#it's sooooooo. ugh. still reading it though

[lawyeryuri]

I'm reading this fanfiction and the is mischaracterization is so off the charts I'm not actually sure if me and the author watched the same show

[decaflondonfog]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💜

omg hi this is so kind!!! thank you <3

well. i don't have thaaaaat many fics (says the girl who has like +60 fics under a different name fdjhghj) but this is still kind of hard!

growing pains (check please!, bitty/parse, rated e, 50k)

both like on the creating side of things, and in a final product sense, this is probably one of the things i've written i am most proud of. 50k is no joke. it just took over sooooooo much of my life, and i still think about them every day.

what are they up to? are they happy? is jack happy? is bitty's book super popular? has he met kent's sisters and nieces? their story was just... ugh. so so so important to me and felt so good to write despite the angsty bits and was also FUN. i had not had that much fun writing in such a long time!!

2. savage natures (aftg, mary hatford character study with a side of andreil, rated m, 6k)

my first aftg fic! it's funny because this would be a much different fic if i'd written it now (i'd be less of a coward and i wouldn't bother with the andreil plotline. i need more mary. alas.) but i'm still really proud of it and love it so, so dearly. i don't usually write 1st person pov but i really love the voice i gave mary here!!

3. geometric equilibrium (aftg, kandreil rated m, 10k)

canon compliant kandreil? i wanted to read it so i wrote it. this was the first fic idea i had after i read the books, even though i ended up posting savage natures first. it was really scary trying to get their voices right and jumping from pov to pov, but it was super self indulgent and i'm proud of it.

4. celly (aftg, ?? the pairing is whatever you want, rated t, 800 words)

i wasn't going to include this because it's only a ficlet but by god i love it. i was writing a different thing that day and had been studying exy rules for ages and then a pal filled my head with images of kevin being climbed like a tree and this was born! it's fun! go sports!!

5. a wreath of white lilies (aftg, kevin/allison, rated very e, 4k)

valentine's day funeral smut!!!!! WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE? i love writing unhinged shit like this. 10/10 would rec as a writing experience, everyone should go nuts every once in a while. it's good 4 u

[shhisp]

1.I read your hc about Alpha Kids education and I wonder how much of Grandma English not telling Jake about HIC was because she thought she still had more time. Like he was still very little when she died. But at the same time for me it makes Jake look very sharp that he managed to survive on that island. Buuut yeah, he wouldn't survive normal school (mood).

2. Im really curious if you have hc about Jake relationship with Jade? I'm still sad that them being penpals and clearly friends for years was ignored in Homestuck. They build murderbunny together! Best bonding time ever. Plus I bet that Dirk was veeeeeery jealous that Jake build a ROBOT with SOMEONE ELSE for SOMEONE ELSE.

1. I do think she told him ENOUGH about HIC that, like, he got a helping of generational trauma from both Condy and LE which I love because angst. I do think she would've told him more, though, when he was... you know, older. But I can just as easily see her not going into true graphic detail about the stuff she used to experience. You have Jake remembering vividly about her mother killing her dog, but she told of a more "fantastical" tale despite that detail, curiously enough. Jade has so much she just builds up inside of her that I don't think she'd ever say enough to make Jake feel as truly devastated as she knew he probably would. I imagine she told him about Bec first and foremost, which had Jake spiraling, the poor boy. She tried to tell him what she could without breaking his heart ):

2. I could probably talk about Jade and Jake and their relationship together for fucking ages and all the different dynamics, because imo there's an infinite amount of ways I handle them in my head! In which case I'll probably go into my favorite platonic dynamic for them post-game, which I've done a LOT of thinking over since 2017.

Platonic route aside I love Dirk being jealous of Jade anyway. Jake clearly went to his grandma first and foremost as his main source of comfort after such a traumatizing game and a messy breakup with a hint of sexual assault to boot, and this is more or less Hussie-confirmed! In the epilogues, out of all the direct pairs (John and Jane, Dave and Dirk, Rose and Roxy), Jade and Jake seem to be the absolute closest with each other! And the umm. Well the whole Harlenglish annual orgy thing which is....... MOVING ON!

I think she always ends up seeing him as more of her grandson than she does her grandpa, especially since they know each other as kids and all! Jake, though, just naturally seems to fit into the role of soft submissive boy raised by an awesome woman trope. He greatly idolizes her, just like he canonically does John, who I imagine he saw as more of a "Poppop" than Jane did, seeing as everything Jade told him about dear old John! It's honestly so adorable I could cry! Jake loves his family to bits and pieces and it's so... SO very wholesome.

I have my own ideas about how John would see Dirkjake working out ("EB: how can a black eye be consensual??") but Jade I think definitely Gets It more than anyone. That being said she is so horribly hard on Dirk anyway. That's her baby boy her grandpa her grandson her BROTHER!!! and she will aim a gun at him if he does something fucking stupid (and he does that a lot, I think.) Dirk however respects her to hell and back and he's like. Alright. If my boyfriend's grandma tells me to kill myself I'm gonna respect her wishes, because she's right. A lot of mutual respect remains between them all the same, imo, especially when their main goal is to just see Jake happy. I love them getting closer and starting to talk about their shared interests more than life itself as the years go by.

The conversation when he calls Jade about wanting to get out of his relationship in the candy route is one of my favorite parts between them and says sooooooo much, even if we didn't get it in canon Homestuck proper. He trusts her more than even Roxy, at that point, and that personally says so much to me. Ugh I love them. Even when they're only cousins in some AUs I make, they're always two peas in a pod that almost always share the same bed when they can.

I have some other ideas of course that would be better suited for another post, and some particular details for Grandpa and Jade and Grandma and Jake (likewise, very specific circumstances) but this is how I like to write their relationship in almost every regard. Jane doesn't strike me as very protective at all, much as I love her, but Jade and Jake will defend each other to the ends of the Earth. Jake basically threatened Dave in candy for not giving her a child, imagine if he BROKE HER HEART!!!

Harlenglishes 4ever. I would do anything for more content of them together. 😭

[captainaikus]

BELLEEEEEEEEEE ;;;;;; HENLOOOOOOOOOO i-idk if you've already received my message through your other account (or maybe tumblr is being a bitch yet again-) so I'll send my message here on your main! ╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯ pardon me for writing with grammatical errors I'm currently writing this at 1:38AM... and for writing it long-

I'm terribly sorry for not being able to be active around the time of your juicy event ;; we just finished our art exhibit and a loooooot of things happened inside the event! My previous colleagues appeared and said 'hi', someone bought my personal artwork (to my surprise), I had to fulfill some obligations to welcome guest and help in some stalls (mostly the alcoholic ones sooooooo that took a lot of guts for me, I just coped with it by looking at the happy expressions of our visitors), some alumnis visited as well (out of all the things we prepared for the event, they really loved how we still care about their past by showing them the panel filled with exhibit predecessors of our college course), and many more! It left a big impression on me and gave me a bit of confidence about what I do inside my career.

