#it's strange to think that a social network was once so full and so up-to-date

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man, I really miss tumblr from 2015, could we go back?

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         howdy hey , pardnerrrs :> i’m rox ( she / her ) ‘n i’ll be playing yr residential sullen broodin’ boy , nico . i didn’t have the time to write out a whole new intro , given that i have back to back classes again today :-’( , so please forgive me for recycling his old intro akawodkgrsd ; . that being said , i did tweak around some tingz and i updated his wcs for him , so if yr down to clown around just hmu on my discord :   𝔰𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔱 𝔦𝔫𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔫𝔦𝔞#2854 !  okie okie , i’ll shut da eff up now ♡ 

BASICS.

༉‧₊˚✧ kim taehyung , cis man , he / him / his — did you see that nicholas “nico” yoon was trending last night ? the twenty three year old street artist has been getting a lot of press lately . i think it’s due to them being so + quixotic & + free-spirited , but i always thought they seemed - withdrawn & - sybaritic . their fans always say they remind them of soft smoke rings spun in a dreamy haze , silver-ringed fingers rapping against polished oak , and waning light refracting against broken glass though . i wonder if they’ve found out about REDACTED yet … i guess we’ll have to wait and see . [ rox , 22 , pst , she / her , none ]

PINTEREST & PLAYLIST .

01 and 02 .

PERSONALITY .

at first glance , nico reads as this aloof , arrogant type that doesn’t like to associate w the common public . always keeping the majority of people at a comfortable distance , nico moves almost exclusively within his own social network , and doesn’t like to deviate from what he knows best .  

not so much pretentious as he is lazy , making an effort to socialize with complete strangers is simply something that nico would never do . hehe ... he’s kind of shy like that .... ♡ though he’d literally never admit it ♡

despite giving the impression that he’s some intimidating and chronically indifferent kind of guy , nico is genuinely a sweet boy — ‏‏‎ one who’s in a constant state of confusion as to why people seem to be so scared of him . it always comes as a shock when close friends of his admit that they thought he absolutely hated their guts when they first met him .

b/c tho he’s p smart , nico is very oblivious at times , and he’s 100% the kind of guy who’ll walk away from a conversation thinking he did a rly rly good job trying to make a friend ... when in reality he prob said four words in the span of thirty minutes smh .

overall , nico’s a private person , especially with what he’s thinking ... and it’s really hard to get a clear read on what’s on his mind . sharing his feelings has never been one of nico’s interests b/c he just genuinely doesn’t think whatever he has to say is rly worth mentioning . so he usually just shuts da fuck up n lets other ppl talk so he can mentally gain the strength to continue socializing .

push nico’s buttons enough tho ‘n you’ll catch this mf speaking in full sentences .

lastly , it should b noted that nico is a romantic through n through ... this mf probably d*ed in the victorian era ‘n got reincarnated b/c he’s got that ‘ lets share furtive glances across the room but never say a thing to each other  ‘ thing on lock . mr. darcy headass

and while nico might play the role of long-suffering , ever pining lover to a T , he’s more in love w / the idea of love than he is w / any single person . and he literally cannot hold down a relationship w/o fucking it up for himself in some shape or form .

kind of sarcastic ... v much the teasing type .... 

can b very impulsive at times , loves to go on solo adventures at night , prefers his own company tbh ...

overview : melancholic , reticent , noncommittal , humble , mild-mannered , romantic .

a mix of : josh from clueless and j.d. from heathers

more here .

MORE AESTHETICS.

the chill of silver jewelry against flushed skin , forgotten graffiti on porcelain sinks , flickering motel lights , kisses sticky with vodka , eyes ringed with lavender , sleepless nights surrendered to the dull buzz of television , obscure art house films , sun-kissed cheeks , the surprise of summer rain , chest aching with lost loves , scattered baby’s breath and rosemary , and a shared smile between perfect strangers .

CHARACTER DISSERTATION.

nico was born on a brisk wintry morning in the fashion district of los angeles ( january 21st , 1997 ) to a family of six .

as the second youngest child , and the only male son to boot , nico grew up with his only inheritance being a generational kind of hunger , one that demanded for more than what his struggling parents could offer

the arts stole nico at an early age ... ushering him into a world of creation and freedom beyond the four bleak walls he daily occupied . from spending lonely summers tucked away in some forgotten corner in the library to practicing on a borrowed violin from dawn to dusk , nico knew that even with nothing at his disposal , there was always something to be made w/ the tools he’d been given  

despite not having the money for private tutors to hone their son’s growing artistic talents , his parents did whatever they could to support his dreams , whether that meant working double shifts back to back or scrounging for loose change underneath the sofa cushions to pay for whatever materials nico needed .

it was in this strange way that nico grew up p spoiled . somehow having nothing while also having absolutely everything at the same time .

very much a family man , the first big purchase nico made once he broke out in hollywood was a house in beverly hills for his parents . now that he’s finally at a place where he can take care of his family , nico makes sure that his parents and sisters want for nothing

while he showers everyone else with generous gifts and obscene amounts of money , nico doesn’t particularly feel comfortable doing the same for himself . he’s a simple man through n through . one who’s content to spend his time walking his dog late at night , listening to a podcast on his airpods , instead of going out to a club w/ other well-known socialites .

a true artist at heart , nico refuses to conform to the current trends of hollywood , instead insisting on wearing thrifted clothes to important galas — ‏‏‎much to the frustration of his PR team and the chagrin of his stylists . but none of the choices nico makes seems to surprise anyone anymore . driving flashy cars and wearing designer clothes has never really been his style , after all . and it’s important to him that he remain authentically himself despite everything .

WANTED CONNECTS.

pr relationship ( open ) : someone that nico is contractually obligated to date ... i could totally see there being drama ‘n tension from having to pretend to actually like each other ... would b better if they rly did not like each other at all ... 

fwb ( open ) : buddies who bump uglies sometimes ... they both agreed they’d never catch feelings for each other but we’ll see ... 

frenemies ( open ) : someone that grinds nico’s gears but they’re a friend of his friend ... so they’re forced to keep it civil . i can see them exchanging hateful comments in the back of their friend’s car while simultaneously posting pics of each other on ig to keep up the rouse . 

unrequited crush ( open ) : likely nico would not realize if yr muse had a crush on them ... but it’d be fun to play it out like a kdrama anyway heh heh

a close friend group ( open / any ) : i thought it’d b so cute if there was like a small group of friends , maybe 3-4 ppl , that do stupid shit like ditch going to celebrity after-parties to break into abandoned buildings , get real high , ask stupid ‘ would u rather ‘ questions , and do sum main character type shit ... yk what im puttin down ... ‘n nico is def the type to open up in the presence of extroverts so i think having a group of wild outsiders of diff bgs would b v inch resting ..

enemies / rivals ( open / any ) : tbh nico prob rubs ppl the wrong way since he has resting bitch face ‘n never wants to talk to anyone .. so im sure there r ppl who just do not like this mf ... and rest assured that the feeling is mutual ...

bad / good influence ( open / any ) : nico’s known to mount his high horse often ... mr morality over here ... so i just know he prob would butt heads w/ the residential troublemaker . tho nico’s artwork can be controversial and out of the box at times , his art style and his personality are at constant odds , and it’d b interesting to have that bad influence / good influence dynamic w/ someone .

family friend ( open ) : someone who grew up w/ nico in dtla ... couldve gone to the same public school as him ... or their families couldve gone to the same church ...

ok my intro post has become a fucking behemoth so im going to stop here ‘n just say i have so many more wcs in mind so if u wanna plot lets just talk hehe :>

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BET YOU WON'T ANSWER THEM ALL

1: Full name

I've gotten creepy messages on here so I'm gonna keep that private lol

2: Age

27

3: 3 Fears

Abandonment, driving by semi-trucks, bugs

4: 3 things I love

Music, coffee, nature

5: 4 turn ons

Sense of humor, intelligence, height, big hands.. happy trails are sexy

6: 4 turn offs

If they're rude, judgy, closed-minded, or act fake

7: My best friend

Tammy

8: Sexual orientation

Straight

9: My best first date

I have no idea honestly. First dates are always weird

10: How tall am I

5′5″

11: What do I miss

Not having anxiety, traveling, when my boobs were bigger

12: What time was I born

11:30 pm

13: Favourite color

Yellow, green, blue

14: Do I have a crush

It’s more than a crush, but yes

15: Favourite quote

"This is cracking me out" - my kid

16: Favourite place

The forest, Havasupai, California

17: Favourite food

Just about anything Italian. Or with a lot of cheese

18: Do I use sarcasm

Pretty often

19: What am I listening to right now

Wind blowing through the window. It’s like 65 degrees here I love it

20: First thing I notice in a new person

If they seem nice or not

21: Shoe size

7 or 7.5 depending on the shoes

22: Eye color

Blue

23: Hair color

Reddish dark blonde

24: Favourite style of clothing

Grungy but hot

25: Ever done a prank call? Yes

27: Meaning behind my URL

I’ve answered this a couple times before, I’m too lazy

28: Favourite movie

Peanut Butter Falcon

29: Favourite song

All the ones that make me feel things the most

30: Favourite band

A Day to Remember, Brand New

31: How I feel right now

Relaxed

32: Someone I love

My son

33: My current relationship status

In something

34: My relationship with my parents

They’re cool

35: Favourite holiday

Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing I have

Treble clef on the back of my neck, pierced ears

37: Tattoos and piercing I want

I’m good for now! Maybe more one day

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

I don’t even know, I’ve used this shit off and on since I was 16

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? Nope!

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Yep

41: Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?

Nope

42: When did I last hold hands?

Held hands with my son today

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Like 20 minutes

44: Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes

45: Where am I right now? In my room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

Probably one of my friends lol

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud unless I’m sleepyy

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No

49: Am I excited for anything? 🎄🎄🎄

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Yepp I think so

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Sometimes if I don't want my kid to sense my stress. Or during boring conversations

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Today

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

🤷🤷🤷

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

I don’t think so

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I was super sleepy, slept until some stressy dreams woke me up, and can't go back to sleep 🙃

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

That guy from My Octopus Teacher

57: What do I think about most?

People I love, things I have to do, and the randomest shit imaginable

58: What’s my strangest talent?

I barely have any normal talents

59: Do I have any strange phobias? No

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind it unless I feel cute

61: What was the last lie I told?

Something about Santa to my kid

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Depends!

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

I feel like ghosts are possible, our energy could keep existing in some ways after our body dies who knows. Aliens exist for sure. Just not anywhere near our planet imo

64: Do I believe in magic? No

65: Do I believe in luck? I believe in good karma

66: What’s the weather like right now?

Kinda chilly/breezy but nice

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Read Fox in Socks to my kid

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? No

69: Do I have any nicknames? Kind of

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

One time a horse stepped on my foot and it was bruised for months lol

71: Do I spend money or save it? Both

72: Can I touch my nose with my tongue?

Noo! I just tried though hahah

73: Is there anything pink 10 feet from me?

A crayon

74: Favourite animal? Sloths but I love all animals

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Sleeping surprisingly

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

I can't think of anyone I hate enough to make a good joke out of this

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Colorado Symphony version of The Stable Song by Gregory Alan Isakov

78: How can you win my heart?

Good conversations, make me laugh, show me you care, show me good music, etc

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

Nice things, I don't know lol

80: What is my favorite word? Fuck

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

I ♥️ all the ones I follow

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Realistically I would have a panic attack and say something stupid 😂

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of!

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Maybe the power to pause time so I could sleep or do whatever for however long I want without wasting any time. Or maybe the ability to teleport

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Idk I can't think of one

86: What is my current desktop picture?

It’s the default one, I don’t go on it very often lol

87: Had sex? Yes

88: Bought condoms? No the guys always did that

89: Gotten pregnant? Yes

90: Failed a class? No

91: Kissed a boy? Yes

92: Kissed a girl? Yes

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yes

94: Had a job? Yes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yepp I used to forget it all the time

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

No I'm not a pussy ass bitch

97: Had sex in public?

If you count in a parked car, yes

98: Played on a sports team? Yes

99: Smoked weed? Yes

100: Did drugs? A while ago

101: Smoked cigarettes? Yes, quit a while ago

102: Drank alcohol? Yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

Nope! I tried one time just for fucks and it did not last long

104: Been overweight? No

105: Been underweight? Yes

106: Been to a wedding? Yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

Yes. Marathons and binge sessions

109: Been outside my home country? Yes, Mexico

110: Gotten my heart broken? Yes

111: Been to a professional sports game? Yes

112: Broken a bone? Nope

113: Cut myself? Yes

114: Been to prom? Yes

115: Been in an airplane? Lots of times

116: Fly by helicopter? No

117: What concerts have I been to?

