#it's weird being a fandom artist outside of the fandom is what I'm saying xD

[solanj]

sometimes in the fandom you see some art that is SO beautifully made but goes SO against the grain of how you perceive the drawn character(s) like I want to reblog it so much because it's so visually gorgeous and the artist is amazing and deserves to know this but I'll fucking die before letting that particular interpretation of the character(s) anywhere near my blog

[moodymisty]

Ok forgive me if this isn't super articulate, I just got off of a long shift.

You're a wonderful writer first and foremost, the way you choose words and weave them together makes for incredibly vivid and lush scenes that are a delight to read. Many of your fics I've read over and over again, finding more little quirks and details that I adore each time I revisit a fic. I feel that you have a really good grasp on picking out personality details that breathe life into what you write about.

Your writing is also the reason I got into 40k in the first place funnily enough! I found your blog through a totally different tag, stumbled across one of your sanguinius stories and immediately had to go hunt down more info on that sweetly troubled vampire angel. It's spiralled a lot from there and I've been having a great time reading the lore books and seeing people's analysis of them. So genuinely, thank you so much for sharing your art with us, I imagine a lot of other people had their curiosity piqued by your work too. You're one of the pillars of this little community of fans who really like to delve into the character writing aspect of 40k and fully embrace the melodramatic space opera parts that I also love.

On a final note, sorry for saying all of this on anon instead of in dms or something. I've had some rough experiences in fandom before and get really shy about talking to new people. I always end up ducking out when i go to heap compliments on my fave artists and authors because I don't want to bother them or like assume familiarity, if that makes any sense? Regardless I wanted to say something in whatever capacity I could to try and reassure you that people love you, love your art, appreciate your thoughts and ideas, and want to see you be happy both in your hobby and in your offline life.

I hope you feel better. I hope people are being kind to you, because you deserve nothing less. I hope you continue being able to enjoy talking to folks online and writing. Thank you for being with us and thank you for being you. 🖤

Thank you, I'm very honored you like my stuff enough to go back and reread them, and enjoy the way i make them.

And there's nothing bad about being on anon, the level of interactiveness you want to participate in is up to you. I keep anons on for a reason. And I'm sorry you've had bad experiences, i've had my fair share as well and i still honestly feel weird commenting on things outside of this circle. I could go on about how fandom is now but i won't.

I'm still of course staying i have zero desire to leave unless something horrible happens XD I've just had a bit of a shitter of a month when it comes to things so i wanted to dial it back a bit.