Next is.. YOUR 2K FOLLOWERS EVENT--- THE HOST CLUB EVENT WITH BLUE LOCK CHARACTERSSSS BCISMANFKKEKAMS OMAGAHHH THE UTTER DESPAIR THAT I FELT FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO PARTICIPATE - ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽ I enjoyed reading it though! Hehe~ >< especially the Rin and Nagi ones~ I think I can't even stop giggling so much inside the house or outside because I had to visit places for the exhibit (and omfg... The amount of times that I need to shift my phone unsuspectingly so that they can't see what I'm reading SKSKKSKSJFKEKSJFKSM ( ≧Д≦)

And speaking of Rin!! I am a Rin stan at heart and currently planning to buy many merch of him as much as I can so that I can build a little shrine of Rinnie in my room (even though I did hate him before) BUT THE MATCH-UP EVENT WITH NESS???? THE NESS WHO HAS AN OBSESSION WITH KAISER, THE MAGICIAN ITSELF... p-paired with.... m-me??? I- EHHHHHH?!?! (ʘ////ʘ’) ?! THAT SHORT DRABBLE IS MAKING WONDERS WITH MY BRAINNNNN ISTG. H-he kinda cute though- Although Him saying this line as he pins me on the bed, bites the tip of my ear, whispering- "Draw me like one of your french girls/draw me like one of your german boys" I- *shrinks into a size of a peanut 🥜 cuz of pure embarrassment* M-my mind & heart cannot process this but I gotta admit that-!!! after reading it... It felt so good ////////// (Rin, please don't murder me from my dream as I sleep later on ;; he's been appearing nowadays with Sae but they were fox people with reputations and there were two nations, the two of them aren't together.. I'll explain this next time if it's okii for me to share! ╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯))

AND YOU CHANGED YOUR THEME AS AIKU!! Still gives me yandere Aiku vibes and yandere Rin (I liked it!! ><💙)

Lastly, BLUE PERIOD!!! OMAGAHHHHHHH YOU KNOW THAT MANGA??? ;;;;;;;; I'm so happy that you do! Oh man... If it weren't for that masterpiece, I would stick to the course where my parents suggested instead of the course that I really want. Which part of the manga really stood out to you the most???? :3 Mine was the part where Yatora talked to his friend in a ramen shop and they discussed some things that UGH-😩 Really hit the spot and seeing how his friend just supported Yatora's decision and became inspired with his actions causing him to make a decision similarly as that???? YESSSSSSS 💙💙💙💙 Tsubasa Yamaguchi is such a good mangaka in both art and storytelling ;; I'm currently waiting for more Blue period content by not reading the recent release of translations and focus more on other stuff hehe~ The manga is just--- the first time I read it, I don't quite understand the content because of the jargons being used but I loved it and I enjoyed reading some panels over and over again. Blue period is like aa frickin love letter to artists and creative people alike! o((*^▽^*))o

I hope you're doing okii on your side of the world ╰(⸝⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝⸝)╯ I just saw that one of your fics have 100+ kudos already at AO3! HURRAY!!! and also, Congratulations for having 2K followers on Tumblr 🥳🥳🥳!!! YOU HELLA DESERVED ITTT I promise I will participate on your future events cuz interacting socially here is fun :3 !! Annndddd you're one of the reasons why I still have tumblr on my device wwwwwwww a-and can't help but feel honored that I got to talk with you like this .////. a-and you considered me as your m-moot (I just realized it just now) uwaaaaaaaaAHHHHHH ～(つˆДˆ)つ｡☆ please take good care Belle~

sorry for getting to this ask late mino - i have some matchup asks remaining from my other event n i just saw this :'< i'm glad that your art exhibit went well mon ange! <3 the host event was inspired by ouran high school host club - i had never watched that anime before n when i did, fell in love with Haruhi n the twins <3 i liked Mori senpai as well (yes i like cool men) I even had kyoya as my pfp for a bit then ; as for the ask events - i do them every time i hit a 100+ mini milestone, so there are a lot more to come you won't miss out :) and ofc! feel free to share your dreams - would love to read abt them (why did this remind me of Inuyasha) i very well paired you with Ness cause although he is obsessed with Kaiser, he reminds of a fiercely protective n loyal puppy who is also very cute draw me cause ik you draw - ness likes being the center of attention too yan! rin is out on my ao3 - aiku is yet to come (got a lot in store for him) but i'd probably be releasing that late cause i have a lot of yan! wips to get through - includes reo n nagi as well i had a wip for ness that started off as a writing prompt competition with my friend And yes! i do know blue period - i actually started watching it during my vacation about a year and a half back (ig?) n it was very appealing - esp yatora cause he wanted to go somewhere in life even if it was being an artist my fav part is always the beginning of every manga tbh - so when yatora talks to senpai in the room with her explaining primary colors used to make skin tone art i have to read more of the manga tho - been focusing on blue lock a little too much that i forgot other mangas are left unread *sigh*

Yes! I did reach 100+ kudos on fic - thank you everyone! <3 my day is going well - been feeling sleepy cause of work but i'm doing great! and yes you are my moot !- cause honestly, you show me support n drop by my inbox to send me messages that make my day 💗

[newyorkkiss]

probably should have posted this last week but forgot. but here is everything i listened to last month. very fruitful! i haven't taken in so much new stuff in years. alas, everything in red was a new listen for me and under thee cut is a rough outline on what i enjoyed and thought was mid. if anybody has any suggestions for this month i am pretty much down for anything :)

thee really, really good:

every wand album. especially golem, ganglion reef, plum and perfume. i'm still going fucking mad on listening to those even now – they're just so good. scratches such a deep itch i didn't know i had laying dormant. haven't spent enough time with 1000 days or laughing stock, unfortunately but they're great too! nearly 400 scrobbles since 16th of march, for what its worth. also help desk is great... literally NO misses from them wtf.

same goes for the one cory hanson album i listened to (the unborn capitalist from limbo) which felt like a dream. i'll get to his other two at some point during this month at least.

a silver mt zion's he has left us alone but shafts of light sometimes graces the corner of our rooms... was definitely something. like a long winded dreaded cold nightmare of desolation and isolation. it's fucking beautiful. easily an all time fave now but not something i would routinely come back to, that's for sure, for better or for worse.

otherwise great:

white reaper is pretty neat, i really enjoyed the roughness of white aura the most of the select things i listened to. what's really funny to me and important that i note is their spoon-adjacency and how they're elektra signees now. spoon walked and got dropped so white reaper could run. they paved that way. impactful icons much... but yeah i'll get to their two elektra albums at some point too. their new single is neat though!

finally getting to cola after having them in my mental back-burner for the last 2 years was good, too. i was a HUUUUUUGE fan of ought back in 2019 and deep in view does pick up nicely from where they ended with room inside the world. tim's vocals have refined so nicely over the years. it's a good listen. again, new single also great!

along with cola, thee oh sees has been on my mental back-burner for awhile too. floating coffin was the best of the three i listened to (can anybody guide me on where to go with their discog because it is so dense.) hammered/ing the everliving fuck out of minotaur, too.

goon was great! need to spend more time on them. but they're similar to wand and vibey as fuck. heaven is humming is the one, though. same goes for meatbodies, i see they have a new album so i'll get to that eventually too.

the mid:

the post-expo 86 wolf parade albums are sooooooo ugh. cry cry cry being the worst of the two, and worst of their discog overall. contains nothing that makes wolf parade, like you know, wolf parade? depressing and so boring... thin mind was more-or-less the same but it had at least some distinct wp elements.

lala lala's the lamb is so disjointed and quite messy. i didn't hate it, but i didn't enjoy it either. at times it reminds me of chastity belt (not a negative) but i don't see me returning to them any time soon.

menomena's i am the fun blame monster was nothing to write home about and i didn't even finish it lol. just think it's funny that two members have projects with members of the national – really didn't expect that.

the i forgot about this one:

kelela's cut 4 me... i put this on while extremely high and fell asleep shortly after. only put it on after trying to listen to thin mind which i got two tracks into and thought was one of the worst things i'd ever heard and had to turn it off before i ruined it for myself.

if u read my wall of text umm thank uuu ??? here is a cat pic as reward

[queenstormbornn]

Your thoughts on the first episode of HOTD?

