded by his infatuation despite Ashley having no clue that they've met before.

Francine and Ripper are newer OCs, but they're a lot of fun because my girl is just so great to torment (:< I've braindumped so much about them to Blob--

They met while Francine was working on the scripts for that latest series of a semi-popular true crime podcast about the unsolved slayings of the Northshire Ripper (about 3-4 episodes). She started getting these emails from an anonymous account that was praising her writing and storytelling, so impressed with her level of research and details and how well she wove everything together, especially the observations she made on the murders. It was genuinely her first piece of fanmail, some actual recognition for all the hard work that goes into being a weekly ghostwriter that's often overlooked. She's thankful and beyond appreciative that someone would take the time to send her a thoughtful email, how sweet! (:

And of course, eventually the segment about the Ripper ends and the show moves on to cover another killer or disappearance or solved case, and Francine is back to researching at the whims of the cohosts. Her favorite fan starts emailing her again, asking why she's stopped writing about the Ripper when there's still so much more she could cover, more things she could go in depth on. These new cases are so overdone. The podcast hosts butcher her show notes half the time anyways (she posts the full version on their blog which is the only place she has a shred of credit listed), can't she just write more episodes for the Ripper instead? Please? No?

Well...good news, little lady! You know that serial killer you covered a while back, the one who was never caught, the one who seemingly disappeared after years of bloody terror? Wouldn't ya know it, he's finally come back after a near decade hiatus, creating human art pieces with newfound inspiration! Isn't that great, now there's so much new material Francine can work with to write show updates about him, especially while it's such a hot topic in the media. Now write. What's holding you back? Is this not good enough? Do you need more inspiration of your own? More personal? A demonstrative interview?

Anything to help out his favorite fellow creator~

[persmo]

Idk if someone who follows syspport and non alter CDD follows the main blog here, but to be sure I'm gonna reblog it in both blogs so hi, this is the main of the person behind those two blogs!

I'm gonna take a break from both blogs for a while, the two blogs were made by alters who haven't been fronting anymore because of personal life problems, and though I can handle the blogs as I'm qualified and I know information, I don't have enough energy and motivation to keep them active, I'm tired, I been running both blogs for like a week and I don't have more energy TT

So take it as a semi-hiatus, why semi and not full hiatus? Because maybe I'll do some posts in both blogs, that doesn't mean I'm gonna be active but I like the blogs and sometimes I have fun doing content in them or at least I find it entertaining because of the topics the blogs are around

I'm gonna answer the asks that were send before I make this post, but any other ask or submission done after this post is gonna be there for a long time, I won't be closing asks, you can send more submissions in both blogs if you want, just keep in mind that is going to take longer for me to answer it, that's the more hiatus part... When I com back full with both blogs I'm (or tf who's in front) gonna answer ALL THE ASKS, so your ask isn't going to be ignored or deleted, just delayed if I know how to word correctly-

Not 100% sure how long this hiatus is gonna take, maybe the whole month? Maybe not?... I don't know how much is gonna take for me to pass through this hard period of time that's making me put in hiatus this two blogs, if you're interested in this blog I'm gonna reblog this post to update when the hiatus is over!

You can still go and talk in my other sideblogs or in this sideblog, I'm not going to be super active but I'm gonna be more active in this other blogs rather than this ones (Maybe some blogs will get a hiatus like treatment, but come on they're already in a more long hiatus)

That's all I can say for this post cause Idk what more to add... Thanks for reading and I hope this semi-hiatus doesn't take too long to be able to return back to work and answering asks/submissions!!

[agerefandom]

Hey y'all!!! Been a while.... I'm going to make some content for this blog over the next couple weeks again! I might switch my bio to 'semi-hiatus,' because I don't think I'll catch up on requests, but I'll keep you all posted. I've got a couple of ideas for things to do!

I watched the new Hazbin series and finally watched Helluva Boss, so I'm going to do some content for those fandoms, but I'll probably do some old faithful content for Skulduggery and Homestuck and other favourites!

