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Can I Be Real With You?
I do not give a fuck what you do or do not ship.
I do not care if you hate or love a character.
I don't even care if you like reading and writing the most atrocious shit under the sun.
Be respectful. It's fiction.
If you are going to have such a stick up your ass about people who will never exist that you are disrespectful to real people get off the fucking internet you are not wanted in fandom spaces. This applies to both people who only enjoy "pure and socially acceptable" fanworks and people who enjoy "socially tabooic" fanworks. Both sides of fandom are fucking disgusting in how you treat other people because of fictional characters.
Bring back treating and judging people based on their actions. Stop labeling people's merit by the type of content they do and don't enjoy.
#Alex talks#fandom discourse#all the fandoms#but specifically I'm looking at you#Undertale fandom#the sun and moon show fandom#because i used to be in utmv and now I'm in tsams#so I am seeing this shit first hand#not amused#grow the fuck up#it's time to put on our big boy pants#and realize that fiction will never have a visceral affect on reality#respect isn't hard#did you know that most of the people who create and consume 'taboo' content#are survivors of incest rape and csa and use that kind of media as a coping mechanism?#think about others before you decide to spew bullshit to stroke your own ego#anyways i'm ranting#aggressively#this is a very aggressive rant please read it as such#love u all unless ur an asshole then I don't love you#kk I'm done now
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......I can't remember which things have still been an issue lately n which ones he's already dropped.
#doll#has he still been doin the thing where he tries to push my boundaries little bit at a time even though he says he's fine w/ em#cause tumblr tells me the last time i remember it happening was a lot longer ago than i thought#i guess maybe he hasn't n i just don't trust him to not start again when things calm down around here#or maybe i'm just still hung up on that one cause he just wouldn't let it go like usually#n cause he actually tried to talk me into smth he KNOWS i'm not ok w/ instead of just. sayin some stuff i don't rly like#yea ok i guess i am still pretty hung up on it#i mean i know it was cause i asked him (n he agreed) to delete the stuff from his phone. needed to feel like he's still in control or smth#can't you get the control back w/ somethin that doesn't make me feel like you rly just want your empty headed sex doll back#...head's still pretty empty. just not in the opinions n feelings department ig#almost all our problems would be solved if we just never had sex again. or talked about it. sigh.#unfortunately.......i'm needy#n i guess that'd just be avoiding the actual problem of him forgettin most of what he's promised the moment he's um. distracted#need to put my big boy pants on n have an actual talk abt things again but......i dun wanna. too tired.#i guess i could just....see how things go. cause i can't remember what i was supposed to talk about anyway#spdrvent
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â-Sheâs the one-âM.S-â
A/N: Short but very cute, enjoy <3 A/N (2): This is my work please donât steal it :) âŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ.âŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ
Today is Mary Louâs birthday, you spend the whole day celebrating her with the entire family, of course youâve met Mattâs parents before but this was the first time you hung out with EVERYONE including their grandma, uncles, aunts and cousins, and you took the time to talk and get to know every single one of them.
Mattâs mom loves you and you love her too, every time your boyfriend visits his hometown you tag along just so you could spend some time with her. This morning Matt woke up all alone, confused he walked downstairs just to find you helping his mom in the kitchen with all the preparations for her birthday , you spend all morning helping until the guests arrived, then Mary Lou introduced you to everyone, everybody was thrilled to finally meet the girl who Mary Lou canât stop yapping about.
Right now you are talking to Mattâs grandma, she tells you stories about the boys that you havenât heard before and you canât help but laugh at every anecdote.
Mattâs been frustrated all day, of course heâs happy to be there and celebrate his mom but hates the fact that he hasnât had one moment alone with you all day, he loves his family but they keep getting on his nerves, he just doesnât wanna share you, he knows you are amazing and wants to keep you all for himself but every time he thinks itâs his turn with you someone else would need you for something.
The only thing he can do is stand in a corner admiring you from afar talking with his grandma, youâre smiling ear to ear, you seem truly invested in the conversation with the old lady and his heart swells. He is to busy staring at you that he doesnât notice his dad standing beside him until he opened his mouth.
âShe is the one, isnât she?â
Matt looks over at his dad, then looks back at you and it hits him âyeah, she isâ
âYou know I didnât think it was possible to love someone as much as I love Nick and Chris but somehow I do, I canât really explain it though itâs differentâ
âItâs different but itâs just as powerful, and just wait until you have her children, youâll heart will explodeâ Jimmy says amused as he hugs his son and they stay like that for a while.
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The birthday was over and everyone was gone, the kitchen was a mess but you insisted Mary Lou that you got it and that she should go to bed and rest.
Nick and Chris are outside picking up the rest of the stuff and you are putting dishes in the dishwasher when you feel some familiar arms around your waist, it was Matt, he hugs you tightly from behind and places his head on the crook of your neck, you feel him breathe in how he leaves sweet kisses between the end of your ear and your jaw, you canât help but to melt into him and relaxed.
âI missed you today, I love my family but they need to understand youâre mine and not theirsâ he mumbles
You laugh âI missed you too but youâre family is great, I donât mind spending time with them and your grandma is so endearing, I really enjoyed today,â
âWould you enjoy it even more if after we are finished with the cleaning I take you to my room and remind you why Iâm way more endearing than my grandma?â
You blushed, turn around and give him a big kiss on the lips âweâll see, now help me clean Bernieâ
âShe told you that?!â Matt said with an open mouth, shocked at the fact his grandma shared the nickname she gave him when he was a little boy.
âShe also told me about the time you peed your pants at school and she had to pick you upâ
âI hope you wonât turn out like my grandma when weâre old because I wonât let you talk to our grandsonâs girlfriend EVER!!â
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#matt sturniolo#nick sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#sturniolo x reader#matt x reader#imagine#matt sturniolo smut#christopher sturniolo#chris x reader#matthew sturniolo#matt sturniolo fluff
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â premise: you were just so pretty and so much smaller than your boys how could they not love it? though theyâve seemed to take notice of just how much you love it
â pairing: steve rogers x fem!reader x bucky barnes
â warnings: smut | 18+, size kink [reader is described as smaller/weaker in the sense of them being super soliders and stronger more muscles etc.][im also not that good at writing size kink so just squint a bit], body worship, dumbification, nicknames [little one, dumb baby, baby], oral [f receiving], creampie [only 1 i was gonna have them both do it but]
â a/n: 01 kinktober
It was very hard for your boys to keep their hands to themselves around you, they were both very possessive after all but they knew you loved it. They noticed the way your thighs clenched when they stood tall behind you, presence big and looming as their large hands both snake around each side of your waist. Their stares and presence are enough to make the guy talking to you back off. They hear the small lustful gasp that leaves your lips when one of them manhandles you picking you up to place you out of their way. They were more in tune and hyper aware of every motion and sound you made than you'd like sometimes. They could catch on to things you like before even you could. Such as that you really really enjoyed just how much bigger and stronger they were than you.
It had been a couple days of a long mission where the three of you simply didn't have the time or space for many intimate moments, that was until you finally got back home. You're in the middle of a conversation with Sam before suddenly you're swept off your feet by Steve.
With a short startled scream you're thrown over one of his broad shoulders. âHey i was in the middle of a conversation, you knowâ you whine and ignore the ache that begins to settle in your core at the action. You smack Steve's muscular back in an attempt of telling him to let you go, with the one hand that was holding your waist still he lets go quickly to smack your ass. You squeal and shut your mouth fast as arousal replaces all confusion and frustration. Steve's other hand that's gripping the back of your thigh squeezes a bit harder around the plush skin. You watch Bucky not far behind you two as Steve carries you to our shared bedroom. A small but seductive and taunting grin plastered across the brunette's face. He watches with amusement as your eyes glaze over, practically seeing you begin to sink into sub space already.
âWish you could see her face rn, shes turning into our dumb little baby already thinking of all the things weâll do to herâ Bucky's deep voice breaks you for your train of thought before you sink right back away and the rest is a blur until your sat on your large soft king size bed, ass nestled into steves lap and your facing bucky whos sat in front of you.
âWe missed your body little oneâ Steve whispers, coming out desperate and soft, breath hot the back of your neck as Bucky tucks a piece of hair behind your ear and resting his big calloused hand on your face. âYour perfect little body is all we ever need babyâ Bucks voice is a stark difference to the blondes as his comes out husky and deep. You gasp as bucky's cold metal fingers find their way under your shirt inching towards your bare chest.
You couldn't be bothered to put a bra on for the long and uncomfortable trip home and you've never been more grateful for one of your decisions til this moment. His thumb brushes across your already hardening nipple at the same time that Steve begins leaving sloppy kisses on the back of your neck making his way to that sweet spot behind your ear. Your breath hitches in your throat as you squeeze your thighs together but steves warm hand slides between them spreading them apart. You whimper softly at the strength.
âWe wanna worship that pussy baby don't hide it little oneâ Steve mumbles against your neck as he starts to unbutton your pants with one hand and push them down with your panties.
The boys move fast to discard the rest of your clothes as well as their own and their lips are back all over your body, kissing, marking, licking every inch of skin that they can.
You're now propped up against the headboard, a pillow behind your back and one under your hips. Bucky has one leg pinned and Steve has the other so your legs are spread, throbbing cunt on full display for them. Their strength while forcing your legs open causes your arousal to leak down your pussy and ass soaking the pillow under you as you squirm a bit in impatience.
âLook at our pretty little dumb baby Buck so needy, you want our mouths baby?â Steve asks in a soft yet taunting voice that has your head going hazy again. You nod yes eagerly and whine as the blonde and brunette hovered their mouths over where you needed them most. A small chuckle leaves Bucky's lips before he is quick to slide two of his thick warm fingers through your slick, spreading it over your puffy folds. The small gasp leaving your parted lips turning into a louder one the second his fingers slip inside you and are fast to find that spot only your boys could. Steve, not far behind Bucky in action, leans closer and starts to slowly flick your clit with his tongue, teasing you by slowly licking shapes over your aching clit. Your thighs twitch and on instinct your legs attempt to shut from the overwhelming pleasure, the pressure building embarrassingly fast in the pit of your stomach.
âYou gonna cum already little one? Keep these fucking legs open and cum on Bucks fingers, come on dumb babyâ Steve groans against your pussy as he moves his attention back to your clit, sucking it sloppy and hard. Steve's hands grip your inner thighs hard and push your legs away from his head and Bucky pins one knee down to the bed with his free hand. âCum on my fingers baby then you can get filled with our cocks you miss that dont yaâ little oneâ Bucky chuckled and watched as you squirm and whine when he starts slowly and teasing stroking his hard cock giving you the perfect view.
With a gasp and fingers threading through Steve's dirty blonde hair and pulling you cum hard on Bucky's fingers. You feel Steve smile against your clit as your chest rises and falls, catching your breath.
Bucky having other plans however the minute Steve pulls away from your clit is smacking his red leaking tip against your abused bud and slamming inside you. Your eyes glaze over and their voices fade as pleasure and overstimulation take over your body. A wanton moan fills the boy's ears causing them to smile as Bucky's thrusts are hard and fast. He's been pent up for days and your walls clenching around his thick cock is a heavenly feeling he desperately missed.
Your eyes fall shut but snapback open fast when Steve is gripping your cheeks squeezing them lightly, you whine, his rough hand making your face seem so small. âEyes on us baby got it? Look at Buck as he fucks this gorgeous cunt yeah?â He questions and smacks your clit before you can answer, making you clench down harder on buck. âYes! Mhm mhm!â You nod and hum in response, not being able to form enough words.
The brunette groaning loud and grabbing your hips hard to plow into you even harder. He was so big it was easy for him to manipulate you. âFuck youâre already gonna make me come little oneâ his head falls back as he lets pleasure wash over him. He thrusts one last time filling you to the hilt as thick hot ropes of cum fill you up. Your mind goes blank again and before you can register their voices again, Steve's hands are grabbing onto your hips and lifting you into his lap.
âShes already so fucked out aww well too bad baby i need to be inside you so fuckinâ bad missed it just as much as buck didâ Steves voice is ringing in your ears but before you can form an answer he is lfting you up again to slide down onto his cock. âAh! Fuck steveâ you whine and yet still press your hips down to take him inside. âLook at you trying to complain baby you love it when we manhandle you, didn't think we noticed huh?â Bucky taunts and grabs a fist full of your hair to pull your head back so he can kiss you hungrily. You kiss back passionatly with a goofy smile on your face that fades into a lust filled one once steve starts to fuck up into you, hands still grabbing onto your now probaly bruised hips.
You moan against Bucky's lips, head hazy but happy thinking of how well they will take care of you after this. They may manhandle you and be much stronger than you but they could be big teddy bears when it came to aftercare.
â a/n: this is only my second time writing stucky so i hope its as good as my first one that everyone loved but :) also this was meant to go up yesterday im not doing 31 days im doing 18 im posting a fic every saturday, sunday, tuesday, and thursday but i got busy yesterday and this wasnt proof read too well so im sorry and i rushed the ending to get it out td.
#lostalioth kinktober#kinktober day 1#smut#fem!reader#steve rogers#bucky barnes#steve rogers x y/n#steve rogers x reader#steve rogers x you#bucky barnes x reader#bucky barnes x you#bucky barnes x y/n#stucky x fem!reader#stucky x you#stucky smut#stucky x reader#steve rogers x reader x bucky barnes#bucky barnes smut#steve rogers smut#kinktober prompts#blurb#bucky barns fanfiction#steve rogers fanfiction#steve rogers drabble#bucky drabble#stucky fanfiction#stucky x female reader#stucky#stucky imagine#stucky oneshot
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Start-Up
Gabriel hates the start-up he works for. Though this morning it seems there are more immediate things he should be concerned with as men something strange begins to change men around the world.
Couldn't let all these other authors have all this fun without me! Here's my own take on the theme of Viral Transformation! Now I did muddy the waters a bit by setting my virus story at a social media start up but I think it works haha! Do check out the stories by all the other amazing writers who took part!!! -Occam
There was something strange going on in the city today and Gabriel wasnât quite sure what the cause was. Itâs not like thereâs a commotion or anything, on the contrary; the streets were quiet but there was just something sinister in the air. He works for a new social media start-up in the wake of most of the big platforms collapsing, succinctly named Web. Gabriel didnât have a ton of faith in the app and was growing increasingly tired of dealing with the CEOâs inane demands but hey, as long as checks keep clearing.
Reubenâs, said CEOâs, most recent crusade was banning the use of any competing sites or networks on company property, which unfortunately includes Gabrielâs personal devices. Who knew start-ups could be so draconian, though when the rich boy in charge has a fleet of lawyers and the lowly programmer just needs to make ends meet thatâs how it goes it seems. All this to say, Web is thus far incredibly unsuccessful as a news platform and poor Gabriel is unable to see the chaos going on in the city behind closed doors as he walks into work.
The programmer artfully misses chyrons scrolling past telling all men to stay indoors and not to make unnecessary journeys as he mindlessly scrolls on the app he has spent countless hours producing. âUgh.â Gabriel rolls his eyes as he sees post after post from thoughtless gym bros. Reuben swears this is a massive demographic for them but the programmer has constantly spoken up to the contrary. What could they possibly gain by making yet another platform for men who could barely read. Any indulgence or encouragement towards this demographic was sure to push away more reasonable, serious people. Â
Eyes still glued to his phone in search of any shred of news, Gabriel doesnât notice the state of the receptionist as he wanders past to take the elevator up to the office, âMorning Ron.â Only after a few seconds with no response does the coder finally tear his eyes away to see the young man in quite a disheveled state. He chokes back a gasp as he sees Ron quickly remove the hand that was shoved in his pants as he too only just notices the presence of his fellow man, âUHH Morning Gabe- I was just uhhh, getting something out of my pocket?â His rapid movement sends the sound of fabric tearing through the air as whatever remains of the button up he was wearing falls in pieces to the floor.
Desperate to put this encounter behind himself Gabriel mashes the close door button in the elevator. âRon canât have been masturbating just now.â he assures his reflection in the elevator doors. âHeâs a good kid, smart kid.â He says of the man maybe five years his junior. Still, at the very least Gabriel is surprised that he came to work wearing clothes that clearly didnât fit? He canât help but summon the intimate look at Ronâs body he just received and canât imagine how the receptionist bulked up so quickly? He canât think of a single occasion of Ron mentioning going to the gym.Â
Elevator clicking ever upwards he figures Reuben must be to blame, first he wants lunkheads using our app and then he convinces employees to waste time at the gym. Ah! That stupid gym! Gabriel punches a fist into his own palm as in the back of his mind he remembers the CEO taking up valuable office space to create a company gym for any employees to make use of. One of the many âbenefitsâ of working on Web. âGod I hate startups.â
The elevator doors clink open and Gabriel exits to find the office space seems to be a ghost town. No one is using cubicles and he only sees a few of his fellow department heads have made it in so far. He grumbles to himself, âGod-damnit if today could have been work from home Iâm leaving nowâŚâ Despite his irritation, he enters his office and immediately starts getting to work. Waiting on his desk is a short list of suggestions on how to improve the platform from Rueben, which he promptly discards with little ado. Checking his own to-do list for the day he finds a one on one scheduled with one of the few coworkers he actually respects, Alexander Blainely, head of marketing.Â
Most of the other executives were yes men, but Alexander seems to have an actual head on his shoulders. Gabriel always finds their meetings far more stimulating and productive than most other drudgery that goes on in this office. Returning into the open workspace, Gabriel shivers as he feels something in the air yet again. Completely unplaceable, itâs almost certainly nothing, but he remains on edge. His discomfort only grows as he nears his friendâs office and his hitherto directionless uneasiness finds a source. Hearing somethin a little more than disconcerting he whispers under his breath, âwhat the fuck? Is that moaning?âÂ
Barely audible when he shuts the door of his own office and wanders into the otherwise silent suite, it increases in volume with each step towards that of Alexanderâs quarters. Gabriel grits his teeth and rages in his own mind for trusting anyone in this god-forsaken venture to treat their job with a shred of dignity. Arriving at the door and confirming that the man is clearly exerting himself somehow with a clear disregard to decency in their shared workspace, Gabriel scrunches his face and takes a deep breath. Hesitating at the thought of catching someone he had thought was a compatriot in flagrante delicto, his ire overcomes his usual prudence and he barges in. Never could he be prepared for the sight that awaited him.
Alexander sits on his work desk masturbating with his eyes closed as he rapturously traces over a muscular body that Gabriel flat out knows he has never had before today. Tongue lolling out of his mouth and dripping with drool as if he were a dog, Gabriel canât help but loose a gasp as he sees with every pump of his cock, with every fervent breath and heady gasp from Alex, his body is continuing to change.Â
Seconds pass and his skin browns with an unnatural tan under the LED lights in his office. Meanwhile he continues to surge larger, biceps already larger than when Gabriel stumbled in, the head of marketingâs shoulders pack on muscle as his neck thickens and his whole torso widens with strength. Thighs bulge meatier as his cock quivers higher, stretching inches further into the air as his already massive balls pulse larger. Gabrielâs gasp announcing his presence, the masturbating man opens his eyes and, almost as if it were a defense mechanism he loses control and cums.
Gabriel canât tear his eyes away from the titan at the moment of his release. Every already massive muscle on his body expands as veins bulge out from the clear stress of the transformation. As load after load shoots out in inhumanly quick succession, Gabriel freezes as he sees facial hair and body hair that somehow already looks shaved begins to decorate his beyond masculine form. Sweat glistening off the manâs sculpted body makes him aware of the aura of musk that has clearly been filling this room, one that is impossibly similar to the general malaise that he has been assailing his senses all morning. Finally realizing what is happening in front of him, Gabriel slams the door shut and sprints down the hall, accompanied by nothing but his own gasps of exertion.Â
He doesnât take a second to think until heâs safe back in the sanctum of his office. The only place since this morning where he hasnât felt the dreadful haze that he only just became totally aware of. Hopefully safe here, he allows himself a moment of reflection, connecting his brief encounter with Ron and his unfortunate meeting with what canât have been Alexander. âFuck it.â He starts to pull out his cell to check the news but before he can make any progress, he realizes there is something warm and sticky on his shirt. Looking down to see what it is he immediately drops his phone and tears off his suit. God. Some of that must-be imposterâs cum got on his button up. He throws the shirt away and scrubs at his skin where the manâs fluids got on him with fury. Using hand sanitizer like itâs a cure he scrubs and scratches until his skin burns red and raw.Â
After heâs confident heâs done all he can to remove any trace of Alex from his body, Gabriel grabs the backup shirt he keeps in his desk for just an occasion as this. Or rather, in case he spills coffee on himself or some other accident that makes sense at all. His mind craving any degree of normalcy the thought of coffee stays with him. Oliver should be making it in about now. His pulse begins to quicken as he feels concern for the intern, in fact itâs racing far faster a tempo than it usually reaches at its most accelerate. Putting his hand on his wrist as concern for himself eclipses that of Oliver he finds both come to a head as his door opens and he falls out of his chair in shock.
âJesus Oliver, knock next time!â The programmer shouts cowering behind his desk. Oliver quickly sets down his handful of mugs and goes to help his boss up, âSo sorry Gabe! I just saw you were in and you usually donât mind at all.â Standing up, Gabriel inches behind the intern and quietly closes the door, he looks Oliver up and down for anything out of the ordinary. âAre you, feeling alright Ollie?â The man purses his lips and pats himself down, clearly not in the same headspace of his usually stoic boss, âWell, I believe I am sir? Is, uhm, everything alright with you?â Oliverâs eyes flicker around the room seeing the discarded clothes and taking note of his boss sweating more than usual. In fact Oliver isnât sure if heâs ever seen the man really sweat at all, âDid you want me to switch for an iced coffee?â
Gabriel rubs his face and is similarly shocked to find himself sweating, âUgh. I think this job might be getting to me. Have you seen anyone else in the office today?â Oliver puffs his cheeks and looks at the mugs he set aside, âNo actually? Now that you mention it, Ronnie wasnât even downstairs which seemed weird. I mean heâs always on that grind to try and impress Rueben.â Gabe scratched his beard and grimaced, usually heâs quite adept at compartmentalizing, itâs how he hasnât blown up at the CEO thus far. But the impossibility of what he saw in Alexanderâs office has left him shaken. His heart rate begins to rise once more as his mind returns to that scene.Â
In fact, itâs not the only thing that begins to rise. Suddenly his uncontrollable mind latches onto the image of Alexanderâs cock expanding and then blowing its load and Gabrielâs own cock begins to stir. His face burns with blush as he canât help but dart his eyes to see his usually unimpressive cock begin to inch its way larger down his dress pants. For his part Oliver, used to taking verbal cues follows his bossâ eyeline and balks as he sees the man thoughtlessly go to grab it. Oliver is struck speechless as the ever stark programmer bites his lip and begins rubbing his cock through the linen pants, âJesus, uh- Uhm- Sir!?âÂ
Immediately alert he wipes his face and sucks up the drool that was apparently beginning to pool in his throat. Gabriel grabs a tissue and wipes his brow, fervently apologizing to the intern, âI am so sorry Oliver. I donât know whatâŚâ Oliver quickly waves him off, not so much bothered by the behavior as surprised. âD- Donât you worry about it Gabe, er sir. Iâll just be out here if you need me!â He backs into the door before stepping out with an awkward nod, leaving the coffee cups behind. Gabriel debates whether or not he should report himself to HR before he slams his fist against his desk chair as he remembers they havenât an HR department.Â
Rage at his shitty start-up returning at an elevated degree he gets his head back in the game, despite the best attempts of his wanting package and balls growing bluer by the second. Concerned for whatever seems to be going on in this office, or worse in the world at large, he goes to the internet once more. Without much thought at all he opens Web and starts scrolling to find any information of use. Unfortunately for the higher functions in his mind the programmer is immediately assailed by the mindless user base he so disdains, and rather than feeling the ire he always does towards the dullards and hellions. Instead he finds himself possessed with a desire to drink in every last bulging muscle that presents itself.
Coworkers, friends, reporters- Everyone Gabriel has deemed worthy of attention on the nigh-worthless platform he is forced to use, even those who are straighter laced than Gabriel, have been posting smut on main. Industrious man he may be, the programmer is indeed but a man of flesh and blood, and that blood is rushing through him at a breakneck pace to give him the most intense erection heâs ever enjoyed.Â
Itâs partially why heâs so adamant about diversifying their app, a weakness in himself for the male form; a weakness that whatever corruption that is beginning to rise within him is gleefully taking full advantage of. He tries to stay focused, return to his concerned research, but after taking a gasping breath he realizes that his own body has begun to produce the musky air that must be spreading the impossible changes heâs trying to get to the bottom of.
Staring at the bulging pecs and hairy asses of men he once respected, Gabe struggles to pay attention to anything but the cock begging for his attention as it begins to create a wet spot halfway down his leg. The zipper halfway undone by the growing beast alone is fully ripped asunder as Gabriel canât help but full on masturbate in his office, just as he walked into Alexander doing but minutes ago. He tears off his button up with uncharacteristic aggression as it begins to impede his jacking off. As soon as his arms are exposed his attention leaves the app and begins to hone in on his own body. God has he always been so hot?
Gabriel flexes his biceps and smirks as he sees them peak higher than heâs ever imagined they could before now. Raising his arms also exposes his pits, a hotbed for musk and whatever impossible contagion hides within it. He forces his neck to crane down into his pit as sweat begins to stain the undershirt that is rapidly filled with new mass. Intended to be deliberately loose, pounds begin to pack onto his chest and push the garment to its brim, the cotton fabric sticks to his chest tight enough that it would be a struggle to get it off over his new pecs, hearing the sound of fabric straining his cock grows even harder at the idea that perhaps he wonât even need to take it off. Heâll just grow large enough that his massive body will destroy it for him.
This thought flitting through his mind, Gabirel loses whatever shred of self-control remains and goes all out in enjoying the changes happening to him. Rubbing his hands across his sweat-covered tank top and feeling the burning muscles building themselves underneath it. The sound of fabric straining and tearing fills him with pleasure he couldnât fathom before now as he nears his first rapturous release. Sweat drips from his pits as they grow thicker and curls stretch further afield as to be ungovernable, ever focused on the task of spreading his scent. Steady streams of pre trail down his cock, lathering his hand as his whole body quivers with the anticipation of ecstasy.
Before it can arrive however he receives a scheduled video call from the man he wants to hear from less than any other. Clicking accept as he must, the disdain that Gabriel has always held for Rueben quickly comes to a head. Greeted with the image of a more muscular, just as juvenile, version of the CEO filling his screen, Gabriel canât help but grit his teeth in rage. Hearing him laugh and flex as he begins playing with the special effects in Zoom, Gabriel doesnât have a moment to realize that heâs continued to masturbate. Instead, much like when Alexander was surprised, his anger triggers him to cum immediately with no restraint, shooting loads all over the underside of the desk, his still thrusting hand, and the computer screen in front of him.Â
Rueben laughs even harder at the sight, his voice duller than ever as he chastises the programmer, âYo bro huh! Donât take out your anger on the little guy! You should head down to the company gym and put that aggression to good use bro huhuh!â Gabriel narrows his eyes as veins bulge in his neck. Unhappy that the CEO might have a point, he promptly slammed the shutdown button on his computer and stumbled to his feet, quite off balance from his powerful orgasm.Â
Quickly appraising his filthy condition, he shrugs at the cum covering his skintight clothes. Whatever, the gyms sure to be disgusting anyway, despite just enjoying release his cock bounces at the idea and he bites his lip to avoid smiling in excitement. Something at the back of his mind desperately begs for a second to realize heâs almost lost himself beyond measure. Unfortunately, with another deep breath of his own b.o. the manâs eyes fog over and he lumbers out of his office.Â
Turning with an awkward smile as he hears the head programmerâs office open Oliver starts to say, âHey boss, hope your-â before his mouth falls agape at seeing the disheveled lug that wanders out. Still unsteady on his feet as they begin to tear the expensive leather shoes he had on, the man stumbles forward and catches himself on the internâs shoulder. âBuh, sorry uh, Ollââ grimacing at the stain he left on the young manâs shirt, he wipes it in further and nods before heading off, âIâm uh⌠Gonna go check out the gym.â Oliver stares at what he can only guess is cum that his boss just smeared into his shirt before going off to the gym. Rather than confusion at his bossâ behavior or disgust at the surely hazardous substance on his shirt, he canât help but sniff as something in the air begins to make him feel warm inside.Â
Sprinting down the emergency flight of stairs Gabriel leaves a cloud of musk in his wake as he works up more sweat than his body has ever produced before. Each bounding footstep skips an arbitrary amount of stairs as his legs lengthen. Quickly does he lose the few shreds of clothing that remained stuck to his growing form. After his feet finally burst from his shoes he leaves a clear trail of sweaty footprints that could surely be tracked by anyone who wanders past. Though any poor fool who should wander near enough to smell the slovenly detritus in Gabrielâs wake would likely find themselves lacking motivation to do anything but immediately lose their mind to senseless pleasure then and there.
Arriving in the gym Gabriel hungrily eyes the scene and is less than thrilled that he seems to be the only man present. Opting to throw on some clothes for no reason than to feel the friction of fabric against his sweaty skin he finds stained sweatpants littered on the floor and throws them on. After gratuitously appreciating his reflection and adding to the Pollock painting of stains that litter the posing mirror of their company gym, Gabe throws himself intuitively into every machine. He delights in the tension and pull of every straining muscle and grins through the pain as they bounce back larger than with every repetition.Â
He doesnât spare half a thought about wiping down machines, and clearly whatever boorish louts used them previously didnât either, much to his satisfaction. Each second of his body changing upstairs during his too brief session of self pleasure holds nothing towards the edification, the perfection, he enjoys now as he throws himself into a workout. Itâs far more intense than his meager body should ever be able to maintain. Sweat drips from him like a waterfall as hair fans out across his form, rapidly expanding from shaved stubble into fluff that would hold and spread his scent for hours to come.
Taking a break to take a photo of his new beyond exuberant self, as he stands across from the mirror his cock instantly hardens and inches to its almost foot long length down the leg of his sweatpants. Immediately it begins dripping pre down his hairier thigh as he screams in bestial abandon. His brain is so far gone the idea of posting the steamy pics of his sweaty form on Web doesnât even occur to him. Instead the only thoughts remaining to fill his mind are those to return to the gym and get back to the important mission of increasing his virile strength, or the even more pressing desire to fuck anything that moves. Unfortunately for him he canât produce a single actionable step towards that end. So he shall simply enjoy his new body by his lonesome until some equally horny man stumbles into the company gym.
âGod what is up with me today.â Back on the tenth floor Oliver pinches the bridge of his nose as he is overwhelmed with another headache. Ever since Gabriel paid him the brief visit on his way to the gym Oliver has been getting them with increasing frequency. He removed his shirt, not wanting to wear something fouled by whatever was covering his bossâ hands but the damage was already done. The idea that not wearing a shirt in the office is inappropriate moves further out of reach by the second. The intern scratches the back of his neck and grumbles as he feels a soreness in his arm and traps, paying no mind as his fingers trail through thicker hair spreads down from his hairline towards his shoulders. Typing away at his computer, each keypress moves slower than the last, his hands cramp as they suddenly bulge larger.
Taking the smallest second to appraise his changing form Ollieâs eyes widen as he sees there are two unmissable weights now hanging on his chest, sitting on a small gut that he has been making concerted efforts to do away with. Feeling up the new pecs he blushes as he feels stubble prickle his fingers. Rubbing them and feeling muscle give way to his thicker hands he canât suppress the grin on his face as he feels the prickly hairs quickly thicken and curl longer, painting his chest with a beautiful forest of hair. His dick immediately surges to the largest size it can achieve in the confines of his dress pants.
Awash in feeling every new inch of his hairier, more powerful body Oliver stands up and gasps as he sees abs clearer than anything underneath the new layer of hair on his stomach. His knees give way as his hips uncontrollably thrust while he stares down at his form growing sexier by the second. He barely catches himself from falling with his right hand on the table as his body continues to hump his pants to no end, while his left trails across his body to discover the new surprises that cover each and every inch. Hesitant to trail towards the package bulging larger in his crotch, he traces his abs back up to his chest and rests on his clavicle. There does he find the greatest surprise yet, barely gracing the tips of his fingers, a beard beginning to push out on a face that has always been unfortunately clean shaven.Â
While it took browsing Web and the intrusion of his workplace enemy for Gabrielâs conscious mind to give in to the euphoria of being a new, greater man, the feeling of a beard inching thicker on Oliverâs face is more than enough to give himself over to anything. This alongside whatever corrupting virus is coursing through him to cause these changes, itâs no wonder he falls to the floor and begins thrusting a hole in his pants. His meaty thighs and monumental ass make light work of his dress pants as his cock angles itself upwards, out of the waistline of his impossibly tight underwear. Even while in the process of spraying load after load into the carpet of his office, his balls continue churning, always heavy and ever wanting more release. Ever demanding he find more avenues to spread his changes and heighten his own bliss.Â
Now laying on the floor, every exhilarating movement packs more pounds of muscle onto his bulging new body. More pressing than that however is the pelt making its mark everywhere it sees fit to spread. His pubes grow thick enough that no light shall ever touch the base of his cock again before they spread upwards to paint his stomach with dark curls. The deodorant he threw on this morning hasnât a breath of a chance against the new musk that issues forth from his pits as the bushes therein grow thicker than that on his head before stretching outwards to connect with those new heady hairs he so delighted in on his chest. The hairs around his nipples grow thick enough almost to hide them as he continues frotting against the carpet.