I really enjoyed it. As a GOT fan, I really had cut ties with anything related to GOT but then I heard House Targaryen and I was intrigued and then I realized that D&D would not be welcomed back … I was like, oh? Then the trailers came out and I said, SAY LESS.

House Targaryen is and will always be superior. Seeing their banners all over King’s Landing, the dragon pit, the statues, and the altar for Balerion did make me a bit sad. Made me think this is what we could have had if GOTS8 went into a different direction. Daenerys and Jon ruling the Seven Kingdoms and restoring House Targaryen … *que adele* we could have had it all. 

For people who don’t watch or read George’s interviews … they should. I’m obsessed with watching reaction videos and I’ve watched like a million already for this first episode and one of the things that I’ve noticed almost everyone is that, they have this mindset of who is the hero and who is the bad guy. 

These characters are complex. You’re either going to love them, like them, or fucking hate them. 

Some could argue that some characters are good and they might be in certain definitions but they all have a goal – the Iron Throne and already in the first episode; it’s picked up that. I think a lot of fans are still in the mindset of the GOT show. It’s like, no. You have to remove yourself from that because you might be team blacks vs. greens but you’re going to find fault in every character bc they all do SHITTY and TERRIBLE things.

Also, Daemon’s dragon helmet. Ugh. IN LOVE. 

Despite that, it was sooooooo cool to see dragons again. Seeing fan arts for years and then finally seeing them on screen … no better feeling. I’m looking forward to seeing more dragons, especially one of my favorites, Vhagar bc she IS the Queen Dragon. 

As much as the show-writers have said that this is different from the show GOT it still has its similarities and it reminds you with its graphic violence and nudity. Aemma’s birthing scene was horrible and horrific but I do like how they tied it with the tourney. “The birthing bed is our battlefield” and it’s true. But two graphic scenes of just violence makes you feel like you’re watching the old GOT, plus, the nudity. 

I’m glad that they brought back Ramin Djawadi to do the score. The fact that he uses Daenerys’s theme but changes it a bit still gives me goosebumps. 

I also like the jabs the show made towards D&D and how wrong they got things or the direction they took GOT. This show, even though it’s been one episode, feels like what GOT should feel. The vibe/theme George had written. I feel like HOTD is his show. Though, I’m sure he’s still disappointed that the throne doesn’t look exactly how he wrote it – it looks so much cooler. The fact that we’re seeing it injure King Viserys, showing him an unworthy ruler; before Robert welding it down to make it easier to sit on; another unworthy gesture. 

I enjoyed the episode a lot and I am looking forward to the rest of the season, especially Emma’s portrayal as adult Rhaenyra! 

*if you want me to talk about the characters -- which ones I like and don't already, let me know!*

[liannelara-dracula]

🤒DL

Alright this is finally done. I am trying to get to other asks do not send in other ones.

Sakamaki

Shu:

He let’s you handle yourself at first.

But if he notices that you aren’t getting better or need help he will come to you.

He isn’t strict with medicine but rest.

He wants you to sleep.

So he cuddles you.

He literally pulls you down to lay with him.

Will

Take you to the doctor if needed.

He isn’t too worried.

He will give you affection cause he knows he can’t get sick.

Reiji:

Is sooooooo strict, like no joke.

He watches you like a mom.

Gives you remedies and medicines to treat you.

He keeps you in his room to have you rest on his bed. So he can watch you of course.

It’s also cause he likes to secretly watch you sleep.

If it’s bad like a fever or worse he carries you everywhere. Obviously bridal style.

He checks your temperature and asks you were it hurts.

If you want affection he doesn’t give it to you bc your sick. He won’t get sick but he just feels the need to punish you for getting sick.

Though he will kiss the top of your head after he checks your temperature.

Laito:

He’s pretty good at taking care of you.

Actually knows how to care of you, with Reijis instructions of course.😂😂

He worries a lot

To the point where it’s annoying.

“Bitch Chan do you need this?” Or “How do you feel? Does it hurt?” He’d ask, just getting on your nerves.

Tries to be helpful but he’s nervous.

Finds your stuffy nose and red face kinda cute.

“How adorable.” He’d tease tapping your nose.

“Ugh.” You’d huff.

Overall he tries.

Ayato:

Bro here really tries, like he does his best.

Always asking Reiji or Shu how to do things.

“Bro how do I check the temperature again?” He’d ask.

“Just put it on her forehead and it’ll tell you.” Shu would sigh.

“Thanks, dude.” He’d say before leaving.

He will take pictures of you while you’re sick.

Hands you tissues, or water.

Gives you fluffy blankets.

Makes horrible soup.

Gives you his hoodies.

doesn’t kiss you tho.

“Human germs can’t effect you.”

“Really?” He’d ask.

“Yes, idiot.” You’d joke.

Kanato:

Is pretty good.

watches you like a hawk.

knows how to make you fall asleep.

Sings you to sleep.

He feeds you his sweets and his cake.

You have to convince him a lot of times that your not dying and that it’s just a cold.

He likes to cuddle with you so much.

You become the little spoon. No objections.

He likes to give you blankets and pillows.

He’s very good at giving medication to you if needed.

If his brothers are being loud and you need rest he’ll get angry and tell them to be quiet.

“Be quiet! Can’t you see your upsetting Y/n!?”

He’d yell before closing the door to come back to you.

“Okay you can rest now princess.”

Subaru:

He is soooooo worried.

Protect him I swear

He is so caring and sweet.

Will get you anything and he makes sure you take the medicine.

He might forget and then he’ll get mad but you tell him it’s ok.

Would take you to the doctor if things got worse.

He’d really help if you needed it.

If he saw you could handle it he wouldn’t interfere.

But he’d check up on you.

And kiss your forehead, especially if you have a fever.

He’d also give you cuddles if you were cold.

Overall he’d be really sweet.

Kino:

Takes pictures of you for black mail.

Not so good at taking care of you.

He’s like a Ayato in that sense.

His soup will be salty.

He will give good massages tho.

Cuddles.

Buys you medicine tho.

You mostly have to take care of your self tho.

But he’ll make sure it’s not an emergency or something.

Otherwise he’ll get you some help.

Mukami

Ruki:

He knows you don’t need help but he’s helping you anyways because he says you don’t know how to take care of yourself.

It’s just an excuse to be with you.

He is very caring and gentle with you.

Reads to you a lot to comfort you.

Temple and forehead kisses.

He brushes your hair a lot.

He also makes you take baths to relax not with you tho since your sick and he knows you don’t feel the greatest rn.

Gives you medicine and if you hate it you’re still taking it. He doesn’t try to give you other flavors that you’d like either he just tells you to suck it up.

“Ruki it tastes horrible.” You grimaced at the spoonful of dark liquid he was about to give you.

“There is no other way of getting better. So open wide.” He’d be a little smug about it seeing you act like a kid.

You are usually in his bed bc he supervises you when you’re sick.

He will cuddle with you too.

Keeps a close eye on you.

He doesn’t want you to help him bc he knows you’re weak right now.