I was trying to put my finger on why I've been on so many hiatuses from this blog recently, and I do think I figured it out. I'll put it under a read more just for general themes of adulting and hardship for those who are interested in the personal details.

My partner's been very impacted by disability things lately and has been about 50% bedridden but 99% housebound. We've moved in with parents because we can't do rent on one income, and I've generally been in a bit of a caretaking role with all the chores falling on me, as well as help with planning, appointments, shopping, applications, etc.

It's just left me with not much energy left for regression dynamics: I'm personally only comfortable regressing when I'm alone in the house, and all of my caretaking energy is going to my partner instead of my earlier efforts to find a regressor to care for.

I'm still doing lots of creative things, I've mostly been focusing on my selfship blog but I'm also doing a top 100 ships series on another blog, and having fun with that! But that's why agere content specifically has been hard for me for the last year or two. I'll come back to it properly eventually, and I really do want to make more things on this blog, but that's my little life update on where I'm at.

On the plus side I'm working a lovely little office job at the moment and possibly getting into management for a pay raise! So things are going pretty well, I just need to get out of the house more lol, I forget to take care of myself sometimes.

[longbobmckenzie]

Are there any Henrik fics that you can rec?

Do I have-- 😮 Anon, you absolutely came to the right person for Henrik fics, and I'm thrilled that you're asking! I'm always happy to give fic recommendations, but especially for our dear, sweet mountain man.

There are not enough Henrik fics out there, but what is out there is pretty darn good. Which is why I'm going to list almost every single Henrik fic in existence. Bookmark this post, because I promise every single one of these fics is worth the read!

Also note these are in no particular order!

Chaptered fics:

Lay All Your Love On Me - the only full-length villa fic, it's not quite ready yet but it's getting really close and is actively being updates (although updates are sporadic)

Are You The One? - based on another reality dating show, so it's an AU of sorts. slow burn. completed! by @queen-of-boops

The Parent Club - really cute AU where MC and Henrik are both single parents. there's lots of drama/gossip with the other parents (their kids are all on a basketball team together) and it's such a unique fic for this fandom. by @chroniccomicobsession and maybe if we bug her, she'll post the next chapter and get back to work on it

Moss, Eternal - it's been on hiatus since forever, no idea if it's ever coming back, but it's a fun villa fic with an endearingly chaotic MC. by @mountainmanxoxo

Powder Days - same deal as above as it's by the same author, but this one's a snowboarding AU

Call of the Wild - an abandoned villa fic that ends in a good place, it's a cute read. I'm not gonna embarrass the author by tagging her because it was her first work but she can't stop me from recommending it 🤣

Beyond the Hill - a post-villa chaptered fic exploring Henrik and MC's relationship after the villa. by @ravenadottir

Oneshots:

Christmas Timing - fluffy festive fic in which the islanders visit Henrik's place in Sweden after the show. MC and Henrik didn't get together during the show, but they both have crushes on each other. by @mrsbsmooth

Not Like I'm In Love With You - adorable friends-to-lovers fic by @queen-of-boops, who's quickly making a name for herself as a Henrik writer

TAKE A RISK - MC finds someone's bucket list, her friends help her complete the tasks. Friends to lovers by @rebelrayne

Robin Hood Stole My Heart - Henrik as Robin Hood, and it's SO freaking well done. Love this one by @chroniccomicobsession

The Man From the Jungle - the twist at the end is worth the price of admission. a Tarzan-esque fic from @mrsbsmooth (also making a name for herself as a Henrik writer, and I'll take most of the credit for that)

Reaching the Peak - I asked why there weren't any smutty fics where MC and Henrik went climbing together, and @thesepromises delivered!