His biceps burn with the effort of holding his body up as veins bulge down the diameter of his meaty arms, thick strands of hair quickly trailing behind to make clear his undeniable masculinity. He feels new curls itching against the back of the elastic band of his underwear as it only just hangs in there. Dark curls reach up the small of his back and quickly race to cover his ass cheeks like fuzz on a peach, creating a seamless jungle of curls from his hairy inner thighs to a dense thicket still inching higher on his back; growing into a forest perfect to be grabbed by anyone lucky enough to ride his prodigious cock.
After an especially vocal release, his shoulders burn as his traps bulge larger, which brings a certain someoneâs touch to mind. Sniffing the air he finds himself in a haze of his own musk, though the musk smells awfully similar to that of the man who almost started masturbating in front of him. Following his more sensitive nose, the intern crawls over to Gabrielâs office and confirms his suspicions. Oliver smirks as he imagines that the horny freak is probaly equally wanting of a fuck buddy.Â
Pulling himself up to his feet on the doorway, he grunts as his knees wobble a bit and his cock tries to convince him that humping the floor is good enough. Staying strong and holding the human instinct that some things are worth the effort, he walks on feet hairier than paws and wider than flippers to the elevator where he begins a descent to the company gym. Snapping a picture to text his boss he smirks as he thinks despite what Gabriel always says, perhaps working in a start-up has some perks after all.
It isnât clear precisely what happened on the Fall day when men across the Bay Area began changing into, well, sex-crazed beasts. Some assume it was some strange chemical leak. Others say that it was some spontaneous evolution, though to what end such pleasure seeking changes could help a species is unclear. Some particularly conspiracy-minded folks think the whole thing was a ploy by a Social Media startup that was taking off with men precisely like the ones who changed. Though at the end of the day it doesnât quite matter how or why they changed but how to prevent it from spreading. Across the nation, men of every walk of life are rapidly changing despite taking the best precautions.Â
Closing gyms, quarantining those changing, racing to find any treatment to help those losing their minds and their bodies. Nothing seems to help as every day more men are blowing up with muscle, growing hairier with symptom spreading musk, and losing themselves to their uncontrollable lusts. At this point itâs seeming like thereâs nothing that could possibly be done to stop the spread of changes, but hey, at least it seems like theyâre happy.
#male tf#occam2000#hair growth#mental change#musk tf#dumber#muscle tf#jockification#masculinization#male transformation
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Belle is trying to help Haneul grow out of her shell in the first part of a two-part story
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Relaxing in their dorm room, Belle and Haneul chatted away at their plans for the weekend. âHaneul, you need to get out and have some fun. We're in college, and it's our chance to go wild. This is a time in our lives that we'll never get back, so let's make the most of it. No parents, no one to tell us no."
âI donât know, Belle. Iâm not really the kind of person to go wild.â
âWhat about that boy in your science class? You looked pretty interested in him. Why donât you ask him out or, at the very least, sleep with him?â
Haneulâs mouth drops as she tries to come up with a response. âI canât just sleep with him. Thatâs not right; maybe if we were dating, it would be fine, but I donât think just doing it is-â
âThen Iâm going to,â Belle interrupts. âIâll show you just what youâre missing out on. You need to loosen up and have some fun. Iâll show you just how good itâll be tonight.â Belle said before putting on her jacket. âIâll be back tonight. You canâŚhide in the closet if youâre too embarrassed to watch or join us.â With that, the pair left their dorm room. They walked to their science class. Haneul thought more about what Belle told her; she glanced at her roommate and bit her lip, her mind slowly accepting that she may be right.Â
You were already in class; Belle sat beside you, with Haneul to her right. She glanced at you, flashing an amused smile as she looked through her bag and pulled out a notebook and pencil. During your class, Belle started chatting with you, writing notes in her book, and nudging you when she finished. It was casual at first; she wrote questions about what the professor was talking about and the subject in general. Over time, though, she switched to talking about what you were doing over later. She wrote, âWant to come back to my place? My roommate will be out, so itâll just be us.â Belle drew a winky face, wanting to get her message across.Â
âSounds good,â you whisper. Belleâs smile grows, and she leans closer, touching your hand.Â
When class ends, Haneul leaves first, not wanting to be around while you are with Belle. Her roommate's words rang in her ears, though. The longer she thought about it, the more she felt it couldnât hurt to watch. She went back to her dorm room, full of nervousness. âMaybe this was a bad idea.â She thought to herself, doubt coming back into her mind. The door knob jiggled as you and Belle arrived, and Haneul looked around quickly, putting herself in their closet.Â
You stumble into the room, Belle wrapping her hands around your neck as she presses her lips against yours. You push the door closed with your foot and grab Belleâs waist, moving your hands lower as you pick her up. Belle giggles as you pick her up, her laugh soon turning into a breathy moan as you nip at her exposed neck. You press Belle against the wall, her legs wrapping around your waist. She was facing the closet. Haneul saw the pleasure on Belleâs face through the slats in the door. Hearing her moans added more to the scene unfolding before her. Haneul didnât notice as she began to rub her legs together the tingle she felt between them.
Belle slips her jacket off before cupping your cheeks and bringing you into another kiss. She rocks her hip, feeling your bulge press against her. âOoh, got something for me?â Belle giggles as she runs her hands down your chest. âWhy donât you put me down so I can show you what else these lips can do?â You put her down gently, and Belle undoes your belt before pulling down your pants and boxers. With a sly smile on her face, Belle strokes your cock slowly. âYouâre pretty big,â she says as she kneels before you. Belle points your dick to the ceiling, running her tongue along the underside of your shaft.
From the closet, Haneul couldnât see what Belle was doing. You were blocking her line of sight, but your groans were enough to tell her it was something enjoyable. Haneul saw small movements; they were Belle bobbing her head as she sucked your cock. As she watched, Haneul leaned against the closet door, her hand tapping her thigh, and slowly moved toward her cunt.
While Belle bobbed her head, she wondered if Haneul was in the closet. The idea of being watched turned her on, and she used that energy on you. Her lips were tightly wrapped around your shaft as she bobbed her head, the faint sounds of her gagging on you when she pushed herself to her limits mixed with your moans. You watched Belle slowly pull away, dragging her tongue along your cock before popping you out of her mouth. She held your cock, dragging the tip around her lips. âAre you going to cum, baby?âÂ
Belle slowly strokes your cock, looking you in the eyes as your shaft throbs in her hand. âI want you to cum on my face. Paint me,â She commands, her pace becoming quicker. You nod your head as you moan Belleâs name. She presses her plump lips against the tip of your cock before opening her mouth; her tongue runs from side to side across the head.
âIâm cumming, Belle.â You groan as you shoot the first spurt onto her lips. Belle leans back, letting you paint her as you wish. You cover her lips first before moving higher and covering her forehead. Once you were done, Belle stood up, smiling at you before looking into a mirror to see how well you did. Haneul looked at Belle and saw her painted face. She reached under her skirt and began running her fingers along her slit. She cupped one of her tits with the other, kneading it as she watched you come up behind Belle and take her skirt off. âLetâs move on,â You whisper into her ear, bringing a smile to her face.Â
âLet's,â Belle replies, gathering the cum on her. She feels your cock slide between her legs, rubbing against her wet panties. âMmm, thatâs it, baby.â She leans against your body, letting you use her thighs for your pleasure.Â
Haneul watched on from inside, seeing her first cock as yours poked out from between Belleâs thighs. Haneul pushed her fingers inside her cunt; she covered her mouth with her other hand as she struggled to contain her moans. She watched you and Belle as you both stripped to nearly nothing. Your continued thrusts teased you and Belle, pushing you to make the next move. You pulled Belleâs panties to the side and pushed your cock inside. She cooed, her mind becoming foggy as your cock spread her apart. She kept her hands on top of yours as you began thrusting inside her. Belleâs body bounced, her modest tits shaking as your bodies collided.
Haneul had a front-row seat as you pounded away at Belleâs body. Her fingers began moving quicker; her other hand was barely doing enough to keep her quiet as she whined. âHarder,â Belle moaned. She recognized Haneulâs voice despite how small it was. Now that she knew Haneul was watching, Belle was excited. She imagined her friend fingering herself on the other side of the door, watching as she got fucked. She moaned loudly, letting the younger woman know how good she felt. Belle was getting tighter with every thrust. The young woman clung to you, pressing her ass against you as she tried to make you go deeper. Belle felt herself getting close and brought herself closer to the closet, leaning against it. She begged you to give her more, and you did just that.Â
On the other side, Haneul stared at Belleâs body, taking in her scent as she was pressed against the door. At that moment, Haneul wanted to kiss her; she pressed her lips against the door and closed her eyes, listening to Belleâs cries of pleasure. You were holding onto Belleâs waist, thrusting quickly as you felt your orgasm approach. Without warning, you rammed your cock deep into Belle, your cum spewing out and coating her walls as you filled her up. Belle climaxed in response, her walls tightening around you as she felt your cum shoot into her. She cried out your name, moaning loudly as you filled her. On the other side, Haneul had brought herself to an orgasm, her body shuddering as it experienced a new high. âB-bed.â She managed to get out. You pull out and walk her to her bed.Â
You lay down first, and Belle straddles you, slipping you back inside. Belle rocks her hips, moving your cock inside her as she gathers her energy to start riding you. While you wait, you reach up and cup her small breasts, tugging at her nipple. âMmm, thatâs good, baby.â Belle moans. Soon enough, Belle began to move. âI think Iâm ready.â She said as she bounced on your cock. Belle placed her hands on your chest, trying to support herself. You held onto her waist and began thrusting, meeting her in the middle and making the experience more pleasurable for the two of you. You were hitting deep inside Belle, her muscles flexing as you repeatedly hit her G-spot. She bit her lip, struggling, whining as she felt another orgasm closing in. You leaned in, kissing Belle as her walls tightened around you, and she cums again. Her hips move erratically, going back and forth at a wild pace. You cum a moment layer, leaving more of your semen inside her cunt.Â
Belle collapses on top of you, her chest heaving as she takes deep breaths. âFuck, that was good.â She glances up at you, a tired smile on her face. âWe need to do that again sometime. How about we do this again tomorrow? If you have the energy for it.â Belle was challenging you; that much was obvious.
âYeah, tomorrow. I hope youâre not going to be too sore.â You retort. Belle smirks before climbing off you. You kiss her again before gathering your clothes and leaving.Â
Belle lies in her bed, tired and covered in sweat, as the closet door opens and Haneul walks out. She smiles at the younger woman, âWhat did you think? Did you enjoy the show?â Belle spread her legs, cum oozing from her cunt as Haneul got closer. She added to the show, reaching down and collecting some of your cum and opening her hand, making it spread between her fingers. Haneul locked her eyes on Belleâs fingers; the older woman smiled back at her. âWant a taste?â Haneul was hesitant but nodded her head. She let Belle slip her fingers inside and began to suck them clean. Your cum was salty, but it wasnât unpleasant; Haneul licked Belleâs fingers clean before pulling away. âHaneul, you know this stuff is better from the source. Join us tomorrow for the fun. Itâs a lot better than fingering yourself in a closet.â Belle tapped on Haneulâs thigh; it was slick with her nectar. Haneul blushed, embarrassed that Belle knew what she was up to. âItâll be lots of fun. Iâll help you through it.â Belle reached to her cunt, collecting more of your cum and bringing it to her lips. The younger woman stared at Belleâs cunt as it continued to leak cum. It made Belle smirk. âIf you want, you can have a taste.â She spread her legs, tempting Haneul.
Haneul's eyes darted between Belleâs gaze and her cunt. She slowly moved down until she was inches away. Her tongue hesitantly reached out, and she dragged it slowly along Belleâs slit. Belle leaned back, moaning as she felt Haneul lick her. Now that she had a taste for it, Haneul did it again, dragging her tongue along the older womanâs slit as she held her legs apart. Belle moaned, reveling in the pleasure she was getting from her friend cleaning her cunt. Every lick brought her untold pleasure as Haneul slowly dug deeper, her tongue beginning to venture inside. It rubbed against Belleâs walls. The older woman bit her lip as she tried to steady herself, but Haneul pushed her tongue as far as she could and made Belle cum. Hanuel tasted something new as Belle spilled her nectar onto her.Â
When Belle saw Haneul lick her lips, she knew that Haneul would begin to enjoy herself a little more. She sat up and kissed the younger woman. âWeâre going to have a lot of fun together, Haneul.â She smirked, thinking of all the things they could do.
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Hiii, I just devoured your older bf!simon posts and I got this one brainworm
So, he hasn't figured out how to make albums yet in his gallery, the first time he passed his phone around to let his team gawk at your photos, he had accidentally left one of HIS photo
Imagine the team scrolling through his gallery, drooling at your photo in skimpy outfits, various state of undress then BAM, the hottest dickpic of their L.t. appeared on screen (courtesy of your instructions ofc)
I just think it'll be A Thingâ˘, like, obviously they know Ghost is hot, probably also know how big his dick is, but seeing it presented like that? Some of them definitely moaned. And I bet Simon noticed, probably will start leaving a few of his own photos in between yours, as a treat for the boys.
(Feel free to ignore this if this isn't sth you're comfortable with đŤśđť)
this is fucking insane iâm going to wet my pants- thank you for this idea youâre a genius đŤśđź | effective continuation of this
the 141 would like to enter your older bf!simonâs phone into the museum of natural history for its significant contributions to peace keeping efforts.
if that phone hadnât been in this safe house, there would be far more destruction in their wake. it goes without saying, really.
what you will say is, whilst his phone is the metaphor- itâs really you thatâs giving the opposition time to breathe (limited, their time will eventually come)
the dining table was small, when you had four hulking great men around it the thing looked minuscule. room temperature beers in front of them, itâd taken at least three bottles each for the first to speak up.
âcâmon mate, put us out our miseryâ
obviously their captain would take one for the team and go first, eyes locking with simon. without being able to see his mouth, it was hard to tell but price was pretty sure that was a chuckle (he hoped it was)
a quick rustle as simon shoved his hand in the pocket of his tactical trousers, retrieving the battered android and laying it in the centre of the table.
bated breathe, you couldâve heard a fucking pin drop as they all watched him unlock his phone. one long finger hovering over the camera app before he pressed it, an almost collective sigh of relief emanating through the house.
simon couldnât and wouldnât organise his phone, apps always open in the background, unorganised on his home screen, not a fucking photo album in sight.
photos heaped together in the one collective mess. it was very possible to be looking at an old receipt one minute and then the small of your back with cum across it the next.
majority of the photos were you, and not always filthy. simon couldnât take a photo to save his life but the ones of you always looked breathtaking.
if you asked him, thatâs just what you always looked like.
however, the 141 werenât there for photos of you smiling as you pet a friendly dog. they were there for the kind of photo simon was just about to pull up.
sat on the corner of the bed, photo taken in the long mirror against the wall. thighs spread and one hand playing between them as the other held your phone next to your pouting lips.
gaz was the first to state the obvious.
âjesus christ, mateâ
simon didnât even blink, finger swiping through the next photo.
on the bed on your knees with your chest pressed to the mattress. looking back over your shoulder with a fucked out expression as you practically gave your ass to the camera.
the unmistakable sound of johnny shifting in the seat to his left caught simon, adjusting his cock just out the corner of his eye.
photo after photo, full nude, lingerie, simonâs shirts, just the bed sheet. with every one that passed, the beer was soon forgotten about when the buzz they got off you was unmatched.
the sweet glow that seemed to radiate off you filled the otherwise dim place the men had been hold up in. photos beginning to blur into one until-
the photo was taken from mid-thigh, simon somehow looked even bigger from this angle. shirt lifted enough to show his scarred stomach but his balaclava stayed on. exposed eyes staring down at the camera as his large hand wrapped around his equally large cock.
dead silence speared straight down the middle by a moan, pathetically covered with a cough. simon pretended not to notice the accent, left the phone in the centre of the table.
nobody could look away, it was physically impossible to tear their eyes off the sight in front of them. had they ever seen one that big in real life?
âfuckinâell L.T, whatâya doinâ wâall that?â
they all knew simon had a big cock, you could tell by looking at him- the way he walked. if youâd ended up in the showers with him on base and seen it soft youâd even know.
it was unmissable.
but seeing it like this? looming over the camera at this angle, practically eclipsing the natural light, his thick fingers just closing around the base. this was something else.
you were quite the artistic director.
nobody wanted to be the first to say what the other was thinking. allowing the silence to fill the space only broken by the occasional sound of someone adjusting their trousers.
simon didnât need anything to be said, he knew what he had and he knew the effect it had on- anyone really. he simply sat back in his seat, spreading his thighs wider and ignoring the occasional glance that fell on him when he did it.
finally cutting them loose, simon swiped to the next photo- back to you with cum streaked across your face. throats clearing and murmurs arising from the group.
âthatâs real niceâ
âwould yâlook at the fuckinâ state aâthatâ
âwhat i wouldnât giveâ
simon grunted in agreement, eyes flickering around the table with a feeling invisible growing in his chest. a feeling that he wasnât used to but didnât- mind?
he didnât think too long, he couldnât think too long.
those photos would just have to become part of the regular.
#anyways i love it when men are a bit gay itâs so hot#older bf!simon#simon riley smut#simon ghost riley smut#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley blurb#simon ghost riley blurb#simon riley drabble#simon ghost riley drabble
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Pairing: Benny Cross x fem!ex-girlfiriend! reader Summary: After your rather stormy breakup, Benny decides he can't live without you. He'll get you back. At any cost. Even if he has to force you over his motorcycle and take you far out of town. Taglist for Benny: @aleemendoza2425-blog Benny Cross' Masterlist ~â˘â¤â¤â¤â˘~ Main Masterlist P.S. I accept requests for Benny if you want to read sth specific with our boy đ
Even if it's handcuffed I'm leaving here with you Bygones will be bygone eras Fading into gray We broke all the pieces, but still want to play the game I told my friends I hate you but I love you just the same Pick your poison, babe I'm poison either way... Whether I'm gonna be your wife or Gonna smash up your bike I haven't decided yet But I'm gonna get you back - "imgonnagetyouback" Taylor Swift
âWhat the hell is he doing here?â You ask angrily, looking out your office window as you see your exâs Harley parked next to your car.
"Maybe he forgot something from you. Did you give him all his stuff back?" Your friend asks, putting the papers into a folder.
"No. I gathered all four of his shirts and two pairs of pants and made myself a campfire behind the house." You huff angrily, closing the blinds so you wouldn't have to watch the blue-eyed Vandal leaning against your car.
"So what does he want? From what you've told me, your relationship ended in a hell of a bad way, and he was a world-class asshole." You tremble at the mere memory of your breakup with Benny.
You and he met at one of the Vandals' bar. You happened to go there for a drink with your girls; he noticed you and started talking with you. He was flirting with you the whole night and tried to take you with him for a ride on his bike. The first time you turned him down. Then he tracked down where you lived and showed up at your door, offering a ride to your work.
You should have seen a red flag then. But you were too stupid and infatuated by him enough to think it was romantic.
As time went on, he took you to Vandals meetings more and more often. And it was fun. Until you had to bail him out of arrest, pick him up from the hospital, and wait forever for him at home, wondering if he'd be sleeping next to you in bed or at the police station.
And one day, when he ended up in the hospital after some guys beat him up for wearing Vandal's colours, you broke. You begged him to stop while he was still alive and well (which was doubtful considering the doctors were still debating whether to cut off his foot); you literally knelt by his bed and cried like a baby while all he cared about was whether he could keep riding.
But that wasn't the worst. The worst was that every time you argued, he threatened to leave, to disappear, that it would be best for you if he left you alone. And at first you begged him, terrified, to stay, but over time you started to react to those words... more aggressively.
Then you decided you were fed up with living with the wandering cat he was and broke up with him. Roughly. Stormily. Your neighbours heard more than one of your arguments, and the whole street saw you throwing his stuff out the window and finally throwing rocks at him as he rode away on his beloved Harley. On second thought, maybe you were both two big damn red carpets.
"I don't want to know. Will you take me home? The last thing I want today is to meet that son of a bitch."
You sigh, dragging the papers to your desk. You grab your black blazer and throw it on over your white shirt. You adjust your black pencil skirt and grab your purse to follow your friend.
You took the job as a secretary right after breaking up with Benny. You quit your old job not wanting him to know where you worked, but apparently Vandal had his ways. You wonder if choosing another job wasn't a slap in the face for Benny. Choosing such a boring and ordinary job would piss him off even more and prove that you really aren't made for each other.
Just like Benny, you could be hellishly mean.
"What the hell?" Your friend asks as you exit out the back and her car isn't in the parking lot. But there is another Vandal with his motorcycle.
"Johnny." You greet him and walk over to him, crossing your arms. Your friend is hot on your heels. "What are you doing here?"
"Kiddo said you two have a problem in your relationship."
"We don't have any relationship, so there is no problem between us. But apparently, my friend lost her car. Can you help her?" You ask him, furious with Benny for not acknowledging your breakup.
"Y/N... you know that I don't like to get involved in the shit that's not mine, but this kid has been going crazy for a month now. He's been doing even worse shitty things than before, and I can't tell you how many times we've picked him up from jail in the past few fucking weeks. If you ever cared about him, talk to him. He's becoming wildly unpredictable. Even for me."
You bite your lip at his words. You know perfectly well what Benny is like, or rather what he was like before he met you. Thanks to you, he stopped riding so fast and carefree, ended up in the hospital much less often, and even obeyed the speed limit when you were with him on his bike.
You can only imagine what he's been up to in your absence and to what extent, since Johnny took an interest and came to you to talk about it.
"Don't manipulate me, Johnny. You know damn well he deserved it. Now you know what I had to deal with throughout this whole fucking relationship." You reply dryly, not wanting to fall for the Vandals' sweet words again.
You loved them like family, but sometimes you have to cut yourself off from them to save your sanity. And you desperately needed some time to yourself and a break from all of Benny's antics.
"Well... I know Benny isn't easy, but he really is a good kid. Carrot and stick. That's what he needs. And for the sake of your lady-buddy's car and your friendship... maybe you should go and have a few words with him."
"Screw you." You growl, rolling your eyes, and walk away from them. "What are you waiting for?! Take her to this fucking car!" You shout, walking back to the main building to exit through the main entrance.
Johnny puts your friend on his bike, and all you can do is give her an apologetic look as he takes her to where they moved her car. You don't even want to know how they did it.
You sigh as you walk through the office and stand in front of the main exit doors. You glance at your watch and walk out of the building with your heart in your mouth.
You walk down the sidewalk with the other people from work who have just left. Benny's blue irises land on you immediately. He straightens up, stopping leaning against your car and throwing away a cigarette he was smoking. He looks at you expectantly. You nod at him and pretend to walk in his direction.
You cross the street on the crosswalk, but instead of turning right towards the parking lot, you run as hard as you can to the left towards the bus stop.
"Y/N!" Benny shouts after you, and a moment later, you hear the thud of his combat boots against the pavement as he runs after you.
The bus pulls up to the stop, and you run inside. Luckily, the driver closes the doors before Benny can get to them. He bangs on the glass, shouting your name and some curse words, but you can't hear him clearly as the bus starts moving.
You breathe a sigh of relief and wipe your sweaty forehead. This time you did it. You just hoped your friend would get her car back before Benny went to Johnny and complained to him that you ran away.
But for now, you're happy that you managed to outsmart your ex.
The next morning you cautiously peer out from behind your front door, searching for a head of blonde hair. Even though you couldn't see any Vandal's motorcycle through the window, you wanted to be sure that none would suddenly pop out from nowhere.
You sigh with relief, not seeing anything suspicious.
You open the door wider, but something is blocking you. On your way out, you notice a huge bouquet of your favourite flowers. You pick it up and examine it carefully, but you don't see any note or card. But you do see a necklace.
The flowers are tied with a fucking necklace. The necklace Benny gave you at the beginning of your relationship with his initials carved into the back of the silver heart. (One of the guys worked at a jeweler's and did it for him for practically free through a connection or something.) The necklace you threw in his face when you broke up with him.
Furious, you want to throw the flowers in the trash. Instead, you decide to put the necklace in your pocket and walk to work. On the way, you pass a school and hand the bouquet to the first girl you see. At least she was happy because of those damn flowers.
As you continue your walk, you see a motorcyclist in the distance. You tense up and quicken your pace, praying that it's not a Vandal, but apparently you're out of luck today.
"Y/N?! How long have we not seen each other?!" Danny screams as he rides to you. You sigh as his bike blocks the entire sidewalk and force a smile.
"Probably ages ago. How you doing?"
"Great. Can I give you a ride somewhere? Where's Benny? Shouldn't he be the one hauling your ass to work?" He asks, already taking out a helmet for you. You reluctantly accept it and climb behind him on the bike.
"We broke up." You inform him, knowing full well that he's been away from the Vandals lately due to studies and his photography stuff.
"Oh shit. He must be devastated then." He comments and starts the engine. You hold on to him as he drives you to the address you gave him.
The drive takes a few minutes. Luckily, your car is still parked outside the building, and you don't see any parked bikes.
"Thanks. Danny? Can you give this to Benny? You probably will see him sooner than me." You say and hand him the necklace. He nods and drives away, leaving you alone.
You approach your car and curse, seeing the lock placed on the wheel. Not a police lock. A lock that the Vandals often put on and took off in exchange for small money. A small tag was attached to it. It had the date and time written on itâprobably their next meeting that they wanted you to join in exchange for taking the damn thing off your car.
"Bad day?"
You flinch and turn around, surprised by someone's presence. You sigh with relief when you see only Mikeâan accountant from the company you worked for.
"Bad week. Plus, it looks like I'm grounded." You say and kick your leg against the wheel of your car.
"Yeah, I recognise that. My friend had to pay them like $100 to get that damn thing off. He was rushing to some meeting and couldn't wait for the police and similar stuff. I can get someone to take it off for you."
"I'm afraid I don't have enough money." You sigh, mentally preparing yourself for a weekend with the Vandals. In Benny's company. Talking to him. You already feel sick.
"For free. Friend of mine owns me a little favour."
"Seriously?" You ask, shocked. He nervously rubs the back of his neck with his hands and nods, giving you an uncertain smile.
"Yeah, no problem. And before he will do it... do you mind if we both go to lunch? I mean... you don't have to if you don't want to..."
"You know... I would actually like that." You interrupt him with a smirk, seeing him stuttering, unable to finish his sentence as he blushes.
"Really?" You almost giggle at his incredulous question and the gleam of happiness in his eyes. You nod with a huge, genuine smile, practically forgetting why you agreed to this date in the first place. "So... in four hours at the exit?"
"I will be waiting." With a smile, you leave him behind and enter the office. Maybe this day wasn't such a tragedy after all...
Benny was drinking beer with Johnny and Danny at a table in their favourite bar. The Vandals were circling him like vultures, just waiting for a little sensation and gossiping about his breakup with you.
"It must be hard for you, man. We all saw how much you loved her. Like a Catholic loves a goddamn God."
"Too bad she can't see it." Benny mumbles, lighting a cigarette. His one hand plays with the necklace he left on your doorstep this morning, which you gave to Denny. Benny gave you his fucking heart, and you still rejected it. He had to try harder. He had to talk to you first.
"Hey Benny-boy? How are you? Are you still getting over your breakup with your girlfriend? Do you love her that much? Come on, come with us. We'll race to the brothel, and you'll forget about this bitch in a second." Some Vandal walks up to him and pats him on the back.
"Benny no..." Johnny is interrupted by the crash of Vandal's jaw as Benny's fist hits him.
A second later, a beer bottle shatters over the head of a bleeding man on the floor, and Johnny and Danny try to pull him away from the guy. The entire club boos and cheers for the fight, but the guys quickly drag Benny outside.
"What the hell?! You can love her, but damn, don't be such a girl and react at each shitty comment!" Johnny yells at him and hits him in the chest with his hands. Benny huffs indignantly and puts his hands in his pockets to stop himself from hitting him.
"I hate her!" He growls furiously and plays with the necklace in his pants' pocket.
"And love her just the same, huh?" Danny asks and gives Benny a cigarette.
Benny doesn't answer. He smokes furiously, trying to clear his head, but all he can think about is you. Your scent, your taste, the softness of your body, the shudder of your breath beneath him, the way you clenched your hands around his shirt across his stomach when you rode with him on his bike, the way you pressed yourself against him and snuggled up to him every chance you got... fuck, he missed you. More than he previously thought he would be.
"Benny?! I saw your girl with some man in a suit! At that one of those Italian restaurants on the corner of Main Street. You know, the shitty one for rich people. You should do something about this." One of the bikers rides up and informs him, then rides away before Benny can say anything.
"Kid, don'tâŚ" Johnny tries to stop him, but Benny is already on his motorcycle. He starts it and rides as fast as he can, ignoring the shouts behind him.
All Benny could think about was how he was going to beat up the guy who dared to touch you. You were his girlfriend. You were one of the Vandals. You might have been on a break, but that didn't give any man the right to hit on you. Not when you had Benny and Benny had you.
It was simple logic. Nobody messes with the Vandals and their girls.
Benny sped through the city, not stopping at red lights. It wasn't until he was at a restaurant that he stopped his Harley.
He didn't turn off the engine, though. He was staring intently through the restaurant windows and checking out each customer until his eyes landed on you and some shit in a suit who had the nerve to get your attention.
Benny tugged on the handle, causing his bike's engine to roar furiouslyâlike a guard dog giving a warning before it attacks. He increased the engine's roar until your eyes met his.
A cold shiver ran through him as you threw him one of your angry looks, and he felt hurt when you ignored him and continued to talk with the man sitting in front of you and gave him one of your most wonderful smiles. Fuck it. The guy wouldn't be able to walk when Benny got to him.
Benny reaches into his pocket, pulls out a pack of Marlboro, and lights his cigarette. He holds it to his mouth with one hand while the other continues to crank the handle of the engine, so that the roar of the engine drowns out any conversation you might have had with the man in front of you.
He smirks as you and the guy in front of you stare in his direction. He holds a cigarette between his plush lips and waves at you, causing an irritated frown to form on your forehead.
Benny can't help but feel a strange bile rising in his throat as he looks at the two of you. You were on a date with a guy who was clearly the opposite of Benny. He wonders if this is what you really wantâa boring guy with a boring job and a tonne of money who could build you a house with a fucking white picket fence and drive you to work in his Cooper car and the kids to preschool. It makes him sick to think that you could be anyone else, that you could have anyone else's children, that you could be married to some guy in a suit and live the life of a fucking decent 1950s shitty family.
Benny knew perfectly well that he couldn't give you what this guy could provide you. He couldn't even afford a date at a restaurant like that.
However, it didn't change the fact that he loved you so damn much.
"Hey! Biker dude, leave Y/N alone!" A guy in a suit comes out of the restaurant and yells at him. Benny calmly finishes his cigarette and throws it on the ground, staring silently at the man in front of him. "Did you hear me, degenerate? Get out of here!" The guy pushes him, hitting his chest. For Benny, that's enough.
He lands the first punch with his right fist, landing perfectly on his opponent's cheek. The next punch sends blood pouring from the man's nose onto his snow-white shirt. But for Benny, it's not enough.
He throws the guy to the ground, and the two begin to fight in earnest. Benny, however, has a much greater advantage and motivation as he takes out all his anger on the guy below him. He only snaps out of this strange trance when someone's hands pull him away from the bleeding man below him.
"What the fuck was that, Benny?! You almost killed him!" You yell at him angrily, pulling your hands away from him as quickly as you can. Benny says nothing, staring at you silently as he processes what he just did. Several other motorcycles pull up in front of the restaurant, with Johnny in the lead.
"Let's go, kid! Before the police arrive."
Benny stares at you, not quite wanting to leave before he explains why he beat up your date. But he stops himself the moment he sees the fear and disgust in your eyes. It hurts Benny more than any punch he could have taken. He clenches his jaw and walks to his bike. He starts the engine and gives you one last long look, then lowers his head in shame as he joins the other Vandals.