He would carry you around if needed.

Yuma:

He does his best if he needs to step in.

Cause Yuma has a big heart.

He will carry you anywhere and everywhere. Bc he doesn’t want you t be by yourself.

Ruki would have to tell him how to use the medicine properly cause we all know Yuma can get upset with instructions.😂😂

Really cares for you but he sometimes wants you to be tougher cause he thinks it’s just a little illness or whatever.

Though after he sees you trying to follow up after him and you can’t he stops and apologize.

He will probably hold you like a little kid when he picks you up. Which is so awkward.

“Yuma put me down. I can still walk there.” You’d say a little annoyed.

“Aw, are you embarrassed little pig? It’s not like you’re wearing a skirt.”

You roll your eyes at him just give up.

You have to remind him when you have take your medicine cause he forgets.

He will help you in the shower even you don’t need it or want his help.

“I’m okay. I really don’t need help washing myself.”

“Two showering is faster than one.” He’d say pulling up the hem of your shirt above your waistline.

“Yuma I’m sick, this isn’t appealing.” You’d pout.

Tho he always reassures you, you look beautiful anyway.

Kou:

He’s pretty decent with taking care of you if you need it.

You sleep in his bed cause he wants you too.

He makes you food and gives you medicine.

He finds you being sick a little too cute.

Like all your little sneezes and red nose.

Even tho your really annoyed.

He is sweet with helping you but you always tell him you got it.

Sometimes he can annoy you so you pretend like your sleeping😂

He likes to cuddle with you.

He gives a lot head pats.

Will baby you.

“Here let me help you walk there? Do you want to shower? Some water?”

And so on.

He just gets worried.

Azusa:

Soooooo gentle and sweet.

He helps you with everything.

Brings you the homework you missed and completes it for you.

But he tells you everything you need to know.

Makes you food even if he sucks.

Cuddles you.

Gives you the medicine and listened to Ruki’s instructions.

He is very careful.

Worries over you a lot.

So he checks your temperature often.

He will keep you company and won’t leave.

Is just so sweet and will carry you if you don’t feel good either.

Likes to prepare baths for you too.

He puts a lot of flowers in it with a bath bomb too.

It all smells really nice.

Tsukinami

Carla:

Keeps an eye on you.

He knows what it’s like to be sick.

Helps you as best as he can.

Pretty good at making you food and remembering when to give medicine.

He’s like a doctor honestly.

Will allow you to sleep his bed instead.

He checks your temperature and places a kiss to your head.

Reads you books probably.

You mostly sleep so he doesn’t have to be around you too much.

Shin:

he’s not that great.

it’s cause he doesn’t get sick so he doesn’t get it.

he tires tho.

but he gets impatient.

“How the heck do you read this damn thing?”

“Shin, you’re reading it upside down.” You’d giggle.

You mostly take care of yourself but he is willing to help if he’s that you need it.

He actually likes to take care of you.

Sucks at making food.

no really.

Finds your sneezes cute tho.

He likes to hug you too, cause it gives you comfort.

And it’s probably the only thing he can do.

[magireco]

out of curiosity what do you think of the characterization of homura in rebellion? i hugely dislike it but get the impression you enjoy it which i think is interesting cuz we seem to have very similar thoughts on homura pre-rebellion (CORRECT ME IF I AM WRONG)

THIS IS INTERESTING BECAUSE IT DEPENDS ON WHAT FLAVOR OF REBELLION HOMURA YOU MEAN. i really really like the way she was done in the first half of the movie but as for the twist at the end...? mmm...

...okay, so... i've been thinking about saying this at some point but i keep avoiding it in fear of causing discourse and such bc... this is a really unpopular opinion apparently, but I really do not think devil homura was done properly. read under the cut if you wanna know why i feel this way!

the first issue i'm going to address is that there wasn't NEARLY enough buildup for it. i'm going to explain this from the perspective of a first-time viewer: what would you have thought would happen after the very last scene of rebellion leading up to them breaking homura out of her soul gem? when homulilly got purified and the flowers on her head turned to sakura flowers (y'know, the flowers that symbolize life and rebirth, homura being reborn from her witch)? did you think homura was suddenly gonna undermine madoka's godliness? because, uh, first-view me did not think that at all. and neither did almost anyone i know who watched it for the first time. not only is that poor setup but it's just so sudden and it feels so out of character compared to what we'd seen in the entire series as a whole, especially considering that the entire last part of the movie leading up until that was about purifying her... and saving her... there wasn't enough buildup. most people are like "but the flower scene happened!" but that's still way too vague...? it's hard to tell what conclusion homura comes to at the end, because we don't get to see any of her internal monologue... there is no other buildup after the flower scene... it just skips to homura realizing she's a witch. wouldn't that bring the viewer to think the flower scene was something that made homura realize she was a witch rather than her suddenly starting to form her plan? it always felt like to me the conclusion homura came to at the end of the flower scene was that she was validating madoka's bravery and telling her that if it ever came to that, she'd have the ability to make that hard decision. which is... so... weird? because i always interpreted that as homura coming to terms with what happened? i could just be interpreting it wrong though, but isn't that supposed to be our proof scene? our buildup scene? why would they make it so hard to understand? we need to know such important buildup points just as blatantly as the natural buildup to homura becoming a witch was. that's just from a moviemaking & writing perspective though.

secondly, i'm gonna discuss homura's motive. i actually ended up understanding were she was coming from after a while of being like "what the hell that makes zero sense!!!!". madoka is a 14-year-old girl who, in order to save the fate of every magical girl, literally had to sacrifice herself and erase herself from the world, and in the end, madoka just ended up saving homura again, and that must've made homura feel like her promise with madoka was never fulfilled. it's unfair what happened when you think about it and the law of cycles should not have been run by madoka herself because she, as any other 14 year old, deserves to be happy on earth. although it was said in magireco that madoka felt happy with what she was doing (and she felt like it truly gave her a purpose), she did admit to feeling lonely and homura probably made that assumption big time. but the way the writers went about it just made her seem so sinister... so out-of-character-ly sinister. what with the evil smirking and the deepened, almost... uh, sensual-seeming voice, and homura completely ignoring madoka's fear. it feels like they twisted her character extremely suddenly and it throws the viewer on a loop. they could've gone with that ending without making such drastic and sudden changes to homura's character, and if they were planning on doing that, why did they not give us more buildup? buildup that wasn't extremely cryptic that you have to scan and search every detail to get a clue? something i love about rebellion is that every time you watch you find something new, but how come some of the only clues illuding to devil homura's existence are in the op? it's odd. why didn't they go with something like making the incubators run the law of cycles? they were the ones at fault for causing it to be created. but honestly, the incubators cannot be trusted with anything, which is why it'd make sense for a magical girl to run the law of cycles, but if homura and madoka had the combined power to do so, what if they just remade the law of cycles so it was less unfair to madoka...? i don't know. either of those possibilites would make more sense than what happened.