Second Chance - this fic flew under the radar a bit but it's a semi-canon look at Henrik as the returning islander

Just one more bad decision - this one was a gift for me and heavily features Magnus, my male OC who's been adopted by the fandom as Henrik's fanon brother. so while Henrik is endgame, the only smut in this is actually with Magnus, and honestly, I don't think anyone's gonna complain about that! by @kittidot

First Times - a really cute vignette-style fic showing MC and Henrik's first times. by @thatwheelchairchick

the twist at the end - a Henrik/Lucas/MC threesome fic in the villa (there's a twist at the end, in case you didn't get that from the title - also beware of the nsfw gif in this one!)

the gang bullies Henrik into a threesome - what the title says! inspired by the threesome above, it's also with Lucas

Henrik/Lucas:

The Alps - oneshot showing the time they come across each other in the Alps post-villa. Smutty! by @mrsbsmooth

Lights, Camera, Action... - Lurik porn AU? Lurik porn AU! I take half the credit for coming up with the idea, but @queen-of-boops nailed it! so glad she picked up the idea and ran with it

For you, it blooms - hanahaki disease fic by @bypine

Sooner Than You'd Think - I basically accept this as canon in a world where MC doesn't end up with either Lucas or Henrik. great look at their friendship-to-lovers arc in the villa universe

keep me warm - a post-villa friends-to-lovers fic in which they've both been pining for each other

Self-Recommendations:

I've written a bunch of fics for Henrik and have more coming (currently working on a full villa fic and a Lurik oneshot - stay tuned! also hoping to start a chaptered AU eventually)

cashmere & cocoa - 4-chapter fic in which MC stumbles upon Henrik's cabin during a snowstorm. smutty!

not the only one - short little chaptered villa fic in which Henrik steals MC during the disaster recoupling and she is NOT happy about it.

the stars shine bright - my latest, it's a fluffy oneshot in which Henrik and MC go camping together for the first time

one last good thing - this basically started out as a joke but I had a lot of fun writing a weird trope - magic healing cock! it's purposely silly but the smut's not bad? oneshot

When the Dead Come Knocking - Henrik/Lucas but also each of them with MC. a The Walking Dead crossover (ie. zombies!). oneshot

under my skin - Henrik/Bobby enemies/forced proximity/teensy bit of cheating. oneshot

doggy fashion - Henrik/Arjun fluffy/smutty fic! these two are adorable together, I love their dynamic

There you have it! I hope you check out all these fics, and thanks so much for the ask! I had a ton of fun putting this list together and remembering all these wonderful fics!

[saturno-sol]

Hi, A Small Life and Art Update

I’ve come to the decision that for right now I’m moving away from public/semi-public creative spaces for my own wellbeing and self esteem. I’m still going to be posting art and updating my works so it’s not a full hiatus, but I’m choosing to become radio silent for the most part. 

To not make this like a huge thing I’ll just say I’ve been experiencing some complicated feelings and it all culminated in a breakdown which resulted in my decision. 

Don’t get me wrong, I love talking to people and learning from them and enjoy listening and seeing what everyone’s got to offer! And I love sharing my own things and talking to others and getting into brainstorming sessions. It's really great and exhilarating, especially in a fandom space where we all share the same interests. I’ve made some really great friends this way!

But there’s certain times where I feel like my personal work is not viewed in that same way or that I’m overlooked in conversations. (And I'm really trying hard not to make this feel guilt trippy because I know this sounds selfish dw I FEEL selfish for even voicing this rn) 

I suddenly became hungry for interaction and craving anything saying that I was doing a good job at all this. And so I started equating my worth as an artist to how much engagement I got, which is really bad! It is not fun to think about and is absolutely not a mindset that people recommend when talking about writing/drawing/etc. And I KNOW that's not a mindset to be in, I’ve even said it myself that I don’t care if it's only me who cares. Gritting my teeth because I'm a liar aha, I do care about how well my things are received, I’m jealous even when I sincerely wish success for those I’ve talked to. 

And it's such a double edged sword, because in theory I need to put myself out there more, but the constant low attention makes me want to not, which in turn puts me back at square one. Not to mention I take a while when it comes to art, and trying to stick to a schedule while also being a full time student is daunting, so consistency is tough. It’s a very vicious Sisyphean Cycle. 