Your hair flutters in the wind as you watch the Vandals drive away. You run over to Mike and wait with him until the ambulance arrives. But you don't follow him to the hospital. You have more important things to take care of in the city.
With trembling hands, you knock on the door. You wait patiently outside, considering the pros and cons, but before you can chicken out and leave, Betty opens the door for you.
"Y/N? This is quite a surprise."
"Can I come in? I need to talk to you." The woman makes room for you and lets you in. You greet her and Johnny's daughters, who are watching a cartoon on TV, and you go with her to the kitchen, where you can talk in peace. "It's about Benny."
"I expected it. You know, we were all very surprised when you broke up. We were convinced that a week longer and the boy would start looking for an engagement ring for you."
"Benny and marriage? Not in this lifetime, I guess." You scoff and sit down at the small kitchen island with a smile, thanking her for the coffee she made you. "He fucking almost beat my date to death today. He's acting crazy. Johnny tells me he's been like this since I broke up with him, but we both know he was like this long before we even met. What the hell am I supposed to do, Betty? Get out of town? Out of America? Vandals have expanded all over the states, and most of them aren't the same old club they used to be."
"I know. Believe me, I know best." Silence falls between you after her words. You nod, understanding perfectly that she of you had the most right to worry. You sigh, running your hand through your hair. "Y/N... I'll give you some advice. If you don't care about him that much... if you think you can forget and move on, then save yourself. Run away wherever you want, as far away from him as possible, and forget. But if you can't... then stay and talk some sense into him before it's too late to save him."
"Save him? You know perfectly well he won't abandon the Vandals."
"Like you said, they're not the same Vandals they used to be. They've changed. Johnny sees it. Benny sees it. And they both still fool themselves, but when some shit happens, it finally gets to them. And believe me, Benny loves his bike and freedom, but the Vandals aren't his family anymore. You are." You fall silent at her words, processing everything she said. You nod and sigh, taking a cigarette out of the pack in your pocket. "We smoke outside." She admonishes you. You laugh quietly and raise your hands in surrender.
"All right. Thanks for everything, Betty." You sigh as you leave the house. You light a cigarette and walk across town to the Vandals' bar. You have to finish everything you had to finish with Benny. You couldn't just leave town without a word. There's no telling what the Vandal would do if you suddenly disappeared.
You throw your cigarette into the bin and take a few calming breaths as you approach the biker's bar. Their engines are already roaring, and some of them, probably the young and new ones, eye you warily as you enter.
You look around the bar and frown, unable to find Benny. You walk further in, pushing through the sea of people and sitting at the head table where Johnny sits with his most important men.
"Hello there. Where is Benny?" You ask them, taking the beer from Johnny. The man raises an eyebrow at you and watches as you take a sip.
"I thought you didn't want to talk to him?"
"I have to. I'm leaving town soon. I'd rather tell that to that ticking bomb." Johnny nods, fully realising what you mean. You see Cockroach get up from the table and go to the phone. You try to listen in on the conversation, but Johnny effectively talks you over and drowns out any conversation the man was having at the bar.
"When are you coming back?" He asks, but you don't answer. You take a sip of beer and tap your finger on the neck of the bottle. "I see. The kid won't be happy, you know that?"
"We are no longer together." You snap back, trying your best to maintain your relatively indifferent attitude. "Besides, after the shit he did today, he only proved that I can't stay here anymore."
"He went for a ride. He'll probably be at the lake. Or on the streets breaking a few traffic laws. You know him."
"Too well." You nod and stand up from the table. Out of the corner of your eye, you see Cockroach exit the bar and get on his bike. You frown and shake your head. They're not your problem anymore. "Tell him I'm looking for him. When you will see him."
"Sure." He agrees and nods. You nod back and turn to leave the bar. You scan the place one last time, knowing full well that you'll probably never set foot in it again.
Your heart clenches as you remember all the times you spent here. Both the good and the bad. Shortly after you broke up with Benny, you cursed this building. You'd rather see it burn down, along with all the Vandals that reminded you of what you'd lost.
You try to hold back the tears that are welling up in your eyes as you involuntarily recall your first meeting with Benny. The pool table is still in the same spot. How easy it would have been for you not to have looked that damned way and not fallen for the charm of those blue irises and the exposed muscles of his arms. How much disappointment and heartbreak you would have avoided if you had never entered that bar. And as much as you despised and hated that place, you loved it and the people in it for a long time and fiercely. And one of them in particular.
But how much more tragedy and sadness could you endure? How long could you live in fear and uncertainty in a relationship that was supposed to bring you only happiness and those good thrills?
Benny wanted to be free. So you will give him that freedom.
"Y/N!" Johnny calls after you before you leave. You sigh and turn to him, raising a questioning eyebrow. "Take care of yourself."
"You too." You nod at him and leave the bar.
You leave everything behind. And you feel like a piece of you is dying in the flames of time and the cry of your tormented heart..
Surprisingly, it doesn't take you long to pack. Nor does it take you long to get off work. Two days later, you're standing in the hallway of your house, ready to hand over the keys to your cousin, who's supposed to be selling it.
You stare at the picture Danny took of you and Benny when you were sitting at one of the biker picnics. Benny and you were leaning against his bike. He had his arm over your shoulder and was staring at you with loving puppy eyes while you smiled at the camera.
You sigh, putting the photo into your wallet and impatiently waiting for your cousin.
Just then, there's a knock on your door. You sigh and open it. You freeze, completely shocked, when you see Benny there.
"I didn't hear your bike."
"I parked down the street. So you don't get scared and run away." He says, still leaning against your door frame.
"I'm not scared of you." You huff indignantly, looking at the scratches on his face. You frown, not remembering him getting any injuries from Mike.
"I had an accident."
"Of course you had." You snort, crossing your arms over your chest. You see his jaw quiver slightly, but he just continues to stare at you with those stupid blue eyes of his, like you're the only girl in the world. "I'm leaving." You inform him, swallowing hard and waiting for his reaction. He drops his gaze to your hands and nods.
"I can see that." He says, nodding at the large travel backpack behind you.
"I won't come back." You inform him, carefully observing his reaction to it. Of course, he doesn't show anything. His face is stony as he looks at you, and his facial muscles don't even move as he doesn't reveal a single emotion to you.
"You won't come back." He repeats, not moving an inch from his spot by your door. You clench your teeth in irritation, to which he just smiles. And oh, that damn smile of his...
"That's it. You can go. You always said you'd be the one to leave. Too bad I had to be the one with the balls to do it." You say angrily, ready for him to turn around and walk to his bike, but all he does is continue to stare at you. You shake your head and push past him when you see your cousin.
You ignore Benny as you sort out the details with your cousin. You grab your backpack and walk him back to his car. You say goodbye to him and watch the car drive away. As you turn to go to the bus stop, you bump into Benny's chest.
"Sorry. I didn't see you." You say, quickly pulling away from him and trying to suppress your blush after your hands were briefly on his chest. The damn thing still had some well-trained muscles.
"Give you a lift?" He asks you seemingly innocently and puts his hands in his pockets. His gaze burns you, making your blush stay on your cheeks a little longer.
"Where are you going?" You ask as you both walk in the same direction. You don't feel like going with him, but you're not going to tell him that yet. You know he'll think of anything to make you get on that fucking bike with him.
"Florida." At those words, you freeze and stand still. You swallow and look at him for a long moment as you remember how you once begged him to go to his cousin in Florida and start a new life there. Then he chose his bike. And you chose yourself.
"To your cousin?" You ask carefully, resuming your walk.
"He hired me at his car workshop." Benny nods, walking glued to your side with his hands clasped behind him.
You feel strangely at ease talking to him. You're out of the habit of it. Of having him so close to you, of feeling the warmth of his body close to yours, of his intoxicating scent, of having his hypnotising irises focused on you and of listening to that raspy voice of his.
You missed him.
"You will have a job?" You ask, shocked. You can't imagine a free spirit like Benny finding a permanent job with set hours. "Well... that's good for you. I guess." You comment as you both walk. Suddenly he steps in front of you and stops. You sigh when you see his bike parked exactly two steps away from you. Fuck, you let that son of a bitch lead you to his bike.
"Are you getting in?" He asks, nodding at his bike. And as much as you want to say yes, you know it'll be bad for both you and him.
You shouldn't be together. Or at least you didn't think so. Even though you loved him so damn much.
"I will buy a train ticket." You politely decline his offer. You expect him to nod silently, get on your bike, and ride off into the sunset forever, but he still stands firmly in front of you, blocking your path.
"Where to?" He asks and looks at you suspiciously, as if he knew perfectly well that you didn't know where you were going yet. You only knew that it was definitely far from Benny.
"You don't need to know." You growl stubbornly, trying to get past him and finally move on.
But Benny won't let you. Before you can register any movement, he moves quickly and takes your hands. He wraps them tightly around his waist, and suddenly you hear a metallic click and something cold and heavy being placed on your forearms. Handcuffs. Bloody handcuffs.
"Benny!!" You growl at him angrily and struggle as he walks towards his bike. "Where the hell did you get handcuffs from?"
"Cockroach." He answers shortly and sits down, making you have to follow his lead. He fucking kidnaps you.
"Benny... let me go!" You scream, trying to punch him in the stomach, but the handcuffs are so short and far enough away from your wrists that all you can do is hold on tight as he prepares to ride.
"Even if it's handcuffed, I'm leaving here with you." He tells you calmly, and you stare at him in disbelief. What the fuck?
"Don't joke! Benny!" Either he ignores your screams (which is most likely) or he doesn't hear them because at that very moment he starts the engine of his Harley.
So all you can do is sit behind him, holding on tight as he drives who knows where. Amazingly, he stops at red lights and doesn't go over the speed limit. It's only when he gets to the highway that he drives a little faster than the speed limit, but not enough to be considered dangerous driving.
You rest your cheek against his back in defeat as you realise there is absolutely no way out of this. Not if you want to stay alive. You can feel him relax a little as he rides forward, and you are not trying to fight with him. You sigh, closing your eyes and allowing yourself to rest behind him for a moment, revelling in the feeling of freedom as you whizzed through the air on his bike.
Fuck, you missed it.
The only break you get is a stop at a motel when the fuel runs out and the cold night starts to set in. Benny rents you a room (which is surprising because you were always the one paying) at the motel and leaves you there while he goes to fill up his Harley.
You think about escaping, but:
1. Benny took away the keys and locked you up there.
2. He made sure to rent a room on the highest floor of this damn building.
3. You were too tired and hungry after the ride to come up with some plan.
That's why you lay on the bed and wait for him to come back. Hopefully with food. It would be nice to eat something before you will kill him.
As if on cue, the keys turn in the door, and Benny steps inside. In his hand he has a large paper bag, which he places on the bed opposite you in an apologetic gesture of sacrifice for his sins. He can go to hell. Him and his damn puppy eyes.
"What is it?"
"Burgers. Took it for you. Your favourite." He says and makes sure he's locked the door. He puts the key in the keyhole and goes to the window.
He looks at his bike and takes a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket. He lights one and looks outside, not sparing you a single glance.
"Where's your jacket?" You ask, seeing as he's not wearing his Vandals' colours. It was weird seeing him in just a T-shirt.
"On a bike in the trunk. I don't know if they'd let me here wearing that."
"You never took it off." You say shocked and raise your eyebrows at him. "You will be cold without it." You notice and take the food out of the bag. You don't eat yet, wondering if you should leave him some, if he even ate anything before he came here.
"I was cold without you." He answers quickly without even thinking much about what he's saying. You see his cheeks redden slightly as he realises he said it out loud. "Eat." He clears his throat and takes a drag on his cigarette. You sigh and start eating. You hum, savouring the delicious food, and you swear you hear him chuckle quietly from his spot by the window. Big bastard.
"Where we going?" You ask him before biting into your burger. You frown as grease leaks onto your fingers. You lick them, unconsciously teasing Benny as he... imagines what your lips wrapped around just as perfectly as they now were wrapped around your fingers. He clears his throat, seeing that youâve caught him staring at you.
"Florida. I want to show you something." You eat in silence, wondering what he wants to show you that makes him literally chain you to himself and drag you out of town.
"And then?" You can't stand it anymore and finally ask, curious about his future plans and how long he actually wants to keep you with him.
"And then you will decide."
"Decide what? Do I want the fur handcuffs or the regular metal ones?" You snap at him, irritated.
Your sharp mockery makes him throw his cigarette out the window, and his gaze lingers there, as if he were ashamed of what he had done. On the other hand, you didn't give him much of an exit or opportunity to talk normally. You wanted to leaveâjust like he had promised so many times that he would do. So why did he stubbornly want to keep you if he had never cared?
Benny wasn't one for words. He was sparing with his thoughts and emotions. And for a while, his actions spoke loud enough of his devotion to you. For a while. Then your honeymoon phase wore off, and you were annoyed that he never verbally confirmed to you what his eyes had told you so many times as he held you close by the fire at night at one of the Vandals meetings.
On this particular night, some famous actress that the guys were crazy about was coming to town. Half of them got on their bikes halfway through the party and wanted Benny to join them in hunting her down and taking a picture with her. They even bribed Danny to go with them and take their stupid pictures.
"Come on, Benny. You're not coming with us? I remember you were the one who hung her poster in the club so you could get a good view of her from the pool table." One of the guys was convincing Benny, who was currently lying on the grass and resting his head on your lap, practically forcing you to comb your hands through his blonde locks.
"I have a much better view here!" He shouts at them, not even turning his head in their direction. His blue eyes never leave your face. You blush a little, ducking your head and closing your eyes as you try to ignore the whistles and teasing from the boys at his response.
A moment later, Benny props himself up on his elbows and steals the most delightful, mind-numbing kiss. You cup his cheek in your hand and let yourself sink into the feeling of his soft lips against yours, letting out a quiet sigh when he tangles his hand in your hair and presses you against the trunk of the tree behind you. You ignore the cheering Vandals put on and completely immerse yourself in your little bubble with Benny.
Everyone had their poison. For Benny, it was cigarettes and his Harley. For you, it was him. And back then it didn't bother you one bit.
"I... if you want to go you can. I won't stop you." Benny mumbles under his breath, pulling you from your thoughts. You shake your head, snorting, and set the bag of food on the nightstand next to your bed.
"Thank you so much that you provide me with my basic human rights!" You growl at him angrily, reminding him about those stupid handcuffs.
"You didn't even want to give me a chance to explain myself to you. And you know perfectly well that I never ask for anything or expect anything in return. I... I didn't see any other way to get to you. And I'm not going to apologise for that."
You roll your eyes at him, irritated. But you can't say you don't see the reasoning behind his actions. But the prospect of being dragged around by him deeply offends your innate feminism.
Seeing that you have nothing to add to the matter, he closes the window. He walks over to you and grabs the blanket off the bed. You frown as he sits down in the armchair, clearly intending to sleep there. And you don't like the fact that even though you had him in the same room, you won't be able to have his arms wrapped around you. Especially since it's so damn cold in this motel.
"Come here. You will get sick by sitting near this window. It is cold outside, and they don't even heat the room." You grumble and make room for him on the bed, hoping that you don't have to tell him the real reason you want him next to you to get him in the same bed with you.
"I will be fine." He speaks carelessly and reaches into his pocket for another cigarette.
"Benjamin Cross." You growl at him, which finally gets his full attention. "Get your fucking ass here." Benny rolls his eyes but obediently stands up. He takes off his shoes and lies down next to you in bed.
He covers you with an extra blanket and leaves an absurd amount of space between you that you honestly hate. But you won't make the first move and throw yourself into his arms. Not after he kidnapped you. But... could it really be considered kidnapping if you partly wanted it and you didn't really have anywhere else to be?
You sigh, tossing and turning in your bed as you try to find a slightly comfortable sleeping position. But it's impossible to fall asleep with Benny so close to you when you are not even able to touch him. Especially when his warmth and scent reach you, assaulting you and every ounce of restraint and self-control you had.
"What's the matter with you?" Benny asks as you toss and turn in frustration once again.
"Nothing."
Benny knows that tone. All too well. So he hesitantly moves closer to you and experimentally places a hand on your waist. When you don't push away from him, he gently pulls you toward him and tightens his hold, pressing his chest against your back. You sigh and press your lips to his forearm, rubbing your nose against the tattooed skin.
Benny doesn't comment on that. That's something you like about him. That even when you do completely absurd things, he doesn't comment on it, doesn't deny it, just stands by you in silence. Just like now.
You take his hand in yours and squeeze it so hard that his rings dig into it. But you don't care. It's nice to finally have him this close.
Benny rests his chin on your shoulder and runs his nose against your temple. His beard gently tickles you, but you do nothing about it. It's been a long time since you've had this feeling of him close to you. You turn in his arms and snuggle into him.
Benny gently strokes your back with his hand, holding you close to him without a word as you revel in his scent. For a moment you forget why you should be mad at him and stay as far away from him as possible. So when his lips fall to your forehead and he presses a long kiss there, you grab his chin and steal the kiss from him.
His full, plump lips feel wonderful against yours and caress you nicely. You moan when you can finally taste his lips on yours again, and you remember how much you've missed this feeling. His hand roams over you, and you let him touch you wherever he wants. Benny, on the other hand, is confused. One moment you're yelling at him and you're angry, and the next you want him close to you and you kiss him like there's no tomorrow. It's a nice change. But Benny is afraid of how long it will last. Of how much longer will you want him? And will you want to leave again?
For now, he had you back in his arms. And he wanted to savour that feeling. And he will give you a goddamn reason to stay.
He cups your cheek in his hand and deepens the kiss. His tongue explores your mouth again, as if learning you all over again, before wrapping his tongue around yours. You sigh as his hand slides teasingly from your cheek, down your neck, over the valley of your breasts, and to the hem of your jeans.
"Benny..." You sigh as his cold fingers touch the skin of your stomach after he unbuttons your jeans TOO slowly.
"Do you want me to stop?" Benny almost chuckles at how fast and furious your head is shaking. Your eyes are squeezed shut, your bottom lip bitten in a desperate attempt to keep from making any sound as he gently brushes his fingers over your folds. The motel walls were thin after all. "Open your eyes for me, my little rascal, and say the words. After this, there will be no turning back."
You don't even think about turning back. You don't think about leaving him. You only think about how wonderful it is to have him by your side again, how wonderful his hands feel on you, and how much you want to kiss his stupid mouth until you both have enough breath. And that's exactly what you do.
With that form of agreement from you, his fingers gently delve into your folds, exploring previously familiar territory and teasing you unintentionally as he tries to appreciate every little second he has with you.
Sex with Benny was like that. Unique, intense, a long marathon. Because, as he said, you never know when it's the last time. Although you always prayed that it would never be the last time and that he and you will both live to experience another of your hot sessions.
For now, God listened to a sinner like you...
You almost scream as he digs his long fingers into you up to his knuckles. His rings rub against the entrance of your cunt, the even colder than his fingers metal is making you shiver. Benny kisses and nibbles your neck, leaving a trail of hickies from your lips to your collarbone.
His fingers slide in and out, pushing against that sweet spot inside you that makes you scream his name. His rings push through and enter your vagina, and you can see them glistening with your arousal. And it's fucking hot. As hot as Benny's hard manhood pressing against your thigh.
You dig your nails into his neck and moan into his ear as his thumbs is pressing your swollen clit, working with all his might to bring you to the edge of your orgasm.
You bite your lip, trying to muffle your moans and cries of pleasure so everyone in the motel doesn't hear you, but Benny won't have any of that. He kisses you hungrily and pulls his hand away from you completely. You gasp, lifting your hips and seeking his hand, but he doesn't resume his ministrations until a soft moan escapes your kiss-swollen lips.
"Such a good little desprate girl for me. You take my fingers so damn well now, wrapping your tight unused walls around them, and before when you were scandalously empty, you were a nasty little brat. I shouldn't reward you for running away from me, you know, my sweetest?" He mumbles in your ear with his hoarse voice, still refusing you the touch of his sinfully long fingers.
The tears in your eyes fall freely onto the pillow as you try to gather the last remnants of logical thought to somehow prove yourself to him, because you know you won't come if you just grind against him desperately in the hopes that he'll finally give you more.
"Please Benny⌠I⌠oh⌠I won't leave⌠I won't leave.."
You tangle your hand in his hair and tug on it, to which he lets out a soft growl from his plump lips. In punishment, he gently nips your collarbone, adding another hickey to the collection, as he thankfully pushes his fingers deep into your velvety wet and eager walls again and tries to bring you immense pleasure.
And it doesn't take him very long. A few thrusts of his fingers, kisses scattered across your neck, collarbone, and cleavage, and you're falling apart beneath him. Your brain is a useless mush as you come from the mere ministrations of his fingers and the dirty words he whispers in your ear. You're drunk on Benny, on the feel of his fingers inside you, his weight on you, and the burning marks his lips leave on your skin.
You lick your lips in anticipation for him to strip down so you can get to the main part, but he just flops onto his side next to you, ignoring the obvious hard soreness in his pants, and wraps his arms around you tightly, pulling you against his chest.
"I missed it." He whispers, kissing your knuckles. You feel his grip on your hand tighten, but he doesnât move to taste you on his fingers. He simply places your joined hands on his chest, his other hand wrapping around your waist and pulling you closer.
You know this is the closest you'll get to an admission of guilt and an apology from him. So you accept it and gently snuggle into him.
"Good night, Benny." You whisper into his neck. He shivers.
Goosebumps appear on the skin of his neck, but he doesn't move. You just lie there, cuddled up to each other, and he presses a long kiss to the top of your head. You feel fulfilled, satisfied, happy,
He lies under you politely, ignoring his discomfort, and you know that this is some kind of sick punishment for himself. Yet you do nothing to stop it. He has to realise that he can't just take you on his bike and take you to hell knows where. He needs to realise that he can't be such a free spirit anymore if he really wants you. That he can't keep doing the shit he did with the Vandals.
Even if you're happy with how things turned out after he dargged you out of the town.
And when the next day he takes you to Florida and shows you the old family home that he inherited from his deceased father and says that he would love to burn this place down in the past, but now he wants to keep it and renovate it for you if you agree to stay with him as his wife, you know you can't stay mad at him forever. Especially not after he slides one of his rings off his finger and places it securely on yours in a silent promise and understanding between you.
You whether gonna be his wife or gonna smash up his bike, (you haven't decided yet) but in the end you gonna finally make him yours and only yours.
After all, he didn't get you back just for you to leave him again. You will stay with each other until the very end. Even if it would destroy you.
#benny cross x reader#benny cross#the bikeriders#benny the bikeriders#austin butler benny#oneshot#benny cross x y/n#benny x reader#angst#fluff#smut#actually obsessive#fools in love#jealousy#getting back together#exes#exes to lovers#inspired by taylor swift#kind of kidnapping
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This is Fucking Stupid
Poly!marauders x fem!reader
WC: 1k
CW: fluff; mentions of food; mentions of nudity (non sexual); cursing
Summary: You sleepover at your boyfriendsâ flat for the first time
Day 23 of mkâs mad dash
(sirius in this fic ^^)
Tonight would be your first time sleeping over with the boys and you were beyond thrilled. Youâd been to their flat many times, but never to spend the night.
You arrived promptly, standing outside their door at 6 exactly. You only got to knock once before the door was yanked open, two of your three boyfriends stumbling over each other to reach you first.
âDoll! Angel!â James and Sirius cheered in unison.
They ushered you in, pulling your bag from your shoulder and taking your coat before you had time to even offer a hello.
âMaybe let her breathe?â Remus, your third boyfriend, offered.
You huffed a laugh at James and Siriusâ protests.
âSorry weâre actually excited to see our darling,â your most dramatic boyfriend retorted.
Sirius pulled you into his side and gave you an embarrassingly loud smack on the cheek. James sidled up to your other side and paced a slightly more gentle kiss to your lips, âhello, my angel.â
You then escaped from their arms, making your way to Remus whose face was adorned with fond exasperation.
âHullo, dove,â he greeted softly, wrapping you in his arms. You felt a kiss placed to the crown of your head and you responded by nuzzling further into his chest.
âHello, Remmy.â
He swayed the two of you back and forth and you sighed happily.
âOi! Stop stealing her away for yourself!â Sirius scolded.
You pulled away and stared at your long-haired boyfriend with a pouty lower lip, âis someone jealous? Never paid enough attention around here?â
Sirius nodded at you dramatically.
âMy poor baby, come here.â
You pulled Sirius onto the couch on top of you and he instantly cuddled into your chest. You motioned for Remus and James to join you two and they obliged happily, James more outwardly so, jumping on top of you both like an excited puppy.
âLetâs watch a film,â Remus decided.
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A night in with your boys was just what you needed- takeout and a lazy night on the couch rejuvenating you after a long week of work. Youâd just finished your second film of the night, and having been fed and smushed between your warm and comfy boyfriends, you were already ready to go to bed.
You fought bravely against your heavy-lidded eyes, but it was ultimately a losing battle.
âDove, letâs get ready for bed, okay?â Remus prodded gently, sweeping back strands of your hair.
âMmkay,â you muttered sleepily.
Though youâd been naked in front of them before, you still made your way down the hall with your overnight bag to change in the bathroom. As you readied for bed, you heard your boyfriends rustling about outside, doing the same.
You went to slip on the cute pj set youâd set aside just for this occasion and realized that youâd forgotten to pack it. You supposed that in your excitement to get to your boyfriendsâ flat, youâd completely missed one of the most important parts of sleeping.
Sleeping naked was not an option- even though you knew Sirius would be more than thrilled- so you decided to go for your next best option.
James.
You slipped from the bathroom into Jamesâ room right next door and admired his bare, muscled back as he put on his plaid pajama pants.
âJamie?â You implored quietly.
Your boyfriend turned to you, a big smile on his face, âyes, angel?â
âCould I wear one of your shirts to bed? I forgot my pjs at home.â
The way Jamesâ face lit up, youâd think he was a kid on Christmas.
âANGEL! I would love to!!â
He barreled towards you and wrapped you up in his muscular arms, peppering kisses all over your face. You giggled loudly at the action, âJamie, stop!!!â
âBaby, you have to know that you just made my day.â
You pecked him on the lips in reply and allowed him to pull you over to his dresser where loads of soft shirts were piled up, calling your name.
You picked out a soft, red Gryffindor one, one you remembered him wearing often at school. You tugged your own clothes off and tossed them aside before putting on his shirt, not caring about your nudity. James stared at you, not lustfully but lovingly, and pulled you back in with a sweet kiss when you were done.
âWoah! Donât get started without us,â Sirius protested, walking into the room.
Remus stood behind him, one arm around Siriusâ waist and the other propped up on the door frame.
You blushed bashfully at the attention, âWhat do you mean? Weâre just getting ready for bed and I figured Iâd just sleep with Jamie?â
âJust Jamie?â Sirius mimicked, almost a shrill tone to his voice, âlike hell he gets you all to himself. Weâre sharing a bed!â
âWhat?!â
âYeah, dove. Itâs a sleepover, weâre all gonna share,â Remus told you, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
âBut how are we all gonna fit?â
James squeezed your waist gently, âweâll just have to cuddle.â
âOkay,â you agreed, albeit hesitantly.
Many minutes and unnecessary elbows to the face later, you four had finally settled into bed, lights off and covers up.
As much as you hated to admit it, you were dreadfully uncomfortable.
With three other bodies in the same bed, you were heating up like a furnace. Additionally, being used to sprawling out, your scrunched limbs were screaming for a decent stretch.
If you tried to shift even a little you cringed, the fact that you were disturbing somebody always crossed your mind.
Finally, after a few minutes of laying there miserable, you decided to speak up.
âGuys, this is fucking stupid,â you huffed loudly.
âOh thank god,â James mumbled, âI was starting to sweat.â
âAnd my bones were starting to ache from laying in the same position,â Remus agreed.
Sirius contributed nothing, and you started to wonder if youâd hurt his feelings. But when a little snore permeated the air, your fears were assuaged.
The three of you looked at your fourth partner fondly. He was more peaceful than youâd ever seen him before and it made your heart swell.
âMaybe this wasnât so stupid after all.â
#mk's mad dash#poly!marauders fanfiction#poly!marauders x fem!reader#poly!marauders fic#poly!marauders fanfic#poly!marauders imagine#poly!marauders x reader#poly marauders x reader#poly!marauders#james potter x reader#james potter x fem!reader#sirius black x reader#sirius black x fem!reader#remus lupin x fem!reader#remus lupin x reader#james potter x you#sirius black x you#remus lupin x you#marauders fanfiction#marauders fandom#harry potter fanfiction#the maruaders#james potter x y/n#remus lupin x y/n#sirius black x y/n#poly!marauders fluff
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Agent PeĂąa
Summary: You and Javi are unpacking as you move into your new house, when you come across something unusual in one of the boxes. Surprise, it's Javi's old tac vest, and boy, do you need to show him how good he still looks in it.
Word Count: 5.3K (I'm surprised it's not longer, I could write a thesis about this vest)
Pairing: Husband!Javier PeĂąa x Wife!reader (no used of y/n, reader's nickname is Osita)
Warnings: SMUT (18+) BOY OH BOY- unprotected p in v sex (be better pls), oral (m receiving), face fucking, mastrubation (f), big ole praise kink, creampie, cum play (ig??), soft dom!Javi (still being our consent king as always), Javi lifts reader up on the dresser and holds her hair, Javi's got a FILTHY mouth, THE VEST STAYS ON LADIES AND GENTS (gn)
A/N: ....Well.... Here we are. This idea has been rotting in the back of my brain for SO long, and I am finally ready to serve my time in horny jail 𫡠As y'all know, Javi's tac vest is deeply important to me, and it only feels right to support my namesake as such by sharing my deeply dirty thoughts of getting absolutely obliterated by this man in that stupid fucking vest. If you know me, no you DON'T, please do not make eye contact with me for the next 7-10 business days. đ¤Ş
This can be read as a stand alone, or as a part of the It's Never Too Late Series!!
âAre you sure this is the last box?âÂ
âYes, Hermosa, Iâm positive.â
âWell, that was your answer 3 boxes ago, Jav.âÂ
You laughed to yourself, hauling what was supposedly the last cardboard box out of the back of Javiâs truck as you followed behind him into your new house. Your official move in day had finally come, and while you and Javi had been periodically transporting things from your apartment to the new house since it had been finished with construction, today was the last day on your lease, and the first day of your forever in your new home together. While you couldn't have been more excited to finally be in a real home of your own with Javi, you were much less excited about the 47 trips you had made in and out of the house, hauling boxes to and from Javiâs truck, and unpacking your entire existence into your new living space.Â
You let out a little grunt as you set down the box into the mountain-like pile that had accumulated in your living room, Javi sneaking up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist as he planted a soft kiss on your shoulder.Â
âYou promise this was the last one?â You giggled, your voice oozing with sarcasm as you gave Javi a playful nudge while he held you in his grasp.Â
âPromise.â He laughed, giving you a squeeze, only making you squeal and squirm even more. âHopefully unpacking shouldnât take too long, Iâll start moving the heavier shit upstairs and in the garage, and Iâll come help you down here when Iâm done.âÂ
âWhat, are you saying I'm not strong enough to carry the heavy boxes? Rude.â You teased, spinning around to face him, crossing your arms over your chest, one eyebrow raised.Â
âYou know thatâs not what Iâm trying to say, you dork.â Javi sighed, rolling his eyes at your utter lack of seriousness in response to his comment.Â
âI donât know⌠Sure seems like it to me⌠I just donât think that- HEY! PUT ME DOWN! STOP, STOP, YOU MEANIE!â You screeched, flapping your arms in hysterical laughter as Javi slung you over his shoulder, trapping you in the only way heâd figured out how to get you to stop with your never ending sass- tickling you until you were close to tears. âFine, I- Javi! Stop! You win! You win! Let me go, you butt!âÂ
âDid you just call me a butt?â He snorted, setting you back down on the ground, smirking at the goofy grin on your face as you tried to recompose yourself, post tickle torture.Â
âI would have come up with a better insult if I wasnât close to almost peeing my pants.â You grumbled, sticking your tongue out at Javi, the two of you trying your best to keep from bursting into laughter again.Â
âWill you just go start unpacking, weirdo? The sooner weâre done, the sooner we can go break in the new bed.â He smirked, biting down on his lip, his eyes looking you up and down with a mischievous sparkle.Â
âOooorrrrrr⌠We could just go break it in now and unpack later?â You shrugged, placing your hands on Javiâs chest, grabbing a fist full of the soft cotton of his worn t-shirt as you pressed up on your tiptoes and placed a kiss on his pouty lip.Â
âAs much as I want to,â He paused, pressing his lips back into yours, feeling the smile of his smug grin, âIf we go now, thereâs no way all of this is ever getting unpacked.âÂ
âUgh, fine. You win again, Mr. Reasonable.â You frowned, giving him one last quick kiss before pulling away to search through the endless sea of cardboard to sort where each box needed to go. You reached down, hoisting up one labeled âbedroomâ and resting it on your hip, pointing to the scratchy scribbles of Javiâs handwriting. âLook! Iâm already going to the bedroom, sooooooâŚâÂ
âOsitaâŚâ  Â
âFine, fine. You better move those boxes fast. Rude to keep your wife waiting like this, ya know.âÂ
âWill you please just go unpack, Hermosa?â He sighed, laughing and shaking his head, hiking up two boxes, heavy enough to make his biceps flex and the veins in his forearms incredibly noticeable. You could almost hear yourself audibly gulp as you watched him walk up the stairs, the muscles of his back flexing and straining deliciously against the gray cotton of his t-shirt.Â
âJesus fucking ChristâŚâ You muttered to yourself, in awe of your husbandâs sheer broadness. So in awe, in fact, that you hadnât even realized you had let your box slip from its place resting against your hip onto the living room floor, making you jump and startle yourself, scrambling to try and pick it back up in hopes that Javi hadnât noticed.Â
âYou okay, baby?â Javi shouted from halfway up the stairs, peeking his head over the railing to see what had happened.Â
âYup, yup, totallyyyyy fine, all good, just going to unpack, nothing to see here.â You mumbled, darting down the hallway, eyes peeled in whatever direction was the exact opposite of Javi.Â
Oof. You better find a way to become the worldâs fastest unpacker.Â
Thankfully, you and Javi seemed to make an unspoken pact to unpack in separate parts of the house to avoid distracting each other, Javi now working on organizing things in the garage while you worked on sorting all of the things that belonged in your master bedroom. Clothes and sheets had been easy to put away compared to all of the pots and pans you had unboxed in the kitchen before this, working your best to put things away as fast as you could with keeping the metal clashing and clanging to a minimum.