something else that kind of irks me about it is that they demonized(literally, lol) homura's love for madoka. homura is very much a canon lesbian, and it's incredibly discomforting to me that they made her seem, outwardly to the viewer, so selfish...? please don't get me wrong, i'm not ACTUALLY calling homura selfish -- i know the entire akumura facade is a mask she put on, but like, it's so much more blatantly sinister than she is in the series when she's putting on the coolmura facade. it's going to really confuse the viewer and see every single one of her actions from the entire series in a completely different light, INCLUDING stuff that happened in rebellion itself. like the genuine sadness homura felt, the way we saw into her soul and felt her pain, that genuinely made a lot of people i've seen think that it was ingenuine upon first inspection... they made homura turn "evil" out of her love for madoka, as if it's a bad thing to fall in love, and as if love for another girl was what corrupted her soul gem... i understand that gen urobuchi probably wanted to explore that kind of path where love leads to obsession or whatever, but homura was selfless to a fault, constantly trying to force herself away from the others in order to not get attached, and deeply afraid of seeming creepy and predatory and scaring(she said this herself), which is exactly what she ends up doing at the end, and i feel so awful that they did that to her... how is the viewer supposed to know what her true motives are at that point? it gets all scrambled up after they did that huge plot twist. i'm going to address another thing super quick before people jump in my ask box over this, i understand also that it would make sense for homura to be obsessed with madoka, but in the series, it was never shown in this light, and like i said, if they were going to do this, why'd they even have the purification scene at the end at all? the buildup is all wrong . it also just made me upset that this ending caused SO many people to start literally believing homura is evil because of her actions at the end, and it made people become even more vehement on their beliefs that homura is obsessive and ps*cho...

i was really confused when i watched it for the first time (and also sobbing hysterically, literally, my funniest rebellion story as someone who has genuinely watched the movie 40-ish times, i remember vividly the first time i watched it i started sobbing on my hands and knees on a yoga mat in my mom's room). also like, just to prove my point a teensy bit more, the ending was so ambiguous and out of nowhere that one of the first google results to "madoka magica rebellion" is "madoka magica rebellion ending explained" because it shocked people so much that that was the first thing they needed to google. also, the fact they left us on such a vague cliffhanger and then abandoned the movie series for a total of 8 whole years only to make a sudden comeback in god's holy year of 2021 was almost cruel. LIKE GUYS I JUST FINISHED UP MY DEVIL HOMURA HEADCANONS IT TOOK YOU LONG ENOUGH!!!

...anyways, um, i really have to address the sexualization. madoka magica, previously, was a series that avoided fanservice in the show, at least, but why did they make akumura's design look like that...? it shows an unsettling amount of skin and like, every three seconds in the end they're focusing intensely on her lips and her eyes and... it's almost like the writers forgot she was 14, but they never seemed to forget that in the series? what happened????? in the transformation scene, we get closeup views of homura's thighs and back and stuff and it's all open everywhere... they made her tights into thigh-highs... in the whole series, even when she went to school, she always wore tights, and she was wearing tights in her magical girl outfit too... they absolutely deliberately did that to sexualize her further so they could make official art with her thighs out. speaking of official art that unsettles me, why does so much of the official art make the whole outfit just glued to her body and you can see all the shading on her features... it's just. ugh. anyways.

i went off a LITTLE too much on this and i know this is probably gonna get me some weird glances in the fandom and i am open to hearing other people's opinions but i don't think i'll ever stop disliking the effect this plot twist had on the fandom's interpretation of homura and although i'm like UNDENIABLY incredibly hyper excited for the next movie, i'm kind of...nervous for what this is going to bring? i don't want this next movie to cause the same amount of discourse the ending of rebellion did and i legit just want to see homura happy. another one of my main issues with the ending is just that homura is SO unhappy when she literally deserves to be happy SOOOOOOO BAD and just take a break from all the loops ... i'm Praying to madokami out there that that's what happens.

i know this is all really funny coming from someone who draws devil homura on a regular basis and literally writes her, but like... i'm a lesbian i'm allowed to<3

ANYWAYS thanks for listening this was a fun ask!!!

[shinonometrash]

💕🍄The 12 Days of Ayumu 🍄💕

JULY 17TH!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYUMU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AYUMU 😭💕😭💕😭💕 Doing all this translating has done nothing except make me miss him even more 😭 But!!! Today is the big day!! And so we have the thing I’ve been saving for last!!!! The absolutely cutest Ayumu story I think I’ve ever read !!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wanted to cry when I read it it was so sweet I love him so much sdfgnkjkjnfg

I was a lot more creative with translating this story to make it sound more fun and natural, since I’m finally getting comfortable enough to start doing that, I really hope you guys enjoy it !!

it’s pretty long, so I’m putting it under a readmore

Ayumu Shinonome: Happy Birthday ♡

technically this story is about Ayumu celebrating our birthday, rather than about celebrating his, but...

In the S ward is one of the most popular downtown areas in Tokyo.

2PM —

Middle schooler: Hey, look at that guy over there

Middle schooler 2: Oh my gosh, yeah!

Middle schooler: He’s a host, don’t you think?

Middle schooler 2: He’s definitely a host!

(…No, you’re wrong.)

(I’m just wearing a formal suit.)

Middle schooler: Eek…this is the first time I’ve seen a host in real life!

Middle schooler 2: I guess that’s the norm around here, we are in Tokyo after all!

Thanks to the middle school students who seem to be in the middle of a field trip, I now see the passersby struggling to contain their laughter.

(This couldn’t get any worse. Ugh, this sucks.)

(Really. I was already reluctant enough to do this as is…)

Speaking of which—

MC: Ayumuuuu~!

At last, the reason for all of this torture has arrived.

MC: Sorry! Did I keep you waitin-…

MC: !!!

(Uh…is she okay?)

MC: Ayumu, you…you look…so hot…

MC: Ahh, you look amazing!!

Ayumu: Dummy!! Keep your voice down!

(If she says something like that too loudly…)

Middle schooler: Oh no, look! He’s got a customer…

Middle schooler 2: She must be a huge regular…

Ayumu: …gah, come on, let’s go.

MC: Huh? Already?

MC: I haven’t changed into my pumps yet…

Ayumu: It’s fine, come on! Hurry up!

MC: Ahh, hold up! I came all this way so at least let me put my arm around yours…

MC: Gahh, slow down! You’re walking way too fast!

MC: Ayuumuuuuuu!

This all started about two weeks ago.

MC: Ayumu! Look! This is what I was talking about!

Ayumu: Eh…? Scary…

Fresh out of the bath, my girlfriend suddenly plops down on the ground.

Ayumu: …What

Ayumu: Don’t tell me you broke my limited edition Tyrannosaurus mug…

MC: No, no, that’s not it!

MC: It has to do with this year’s KappaMC Birthday Celebration!

Ayumu: Gross

Ayumu: You’re creating your own birthday celebration…?

MC: It’s a great idea, isn’t it!

MC: I see this kind of thing a lot on social media!

Ayumu: Even so, you’re not supposed to post that about yourself

Ayumu: That sort of tag is made by enthusiastic fans…

MC: Well then, I’ll ask you to do it, Ayumu! Since you should be my biggest fan!

MC: Pleaaase do it with me~?

MC: Take me on a date in a formal suit please!

Nonsense, I thought. At the time.

However, at a later date…

Toru: Ahh~ This seems to be real popular these days! Suit men

Ayumu: …what?

Toru: If you search anywhere on social media sites, you’ll get tons of hits~

Toru: Guys uploading selfies in suits

…I don’t get it.

What’s so fun about showing off a suit?

(Although, she did say something the other day about wanting to go on a date with me in a formal suit..)

Ayumu: Frivolous. Completely.

Toru: Noo, you just need to choose the right place to go!

Toru: Shall the Great Toru offer you some guidance~?