Oh fuck I know I’ll leave some out. Kelly Clarkson (don’t judge me I was 12), All Time Low, Avenged Sevenfold, Papa Roach, Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, Flogging Molly, Jason Mraz, Ed Sheeran, Atreyu, Escape the Fate, went to Warped Tour a couple times in high school so a bunch more emo bands

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? No

119: Learned another language?

A decent amount of Spanish

120: Wore make up? Frequently

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Yes

122: Had oral sex? Yes

123: Dyed my hair? Yes

124: Voted in a presidential election? Yes

125: Rode in an ambulance? No those are expensive

126: Had a surgery?

Does getting my wisdom teeth removed count

127: Met someone famous?

Saw Alice Cooper at a Cheesecake Factory one time

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

Not stalked, more like checked up on lol

129: Peed outside? On camping trips

130: Been fishing? Yes

131: Helped with charity? Yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? Probably!

133: Broken a mirror? No

134: What do I want for my birthday?

Christmas is coming first idk

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

I have one kid whose name I won’t be posting publicly, annnd I’m open to having another kid sometime in the future but not set on it. No names in mind for that lol

136: Was I named after anyone?

My parents are Catholic so they named me after St. Kieran

137: Do I like my handwriting? It’s alright idk

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

I liked my toy horses and barbies the most probably

139: Favourite TV Show?

Idk I have lots of favorites. I've probably rewatched The Office the most out of all of them tho

140: Where do I want to live when older?

Somewhere chill, surrounded by lots of nature. Arizona doesn’t have much of that lol

141: Play any musical instrument?

I can play the piano but it’s been a while

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

One on my knee from a car accident

143: Favourite pizza topping?

I love onions on my pizzaaaa

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

No, unless I watched a scary movie or something

145: Am I afraid of heights? No

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

Got caught sneaking out when I was 15. Countless other things I can’t remember

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Yep!

148: What I’m really bad at

Doing things on time, paying attention when I’m not interested in something

149: What my greatest achievements are

Having an amazing kid, got first prize in the science fair in 6th grade for gluing a fucking key finder mechanism to the back of a shoe charm (shoe finder), was on time to something once

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Idkkk

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Give a lot of it to some family, save a lot of it, get a new house, set aside a savings for my kid, buy a sloth or something

152: What do I like about myself

Fuck I don't know, I try my best hahah

153: My closest Tumblr friend

@spencerwithac

154: Something I fantasize about

Sex in public

155: Any question you’d like?

Nope this was plenty thank you

[isrustandstardust]

1: Full name: Selena.

2: Zodiac sign: Scorpio.

3: 3 Fears: Abandonment. Not being good enough. Being lied to.

4: 3 things I love: Bones. Corpses. Books.

5: 4 turns on: Intelligence. Perversions. Sarcasm. Violence.

6: 4 turns off: Stupidity. Ignorance. Lack of hygiene. High pitched voices.

7: My best friend: Is the best bitch ever.

8: Sexual orientation: Bisex.

9: My best first date: A dinner and a walk by the lake.

10: How tall am I: 165 cm.

11: What do I miss: Woland, sometimes.

12: What time were I born: 3.45 a.m.

13: Favourite color: Teal.

14: Do I have a crush: Yup.

15: Favourite quote: So it goes.

16: Favourite place: Como.

17: Favourite food: Red meat, raw.

18: Do I use sarcasm: Way too much.

19: What am I listening to right now: I’m watching ‘my 600lb life’ on tv.

20: First thing I notice in new person: If he looks me in the eyes or not.

21: Shoe size: 38/39.

22: Eye color: Reddish brown.

23: Hair color: Chocolate.

24: Favourite style of clothing: Urban/edgy/grunge.

25: Ever done a prank call? When I was little.

26: What colour of underwear I'm wearing now? Black.

27: Meaning behind my URL: It’s a Nabokov’s quote.

28: Favourite movies: The Fountain, In the mood for love, Bin Jip, The pillow book, Only lovers left alive, Stoker.

29: Favourite song: Too hard to say.

30: Favourite band: Same. Maybe Tool.

31: How I feel right now: Relaxed.

32: Someone I love: My hubby.

33: My current relationship status: Happily married.

34: My relationship with my parents: No relationship with my mother, a distant one with my father.

35: Favourite holiday: Christmas.

36: Tattoos and piercing I have: 15 tattoos, no piercings atm.

37: Tattoos and piercing I want: I want to do some surfaces again and I want to ink both my arms. Full sleeves.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: I wanted a safe space to write.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? No, we just have no relationship whatsoever.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? When my husband is on tour.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Yup.

42: When did I last hold hands? A few hours ago.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes.

44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope, I don’t need it.

45: Where am I right now? On the couch.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? My husband, my friends.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Way too loud!

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No. I live by myself since I was 18.

49: Am I excited for anything? In a few days I’ll begin renovating my home!

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Sure.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Daily.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Today.

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? That could be a problem.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? No, I’m very careful when it comes to trust people.

55: What is something I disliked about today? My stomach aching like crazy.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? I’d love to have a chat with Jodorowsky.

57: What do I think about most? Work, work, work.

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can fit my whole fist in my mouth.

59: Do I have any strange phobias? Deep water, strange fishes.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind, I’m a director, not an actress.

61: What was the last lie I told? I’m not hungry.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Texting.

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I believe in aliens, I’m fairly sure that something similar to ghost actually exist.

64: Do I believe in magic? Kinda.

65: Do I believe in luck? Yup.

66: What's the weather like right now? Fucking cold.

67: What was the last book I've read? A criminology book.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? A lot.

69: Do I have any nicknames? MissFortune, Sally.

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? Never had one.

71: Do I spend money or save it? Save it. I know what it means to have nothing. At all. I don’t want to find myself in that situation ever again.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Nope.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Nope. I don’t like pink very much.

74: Favourite animal? Snakes, moths.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Still working.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I know his name is Woland.

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Do you realize - the flaming lips.

78: How can you win my heart? Be kind, be honest.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I don’t want a tombstone, I want to be cremated.

80: What is my favorite word? Weltschmerz.

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr. No idea tbh.

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Read a book, study something, stop being stupid.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Nope.

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Mind control.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? When was the last time you ate?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Mass Effect’s reapers attacking earth.

87: Had sex? Two days ago.

88: Bought condoms? A few years ago.

89: Gotten pregnant? Never.

90: Failed a class? Never.

91: Kissed a boy? A man. A few minutes ago.

92: Kissed a girl? Cannot recall.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yup.

94: Had job? Of course.

95: Left the house without my wallet? Maybe.

96: Bullied someone on the internet? Nope, been bullied tho.

97: Had sex in public? Yep.

98: Played on a sports team? Nope.

99: Smoked weed? Yes.

100: Did drugs? Three times.

101: Smoked cigarettes? Yup.

102: Drank alcohol? Of course.

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Nope, been vegan for a year but my health went to hell.

104: Been overweight? I was a little chubby when I was little.

105: Been underweight? Almost all my adult life.

106: Been to a wedding? Sure.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Daily.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yup. I love binge watching things.

109: Been outside my home country? Sure.

110: Gotten my heart broken? Once.

111: Been to a professional sports game? No.

112: Broken a bone? Never.

113: Cut myself? I self harmed for years. Been clean for the past four and a half.

114: Been to prom? No.

115: Been in airplane? Yup.

116: Fly by helicopter? No, but I’d love to.

117: What concerts have I been to? Slayeeeeeeer! This is the first that comes to mind.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Of course.

119: Learned another language? Yup.

120: Wore make up? Daily.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Nope.

122: Had oral sex? Sure.

123: Dyed my hair? The last time I went blonde for my wedding, almost three years ago.

124: Voted in a presidential election? I voted, here in Italy, for every election.

125: Rode in an ambulance? Sadly, yes.

126: Had a surgery? Nope.

127: Met someone famous? More or less.

128: Stalked someone on a social network? A few times.

129: Peed outside? Yup.

130: Been fishing? I actually enjoy it a lot.

131: Helped with charity? Not that I recall.

132: Been rejected by a crush? Not in a while.

133: Broken a mirror? Nope.

134: What do I want for birthday? Being spoiled.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? One. Nero if he’s a boy, Alya if she’s a girl.

136: Was I named after anyone? After a book character.

137: Do I like my handwriting? It’s not bad.

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? I didn’t have one. Maybe my art supplies.

139: Favourite Tv Show? Atm: Supersized vs Superskinny.

140: Where do I want to live when older? Iceland.

141: Play any musical instrument? I’m learning to play drums.

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Almost all my scars are from self harming.

143: Favourite pizza toping? Cheeeeeeeeeese!

144: Am I afraid of the dark? Nope. I feel at home in it.

145: Am I afraid of heights? A lot.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Doing something bad, surely.

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Sometimes.

148: What I'm really bad at: Bowling.

149: What my greatest achievments are: I earn my own living since I was 18.

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: That I should never been born, I guess.

151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery: Sell my house and go live abroad.

152: What do I like about myself: My willpower.

153: My closest Tumblr friend: I don’t have one.

154: Something I fantasise about: My future.

155: Any question I’d like: I have no preferences, ask away.

[toast-connoisseur]

ALL of the Ask Me Stuff questions

* 1: Full name: For safety purposes I’ll shorten it: Maria Barbara Gonzalez (yes, that’s the shortened version. I’m Mexican lol)

* 2: Age: 25

* 3: 3 Fears: Being buried alive, anything bad happening to a loved one, SPIDERS

* 4: 3 things I love: My family, my friends, movies

* 5: 4 turn ons: soft touches, kissing, making me food, a confident personality

* 6: 4 turn offs: Overly cocky people, racists, chewing with your mouth open

* 7: My best friend: I’m lucky to have several and I love them all with the individual pieces of my heart they each own

* 8: Sexual orientation: Queer/Gay

* 9: My best first date: I don’t think I’ve ever really gone on one tbh lol

* 10: How tall am I: 5’1 (barely make it to the 1)

* 11: What do I miss: Bars/clubs and Disneyland. Hugging people. Not losing so many people on a daily basis...

* 12: What time was I born: 3:38AM

* 13: Favourite color: Blood red (NOT maroon)

* 14: Do I have a crush: I always crush on random girls

* 15: Favourite quote: “Seduce my mind and you can have my body. Find my soul and I’m yours forever.”

* 16: Favourite place: It was once Disneyland now, I don’t really have a place lol

* 17: Favourite food: All of it. Of course Mexican food takes the top of the list though

* 18: Do I use sarcasm: Noooo, you think?!

* 19: What am I listening to right now: I’m watching Buffy

* 20: First thing I notice in new person: What vibes you’re giving off

* 21: Shoe size: 7 for the most part but sometimes I can fit into size 4 kid shoes

* 22: Eye color: Dark brown

* 23: Hair color: naturally: dark brown, right now: black

* 24: Favourite style of clothing: comfortable but more on the lines of retro/rockabilly

* 25: Ever done a prank call? Yes!

* 27: Meaning behind my URL: I love toast

* 28: Favourite movie: I have so many but one is Saved!

* 29: Favourite song: Lots, but Guilty Pleasure by Cobra Starship

* 30: Favourite band: Avenged Sevenfold

* 31: How I feel right now: Mellow

* 32: Someone I love: my nephew

* 33: My current relationship status: single

* 34: My relationship with my parents: could be better, but it’s there

* 35: Favourite holiday: Halloween

* 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: I have two piercings on each ear, my bellybutton pierced, and 6 tattoos (R foot, R ankle, L thigh, L wrist, L bicep, R bicep)

* 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: I want most of my body covered in tattoos so I have a long way to go. As for piercings, I want at least two more per ear.

* 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: my friends said it would be a good time

* 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I wouldn’t say hate, but we’re not friends anymore

* 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Yes!

* 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? No

* 42: When did I last hold hands? It’s been too long :(

* 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? I work from home now so 0 minutes

* 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes

* 45: Where am I right now? In my bed

* 46: If I were drunk and can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? My best friends

* 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable usually. I have very sensitive hearing.

* 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? They actually live with me, but it’s temporary.

* 49: Am I excited for anything? My upcoming move

* 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Yes, two actually

* 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? -I work Monday-Friday

* 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? -OOF

* 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Hot

* 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? -Everyone has different trust levels tbh. My best friends hold top tier.

* 55: What is something I disliked about today? I had to work

* 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Beyoncé!