 As you dragged the last box labeled âMaster Bedroomâ into your room from the hallway, you were curious what kind of contents could be inside, considering youâd put away all of yours and Javiâs clothes, and whatever bedding belonged in your room. You spun the box around to each side, looking for any more clues, until your last turn, where you found âJavi DEAâ printed on the upper corner.Â
You paused for a moment, letting your fingers drum across the tattered cardboard, questioning whether or not you should leave it for Javi to deal with, or open it up for yourself. You gently chewed on your bottom lip as you internally debated, trying to rationalize with yourself before quite literally opening up a box into Javiâs past.
You had heard about the good, bad and ugly that had been Javiâs life in Colombia before returning home to Laredo, so you would be shocked to find something in this box that Javi really didnât want you to see.Â
Itâs not like there was anything heâd be trying to hide from you in there, right? Probably just a bunch of badges and paperwork, anyways.Â
With a little sigh and a shrug, you carefully ripped down the seam of the tape holding the box together, slowly lifting the cardboard flaps to reveal the contents inside. As you peeked into the box, you let out a little huff of relief to find out that your suspicions were correct- nothing but file folders, old badges and ancient coffee mugs with DEA symbols slapped across the front.Â
You began making your way through the box, sorting its contents into piles for Javi to go through once he was finished in the garage. Even though majority of the items inside the DEA box were less than thrilling (unless you had a thing for reading 50 page long contracts full of legal jargon), you did get a kick out of Javiâs old badges, giggling at his grumpy frown that seemed to be plastered across his face in every picture he took from the time he started, until he retired. What cracked you up even more was finding the badges from the first few years Javi must have started working for the DEA, still sporting his signature pout, but with a clean shaven baby face you had only had the pleasure of seeing from the photo albums of Javi's youth that his father, Chucho, had so lovingly offered to share with you.
You gave the picture a sweet smile before setting it down with the rest of the badges in the growing pile, mindlessly reaching back into the box to pull out what you assumed would be more file folders full of paperwork. Except this time, you felt your fingertips graze against what felt like tough and worn fabric, dragging your hand further along the cloth until hitting a patch of scratchy velcro, making you cock your head in confusion. You scooted yourself over closer to the box, peering under the few manilla folders left inside to spot an army green strap popping out from in between them.Â
Now very much intrigued, you dug your hand between the sea of papers, yanking on the mystery item to reveal a deep olive green vest, followed by a few crinkled pictures that must have been stuck inside it, gently fluttering to the floor in front of you. You set down the much heavier than expected vest to pick up one of the photos face down on the carpet, only to turn it over and feel your jaw practically drop to the floor and eyes bulge out of your skull. Because in that picture, was not just any photo of Javi from his time in Colombia, this was a photo of Javi, in the very vest that you had dug out from the bottom of his box.Â
And holy fuck did he look hot.Â
Frantically, you picked up another photo that had fallen to the floor, feeling your heart legitimately skip a beat to find it was another shot of him in the vest, his dark curls sticking to his forehead from the sweat soaking his skin and the light blue button down underneath it, hands resting on the hips of his dark gray khaki pants that left very little to the imagination. You flipped over one last picture, only to find the same, breathtaking visual of him in that damn vest, his biceps straining against the sweat-stained cotton of his army green shirt, the veins in his forearms prominently on display as he held the gun he was carrying pointed at the ground.Â
While you had never seen these photos, or even known about this mystery vest until today, there was a part of you that was glad you hadnât- the way Javi looked suited up in that vest had your head reeling in a way you werenât sure youâd ever recover from, because Jesus Fucking Christ, it was the hottest goddamn thing youâd ever seen.Â
Your eyes darted back and forth between the three photos, each picture somehow looking better than the last every time you found a new detail to drink in that made Javi look even more delicious.
Holy fuck.
You couldnât help but let your mind wander even further than it already was, picturing what Javi would look like with it on now, the broadness of his shoulders filling out the vest even more than he would have the last time he wore it.Â
You were so entranced, so lost in ogling at how attractive Javi looked in the vest, that you hadnât noticed the sound his familiar footsteps trudging down the hallway, stopping in the doorway of your bedroom and watching you as you sat cross legged on the floor, hunched over the now nearly empty box.Â
âHey, Hermosa, Iâm almost all done in the garage if you wanna-â Javiâs voice quietly trailed off as his eyes wandered, looking at the items from inside the box spread across the floor, stopping at the long forgotten sight of his old tac vest propped up against the cardboard.
He couldnât help but quietly laugh to himself, simply out of shock that you had even found the vest in the first place, considering he hadnât even remembered it had been living inside a box that hadnât been touched since it was shipped back to Laredo with the rest of his things post DEA.
âWhere the hellâd you find this? I havenât seen this thing in fucking years.â He chuckled, reaching down to pick up the well worn armor, letting his thumb run along the seams of the rough fabric as he held it up in front of him, blocking your blushing and bright red face from his view.Â
âIt was uh- it was at the bottom of the box.â You gulped, trying not to stumble over your words, biting down on your tongue to try and keep your embarrassingly sheepish smirk at bay, Javiâs eyes now meeting yours as he lowered the vest from his view. He tilted his head in confusion at your clearly flustered state, reaching out his free hand to gently grab your arm, rubbing his thumb back and forth across your skin, his touch only making you more riled up.Â
âHermosa, are you okay?âÂ
âYeah Iâm- yes, Iâm- Iâm fine, itâs stupid.â You muttered, making no attempts to cover up your clearly blatant lie, darting your eyes away from Javi and shifting your gaze to the floor to try and hide your hot, flushed face, embarrassed that you were this worked up from 3 old photos and a piece of police gear.
But unfortunately for you, Javi knew you like the back of his hand, and knew all too well when you werenât telling him something that was on your mind.Â
Letting his hand slide up your arm and across your collarbone, he stopped at your chin, forcing your gaze back on him, giving you a smug shrug and raise of his eyebrows, silently waiting for your real response, the one he knew you were hiding behind your bashful facade.Â
âWhatâs going on, baby?âÂ
With your eyes locked on his, thumb resting under your jaw, you had no choice but to swallow your own pride, the sweet dark brown of his glare coaxing your sheepish secret right out of you.Â
âThere were- there were pictures of you in the vest in the box. You look- Jesus, Javi, you look really fucking hot.âÂ
âThatâs it?â He laughed, softly swiping his thumb across your cheek, still feeling like he hadnât quite gotten everything out of you.Â
âWell I was thinking... that uh- if- what-âÂ
âWhat, baby? Talk to me, itâs okay.âÂ
Oh, fuck me.Â
âWould you, um, would- would you put it on?âÂ
âPut it on?â He chuckled, lifting up the vest, gesturing towards it.Â
âMhhmmmm.â You nodded, letting your tongue run against your teeth before biting down on your bottom lip, feeling a rush of heat rapidly creeping through your body.Â
âLike, right now?âÂ
âLike, right now.âÂ
Realizing that you were completely serious about your request, Javi let out a playful scoff, running his hand over the back of his neck, almost as flustered by your ask as you were at the thought alone of seeing him in his vest.Â
âReally? I mean, uh- yeah, okay.â Working in a quick and determined silence, Javi began slipping the vest over his head, pulling it over his broad shoulders and unfastening the velcro sides before readjusting them, tugging the flaps tighter against his stomach to hold them in place, quietly grumbling to himself. âUsed to be able to pull these a lot tighterâŚâ He groaned, flattening the last strap against the velcro.
As his focused shifted from his vest to you, he couldnât help but smirk at the dumbfounded look on your face- the image in front of you leaving you so completely stunned, you felt like you needed to wipe the corner of your mouth to make sure that there wasnât any drool coming out of it. Your brain was so short circuited, at a loss to form any sort of coherent sentence, the best you could muster out was a low, shaky, âHoly fucking shit.âÂ
âDidnât know you had a thing for tactical vests.â Javi grinned with a devilish look slowing spreading across his face, seeing the complete and utter mess you were becoming as he slowly stepped towards you, the looming image of his broad body in that fucking vest making your heart race and your palms sweat.Â
âWell, I- I didnât, um, I didnât-â You stammered, your breath trembling as you tried to respond, your brain going blank as you watched Javi approach you. Before you had a chance to even try to and concoct some sort of answer, Javiâs hand was back under your chin, fingers wrapped around your jaw with a much tighter and demanding presence than just a few moments ago, sensing the undeniable shift of palpable tension in the room.Â
âDidnât what? Use your words, sweet girl.â He rasped, teasing you with his knowingly smug smirk, his words shooting straight to your core, making your stomach flip in anxious arousal.Â
You could feel your words bobbing in your throat as you swallowed, your tongue darting out of your parted mouth, desperate to taste Javiâs lips now barely ghosting yours, patiently waiting for your response, relishing in the needy mess he could sense you were quickly becoming.Â
âDidnât realize it until I saw you in it. You look- fuck- you look so hot.â You whispered, feeling his warm breath against your skin as he sucked at your pulse point, his teeth nipping at your neck as a ragged moan escaped your mouth. âJaviâŚâÂ
âNot gonna give you what you want 'till you tell me. I wanna hear you say it. Tell me what you want.â You could practically feel his satisfied smirk as his kisses worked their way down your neck towards your chest, each press of his lips taunting you, only making it harder and harder for any part of your brain to function.Â
âI wanna- fuck- I wanna suck your dick. Fuck, I need to taste you.â You whimpered, reaching out to run your hand across his vest, letting it trail from his chest, down to his stomach, your fingertips grazing his belt buckle before a firm grasp wrapped around your wrist, holding your hand in place and stopping it from traveling any further.Â
âNuh-uh.â Javi tutted, rasping in your ear. âBe a good girl and ask first. Tell me how badly you need it.â Â
âPlease, Javi. Fuck, please let me suck your dick, baby. Please.â You moaned, sounding more desperate than you had intended, but fuck, there was nothing you wanted to do more than drop to your knees and worship him in the most sinful way you could. Â
âJesus, youâre so fucking pretty when you beg for it. You need me that bad, Hermosa?â Javi grinned, feeling you nod your head frantically, the hand he was holding in his grasp reaching for below his belt. âOkay, baby, show me how bad you need me, huh?âÂ
In an instant, you were dragging your hands down his vest, sinking to the ground as you frantically worked to undo his belt buckle, the quiet clang of the metal singing a song of sweet relief as you shuffled his pants down his legs before hooking your fingers around the elastic waistband of his boxers, tugging them down to meet his pants. pooling around his ankles. His cock sprung free as it was released, already painfully hard and weeping with precum as it slapped against his stomach, the sight alone making you lick your lips. You kissed the inside of his thighs, trailing your way up to his shaft in long, languid movements, dragging your tongue back and forth along the underside of his cock before sinking just his tip between your lips, swirling it in your mouth.Â
You had barely touched him, but you were already so worked up that what had started as just a wet patch in your underwear had now turned into the fabric becoming completely soaked in your slick, leaving your cunt aching and throbbing. With your mouth still sucking and flicking at his tip, you couldnât help but let your hand snake down your front, sneaking between your skin and the waistband of your pants as it dipped into your underwear. You let your fingers slide through your folds, before sinking them into your heat, your hips instinctively grinding down on your hand to find any sort of temporary relief as you fucked yourself with your fingers.Â
Looking up at him with batted lashes, you sunk your mouth deeper down on his length, hollowing your cheeks as you took him inch by inch, watching his eyes go wide as you took the hand that had just been inside your pants back out to reveal the shiny slick covering your fingers, then wrapping them around his base, covering his shaft in your arousal.Â
It was taking everything in him just to say fuck it right then and there, to toss you onto the bed and fuck you until you were begging him to stop, but watching the way you worked around his cock so needily had him so stunned, he couldnât bring himself to do anything but let you work your magic.Â
âJesus, fuckâŚâ Javi muttered to himself, already feeling his balls beginning to tighten as your head bobbed along his dick, sinking down just enough to let the deep, musky scent of the curls at the base of his shaft tickle your nostrils.Â
It wasnât long before his hand was buried deep in your hair, his fingers cradling the back of your head as his hips began to buck towards your face, trying to hold himself back from full-on fucking your throat, until your fingers wrapped around the back of his thighs, bracing yourself as you gave Javi your silent nod of approval to keep going. Letting a low groan rumble in his chest, his second hand met the one already palming the back of your head, guiding you up and down his cock as he thrust deeper into your throat, tears welling in your eyes and saliva spilling out the corners of your mouth. His tip brushed against your gag reflex, making you dig your fingertips further and further into his skin.Â
âOh fuck- this what you wanted, Quierda? To get on your knees and let me- shit, shit, shit- fuck that pretty little mouth of yours like the good girl you are?â Javi hissed through gritted teeth, trying to keep himself together as he watched his length slide in and out of your mouth, tempted to let himself go and spill deep down your throat, watching his spend drip down your lips. But he knew heâd be kicking himself if he wasnât finishing buried in the depths of your cunt, your warm, wet walls milking him of every last drop, clenching around him as you came.Â
That was enough to pull him back to his senses, guiding his dick out of your mouth, the two of you catching your breath as you wiped your hand with the back of your mouth in confusion, wondering what had made him back off so quickly.Â
âJavi, are you okay? Did I do something wr-oh!â You gasped, stumbling as Javi forcefully pulled you to your feet, manhandling you towards your dresser, your mouths becoming a mess of tangled tongues and teeth as your back bumped against the wooden edge. Javiâs hands were under your legs, grabbing you and hosting you up to sit on top of it, ripping your pants and underwear down off your hips and tossing them to the floor.Â
âI need to be inside you. Fuck, I need to feel you when I fuck you full of me.â He mewled, reaching down to stroke himself as he lined his dick up with your entrance, running his tip through your folds, coating it even more in your slick before sinking himself deep into your pussy, flushing his hips against you as his cock bumped against your cervix. Even though you were already soaking wet, you couldnât help but whimper at the sweet sting of how full Javiâs stretch made you feel, gripping around the shoulder straps of his tac vest for dear life as he began to thrust in and out of you, already setting a punishing, desperate pace.Â
You wrapped your legs around the small of his back just under his vest, whimpering and moaning into his shoulder as your buried your face in the crook of his neck the lewd noises of muted moans and slapping skin filling the room as Javi punched into you, his cock splitting you open in the best way possible.Â
âJavi, oh fuck baby, fuck, you feel so good, oh shit-â You whined, your brain going blank, babbling between moans, already feeling a tingle beginning to build at the base of your spine while Javiâs hands gripped around your hips, holding you in place as he fucked into you hard and deep. Your cunt was starting to clench around his cock, pounding into that sweet spot inside you that had you seeing stars and screaming his name as you could feel yourself coming undone around him.Â
Rutting your hips against him, the hairs at his base rubbed your clit, the friction giving you just enough stimulation to send you over the edge, your orgasm crashing through you with a ferocious intensity, flooding every inch of your body with pleasure.Â
âThatâs it. Give it to me, Hermosa. Fuck- cum all over me baby girl.â Javi hissed through gritted teeth, his words humming deep in his throat as he fucked you through your high, his hands holding you in place as you melted into him, your body going limp as you came. âYou gonna give me another one, Querida? Be a good girl and give me one more before I fuck you so full of me, Iâll be dripping out of you for days.âÂ
You were so lost in your pleasure, you couldnât find any words, simply nodding your head as you moaned into his neck, only starting to come to when you suddenly felt an emptiness in your cunt, Javi pulling out to scoot you off the dresser, guiding your feet to the floor as he turned you over, splaying your chest across the wooden surface and pinning your arms behind your back. Gently nudging your feet wider, you could feel his broad body looming over yours, his hot breath dancing across your neck as he nibbled at your ear.Â
âYou still okay, Osita?âÂ
âMhmmmmâ You whimpered, your body trembling as Javiâs hands ran across your hips, feeling his hard length pressed against your ass, wiggling your bottom half against him, desperate for him to ease the emptiness between your legs again.Â
âLemme hear you say it, baby. Tell me how bad you need it.â Javi grunted, now dragging his cock through your folds, teasing your dripping entrance, waiting painfully patiently for your response.Â
âI need it so bad, Javi, please, please baby.â You moaned, rolling your hips and pushing your ass back on him, doing anything to try and feel him inside you again.Â
âMy needy girl. Shhhhh, itâs okay baby, Iâve got you.â Javi smirked, flushing his hips against your ass as he bottomed out inside you, the fullness making you cry out in pleasure.
He slowly began thrusting in and out of you, dragging his cock along your heat, each stroke punching against your g-spot, so wet that you could hear each rut of his hips as he buried himself deeper and deeper into your hilt.Â
You were so blissed out, barely hanging by a thread as you felt heat beginning to bloom in your belly once again, that you were resting your head against the dresser, closing your eyes as you felt yourself coming undone. That was until Javiâs firm grasp shifted from pinning your hands behind your back to sliding up your neck, resting his hand under your jaw and forcing your gaze into the mirror on top of your dresser.Â
Your eyes locked with Javiâs, the reflection of him in his vest towering behind you as he thrusted into you over and over, watching the brown pools of his eyes darken with lust as he watched you slowly begin to come undone under him.Â
âEyes on me, baby. Wanna see that pretty face when you cum all over me.âÂ
The image of him was all consuming- His wide shoulders spilling from the sides of the vest, his dark, damp curls sticking to his forehead from the sheen of his sweat that had begun to pool in his brow, the wrecked look painted across his face making you weaker and weaker as you could feel the heat creeping up your legs and through your core.Â
Reaching back, you grabbed on to the side of his vest, burying your fingers into the thick fabric for dear life as his pace began to quicken, his thrusts becoming faster and sloppier with each snaps of his hips as he felt your pussy fluttering around his length, watching you turn into a puddle below him.Â
âI know youâre close, baby. Câmon Hermosa, oh shit- give it to me.â Javi grunted, letting his hand drop from your jaw to snake down your body, the pads of his fingers circling your clit with just enough force to have you screaming his name, clenching your cunt around his cock as you came.Â
âJavi, Javi, oh fuck, fuck, fuck-â You babbled, your eyes practically rolling in the back of your head as Javi began to follow suit, rambling incoherently, chasing his own high.Â
âI know, baby, I know. Such a good fucking girl, taking me so well. Fuck, oh shit- Iâm close, too. Oh, fuck me- Jesus Christ, Iâm gonna-ahhhhhh-â With only a few more thrusts, Javi was spilling inside you, his spend pulsing against your walls as he milked himself of every drop he had, his body slumping over yours as your chests rose and fell in sync, trying to catch your breath.Â
Your legs trembled as the warm mix of your spend trailed down your thighs, only to be caught by his fingers, slowly dragging your combined arousal back up your skin before taking it and pushing it back into your entrance, languidly pulsing his digits in and out of your dripping hole, making a ragged moan fall from your lips as he nipped at your neck, softly sucking at your pulse point.Â
âGonna keep you full of me all night, sweet girl, all fucking night.âÂ
âHoly fuckâŚâ You whined, finally catching your breath enough to speak before pushing yourself back up to stand, turning around to grab Javiâs face, pulling him in for an electric, passionate kiss before letting your hands rest on the worn army green of his vest, quietly laughing to yourself in disbelief. âJesus fucking Christ, Javi.âÂ
âYou okay, Osita? Sorry if I got carried away, I just- fuck, seeing how worked up you were, I-âÂ
âJavier JesĂşs PeĂąa, you better not be apologizing to me for being the hottest fucking thing Iâve ever seen in that goddamn vest. I swear to God, Iâm never letting you take that thing off. Well⌠On second thought, if you donât take it off I donât think I will ever be productive ever again because holy shit.âÂ
The two of you couldnât help but laugh to yourselves as Javi wrapped his arms around your waist, his thumbs tracing soft circles against the bare skin of your hips, looking out at the scattered sea of pants and underwear on the floor that had been quickly left behind during your horny antics.Â
âWell, if you let me take it off,â Javi grinned, pressing a chast kiss on your cheek and then peppering them towards your lips, âthen we can go take a shower to clean up,â he paused again, feeling his smile against your mouth, âwe can go break in the bed, and I can return your little favor from earlier since someone was too eager to get dicked down to let me.âÂ
âOh, shut up, can you blame me? Donât have to ask me twice.â You giggled, raising a playful eyebrow at Javi. âJust promise me one thing, okay?âÂ
âOf course, Hermosa. Anything.âÂ
âDonât you ever get rid of that fucking vest, Agent PeĂąa.âÂ
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Can you do a Choso x reader where Choso manipulates the reader to marry him? Choso treats the reader like a princess, making her fall in love with him, but then one day as Choso and reader were on a date...reader talks to another guy making Choso jealous. So he brings her home punishing her for "cheating"
Cheating on me, darling?
Warnings : smut , heavy smut, unprotected sex, Noncon, Kidnapping, physically and emotional abuse, biting, torture, size difference, blaming of cheating ....
( All characters are aged up/18+)
Minors Do Not Interact
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Choso kamo. He's my college friend. I know him from my college. We're good friends until that night came. I was returning home from college. That night was too late. I don't know what where and it happened but I felt a cloth on my mouth and I fully fainted then and there.
When my eyes opened again I was in a room. Then I saw someone. When he came infront of me I saw it was Choso. I asked him why I was here and what happened. He told me some boys followed me and put a cloth on my mouth and I fainted. But Choso was on the way and he saw me he helped me and took me to his home. I was shocked. Didn't even suspect his lie. Then he proposed me... told me how much he loves me... and manupulate me. And dumb me got manupulated by him!
Today we planned for a dinner. Actually He was the one who planned for it. It was in a fancy restaurant. Choso wore a white shirt, rolled up sleeves, black pant and black tie. I wore a maroon long sleeveless dress. Then we went to the restaurant.
It was a great place. I loved that. And Choso was so happy too that he made me happy. We were having dinner when we were talking with each other. When I suddenly saw my old school friend there. He was working there as waiter. He was my childhood friend. I talked with him a bit. But Choso didn't like that. But he didn't show that to me. Our dinner was done and we left for our home. Choso drove us home but still didn't tell me anything.
We arrived at our house. I unlocked the door. Suddenly felt a push from behind and sound of locked the door. When I turned around it was Choso. He was looking at me with anger. "What happened?" I asked. "So you are cheating on me...huh?" He said with grinded teeth. "What are you saying?" I asked. "That shitty friend of yours.... you're cheating on me with that shit?" He asked. "Choso I think you're misunderstanding something " I said. "Oh..so I'm wrong now? Should have teach you a lesson in time.... but it's not too late yet" he replied with a smirk.
He grabbed my hair and dragged me towards his bedroom. I groaned in pain. He threw me on his bed and locked the door. Took off his shirt and threw it on the floor then started crawling towards me on the bed."please stop" I said and tried to push myself backwards but he grabbed my leg and pulled me towards him. I gasped. He was still smirking."stop?... Where's the fun then? The fun part is about to began ~" he whispered and crashed his lips on mine.
I tried to push him away but his grip was too strong. I can't even move myself. He was kissing me too roughly. I couldn't breathe. He grabbed the hem of my dress and pulled it over my head. My boobs bounced out. He looked at those with lust in his eyes and didn't waste any time, crashed his mouth on my breast licking, sucking and teasing the nipple and squeezing the other one with his hand. I moaned in the sensetion. I grabbed his hair and tried to stop him by pulling it but it didn't even effect on him. "C-choso stopppp" I scremed but he didn't stop.
Then he took off my pantie. He looked at my pussy. He rubbed his finger on my clit and whispered " so wet. You naughty little slut, getting wet for me huh?". Then he licked my pussy. I couldn't help but moan loudly. He smirked at my reaction and undo his pant.
His dick sprang out. It was too big and too thick. Fear grabbed me by my neck. " C-choso no no no... P-please no... s-stop" I begged but didn't even listen to me and slammed his whole dick inside me in one slide. I scremed. He didn't even give me time to adjust his size and started thursting in and out roughly. I was throughig my legs with pain and begging him to stop. And he was liking it so much. His thurst became harder and harder. I clenched around him tightly and he moaned loudly " ughhhhhh....ahhh s-so...ahhhh....so f-fucking tight " he started rubbing my clit with his thumb and I bite his shoulder scratched his back to control myself. With a few more thurst I came. He was still thursting roughly. I felt his cock pulsing inside me. I tried to push him away with all of my strength." Ughh...no no no no...ahhhhhh... I don't want this ..." I moaned. He grabbed my throat and chocked me down to the bed. " Shhh.... shut up and just fucking take what I'm giving you." He screamed. Within a minute he came inside me I could feel his seed inside me. He pulled out. My vision blurred out.
"Don't ever again forget about the consequence of trying to cheat on me, darling " he whispered in my ear.
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Shower/C.S
summary: you and the boys are watching a movie, you cut the night short to get ready for bed and chris is extra needy tonight.
âźď¸: smut, use of y/n, slight choking, shower sex, dom!chris, masc!receiving, creampie
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10pm
its movie night. its mattâs turn to pick the movie tonight and of course he chooses something scary. âweâre not watching this mattâ nick says in an annoyed tone. âyeah matt im not tryna have a nightmareâ chris says jokingly. âshut up big babyâ matt taunts. we all get situated on the couch and chris purposefully sat across from me, just so he can stare at me thinking that i wouldnt notice.
20 minutes into the movie and im already tired. âi think im gonna get ready for bed. goodnightâ i say while getting up. âgoodnight y/n.â nick smiles and waves. ânight.â matt says quickly, too focused into the movie. chris does nothing but stare at you the whole way downstairs. soon after chris says âyeah i think im gonna go too. night guysâ.
i turn on the water in chrisâ shower and wait for it to warm up. when i start to undress i hear footsteps approaching so i close the bathroom door and hop into the shower. as im doing my normal shower routine i hear chrisâ door open. i think nothing of it and continue to rinse off. it wasnt until i started washing my body i notice the bathroom door is cracked open. âits probably just the airflowâ i think to myself trying to brush it off.
with my head facing away from the door, chris comes in and is now fully observing me wash myself. âchris what are you doing in here!?â i say startled. he answers by taking off his clothes and coming into the shower with me. âi couldnt help but keep my eyes on you y/nâ âyou just looked so sexy sitting there.â he comes closer and starts rubbing his hands all over my body. âchris.â i say breathy. âwhat mama?â chris says before leaning into me and kissing me. âchris!â i struggle to say while our lips are stuck together. he pulls away. âwhat y/n? you want me to fuck you?â he says completely full of lust. âyou want to?â i tease. âmore than anything.â he says while picking me up by my thighs and inserting his needy cock into me. âoooouh fuck chrisâ i hiss between my teeth while he starts to thrust into me. âcan you take me ma?â he says while giving me eyes drunk off my pussy. i cant form a full sentence from the uncontrollable moans escaping out of my mouth. âi asked you a question.â chis says in an aggressive tone, moving his hand to my throat. âfuck! yes chris!â i shout while he pounds harder into me.
âfuck im gonna cumâ he says while moaning, slamming harder into my heat. he pushes me down to my knees and releases all over my face. water trickling down from the faucet sprinkles on my face as his cum shoots out from his throbbing cock. he joins me on the floor of the shower and holds me while kissing me all over.
âi wanna do that more often.â he says out of breath. âmaybe we canâ i say while going in for another kiss.
some time passes and weâre cuddling in his bed. he turns on a movie for background noise, turning up the volume louder than normal. âwhat are you doing?â i ask him. clearly knowing what he was up to. he pulls me onto his lap and puts his hands into my pants. he proceeds to pull me towards him and begins to leave purple marks all over me. i can feel his dick get harder through his pants and i start grinding on him. chris moans slightly but tries to play it off. i start grinding harder, at this point he is so hard that precum is leaking onto his pajamas.
i scoot myself back and begin to play with his hard on. chris moans slightly as i tug at his pants and start to pull them down, kissing on him ever so gently. eagerly, chris pulls his underwear down, exposing his throbbing cock. i kiss on his area gently before licking from base to tip. i wrap my lips around his length and chris helps me bob my head up and down. âsuch a needy little slut. you just cant get enough of me huh?â chris taunts. âget on all fours for me mama, i want to fuck the shit out of you.â i do as he demands and chris rams his length into me, giving me no time to adjust to his size.