Ayumu: No thanks. There’s no way that’s ever happening…

Toru: Hm, well I don’t know what kind of person your partner is, but—

Toru: Sometimes it’s important to spice things up a bit so that you don’t fall into a rut!

Ayumu: …

Toru: Again, I really have noo idea who your partner is buuuut

Toru: I think women who like that sort of thing would be really happy~

Ayumu: …

(…bah. He’s probably right.)

(She does seem like she’d like that sort of thing…)

That’s why I decided to title it “The Extraordinary Production”

I end up regretting this as soon as we start stage one—meeting up downtown.

(Ah, well, at least I won’t feel as out of place at the next stage.)

Yes, and the next stage is—

MC: Look! Look! Ayumu! The view outside is sooooooo pretty!!

Ayumu: Ah, I see.

(Naturally. We are on the 38th floor.)

By the way, the seats here are filled almost full.

Of them, about half are reservations.

MC: Whoaaa, did you see?? This afternoon tea set!!

MC: The tea stand! It has five tiers! Five!!

Ayumu: Ah, I see.

MC: Hey, at least act more surprised!

MC: Fives tiers? This is the first time, for me at least, that I’ve ever seen anything like this!

(…yeah, I suppose it would be)

I say this because—

Toru: How’s this place look?

Toru: “Enjoy some luxury afternoon tea on the top floor of a high rise tower”

Toru: Whoa, the tea stand, it’s got five tiers!

Ayumu: Ah, I see.

Toru: Ugh, what kind of response was that!

Toru: Are you even listening?? The tea stand has five tears!!

Toru: Isn’t that alone pretty much a win right there?

Ayumu: I don’t get it.

Toru: In a date, it’s either a win or a loss…

Soma: But doesn’t it seem likely that it would make his date happy?

Ayumu: !

Soma: Women who are particular about food will also care about how many tiers of sweets there are, will they not?

Soma: Glutto-no, women who eat everything with enthusiasm,

Soma: I think they would be very pleased with a five tiered tea stand.

Ayumu: Haa…

MC: What should I do?? My heart is beating so fast, I’m so excited…

MC: I don’t think I’ll be able to eat all five tiers…

Ayumu: If it’s you, you’ll be fine.

Ayumu: …since you’re a glutton.

MC: Huh? What did you just say right now…?

Ayumu: Nothing, don’t worry about it.

Seeing the waiter passing by, I raise my hand to get their attention.

Waiter: Did you decide what you would like to order?

Ayumu: The afternoon tea set for two people, please.

Ayumu: The original black tea blend.

Waiter: Understood, thank you.

As soon as the waiter walks away, I purposely sigh dramatically.

Ayumu: So noisy

MC: Wha-…I didn’t even sa-

Ayumu: Your stare

Ayumu: It feels like you’re trying to stare into my soul or something since a while ago.

MC: …hey, b-but that….

MC: I mean! I can’t help it…

MC: You just look way too amazing today, it’s like my eyes are being sucked in…

Ayumu: …

(…what is she even saying, this girl)

Ayumu: This isn’t the first time you’ve seen me like this though, is it? In a suit?

MC: That’s true, but…today is special…

MC: You wore the suit for me, didn’t you?

MC: That automatically makes you look, like, 30% hotter!

MC: I’m just so happy, I can’t stop looking at you

Ayumu: ….I see.

There was a strange pause before I replied.

Probably because I was remembering the advice that Toru gave me.

Toru:  You definitely need to be sure to always compliment your date’s outfit~

Ayumu: …wha?

Toru: Well, if you’re wearing a formal suit

Toru: Then your date should also be in formal wear, right?

Ayumu: that…well…

Toru: And so, you need to be sure to give your date lots of compliments!

Toru: Cause girls always put several times more effort into things like their makeup and hairstyle!

Ayumu: No, no, she doesn’t have me beat there

Ayumu: If we’re talking hairstyle, it’s definitely me…

Toru:  Bah, well, saying things like “that looks great on you” or “you look pretty” is always a safe bet

Toru: And then…

Ayumu: You don’t—

MC: “I don’t”?

—“you don’t look too bad yourself, either”

That’s it. All I have to do is use what she said as an opportunity to compliment her back.

(So, come on. Say it.)

(Just light and natural.)

(Sound genuine about it…)

Ayumu: You don’t—

MC: Ah!!

Suddenly, my girlfriend jumps out of her chair as if remembering something.

MC: Sorry, is it okay if I go to the restroom for real quick?

MC:  It’s…my shoes, I’m still wearing my sneakers

Ayumu: …

MC: No, I know already, you don’t have to tell me

MC: “You should’ve just worn your pumps from the beginning”

MC: That’s what you were about to say, right?

MC: But these shoes don’t quite fit right…

MC: “It’ll be fine if just change into them right before I meet up with Ayumu”…is what I had told myself

Ayumu: …

MC: I’ll just change into them real quick!!

Ayumu: …

(…This sucks.)

I just let a perfect chance that I’ll probably never see again slip by.

(No, it’s fine though.)

(It’s not like I absolutely HAVE to give her a compliment.)

That was just Toru’s opinion.

She didn’t specifically ask me to do it, or anything.

And so, from there, while I’m with my girl…

MC: Ahh, that was so delicious!

MC: The cake and the scones and the tea, they were all the best! Ayumu: …

MC: Oh, and the clotted cream too!

MC: It was the first time I’ve ever had it but it went surprisingly well with the scones~

MC: I wonder if they sell it at that other shop…

(…this is it.)

Her head is probably full of the afternoon tea we just had.

I want to make her happy…more than anything.

(But it’s impossible to compliment her when things are like this.)

I’ll just start by making a statement about what she’s wearing, but it’ll have a compliment at the end.

“I noticed your dress has lace on top of the turquoise fabric. It’s not bad.

“Those pumps must not be comfortable to wear. But they go nicely with the dress.”

“It’s been a while since I’ve seen you wear this much makeup. It looks nice.”

(I’m psyching myself up too much, aren’t I?)

I guess it just goes to show how much I’ve been looking forward to this day, though.

MC: So where are we going next?

Ayumu: Anywhere is fine, as long as it only takes about an hour.

MC: Hm? What does that mean?

Ayumu: This.

I pull two tickets out of the breast pocket of my suit.

MC: Whaa…the opera??

Ayumu: It’s in about an hour from now. So we can’t go unless we go at that time.

(The idea wasn’t mine, though.)

Yes, this idea…

Toru: Hmm, what other places would be good to wear a formal suit to…

Toru: What about a luxury brand store?

Ayumu: Huh?

Toru: If you wear a businesswear vs a formal suit to a shop, the staff will treat you differently, right?

Toru: Because they’ll be acting even more polite to you

Toru: There’s no doubt that your date will feel like a celebrity!

Toru: Right, Goto?

Goto: Don’t touch me, I’m not responding to that.

Toru: And after you can take her to a fancy restaurant inside a hotel or a bar with a gorgeous night view!

Toru: Sure it might be a little cliche sounding, but it’ll certainly be something out of the ordinary that you won’t forget!

Toru: Hey, Gotooo!

Goto: Look, even if you touch me, I’m still not going to respo-

???: Aww, aren’t you guys sweet

Toru: …huh?

Tsugaru: Don’t you know this is the perfect time to go watch the opera?

Ayumu: ..……good afternoon. How long have you been there?

Tsugaru: Now that hardly matters, does it?