* 57: What do I think about most? The future I want

* 58: What’s my strangest talent? I honestly don’t think I have one? I guess being able to mimic certain voices/accents sometimes but I wouldn’t say I’m pro

* 59: Do I have any strange phobias? I don’t think they’re strange, I just hate feet

* 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind

* 61: What was the last lie I told? “I’ll work on that”

* 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? It depends who I’m talking to, but phone tbh

* 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Both are very real

* 64: Do I believe in magic? Yes

* 65: Do I believe in luck? To an extent

* 66: What’s the weather like right now? Nice and cold

* 67: What was the last book I’ve read? I strictly read fanfiction lately

* 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Don’t love it, don’t hate it

* 69: Do I have any nicknames? Barbie, Barbs, whore, homo... you know, cute stuff

* 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I split my eyebrow open and had to get stitches

* 71: Do I spend money or save it? Por que no los dos?!

* 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? No, but my best friend can and it’s so cool!

* 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? My sweats are pink

* 74: Favourite animal? I love animals but wolves are pretty top tier

* 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping

* 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? Sexy. Mr. Sexy.

* 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? -I Wanna Get Better by the Bleachers

* 78: How can you win my heart? Be nice to me and have good conversations to me and occasionally buy me chocolate

* 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? The entire lyrics to Act Up by City Girls

* 80: What is my favorite word? Motherfucker

* 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: I honestly bounce to and from so many. There’s no way I can only pick 5. All the ones I reblog from are so great!

* 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? STOP GOING TO PARTIES

* 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I’m aware of

* 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? I can turn invisible

* 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? None really tbh

* 86: What is my current desktop picture? I made it into a winter wonderland for the holidays

* 87: Had sex? “It’s been 84 years...”

* 88: Bought condoms? I’m gay

* 89: Gotten pregnant? See above

* 90: Failed a class? I think in middle school maybe?

* 91: Kissed a boy? Yes

* 92: Kissed a girl? Yes

* 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Sadly, no

* 94: Had a job? Sadly (but also thankfully since I need money)

* 95: Left the house without my wallet? No

* 96: Bullied someone on the internet? No

* 97: Had sex in public? Yes

* 98: Played on a sports team? Yes

* 99: Smoked weed? Yes

* 100: Did drugs? Yes

* 101: Smoked cigarettes? Yes

* 102: Drank alcohol? Yes

* 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? No

* 104: Been overweight? No

* 105: Been underweight? Yes

* 106: Been to a wedding? Yes

* 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes

* 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yes

* 109: Been outside my home country? Yes

* 110: Gotten my heart broken? Sorta but I bounced back pretty quick so idk if that counts

* 111: Been to a professional sports game? Long ago

* 112: Broken a bone? No

* 113: Cut myself? I’m very accident prone

* 114: Been to prom? Yes

* 115: Been in airplane? Yes

* 116: Fly by helicopter? No

* 117: What concerts have I been to? So so so many. I miss them.

* 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? I’m gaaaaaaaay

* 119: Learned another language? I’ve been bilingual since I was a child

* 120: Wore make up? Yes

* 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? No

* 122: Had oral sex? Yes

* 123: Dyed my hair? Yes

* 124: Voted in a presidential election? Yes

* 125: Rode in an ambulance? I worked for an ambulance company so just for fun

* 126: Had a surgery? Besides oral?

* 127: Met someone famous? I live in LA, so yes lol

* 128: Stalked someone on a social network? No

* 129: Peed outside? Yes

* 130: Been fishing? No, I’d like to!

* 131: Helped with charity? Yes

* 132: Been rejected by a crush? Fifth grade was a tough year for my love life...

* 133: Broken a mirror? No

* 134: What do I want for birthday? To be able to see all my friends in a safe environment

* 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? I’d like as many as I can comfortably afford. I’d have to discuss with the (future) wife about names

* 136: Was I named after anyone? The Virgin Mary (la Virgen Maria) and some Spanish actress named Barbara something...

* 137: Do I like my handwriting? No

* 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? I loved dolls

* 139: Favourite Tv Show? Bewitched

* 140: Where do I want to live when older? California forever unless properly convinced otherwise

* 141: Play any musical instrument? Used to play trumpet and alto sax. Can’t play anymore lol

* 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? See Q70

* 143: Favourite pizza toping? Pepperoni. I love all sorts of toppings but that’s my fav

* 144: Am I afraid of the dark? No

* 145: Am I afraid of heights? Yes

* 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Yes

* 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Daily

* 148: What I’m really bad at: Focusing. In my defense, I have ADHD

* 149: What my greatest achievments are: graduating college, getting promoted at work, buying my own car, purchasing a home

* 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: I once got told “good luck on the short bus” by a guy that was upset I make more money than he does

* 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: take care of all my bills, invest, and then try to help as many of my loved ones as I could with theirs

* 152: What do I like about myself: my resilience

* 153: My closest Tumblr friend: @itssofragile

* 154: Something I fantasise about: My future

* 155: Any question you’d like? Nah, I think we’re good!

[wherethewindtakesher]

weeeeee

the biggest thank you to @caws5749 for sending me all 134 questions 🥰

1: Name Lorena

2: Age 20

3: 3 Fears drowning, the ocean, and fishes.

4: 3 things I love my dog, my friends, and mangoes.

5: 4 turns on humor, charisma, telling me how much you want m-, and moaning.

6: 4 turns off being full of themselves, disrespectfulness, afraid to be themselves, and not showing a care about the well being of others.

7: My best friend k, f, and @brownmantwo.

8: Sexual orientation bisexual.

9: My best first date i’ve never been on a date!

10: How tall am I 5′2

11: What do I miss being fucking skinny-

12: What time were I born 10:45 pm!

13: Favorite color red.

14: Do I have a crush uh...

15: Favorite quote “I got STDS they make my coochie itch” SKSKSKDKSDKAD.

16: Favorite place my house.

17: Favorite food rice.

18: Do I use sarcasm 99.9% of my vocabulary is sarcasm.

19: What am I listening to right now “everything I wanted” by billie eilish because ya girl is depressed.

20: First thing I notice in new person how they hold themselves.

21: Shoe size 8 or 8.5 sometimes a 9.

22: Eye color dark brown.

23: Hair color black.

24: Favorite style of clothing baggy clothes or dark bold colors.

25: Ever done a prank call? yea. I use to call those numbers where it takes you to a different number to prank.

27: Meaning behind my URL its not necessarily an interesting story I just came up with it in my head one day.

28: Favorite movie too many to count.

29: Favorite song literally too many.

30: Favorite band three days grace.

31: How I feel right now fucking sad.

32: Someone I love my friends.

33: My current relationship status single.

34: My relationship with my parents its good! but there is a lot I tend to not discuss with them.

35: Favorite holiday halloween!

36: Tattoos and piercing I have I have two tattoos, both on my left arm. my finger tattoo is of a rose and my bicep is a ghost wearing a witch hat! piercing: septum, conch (but it closed) and my two lobes.

37: Tattoos and piercing I want a bunch more of tattoos and I want to get a few more ear piercings.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr to be cool like my older niece.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we do not. lots of love and respect left in between us.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? not really.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? NO BECAUSE @domromanoff and I ARE BASICALLY SISTERS AND THATS INCEST.

42: When did I last hold hands? years ago.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 10 minutes to get up from bed and 5 to actually get ready.

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? yes I have because I like smooth legs.

45: Where am I right now? my kitchen.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? no ones because they'll just leave me behind and laugh at my misery. jkjk but my dear friends.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? L O U D.

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? I do because rent in LA is fucking e x p e n s I v e.

49: Am I excited for anything? to go to bed.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? I have 2 of them.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? too often tbh.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? a few weeks ago I believe?

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? they should because thats their baby momma.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? yup.

55: What is something I disliked about today? waking up.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? lady gaga and scarlett johansson.

57: What do I think about most? what tattoo to get, if I should get another dog, how to annoy @caws5749 that day, etc etc.

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can move the bones in my wrist.

59: Do I have any strange phobias? im scared of fish!

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind because I am a nervous mess and I like taking control of such.

61: What was the last lie I told? “im okay”

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? both honestly! I love video chatting with @domromanoff and my friends!

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes and yes.

64: Do I believe in magic? hell yea I grew up around all that shit.

65: Do I believe in luck? not really.

66: What’s the weather like right now? its chilly.

67: What was the last book I’ve read? jesus christ I forgot the name but its currently under my bed rn.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? YES.

69: Do I have any nicknames? clown, wueej by @caws5749, pi- prin-, bottom by @domromanoff, lore, lorecha, whore, hoe.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I pulled my thigh muscle recently and OMG I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN.

71: Do I spend money or save it? I SPEND IT HONEY YASSSS.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? sadly no.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? my water bottle c:

74: Favorite animal? I fucking love cows.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? crying lmao.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? nikolas is it not??

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? “Judas” by lady gaga.

78: How can you win my heart? just be yourself and believe wholeheartedly of what you want and desire.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? “madi did it”

80: What is my favorite word? fuck.

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr @caws5749 @domromanoff @dailyavengers @ravenforce andddddd @supercorpbechloe there’s so many more I’m editing this rn AKSJSHSHSHS I love each and everyone’s accounts here!

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? GLOBAL WARMING IS A REAL THING YALL.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? i think so 👀 but im not close to them.

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? maybe like telekinesis or some mind power.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? what goes on in your mind?

86: What is my current desktop picture? a winter forest.

87: Had sex? if oral sex counts then sure.

88: Bought condoms? I haven't bought them I just magically obtained them.

89: Gotten pregnant? oh god no.

90: Failed a class? yUUUUP.

91: Kissed a boy? yes.

92: Kissed a girl? yes.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? back in middle school lmaoooo.

94: Had job? yes im on my second one rn.

95: Left the house without my wallet? all the damn time.

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no because im not a fucking asshole.

97: Had sex in public? not yet.

98: Played on a sports team? yea I was in track n field and cross country!

99: Smoked weed? I haven't but I once wanted to try it but I was to much of a pussy to skip class.

100: Did drugs? nope.

101: Smoked cigarettes? ew no.

102: Drank alcohol? y’all Ive gotten so fucked up on here so of cOURSE. my friends think I have a drinking problem ksjlksdjlkjds.

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? I am not.

104: Been overweight? yea.

105: Been underweight? No.

106: Been to a wedding? I have when I was younger.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? sadly yes because of video games.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yea when I binge watched the walking dead.

109: Been outside my home country? yes!

110: Gotten my heart broken? yeah.

111: Been to a professional sports game? Yes because everyone in LA has possibly been to a dodgers game.

112: Broken a bone? nope!

113: Cut myself? oh man..I have and I deeply regret doing so but its a part of me now and i’ve accepted it.

114: Been to prom? YES! best night of my life.

115: Been in airplane? once and that was it because fuck planes lsjdkjlksdjs.

116: Fly by helicopter? nope!

117: What concerts have I been to? daddy yankee and some other guy I don't remember heheheh.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? duh im gay.

119: Learned another language? I tried (and failed) to learn japanese.

120: Wore make up? a couple of times. i’m not the hugest fan of makeup.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? nope!

122: Had oral sex? once.

123: Dyed my hair? too many times.

124: Voted in a presidential election? no but I will this upcoming one for sure.

125: Rode in an ambulance? no but I want to!

126: Had a surgery? no but I did have to get stitches on my lower lip.

127: Met someone famous? I meant jenni rivera’s brother at a movie theater once!

128: Stalked someone on a social network? yes? but not to a weird extent.

129: Peed outside? only because no one was around to open the door to my apartment complex and I couldn't hold it in-

130: Been fishing? I am T E R R I F I E D of fish so no.

131: Helped with charity? yup! I bought a shirt from one of @markiplier‘s livestreams that donated all the money to a charity.

132: Been rejected by a crush? yea.

133: Broken a mirror? I think maybe once??

134: What do I want for birthday? I want a tattoo.

[lesbianbruabba]

all of them!

Anon you are trying to kill me but also like..thank you

1: Full name

I’m not stupid, I’m not putting my full real name out. lol

2: Age

Eighteen

3: 3 Fears

Being rejected, depression consuming my life, going deaf or blind

4: 3 things I love

My brother, my friends, music

5: 4 turns on

Gentle caresses, dirty talk, teasing, kink stuff

6: 4 turns off

Uhhh. Pedophilia, scat, incest, racial degradation? I’m going for the most hardcore bad stuff lol

7: My best friend

I have a lot but for simplicity’s sake my bestest is @lettiehigh

8: Sexual orientation

Bisexual

9: My best first date

Lol

10: How tall am I

5′2. correct question is how short am I

11: What do I miss

Special ham sandwiches

12: What time were I born

I don’t fucking know

13: Favourite color

Pink

14: Do I have a crush

I have multiple. 