*slap* chris smacks my ass as a way to shut me up, but my moans keep getting louder. âdo you want them to hear how much of a slut you are?â chris says while putting his hand over my mouth. my muffled moans do nothing but worsen the situation. *smack* âdo you want them to hear you y/n.â âno daddyâ i say quietly while he thrusts harder into me. âshit.â without warning, chris unexpectedly cums and fills you up. pulling out, watching his cum drip out of my pussy. âfuck. i just love it when you call me daddy.â âill help you get cleaned up princess. do you want to go in the shower?â
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realistic sex with yunho
yunho x f!reader fluff | smut | mdni a/n: our big puppy boy yunho is the next entry to this series where i try to imagine how each member would actually fuck, as â¨realistically⨠as possible. disclaimer: i say realistic but lets be honest this is pure delulu behaviour and total fiction. everything is solely based on the vibes the boys give off.
yunho is the kind of man that knows exactly what he wants. so when he got to know you he knew instantly he wanted you. maybe he didnât know right away he wanted to pursue a romantic relationship with you but he definitely knew he wanted to explore this as a possibility
yunho goes to people heâs compatible with, therefore there's no awkward first stage. he pursues you but is never annoying or pressing but he's not a smooth talker either (he can be though) he just puts you at ease. he makes sure you feel comfortable around him and lightens the mood often with funny comments and little jokes or even silly faces.
basically makes you laugh all the time.
the goofballâ˘
that's how you fell for him without even noticing. because you were just laughing all the way through enjoying spending time with your friend until he was way more than this.
getting together with him was so natural that at some point the lines got a little blurry and when you finally asked what you guys were he looked at you with big round puppy eyes
"what kind of question is that you're? you're my girlfriend, silly" was his response. to him it was so obvious that he didn't even need to label your relationship. to his defense he's been sure about you since that first day he made you laugh for real. not the polite controlled laugh but snorting laugh you could be self conscious about. but to him it's the single most endearing thing about you.
he loves that side of you and that he's known for quite a while. the man doesn't hesitate and doesn't beat around the bush
(aries much? yes very)
overall yunho is very gentle maybe because of his height but he's very much conscious of his body and strength and he's not the kind to accidentally hurt you when you play fight
and that's how you know than when he does hurt you. he means it. (more on that later hehe)
many people assume that since yunho is like tall tall that's he has a size kink. I am a firm believer that he actually doesn't. he knows he's tall, he doesn't need the size kink ego boost. but you know who has a size kink? san!Â
ofc if you're into it yunho will be more than happy to tap into it calling you little and bending you're tiny body in various position where he will look and feel huge over you just to make you shake and whine for him <3
the main thing that gets yunho's blood boiling is very simple: control.
well that's now that he is comfortable with you. because the first time you were intimate i feel like he was very very shy and you even thought it was cute how he got flustered the first time he saw you undress for him or how blushy he got the first time you told him how big he was (more big cock!yunho down below heheheheheh)
but as soon as he became comfortable the golden retriever boy vibe was out of the window as soon as you stepped in the bedroom.
yunho is a dom. plain and simple.
what he wants is for you to submit. he's not even necessarily the mean dom type (he def can be though) he's just the kind that would enjoy for you to be blindfolded or other kind of sensory deprivation or even bounded (if you're into that) he will go absolutely crazy for that
he would enjoy controlling you, getting you to lie down blindfolded and having you be completely at his mercy. He would trace his big hands across your nude skin and leave goose bumps scattered on your body, making you shiver with light touches just to get your blood boiling. He loves to see you pant and squirm with just a few touches. Heâs the kind to tease like this until you have no choice but to beg him for more.
there only the real fun would begun skdlsklslkdls
most of the time yunho is making love to you. he doms you but heâs gentle, he whispers words of affirmation in your ear and is very attentive to your queues. he is very observant and will know when to stop/slow down/keep going. and particularly when he penetrates you. Since he's like big big. he always makes sure to go real slow. the one first stroke is always slow and deep, he pushes his big fat cock into you very slowly so you have time to adapt to him. and how he loves to see your lips go round when he bottoms out and his cock comes to kiss your cervix. h absolutely loves to hear your little gasps.
but most of the time you donât take too long because he already prepped you with a nice session of fingering (and maybe one orgasm or two hehe). yunho doesn't have a hand kink himself but if you have one (if you are a yunho stan lets be honest here you have one lol) he will ABSOLUTELY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT. at first it always starts as a joke to tease you. he knows how much you like his hands and he just loves to tease. at first he just strokes your thighs just to look at you hold your breath and ogling how his hand wraps perfectly around your thigh and how his veins pop out on his forearms when he squeezes your thigh a little. he plays it off as if heâs just minding his business pretending heâs unware of the effect he has on you but when you catch on to his teasing and playfully hit him he just throw his head back and laughs with that crystal clear laugh and creased eyes that made you fall for him. (he's just so cute and handsome and cute and handsome and slkdlskdlkdk)
but then his hand goes back to your thighs but with more purpose, it goes higher on your thighs closer to your center earning a little whimper from you and suddenly this sound makes him forget about the joke altogether. now he pushes his fingers inside your mouth, smirking when you instinctively wrap your mouth around them and suck on them while moaning, eyes fluttering close.Â
he presses his other hand to your clothed core and just rubs you there until you lose your mind before you are even undressed
âyou like that baby? you like my fingers in your mouth?â "what's that baby? you want them somewhere else too" *snickers cockily* "so eager" âthats it baby make them nice and wet for me so the slide right in your pretty little pussyâ
before you know it he pushes two long fingers inside you making your back arch against his broad chest and broken cries fall off your lips.
one other thing: like i said mingi like to be praised and yunho likes to praise you (thats why yungi is match made in heaven)
he loves to see your reactions every time he praises you.
âthatâs my good girlâ âbaby you feel so good around meâ âlook at you taking my big cock, youâre doing so great for meâÂ
of course that is interlaced with low groans and pants because i donât think heâs the type to scream and moan a lot but heâs definitely not the type to keep all the beautiful sounds he can make to himself.
also like i mentioned in other parts of this series yunho is the jealous type. i think possessive even. but like contrary to hongjoong (who would just be upfront about it, confronting the person that hits on you) yunho is more subtle. if he sees you flirting with someone else he would come up behind you and wrap his arm around your waist, throw a defying (and ravaging) smile to his rival. but thatâs the thing with yunho. his authority comes from within. he doesnât even need to use brute force to get his point across he doesnât need to raise his voice. everything is in the aura. nothing scarier than a mad and angry golden retriever energy boy.
as soon as the opponent taps out yunho is pushing you to a more secluded spot at your current location. If itâs a party it might be a bathroom or an unoccupied room. if itâs a mall it might be a quiet corner of the parking lot. truthfully he doesnât care because right now he sees red and he needs to remind you that you are his. his only.
he would push you up against the cold concrete wall of the parking lot behind two big cars to be sure no one else can lay their eyes on you and overstim you out in the open until you canât take it anymore. making you cum on his fingers and cock over and over again until you beg him to stop and he demands an apology from you which you comply to immediately in broken moans and sobs chanting 'sorryâs' and 'i wont do it againâs' until heâs satisfied.
but that is only if you piss him off. so dont piss him off (or do)
i feel like he almost 100% of the times finishes inside you. He just loves to stuff you full and hopefully make you a mom someday (even though he doesn't say it) so he considered this practice for when you are both ready
he loves for you to cockwarm him to sleep after heâs fucked your brains out and you both sleep cuddled up into each other <33333
screaming into the void because how cute (and incredibly hot) can one man be????
BONUS: tw: feet (don't read if it makes you uncomfy <3). idk if my brainâs chemistry was permanently altered by all the memes about this but i have started to believe yunho is actually into feet (yeah boo me if u wanna) when you think about it foot fetish is one of the most common one literally the most vanilla flavored kink ever (i don't make the rules) so itâs not impossible and i dont think itâs improbable. so here you go for this bonus: i feel like yunho likes the mating press for this very reason. because that way with your thighs pressed to your chest he gets to see your feet. when he pounds into you and he feels heâs close he would take hold of your foot and bring it to his face, heavily breathing and panting, getting your toes into his mouth and groan as he fills you up full of cum. one other way he likes to include some feet play is just to get a foot job, he would press both your feet together fuck his fat and mighty cock right between them. and nothing gets him more feral than to do that before he takes you and fucks your tight little cunt. you like the way he ruts into your feet because every time he does he sounds more rough, more primal then ever and you just think that's a good look on him. (not to mention he gets so worked up itâs guaranteed that heâs going to wreck your whole word right after) <3
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GIYUU TOMIOKA NSFW HEADCANONS
I might revise Rengoku's after this one, but for now, enjoy my horny HCs for our favorite emotionally-constipated Pillar!
CW: explicit sexual content ⢠MDNI ⢠creampies ⢠mild corruption kink ⢠mean dom!Giyuu and whimpering sub!Giyuu
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PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES
Giyuu has a very faint happy trail that begins right below his navel; but donât be fooled â it leads to an absolute jungle below his beltÂ
If it bothers you, he will trim it down, but if you donât say anything, heâll just leave it. Truthfully, Giyuu is a big fan of grinding into you (he LOVES the mess you make against his groin), so the friction his hair helps create against your clit is certainly worth the stray pube that may find its way into your mouth from time to time while he fucks your throat.Â
Onto his dick:
Listen
I know we all know the truth about quiet boys â and Giyuu is so very quietÂ
Heâs hung like a mf horse
Heâs not particularly girthy (though donât get me wrong â heâs got well enough to satisfy), but he is long. Even flaccid, it swings between his legs. Heâs about 7.5-8 inches when hard, and it sticks straight out. Itâs slightly pink in color, and he has a very pretty tip that you just love to suckle on (he whimpers when you do). He has one prominent vein on the underside of his cock, and if you run your tongue against it, he WILL be shooting his load onto your face/down your throat.Â
As for his cum, I envision it to be a bit on the thinner side in consistency, slightly sweet, and he cums a LOT. He usually rolls his balls around while heâs cumming to make sure he gets it all out --and into you.
FOREPLAY
Giyuu is admittedly not as experienced with foreplay at first, but heâs committed to making you feel good, so, heâs going to learn and heâs going to learn fast.Â
I HC that he has really long, delicate fingers and the man knows how to put them to WORK.
You see, Giyuu has never been one to intentionally push another personâs buttons (always doing so accidentally), but with you???
Oh baby, those fingers are searching to press every one of yours.Â
Truthfully, you could fuck yourself on his hand all day and youâd be satisfied (and in fact, you do). He found your g-spot completely on accident while fingering you, simply by curling his fingers.Â
Giyuu also enjoys going down on you, because heâs fascinated at the way you fall apart beneath his tongue.
He takes his time exploring your core, curious as to what makes you gasp and writhe, as well as what makes you moan and scream.
The first time you cum in his mouth, you have to quite literally pull him off you, because that first taste unleashed a beast within him and he will not stop licking and sucking and fucking you with his tongue until youâre sobbing with overstimulationÂ
HOW HE FUCKS YOU
Whether he's a sub or a dom really depends on his mood. If he's returning from a mission, he wants to be taken care of (read: he wants you to ride him until he goes cross-eyed). But if it's you returning, be prepared for him to break furniture with how hard he's fucking you -- as if you need to be reminded of who's waiting for you to return home.
When Giyuu subs...
WHIMPERER MAX 5000
I mean itâs almost pathetic how needy this man gets for you while youâre on top, bouncing along the thick length of him like your life depends on itÂ
Expect to have some bruises on your hips from how hard heâs gripping you. Eventually, he gets so desperate that heâs lifting you up and down his cock too, thrusting helplessly up into you without rhythm. Heâs just desperately chasing his own release, too drunk at the way your dripping heat constricts around him to the point that he sees stars.
Heâs begging you to let him cum, and truthfully, you almost feel bad that you keep slowing down, choosing to rock slowly against him instead of continuing the relentless push and pull of your hips that you know gets him panting. Almost.Â
When Giyuu doms, however...
When heâs on top though, get ready. Giyuu is relentless and can get downright mean.Â
Honestly, you shouldn't be surprised. He spends so much time bottling up his emotions that they're bound to explode out of him at some point. Lucky for you that they happen to be exploding out of him and into you, with the way he has you bent over like his own personal cum dump as he ruthlessly takes out every pint of frustration he's kept locked up on your poor, aching cunt.
Heâs pulling your hair, running his nails down your skin, and forcing you to say whose name is forever painted on your walls as his drips from your folds. Heâs particularly fond of shoving your head down against the futon as he takes you roughly from behind. Heâs not satisfied until youâre crying.Â
Oh and if youâve been teasing him while out in public (particularly if youâre in the Corps)?? RIP to your pussy bc heâs about to slay it.
Not many people were aware of your relationship with the Water Pillar, but that was out of mutual agreement between you both. However, a few of your comrades had noticed a rather telling mark on your throat while you were being treated for a wound, and while you were able to avoid confessing the identity of your lover, you hadnât been able to skirt the fact that you, indeed, had one.Â
âWhat was it like?â A fellow Kinoe named Ayane asked you, a blush spreading across her cheeks.Â
You could hardly meet her eyes as you mumbled, âIt was nice.â
If youâd known the Water Pillar had been lurking nearby, ears carefully listening for your response, you perhaps would have been a little more careful with your words â but truthfully, you were flustered and a tad embarrassed, and so youâd answered her rather dismissively.Â
Giyuu, it appeared, hadnât been amused by your assessment; not when his hand had shot out from the dark cover of the trees to snag around your wrist, yanking you into the shadows.Â
âTell me, Y/N,â he growled in your ear, pressing you harder against the bark of the tree as he drove into you. âDoes this feel-fucking-nice?â He punctuated the last three words with corresponding, pointed, sharp thrusts.
Your hands shot out to grip the rough wood to steady yourself as you whimpered, though the sound was drowned out by that of Giyuuâs hips slapping forcefully into your backside as he pumped into you with vigor.Â
The Water Pillarâs teeth sank into the juncture between your neck and shoulder, the sting serving as your warning. âI asked you a question.âÂ
âGiyuu â ah â someone is going to see us,â You cried, though your protests were weakened by the way your hips ground back against him, desperate for release.Â
Giyuuâs hand wound around your middle and dipped down to between your legs, skilled fingers circling your aching clit. âNot if you keep quiet and come when I say.â
His other hand had to clap around your mouth as his hips drilled into you, his fingers sliding between your lips to choke off the whine of his name as your cunt began to seize around him, begging to be filled by his cum, desperate to feel it leaking out of you as he sent you on your way.Â
âIâll show you fuckinâ nice,â he promised, and the Water Pillar wrenched you away from the base of the tree to bend you over before him.Â
KINK-O-CLOCK
hear me out: I think this man has a virginity kinkÂ
like he wants to TAKE your virginityÂ
If youâre not a virgin, dw, heâs still obsessed with youÂ
this is just like an added bonus for him â the idea that heâs the one whoâs going to turn you into a whimpering, crying mess, that youâll fall apart around his cock gets him incredibly excited. Especially because he plans on being the only man to touch you like this. It might translate into a greater corruption kink, but it goes both ways â he loves the idea of reducing you to a lustful, needy mess just as much as he loves the fact you do the same thing to him
big-time praise kink â he loves hearing you sing his praises, even if he gets extremely shy while you do it. He so rarely hears any form of praise or gratitude, so when you give it to him (both in bed and out of it), it means the world to himÂ
EDGING â especially if heâs been away for an extended period of time. Youâre overjoyed when he comes home, but youâre also steadily preparing yourself for a long-ass night. Giyuu isnât one to rush things already, but if itâs been a week or so since heâs last been inside of you, you better prepare yourself for a loooooonnng night ahead of you. He will bring you right up to the cusp of your orgasm before pulling off/out/removing himself, leaving you to clench around nothing. He will do this several times before finally, finally, letting you cum.Â
creampies on creampies on creampies
Tbh he could give Sanemi a run for his money on this one (and his job at the Hostess donut filling plant)
The man is obsessed with his cum being in you. Heâs not satisfied until itâs leaking out of you, and youâre laying on your back, knees against your chest, unable to do anything but hum in contentment because youâre so full of him. He will watch it trickle out of you, and then shove his still-hard cock right back in to give you one more load because fuck you look so sexy when youâre leaking him. Â
bestie how do you think babies are madeÂ
But if heâs not cumming inside of you, he is fascinated with cumming on your tits/face. The sight of his pearly seed covering your skin as you swipe your fingers through it, happily licking it from your hands is 100% guaranteed to make him rock-hard again
He always needs to be touching you in some way, but he especially loves holding onto your waist while plunging deep into you. It doesnât matter if heâs on the bottom or the top â he just needs to hold you.
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Chapter 16 - Let It Flood
Series Masterlist
Author's Note: This feels like a good time to tell you guys weâre only halfway done and that I pinky promise thereâs a happy ending. Chapter Title from Foundations of Decay by My Chemical Romance
Word Count: 22k
Chapter Summary/Warnings: It's time. Usual Warnings, with big smut and bigger angst.
Tags: Soldier Boy/Supe!Female Reader, canon divergence, enemies to friends to lovers, canon divergence, slow burn, fluff, heavy angst, smut, pining
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Chapter 15 - Chapter 17
âWhat about Paris?âÂ
She leaned around the bathroom door to frown at Ben, toothbrush muffling her words. âWhat about Paris?â
âFor where they ship us off to after this shit.â Ben glanced down at his phone, displaying a generically fucking boring postcard picture of the Eiffel tower. âItâs full of fucking art and shit.â She loved stupid fucking art and shit.
âI donât think theyâre going to let us choose where we go, Ben.â She wrinkled her nose at him. âAnd youâd hate Paris. You hate France.â
Ben scowled. âItâs a stupid, useless, cowardly country full of-â
âFucking pussies,â She smiled at himâso bright and happyâand Ben couldnât bring himself to do more than roll his eyes at her dogshit impression of him. âI donât think youâd make it a week in Paris. Someone would offer you food and youâd try to kill them.â
âWhat about,â Ben glanced at the next recommendation on the Ten Best Romantic Vacation Cities list heâd found online. It wasnât total fucking shit, even if the website kept trying to tell him the Ten Best Ways to Use a Vibrator with a Partner. Heâd save that tab for later. âHavana?â
âCuba has a strained relationship with the CIA.â She shrugged. âI donât think theyâd agree to take us in.â
âHawaii?â
âWell, Iâd be fine with Hawaii, but I donât think you would.â She retreated back into the bathroom, and Ben frowned.
âIâd fucking love Hawaii. It would be full of damn beaches to fuck on-â
âNo,â She reappeared, walking over to stand between Benâs legs. Looking so fucking perfect thereâwearing his shirt and hair still messy from his hands and holding his face between her palmsâthat Ben almost missed what she was saying. âThey wouldnât put us in a resort, theyâd put us in a town. Probably away from the beach, definitely without the infrastructure it should have. Just a real bummer of human rights. Youâd hate it.â
She said those last words so simply that all the fancy, brainy shit sheâd been telling Ben felt pointless. She thought heâd hate it, and she was always fucking right, and was smiling down at him with so much adoration on Her face thatâeven if she was somehow wrongâBen was now certain heâd hate it.
âFine,â he grunted, dropping his phone to his lap and tugging Her further forward with hands on the back of her thighs. âWhere the hell would you want to go, if youâre so fucking smart.â
She was so fucking smart. And She knew it, because she was grinning when she said, âRome.â
âRome?âÂ
âIt has a bunch of art and history and culture for me, and some very good fucking food for you. Plus, everyone there is stupid hot.â
Ben winked at Her. âYouâre stupid hot enough to power a country, beautiful. I donât need anyone else.â
âThanks,â She mumbled, looking very firmly away from Ben as her face flushed that pretty fucking color. âBut I was talking about for our escort business.âÂ
âAnd thatâs why youâre the damn brains.â Ben rubbed circles on Her skin, and she fell a little further into him, hands tightening on his face. âAlways fucking planning. Weâre going to need to find some people half as damn hot as we are, because weâre only fucking each other.â
She scoffed, and Ben thought Her heart might beat right out of her chest. âHow sweet of you, to keep your dick in your pants at even the prospect of money.â
âWeâll earn plenty of goddamn money. My dick is yours, Sunshine.âÂ
She hummed, and her hands started to play with Benâs hair in a way that made him feel like a goddamn puppy. What was worse was that it felt fucking good. Her perfect fucking hands, touching him because she wanted to, because she liked touching him. âEven if someone offered ten million dollars?âÂ
âYours.â
âThatâs financially irresponsible.â She mumbled, still incredibly fucking determined to not meet his eyes. âWe could buy a house with that money.âÂ
âIf I was offering my dick for money,â Ben drawled. âWe could buy a fucking island. But itâs yours,â he said Her name firmly, and she glanced at him with wide eyes. âSo get damn used to chasing customers off.âÂ
âChasing customers off?âÂ
âIâm going to have to do it for you,â he grinned at Her. âFucking pussies who think they can fuck you the way I will.âÂ
She stuck her tongue out at him, but Ben didnât miss the smile she was failing to fight. âHorny fucking cunt.âÂ
That was enough. Just that was a good enough reason for Ben to pull Her all the way into his lap, let her straddle his thigh, and silence her small sound of surprise with his mouth. For Ben to tug and touch Her skin in time with all the ways heâd learned to play her mouth until she was limp and moaning against him. Until he could bite Her lower lip and trace his hand along her spine and sheâd throw back her head and arch against his hand. Until Ben could suck that spot on her throat and trace a hand across her ribs as sheâd start grinding down onto him.Â
âBen-âÂ
âHorny fucking cunt,â he echoed Her words against Her skin. âYour horny fucking cunt goddamn wants my dick, doesnât it? Brat.âÂ
âFuck you,â Her words were said through gasps, hands clawed and scraping at Benâs scalp, and he chuckled.
âAfraid thatâs not on the table right now, beautiful.â He pulled back to grin at Her. âBut that doesnât mean I canât do anything about how fucking wet you are.âÂ
She whined something that might have been a plea, might have been a curse or vulgar phrase aimed at Ben, or might have been just one of the many pretty fucking sounds she made, but it all wouldâve achieved this same effect. She was needy, She wanted Ben, and she was trying to fuck his thigh. Rolling her hips on it desperately, trying to chase relief against him. Making smaller, more desperate noises every time Benâs hands brushed against her tits, every time his teeth or tongue found a new place to worship her skin.Â
This was all they could do right now, and fuck it was torture. It was so goddamn painful to have Her grabbing at him and moaning and saying his name in that perfect fucking wayâpleading and adoring in Her breathless voiceâand not just be able to fuck Her. To know he had to goddamn wait another day, to feel his pants become tight like they had before and force himself to hold off when She wanted him to fuck Her. She wanted him. He had been given the image of Her slight drool when sheâd jerked him off and knew she would look at him like that again. Look at him with more fucking care and want, because Ben would fuck Her until she wouldnât ever think another weak fucking asshole could fuck her like she deserved. Heâd fucking ruin Her. Heâd have Her bounce on his cock like she was bouncing on his leg, and he would make her feel so fucking good. Make him worth something to Her, one fucking thing that nobody else would be able to give her.
Ben pulled back for a second, needing to just fucking see Her. See how fucking beautiful she was, wanting him, get a goddamn glimpse of how it would look when she rode his dick instead of his thigh. Heâd never seen anything better. Heâd seen mountains and waterfalls and the goddamn Northern Lights and they might as well have been fucking dumpster fires and car crashes compared to this. If anything, the car crash would be the only half-worthy comparison. Because She was destroying herself against Ben, staring at him with dazed, pretty fucking eyes, and all the bliss and pleasure on her face was from Ben. He was doing this to Her.
And he couldnât look away if he tried.Â
Sheâd made a small whine when Ben had pulled away from her throatâpushing down on him harder and hand scraping along the nape of his neckâbut he pressed his head against hers and She moaned.Â
âBen, please-â
âSo fucking good,â he growled, and She moaned again. âYou want to cum, beautiful?âÂ
She nodded. âYes.âÂ
âBeg.âÂ
âFucking ass-â She leaned forward, trying to capture Benâs lips against hers. âBen.âÂ
âI need you to fucking beg,â he kissed all across Her face, everywhere he could without bringing her any closer to the edge. âYou want your horny fucking cunt to cum, then beg.â
âPlease,â She was smoking. Her skin wasnât growing warmer, but a glowing smoke was clouding the room as she tried to pull Ben closer. âFucking please, Ben-â
He kissed Her, and she screamed into his mouth, clawing at his hair and skin. Bucking off his leg so that Ben had to grab Her hips and keep her still, had keep her from continuing to bump against him because heâd cum in his fucking pants. He had to pull himself the fuck together, he wasnât a goddamn virgin pussy, but fuck She was so perfect. Ben might have almost cum just when Sheâd smiled at him, standing between his legs and touching him so easily.
As Ben looked at Her come downâbeautiful and perfect and torn apart all over himâand she looked at Ben like heâd seen her look at the city skyline from the window, with the face she had when she listened to a song she loved. The Thing became painful. It had been trying to tell him something. Since the night before it had stopped trying to remind Ben how perfect She was, stopped trying to push him into her. Ben was well fucking aware how perfect She was. And since heâd crashed into Her there wasnât a goddamn chance he was going to pull away.
So now the Thing was trying to tell him something. On repeat over twelve hours it had been rioting in Ben, trying to tell him something so fucking important. Something critical, that he needed to know so She could know as well.
And when She started to slide off of Benâfalling to her knees before himâthe Thing felt like it might tear him apart.
âHi,â She smiled at him, face so fucking bright and happy. Looking at Ben like he was everything.
He was. To Her, he was fucking everything. And weaker men than Ben wouldâve cum just from Her saying that. Weaker men wouldnât fucking survive Her. Sheâd look at them with sharp, infinite amusement on her beautiful face and fight with them over nothing and theyâd simply goddamn die because fuck she was perfect. But She wouldnât look at them like this. Like they were everything. That wasâby some fucking grace of a god Ben was starting to be indebted toâa look She reserved for him. With adoration and care and something that was alive and powerful sitting deep in Her perfect eyes. Thank fuck Ben wasnât a weaker man. Heâd have never earned Her, on her knees before him with her hands on his thighs. He still hadnât earned Her, but fuck him if he wasnât going to dedicated the rest of his goddamn life to trying to. To showing Her that he was worthy of her looking at him like that, that he could keep up with her and protect her and-
Ben grunted Her name, because her hand was starting to trail up his leg and any and all thoughts were becoming just Her. âWhat are you doing.â
âBeing an altruist,â She hummed, palm resting over Benâs fully hard cock, still fucking smiling. âGiving back.â
âSunshine-â Ben cut himself off with a hiss, because she just fucking squeezed him. Her heart was stuttering around inside her, but Ben couldnât tell if it was from desire. He didnât need, didnât want, Her to do this because she thought she had to. It had to be from desire. He wasnât fucking Homelander. If She touched him, he needed her to need it. To want him. It wouldnât mean a goddamn thing if she didnât. If She touched Ben without looking at him like he was everything. âIf you donât want to-â
âI want to,â Her answer was fast, a little too fast, and Ben smirked. There it was.
âYou want to?â He drawled, leaning over her, tilting her chin between his fingers. âHow bad do you want to suck my dick, beautiful?â
âBad,â She whispered. âBut less and less by the second.â
Ben snorted. âSmartass.â
âDo you want me to suck your dick?â She blinked up at him, voice a little softer. âItâs just an offer, you donât have to take it-â
Ben pulled Her face up between his hands, kissing her until her words name needy sounds and she was grabbing at his arms. When he was satisfied with the way she was moaning, Ben lowered her back down between his legs and grunted her name. âIf I ever tell you not to suck my dick, fucking shoot me.â
âYeah,â She nodded, glancing down at the outline of Benâs cock, pushing against his pants that were still fucking on for some reason. âOkay.â
He muttered Her name, and she looked back up at him. âHow much work do you want to do?â
She didnât answer. She just started moving, pulling Benâs pants down and taking him in her hand so quickly Ben wouldâve thought sheâd practiced. Stroking him once, twice, a third time, looking at his cock with pretty, lust-clouded eyes. Ben twitched in Her hand, and had to force himself not to rut into her, to just groan as Her thumb ran over the angry, red head of his cock. His job was just to watch Herâhow she was so fully entranced in fucking torturing himâand let her do what she wanted. But it wasnât fucking easy, not when she was so fucking beautiful, not when Her mouth was hanging slightly open and Ben didnât think he could wait another second not being at least somewhat inside of Her.
Thank fucking hell and heaven and everything between that She didnât go slow. Thank goddamn Christ that She took all on him at once, in a long movement that bumped him against the back of her throat, and set a brutal, torturous fucking pace. Found a beat, fast and rhythmic, where Sheâd pull up, up, almost all the way off with her hand trailing behind her, and lick the very tip of his cock before dropping back down. Down until Ben could feel the tightness of Her throat, squeezing his balls once before repeating it all again. Over and over, sucking with her teeth grazing him and her moansâloud and needy fucking moansâmaking Ben wonder if this was heaven. That was the only way that thisâthat Sheâwas real, if heâd died and somehow managed his way into fucking heaven.
But Benâs hand in Her hair that heâd tangled between his fingers to just touch her, was real. The small jerks of his hips into Her mouthâwhen her moans would vibrate around him and echo in his ears so he couldnât help himselfâwere real. Her warmth and beauty and the feeling of Her was real. And fuck She was so fucking beautiful and perfect and-
Ben said Her name through strained teeth. âWhere-â
She went faster. Moaned louder with a whine, her hand in time with the beat of her heart. Leaned into him, the wettest and most fucking sinful sounds Ben had ever heard escaping her. She was grinding down on air, so fucking pretty and focused, but looking up at him under eyelashes with want. Managing to take him deeper.
What did Ben in was Her. Fucking Her, groaning his name around his cock, looking up at him like he was everything.
He tried to pull away. Heâd fucking swear he tried to pull away. Heâd tried to paint her face or tits or any other perfect part of Her sheâd allow, but she held him. She kept a firm grip on Benâs leg for just a secondâonly long enough to tell him what she wantedâand heâd given in. Heâd fucked Her face through his orgasm, and She hadnât flinched as he came down her throat. Swallowing and letting Her tongue brush him all the way until he was done, then pulling off of him with a popping sound, and giving him a soft smile.
The amount of self-control Ben was capable of needed to be fucking studied. Every part of him needed to fuck Her. Anyone with half a fucking mind would need to fuck her if they were allowed to see her like this. Flushed and breathing heavy, eyes slightly unfocused with a want, cum dribbling out of her mouth. Allowed to see Her wipe it off with her fingers and suck them dry. Without hesitation, like it was something she didnât even have to think about doing. But only Ben was allowed to see this, and that made it a million times more impressive that he was able to not throw Her onto the bed and fuck her until some stupid mission was the last thing she cared about.
The mission. The stupid fucking mission they had been supposed to be getting ready for. When it was over, heâd have all the time in the world to fuck Her like she deserved. But theyâd have to actually do the mission first.
âWhat time is it?â She was looking around the room, still kneeling in front of Ben. âMM said we had to be in the dining hall at noon.âÂ
Ben couldnât be fucked to stop staring at Her, let alone know the fucking time. âCheck your damn phone, Sunshine, Iâm not a fucking clock.âÂ
She stuck her tongue out at him. Her tongue that had just been wrapped around his cock. That had just been tasting his cum and she was still on Her knees-
âMineâs dead, and like,â She waved vaguely past him. âWay over there. Give me yours.â
That snapped Ben out of it. Her palm was extended, she was looking at him expectantly, and he could not give her his phone. âYouâve got legs,â he grunted Her name, trying to look at her and remain completely fucking unaffected her flat glare. âFucking use them.âÂ
She scoffed. âWhen have you ever been in favor of me using my legs.â
âIâm always in favor of you using your legs. They make excellent fucking handles.â Ben winked at Her, and her heart fluttered slightly. âAnd youâre always on my ass about letting you walk yourself. Hereâs your fucking chance.âÂ
âOh, fuck off.â Her voice was bored, unwavering. âPhone.â
âNo. Get your own damn phone.â
Her eyes narrowed. âWhy are you being so weird.â
âIâm not being fucking weird-âÂ
âYes, you are. Whatâs wrong with you.âÂ
âNothing, itâs my phone-âÂ
âBenjamin.â She snapped, and he was in trouble. He knew that voice, that was Her Iâm fucking onto your shit, Pretty Boy, voice. âIs it porn? Because I wonât give a flying fuck-â
âItâs not fucking porn,â he scowled. âI wouldnât hide porn from you, thatâs fucking stupid.âÂ
âSo you are hiding something.âÂ
Shit. âShut the fuck up.âÂ
She dove forward, hand jamming into Benâs pocket. Where She knew he kept his phone, because she knew fucking everything. Insufferable, brilliant, perfect fucking woman. Thankfully, Ben was just faster than she was, and slammed his hand down to trap Her hand against him.
âBen-â
âIâm not fucking hiding anything,â Ben said Her name firmly. It was incredibly fucking important she didnât think he was keeping secrets from Her, because he wasnât. This was worse than that. âI just value my goddamn privacy-âÂ
âOh, shove it up your ass, Pretty Boy.â She tried to tug her handânow wrapped around Benâs phoneâfrom his grip. âI leave the door open when I shit and you spent an hour last week telling me about what Baseball games made you hard. I just sucked your dick. Thereâs literally nothing on your phone that could shock me.âÂ
He doubted that. Ben almost wanted to just let Her have his phone, to prove her fucking wrong. His pride managed to win for now, but if She kept talking about how sheâd sucked his dick his will might dissolve real damn fast. âI told you about the baseball in fucking confidence-â
âI didnât tell anyone.â She wrinkled her nose. âHow would that have even come up? Hey, Annie. You know how youâre not Benâs biggest fan? Wait until you hear about how he got a boner when the Phillies won the 1980 World Series, Iâm sure itâll completely reverse your opinion of him.âÂ
âBrat-â âCan I please just check the time?â She had stopped trying to pull away from Ben, only frowning up at him with her pretty fucking eyes watching him carefully. âI wonât look in your phone, I just need to see the clock. Please.âÂ
Ben didnât love how well that worked. How Her saying please and somehow trusting that he really wasnât hiding anything from her made Ben crumble completely in only a second. Worse, he didnât hate himself for it. He couldnât call himself a fucking pussy because goddammit, anyone wouldâve given into Her. Anyone with eyes and a brain would be willing to give Her anything. Â
âFine,â he grunted, loosening his hand from pinning Herâs in his pocket. âBut I donât want to hear a fucking word out your mouth, got it?âÂ
She blinked at him, but nodded. âUh, sure.âÂ
His whole body was tense as She pulled out his phone, tapping the screen on, still on her fucking knees. She needed to stand up, needed to stop being so fucking perfect that Ben couldnât look away, because now he had to watch Her look at his lockscreen as his teeth ground enough to break. Ben had to watch Her eyes widen, hear her heart skip a beat, and soft lips fall open in surprise.