I understand that what I do isn't for everyone and doesn’t tick all the popular checkmarks that would hypothetically “fix” all this, but it still feels disheartening. I felt like shit and that it wasn’t worth it to continue anything because again, who would even care if I did? I know that’s not true and I have some really dear friends who do care, but the point still stands. The world doesn’t revolve around me, but I sure wish just a bit would pay attention. 

So that’s why I’ve decided it's better for me to take a detox and limit my socialization a bit, focus on my self esteem more, and maybe get back into therapy. Who Knows. All I know is I’ve fallen into a slippery slope and now I have the long trek back up. 

To those who do know me I wanna say thanks for sticking around my neurotic ass. I appreciate you all, and I’m trying my best to reciprocate the engagement for yall’s ventures. 

Anyways bye for now. I Promise I'll get to Updating and Talking about things soon, though in a place where I can control where its at, like here.

[withleeknow]

the stars aligned for you being a june bangtan baby!! . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ for me still with you reigns as his superior single ✨️ that specific jk/jin take two pre-chorus GOD the lyrics and harmonisations still give me butterflies 😭 (🥺💌 = https://we.tl/t-Mfc5dpyl4d)

[🍙's note-to-self: I'm so ready to indulge in your bangtan works] + no pressure at all with your semi-hiatus; when inspiration comes it'll come gracefully in time ♡ also the way you've updated me on your skz-WIPs like your own teaser schedule ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

lmao how stacked is this multistan sandwich getting, no way you're also an aespa girlie 👀 ok svt lowkey give me a headache IN A GOOD WAY! ONLY BC! there's so many of them to be entertained by their chaos 😭 I'm mostly a dk (&dino) girl - that iconic heeseung effect lowkey happened with these two 😫 https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeVP98fn/ I found this during my hs-rabbithole and I genuinely haven't been the same since

+ today's hyperfixation: cue “go little rockstar” https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeVP7DxY/ he's radiating black cat energy (tmi: I'm the black cat in the golden retriever dynamic with my bsf which might explain why im extra fuzzy towards this man) 🖤

ONIGIRI HAVE YOU SEEN THIS AAAAAAA "per request from the artist" HE'S NOT EVEN HOME YET AND HE'S ALREADY MAKING ME CRY 😭 oh the envy that i have for the people who get to attend... how does it feel to be the first fans to see and HUG kim seokjin after he's been away for 18 months 😭

god i really do love still with you so much. jungoo absolutely kills it with his artistry and i hope we'll get to see him be more hands-on with his music when he gets back

ahh i actually only started listening to aespa very recently. up until a few months ago i thought they were 3rd gen idols lmao for some reason i always thought they debuted not long after red velvet 😭

i love dk !!!!!! wonwoo is probably at the top of my thirst list but dk is the most precious and endearing and funny 😭 i have never seen them in the same frame before akldakjfdsa that is certainly.......... something 😳 you're really influencing my heeseung brainrot here. i've been watching fatal trouble vids since you mentioned it the other day and i just- *eyes bulge out of head*

god he really is just so sharp from every angle.. biting my fist and whatnot.. i never thought i'd be into enha like that but here we are 😭 omg me too my friends tell me i'm a black cat !! you really are my other 🐈‍⬛ half ��

i had to save the best for last bc WHAT THE HELL IS THIS

i adore you to the moon and back, i truly think you're one of the best things that's ever happened to this blog and i'm so happy you stumbled across my little space here 😭 coming back to kpop after a decade really is an experience that not many can relate to but i'm really glad that i get to share that with you :((( tbh once upon a time i also couldn't see myself being a kpop stan past a certain age (twt stans think everyone over 20 is on the precipice of turning into dust lmao), but now being a kpop stan as an adult is so much more fun and fulfilling! getting into bangtan 2 years ago let me reconnect with my creativity and it's really helped me a lot, not just in terms of it being a comforting lil hobby but it made me realize what i wanna do for my career yk (i wanna be a graphic designer or at least work in media lol). and getting to buy merch with adult money! and meeting wonderful pocket friends that can turn into real life friendships! maybe i was meant to be obsessed with kim taehyung 2 years ago and that made me return to kpop bc otherwise i would be missing out on all of these joys 😭 this got so rambly lmao i'm sorry tldr i love you 🥹