15: Favourite quote

“They don’t sell cheese at the jewelry store” - my husband Felony Steve

16: Favourite place

My bedroom

17: Favourite food

Chicken nuggets from a hong kong mcdonald’s. They taste like shit in scotland

18: Do I use sarcasm

Sometimes but I’m not that good at it

19: What am I listening to right now

No More Time - Flor

20: First thing I notice in new person

Eyes

21: Shoe size

6.5

22: Eye color

Dark brown/black

23: Hair color

Dark brown/black. it’s gotten darker over the last few years

24: Favourite style of clothing

Frilly or bondage-y. Sometimes both at once

25: Ever done a prank call?

Nope

27: Meaning behind my URL

RPDR fic pen name

28: Favourite movie

RENT

29: Favourite song

Right now it’s Felony Reunion by Felony Steve

30: Favourite band

Waterparks, flor, All Time Low, Fall Out Boy, you can’t make me pick

31: How I feel right now

Lorny

32: Someone I love

My baby brother

33: My current relationship status

Single

34: My relationship with my parents

Rocky but overall it’s fine. It’s like an ongoing negotiation but I know they love me really.

35: Favourite holiday

I went to England when I was 14 with my school. 

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

None

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

Nipple piercings, I want a hip tattoo on my right hip because I haven’t self-harmed there and it’s a bit of a ‘sacred space’ now. someday I want a lyric tattoo, a flower tattoo (roses pls) and a watercolor one. I follow so many tattoo instagrams and they all look so pretty

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

At the very very beginning to make an aesthetic pastel blog. Got into roleplaying for a couple of years, made some good friends, some sad things happened, moved onto rpdr fic, evolved into the mess it is now

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

what ex

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

Good morning snaps from my brother and copyright from @samrull

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

Nope

42: When did I last hold hands?

Not a thing I’ve done in a long time? 

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Depends on whether I do makeup or not. 10 minutes if I don’t have to, 20-30 if I do.

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

Nope. I don’t shave unless there’s a special event.

45: Where am I right now?

My bedroom in Edi

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

I don’t drink :)

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

reasonable level most of the time. Unless I am feeling particularly apathetic/anhedonic/depressed

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

Back in Hong kong yes

49: Am I excited for anything?

Dan and Phil show, possible trip to Copenhagen, possibly seeing flor, doing fashion design or Danish at uni next year, improving my fluency in languages, my brother visiting Edi, going home and seeing all my friends, going home and seeing my teachers I miss them so much oh my god, possibly seeing one of my crushes again!!

Oh and I’m going to a convention on sunday so that’s pretty great too!

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Yeah my brother we’re a bit too open

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

depends on how often I leave my room/spend time in others’ company that I’m not comfortable with. 

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Tuesday at 7:30 pm

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

Cool, thumbs up dude. he kisses well

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Yeah probably. lbr I trust people too easily

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I didn’t move from my bed much. but! I got a lot of drawing done and I studied some Polish so that’s a win. fuck you for making me think negatively :)

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

there’s this girl in denmark i owe a very long apology to. her. and maybe her cat.

57: What do I think about most?

My crushes, analyzing whether I have a pattern/type of crush, random etymologies, whether Russian is harder than Polish or I have a warped bias, whether my friends care about me or am I overestimating my place in their hearts

58: What’s my strangest talent?

I can say thank you in like 15 languages that counts right?

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

The wolf from little red riding hood

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

In front bc I am shite at taking photos

61: What was the last lie I told?

my meds are making me better

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Video chatting oh my god

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

I sometimes hope ghosts exist. idk about aliens

64: Do I believe in magic?

No 

65: Do I believe in luck?

yes

66: What’s the weather like right now?

Not that bad for scotland tbh but chilly for late April

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Essentials of Polish verbs and grammar or something. google it

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

no???? who tf likes that what the fuck

69: Do I have any nicknames?

This one friend I used to have called me Christababe. Also people at school called me Lily

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

Self harm cut from a few weeks ago. Got infected (it’s fine now)

71: Do I spend money or save it?

Depends

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

With a tongue sure but not my own lmao

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

Yes a lot of it because my closet is next to my bed :)

74: Favourite animal?

Unicorn

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Eating ice cream and surfing the drag race reddit

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

I don’t know???? Johnson?

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

78: How can you win my heart?

Don’t manipulate me.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

Married to Felony Steve

80: What is my favorite word?

Felony

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

Like my faves? @rippling-waves @samrull @lettiehigh @veronicasanders @lecafenoirx

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Listen to Waterparks they have the best music. -dabs-

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

Nope

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Fluency in all languages

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“are you in love with me”. if asked by certain people. alternatively “do you like girls” asked by other certain people. 

86: What is my current desktop picture?

DDLC fanart

87: Had sex?

No but close

88: Bought condoms?

No but I have one from the Hive from a fresher’s package

89: Gotten pregnant?

no dear lord 

90: Failed a class?

Nope and I hope not

91: Kissed a boy?

Yes

92: Kissed a girl?

No, I wish

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

No

94: Had job?

Yes, barista and factory worker

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yes

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

Kind of? Not really? It was more of an argument but we’re friends now. I was a stupid thirteen year old 

97: Had sex in public?

No

98: Played on a sports team?

Lol, tell another one

99: Smoked weed?

No

100: Did drugs?

No, will not

101: Smoked cigarettes?

No, I hate smoking

102: Drank alcohol?

I had a few sips of white wine that were absolutely DISGUSTING

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

No

104: Been overweight?

Currently am

105: Been underweight?

I wish

106: Been to a wedding?

Yeah of distant relatives and teachers

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

Try 14

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

I don’t watch TV, There’s no tv in my student hall and back home the TV is only for news

109: Been outside my home country?

Yep too many times tbh

110: Gotten my heart broken?

Unrequited love-wise yes

111: Been to a professional sports game?

Yes and spent the whole time reading (I was a kid and my mum couldn’t/didn’t find someone to babysit)

112: Broken a bone?

No, thank god

113: Cut myself?

Yes, trying to quit it

114: Been to prom?

Yep and I sang on stage too! 

115: Been in airplane?

Yep

116: Fly by helicopter?

No and not interested tbh

117: What concerts have I been to?

Waterparks, Avril Lavigne, All Time Low

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

Yes, quite a few times now

119: Learned another language?

Try multiple

120: Wore make up?

Yeah! Trying to do it more

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

No, too late for that now

122: Had oral sex?

No but I want to

123: Dyed my hair?

No but I want to

124: Voted in a presidential election?

No, HK doesn’t have presidential elections

125: Rode in an ambulance?

No

126: Had a surgery?

No

127: Met someone famous?

Famous in Hong Kong yes. Worldwide no. I’ve met the UoE principal though

edit: Iza reminded me that I’ve met both Courtney Act and Sasha Velour! 

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

Yes but not like…creepy. for drawing reference I’ve gone through a lot of people’s social media this morning lol

129: Peed outside?

When I was like 4

130: Been fishing?

Not that I can recall

131: Helped with charity?

Yeah

132: Been rejected by a crush?

No because I’m too much of a wimp to confess. Maybe a few years later

133: Broken a mirror?

Yep, the one I use to wear my contacts (when I used to wear contacts)

134: What do I want for birthday?

Sex and liposuction and a corset and maybe someone to love me and a full happy day with no depression or anxiety

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

I don’t want kids. But if I did have kids, here is a list of nice names: Gracie, Ljudmila, Nico, Agneta (this one sounds really fucking familiar but I don’t know why), Anthony, Selene, Kristoff, James

136: Was I named after anyone?

No. My Chinese name means to have manners and to be gentle lmao. My English name is literally just the first thing I blurted out when the teacher asked me for my name. Wednesday was a name I look after Wednesday Addams though.

137: Do I like my handwriting?

I hate my Chinese and English penmanship it looks like shit but my Cyrillic looks GREAT

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

Barbie, I had Genevieve from the 12 dancing princesses

139: Favourite Tv Show?

Drag race, b99, ASOUE, the good place

140: Where do I want to live when older?

In Edinburgh

141: Play any musical instrument?

The ukulele and I think I still remember a bit of guitar

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

Cutting. Most of my scars are from cutting. A few from childhood bruises

143: Favourite pizza toping?

Cheese

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

Sometimes

145: Am I afraid of heights?

all the time

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

A lot worse than sneaking out buddy

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Yeah 

148: What I’m really bad at

controlling my fucking feelings and not falling for peple

149: What my greatest achievments are

Sewing my prom dress, making an animation, juggling learning 3 languages (slowly) at once, surviving high school because honestly I didn’t think I’d make it to graduation

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

That bisexuality doesn’t exist

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Depends on how much i win but assuming it’s a big amount of money, split it and donate a third to charity, give a third to my parents, split the rest of it in quarters and give three quarter to my dad for investments and spend the last quarter

152: What do I like about myself

I have pretty hair and nice tits and I can draw (not well but I can draw), and I have a bit of talent in learning languages and fashion design

153: My closest Tumblr friend

@samrull without a doubt

154: Something I fantasise about

My brain giving me a good yummy serotonin

155: Any question you’d like?

….anon you didn’t put a question (this happens every goddamn time i s2g)

Thanks for the ask though this kept me occupied for the good part of an hour :)

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David Furlong (actor and director): "Performing arts do not die from being put online"

Published in 'Le Mauricien' - 16th December 2020 / In Eng: May21 Interview by Dominique Bellier

Last June, we presented the play Great Experiment, presented by the British but above all multicultural troupes, Border Crossings and Exchange Theatre, of which our compatriot David Furlong who is the artistic director, and in which he also played a role. At the end of the year 2020, Exchange Theatre presented a children's show, The cat in reboots, an adaptation of Puss in Boots that brings Perrault's tale into the 21st century. The man of the theatre shares here how his company successfully weathered the impacts of the COVID-19 crisis in England.

How did you organize yourself with the lockdown and the COVID crisis to move from live performance to uploading? Was there a charge for viewing?

The announcement of the first lockdown was scary news in many ways: first we lost some freelance jobs (I was working on a show at Young Vic, which was suspended) and most importantly, we lost the use of our rehearsal studio, which we hier and where we also give our classes, our two main sources of income. So we immediately took a very diy approach to put our online theatre classes on Zoom. Our students followed us with confidence. They were very generous in their support of the company, so we offered to maintain their end-of-year performances anyway, but in the form of a web series broadcast on YouTube and Facebook. This approach offered us the perfect opportunity to try out these new formats for us, with amateur volunteers, without major financial risk except for a small multimedia production.

On the professional side, however, it quickly became clear that we could not produce an annual show in summer 2020. Fortunately, we had just shot Great Experiment on Mauritius and the Coolies, the creation produced by Border Crossings. We also had in store the live-recording of Sous La Varangue by Christophe Botti. As co-producers with both, it seemed obvious to us to perpetuate these collaborations and actively participate in their dissemination. It was a Mauritian diptych. Entirely free but limited in time, these screenings mobilized all our communication in the spring.

How many actors and technicians have you managed to support during this period?

We were able to get three artist actors and a technician to work. We also had a volunteer intern who did a lot for us.

Did you benefit from public or other assistance to cope?

At the time, we applied for an emergency grant to the Arts Council of England and got it, which allowed us to cover the rent and monthly salaries for the two directors, Fanny Dulin and myself. We were able to keep the studio and continue working without having to look for other jobs. This is also what allowed us to maintain real digital programming throughout the summer thereafter.

What were the health constraints of the resumption of indoor shows?

At the beginning of September, we were commissioned by the Institut français in the United Kingdom to participate in their annual Kids festival, indoors in mid-November, but in mid-October, while the show was being written, the second lockdown was announced. We therefore discovered the joys of theatrical rehearsals with masks, respecting physical distancing, as in other professions. Trying to overlook sanitary rules in the name of creation would have been meaningless when our work on the contrary wants to reflect on the present… Above all, we have completely rewritten the show for the online format. The scale of the acting, and therefore of the writing, has changed significantly.

How does online broadcasting change the game for theatrical creation? Isn't this contradictory with the very vocation of theatrical action and performing arts?

The shows filmed in public for broadcast online are simply "filmed theatre" with often very good recordings, though sometimes, it does not work: the level of performance, the staging or the vocal projection of the actors is unsuitable for the screen. But many companies and theatres have also been organizing the filming of plays specifically for replay for a long time.