She looked up at Ben, and he couldnât avoid her gaze if he wanted to. âBen-âÂ
âShut up,â he grumbled. âYou promised. Not a fucking word.âÂ
âI did not promise,â She pushed. âI agreed. You shouldâve made me promise, because I-â
âFucking promise then. Not a word.âÂ
âWell, that ship kind of sailed, Benjamin.â Her voice was dry, and Ben couldnât figure out what that face meant. How She was looking at himâstill like he was everythingâbut with something pushing up behind her eyes. That powerful thing, the one Ben couldnât name. âSo now weâre going to have several words about it.âÂ
Ben scowled, remaining silent as he realized there wasnât a way out of this. She was sitting straight, one hand planted on Benâs knee to balance herself, and had placed her body right where Ben would knock her backwards and onto the floor if he tried to move away. He could try and kiss and fuck his way through it, but She had the sharp look in her eyes that told him sheâd either bite him, burn him, or let him fuck her before immediately getting on his ass again after.Â
She sighed, and turned Benâs screen so he could see it. âThatâs me.âÂ
It was Her. She didnât need to be fucking showing it him, he well knew that it was her. It was his favorite picture of her, the first one heâd taken that wasnât a blurry piece of shit. It showed her downstairs, watching the TV with a focus Ben could only describe as violent. He remembered what they were watching, that sheâd been tapping Benâs arm along with the soundtrack, and that it had been close to midnight, because he could recite every detail of the photoâin picture and outâbackwards with his damn eyes closed. She was wearing Benâs shirt and shorts that had been small enough for the shirt to completely cover. It gave the impression that she was only wearing Benâs shirt. She was frowning at the TVâperfect face cast in a green light from its glowâand leaning against Benâs shoulder with his hand on her thigh. She had been half asleep, and the drawn frustration on her face and intensity in her eyes had been because she was fighting to make it through the movie. The fucking Muppet Movie, that sheâd used a favor for Ben to watch with Her. He hadnât watched it, heâd watched Her watch it, but there was no reason she had to know that. Sheâd seemed thrilled he was just there, and heâd been satisfied watching Her struggle to stay awake, feeling her fall further and further into his side, and listening to her mumble about the Muppetâs fucking cultural importance right up until the credits rolled and she immediately passed out.
Ben fucking loved that photo. How She couldâve just watched it alone but used a whole favor just for Ben to sit with her. How Sheâd been so determined to stay awake sheâd been trying to inch away from him, but Ben would pull her back gently and sheâd just sigh as her eyes drooped further. How at one point Sheâd started singing along with all the damn puppets, and the room had filled with a colorful, misting light. How She looked so much like his, how anyone glancing at the photo would see that she was choosing him and know that he had chosen her. How fucking beautiful she looked, even in the dark from the higher angle. So fucking perfect.Â
He didnât have any justification for it. The photo or why it was his lockscreen. It had taken Ben a whole hour while She was with Annie and Hughie to figure out how to set it. Sheâd told him, and heâd listened, but phones were a goddamn terrible, dogshit technology. But heâd done it. By himself. And fought the urge to brag to Her after. Because She didnât need to know that it was his lockscreen, and Ben didnât really know to explain why it was. It made him fucking happy. He liked seeing Her pretty face every time he used his phone.Â
And he wasnât sure how to tell Her that without sounding like a fucking idiot pussy.
So he just glared at Her and grunted, âObviously.âÂ
âBen,â Her words were slow, and she wasnât looking away from him. âWhy is that a picture of me.âÂ
âBecause the camera was pointed at your damn face.âÂ
âBenjamin.âÂ
âItâs a good fucking photo, okay?â Ben snapped. âYou look hot.âÂ
She glanced at the photo. âI do not look hot.âÂ
He scoffed. âGet your fucking eyes checked, Sunshine. You look hot. Every photo of you looks hot.âÂ
Her eyes somehow grew wider, her heart picking up speed, and Ben was going to chop off his tongue. âEvery photo of me?âÂ
âThatâs enough,â Ben lunged forward, but She swatted his hand with just enough heat for him to pull back with a hiss of Her name. âGive me my fucking phone.â
âTell me what you mean by every. Every photo of me.âÂ
âNo.â
She stuck her tongue out at him. âFine, you stubborn, grumpy ass. Have it your way.âÂ
Before Ben could stop Her, she was swiping his phone open and entering his password. Hunching down so Ben could see her face, covering the phone protectively with her body.Â
âThis is violation of my fucking privacy.â He grumbled. âIâm going to report you to HR.âÂ
She shot him a flat look from under her lashes. âYou didnât even know what HR was until Mallory made us all sit in on that seminar because I called Butcher a hussy fucking cuntwad bitch and one of the regular agents overheard. And I could report you to HR for taking photos of me without my knowledge.âÂ
âTheyâre not damn pervert creep photos-âÂ
âBen,â She looked up at him, thumb hovering over the Photo Library app icon. âAs your closest thing to unqualified legal counsel, Iâd advise you shut the fuck up.âÂ
Ben scowled at Her, but snapped his jaw shut, watching her wearily as she opened his photos.Â
They were all of Her. The only ones that werenât of her were something calledâaccording to his very thorough internet researchâscreenshots, that Ben didnât know how he was taking, let alone how to stop taking. But the rest was Her. There wasnât another fucking thing worth taking photos of in this stupid damn compound. In the whole fucking world. She was scrolling through them way too fucking slow, heart stuttering against her ribs, and Ben thought he might be fucking blushing. He didnât fucking blush, he wasnât a ditzy fucking schoolgirl or embarrassed pussy asshole who blushed-Â
She surged upwards, yanking Ben down by his shirt to kiss him. Gently, sweetly, and so fucking soft, humming into Benâs mouth with a smile. Leaning against his chest until She was hanging off him with her arms around his neck. When she pulled back Her eyes were burning with that strange fucking look, and she was chewing her lip and she studied him. Looking for something Ben didnât know how to show Her. Mouth opening and closing, heart beating fast, and the Thing needed to tell Her something-Â
âYouâve been playing Candy Crush,â She said with a small, smug grin. âI saw the screenshots. They go back like, three weeks.âÂ
âShut up,â he muttered, rolling his eyes, and She just shook her head.Â
âNo, Iâm going to rub this in your fucking face so hard-âÂ
It was his turn. To kiss Her and hold her and hope that was enough for the Thing to just stop screaming at him. It wasnâtâit made everything worse when She relaxed against him with a happy soundâand the Thing grew impossible to ignore. Drowning everything out with Her, Her, Her, Ben had something she needed to have too, She needed to understand. The only thing to keep it at bay, from bursting out of Ben and into Her, was touching her. Setting his mouth deeper against Hers, hauling her over him as he lay flat on the mattress, letting her whines and breathless sounds run right through him. Let them satiate his undying need and hunger for Her.Â
She pulled back first, and Ben let himself be slightly cocky about how her thighs were squeezing around his chest. About the fact that She just rested her head on his shoulder as she caught her breath. Warm breath fanning over his neck, heartbeat slowing right until Ben started to sit up and She mindlessly ground against him at the movement.Â
The Thing had to tell Her about this indescribable, unending fucking something. But the Thing didnât have words. It was a part of Ben, and Ben couldnât get a goddamn fucking clue what was so apparently fucking crucial for Her to know. But She had to know, whatever it was she had to know, she needed to get it, get him, get why, Ben needed to tell Her-Â
âItâs almost noon,â She whispered against Benâs skin. âWe need to go.âÂ
Ben nodded, and picked Her up against him, turning them so she was resting on the bed as he stood. âIâm wearing my fucking suit.âÂ
âOkay,â Ben could see her watching him in the mirror, still only wearing a shirt and underwear. He tossed her some pants and bra over his shoulder, and didnât move until She started pulling them on. âYou should bring your shield as well.âÂ
He frowned at Her. âWhat about you.âÂ
âWhat about me?âÂ
âYou need a fucking weapon. I still have that pussy agentâs gun-âÂ
She rose from the bed, padding over to Ben side with a small smile. âIâm the weapon, Pretty Boy. And I have you.â
Any protests Ben might have had about how She might be a walking, breathing weapon of mass destruction but Homelander always made her freeze were killed by those words. She did have him. Sheâd always have him. She didnât need a weapon because she had him. She was brilliant and quick and made of fire, but if all that managed to fail, she had Ben. She was standing here, with him as he changedâstealing looks that he wasnât fucking missing at his bare chestâand She had Him.Â
âWhat wrong,â he grumbled, and She shook her head, hands roaming through one of the top drawers.Â
âSocks.âÂ
Ben rolled his eyes, and grabbed out a simple black pair from the top. âI want my fucking phone back.âÂ
âWhy, to play Candy Crush?âÂ
âShut the fuck up,â Ben muttered. âIâm fucking winning. Iâll delete it when I fucking win.âÂ
She snorted. âYou canât win Candy Crush, Benjamin.âÂ
âWhat the hell are you talking about.â
âThereâs like a million levels. And theyâre always adding new ones. Itâs not a winnable game.âÂ
âWell Iâll make it fucking winnable.âÂ
She snorted. âHow.âÂ
âShut the fuck up,â Ben frowned, watching Her as she continued to search the drawer. âAnd I just gave you perfectly good fucking socks-â
âI need underwear,â She mumbled, face flushing. âMine are, uh, I canât wear them.âÂ
Ben grinnedâwide and smugâat Her reflection, âWhy not?âÂ
âFuck you.âÂ
âAh,â Ben winked at Her when she finally met his eyes. âYouâre welcome for that.âÂ
âShut up,â She chucked a stray bra at Ben, glaring back down. âGo get your stupid fucking phone, you cunt.âÂ
Ben ran his hand up Her back, into her hair, and gently turned her head to look at him. He kissed Her one last time because she was so fucking perfect and no one could damn stop him. Long and wet, until She said his name in that perfect fucking way. âBrat,â he whispered against Her mouth, and she shoved his chest lightly.Â
Ben took a steady step back, chuckling at Her glare, at the way her sharp eyes were still full of want for him. At the way Her dramatic pout was just a little bigger because heâd made her lips swollen. At Her. Just Her. So fucking simply Her.Â
As She changed, Ben ducked under the bed and frowned at where heâd stashed the gun. Carefully between the mattress and frame, unloaded with the rounds beside it. He wouldnât need it. The plan would work, and he wouldnât need it. There was no need to bring itâto show the team he had itâand not need it.Â
But it couldnât hurt. He could stash it in his suit, hide it from Butcher and Mallory and Annie, and nobody would have to know unless he needed it. And then they wouldnât try to take it away, because Ben wouldâve just fucking saved their asses-Â
âJust bring the gun, Ben.âÂ
His head bumped against the metal frame of the bed as he pulled out from under it and found Her standing above him with her arms crossed. âWhat-âÂ
âYou should bring it,â She shrugged. âI mean, it wonât hurt Homelander, but guns donât weigh nothing. You could throw it at his face, if you needed to. Catch him off guard.â
Fucking Christ, She was perfect. Ben didnât need to be told twice, and as he returned under the bed to retrieve the gun he heard her steps move away from beside him. When he stood back up, Ben saw that She had moved to her side of the bed, and was placing her sunglasses up on her forehead before turning to Ben with a grin.Â
âReady?âÂ
Ben shoved his gun into his pants, hauled up his shield, and gave Her a rough nod as he tossed his arm over her shoulder. âFucking born ready.âÂ
For once, She and Ben werenât the last people to arrive at one of these stupid fucking meetings. Butcher and Mallory were thereâBen didnât think they had lives outside of fucking up everyone elseâsâhuddled along with MM at the head of the table. The French Prick and Kimiko were in a silent conversation on one of the benches, but Hughie and Annie were late. Ben tried not to feel too smug about it, but next time Annie tried to berate him about keeping his dick in his pants and his mouth to himself because he was making Her late, heâd shove this in her fucking face.
Seeing them, Mallory gave a curt nod and ushered Butcher and MM through the steel kitchen door as She guided Ben to drop down at the bench. Kimiko smiled at them both, the usual, toothy and broad smile for Her, and a small one with a nod for Ben. As She and Kimiko launched into an exchange of gestures, the French Prick gave Ben a nervous nod.Â
âGood morning, Soldier Boy,â the French Prick was watching Ben carefully.Â
âIt fucking isnât,â Ben grunted, and She kicked his shin under the table.Â
Play nice, She shot him a quick glare before returning her attention to Kimiko, and Ben rolled his eyes. He was saved from the French Prick trying to continue engaging with him by Annie and Hughieâs arrival, Annie walking over to join the group of conniving dickheads in the back and Hughie halting at the bench, glancing nervously at Ben.Â
âJust sit your pussy ass down, Kid.â Ben snapped, and braced for another hit to his leg. It didnât come, and when he looked over at Herâexpecting a glare or scowlâthe only sign sheâd heard him was her knee, pressing into his.Â
Hughie sat, fidgeting at Benâs side and trying to look at the doors without anyone noticing. With quick, weak glances and jerked head movements. Ben was about to tell him to just stand the fuck up and join them when he felt Her nudge his shoulder, and looked over to see her blinking at him.Â
Kimiko said they were arguing about splitting us up.Â
Ben scowled at Her. The fuck do you mean splitting us up.Â
Mallory wanted you to go to the tower. MM didnât.Â
That was, genuinely, a fucking shock. MM hated him, there wasnât a world where heâd stick up for Ben fucking staying with Her. It must have shown across Benâs face, because She shrugged.
He apparently thought this wouldnât work if they separated us. Said youâd just be a giant fucking whiny manchild without me.Â
Did they decide? Ben decided to ignore MMâs manchild jab, because Sheâd just find a way to turn it on him with a joke and that fucker seemed to be the only one with a damn working brain. Because thereâs not a fucking chance in hell youâre meeting Homelander without me.Â
Theyâre still arguing. Butcher hadnât voted yet, and they were waiting for Annie.Â
Ben rolled his eyes. Who damn died and put those four pussies in charge of us. This is fucking democracy, Sunshine, we deserve a vote.Â
Well, weâre both technically dead, Kimiko and Frenchie arenât citizens, and I think Hughie just doesnât want to deal with them.Â
Theyâre talking about our fucking lives. We should get a goddamn say.Â
Take it up with Mallory, Pretty Boy.Â
Iâm not taking shit up with Mallory. She can suck my dick if she tries to separate us.Â
She pouted at him. I thought your dick was mine to suck alone.Â
Ben snorted, pulling Her closer towards him and kissing the top of her head. Before he could growl something in her ear that would make her fucking horny enough to ditch this whole stupid goddamn plan and take off to Rome with him, the doors were swung open and MM stalked back into the room with Annie close behind him. Butcher and Mallory followed after a few secondsâMallory having pulled a huge fucking poster out of her damn ass at some pointâand they stopped at the head of the table as Annie dropped next to Hughie and MM sat beside the French Prick. She hadnât tried to pull out from under Benâs arm, and until she did sheâd stay right fucking there.Â
âLook alive, cunts.â Butcher glared around the table. âWeâre moving out as soon as all our bloody ducks are in a row. Grace?âÂ
Mallory nodded, spreading the poster across the table. It was a blueprint. Ben recognized it immediately. Heâd seen it far too many fucking times. It was a Vought Tower blueprint.Â
âButcher, Marvin, Frenchie, and Kimiko will take this door,â she tapped the blueprint, and something around Benâs throat loosened when he realized he wasnât going to the tower. He was staying with Her. âInto the building. Itâs used for the Sevenâs housekeepers and more illicit guests.âÂ
Hughie frowned. âIllicit?âÂ
âHookers, lad.â Butcher winked. âItâs the hooker door.âÂ
âOh. Uh, good for them.âÂ
âAnd we have access to it?â Annie leaned forward. âMM, you said A-Train-âÂ
âHeâs leaving it unlocked for us.â MM tapped the map, near where Mallory had just done the same. âAnd making sure someone conveniently loses their badge.âÂ
âSomeone?âÂ
âDonât worry your pure little bleedin heart, Starlight.â Butcher drawled. âWeâll be keepin the lady on lockdown. Best fuckin witness protection package the CIAâs got.âÂ
Hughie frowned at MM. âWhat about A-Train? Are we, are we just going to trust him?â
âHeâs got his own ass on the line as well now.â MMâs voice was firm. Not leaving room for argument. âAnd after the Diner, he and Ashley both got skin in the game. I trust him.âÂ
âAnd heâs just leaving the door unlocked? Giving us an opening?âÂ
âHe said heâd try and keep The Deep and New Noir distracted. Canât account for Sage though.â MM looked away from Hughie, back to Mallory. âAs long as there hasnât been any leaks, it shouldnât fucking matter that Sage is in the tower though. If she doesnât get the drop on us, sheâs a non-issue.âÂ
Mallory nodded tightly. âAgreed. And none of my men are stupid enough to say shit to anyone, so weâre in the clear. Team Butcher will take the elevator up, find Ryan Butcher on 99, and extract him. Butcher has the Becca and Anomaly files on his phone, and hopefully that will be more than enough to make Ryan go willingly.âÂ
Ben tensed, and when She spoke her fingers were tapping against his arm. âAnd if itâs not?âÂ
âThen Frenchie creates the diversion, and we leave empty handed.âÂ
She nodded slowly, examining the blueprints. âFrenchie?âÂ
âOui?âÂ
âWhat exactly is your diversion?âÂ
âI have detested the billboard of Firecracker in the Times Square for several months. She is dead, she will not miss it.â The French Prick beamed with pride, and She glanced up with a frown.Â
âTimes Square?âÂ
âIt will be controlled, Madame.â The French Prick assured Her, shooting Ben quick pussy glances. âOnly just enough.âÂ
She nodded, narrowing her eyes back on the blueprint. âWeâre taking two separate cars, right?â When nobody answered, She looked up. âMallory?â
âYouâll all be transported in the van.â Mallory frowned. âItâs more effective-âÂ
âNo,â She shook her head, attention returning down once more. âItâs more dangerous. Weâre already risking a lot by Annie coming with Ben and I. We canât also have one group unable to make a quick getaway.âÂ
âI suppose,â Malloryâs lips drew in a thin line. âButcher could take his car-âÂ
âWeâll take Butcherâs car.â She tapped the blueprint, near the door. âThereâs cameras. If they see Butcherâs car, theyâll know somethingâs up. You have,â She looked up, scanning the table with sharp eyes. âYouâve taken care of the cameras in the building. Right?âÂ
âWeâll shoot them as we go,â Butcher grunted, and She gaped at him.Â
âAs you fucking go?âÂ
âThey wonât be entering the tower until after Homelander leaves it.â Annie leaned across Ben and Hughie to look at Her. âAnd they wonât be wandering. Itâll be fine.âÂ
âSpeaking of Homelander,â Mallory crossed her arms. âStarlight, Campbell, Soldier Boy, and the Anomaly will,â she sighed. âTake Butcherâs car to the Starlight Fund. From there, Soldier Boy will call Homelander with Campbellâs phone. Once Homelander arrives, Starlight will alert Team Butcher, and theyâll begin. Do not-â Butcher received a withering look. âProceed with the extraction until Team Starlight has given the green light. Understood?âÂ
Butcher shrugged. âWeâll see.âÂ
âButcher-âÂ
âWeâre playin real bloody fast and loose with a lot of this, Grace.â Butcher snapped. âIâd be more fuckin worried about what weâll do if Homelander doesnât take his bait.âÂ
Everyone looked at Her, still frowning at the blueprints. Ben squeezed her thigh lightly, and she glanced up at him a frown. âWhat-âÂ
âWhatâs your plan, Love,â Butcher drawled. âFor if Homelander donât fall into your trap that easy.âÂ
She swallowed, and Ben could hear the rapid beat of her heart. âHe will.â
Her voice was steady, every part of her controlled, but under the table her leg pressed into Benâs, and her hand drummed against his leg. Ben grabbed it, stilling her movement, and She glanced at him.
Youâre going to be fine, he glared at Her. This is going to fucking work, and youâll be fine.
She smiled at him with sad fucking eyes that carved something open in Benâs chest. I know. She tilted her head at him. And I thought you hated this plan.
I do. Ben scowled. I fucking loathe this stupid goddamn plan. But it will work, and tonight Iâll fuck you so hard youâll stop making such fucking idiotic plans.Â
She pouted at him. But making idiotic plans is one of my best qualities.Â
Ben rolled his eyes. Iâm well fucking aware of your best qualities. Thatâs not one of them.Â
Really, She gave him a flat look. Because I think itâs in the top three. Itâs stupid plans, my tits, and my ability to put up with your shit.Â
Smartass, Ben bumped his knee with hers, grinning down at Her. Youâre not even fucking close.Â
Not even the tits?
Your pussy is better, Ben winked at Her. Trust me, Sunshine. Youâve got the best pussy Iâve ever fucking seen.Â
She flushed, wrinkling her nose at him. Have you been ranking all the pussies youâve seen?Â
Had to pass the damn time somehow.Â
I feel like there had to be other options.Â
Maybe, Ben shrugged. But I donât really give a shit. And now I can be fucking certain when I say your pussy is my favorite.Â
What are my best qualities, if youâre such an expert? She was watching Ben carefully, and he almost scoffed at how nervous she looked. Like he might not be able to give an answer. Ben could list Her best qualities for fucking years, if someone let him.Â
Youâre a goddamn genius. Youâre fucking kind, kinder than you should be. And youâve got the best fucking pussy of all time.Â
I donât think Iâm kind, She frowned, and that definitely made Ben scoff.Â
Youâre the kindest person I know. Itâs fucking annoying. Ben studied Her soft, tight features. She didnât believe him. Youâre not nice, Sunshine. Youâve got a smart fucking mouth and a damn attitude. But youâre kind.Â
She nodded slowly. And you donât hate that?Â
Ben blinked at Her. Why the fuck would I hate that.Â
Kind people are pussies, Ben.Â
Nice people are pussies, He glared Her name at her perfect face, watching him intently. Theyâre weak, lying, insufferable fucking holier-than-thou assholes. Youâre not any of that.Â
She smiled at him, without teeth but real. That was her real, comfortable smile that made the Thing so fucking loud. Youâre not a pussy either.Â
I fucking know that. He was trying to glare at her, but it wasnât damn working. Not when She was smiling at him like that, and that deep, infinite thing in her eyes was so clear. Aimed at him. And the Thing had to fucking tell Her something-Â
Butcher coughed, and Ben realized the whole fucking Pussy Brigade was staring at them. âYou twats paying attention?âÂ
âDoes it fucking matter if we are?â Ben drawled. âItâs her damn plan, and I know everything Iâve got to do. Not our fucking fault you dumbasses need a whole meeting.âÂ
âThen could you please repeat your instructions, Soldier Boy?â Mallory glared at him. âFor our own peace of mind?âÂ
Ben held Malloryâs glare with his own. This was a fucking waste of time. âGo to the Starlight Fund, call Homelander, distract the pussy, then leave.â Protect Her. Donât let her out of your sight, or Homelander within a fucking arms reach of her. Keep Her safe, at any fucking cost.Â
âWith whose phone, Gov?â Butcher sneered, and Ben rolled his eyes.Â
âMine, you fucking-âÂ
Butcher made a loud buzzer sound. âAfraid that ainât the right answer. Would you like to try again for double Jeopardy?âÂ
âThatâs not how fucking Jeopardy works.â MM frowned, and Butcher shot him a glare.Â
âThat ainât the fuckin point, MM. The cunt got it wrong-âÂ
âWhose fucking phone should I damn use then?â Ben snapped. There would be time for Butcherâs fucking bitching later, right now Benâs patience was about to fucking snap. This needed to be done. âMine works fucking fine-âÂ
âYour phone is a registered CIA number,â Hughie looked at Ben nervously as he explained. âMine isnât. Vought wonât take a CIA call, itâll get screened on the first ring. And they probably wonât take a call from Annie, either. If we call the tower with my number weâll get past the first checkpoint, and then you speaking will get us to Homelander.âÂ
This shit wasnât worth arguing about. It was barely worth fucking talking about. âFine. Are we actually going to do this, or just goddamn sit here like a bunch of assholes.âÂ
âWe were just waiting on you and the missus to rejoin us, Gov.â Butcher sneered. âEveryoneâs been clear for a hot fucking minute while you twats were eye-fucking.âÂ
Ben glowered at him, clenching his fist under the table. When this was over, Ben was going to kill him. It was going to be so fucking satisfying, and then heâd run away with Her to goddamn Rome. But this had to be finished first.Â
As everyone started to filter outâtight nods and wishes of good luck being exchangedâBen stayed at Her side. She was still looking at the blueprints, frowning as her eyes scanned slowly over the paper right until Mallory pulled it away. She started to stand, and Ben wrapped an arm around Her waist. Keeping her steady and at his side.Â
âTeam Starlight will leave first,â Mallory's voice was curt as she nodded at Annie. âButcher-âÂ
Hughie let out a high yelp as Butcher chucked the keys at him. Somehow, the pussy managed to catch them.Â
âLad, if you wreck my car, youâre buyin me a new one.âÂ
âUm, yeah. Okay.â Hughie nodded nervously. âDo I have to drive-âÂ
âYes, and any of those cunts bloody touch the wheel-âÂ
âYour car will be fine Butcher.â Annie cut him off with a glare. âItâs just a car.âÂ
Butcher looked like he might kill her, but MM cut off any violenceâfucking unfortunate, because Annie probably wouldâve killed Butcher and then Ben wouldnât have toâwith a snap of, âWe donât got time to waste on this shit. The kid will drive, Butcher, and your car will live. Letâs fucking move.âÂ
Ben held Her against him out of the building, helping her into the backseat of Butcherâs car and pulling her back into his chest when he sat at her side. She let him, leaning against his body and burying Her face in his shoulder as her heart became uneven. Not fast, but arhythmic. Her breathing was controlled, steady against Benâs skin, but her heart betrayed the fear in her. Ben fucking hated this. He hated that she was doing this to herself. He hated that the only thing he could really do about it was hold her, at least until it was over and he could kiss and fuck all the worries out of Her perfect brain.Â
He could try to distract Her. He wasnât sure it would work, not when she was hugging him so tight and so fucking afraid, but goddamnit he had to do something. He couldnât just fucking sit here, in the back of Butcher stupid car, and do fucking nothing like a fucking weak goddamn pussy.Â
Ben squeezed her against him once, and She hummed into his body. Not looking up at him, or speaking. So Ben turned forward, attempting a different strategy.Â
âWhat the fuck were you pussies talking about in the kitchen?â Ben grunted, and Annie sighed in the shotgun seat.Â
âItâs not that important.âÂ
Ben rolled his eyes. âSo you werenât trying to goddamn separate us?âÂ
Annie shot Hughie a glare, the kidâs knuckles white on the steering wheel. âHughie, did you-âÂ
âKimiko told us,â She turned slightly in Benâs hold, voice soft. âAnd they didnât separate us, Ben. Donât be an ass.âÂ
He glared at Her. âIâm not being a fucking ass-âÂ
âBenjamin.â She wrinkled her nose at him, and Ben felt a little lighter. She was pushing back at him, she was less afraid, and thatâs all he could fucking ask for. âShut up.âÂ
âUh,â Hughie glanced at them in the rearview mirror. âAre you, is he-âÂ
âHeâs fine.â She slapped Ben arm, and he scoffed. âJust grumpy.âÂ
âIâm not goddamn grumpy.â Ben muttered. âIâm just trying to get some fucking answers. Figure out what shit they were saying about us behind our fucking backs.âÂ
âItâs really not that interesting,â Annie shrugged. âMallory said it would be better to take you with Butcher. MM said it would be worse. Butcher and I voted with MM, and that was it.âÂ
She frowned, twisting around fully to look at Annie. âButcher voted with MM?âÂ
Annie nodded, and She looked up at Ben. Thatâs weird right? Iâm not insane?Â
No, itâs fucking weird. Ben glared at Annie, and said aloud, âThe fuck did he do that for.âÂ
âI donât know,â Annie turned to look back at them. âI mean, would you rather he hadnât?âÂ
âItâs just, itâs surprising.â She shrugged. âHe hates us.âÂ
âI donât think he hates you,â Hughie said slowly. âButcher doesnât like being wrong. Or challenged. You,â he said Her name, nodding to Her in the mirror. âSpecifically, do both. I think when we found you he thought youâd be like either Annie or Maeve, and you werenât.âÂ
âAnnie or Maeve?â She gave Ben a confused look, and he shrugged. He didnât have a fucking clue what Hughie was talking about, or how anyone could possibly be annoyed by Her not being Annie or Maeve. She was fucking perfect, and Butcher was lucky to be damn graced with her presence.Â
âLike, completely against everything he does or completely for it.â Hughie looked to Annie for help. âRight?â
âI mean,â Annie frowned, nodding. âI guess. None of us were sure what we were looking for with you. Maeve said you were powerful, and hated Homelander. We all kind of took that as youâd been burned by Vought or something, not what, what actually happened.â
âAnd Butcher kind of got an idea that youâd be just, easy to work with. And after we did find you, I think he was sure youâd just be willing to do whatever he wanted to kill Homelander. And you werenât.â Hughie shook his head, hands tapping on the wheel. âSo I donât think he hates you. I think he just doesnât like that youâre um, not what he expected.âÂ
That was completely fucking insane to Ben. She wasnât what anyone expected, that was one of the best damn things about Her. She was too damn forgiving and kind, but still a clever, vindictive woman who never fucking backed down. She didnât ride any sort of fucking high horse, but also cared about people. It would be fucking annoying and insufferable if She wasnât so fucking genuine about it. If her money didnât live in her pretty fucking mouth when she said sheâd do whatever it takes and understood what that meant for Her. She wasnât easy to work with, not by a fucking long shot, but that was because she was goddamn resolved, so certain of what She thought had to be done and what She deemed unnecessary. She was always fucking right, she never fully broke, she never fucking faltered, and the whole goddamn world was better for it.Â
âSo he, he voted in our favor?â She was still looking at Annie, head tilted. âNo conditions?âÂ
Annie shook her head. âI voted with MM, and he followed. Told Mallory he was with us.âÂ
She nodded, and gave a small sound of agreement. Even as he wanted a fucking reasonâfor Butcherâs goddamn attitude and cruelty to her, for whyâd this was where he backed them upâBen decided he would drop it for now, no how much this all made him want to pummel Butcher into the curb. There would be time for that later, now was about keeping Her here. With him.Â
Ben kissed Her shoulder, because he fucking wanted to, he could, and she was starting to look damn sad again. She leaned her head back into Ben, and smiled up at him. Hi.Â
How fucking far is this place. Ben met Her gaze, fighting his mouth tugging upwards to return her smile. This was serious. Fucking serious. He had to glare so She knew that. Weâve been driving for a million damn years.Â
Itâs been twenty minutes, Benjamin. Weâll be there soon. She gave him a teasing grin. You fucking toddler.Â
Ben rolled his eyes. I am not a fucking toddler. Iâm a fucking grown man, whoâs doesnât have the goddamn time for this shit.Â
Really. She raised her brows, still grinning. It was getting a lot fucking harder to not grin back at Her. We have the same schedule, and Iâve got time for it.Â
No you donât. He winked at Her, and knew she figured out where he was headed when her finger dug into his arm and her face flushed. Iâve set aside our whole night to fuck you. And Iâd like to get started as soon as goddamn possible.Â
She stuck her tongue out at him, and Ben stopped trying to fight his smile. Cunt.Â
Brat. He kissed her, pulling her fully into his lap and leaning over her body. She smiled against Benâs lips, making a small sound from her throat, and the Thing was going to fucking explode and kill him. The only way out was to tell Her. Ben still wasnât sure what the fuck the Thing thought he needed to say, but he was positive it was something for Her. Absolutely fucking certain that She needed to know that Ben-Â
The car halted, the rumble of the engine going dead, and She pulled away from Ben to look around.Â
âWeâre here?âÂ
Hughie nodded, shoving the keys in his pocket. âIs everyone, uh, I guess ready?âÂ
âAs we can be,â Annie unbuckled herself, taking a deep breath. âWe should go inside. Fast.âÂ
She nodded, Her hands on Benâs arm growing heated. Searing into his skin, smoke curling up into the air.Â
Ben said Her name lowly, because this needed to be aloud. She needed to hear him.Â
She looked up at him, her small smile not reaching her eyes. âBen.âÂ
âYouâre going to be fucking fine.â Ben hissed, turning Her body in his arms so she faced him fully. âIâm not going to leave your side. Iâm not going to let him fucking near you. And then weâll go home.âÂ
âI know,â She leaned forward, kissing him so fucking sweetly, pressing Her forehead to his. âI trust you.âÂ
As She started to slide out of the car, every part of Ben was telling him to grab her. To pull her back against him, commender a plane from any shitty fucking cargo airport, and leave. Get the fuck out now. The only thing that kept him from giving in was the knowledge that sheâd hate him. Sheâd never fucking forgive him for making her leave, sheâd never damn speak to him again, and Ben didnât think he could live with that. He didnât think that he could live without Her. He honestly wasnât sure how he had lived without her before. Heâd never needed someone like this, heâd never needed fucking anything before. Heâd never cared so much what someone else thought, been so willing to do anything for just one person. One perfect fucking person. Ben had lived a whole lifetime, and then some, alone. And heâd been content. Not happy, but content. Now he was happy. Now he had Her, and she was perfect, and he never wanted to go back to just content.Â
So he followed Her out of the car, shield in his hand. Heâd follow her anywhere. Out of a car was barely anything when heâd move mountains and burn cities to follow her. Actually, heâd clear the cities first, then burn them. Ben was pretty certain Sheâd be pissed about him burning a city with people in it. Looking down at Herâbeautiful and pulling his arm over her before he was at full heightâBen decided heâd probably follow her even if she was pissed. Sheâd probably be justified anyways, as she was rarely genuinely pissed at Ben anymore, so heâd always fix whatever he did and keep following Her. Right into hellfire, where heâd still be happy, because Sheâd be with him.Â
The Starlight Fund was a completely desecrated fucking shithole. There was a truly fucking terrible amount of pro-Homelander graffitiâone even depicting every member of the Seven shitting on a group of Starlightersâand Ben was pretty goddamn sure the scraping he was hearing was rats.Â
âThis is gross,â She muttered at his side, and he snorted.Â
âLot of fucking doodles on the walls,â Ben pulled Her closer into him, speaking into her ear. âThat one,â he pointed to a drawing of Fish-Boy ripping his shirt off to display disgustingly ripped gills. âIs my favorite.âÂ
She hummed. âBecause of the gills, or the muscles?âÂ
âBecause he looks like he just shat his damn pants.âÂ
She gave a small laugh, and Ben wished this could be it. That they had come here to make fun of something stupid and now they were leaving. But Hughie turned around, offering Ben his phone with a shaking hand, and Ben had to set his shield down and take it. Had to feel Her tense again, and hear her chew her lip as Ben frowned at the screen.Â
âI already entered the number,â Hughie rubbed the back of his next, words soft and nervous. Part of Ben wanted to hit the idiot, because it wasnât fucking Hughie who was in danger. If She could hold herself together, this fucking pussy should be able to as well. But Ben just gruntedâhitting Hughie wouldnât really help anything, and Sheâd probably just get more tenseâand let him continue. âYou just have to call it. Say youâre, uh, you, and ask to speak to Homelander.âÂ
âAnd no fighting, once he gets here.â Annie added. âWeâre just distracting him. We canât fight him, not now.âÂ
âWhy the fuck not,â Ben scowled. âWeâd be doing the world a damn favor, killing him-âÂ
âHe might leave,â She said, fingerâs tapping against Benâs own. âHe might just blast into the air and go find Ryan and this wouldâve been for nothing. Ben,â She looked up at him, eyes desperate. âDonât fight him. Promise you wonât fight him.â
âFine.âÂ
âBen-âÂ
âI swear I wonât kill Homelander right now, as much as he fucking deserves it.â Ben grunted, still looking at Her. âThis is fucking stupid.âÂ
âI know,â She gave him a tight smile. âThank you for doing it anyway.âÂ
âIf shit starts to even look like itâs headed south-âÂ
âThen we can leave and you can tell me about how you were right for a whole decade.âÂ
Ben nodded, still holding Her gaze. In Rome?Â
In Rome, She squeezed his hand over her body. And you can fuck me every day for that decade as well. And the one after it.Â
Ben kissed Her, long and slow, not giving a fuck that Hughie and Annie were watching, or that they were surrounded by rats, or that the awful graffiti and awareness of Homelander arriving soon was hanging over their heads. He kissed her like he had all the time in the world.Â
âIâm ready,â She whispered against him. âIâll be okay.âÂ
He didnât move for a second, just sharing Her breath. But she pulled back first with a deep sigh and buried Her face into Benâs chest, arms wrapped around him. Waiting.Â
Ben called the number, and it picked up on the third ring.Â
An overly sweet womanâs voice echoed through the room. âThank you for calling Vought Internationalâs Crime Tip Line! All of our operators are currently busy, please stay on the line until one becomes available! You are seventh in line.âÂ
The voice was sounded fucking robotic when it had said seventh, and Ben wasnât sure that the lady had been real either. âWhat the fuck was that.âÂ
Annie sighed. âWeâre on hold.âÂ
âThe tip line?â She twisted around, still leaning against Ben, to give Hughie an exasperated look. âReally?âÂ
âI couldnât find Ashelyâs phone number,â Hughie muttered. âApparently she kept getting protest calls from Starlighters, and it overwhelmed their servers.âÂ
âMallory couldnât get it?âÂ
âItâs being kept secret. Weâd have to do a freedom of information request, and that wouldâve tipped them off.âÂ
âPlease stay on the line, your call is very important to us. You are sixth in line.â The voice disappeared again, returning so sort of too-happy fucking elevator music. She sighed, slumping slightly against Ben. Â
âI guess weâre waiting.âÂ
It took fifteen fucking minutes. Benâs shield was still on the floor, and heâd pick it up when he had to but right now was about holding Her properly. At some point Butcher called to yell about where the bloody hell the signal was, and Annie had to explain what was happening. Butcher called them fucking cunt idiots, and hung up. She stayed against Ben the whole time, tapping against his arm over Her stomach, staring into the distance. When that goddamn music finally came to an abrupt halt the whole room froze, Hughie and Annie looking up from where theyâd been sitting against the wall.Â
âThank you for calling Voughtâs crime tip line, my name is Gavin. How can I be of service.â âIâm Soldier Boy,â Ben said bluntly, ignoring Her flat look of Really, Ben? âI want to speak with Homelander.âÂ
âSir, this line is not a joke. Our policy requires me to report prank calls as crimes themselves-âÂ
âThis isnât a goddamn prank.â Ben hissed. âI am Soldier Boy. I need to fucking speak to Homelander now, and if you report me as a crime I will find you and fucking kill you.âÂ
âSir, may I please have your location-âÂ
She had turned to stand in front of Ben, tugging his arm, pointing a finger to herself. Me. She gave him an urgent look. Say you have me. Use my supe name. And my real name.Â
âI have the Anomaly.â This was fucking annoying, they shouldnât be doubting him. He grunted Her full name, and she nodded at him. âSheâs with me. And I want to fucking talk to Homelander. Now.âÂ
The line was silent. Ben glared at Her. That didnât fucking work.Â
She shook Her head. Wait for it.Â
The line clicked, and a new voiceâless bored and uninterested and a lot more fearfulâspoke through the speaker. âThis is Ashley Barrett, CEO of Vought International. I understand youâre claiming to be Soldier Boy?âÂ
âI fucking am Soldier Boy. Let me fucking speak to Homelander now.âÂ
The line was quiet again. âAnd you have her?âÂ
âChrist on a cross, fucking yes.â Ben scowled at Her. This is goddamn stupid.Â
She shrugged. Iâm just impressed you havenât totally crushed the phone yet.Â
Ben looked back to his hand, and found that his grip on Hughieâs phone was starting to cause cracks to form in the screen. He glared at Her. Shut up.Â
The line clicked again, and everyone froze. Her heart was going to push out of her chest, and when the static sounded again Ben wasnât sure it was even beating anymore.Â
âSoldier Boy.â Homelanderâs voice was so fucking weak. Even crackling through the phone and making Her freeze, he was a fucking pathetic pussy. âIs she really there? With you?âÂ
Ben looked at Her, face full of goddamn fear. He could stop this. Ben could hang up and Homelander would never have to step foot near Her again. She wouldnât have to be afraid ever again, because Ben would take her as far away as he fucking could, and Sheâd be safe.Â
Heâd never hated anything more than having to say, âYes.âÂ
âI want to talk to her.â Homelander snapped. âGive me to her. Now.â
She extended her hand, and blinked at Ben once. Iâll be fine.
