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Rubyyyyyy~ How is my favorite gem doing? ❤️ how was your week so far? Did anything fun happen? Did you get some sunlight? ~ Rai

Raaaaiiii I miss you so much! I was thinking about you today! My week has been okay, my s/o is back at work so we're readjusting to a normal sleep schedule and I'm all at my lonesome during the day. A little sunlight yes but it's been lurking at 40 something Celsius with multiple heat warnings ☀️ the most fun thing this week was s/o surprising me with ork models to get me into the tabletop game he loves! Building them looked super intimidating at first but it's actually something nice to hyperfixate on! Putting on a fan definitely helps prevent headaches from the glue. We've also been rewatching a show that's funny but also HURTS in every. single. episode.

Thanks for checking in, I hope you're taking care of yourself and remembering to hydrate! I know tumblr was pulling some bullshit on you again but I'm excited to read the Jaehyun fic!

#rai ❤#asks #I've been on an intense stray kids kick #mayhaps i shall send you some videos to drag you down with me :3 #on a deepish unrelated note I've been doing some unintentional reflecting and have started to appreciate myself more #hopefully this isn't a temporary thing and i can hold on to it #it's weird realzing the entire way you were raised to never think about yourself was for the sake of them having control over you #I've been reading more of the exjw groupchat i'm in and it's helped me realize things i ignored or didn't realize effected long term #oop I'm 3am rambling again #if you're still reading this wtf are you doing? should you be studying #? if not then go get a snack or something. make sure to have a good meal today!#okay goodnight ily #one more thing #i keep looking at the twotuckgom body pillows and laugh everytime because they look so stupid but i high key want the danygom one #i measured it and it would be perfect for my short ass #that just reminded me #i sleep with a giant shark plushie and cuddle with it's mouth facing away from me so i'm basically resting my head on it #every morning for the past three days i wake up with it completely flipped with the tail side in my face #wtf is my sleep self doing #the shark is named leon based of leon from the resident evil games #he's adorable and now that he's more worn in his teeth don't stab me

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