What we did is closer to this exercise, with the added benefit that our show was conceived from the start for the camera, which involved a real collaboration with the director of the Institut français, Loic Lefrileux. For actors, this change of scale is no more complicated than going from stage to camera, which we already do in our profession. However, our shooting does not become cinema: we do not cut, we film in theatrical conditions, in one take, with several cameras.

In truth, the digital transition has only been accelerated by the circumstances. We knew that ultimately growing our audience and our impact would come online. And the Mauritian diptych made us realize how much! Sous La Varangue was seen by 1,400 spectators in one week (four times the number of spectators reached in six dates in 2015) and The Great Experiment, by 500 spectators in a weekend (as many as the 500 spectators received in a month English tour). It's a great way to reach more audiences. On the other hand, people who already go to the theatre will return once the venues open, and those who do not go yet, probably will not go either. Among the latter, there is a new audience that can become an "online theatre audience", just like Netflix viewers or “streaming on demand” customers.

Live performance does not die of being put online. The absence of an audience is a strange experience for actors, but it must be forgotten for the spectator. There are directors, and I believe I am, who work to recreate for the image this immediacy and this truth. Conversely, there are also frozen shows which feel already 'dead' in front of full houses. It is the process that keeps the shows alive, if it also keeps up with the times. And it's up to directors to keep the theatrical act intact. We think that's what we did with The cat in reboots.

How did you react to the tragedies which beset Mauritius this winter (the sinking of the Wakashio, oil spill, accident around the barge L’Ami Constant, etc.)? Did your colleagues also react?

I have been struck and suspended to the Mauritian news since these events, and personally I speak to my friends, my family very regularly, I read the press and I stay as close as possible. In the most recent headlines, I was interested to see how the public mobilization of Mauritians is in tune with global movements, which demand change, an end to injustices and systemic blockages.

As far as the company is concerned, we have made it our duty to relay information on our networks to alert our French and English audiences. The work we do has been political since the company's inception in 2006. We have taken clear positions on other subjects such as the refugee crisis (in 2015, one of our shows donated its profits to UNHCR) or on Black Lives Matter this year. In fact, The cat in reboots is a family show that addresses these themes very head-on and succeeds in talking about racism and systemic change to children.

How to follow you and help you from a distance?

Our Facebook, Exchange Theatre's page, and all of our social networks (Instagram, Twitter) and also by subscribing to our newsletter.

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light years

As you’ll come to know if you haven’t already, like any world of idiosyncrasies, the adoption community has its own jargon to navigate. One term you may not be as familiar with as others is the concept of “cocooning”. This is a widely used word within adoption to refer to a period of time immediately following your child moving home with you, whereby you make your child’s world as small as possible in the early days of forming an attachment, and is a vital process in the timeline of your child coming to feel safe and secure in their new family. This blog will take a look at what cocooning actually is (especially in practical terms), and some helpful tips for how to manage this space of time so that it has its best intended effect. Again, I can only talk of my own experience, and as a parent to a fairly young toddler, I didn’t experience some of the added complications that may arise with older children, but most of what I’ll write should be applicable to most age groups. On this note, even if something sounds geared to babies, chances are you would want to replicate the same principles for an older child, however strange this might seem, and sometimes especially so, given the more complex layers of emotions they (and you) may be going through.

 So, “cocooning”…what am I talking about?

Cocooning is a term used to describe a timeframe of usually a few weeks once your child is home, immediately following introductions where you take certain measures to help your child settle with you. It will be something your social workers will discuss with you on preparing to take your child home, and certainly will be a point of conversation during review meetings in introductions. It is essentially about limiting your child’s exposure to, and involvement from, people outside of their immediate parent(s) – you – in the very early days for certain therapeutic reasons related to trauma and attachment associated with their move.

 It serves a few purposes:

·        It allows early bonding and attachment to start taking place between child and parent by providing physical and emotional space for your family unit. This is, in many people’s views, the work of months, years, and perhaps a lifetime, but the cocooning phase acts as a crucial kick starter and sets the template for the beginning of your life together.

��        It allows your child to settle into their new home, to start feeling comfortable, safe and secure in their new environment.

·        It provides crucial space for your child to begin to heal and recover from the trauma of separations from their birth and/or foster family, and for all parties, the intense emotional toll of transitions that came with introductions.

·        It enables your child to understand their relationship to you and attach to you as their parents, as opposed to other adults who have been caregivers to them, but not fulfilling the parental role. For some older children, this may be particularly confusing given that they may have lived through several foster moves, and have conscious memory of time with their birth parents, not to mention all of their involvement with a whole team of social workers and outside professionals, without ever having parents of their own. This period of time helps to transmit the message that you are permanent, safe, and in a special relationship with them.

·        It allows adequate time to put your foot on the brakes and allow your child to gradually, and appropriately attach to members of your wider family and friends network, without some of the pressure that may come with traditional expectations associated with the arrival of a birth child.

·        It helps you as a family to find your routine and to put into practice everything you have learnt about your child to date, to care for them, and provide them with a sense of security.

·        It helps highlight any potential issues that you may need support for as a family, and gives you the space you might need to work through some initial surmountable, but stressful challenges with professional help before you add the additional pressure of enmeshing wider family into your new life.

·        For many children, young and older, it can help fill in the blanks of some of the care and stability they have missed

 The cocooning period is also part of the period of time between your child moving home and being able to apply for their legal order. This period stretching beyond cocooning, will involve lots of review/settling in meetings with your social workers to provide a space to discuss how things are going. For us, this meant weekly meetings for the first 6 weeks, followed by fortnightly meetings and 2 formal reviews thereafter before our legal order came through (which happened comparatively quickly to most adopters for whom this period would stretch out further).

 On a practical note, “cocooning” with your child will look something like this (of course with some exceptions depending on the advice you receive about your child):

·        All main care done by the parents only – so personal care, washing, feeding, toileting, dressing, sleep etc

·        Physical contact and affection limited to parents only – this will mean asking others not to pick up, hug, kiss, hold your child for the first few weeks

·        Providing a solid, very consistent routine, emulating their foster routine as much as possible for the meantime, with no major changes in the first few weeks. As pedantic as this may sound (though I promise it makes sense when you’re living it), this might mean anything from keeping their toiletries, clothes, and smells the same (there’s an awful lot of washing powder chat on the adoption forums!!), through to ensuring their routine, clothes, comforts such as blankets and dummies etc, and toys/activities remain familiar to them for the first few weeks while adjusting.

·        No or very limited introductions to wider friends and family, and no visitors to the home until they are settled. Typically, the recommended period for an under-2 may be about 2 weeks, whereas for older children, this could mean more. Thereafter, ensuring introductions are very gradual in line with your child’s needs and comfort level.

·        Cocooning doesn’t have to mean staying inside the house like you’re on lockdown (ha!), but might mean local trips to low-key places such as parks, playgrounds, and local shops so they start to get used to the area. We were conscious that our hometown was geographically a long distance and a change from a rural to an urban environment for our Little Star, so had to be mindful of how busy/overwhelming it could potentially be.

·        For older children, it is likely to mean a delayed start to their new school. For younger children, a limit on clubs or playgroups for now.

·        By virtue of the above, this will necessarily mean your child not being babysat with friends and family in these early weeks. After cocooning, as part of our process, we had to nominate a few close family (grandparents) to be DBS checked during Stage 1, to be able to provide care other than us during the period before the legal order and were unable to leave Little Star with anyone else, including registered childcare providers. Remembering at this stage, that you will not have full parental responsibility (you share this with the state until the legal order and will be given papers outlining what you are/aren’t able to do during this period, which usually includes needing to seek permission for stays outside of the home for longer than a couple of days. It also includes other elements such as your level of permission to authorise medical treatment)

 I’m sure it’s needless to say that as you’re reading this, you’re imagining cocooning as an intense time, and it certainly is! It’s a weird limbo between bringing your child home and really being able to ingratiate them into your daily lives, because of the added ingredient of separation trauma that you will be trying to mitigate with cocooning. This does mean that at your most emotionally vulnerable time, you can find yourself feeling a little isolated and unable to access some of the usual things that would help such as seeing family and friends, getting away, etc at a time of stress. I had a bit of a struggle in my first I’d say 4 weeks at home with Little Star and found myself getting very depressed and anxious. I’m grateful that this was relatively short-lived and passed, but hindsight is a wonderful thing, and there is so much I wish I’d remembered to do to take care of myself at such an important juncture of my life. For what it’s worth, here are some tips based on my reflections of that time (which by the way I feel the need to say is in equal measures beautiful at the same time as all the stress – I intend this blog to be a real view of adoption but I equally don’t wish it to scare people off!):

 Cocooning Survival Tips

·        Treat this time as if you have had a new-born. What’s a little strange in adoption is that both your own, and others’ reaction to you bringing a child home, is not always the same as if you had just come out of hospital having had a new-born baby. There is a sense of excitement but also sometimes inadvertently a sense of carrying on as “before”. Here you are with this enormous life change overnight and a child you are having to get to know on the spot, and sometimes because they are not a tiny little 6lb bundle, you can set yourself completely unrealistic expectations which are just not warranted. I’m the first person to say that I never wanted to be one of those parents who centres my entire life on one aspect of my identity as a parent, but it would be ridiculous not to acknowledge that my whole world (at that time) had been shaken upside down, and I can’t return to the exact “same” person I was pre-child. My perspective and priorities have necessarily had to change. I would encourage any new adopter to “think new-born” within cocooning. Would you expect yourself to socialise, be available for a barrage of visits, be putting on a full face of makeup every day, replying to messages and emails, if you’d walked out of the hospital a week ago and were recovering from a caesarean? I think not. We may not have the scars of child birth but we do have the scars of our child’s traumas and we are becoming new parents too, but you will likely learn that as adopters we don’t always get the same grace and validation that birth parents do in terms of what we are taking on. Certainly, give yourself permission to be selfish, recognise this huge adjustment for what it is, and if you need to go off the radar for a short time, go off the radar! The right people will understand and this all links back to the work you will have done during Stage 2 on really testing your support network.

·        Allow yourself full permission to be as slobby as you need to be to focus on the most important things! Obviously a lot of it was just the sheer anxiety of having a baby in the house and largely being on my own in the house looking after them, and with time this got easier, but I can tell you, I didn’t take a lot of showers in those early days! I struggled to find time to eat, message people back, to keep people updated with the latest “news”, and I wasn’t always enjoying it. I wasn’t basking in some heavenly earth mother glow. I was stressed, down, anxious, and my memory seemed to dissolve overnight. I thankfully can tell you it all came back in a few weeks! But during that time, I was just headless chicken mode. I didn’t know Little Star well enough to know what they liked, didn’t like etc and it meant every day felt like a guessing game, so I just didn’t have any head space. If I ever did this again, I would now fully prepare for those first few weeks to be that way and plan accordingly!

·        Some small little things really help with self-care. Having some alone time with your partner when you can (nap times, evenings etc) can help you reset and recharge and check in with each other about how you feel it’s going. For single adopters, your social worker is likely to encourage you to make especially strong use of your support network, even if it has to be remotely. Someone to lean on and talk to about how you’re honestly feeling (not what others expect you to feel) is so important. I thank the stars for my Mum who listened to me over so many texts about how I was feeling, sent flowers when I was bursting into tears in front of the highchair, and who heard me out when I wasn’t sleeping and was at my wit’s end trying to be perfect (but of course failing miserably!). These things will pull you through. Early nights will help you get as much sleep as possible, and some outside time will work wonders for clearing your head. PJ days are more than fine, and for me, I am an early bird admittedly, but getting up half hour before baby meant I could at least get a cup of tea into my system before starting the day.

·        Structure really helps. You’ll of course want space for spontaneity but that’s probably not so much the order of the day at this point. I found the empty days really hard especially when my partner returned to work and thinking of the day as 4 blocks (AM/PM before/after naps) meant each chunk felt more achievable. Sometimes all I did was sit in Costa having what I called my little “pity-latte”(!) but it got me out, got me to feel I was having a treat, and it provided a focus for the morning. Now I look back and I truly don’t have to even think about how to pass my day – it’s gone in a blur, I enjoy it 9 times out of 10, and we get on fine, but time can slow when you’re in a bit of an enforced bubble. You’ll hopefully notice that feeling dissipate when you’re back out of the bubble and able to see family  and friends (just being able to see my Mum and my brother in person made an enormous difference) but for now, do what you need to do to feel sane!