It was a bold faced fucking lie. Her heart was going a goddamn mile a minute, and her face was blank, eyes glazed slightly.Â
Ben glowered at Her. If anything goes wrong, if he say one fucking thing out of damn line, weâre leaving.Â
Her smile didnât meet her eyes. It was barely a smile, closer to a sad, anxious grimace with upturned lips. I know. Then her face grew gentle, with adoration painting her every feature. For him. Something unending and almost dangerous crossed Her eyes, and Ben couldnât look away from her. I trust you.Â
Ben nodded. You burn, I burn. It wasnât what the Thing wanted Ben to tell her, but it was close. Better than telling Her nothing.Â
You burn, I burn. She wrapped her hand around the phone, taking it from Ben as he picked up his shield. Letâs fucking do this.Â
âIf someone doesnât say something-âÂ
âHomelander,â Her voice was stronger than Ben expected. Her face was painfully emptyâevery piece of light in her gone as she became hollowâbut her voice was even and controlled. âItâs me.âÂ
Homelander breathed Her name, and Benâs blood went cold. He shouldnât be allowed to say Her name. Not fucking ever, not like that. âWhere the fuck are you. What have they done to you? Why have you been hiding-âÂ
âIâm okay.â She wouldnât look at Ben, gaze fixed on the floor. Fucking empty. âThey havenât hurt me. Just, I wasnât allowed to see you. Or talk to you. They said just this once.âÂ
âTell me where the fuck theyâre keeping you,â Homelander hissed Her name. Ben was pretty sure she was going to throw up. âIâll come find you, you can come home, and weâll be together.âÂ
âI canât,â She whispered, fingers starting to curl with smoke. âTheyâll get mad-âÂ
âSo Iâll fucking kill them! I can do whatever I want, and itâs not like people will miss them! Just tell me where you are and Iâll come save you.âÂ
They needed to leave, right now. Her face was bloodless, Her breaths were mechanical, and Ben knew they needed to leave. She shouldnât be doing this, she shouldnât have to do anything for these fucking pussies, they should just fucking leave-Â
Homelander said Her name again, and his voice had gone cold. âIf you donât tell me where you are, Iâll find your pretty little sister and have her tell me. I know theyâve been making you hide. I know theyâve been hurting you. And if your sister loves you half as much as I do, sheâll want you to come back to me. Where youâre safe.â
Her eyes snapped up to Benâs. She wasnât trying to tell him anything, just looking at him. Her brain was turning, spinning, moving faster and faster with Her heart. Trying to find something, somewhere, that Ben didnât understand. A way out, a way forward, some sort of fucking plan to get through this. Heâd promised heâd let Her do this. No matter how much he hated it, Ben had swore. Sheâd do what she needed to do, andâas long as Homelander never fucking touched Her againâheâd stand with her as she did.Â
Benâs jaw clenched, and he held her gaze. Iâm here. Iâm right fucking here.Â
There was more he needed to say. There was so much fucking more Ben needed to tell Her. But that was enough, because She nodded. I know.Â
âThey took me to the Starlight Fund-â The words had barely left Her mouth when the line clicked dead. The room was silent, so painfully fucking silent, and She was staring at Ben. He needed to tell Her now, the Thing needed to get its fucking shit together and be damn clear about what it fucking was Ben needed to tell Her, so he could tell Her now-Â
The roof crashed open, and Homelander dropped into the middle of the room. Cape and suit and so fucking weak.Â
He breathed Her name, not even looking around the rest of the fucking room. âI fucking found you.â
Ben almost scoffed. Homelander hadnât fucking found Her. Sheâd goddamn called him. Told him where she was. He must have made some sort of sound, because cold blue eyes shot to him.
âSoldier Boy. Thank you for bringing Her back to me.âÂ
Never in his fucking life had Ben hated someone more. She wouldnât look at him, staring at Homelander and taking shallow breaths. Not touching Ben. Her back was too straight, all the smoke was gone from Her body, and Ben couldnât hear Her heart. Like it has just fucking stopped.
âHomelander,â Annie stood up from the wall, a truly violent glare on Her face. It almost made Ben respect her, the contempt with which she spoke and the loathing in her eyes. âYouâre not taking her. You can talk. Thatâs it.âÂ
âOh, shut up, you boring fucking Girl Scout.â Homelander dismissed Annie with a hand, still not looking away from Her and Ben. âThis is a family matter, you and Campbell can go fuck in a closet for all I care.âÂ
âWeâre not going anywhere-âÂ
âI donât care,â Homelander finally shot Annie a bored glare. âBut if you even try and interfere with this, Iâll laser Campbellâs dick off. Now,â he looked back to Her. âLetâs go.âÂ
She shook her head. She wasnât fucking breathing. âI- I cant-âÂ
âYes you fucking can,â Homelander hissed. âYouâre not mortal anymore, youâre a god like me. None of these weaklings could stop us. Soldier Boy,â he jerked his head at Ben. âCould even come with us. We could be a family.âÂ
âIâm not going fucking anywhere with you,â Ben could hear the drums. Distant, in his control, but building in time with his heart. âAnd we are not a fucking family.âÂ
âBut youâre my father,â Homelander shook his headâas if he thought Ben could forgetâand whined like a pathetic fucking child. âDonât you want to meet your grandson? Be there for the birth of our,â he gestured to Her, and Ben was going to rip his fucking hand off. âNext child? Youâd never have to miss anything again. Weâd be together.âÂ
âHomelander,â She was whispering, she was afraid, and Ben couldnât do more than press his foot into Hers. Show Her he was there. He wasnât going fucking anywhere. Slowly, her breathing became audible againâeven if she remained frozenâand Ben didnât take his eyes off Homelander. âPlease. I just want to talk.âÂ
âWe can talk at home.â Homelander took a step forward, and She flinched.Â
âNo. Please, I donât-âÂ
âWhat have they been telling you,â Homelander whirled on Annie and Hughie. âHave you been turning her against me? Poisoning her damn brain against me?âÂ
âThey havenât,â She pleaded, and that was it. Ben took a long step forward, until he was right at Her side. Homelander was too close, she was fucking breaking, and heâd stay right here until this was over. Then heâd hold Her until she smiled again, even if it took a hundred fucking years. But Homelander wasnât going to make Her weak. Nobody was allowed to make Her weak, not as long as Ben was fucking alive. âHomelander, I just want to talk-âÂ
âFine,â he turned back to Her, face tight and furious. Glancing once at Ben, now right at Her side, before continuing. âLetâs talk. Youâve been hiding. Iâve been looking for you, and youâve been hiding from me. They-â a gloved hand pointed to Annie and Hughie. âHave been hiding you from me. Itâs time to be a big girl and stop hiding. Time to come home so I donât have to keep fucking cleaning up bodies while I look for you.âÂ
She swallowed. âBodies?"Â
âNone of the workers at Tek Knightâs stupid fucking sex club would tell me where you went, so they all had to die. A bunch of fucking Firecracker supporters were demanding justice, so I had to kill them too.âÂ
âNo-âÂ
âPlease,â Homelander rolled his eyes, taking another step. âIt was for you. To protect you. They wanted to fucking draw and quarter you and I stopped them! I saved you, again.âÂ
âYou didnât save me,â She whispered, taking an unsteady step back. âYou hurt me. You-â She was shaking her head, voice growing louder. âYou hurt me. You hurt me.â She was screaming, and Ben had never heard a worse sound. It was shrill, and unsure, and fucking terrified. âYou hurt me-âÂ
âOh, grow the fuck up,â Homelander sneered. âYou were nothing. You had no one. Youâre lucky I even fucking looked at you, let alone saw something of worth! I made you everything you deserved to be, I fucking trusted you with my heart, and you just pulled it out and stomped all over it!âÂ
âNo-âÂ
Homelander raised his hand, and She fell silent. She was never fucking silent. âBut I forgive you. Iâm going to be the bigger person, and forgive you. We both made mistakes, Iâm not blameless here, and I forgive you. Weâll get through this,â Homelander lowered his hand for her to take, saying Her name. âWeâll get through this together.âÂ
âNo.â She breathed out. âYou hurt me. Iâm not going anywhere with you. Ever.âÂ
Homelander scoffed. âStop being a fucking whining child,â he said Her name again, and moved forward, She moved back, and Ben blocked Homelander in his path.
Homelander blinked, but the shock on his face barely lasted a second. âYou could come with us, Soldier Boy. You donât have to keep working with those fucking idiots,â he jerked his head to Annie and Hughie in the corner. âWorking for William Butcher. He betrayed you before, and heâd do it again. Iâd never betray you. Iâd make you fucking proud. We just have to leave together.âÂ
âI will never,â Ben spat, fist clenching at his side. âBe fucking proud of a pussy like you. A weak, spineless, pathetic fucking excuse for a man.âÂ
Something like hurt flashed across Homelanderâs face. Heâd thought Ben would agree. Heâd thought Ben would fucking hand Her over. Homelander had truly fucking believed that Ben would ever let him fucking near Her again.Â
âFine. Have it your way.â Homelander looked past Ben, and said Her name. âLetâs fucking go. Now.âÂ
She must have shaken her headâBen couldnât turn and look, he couldnât take his eyes off Homelander for a fucking secondâbecause Homelanderâs jaw ticked.Â
âNow.âÂ
âNever.â She hissed. âIâm never fucking going anywhere with you again.âÂ
âThis is your last chance to do this easy.â Homelander snapped. âWe can be civilized about this. It doesnât have to go this way.âÂ
âYou fucking heard the woman,â Ben sneered, and Homelander looked back to him. âNo.âÂ
Homelander sighed. âI didnât want to do this. I told Sage it wouldnât be necessary.âÂ
âSage?â Her voice shaking. Ben hated not touching her, he hated that Her heart still was weak in her chest, he hated all of this stupid fucking shit plan.Â
âIâm going to have to tell her she was right,â Homelander continued, frowning into the air. âSheâs such an annoying fucking bitch when sheâs right. But if youâre not going to chose the easy way, then letâs do the fucking hard way.âÂ
Annie was moving slowly from the corner, keeping Hughie behind her. âWhat the hell are you talking about.âÂ
âIn January, after we found out you,â he gestured at Her. âWere alive, Sage said weâd need a way to eliminate Soldier Boy. I told her that was dumb, that when it came time youâd come back to the right side, to me, your son, but she was a real fucking pest until I agreed to her stupid idea.â The pussy was fucking monologuing, glaring around the room with his hands on his hips and sharp, exasperated movements. âShe scheduled the meeting, said it didnât fucking matter what actually happened as long as she got what she needed. I said you wouldnât be that stupid, but you were. You told her exactly what that French asshole was using to stop you from going all boom without your leash there with you, and she locked herself in a lab for a whole month. It was unbelievably inconvenient. When she finally came out, she gave me this.â Homelander reached back somewhere, pulling out a small, seemingly empty vial. âAnd said to use it first chance. I donât want to use it, but,â he sighed, shaking his head. âIf you wonât listen to reason, I have to.âÂ
âHomelander,â Annie hissed. âWhatâs in there. What the fuck are you going to do-âÂ
âGas. Itâs fucking gas. I was getting there.â Homelander rolled his eyes at Ben. âWomen. Always so pushy.âÂ
The drums were louder. Homelander was only a half step from Ben. Holding gas. His head was pounding, hitting only a half-beat out of time with Benâs heart. Over the rush of blood in his earsâvision stark and violent and redâBen could barely hear Her speak. It was under her breath, and barely audible regardless.Â
âNo.âÂ
Homelander ignored Her, giving Ben a toothy, awful fucking smile. âWell, I guess Iâll see you in,â he paused, glancing back down at the vial. âThree days? I honestly just couldn't pay attention to Sageâs fucking lecture.âÂ
Time moved slow. Homelanderâs hand went to the vial, the drums were a fraction away from taking over but still too far, and She screamed. A high, loud, raw scream that tore through the world. It might have been a word, or Benâs name, but it didnât matter because it was Her. Screaming, fucking breaking.Â
The world broke with Her, and something exploded. A bone-rattling sound of destruction echoed through Ben, through Homelander, through everything as the room was almost blindingly lit. The vial cracked open, glass melting in Homelanderâs hand, but Ben didnât pass out. A small wisp of steam pushed into the air, Ben felt faint, and then it was gone. For a split second he could see all of Homelanderâs face, with slight wrinkles and lines and wide eyes. Afraid. Homelander was afraid. Frozen, with a parted mouth and a slack face of terror, his gaze fixated just beyond Ben.Â
At Her.Â
Homelander was blasted backwardsâfire arcing through the air and into his chestâand right through the dust-covered, paint-peeling wall. The building rumbled, the air was waving around Ben, and the whole world was electric. He didnât have to turn to know it was Her. She was burning, and the whole world was singing for Her. It was alive, the air crackling and everything illuminated for Her.Â
Ben had never seen anything like Her. All these fucking heroes pranced around like dancing fucking monkeyâs, bragging about god-like power and being chosen. Homelander called himself a god. Said nobody was like him, nobody was as powerful as he was. Moaned about how nobody was his equal, how even Ben only just matched his power. Ben could wipe out Homelanderâs powers, Homelander could knock out Ben, Ben could punch him and make him bleed and Homelander could leave a temporary cut on Benâs skin. They could keep trading blows, measuring their dicks, and stand around all fucking day to argue like pussies about who was more powerful.Â
Or they could just look at Her.Â
Because She was a fucking god.Â
Bathed in white flames tinted purple, floating off the ground, and burning. This wasnât the bomb in Benâs chest, running through her body like electricity in a wire. This wasnât heat that lived in Homelanderâs eyes, focused and hot but limited. This fire, bright and hot like a hurricane, ripping through the world and everything between it, was Her. Only Her. It wasnât nuclear, or artificial, or confined. It was wild and feral and pure fucking power. Her.Â
Ben had to fucking move.Â
âGo!â He shouted the order to Annie and Hughie, still pressed against the wall. âFucking move! Go!âÂ
Annie nodded, grabbing Hughie arm and pulling him with her to the exit. Theyâd start the car, but they wouldnât leave Her. They might leave Ben, but they wouldnât leave Her. Nobody with a heart would leave Her. Not ever, not here. Not with Homelander.Â
And Ben had to fucking get Her out. Fast.Â
Homelander was staggering to his feetâa few yards from the building in the broad daylightâand She had hurt him. Sheâd fucking marred him. Blond hair was tinted black with ash, one blue eye was milky, and his cruel face was half-melted. Twisted with scars and fucking hideous.Â
And She wasnât done.
She had landed on the ground and shrugged off her jacketâwhole body still alight as the world bent and burned around herâbefore vaulting past Ben, out into the street. He roared Her name after her, but she didnât look back. Homelander was almost fully stable, touching a hand to where Sheâd hit him, and Ben had to fucking go.
He followed Her in long, sprinting bounds, and reached them just before Her fist landed. Right on Homelanderâs burns, blasting him back another twenty fucking feet.Â
Christ, She was fucking perfect.Â
Ben reached Her, grabbing her arms and ignoring the pain of the fire against his skin. He healed fastâfaster than Homelanderâand in the adrenaline he wasnât able to be certain, but the flames felt duller than usual on his hands. Not meant to hurt him.Â
He hissed Her name, trying to pull her with him. Back to the car. âWeâve got to go, right fucking now.â
She yanked Her arm from his grip. âRyanâs not out.âÂ
âRyan?â Ben gaped at Her. âWhat the fuck-âÂ
âThe signal didnât go off. Everyoneâs still in the tower. If we leave he goes back to the tower, and weâre assfucked.âÂ
âI donât give a shit-âÂ
âBen,â She grabbed his face between Her burning hands, and Ben was goddamn sure it shouldâve hurt. But it didnât, it just felt warm. âThis is it. This is what I need to do. And Iâm fucking doing it.âÂ
He couldnât stop Her. She wasnât breaking anymore, she wasnât in danger nowânot like She had been beforeâand Ben was never going to fucking leave Her. âYou burn, I burn.âÂ
She nodded. âLetâs fucking burn.âÂ
Ben needed to tell Her. She was dropping her arms, turning away, and he needed to tell Her. He was so fucking close to knowing, to being able to recognize that-Â
Homelander blasted forward, landing only a few feet from Her and Ben. His words were low, cold. Angry. âYou fucking bitch. Weâre going to have a very long conversation later about trust-âÂ
âShut the fuck up.â Ben pulled out his gun and shot Homelander right in the fucking mouth.Â
It didnât kill himâthey werenât that luckyâbut it worked goddamn wonders in making his words die in his throat. In giving Ben a chance to punch him in the throat, making him cough the bullet out and giving Her a chance to kick him square in the chest. It was a smooth hit, not strong but wrapped in fire that seared right through Homelanderâs stupid fucking suit. Ben slammed the blunt end of his shield right into the exposed skin and revered in the sickly crunch of its contact.Â
Homelander roared as his eyes began to grow red, aimed at Her, and Benâs fist was just fucking fast enough to clock Homelanderâs jaw. Hard enough to turn his head, to make the laser cut through the air into a glass building.Â
She realized it at the same time Ben did, exchanging a simultaneous look of Fuck. Weâre outside.Â
No casualties, She narrowed her eyes at him. I back Homelander up. You blast him.Â
Ben frowned, ducking under a weak punch, thrown by Homelander at what he imagined was supposed to be Benâs face. You said not now. He didnât know why the fuck he was arguing with Her. This wasnât something at all damn worth it. But Ben still waited for Her answer, and the moment She gave the clear, he was going to fucking kill this pussy.Â
Weâre improvising, Benjamin. Her face was set, determined. Ready?Â
Ben nodded, and turning to see Homelander right in his fucking face. Up close, even as the lasers built in Homelanderâs eyes, the state of his wound was fucking disgusting.Â
âI fucking-âÂ
There was no chance to find out exactly what Homelander was fucking, because She dove at himâface wrathful, a fucking infernoâand they went flying through the air. Over the street, away from the gathered pedestrians, onto the manicured lawn of Vought Tower. People were screaming, scrambling away, and those already on the sidelines were watching through phones, flinching as Ben stalked past them. She could hold Her own, but he needed to get there. Get to Her.Â
The grass of the lawn was smoking, and Ben felt like he was walking through a goddamn swamp as he approached them. She had twisted aroundâonto Homelanderâs back with Her arms locked around his throatâand was growing brighter and brighter as his bellows turned strangled and choked. The pussy still had to fucking breathe like anyone else, but smoke was curling into his lungs as Her arms burned through his throat.Â
Good.Â
The drums were back, building and building, and light was starting to shine in Benâs chest. He had a shot. A clear fucking shot. Heâd hit Her, but sheâd be fine, and then sheâd be safe forever.Â
Any hesitationâweak and fearful for Her at the top of Benâs chestâwas killed when She looked at him.Â
Do it.Â
The drums fell into time, and Benâs vision went white. Homelanderâs roar sounded through the air, and the world became something far away as the bomb went off. Ripping through Benâs chest with a vengeance, through the air with an atomic boom.Â
When the world became clear, Homelander wasnât ash or a mortal body on the floor. He was gone. They were both gone.Â
Ben screamed Her name. It wasnât a roar, or a bellow, or a growl, or anything other than a scream. Where the fuck did She go. Why wasnât She here, with him. Ben had failed Her, he had fucking failed her, and he couldnât hear Her heart or see her beautiful face and where the goddamn fucking hell was She-
He could hear his name. Her voice, carried on the wind, was yelling his name. Ben looked up, just in time to see Her falling from the sky, a quickly dying comet, just a few feet to his left.Â
Ben caught Her, shield clattering to the ground. Heâd always fucking catch Her. And when their bodies collided, Ben could feel Her. Afraid. Every fiber and cell of Her body and mind, made of pure, unbridled fucking fear. Frozen fear, hollow and frigid in Her body.Â
When She spoke, Her voice wasnât full and furious anymore. âHe took off, took me with him. I burned his dick and he dropped me, but heâll be back-âÂ
âLetâs fucking go,â Ben didnât release Her, turning back to the Starlight Fund. If he was fast, fucking ran, they could get the fuck out now because Ben wasnât going to survive another goddamn second of there being a chance he could lose Her. Not when he was certain this was Her fear in him.Â
But She tugged at his arms, trying to get out of his hold. âRyan, we need to make sure Ryanâs out-âÂ
âNo-âÂ
âBen, please.â She squeezed his bicep, and Ben looked down at Her. Safe, unharmed in his arms. He couldnât fucking lose Her- âWe just need to keep him occupied. Iâll be fine.âÂ
âYouâre out of fire-âÂ
âItâll come back,â She didnât sound sure. âIâm fine, he didnât get me-âÂ
âThat was too fucking close-âÂ
âBen,â She was pleading, tugging at his shirt. âWe have to. You promised-âÂ
He snapped Her name. âYouâre in danger-âÂ
âIâll go. Iâll go find them in the tower, and you keep Homelander here. Please. We donât have time to argue-âÂ
He wanted to tell Her no. Ben wanted to tell her thatâs fucking insane, stay here, or donât goddamn leave, donât fucking go where I canât follow you. But she was so fucking stubborn. It was one of the infinite things he loved about Her, but fuck it was pissing him off. She wouldnât leaveâbe useless as Sheâd call itâand Ben couldnât let Her fight Homelander. Not when he could feel her painful fear, and there wasnât even smoke in the air. So he grunted, lowering Her onto the sidewalk.Â
âThank you,â She whispered, and that deep thing in Her eyes was back. It was in Ben, now, and it was peaceful and eternal in his brain. It was so strong, and wrapped around Benâs every sense, making the world clear and everything alive.Â
âWait,â Ben grabbed Her arm, stopping her just a second. âTake this.â
She blinked at Benâs gun, shoved into Her hand, before looking back to him with a nod. âIâll see you soon.âÂ
âStay safe.â He muttered, and She gave him a small smile.Â
âI always do, Ben.âÂ
The thing he couldnât understand inside of Her was bigger than the world. A world that, for a second, was just them. Her, fucking perfect, and Ben. With Her. When She started to walk away, into the tower, the whole world was going with Her.Â
She looked back at him once, and Ben realized that the Thing had said it. Somewhere, when She had been in his arms, the Thing had found words and he couldnât fucking remember what they were. He had to focus, to grab them back to him so he yell them after Her, so she could hear-Â
Homelander dropped with a crack on the pavement, and the Thingâs moment of clarity was gone.