[twistsandtwizzles]

First Kiss #3: Turning Onto You

Author's Note: This is the last story I got through before real life so rudely burst my fic-writing bubble. I'm taking a little hiatus from writing fic but will still be around to talk all things skating. (And also I do still have the other prompts and hope to get to them someday!) Thanks for reading and sending in prompts for the challenge!

Prompt: Mariah catches some feelings and makes the first move on a surprised Nathan

She doesn’t tell Nathan about Romain until it’s all over, her ring finger bare and dark circles under her eyes. She rehearsed it on the plane ride back from France, wanting to sound steady and fair, to allow space for Nathan and Romain’s friendship - even if it’s more than her ex deserves at the moment.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Nathan asks. 

She shrugs. “He’s your friend, you know? I didn’t want to put you in a weird place.”

“Okay, but . . . you’re my friend. It wouldn’t have been weird - I would have been here. You know that, right?”

She does, but it is nice to hear him say it anyway.

A few weeks later, Mariah has to almost physically restrain him from helping her move. It’s sweet, she supposes, but also exasperating.  

“I would never be able to show myself at a rink again if Nathan Chen pulled a muscle trying to lift my couch,” she tells him. “I’m hiring movers, we’ve got it handled.”

Of course, he shows up anyway, with McDonalds for her and pizza for the movers. She thanks him and then shuts herself in the bathroom and cries, touched by his thoughtfulness and infinitely grateful not to have to go through the day alone.

That night, standing in her new living room surrounded by boxes, she tells him that she hadn’t realized just how much she needed this fresh start, a home where she won’t picture Romain at every turn. He slings an arm around her shoulder and says that he thinks the place feels like her.

Nathan doesn’t push her to go back to the rink, but the delighted smile he gives her when she walks back in after nearly a month immediately calms her nerves. He sticks close to her that day - she’s guessing he wasn’t intending to spend the session just working on spins and footwork - and she’s grateful for his calm presence as she gets her feet back under her.

There had been a small part of her worried that their friendship wouldn’t be able to bridge the gap that Romain had left, despite Nathan’s assurances; she had wondered if Romain had been right when he joked that he was the glue that held them all together. She’s relieved to find that this, at least, is one thing she did not need to worry about. That she and Nathan are the same as they have always been.

Except, if she’s being honest, that is not exactly true.

She first realizes it as they are settling in for one of their semi-regular movie nights. He is absently scratching Nala’s head with one hand and clicking through the titles on the screen with the other, one dark curl falling across his forehead, brow furrowed in concentration. 

She is unprepared for the warmth that suddenly fills her chest as she watches him.

He senses her staring, looks over at her. “What?”

She blinks, shakes her head. “Nothing. Find the movie already, gosh.”

“You’re just going to fall asleep anyway,” he mutters. “Not sure what the rush is.”

She tosses a throw pillow at him, and he laughs, and her traitorous stomach explodes in butterflies. She sinks back into her corner of the couch. 

Well, shit.

—

For a while, she tells herself that she is imagining things. That she and Nathan are friends, have always been just friends, and she is getting contentment confused with something else. She certainly does not have a crush on Nathan, of all people. 

And her heart doesn’t occasionally skip a beat when he shoots her a half-smile after Raf says something that they’ll make fun of him for later, and she never finds herself lingering in their goodbye hugs just a bit longer than she used to. Never fights the urge to call him just to hear his voice.

Really.