Tsugaru: More importantly, if you’re going to put all that effort into a date, you should go to the opera.

Tsugaru: It’s like a date specifically meant for formal wear, is it not~?

Tsugaru: Hmmm, but…

Tsugaru: It’s possible the person you’re planning to take on a date doesn’t understand the opera, though.

Ayumu: …I should first confirm whether that’s true or not, though

Ayumu: Hey, have you ever watched the opera?

MC: Uhhhh, that’s…

MC: Well, I’ve seen Phantom of the Opera…

Ayumu: That’s not the same thing

Ayumu: That’s just a musical.

MC: …well of course I know that much!

MC: So, this is a first

MC: It’ll be my “first time”!

Ayumu: Wait…do you hear that—

MC: I want my first time to be with you, Ayumu!

MC: So please, take my opera virginity—!

???: Ahhh!!

A sudden scream drowns out her playful chattering.

Woman: A purse snatcher…!!

Woman: Somebody, please! My bag!

(Seriously? A purse snatcher?)

Before I get a chance to confirm, she jumps into action.

She starts chasing the purse snatcher.

(Dummy! What is she doing??)

Purse snatcher: Damn it…!

The criminal escapes to the back alley at the end of the road. Of course, my girl isn’t the type to give up so easily.

MC: Stop right there!

While she chases after the purse snatcher, I enter the next alley. 

If the criminal turns the corner here, I’m pretty sure I can cut him off.

Sure enough—

(…he came.)

MC: Ayumu!

Purse snatcher: Shit…!

I’m in front of the criminal, blocking his path, while she’s at his back. He turns around and rushes at her.

Purse snatcher: Move it!

MC: Just who do you think you are!!

Her next move is quite something. As the criminal charges at her, she swiftly grabs his right hand, twisting it behind his back and shoving him to the ground, planting her body weight on his back.

Purse snatcher: Ouch! Ow ow ow!

From there, we hand over the criminal to the authorities and all live happily ever after—

Or not.

MC: The interrogation took longer than I expected…

Ayumu: Yeah, it did

MC: But if we leave now we should be able to just barely make it in time…

???: Oh my gosh, look at her

I hear a whisper from a woman passing by.

Woman: Yikes, look at her, did she get into a fight?

Woman 2: Maybe she fell? There’s a hole in her stockings

The innocent exchange seems to have reached her ears.

MC: Oh…

There’s no denying that she looks beat up right now.

Her dress is dirty and the knees of her stockings have holes in them. 

(Of course.)

(She had to straddle the criminal on the ground to secure him.)

However, her stockings aren’t the only thing that tore.

MC: I-I’m sorry, I’lll go change them right away…

Ayumu: The lace

MC: Huh?

Ayumu: The lace part on your dress, too

MC: !

Ayumu: Did it get caught on something? Like a nail?

Ayumu: When you were chasing after the purse snatcher

MC: …ah, yeah…

Seems I probably guessed right.

MC: I’m so sorry, I’ll go change into a new outfit…

MC: Ah…but, the time…

Ayumu: …

MC: Please just wait a second…I’ll figure it out someway or another…

MC: To change…I’ll just, I’ll go buy some new clothes…

Ayumu: It’s fine, the way it is now

Strangely, the words seem to just flow out of my mouth on their own accord

Ayumu: You don’t look bad

MC: Uhh…?

Ayumu: It doesn’t look bad, does it? How you look right now

It’s still the outfit she put so much effort into, just a bit worn out now.

Either way, it’s still very ‘KappaMC’-like.

(Really, it’s not bad.)

I run my hands through her messy hair to smooth it out.

She looks up at me, confused.

MC: Um…Ayumu…?

Ayumu: Let’s go

MC: Wait, I can’t go to the opera looking like this…

Ayumu: We’re not. Going to the opera, that is.

MC: What! No! Don’t say that!

MC: You already bought the tickets and everything…

Ayumu: Don’t worry about it, really, it’s okay.

Just a slight change in schedule.

Truthfully, I had planned on bringing her ‘here’ after the opera, anyway.

(Ah, but this timing actually isn’t bad at all, it works out well.)

Ayumu: Aren’t you coming?

MC: But…I look like a mess…

Ayumu: You look fine, don’t worry about it

Ayumu: I rented out the place

MC: Rented out??

MC: Here??

Startled, she looks around at the surroundings.

(Ah, well, it makes sense. Reacting that way.)

If I was in her position,  I’d probably react the same way,

Ayumu: Your hand.

MC: Sorry?

Ayumu: Your left hand. Give it to me.

MC: Oh, um, alright…

I grabbed her nervously outstretched hand and led her to middle of the stairs.

(Finally.)

Now we just need to stand here for five more seconds.

Honestly, this is the most nerve wracking part of the whole day.

(But, well, it’s her birthday.)

(And it’s special.)

Ayumu: 3…2…1…

At the exact moment I point, balloons float up into the sky.

MC: Balloons??!

She watches as the balloons float upwards, eyes wide in surprise.

I use her distraction as an opportunity to pick up the bouquet I had hidden.

Ayumu: Happy birthday

Her mouth falls open wide in shock.

Yeah. It really isn’t like me to do this sort of thing.

But, the one who thought of this surprise, make no mistake, was me. I came up with it.

(This is a once in a year occasion, after all.)

(And I thought she would like it, if I did this.)

Ayumu: So? What do you think?

MC: … Ayumu: MC?

No reply.

(Uhh, what’s the status here?)

(Maybe I messed up…)

MC: A-a…yu…

(Ah-yoo…?)

MC: A-yu-muuuuu…!!

(Whoa wait just a-)

Ayumu: Oof

Sniffling, she throws her arms around me.

MC: I-I…j-just…nnnf, I’m…I’m so, nnnnff, so happy…I, nnnf, love it…s..so much..!!

MC: T-th…! This…surprise, nnnf, it…it’s…!!!

Ayumu: …

MC: P-plea…zz…please sta…stay with, nnnf, with me…fore…forever, nnnf…!!

Ayumu: …dummy.

Ayumu: I can’t understand what you’re saying.

That’s a lie. 

Truthfully, I understand perfectly what she’s saying.

(“Stay with me.”)

I’ll stay with you, for the rest of our lives.

In return, don’t ever let go of me.

I did something today that I never would’ve even dreamed of doing before, all because you’ve changed me.

Ayumu: Happy birthday

MC: T-thank you…

Ayumu: So, what shall we do from here?

First, I have a room for us to stay at.

But after we check in, we can spend our time however we’d like until dinner time. 

(Ah, no, but before that we need to change.)

(As you’d imagine, going to the restaurant looking like this would be…)

MC: …iss…

Ayumu: Hm?

MC: Kiss…I want to kiss you…

MC: From here on…with you, forever…

Ayumu: …

Ayumu: …dummy

I was asking about later today, but…

Is she asking for a kiss with a runny nose and a tear soaked face?

There’s a lot of things I want to say to that, but—

(Ah, well, it’s her birthday…)

Her lips taste salty, as expected.

But…I don’t hate it. Maybe I’ve gone crazy too.

MC: Thank you…

As we pulled away from the kiss she sniffled loudly.

MC: I, um, I feel like I’m dreaming…

MC: My head feels all fuzzy…

Ah, I see.

MC: I’m gonna…just you wait…!

MC: Next time it’s your birthday, I’m gonna think of an amazing surprise…!

Ayumu: No need to.

I have nothing but a bad feeling about that.