Now Ben had a fucking job to do.Â
He was brutal. This wasnât the fucking time to pull punches, to feel anything outside of hatred or a thirst for blood. Ben had to keep Homelander here, and he would. He would beat him fucking bloody until he was just a pathetic, whimpering fucking pile of bones and skin. People were filming, and heâd let them. Everyone should see Ben paint Homelanderâs brain across the street with his shieldâback in his handâand there should be evidence of Ben peeling Homelander's burnt face off his skull. Everyone should witness how fucking weak Homelander really was, how fucking useless and desperate and evil. Homelander tried to jab at himâtried to mock him or ask where Sheâd goneâbut all of Benâs already thin patience was gone. He wanted Homelander to hurt, hurt the way Ben had felt Her hurt. He couldnât take Her pain and put it into Homelander, so bashing his head open was the second best option.Â
And Ben was winning. Homelander landed a few weak blows and Ben got scorched with one or two lasers he wasnât able to dodge, but Ben was fucking winning. Heâd have to thank Her, later, for how thoroughly sheâd ruined Homelanderâs face. Ben was pretty sure the fucker wasâat least temporarilyâblind in one eye. He was slower to block, turning his head more than he should, and it gave Ben a few extra hits right into his ugly fucking face. Homelander kept trying to grab something, scramble for a gun or some shit, but it wouldnât matter. Ben was fucking winning. Heâd knock the pussy unconscious and go home. Maybe even fucking kill him-Â
Homelanderâs mauled face shot up, and he was gone. Fucking blasting into the sky, fleeing like a goddamn coward, and Ben let him. He couldâve grabbed Homelanderâs cape, pulled him back down, but the job was done. People were scattering away with screams at the remaining rumbles of an explosion Ben could only assume was the French Prickâs signal echoed through the city. Heâd heard it go off, only a minute ago, but hadnât fucking cared. Not when he could just keep hurting Homelander. And now Ben was left in the crowded street with a bunch of fucking idiots filming him. Flinching and scrambling away when he turned back to the Fund as part of his brain still looked for Her. In the crowd, somewhere off to the side, or in the remains of the Starlight Fund. He was searching for Her smile, her sharp eyes, just some sign she was there.Â
Ben saw Her sunglasses. That was the only evidence that She had been here. There was smoldering wreckage and burnt grass, small fires clustered around the ruins and on the street, but this was evidence of Her. Of the perfect woman who laughed with him and never fucking faltered.Â
They were broken. Tinted blue glass on the floor and bent frames. She was going to be really fucking pissed about that. For reasons Ben didnât understand, She loved those stupid sunglasses.Â
Heâd buy Her new ones. Heâd make sure Mallory finally started paying them, and Ben would buy her a million fucking off-brand Soldier Boy sunglasses.Â
Annie and Hughie were in the car. Nobody had followed Ben into the allyâone very stupid kid had tried, but scrambled away at Benâs glareâso Ben dropped into the backseat of the car. Alone.Â
Hughie looked at him in the rearview mirror. âUh, where-âÂ
âShe went after Butcher.â Ben snapped. âSheâll meet us there. Fucking go.âÂ
Annie and Hughie exchanged looks, and Annie pulled out her phone. Swiping through it, glancing up around Ben nervously until she found whatever the fuck she was looking for.Â
âButcher says theyâre out with Ryan, and everyoneâs heading back.â She showed the screen to Hughie, and he nodded. âWe should go.âÂ
âThatâs what I fucking said.â Ben muttered, and tried not to look at the place beside him. Where Sheâd usually be, rolling Her eyes or calling him a grump.Â
The car ride back was long. Fucking longer than the car ride there. Time was stretching, fucking crawling so slow without Her there. Ben had been away from Her for less than a damn hour, and he missed Her. He missed Her so fucking much. A year ago, heâd have called himself a pussy. Heâd have scoffed, sneered that he was fucking Soldier Boy. He shouldnât miss anyone. People should miss him, and be thankful he ever looked at them in the first place. But Ben a year ago hadnât met Her. He didnât get it. That She was beautiful, and brilliant, and had the smartest fucking mouth heâd ever heard. That She felt like heaven and hell and Ben didnât want to exist without Her. If being a pussy for this one perfect woman was the price Ben had to pay to have Her, heâd pay it. Heâd pay anything.Â
She wasnât answering Benâs texts. Heâd messaged Her, asked her if everyone was in one piece or giving her shit for going off book, and She hadnât answered. But that didnât mean a fucking thing, because She kept her phone in Her jacket, which was currently smoldering ash in the remains of the Starlight Fund. Heâd buy Her a new phone as well. And fucking punch Mallory in her wrinkled, sour face if they got any shit about Her destroying another phone.Â
Annie and Hughie werenât trying to talk to him. At some point Annie had put on Billy Joel, and Ben let her. He hadnât hated his music, in the 80s, and knew that She just liked music. Any music. So it made it a little easier to pretend She was here. To pretend something wasnât growing sick inside of Ben.Â
Even as it started to rot. As everything started to feel wrong.Â
Ben didnât wait for the car to fully stop before opening the door. He didnât even bother to grab his shield. Nobody else could pick it up anyway. Hughie gave a weak protest as he stepped out, but Ben saw Annie shake her head in his periphery and Hughieâs mouth snapped shut. It was a smart fucking choice.Â
Sheâd had the keycard. The door was locked and She had taken the keycard. So Ben had to waitâglowering at the parked Pussy Mobile a few spots down from Butcherâs carâfor Annie and Hughie to let him in. Stand behind them stiffly in the elevator with his arms crossed, and just fucking wait.Â
âButcher said weâd debrief in the dining hall,â Hughie mumbled. âI don't think he's happy with us. With the whole, uh, fighting Homelander thing.â
Butcher could fucking suck Benâs dick.Â
The doors opened, and Ben shoved his way out of the elevator, not waiting for Hughie or Annie to keep up. His steps were long, stomping, and fastâalmost a full runâbut there was no fucking time. He needed to see Her. He needed to see Her right fucking now-Â
He shoved the doors open, marched into the dining hall, and froze.Â
Butcher and the Kid were at the table, MM and Mallory sitting across from them, their backs to Ben. Kimiko and the French Prick were at the other end of the table, in a silent conversation. There were four empty seats between them and the larger group. Two for Annie and Hughie. Two for Ben and Her.Â
But She wasnât fucking there.Â
And Ben couldnât hear Her heart.Â
âWhere is she,â Ben growled, and Butcher looked up at him.Â
âGood work to you too, you dumb fucking cunt-âÂ
âShut the fuck up,â Ben hissed. There wasnât fucking time for this. âWhere the fuck is she.âÂ
MM turned, frowning at Ben. âWho the hell-âÂ
Ben roared Her name as Hughie and Annie pushed into the room, their hearts faltering behind him. Seeing what Ben saw. âWhere the goddamn fucking hell is she!âÂ
Mallory was looking at him now, lips in a thin line, words clipped. âShe was supposed to be with you-â
âI fucking know that!â Benâs voice might be shaking the building. âShe went inside the Tower, to find you fucking pussies. Where the hell is she?âÂ
âWe,â MM blinked at him. âWe havenât seen her. She was supposed to be with you.âÂ
âOh, shit.â Hughie whispered, and the room fell silent.Â
The world was fucking ending. This was the judgement day, or apocalypse, or end of days or fucking something, because She was gone. She was gone. Sheâd disappeared into the fucking Tower, and she was in danger. Ben had let Her go into the tower, Ben had fucking failed Her. He shouldâve gone with Her, he shouldâve kept Her there and trusted her to fight, he should never have let Her go alone. Sheâd told him not to leave her alone, Ben had promised to keep Her safe, and now She was fucking gone. Heâd failed. And nothing fucking mattered expect getting Her back.Â
Ben turned roughly around to Hughie, extending an arm. âGive me the fucking keys.â
Hughie blinked at him. âUh, why?âÂ
âTo drive the damn car.â Ben snapped. He didnât have the goddamn time for this shit. She was in fucking danger. âIâm going to get her. Fucking keys. Now.âÂ
Hughie was fumbling in his pocketâapparently not a complete fucking dumbassâbut froze at Malloryâs cold words. âYouâre going to stay here, Soldier Boy, until you receive further orders.âÂ
Ben didnât bother to turn around. âShove it up your ass, you fucking bitch. Keys.âÂ
âWe donât know where She is,â Annie said carefully. âShe couldâve left the tower, could be coming back here-âÂ
âOr she could be in fucking danger.â Benâs voice was rising to a shout. âGive me the fucking keys-âÂ
âLad, if you give Soldier Boy my fuckin keys, Iâll shoot you.âÂ
Ben whirled to Butcher. âShut the fuck up, you useless fucking pussy. Does fucking nobody,â he scowled around the room. âGive fuck about her but me? Do none of you care that you just fucking abandoned her?âÂ
You abandoned Her. It echoed in his brain, twisting around his throat. You failed Her. You left Her.Â
âOf course we care,â MM snapped. âBut I have to be with Butcher on this. She could be anywhere-âÂ
âSo fucking find her!â Ben bellowed. How could none of them fucking get it, fucking understand that She was lost, gone, alone, afraid. In fucking danger. âIf you care, get off your asses and fucking find her!âÂ
âFrenchie,â Butcher stood, glaring at Ben. âTake Ryan to his room.âÂ
Ben looked away from Butcher just long enough to see the Kid watching him with wide, fearful eyes as the French Prick herded him past Ben, out the door. He glanced at Kimikoâstill sat at the end of the tableâand she was frowning at him. Signing something Ben didnât fucking understand. Sheâd have understood.Â
He looked back to Butcher, and spoke through gritted teeth. âIâm finding her. Good luck trying to fucking stop me.âÂ
âWe will bloody find her,â Butcher snapped. âBut we ainât going to do it in a day. Sheâs probably fuckin fine-âÂ
âShe was in the fucking Tower. Are you that fucking stupid-âÂ
âI ainât stupid. Iâm a realist.â Butcher held Benâs murderous glare. âLike she is. Weâll find her, now sit the fuck down.âÂ
âDonât pretend like you fucking know her. Like youâre fucking buddies and you know what sheâd want-â Kimiko was waving at Ben, trying to get his attention as he roared, and he shot her a withering glower. âWhat fuck is wrong with you?âÂ
She pointed to her phone, and reached it out for Ben to take. He snatched it from her handsâslightly thrown by the seemingly genuine sympathy and worry across her faceâand looked at the screen.Â
BREAKING NEWS: Vought Announces that the Homelanderâs girlfriend has been recovered from Soldier Boyâs captivity.
Heâd failed Her. In the worst possibly way, Ben had compelety fucking failed Her.Â
The glass cracked in Benâs grip, and he chucked the phone at Butcher. âIs that fucking enough to get you to move your pathetic fucking pussy asses, and fucking save her?âÂ
MM leaned over Butcherâs shoulder, reading the screen. âFuck.âÂ
âWhatâs-âÂ
Hughieâs confused words were cut off as Annie shuffled behind Ben, âIâll check-â Ben heard her swallow. âOh, shit.âÂ
âJesus,â Hughie whispered, and Benâs skin crawled. Why the fuck were they just standing here. Why werenât they moving. Fucking saving Her.Â
Butcher only stared at the screen with a scowl, and Mallory stood to read the headline as well.Â
âButcher,â she said slowly. âThis is-âÂ
âChanges nothing.â Butcher tossed the phone back to Kimiko. âWe keep on the fuckin track.âÂ
Benâs whole world froze with wrath. Locking him in place. Spinning him around, stabbing into his chest, making the world painful.Â
âAre you fucking insane?â Annie shouted from behind Ben. âSheâs-âÂ
âNothing.â Butcher snapped. âWeâll get her back when Homelanderâs in the bloody ground.âÂ
âButcher, even for you-âÂ
âThis ainât about me.â Butcher hissed over MM. âItâs about her.âÂ
âSheâs not going to be our man on the inside, you psychopath!â Annie shouted. âShe a fucking victim-âÂ
âIf we go now, Starlight, the bloody hell you think will happen?â Butcher leered at Annie, over Ben. Still unmoving, unable to move as the drums echoed in his head. âWeâll storm the fuckin castle and Homelander will just hand her over?âÂ
âWe could,â Hughie protested, voice weak. âI mean, thatâs kind of how we just got Ryan-âÂ
âHomelander ainât stupid, heâs not fallin for that trick two times in a row.â Butcher turned back to Ben. âIf youâre that much of a whipped fucking idiot, Gov, we can go right now. Iâll even bloody drop you off. But theyâll see us comin, and Homelander will blast her far, far away. You wouldnât ever even fuckin see her again.âÂ
âButcher-âÂ
âLet the man answer Grace.â Butcher held Benâs gaze. âWe ainât going to stop him if he leaves, or goes after her. Itâll be her bloody funeral. Not ours.âÂ
He could. Ben could leave right fucking now, and find her, and then theyâd leave together. Heâd keep Her safe forever, do fucking anything to make her forgive him for failing her.
But a voice that sounded like Hers echoed through his brain.Â
Donât be a dumbass, Benjamin. Butcherâs right, which is annoying because now heâs going to be a cunt about it. But heâs right.Â
Youâll find me. Youâll always find me, I trust you.Â
Iâll see you soon.Â
Butcher read Benâs answer on his face, and nodded. âRight choice, Gov.â Something passed over Butcherâs feature, something a lot more human than Ben had ever seen. Almost understanding, almost pained. âSheâs a clever lady. Sheâll get through this.âÂ
Sheâll get back to you.Â
And Ben would be here. Heâd get Her back, and be here to hold her and burn with her when she returned to him.Â
Heâd kill Homelander, and never fail Her again.Â
ââââââ
Something is wrong.Â
Something is very, very wrong.Â
Your eyes are closed, but nothing around you is warm. Everything is freezing, the blankets are silk instead of cotton, thereâs a strange smell of factory-made coconut in the air, and youâre alone. Ben isnât here.Â
Thatâs whatâs wrong.Â
Ben isnât here.Â
Youâre suddenly afraid to open your eyes. You donât remember what happened, you donât know where you are, and Ben isnât here. Your mind is moving slower than you need it to, trying to pull back bits and pieces to figure out what happened. Rolling a loop of where are you, why isn't Ben here.
Why does everything feel so wrong.Â
You ran into the Tower. You know that much, Ben had given you his gun and youâd ran into the Tower before Homelander could return. Youâd almost said it, heâd looked at you like you were his whole world and you almost let yourself say Ben. Ben, I love you. But that had felt final. You didnât want final, you wanted Ben. So youâd just left.Â
Youâd told Ben youâd find Butcher. Youâd meant to find Butcher. You swear, now, in this strange cold place, that youâd really meant to just find Butcher. But you hadnât. The blueprints of Vought tower had flashed in your head, along with a small, persistent voice asking you Where was Sage? In all of this, with you and Ben destroying the front lawn, where was Sage?Â
There was a security room on the first floor. Actually, there were two security rooms on the first floor. One was labeled such, with faded notes about electrical wiring scratched onto the copy Mallory had shown everyone. The other was identical, with no notes but the same design, labeled office 2.Â
You hadnât been able to find an office 1. Only an office 2.Â
So youâd headed there first.Â
The door was locked, and your fire wasnât coming. Homelander had taken you into the sky, higher and higher and away with hands gripping your arm around him, and everything had frozen. It wasnât the chill of the high wind, it was your blood, your skin, your head. Everything became cold and the fire had started to flicker, all your control over it waning. Youâd told Ben youâd hit Homelanderâs dick, but heâd just dropped you. Heâd made a surprised sound from his throat youâd never heard, and his arms had grown slack around you. Youâd pushed off of him and fallen, any fire left dying as youâd dropped through the air. And now it was asleep. Not gone. Still under your skin, still running through your body in the way youâd come to trust, but dormant. Unwilling to come out, even when youâd desperately needed it.Â
So youâd shot the handle off.Â
You remember that clearly. Youâd looked around the hallway, empty as people either hid from Ben and Homelander or went to watch them, thought fuck it, and shot Benâs gun.Â
The door had swung open, and Sage had been right where you expected her.Â
She hadnât turned from the monitors, and said your name in a bored tone. âYouâre early.âÂ
âIâm early,â youâd repeated, raising the gun to a mediocre aim at Sageâs head. You remember wondering if Ben would cum on the spot if you asked him to teach you how to properly use a gun. âThereâs no possible way you planned this.âÂ
Sage had shrugged. âIt was more of an outline. A hypothetical. One of many. I honestly didnât think youâd go with this option, but here we are.â
âWhich one did you think weâd go with?â Youâd been unable to help yourself from asking. Youâd had to know just how predictable your plans were, so you could adjust. Be more erratic. Maybe youâd put Butcher in a dress, really have fun with it.Â
Sheâd turned, spun in her chair to look at you with a small, cold smile. âMy money was on you sacrificing yourself, trading yourself in. Didnât anticipate Soldier Boy stopping you, but Iâve adapted. And now weâre here.âÂ
âWhat the fuck are you talking about.â Your hands had been shaking, and youâd looked behind Sage at the monitors. You could see Ben and Homelander on the lawn, andârunning through a polished hallwayâyour team. With Ryan Butcher, failing to shoot at a single camera. You'd yell at Butcher about that later, when this was done. This was almost done.
âIn January, when we met for the first time, you confused me.â Sage had tilted her head at you. âThatâs impressive. Nobody confuses me. Once Iâd found out who exactly you were, Homelander selectively filling in pieces as I figured out the rest myself, I still didnât fully understand. Once again, impressive.âÂ
âOh, gee, thanks.â Youâd kept your eyes on Sage, but clocked every movement on the monitors. So close. âYou really know how to make a girl blush.âÂ
âIâm serious. I couldnât figure you out. You shouldâve run when you got out. Youâre a smart woman, you shouldâve run. But you didnât, which displays remarkable stupidity. Youâd aligned with William Butcher, but seemed to hold qualms with his methods. And your deal with Soldier Boy, the cherry on top. In January you were,â Sheâd paused, frowned at you before continuing. âStrange. Not friends, not quite, but not simply hateful. Certainly not apathetic. Enough for me to worry about Soldier Boy truly being a problem. And then, by the end of the same month, he seemed to truly care for you. If anything, you managed to baffle me more.âÂ
âIf you say impressive again,â youâd snapped at her. âIâll fucking shot you.âÂ
âAnd youâre much more violent than I anticipated. Yet another thing that threw me, because all signs would point to you being a pacifist. But I figured it out. I found the thing Iâd been missing. The club-â She sighed at your shocked expression. âPlease donât get caught on that. I was separated from Vought for over a decade, I am well aware of the Renegade Room. I havenât told Homelander about it, I wonât, but Iâm aware. Of the club, and your plan with Butcher. That helped me figure it out. You care. About humans, about everyone. No matter how they treat you, how they collectively wrong you and fail you, you care.âÂ
Youâd shrugged. âKant said never to treat people as means to an end.âÂ
âKant also said man must be disciplined.â Sage had shot back. âBut youâre not interested in that. Youâre forgiving. You tried to discipline Soldier Boy, but then you let him stop you. I didnât think anything would stop you. Iâm still trying to piece that part together fully, but I know how to adapt to an empty picture. I know, for all your care, something with Soldier Boy is different. And you can stop looking at the monitors.âÂ
Youâd blinked at her. âThe monitors-âÂ
âI know Butcher has Homelanderâs son. Iâve sent people to collect them. Right now this is about you. You, Homelander, and Soldier Boy. See,â sheâd looked at the monitors with narrowed eyes. âSometimes I outdo even myself. When I developed the gas for Soldier Boy, I didnât think it would be this important. But, fuck, those months in the lab around about to pay off. Because-âÂ
Hindsight coming to you now, you probably shouldâve let Sage finish her speech. Figured out how this was going to pay off for her, and how it probably wasnât in your favor. But you remember hearing people to collect them and gas for Soldier Boy and a ringing sound starting in your ears. So youâd shot Sage in the face.Â
This part was harder to remember. This part felt painful.Â
You think youâd sat in the chair. Pushed Sageâs body to the floor and sat. Or maybe youâd just stood at her side. Or behind the chair.Â
No matter what, youâd looked at the monitors. Youâd seen Noir and The Deep. Not being distracted by A-Train, but running through a hall that looked far too similar to the one your team was in. Youâd stopped them. Somehow youâd stopped them because you remember the relief when they turned around. It might have been a phone call, maybe there was a walkie talkie, but it didnât matter because youâd stopped them. And Ryan had gotten out.Â
Then youâd seen Ben and Homelander, still fighting. Ben throwing steady, powerful punches and slamming his shield into Homelanderâs body. Then youâd see Homelander reach for something.Â
The gas.Â
Homelander had been reaching for more gas. And Ben hadnât been seeing it.Â
Youâd screamed. Youâd grabbed Sageâs phone, or walkie talkie, or just screamed louder. Loud enough to be heard.Â
You were in the Vought building. Alone. Homelander could come find you.Â
And then Sage had stood up, and youâd been confused. Youâd definitely just shot her.Â
Sheâd pulled out a vial.Â
And now you were here.Â
In Vought Tower. Or a warehouse. Or a lab. Or underground.
Cold.Â
Alone.Â
You arenât chained to anything. Your mouth has a gag around it, so you canât speak, but you can move. Youâre dressed. No shoes, but a shirt, loose pants. Underwear. You canât hear anyone, only the hum of a fan. A lot of fans. Itâs really, really cold.Â
If Sage sent you here, she should know better. She should know cold doesn't matter. Your fire came from you, not the air around you. You could, if you tried, burn all of the arctic circle while standing at the north pole. But it was still so cold.Â
And bright. When you peel your eyes open, blinking and wiping at themâyour hands are cuffed and wrapped in big red mittens, so you canât really accomplish much with themâthe room is almost blinding. It might be because of how long you were out, how your head was pounding and aching when youâd woken, but it was so bright.Â
You donât recognize the room. Your eyes adjust quickly, the pounding is already gone and your exhaustion is leaving fast, but you canât figure out where you are. It wasnât the white room, or a new lab, but an apartment. A truly awfully decorated apartment, where everything was glossy marble and silk and sleek furniture that didnât look usable in any way. The bed youâre on is low, the frame made of iron and the mattress feeling like itâs sinking into the floor. Itâs not bright anymore, not as the effects of Sageâs gasâwhat you were assuming was Sageâs gasâwere dissipating by the second. Itâs low lit, too low lit. Everything is cast in a yellow glow, and the lamps and ceiling lights feel like theyâre more for pure decoration than actual practical use. Another part of this hideous, unnerving picture. Thereâs a lot of red. A lot of white. A lot of blue.
Your heart drops. Deep into your stomach where it churns around with bile and fear. You know where you are. You know exactly where you are. Everything is too clean, too modern, and too impractical. Like itâs been designed to be gaudy, high-brow, and ostentatious. Thereâs a white marble statue of a bald eagle, and a painting of George Washington on the Delaware that you hope isnât an original.Â
But it could be. Because this is Homelanderâs room.Â
You need to run. Your hands are confined and your fire is asleep, but your feet arenât chained. So you can run. Or jump out a window. Homelanderâs room is on 99âyou remember from the blueprints: floor 99, south facing quadrant, next to Maeveâs old room and Noirsâ current oneâbut youâd survive the fall. Youâd survive anything. But you have to go. You have to push through the sick and crippling feeling thatâs growing like mold in your body, through the sheer cold in your blood thatâs trying to root you in place, and run.Â
Rolling off the bed is easy. Getting your legs to stop shaking is harder, and taking steps without collapsing is near impossible. But you have to run. You can break when youâre home, when youâre safe and Homelander canât find you again.Â
You can fucking do this. You steady your body, and take a long breath. Youâre strong. Youâve escaped him once before. And done a lot of other, crazier shit. At this point itâs just another Tuesday.Â
Itâs a Friday. A small voiceâbored and petulantâreminds you. And you were in a lab upstate. This is Vought Tower. Youâve never escaped Vought Tower. Â
Shut the fuck up. This voice isnât yours. Itâs deep, and always a little gruff, even as it encourages you. Youâre strong, Sunshine. Youâre a spiteful, brilliant, angry pain in the ass. You can fucking do this.Â
Youâre strong. You can fucking do this.Â
Youâre going to jump out the window.Â
Getting out of the room is simple but difficult, and getting down the stairs is fast. You fall, tumbling down the steps and landing on the floor with a crunch, but the adrenaline makes it painless and whatever broke is already healed. You half-crawl, half stumble to the windows. Wide, floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the New York skyline. You canât really see the street below you.Â
This is going to really fucking hurt.Â
Two steps back. Actually, four steps back. Enough to get a running start. Breathe in, out. Youâll be fine. And if it kills you, it kills you.Â
Anything would be better than this.Â
Youâve taken three steps when something grabs the back of your shirt, halting you. You scream into the gag, and a red gloved hand covers your mouth.Â
âItâs just me,â Homelander hisses in your ear, and you stop fighting. Your whole body shuts down into the cold, and you canât scream, or sob, or do anything but let Homelander drag you back and throw you onto the long, stiff couch. Â
You canât look at him. Looking at him makes this real.Â
He notices, and jerks your chin to force your eyes to meet his. Colder than the room, full of malice and something that might be his version of hurt. Blue. You fucking hate blue.Â
âYou werenât going to try and jump?â Homelanderâs voice sounds genuinely disbelieving. âI mean,â he laughs your name, and you want to throw up. âEven for you thatâs drastic.âÂ
He doesnât know you. He doesnât know whatâs drastic for you and whatâs not. But you canât even glare at him, because all your energy is starting to fade, weighing you down like stones filling up your lungs.Â
Homelander sighs. âI mean, youâve already hurt my feelings enough for today.â His grip on your face might crack bone. âStealing my son,â he gestures to his face, still bubbling with burn scars. âDoing fucking this to me. I mean, what did they do to you? To make you do this to me?âÂ
He sounds like heâs going to cry. You donât care.
âWell,â he stands up, releasing your face and frowning down at you with his hands on his hips. âIt doesnât matter now. Weâll fix it. Itâs fine your little plan worked, because it brought you back to me. And weâll get Ryan back, together, once youâre less,â he sighs, waving a hand. âFucking broken. This time will be different, I wonât keep you two apart. That was wrong, and Iâm sorry.â
You just look at him, and his face twists into a sneer.Â
âI said Iâm sorry. Itâs your turn.âÂ
You have a fucking gag over your mouth. And, even with the fear making everything too loud and bright and blurry, youâd never apologize to Homelander. Heâll have to kill you first.Â
His glower fades in a second when he remembers the gag. âOh, well, Iâm going to pretend you apologized, because I canât really take your gag off. Not while youâre still,â he spins a finger around near his head with a whistle. âCuckoo. You get it, itâs just a precaution. I mean,â he laughs. âWe canât have you doing your little reality warping trick when youâre still loosing your fucking mind!âÂ
Itâs not reality warping. Itâs sensory manipulation. And for some reason that starts to set steel in your body. Youâre not losing your mind. Youâre not unstable or drastic. Itâs fucking sensory manipulation, and your plan worked. Homelander had said Ryan was gone, and youâd done thatâruined Homelanderâs picture perfect, all-American faceâbecause you hated him. The fear wasnât leaving, but it wasnât growing anymore. And you could glare at Homelander. Let all your hatred, your hatred, not anyone elseâs but yours, show across your face.Â
âOh, donât give me that look!â Homelander huffs with an eye roll. âItâs temporary. Just until I can trust you again! Weâre going to do this right this time, weâre going to do us right this time, and once weâve rebuilt our trust I wonât have to take these kind of precautions. Theyâre fucking annoying for me, too. This isnât just about you.âÂ
You just glare.Â
âI mean, you canât be that mad. Youâd do the same thing, if you were in my shoes.â Homelander leans over you, studying your face. âIâm not letting you go this time. Everyoneâs going to know you fucking belong to me. I mean, weâre made for each other.â He laughs again, and itâs horrible. Itâs joyless and mocking and scraping around your insides painfully. âI mean, you were a good option for me before the V. Smart, pretty, good genetics, more compliant than Becca Butcher, less annoying and weird than Stormfront. Youâd never be as mean to me as they were. For Christâs sake, Stormfront killed herself on my fucking birthday! Did I tell you that? How fucking mean!âÂ
Heâd told you that. Homelander had visited you that day, and asked you if youâd ever do that him. Youâd said you would, because you had to and part of you had hoped heâd just leave. He hadnât.Â
âBut youâd never do that to me. And after the V?â He grins at you, and it makes the scars look uglier. âYouâre almost as strong as me! All those fucking nerds said one shot was going to kill you, but you survived four!â He leans over you, making you crane your neck with a rough hand. âDid I ever tell you that? One V shot shouldâve killed you, and you definitely shouldnât have lived through two. One of those scientists kept trying to tell me that you were growing more powerful and unstable each time, that we should fucking quit while weâre ahead, but I believed in you. And now look at you. My equal.â He shrugs. âOr at least fucking close to it. Closer than Maeve, closer than Stormfront, closer than anyone. Which is why I forgive you, and now Iâm going to do this right.âÂ
He keeps saying that. Keeps saying heâs going to do this right. You donât know what that means.Â
âSage already announced youâve come home. I wouldâve done it, but,â he gestures to his face, and some sort of twisted satisfaction runs through you. âI could just wait it out, but youâre up before we thought youâd be, so you can fix it.â He grabs one of your hands and starts to undo the cuff, but pauses. âIf you need an incentive to behave, let me just remind you that you wonât make it out the door. Youâre strong, but Iâm fucking stronger. You can run, but Iâll knock you down. Youâre staying with me. All the fucking worms who tried to keep you away from me wonât be able to this time. Butcher can try and come get you, but Iâll just kill him and his whole merry band of idiots. They send Soldier Boy, and weâll knock him out. Sage has wired the whole building for it, just in case. You donât have to worry about that, but you should know. Trust.â Homelander pulls off the wrapping on one hand, raising to his face. âYouâre never fucking getting away from me again. Now fix what you did.âÂ
The fire is back. Itâs woken upânot at full power but more than enoughâcoursing through your whole body as Homelander words rattled around your head. Theyâll knock Ben out. Theyâll kill your team.Â
You could run. Homelanderâs moving your hand against his skin, and you could burn him and run.Â
But you touch him, your skin on his, and suddenly youâre afraid.Â
Itâs not your fear. Your fear is freezing, made of panic and memories. This fear is foreign, hostile in your body, made of something vile and strange. This fear is buried deep, deep down, and strong. This fear is parasitic. This is Homelanderâs fear.Â
Homelanderâs afraid.Â
Of you.Â
And in a split second, you make a choice.Â
You had a plan for this. In the back of your head, youâd buried a plan. Youâd never wanted to use it, youâd never told anyone you had it, youâd even pretended it wasnât there so you could sleep at night.Â
You could run. You could leave and go back to Ben and warn him that they had more gas, warn Butcher that Sage was planning something, because you were certain she was. But you didnât know what.Â
And you had a plan.Â
Ben was going to kill you. You were going to kill you. As Homelanderâs face healed under your hands and your own face grew raw and painful, you hated yourself. You wanted to leave. You wanted to go home, back to Ben, and just leave. But the fire was settling quietly back into your body, silent and cold once more as your choice became set.Â
Homelander was right. This wasnât about you. This was about the world, and making it safe. This was about trusting that Butcher wouldnât let Ben come find you, as much as you wanted him to. Every part of your heart wanted Ben to burst through the door, pick you up, and take you away. Anywhere that wasnât here, and youâd tell him you loved him and he wouldnât leave. But youâd promised to keep him awake, and if he came to save you heâd go under. He wasnât going under. And, as much of a prick as Butcher was, heâd know to keep Ben away. And youâd get back to Ben. Soon. But right now this wasnât about you.Â
Here were the cards youâd been dealt. Here was your shot at the devil.Â
You werenât going to miss.
End Note: I know yâall hate me now, but please let me cook. I swear I'm not a sadist and this is going somewhere. Remember the agreement we made that you didnât know about; you GOTTA trust.Â
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The Birthday - An Interlude - Halloween
"Mommy says when you get scared, you forget your potty training," a soft feminine voice whispered in my ear.
"Mommy says Halloween makes you a scaredy cat, ready to jump at the tiniest spooky or scary thing," the voice continued.
I moaned in my half-asleep state, wondering what was going on, and beginning to feel a deep anxiety form in the pit of my stomach.
"Mommy says that she is the only one who can console you when you get scared."
At the third strange command, I opened my eyes and the reality of what was happening hit me. I was greeted by my wife's grinning face.
"Mommy, please, no!" I said exasperated as Melody gave me a soft, motherly kiss to my forehead.
"Good morning, baby. Happy Halloween!" is all she said as she ignored my futile protest.
It had been nearly six months since the fateful weekend where my wife had discovered my AB/DL kink and treated me to a birthday weekend of both my dreams and nightmares.
Since that weekend, very little had actually changed in my life. Melody had lifted most of the hypnotic triggers she had implanted in me (although I was still forced to refer to her as Mommy, exclusively). She almost never used her 'Mommy says' trigger against me, only reminding me of it if I got "too big for my britches" as she liked to put it.
The only major change is that my little hobby as an AB/DL smut author had become a little more complicated. Melody still allowed me to write my 'little stories' as she liked to put it, but I was no longer the final arbiter of what got posted.
Mommy made me show her each and every story I wrote, and she decided whether it was good enough and 'appropriate' enough to get posted. She also made me make a post apologizing for the treatment of the female characters in my story and explain her newly assumed role of Mommy-editor-in-chief.
My reputation as a big and a dom took a drastic hit. But, over the course of a few months, things settled back down and we settled into comfortable dynamic and rhythm.
That was, until I woke up to my wife's new commands this morning.
"Mommy, please, what did I do? I've been a good boy! You can't do this to me!"
I hated how whiney and small I sounded pleading with my wife like this, but I had long since had my pride beaten out of me.
"Halloween is my favorite holiday! If I can't control myself when I'm scared, if I get scared easily, if I need you to calm me down, I'll⌠I'll⌠I'llâŚ"
I couldn't finish my sentence as I realized that, in the early morning hour, the room was still dark. I noticed shadows dancing around the corners of the room and suddenly, a pang of terror, raced through me.
I felt my sheets grow warm and wet beneath me as I let out a panicked cry.
"Mommy!"
I dove for my wife's arms, horrified and desperate for her, the only person I could see as my protector, to help me.
She laughed softly as she pulled me into her arms, and I felt my rational mind retake control.
"Aw, is my little baby afraid of the dark? And," I feel her pat my wet butt, "did you have a little accident! Let Mommy help make it all better."
I whined as she got out of bed and turned on the light, subconsciously rebelling against the lose of the comfort being held by her provided.
As the light turned on, a feeling of relief washed over me as the phantoms in the corners of the room dematerialized. At the same time, I blushed as the light revealed the shameful puddle I had just made in the bed.
"Mommy, please, Halloween is my favorite, you can't make me, force me, let me⌠I can't be this," I pleaded as Melody walked over to inspect the damage to our bed.
She reached over and brushed her fingers lightly on my cheek as she responded to my pleas.
"Oh, my precious little pants-piddler, you and I both know that Mommy can and will make you be whatever I want," She bent over, making eye contact with me as she showed off her ample cleavage, "And today, I want you to be Mommy's perfect little scaredy-cat toddler."
I groaned, knowing there was absolutely nothing I could do to resist Melody's power over me.
"Ok, Mommy," I responded, defeated.
"Perfect, now, let's get you diapered up before some little ghoul or goblin scares you again, and you make another mess."
I just sighed and laid on my back as I waited for Melody to diaper me so the worst Halloween of my life could begin in earnest.
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