They are chatting on the bench as he changes out of his skates. Nathan’s frustrated with his lutz, annoyed with Raf, and she’s relieved that she’s able to coax a laugh out of him before he takes off for the day. She steps onto the ice, still smiling a little, and finds Adam watching her.

“Oh my god,” he says. “Well, this is an exciting twist.”

“What?” She busies herself with some arm circles, already feeling the color creeping into her cheeks.

Adam leans forward and whispers conspiratorially, “You and Nathan. You like him.”

“Stop,” she says, trying to keep her voice even. “I do not.” 

“Oh my god,” he says again. “You’re blushing! I can’t believe you didn’t tell me. When did this start? This is great for you. I’ve told you a hundred times, you’ve gotta get under someone to get over someone.”

She smacks him on the shoulder. “No one is getting under anyone, because nothing is going on.”

“Well why not? The poor guy’s been in love with you since he was a teenager. Throw him a bone.”

“He has not,” Mariah says reflexively. “Don’t be silly.”

Adam is suddenly serious. “Mariah. You have to know that Nathan is crazy about you, right? If there’s something there, why don’t you say something?”

She tilts her head back and stares at the rink ceiling for a moment. “Okay,” she sighs. “Let’s say I have been having some . . . feelings.” 

Adam nods. “Which I have said, because it’s true.”

“If - that’s if - it is true, there’s too much on the line to do anything about it. I need to have a decent Grand Prix to have a shot at the Olympics, and I already got a late start to training this year because of my messed up personal life. And you know what this season means for Nathan. If I said or did something and screwed things up, for either of us, I’d never forgive myself.”

“So your plan is what, exactly?”

“Basically just ignore it until it goes away?” 

Adam lets out a long suffering sigh. “And force me to watch you two idiots flirt and pine everyday for months? This is a terrible plan.”

“Asking you to coach me was a terrible plan,” she grumbles.

He laughs. “Girl, I am doing you a favor and you know it. Now let’s get to work.”

She rolls her eyes and skates toward center ice. Adam shouts after her, “For the record, I actually think it would help! You’re both wound so tight you’re going to pop!”

She holds up her middle finger as she waits for her music to start.

—-

Adam is right, though she’ll never tell him that. Ignoring her feelings is not a viable strategy. So more out of self preservation than anything else, she starts to steer clear of situations where it is just the two of them. And since Nathan is juggling about a hundred Olympic promo shoots and interviews with his training anyway, she’s fairly certain that he hasn’t even noticed.

She’s on her way out of the rink when she hears him call her name. His voice echoes a bit in the empty hallway. “Mariah, hang on a minute.”

He’s jogging to catch up with her, still in his skates and guards. She turns, waits for him to reach her. “What’s up?”

“Um.” He seems suddenly uncertain. “You’ve just . . . rushed out the last few days, so I wanted to check in. Are things okay?”

“Oh.” She adjusts the bag on her shoulder, doesn’t meet his eyes. “I’m fine. I just have -“

“Plans,” he finishes for her. “Yeah.” He shifts his weight a bit uneasily, adds, “It feels like it’s been awhile since we hung out.”

“I know,” she says. As always, he’s more observant than she gives him credit for. She reaches up and gives him a soft squeeze on the shoulder. “Movie night soon, okay?”

He nods, and she turns to leave. 

”Do you have a date?” he asks suddenly.

She laughs, surprised. “What? No.”

He looks sheepish. “You’ve just had lots of plans lately and you haven’t really said what they were, and I thought maybe - nevermind.”

Something stirs in her chest, and she can’t stop herself from asking, “What if I did have a date?”

“Then you’d be going on a date, I guess,” he says. “I don’t know. Whatever.” 

“Whatever,” she repeats, suddenly annoyed. “Okay, sure. So if it would just be whatever, why did you even ask?” 

“I don’t know. I wish I hadn’t, now.” He runs a hand through his hair, lets out a frustrated breath. “I should get back to practice.”

But she is unwilling to let this go. “So if I was seeing someone, it wouldn’t bother you at all?”