·        If you are the person taking the main leave, and you have a partner, as long as they are able to take off to help with cocooning and transitions the better. People advised us of this at the beginning and I can really see how relevant it was in practice. The thing is, it is arguably a bit of a middle-class advantage to be able to take extended periods of time off work, and it won’t be possible for everyone financially and that’s okay – it’s just an ideal. My partner had frustratingly just started a new job, so whilst we had originally planned a 50/50 split with shared parental leave, we ended up with me taking the main leave and him having a fairly standard 2 weeks off, which included a week of introductions and I can say this felt nowhere near enough time. In an ideal world, I think we would have had about a month together, but it really is down to your circumstances. Do consider shared parental leave – in practice, I think with adoption having a more steady presence of both parents can make a huge difference (bizarrely we have come to benefit from us all being together during lockdown, though in sad circumstances).  If this isn’t on the table, think about how a combination of parental leave, annual leave, and if an option for you, unpaid leave might work to give you that little bit longer.

·        I felt so much pressure to be “on” all the time when Little Star first came home. I felt I had to be actively playing with them all day and attentive to them every single second otherwise I’d feel a huge wave of guilt and/or imposter syndrome, and that’s part of why I struggled to look after myself well enough in the early days. Every parenting blog I read seemed to suggest that all stay at home parents were literally doing nothing but sitting adoringly playing with their baby for hours on end, and I just couldn’t understand how anyone was up to that. It got exhausting. It didn’t take that long for me to work out that in reality, parents are people. We zone out, we get bored sometimes, and God forbid, sometimes we are just watching the clock for bedtime! But that doesn’t take away our wanting for our child, it just means we’re human. I’d have put much less pressure on myself in this regard. Don’t beat yourself up if you have lazy days, PJ days, days where you give them less than ideal food or they are subjected to a bit of TV – it may conversely be the thing that saves everyone’s sanity!

·        Showing affection to your little one is a weird one. I know I certainly felt a bit strange about kissing/hugging them at the start. Being honest, it felt forced and a bit surreal. Now I think nothing of picking up my Little Star and squishing their face, and harassing them for cuddles, but back then, I felt odd about it. In any other circumstance being intimate with a child I’d just met would feel inappropriate. Somehow through it all, I managed to strike a bit of a balance. I put absolutely no pressure on myself to instantly feel love for them (more of that in other blogs), but I did try to make a conscious effort to find opportunities for touch that felt as natural as possible. A bit of rough and tumble, some light hearted chasing games and peekaboo, kisses and cuddles at times that felt natural such as bedtime, and as Little Star was used to a very particular soothing method, I had opportunities for lots of close proximity. I can’t liken it to skin-to-skin for new-borns as I don’t know enough about that, but I guess the principle is similar. Finding opportunities for touch and eye contact really helped us bond.

·        I cannot state this one enough – utilise your social worker! Cocooning is in many ways an extension of introductions and your social worker will fully expect you to be struggling at times. Don’t be a martyr or feel you have to keep up a perfect image – it’s okay to call and say you’ve been having a rough time. Our social worker was brilliant and never made me feel judged or less than for how I felt. Oftentimes they will be able to make visits to you if you need some human contact outside of your bubble and a space for a vent – they should also be able to provide practical hints and tips as I guarantee you they will have heard it all before.

·        Staring at the walls all day can really take its toll during cocooning. We spent a LOT of time in outdoors spaces like woodlands, parks, and farms just having long walks and enjoying some quiet family time with Little Star. It served the purpose of bonding, practice being out and about with a little one, and a chance for us to clear our heads. I’d highly recommend it.

·        Accept help – if like me you’re useless at asking for and accepting help this can be a real challenge but do try to think about ways your support network can be there for you. People are happy to help and there may be small things that help make your life easier. They may not be able to see you physically but it could be things like video calls, dropping off meals/shopping, running errands for you, or if you already have other children, doing the odd school pick up to help out. Now’s the time to draw on that network you spoke about in your assessment.

·        Finally, all of this comes at a huge caveat – nothing is more important in those early days than your mental health. So if that means that you need to “break the rules” and meet up with family a little earlier than planned, or take some time out while your partner picks up the slack one day, the benefits of that for your wellbeing entirely outweigh anything else. The emotion I most closely associate with becoming an adoptive parent in the first weeks is “shock” – you are trying to adapt at immense pace to this huge life-changing event. Don’t be afraid to reach out and put your head above water to breathe if you need to.

So that’s cocooning, and let’s say that you’ve survived the experience intact, and are starting to introduce your child to friends and family. Knowing when the right time is will be a combination of your own instincts, your child’s comfort level, and your social worker’s views on appropriateness. I have a large family and because social workers knew this, I felt quite “monitored” in this regard, but it was all with good intent and after 2-3 weeks, it felt okay for us to start branching out. Here are some considerations to help this stage go smoothly…

 ·        Understandably, most people in your network won’t be fully familiar with adoption processes, and the concept of cocooning is likely to be alien. It can help to provide friends and family with a heads up about what to expect which may seem out of the norm ahead of time. First4Adoption do a fantastic crib sheet for loved ones on how best to support a new adoptive child into the family: 

https://www.first4adoption.org.uk/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/how-family-and-friends-can-help.pdf

·        Think about the best physical space to meet in. Usually it is best to opt for a neutral space like a park or a café – somewhere your loved ones can spend some time with your new arrival without too much pressure and where your child will not feel their space is being invaded, nor be confused about going to too many new houses, especially after having just gone through a transition between two houses in quick succession. For us, it actually felt best for Little Star to meet people at our home where they were comfortable, but you will know your child best. If you do have visitors at home, think about making visits short and not too intense with too many people at a time – we tended to introduce people in pairs so as not to overwhelm Little Star.

·        If you are adopting an older child, it may be worth explaining to your family that this child may have some behaviours or understandings that are out of sync with how your family do things. It takes time for any child to know what the established “rules of the house” are in new settings, and many older children in the system will have experienced differing rules at their foster homes, or may have been removed at an older age from a birth family home where their home environment was far different. It is not uncommon for older adopted children who have experience of their birth homes to struggle with following “expected” social rules about noise, politeness, silly things like how to use cutlery, sharing etc, because this may not have been their experience in the harsher world they lived in. Setting everyone’s expectations at the start will avoid unnecessary awkwardness and embarrassment, and ensure your child is put at ease. Some babies/children will demonstrate behaviours younger than their developmental stage, due to the level of disruption they’ve had. Not least this may make you feel a little “odd one out” as a parent – hopefully you will have as supportive a family as I am so lucky to have but if you do feel there could be some misunderstandings, better to discuss them in advance.

·        On the same vein, it’s worth giving people a heads up about affection. We had a few situations where people innocently went to pick Little Star up and give them a cuddle, and at the time I didn’t deal with it very well as I felt awkward about it and didn’t want to come across weirdly. If you have the conversation before meeting up, that way people know where they stand. The same goes for things like taking photos, sharing information or news about your child with other people and social media.

·        Advice which worked really well for us was to start with people who you expect will have close relationships with your child, working outwards to wider family at a later date. You’ll want to pay special attention to meetings with key people such as Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles etc which all helps your child to differentiate that these are special people and not just another adult they are meeting. We had to expediate some things a little earlier than ideal as Little Star moved in with 6 weeks until Christmas, but somehow we found a way to make it work by thinking about the best order to do things in.

·        For introductions, especially for babies, you will likely have made use of photo books for close family members for your child to familiarise with faces and names. These come in handy to reinforce key people again and again on the build up to real life meetings – we found this particularly helpful for Grandparents.

·        If your child has a comforter like a blankie or a dummy, make sure they’re on hand when meeting new people. It may seem a small thing, but them having a little piece of familiarity with them can be very soothing

·        If your circumstances mean that family helping with childcare will be a necessity in the near future, find small ways to build up to this. I ended up having a couple of times I had no choice but to ask Grandparents to babysit Little Star in the early days for short periods of time but ideally I would have waited longer. Ideally, it would take some months before you ask family to babysit, and certainly if this involves any over night stays, but of course it isn’t possible for everyone to wait this long, especially single adopters. We found good ways to build up were small things like watching them for half an hour while you grab a coffee or pop to the shop for a small chunk of me-time, or perhaps watching them while you attend an appointment. Unfortunately this is an area we’ve not been able to work on well as Lockdown was a spanner in the works so at present Little Star isn’t particularly used to being in others’ care almost a year in but we hope to resume working up to this as soon as we’re able.

·        This may seem overly rigid, but try not to compromise too much on your little one’s routine to work round others in the early days. In the first few months, a sense of familiarity and predictability will be important for your child and even seemingly innocuous changes can be quite destabilising. Others will understand and it needn’t be forever, but this will pay in dividends later when you’ve created a solid foundation to start from.

·        And finally, try to avoid overwhelm when you do branch out to doing meet ups. For me, meetups actually felt like a lifeline when I was feeling low and desperate for some familiar faces, but for many there may be a lot of pressure involved. People will naturally be excited to meet your child and this may result in slight pushiness or unannounced visits which are less than ideal. Keep the diary for the weeks following your arrival home clear as possible, limit visitors to what feels the right balance for you, and put expectations of “hosting” aside.

 And we come to the end of another rambly blog! As always, I hope this was useful, and I’m looking forward now to opening up the blog to more general adoption topics now we have followed a broad timeline of the process from Stage One. We will talk about the legal order in other blogs, but for now, our next stop will be reflections on our first 100 days as adopters – some thoughts I put together some while back when I was thinking about what we’d learned so far at that stage of the journey.

 Until then, take care and keep safe.

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8Chan - Moving the Goalposts and the Streisand Effect

The objective is "division,"deflection, distraction. Know this. Moving the goalposts: A common metaphor for moving the focus of an argument to another position (usually after being found out). I contend that MSM and their digital arms are no longer reporters, are not sources of truth, neither are they impartial observers. Those who use media channels to beat them to "real" information" are an existential threat to them. The Streisand Effect: "The Streisand effect is a phenomenon whereby an attempt to hide, remove, or censor a piece of information has the unintended consequence of publicizing the information more widely, usually facilitated by the Internet. It is an example of psychological reactance, wherein once people are aware that some information is being kept from them, their motivation to access and spread it is increased."https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Streisand_effect Reactance is an unpleasant motivational arousal (reaction) to offers, persons, rules, or regulations that threaten or eliminate specific behavioral freedoms. Reactance occurs when a person feels that someone or something is taking away their choices or limiting the range of alternatives.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reactance_(psychology) They want to control the outcomes. They need time to "setup" their bullshit. That is their key vulnerability. They are slow and cannot react to events as they occur. that is why they have talking points (to regroup around).  That is why you see the mismatch in what they say and what is actually occurring in real time. The only way to stop this is to ban "free speech"or close access to those you want to hide.  This has happened and is happening, ...deplatforming, censorship, shadowbanning, check Project Veritas for more ...https://twitter.com/JamesOKeefeIII

A couple of important things, MSM wants to keep the charade moving along: paper of record, "reporter,"source, editor, publisher, story, news, etc., are all important terms.  Ever heard of operation mockingbird? What is it, why does it exist? In recent days they started with the idea that Orange Man (a person of color) was "responsible" for the two public mass shootings through his "racist" speech. Without proof these entities labelled this Orange Man a "white" supremacist moving the goalpost into the KKK zone (and we all know who they are, you clowns). No proof of anything, just rollin along with their nonsense. Take a look Mr. Lemon giving a stellar rendition below... Or Mr. Best here in high falsetto... Let's begin a short walk through recent events. I published this a few days ago: "Every media outlet jumping up and down pointing the finger at one man. Orange man bad." I alleged that if we dug deeper than the headline we'd find out things are quite different to the headline. 180° different, but that when this information would come to light, they'd hide it and shift focus. They did, moving away as quickly as possible from the people killed in Dayton, keeping it political and divisive, constantly shape-shifting, blaming and labeling. Initial post - http://www.ad360.co/we-knew Topics covered: more than 3-4 shooters (El Paso) - still to be effectively denied? Antifa meetup to be held in El Paso - they flip flopped on this one Shooter's social media pages changed - nobody interested Shooter's father, therapy and C_A mind control - nobody interested 8Chan as the source of the "manifesto" - the first platform to be de-platformed! Was this what they were actually after? Kill innocents to stop the flow of information. D politicians all on message, Twitter shills on message, all marching in lockstep too early. Now you can't walk it back. Time is up. The ruse has been uncovered. Remember the clock is running down.  Too many people know, they simply don't have the ability to keep covering their tracks. This one will be links to other people's work... This one is excellent, it efficiently digs into the "alleged" mind control angle - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3BzCcXWBQs