“No! I mean, I don’t know.”

“Stop saying you don’t know!” The volume at which she says those words takes them both aback. She takes a deep breath and looks down at her shoes. This is ridiculous. She’s acting like a teenager.

“I shouldn’t have asked, I’m sorry,” he says. “It’s none of my business.”

“No, it’s not that.” 

“What, then? I feel like I’m missing something, here, Mariah, and it sucks. You’ve been avoiding me, and I miss you, and -”

She kisses him. 

It’s not perfect. She’s failed to correctly factor in the extra height that his skates give him, so her angle is a bit off. And she still has her stupid bag on her shoulder, which swings into his side as she leans into him. But it takes him just a moment to recover from his surprise, his hands circling her waist and lifting her the fraction of an inch needed for him to deepen the kiss, and then she can’t remember why she was fighting so hard to not let this happen.

He pulls away first, looking a bit dazed. For a moment they are both speechless.

“So here’s the thing,” she says. “I have wanted to do that for weeks.”

His lips quirk upward. “So you don’t want to plead temporary insanity and run away?”

She shakes her head. “But I know the timing is terrible, so if you would prefer that we just pretended that it never happened, I’d understand.”

He tips her chin up with a finger and presses his lips to hers. The kiss is gentle but sure, and she can feel them crossing a bridge to something new. 

Eventually, they will talk. He will confess the years that he spent dreaming of her one night when he thinks she is already asleep; she will tell him that she loves him as they drive to the rink on an otherwise unremarkable December morning. They will laugh and they will fight and they will skate and they will figure this out, their new normal.

Today, though, he just smiles and says, “I really do have to get back. Raf is going to be so pissed.”

He gives her one more quick kiss and heads back down the hallway. He turns and calls, “Hey, you don’t really have plans tonight, do you?”

“I better have some now!” she yells back, laughing. 

He grins. “I’ll pick you up at seven.”

[noctispostmortem-blog]

I'm so sorry we don't talk anymore even though we were close. I'm sorry that I might have been a bad partner, or, an uninteresting one. I'm sorry if I ever made you upset? I know we're mutuals still but I'm never certain about people's feelings, so I just wanted to apologize if I've ever done anything wrong. I still smile when I reread our old threads, but I'm happy to see you have so many new and wonderful people you write with! Have a lovely day!

Look, I hope I don’t come off rude when I say this but I really just want to make sure you understand what’s going on with me and that you don’t jump to conclusions. I’m barely talking to anyone really, simply conversing ooc takes a lot of energy out of me as of late so I promise that it is not just you. It is definitely not because you are a bad partner or that I’ve lost interest in you or your muse(s). None of us can ever truly be certain of how someone feels unless they say so themselves so believe me when I say, this is not about you. This was nothing that you did.

When it comes to threads, I currently track 67 threads (which actually isn’t as bad as it used to be), that’s not counting the number of things I have in my drafts that haven’t been added yet or the asks that I want to turn into threads. Plus, I literally just completely deleted everything in my ask box a few days ago, on the fourth I had only two asks, I woke up to 15 that morning and I’m already back up to 24 now that I’ve answered a few of them. How quickly they came in was overwhelming to me really and almost made me wish to just delete them all over again but I won’t be doing that.

I struggle to get more than five threads done a week (if you don’t count shitposting and the like), this is why on my page it says semi-hiatus because of the state that I am currently in. I am now officially only going to be responding to the asks and threads that I have the most pull for because I sit here and take even longer to answer some of these because I end up feeling guilty that I can’t answer the others so I don’t end up getting any done at all. That’s not how I want this to be. I don’t want to sign on and feel guilty every time I look at my drafts or my asks and then sign back off because I feel like I shouldn’t reply at all if I can’t do all of them.

Now, if I end up not answering your ask or responding to your thread for awhile, you’re welcome to drop it at any time, I will totally understand. But that also doesn’t mean that we have to stop interacting. When I come back to how I was (and I know I will because this isn’t the first time I’ve gone through this) things will be better and I can get those threads going again or start new ones. And sometimes, the muses themselves are being a pain and I can’t really stop it.

As for the new and wonderful people that I write with, everyone that I write with is wonderful. Every single one of them. That’s why I write with them! Some of them I have been rping with for months, others are newer, but that doesn’t make them any less wonderful! There are even some on here that I’ve had for a few years! They are wonderful also! At the end of the day, I’m here to have fun, to enjoy myself and to write and I’m not going to allow myself to feel guilty anymore. I am sorry for making it seem as if this was all directed at only you but just know that it’s not.

Thank you for taking the time to send this in! Again, I’m sorry and I hope you understand!

[dojaeism-archived]

henlo this is me forgetting that I DIDN'T reply to your responses and just answered everything in my head sjsjsjsjsjs I'm so sorry (￣ ▽ ￣ *) ゞ but! How have you been? College starts for me tomorrow so maybe that's half the reason why my mind's been all over the place + I was a little under the weather the past 3 days but I recover quick so all's good now - ❄️

I think there's nothing wrong with solo stanning as long as the person doesn't bring other stans/members down or anything so i'm pretty sure you're okay and ig it's also easier to give love to 1 person from a few groups than infinite ones haha your heart would jump from one's hands to another's less often ^^* honestly everyone's music is good but I will admit that I find a sense of comfort in theirs that isn't present with majority of groups I listen to ;-; and thank you! - ❄️

akshfsjdhg assigned victim sounds chaotic but I couldn't find any other name I'd use instead... I'm enjoying making yours too (minus the amounts of times I've scrapped each draft because it looked 'off' for the lack of a better word hehe) but it's nice trying to deliver a hopefully good thing because 1. you're such a fun and nice person and I wanna not disappoint and 2. you're also someone I admired from afar when I was a cc for nctzenblr??? You always left such nice tags on everything :( - ❄️

Ah, same going on right now... I have so much I wanna make or gif but I feel like I might introduce a semi-hiatus because I need to know how busy I might be with college, and preparing my siblings for their exams + moving and I also have my French exam on Tuesday (VERY informal but I wanna be fully prepared 'cause I don't wanna disappoint my friend/teacher T^T) - ❄️

It is a concept that's well overdone but I still love seeing everyone's creations with it! I dunno much about the game but if he was a character from it, who do you think it'd be? No problem, do let me know what you think when you get the time to listen! You too have a lovely day ahead; make sure to rest well, stay hydrated + warm and lots more back at you ♡ ＼ (￣ ▽ ￣) ／ ♡ - ❄️

hii omg im so sorry this is so late but i hope college has been treating you well so far! and i hope you’ve been well too and not falling sick :( especially since im sure its getting colder now so please make sure you’re keeping warm ☹️

ahh you just reminded me that ive not touched my gift since i last spoke to you omg 😭 i’ve just been very busy lately but the weekend is coming up so hopefully i can get on that for a bitkjfdnfgk but noooo im sure whatever you’re making will turn out wonderful!!!!! im so excited to see it heheh but omg you won’t disappoint! im super grateful to be receiving anything at all and i know ill love it no matter what it is because its from you and you’re such a lovely person!!! butkjfnkg u were a cc for nctzenblr too :0 thats amazing omg now i am REALLY curious to find out who you are 😭😭😭

im a little late but i hope your french exam went well! i know what you mean, ive been mia on this blog lately too, only coming on every few days to rb stuff and then disappearing again but its just that this time in the term is always super busy big sigh... christmas break is coming up soon though and im excited for that, have you got a break coming up soon too?

hmmm i think... chanyeol reminds me of kaeya the most? maybe?? haha omg im not sure bc im bad at paying attention to the actual characters lmfao but kaeya is super tall and fun, and he’s very cheeky as well so i think they’re quite similar!!

have a wonderful week, take care and stay safe 💗