You'll see how Bryan Crusius (father of "alleged shooter") is connected to Colin Ross (Spook) via Timberlawn, both interested in "therapy." Ross also appears to be able to skip out court appearances in both Canada and the US. "My previous post: A guy travels 600 miles to shoot up a Walmart.  Odd wouldn't you think? Wears ear defenders and changes his pants half way through? Has all the classic false flag attributes; father a therapist (check) with CIA connections, white loner who suddenly goes online an builds a weak presence (check), drops a "manifesto" note beforehand (very a la mode), changing his social media profiles and political affiliation while in the act of committing murder or while in police custody? witness say three to four people dressed in black? Does anybody fact check these people? Is anything held up to scrutiny?"  

when I say alleged shooter above please not that the MO in most of these false flags is to have the "shooter" as a patsy. If you think about it, the ony use for this person is to be so out of it they cannot produce a coherent recollection of what happened. If, as stated by multiple witnesses, there were more shooters involved then the patsy (in El Paso) is a deflection device. These guys are pawns too (that makes it a bit sick). There is also the fact that this shooter was not adept with firearms and managed to kill 20 people with a 30 round mag in an AK 47. Not the most easy thing to do, as some have noted. https://nypost.com/2019/08/05/el-paso-shooter-went-to-walmart-because-he-was-hungry-authorities   This one by the same producer develops more background on the Dayton shooter - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkH4D0ltwg0

We know already that the Dayton shooter was left leaning, a bit sick and twisted and had nothing to do with Trump (strange he picked the same weekend as the El Paso shooter to do his work - coincidence, surely, surely). We know already that the Dayton shooter was left leaning, a bit sick and twisted and had nothing to do with Trump (strange he picked the same weekend as the El Paso shooter to do his work - coincidence, surely, surely). Gilroy shooter -  https://twitter.com/MrAndyNgo/status/1158823322454331392 Further push for violence in Portland on 17th -  https://twitter.com/MrAndyNgo/status/1158590052374462464 This happened in Springfield (Aug 8th): https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2019/08/exclusive-photos-armed-man-with-rifle-handgun-100-rounds-of-ammo-and-body-armor-stopped-and-arrested-by-firefighter-outside-springfield-mo-walmart

Note the clothing choices, note the location, note the timing; lot's of coincidences? Why is Walmart important? https://www.dhs.gov/blog/2010/12/06/dhs-and-walmart-partners-promoting-if-you-see-something-say-something-campaign

"Earlier this month (2011), DHS unveiled a new terror alert system that will hijack social networking sites as one way of informing people of terrorist threat updates. “The new, two-tiered system will provide alerts that are more specific to the threat and even recommend certain actions or suggest that people look for specific suspicious behavior, she said. They also may be limited to a particular audience — such as law enforcement — rather than broadcast to the general public, and also will have a specified end date,” reported Information Week Government. In December, Department of Homeland Security Secretary Janet Napolitano  announced the expansion of the Department’s national “If You See Something, Say Something” campaign to hundreds of Walmart stores across the country — launching a new partnership between DHS and Walmart to help the American public play an active role in informing on each other. Thousands of Wamart stores will have telescreens pumping out government propaganda." https://www.globalresearch.ca/obama-launches-total-takeover-of-media-system/23150 How were police so quick to the scene in Dayton and in such numbers?   This quote is interesting: "Think about what connecting Alex Jones to the Lt. Gov means and add "baselessly" in terms of propaganda (minus plus minus equals plus) Toxic conspiracy theorist Alex Jones and Texas Lt. Gov. Dan Patrick both attempted to baselessly connect a mass shooting that targeted Latinos to upcoming anti-facism protests. " https://www.mediamatters.org/alex-jones/tx-lt-gov-dan-patrick-nearly-indistinguishable-alex-jones-el-paso-white-nationalist-mass You might note that other outlets went on the offensive against what the called "right wing fake news" (links in my previous post). Washington Post, Bezos and the C_A, all full speed ahead against something which "doesn't exist?"

Add that post to these posts...

And this (https://twitter.com/JuliansRum/status/1158919312779952130)

Thirteen thousand people respond? C'mon. I know you're not that stupid. Orange Man Good (OMG). They're in panic. Why are they in panic... This week there were plenty of reasons to change the news cycle; Epstein ( Wexner creating distance), Franklin Square FD wanting to reopen 911, Nunes being full given access, Coates dropping out as NSI Director, declass coming, Mueller, Cummings and Baltimore under the spotlight (caught in a sting, reportedly), Congresswoman Omar (my brother's keeper), Nadler (Lord Farquuad), Schiff (c'mon, this guy?), Pelosi (district in ruins, homeless issues, water, etc.) talking about continuing to go after Trump https://twitter.com/realDonaldTrump/status/1155315616171155456, Wiener's laptop and those dead NY cops, Uranium , Wikileaks gets right to publish, Bruce Ohr , Capital One and Amazon, Tulsi Gabbard getting the "treatment," Democratic Debate Debacle, Demicrap Booker wants to shut Trump rallies down :), Big Tech EO   https://twitter.com/katierogers/status/1159192574650998794, and there is more ...it gets so much worse. Wouldn't you be squealing like a trapped rat too? Read the full article

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Lmaoooo okay here we go 1: Full nameSavannah Lacey Satterfield 2: Age20, I turn 21 on Saturday!! 3: 3 Fears-being lied to -losing loved ones -not being good enough 4: 3 things I love-my career -my pets -the feeling of laughing until you can't breathe 5: 4 turns on-when a dude puts his hands on/behind my neck -butt grabbin' -neck kissing -hip grabbin'6: 4 turns off: Idk this ones hard bc I really only ever focus on things that turn me on 7: My best friendKwynn 💓8: Sexual orientationStraight 9: My best first date🤷‍♀️10: How tall am I5'5"11: What do I missMy brothers 12: What time were I born8:01 am13: Favourite colorBlack 14: Do I have a crushYeah tbh 15: Favourite quote"This too shall pass"16: Favourite placeThe ocean 17: Favourite foodDon't have one tbh18: Do I use sarcasmAll the time 19: What am I listening to right nowWeird music that Kwynns boyfriend put on lmao20: First thing I notice in new personEyes, smile 21: Shoe size8.522: Eye colorHazel/golden brown 23: Hair colorBlack, with two blond pieces in the front24: Favourite style of clothingAs long as its black and/or a band tee or from blackcraft cult/killstar I'll probably dig it 25: Ever done a prank call?Ysab 27: Meaning behind my URLI'm sad 28: Favourite movieThe nightmare before Christmas 🖤29: Favourite songI can never choose just one 30: Favourite bandI've got a couple31: How I feel right nowNumb 32: Someone I love@mathurbator33: My current relationship statusSingle 34: My relationship with my parents Who needs parents anyway 35: Favourite holidayHalloween 👻 36: Tattoos and piercing i haveI have 8 tattoos and 2 piercings37: Tattoos and piercing i wantI've got so many ideas 38: The reason I joined TumblrI don't think I had an actual reason 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?I hate him, I don't think he hates me 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Sometimes from my friends 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? No lol42: When did I last hold hands? A long while ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Like an hour and a half bc I'm extra 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yeah45: Where am I right now? Sitting on my living room floor 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Kwynn or Rhaina lmao 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud af 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Nope 49: Am I excited for anything? My birthday on Saturday which is funny bc I'm never excited about my birthday. 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Kwynn 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Often 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Today, my client hugged me 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I hate this question 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? I'd hope not 55: What is something I disliked about today? I saw my therapist and talked about stuff 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Anyone? This is such a broad question 57: What do I think about most? Work probably 58: What’s my strangest talent? I'm not sure 59: Do I have any strange phobias? Nothing out of the norm 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind 61: What was the last lie I told? "Yeah I'm just tired"62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Either 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Both tbh 64: Do I believe in magic? I mean 65: Do I believe in luck? Yeah 66: What’s the weather like right now? It's cold 🖤67: What was the last book I’ve read? I don't remember tbh 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? I'll admit it 69: Do I have any nicknames? Nah70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I broke my right collarbone once 71: Do I spend money or save it? Spend 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? No lmao 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Yeah 74: Favourite animal? Cats 🖤75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Watching season 2 of rupauls drag race 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? Satterfield 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Really any throwback song 78: How can you win my heart? Just be genuine 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I just want my tombstone to be a pumpkin 80: What is my favorite word? Fuck81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: tbh I don't know, I enjoy everyone I follow 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? BE FUCKING NICE TO EACH OTHER 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not as of right now 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? The ability to read minds bc I'm nosey 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? I don't know tbh, I'm an honest person 86: What is my current desktop picture? I think it's just a default photo 87: Had sex? Yep88: Bought condoms? Yeah89: Gotten pregnant? Nope 90: Failed a class? Lmao 91: Kissed a boy? Yeah 92: Kissed a girl? Yeaaaa93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? I think so 94: Had job? Yeah 95: Left the house without my wallet? Yeah 96: Bullied someone on the internet? Noooooo no no 97: Had sex in public? ....98: Played on a sports team? No 99: Smoked weed? Yeah 100: Did drugs? Yeah 101: Smoked cigarettes? Oops 102: Drank alcohol? Yeah 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? No 104: Been overweight? Probably 105: Been underweight? No 106: Been to a wedding? Yes 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Lmao 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yeah 109: Been outside my home country? No 110: Gotten my heart broken? Ohhh yeah111: Been to a professional sports game? No 112: Broken a bone? Yeah 113: Cut myself? Yeah. 114: Been to prom? Yeah 115: Been in airplane? Yes 116: Fly by helicopter? No 117: What concerts have I been to? Oh god this list is so long 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? No 119: Learned another language? I briefly learned Spanish but I don't remember any of it so120: Wore make up? All the time 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Yeah 122: Had oral sex? Yeah123: Dyed my hair? Yeah 124: Voted in a presidential election? Yeah 125: Rode in an ambulance? No 126: Had a surgery? No 127: Met someone famous? Yeah 128: Stalked someone on a social network? Honestly who doesnt129: Peed outside? Yeah 130: Been fishing?no 131: Helped with charity? Yes 132: Been rejected by a crush? My life p much 133: Broken a mirror? Yes 134: What do I want for birthday? I just want all my friends in one place 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? None 136: Was I named after anyone? Nope 137: Do I like my handwriting? It's okay I guess 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? Barbies for sure 139: Favourite Tv Show? As a kid?? Powerpuff girls was my shit140: Where do I want to live when older? Anywhere as long as I'm happy 141: Play any musical instrument? Hope 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Probably falling 143: Favourite pizza toping? Olives 144: Am I afraid of the dark? Eh145: Am I afraid of heights? No146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Yeah lmao147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? hahaha 148: What I’m really bad at: existing 149: What my greatest achievments are; college 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: I can't really think of one specific thing 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: give money to my friends, donate to charity and buy a house and a new car 152: What do I like about myself: I do my best to be good 153: My closest Tumblr friend: p much everyone I talk to on here is my friend irl so154: Something I fantasise about: mental stability 155: Any question you’d like? 🤷‍♀️

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About Me Again (Lowkey addicted to questionnaires)

Full name : Alyssa >.>

Zodiac sign : Gemini

3 Fears : Spiders, the dark, heights

3 things I love : BTS, writing, sleeping

4 turns ons : Being called baby girl/princess, someone who smells amazing, butt grabs/slaps, and neck kisses

4 turns offs : Bad odor, huge flirts, bad grammar, and try-hards

My best friend : I have a few best friends~

Sexual orientation : Pansexual

My best first date : My best first REAL date was.. dinner and a movie with @daddyoppa​

How tall am I : 5′4, I think

What do I miss : Being little

What time were I born : Idk

Favourite colour : Black, purple, red, white.. I have so many. 

Do I have a crush: Yep~

Favourite quote: “Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect” but there are others, too. So many amazing quotes~

Favourite place: Disney Woooorld

Favourite food : Sushi, Steak.. Can I have both?

Do I use sarcasm : Plenty

What am I listening to right now : KeemStar’s live

First thing I notice in new person: I usually notice a person’s smile or eyes first

Shoe size : 9 - 9 1/2

Eye colour: Bluuuue

Hair colour : Natural - Med. brown, Dyed - Black

Favourite style of clothing : I love casual, but I also really love dressy clothes~

Ever done a prank call? : Yeah

What colour of underwear I’m wearing now? : Pink

Meaning behind my URL : I’m obsessed with Sub!Jungkook. Need I say more?

Favourite movie: I love so many movies

Favourite song : YOU CAN’T ASK ME THIIIISSSS

Favourite band: BTS

How I feel right now : Sleepy af

Someone I love : I love a lot of people.. @gleamingjimin​ <3  @daddyoppa​ @ya-boy-bambam​ @bangtanprincesss​

My current relationship status : Single but.. hopefully that changes soon?

My relationship with my parents : Eh.. 

Favourite holiday : Either Halloween or Christmas

Tattoos and piercings? : Neither but they’re hot

Tattoos and piercing i want : I want a monroe piercing.. or maybe dimple piercings? (I only have one dimple tho) - Tattoos... I’d like a tattoo on my wrist.. Maybe of a semicolon or a line from a BTS song. 

The reason I joined Tumblr : Well, I wanted to test it out for a while, but I never have until just recently. I don’t really have a big reason tbh

Do I and my last ex hate each other? : No but we don’t speak to each other much anymore.

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? : Yes :3

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? : Nope

When did I last hold hands? : I don’t remember

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? : If I have to shower that morning then about 45 minutes. If not, then it takes about 15-20 minutes

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? : Yep~ Shaved them last night!

Where am I right now? : My bedroom

If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? : Hell.. Idk

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? : LOUD. THE LOUDER THE BETTER 

Do I live with my Mom and Dad? : Not technically. I live with my aunt and uncle, but my parents are right next door.

Am I excited for anything? : BTS’ comeback

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? : My brother

How often do I wear a fake smile? : Pretty much every single day C:

When was the last time I hugged someone? : 1 hour ago, maybe? I hugged my brother.

What if the last person you kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? : Eh, I haven’t kissed anyone sooooo

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not? : I don’t think so. I have trust issues so if I trust you, there’s a good reason for that.

What is something I disliked about today? : Finding out I have to write 10-12 pages before next Tuesday

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? : @gleamingjimin​ and BTS

What do I think about most? : BTS

What’s my strangest talent? : I don’t have any talents

Do I have any strange phobias? : Escalaphobia

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? : Behind

What was the last lie I told? : “I’ll be fine”

Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? : On the phone

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? : Yes and yes

Do I believe in magic? : Yes

Do I believe in luck? : Mhmm

What’s the weather like right now? : Humid and stormy

What was the last book I’ve read? : Well.. Now the Spanish dictionary pfffft

Do I like the smell of gasoline?: Oddly enough I do

Do I have any nicknames? : Lys, Scarlet, baby, baby girl

What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? : Sprained ankle

Do I spend money or save it? : I save it for a while but then.. you know.. BTS. 

Can I touch my nose with a tongue? : No 

Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? : Well.. my panties are pink

Favourite animal? : PANDA

What was I doing last night at 12 AM? : Watching public freak out videos

What do I think is Satan’s last name is? : Wut

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? : Yes I Am by Mamamoo

How can you win my heart? : Wut

What would I want to be written on my tombstone? : Ummm... I really have no idea. Just have BTS lyrics all over it.. or even their faces :D 

What is my favourite word : FUCK

My top 5 blogs on tumblr : Cries I’ve already done this. // i love everyone okokok

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? : STOP BEING SUCH FUCKNUGGETS AND USE THE DAMN BRAIN YOU WERE GIVEN. 

Do I have any relatives in jail? : Nope

I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? : Psychokinesis 

What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? : I really don’t know

What is my current desktop picture? : I have a slideshow going of BTS

Had sex? : Nope

Bought condoms? : No

Gotten pregnant? : Helllll no 

Failed a class? : Yeah 

Kissed a boy? : Nope

Kissed a girl? : The cheek counts, right? 

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? : No

Had job? : Babysitting count?

Left the house without my wallet? : Once and I flipped out

Bullied someone on the internet? : Hell no

Had sex in public? : Nope

Played on a sports team? : Yeah

Smoked weed? : No

Did drugs? : No

Smoked cigarettes? : I tried once when I was little and burnt myself... then threw up.

Drank alcohol? : Yeah

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? : No

Been overweight? : Always been overweight, but that’s due to a medical condition and it’s hereditary. Of course it doesn’t help that I eat away my stress and depression :’)))

Been underweight? : Pft. No. 

Been to a wedding? : Yesss

Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? : ...sadly

Watched TV for 5 hours straight? : Nah

Been outside my home country? : Nope but I plan on traveling

Gotten my heart broken? : Yeah.. 

Been to a professional sports game? : Mhm

Broken a bone? : Not that I recall. KI mean, I sprained my ankle but that’s about it

Cut myself? : Yes.. I advise anyone who is thinking about doing it or currently doing it to get some help. It does NOT solve your problems.. 

Been to prom? : Yeah and it sucked

Been in airplane? : Yep

Fly by helicopter? : Nope

What concerts have I been to? : When I was in like.. 6th grade I went to the Jonas Brothers’ concert and March 29th of this year I saw BTS

Had a crush on someone of the same sex? : Yep and I do currently

Learned another language? : Spanish~ I’m currently trying to teach myself Korean

Wore make up? : Yeah

Lost my virginity before I was 18? : No

Had oral sex? : No

Dyed my hair? : Yessss

Voted in a presidential election? : fuck that

Rode in an ambulance? : No

Had a surgery? : Yes

Met someone famous? : Namjoonie noticed me in a vlive once... Does that count??

Stalked someone on a social network? : Yes XD

Peed outside? : Yeah

Been fishing? : Mhm

Helped with charity? : Mhm

Been rejected by a crush? : Sadly

Broken a mirror? : Yeup.

What do I want for birthday? : BTS merrrcchhhh

How many kids do I want and what will be their names? : At least 2. As for names, I’m undecided.

Was I named after anyone? ; Yeah, you know.. Alyssa Milano?

Do I like my handwriting? : I like my cursive

What was my favourite toy as a child? : Barbies

Favourite Tv Show? : Impractical Jokers

Where do I want to live when older? :Northern United States.. or New Zealand

Play any musical instrument? : Nah

One of my scars, how did I get it? : Bike wreck

Favourite pizza topping? : Pineapples and pepperoni

Am I afraid of the dark? : Yes

Am I afraid of heights? : Yes

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? : I got caught watching porn when I was like 14 or so

Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? : MY LIFE

What I’m really bad at : Socializing 

What my greatest achievements are : Idk

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me : There’s so many.

What I’d do if I won in a lottery : Pay off my brother’s college, buy my parents a new house and car, buy a little something for me, and save the rest (depending on how much we’re talking pffft)

What do I like about myself : I like my eyes and hair

My closest Tumblr friend : @gleamingjimin and @daddyoppa

Something I fantasise about my ex : I don’t

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1: Full nameConnor Edwards, I've probs done it before, but I'm leaving out my middle name from now on2: Age203: 3 FearsSpiders, failure, being alone4: 3 things I loveSarah, fitness, and pop punk5: 4 turns onSarah, being rough, cute lingerie, doing things at inappropriate times and places6: 4 turns offI can't think of any, pass7: My best friendSarah8: Sexual orientationStr89: My best first dateWhen Sarah and I went to the art museum and Kings Island, it was really cold and I was kinda sick but it was soooo worth it10: How tall am I6 feet 3 inches or 1,91 meters11: What do I missSarah12: What time were I bornI think around 5 AM13: Favourite colorPurple14: Do I have a crushYes obviously15: Favourite quote"Existence is pain"- Mr. Meeseeks16: Favourite placeAnywhere with Sarah17: Favourite foodPizza18: Do I use sarcasmAll the time19: What am I listening to right nowMy fan spinning20: First thing I notice in new personTheir voice21: Shoe size10.5-11, depends on the brand22: Eye colorBlue-green23: Hair colorBlond24: Favourite style of clothingPop punk or athletic wear25: Ever done a prank call?Yes27: Meaning behind my URLIt's sort of from a Real Friends song called loose ends and when I made it I didn't really like myself so I thought I had too many loose ends to fix28: Favourite movieEither the new Power Rangers movie or Clockwork Orange29: Favourite song19 Seventy Sumthin' by Neck Deep30: Favourite bandNeck Deep or Knocked Loose31: How I feel right nowI miss Sarah32: Someone I loveSarah33: My current relationship statusTaken34: My relationship with my parentsIt's alright35: Favourite holidayHalloween bc I love much Sarah gets excited for it, it's adorable36: Tattoos and piercing i haveNone37: Tattoos and piercing i wantI have a whole list lol38: The reason I joined TumblrAll my friends were doing it, now I'm like the only one left lol39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?I don't hate her, I just think she's a bad person 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?Yes41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?Yes42: When did I last hold hands?Earlier today43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?Depends on if I shower or not, an hour without, an hour and a half with44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?Nope45: Where am I right now?In bed46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?Sarah47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?Loud af48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?Yeah but I wish I didn't49: Am I excited for anything?Seeing Sarah50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Yes51: How often do I wear a fake smile?Whenever customers tell shit jokes52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Earlier today53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?I would be v upset54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Nope55: What is something I disliked about today?Sarah having to leave56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?Neil deGrasse Tyson or Stephen Hawking57: What do I think about most?Sarah58: What’s my strangest talent?I don't even have any normal talents lol59: Do I have any strange phobias?Nope60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Behind61: What was the last lie I told?I don't know lol I don't keep track of them62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Video chatting63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?No, yes64: Do I believe in magic?No65: Do I believe in luck?No66: What’s the weather like right now?I think it might be cloudy but I don't feel like checking67: What was the last book I’ve read?From start to finish? Idk lol68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?Yes69: Do I have any nicknames?I don't really have any70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?Torn labrum/dislocated shoulder, I had to have 5 anchors put in my shoulder to fix it71: Do I spend money or save it?Spend lol72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?Yes73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?Yes74: Favourite animal?Fennec foxes75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Getting ready for bed76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Satan doesn't exist so he has none77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Gold Steps by Neck Deep78: How can you win my heart?If you're not Sarah there's no chance of it happening79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?I'm not sure80: What is my favorite word?Sarah81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrI literally only pay attention to Sarah's so I don't have 4 others lol 😅82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Can we please do something about the Nazi problem we have83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Not that I'm aware of 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Regeneration85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?Idk???86: What is my current desktop picture?The default one87: Had sex?Yes88: Bought condoms?Yes89: Gotten pregnant?No90: Failed a class?Not technically but I have to retake some for my major91: Kissed a boy?No92: Kissed a girl?Yes93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?Yes94: Had job?Yes95: Left the house without my wallet?Yes96: Bullied someone on the internet?I don't think so?97: Had sex in public?No but we've done stuff in public98: Played on a sports team?Yes99: Smoked weed?No100: Did drugs?No101: Smoked cigarettes?No102: Drank alcohol?No103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?No104: Been overweight?No105: Been underweight?Technically speaking yes but I've always been a healthy weight106: Been to a wedding?Yes107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?I don't think so108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?Probably109: Been outside my home country?Yes110: Gotten my heart broken?Yes111: Been to a professional sports game?Yes112: Broken a bone?Yes113: Cut myself?No114: Been to prom?Yes115: Been in airplane?Yes116: Fly by helicopter?No117: What concerts have I been to?Warped tour '13-'17, back to the future hearts tour, apollo x tour, overdose tour, okay usa tour, and I saw Beartooth with Silverstein in early 2015 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?Nope119: Learned another language?Yes120: Wore make up?Nope121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?Nope122: Had oral sex?Yes123: Dyed my hair?Nope124: Voted in a presidential election?Yes125: Rode in an ambulance?Yes126: Had a surgery?Yes127: Met someone famous?Yes128: Stalked someone on a social network?Who hasn't?129: Peed outside?Yes130: Been fishing?No131: Helped with charity?Yes132: Been rejected by a crush?Yes133: Broken a mirror?No134: What do I want for birthday?Money135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?None136: Was I named after anyone?Nope137: Do I like my handwriting?Sure but it's sloppy af138: What was my favourite toy as a child?I really like Lego sets 139: Favourite Tv Show?Rick and Morty140: Where do I want to live when older?I'm not sure141: Play any musical instrument?Not anymore142: One of my scars, how did I get it?I have a scar on my right knee from hitting a hurdle 143: Favourite pizza toping?My fav is plain cheese144: Am I afraid of the dark?No145: Am I afraid of heights?Sort of146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?Yes 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?Yes148: What I’m really bad atA lot lol149: What my greatest achievments areGetting onto a D1 track team, re-earning my scholarship after losing it, dating Sarah150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to meI'm not sure151: What I’d do if I won in a lotteryPretend like I didn't152: What do I like about myselfFor someone so scrawny I'm pretty strong153: My closest Tumblr friendSarah154: Something I fantasise aboutLife with Sarah once were both done with undergrad155: Any question you’d like?To answer your question, I'm not sure, that's up to you since you like it so much, I just like getting to do it with you 😘