Ayumu: Seriously, don’t. Hard pass.

MC: …hmph, meanie!

MC: If this is how you feel, now I’m DEFINITELY going to plan something!!!

MC: Like making dinosaur balloons, or dinosaur 3D pancakes, or…

MC: Maybe I’ll rent out a whole museum…

MC: Mmph, mmm…

It’s really not necessary. Coming up with some sort of surprise.

(If you’re here with me.)

As long as you stay here next to me—

If we can kiss like this, then that’s enough for me.

-The End-

Isn’t that CG gorgeous??? And wasn’t that story soooo frickin adorable??? sbkhgkjadbf I have so many feelings about this 😭💕😭💕

And thank you so so so so sooo much to @world-a-to-z​!! Like I’d mentioned at the start, I was never part of the Peach fanclub because I only started reading Ayumu’s stories almost exactly a year ago now. And so, I didn’t have access to this story. So what did this absolutely wonderful person do?? Transcribe this entire story in Japanese!!!! And then was kind enough to send it to me, along with the screenshots of the backgrounds (which were pretty necessary for all the scene changes, I think) and the CG, so that I could translate it. So please give her a HUGE HUGE thank you for making basically almost the entirety of this birthday celebration possible!!! 💕💕💕

Thank you guys so much for celebrating with me! I hope everyone had a lot of fun!!! I can’t wait to actually sleep again now...I spent sooo much time doing all these translations whoops ><

In case you missed a day, or want to reread anything, you’ll find links to all the posted content here!

[hetaestoniahq]

Haha alright, if you're up to another one maybe PolEst again with "You stayed?" or, if you want to write another ship instead, maybe EstLiet for the same prompt c:

OOoooo we need more PolEst/EstPol in the world sooooooo-

Prompt from this list, open to ask!

What really interests me about this ship is just the whole religious divide of it, I just began reading a book about Estonian mythology and even there was stated that Catholicism was never able to shake the paganism. I haven't found any info about the Polish-Lithuania era trying to do anything different to more try and get Estonians to truly become converted, so it's a interesting dynamic to explore sure that Poland and Lithuania wouldn't have maybe been as rough on him as the Teutonic Order and Livonia were.

______Tw implied religious trauma______

It was the nightless eve of Midsummer, when Dawn and Dusk get to touch without the seperation of the nightly sky.

War had been over for a few years already, but the wounds still ached, the concequences were still going to affect him for a long time.

Estonia was on his own right by a slowly dying bonfire, he had managed to convince Latvia - but also Lithuania, to spend a bit of time together on Midsummer eve. How did he manage to get Lithuania of all people who is meant to be a ruler of his to join in? Simple, he's become familiar with the brunette's personality, and a bit of reminding of the pagan days and just 'Harmless fun, besides someone should probably keep an eye on us don't you think?' managed to get the Lithuanian to hear him out and join him.

Although, at one point Poland did find them, but thankfully he was able to get Lithuania to convince the Pole they're just having a nice bonfire night. Also tell the Pole to just leave them be. Is he using and taking advantage of how easy it's to persuade Lithuania? Maybe a little, and he does feel a bit guilty about it, but he really didn't want the eve to get ruined by that heavily Catholic blonde that doesn’t seem to shut up.

After that he, Lithuania and Latvia all got to talk, almost like equals, which was still a new experience for Estonia, something he had only gotten to get a little bit from Sweden, but still not much. Soon enough though Latvia became tired, and so it was decided to go in for the night, but Estonia had requested to get to have time for himself, and miraculously, Lithuania seemed to trust him to not cause trouble.

Would recommend not to put so much faith in me like that, Leedu. He couldn't help but think to himself, but he was still absolutely going to cherish the time alone. He's gonna use this to be able to relax even a bit for a little before Livonia is gonna come over to punish him for it, like they always do.

Ugh, even when dissolved they still have power over me and Latvia, why can't Poland and Lithuania stop them? He can't believe he's the underling of an underling, how many times lower can that end up going? At least with Sweden he gets a break from Livonia, but he also feels a bit guilty about it because it means leaving Latvia alone with them. Lithuania did intervene when a fight had started between him and Livonia, but will he stop Livonia from punishing or humiliating Latvia when Estonia isn’t there? He doesn't want to have doubts, but he has. Why does life have to be so difficult?

"So like, how long are you gonna be all alone here in silence?" Estonia immediately sprung up from his seated position, turning around and quickly grabbing a nearby stick ready to have fire added to it if needed.

"WoaH woah calm down I'm not here to stab you or anything!" The Pole subtly rose his hands up to indicate he is not armed, Estonia still remained tense, even if he knows by now the Pole likely wouldn't at least, hasn't yet, raise a hand on him, it didn't mean he trusts him.

"What are you doing here?" Estonia suspected the Pole was maybe coming to call him back to the house.

"Well, I was waiting for this bonfire night to get finished up or something." Poland responded as he calmly approached, looking over at the fire that was set up safely to not cause any wildfires.

"You stayed?" Estonia asked rather surprised, raising a brow as he only then properly threw the stick into the fire. Did he really just wait around here somewhere or did he come back only now? He's gonna guess the latter, choosing to come after Estonia didn't go in with the two Balts.

"Well of course I did, I wanted in on this too!"

You? In on this?? Estonia didn't want to believe it. Before he understood if he wanted to tag along with the rest of the group but now it was just Estonia, why would he want to be here alone with him?

"So, tell me about what this whole thing is about." The Pole plopped down next to him, too close, making Estonia shift away to have distance. He wants to hear about his pagan traditions? Clearly the Pole hadn't fallen for the idea that it's just some bonfire night.

It has to be a trick! He is trying to find the roots to pull out. He was distrustful, many before Poland have tried to pull him away from the beliefs close to his heart, make him bow down to their one single mighty god, who in his perceptive, seems like quite the selfish and self-centred god at that, having people do their dirty work. Calling sin upon those who commit bloodshed but not punishing the ones who do it to spread the belief of him. Punish those innocents who simply don't want to put their faith in him.

I'd rather die than bow to a tyrant god like that. Estonia thought coldly, he swore he could feel the scar that runs from his shoulder to his chest, dangerously close to the heart, scorch with brief pain. It's been centuries but it feels like he can still feel the sword that had cut into it. All because some religious folk couldn't accept a no.

"Why would you want to know?" Estonia spoke with a bit of sharpness in his tone, he wanted Poland to be aware that he isn't going to fall for any of his attempts to get him to turn over.

"To know you better?" Poland simply said, giving a small shrug.

Lies, why would you wanna know anything about your peasant? Estonia kept being in denial. Even so, Estonia sees himself as stubborn, no matter what Poland may try he is not going to move over to actually liking their Catholic religion, so he chose to just tell him.

"Well, for starters, every Midsummer Eve people gather around to light a bonfire and spend time together..."

Poland would proceed to actually be quiet and listen for the rest of the night, only occasionally asking a few questions.

|| Alrighty I hope this good -TwT ||

[imyourangell]

Ohh I have an idea!

🌸What about Thomas with a fem S/O seeing his face for the first time? Like Tommy’s so scared to show her because he thinks she’ll be scared of him, but instead she’s just like *kiss* you so handsome!🤤🥺

Hope you’re having a good day & not too stressed out with studying!!💞

-Bri👻🖤

✨🌸AHHHH! I had so much fun with this!!✨🥺

✨it’s so soft and ugh! Thank you for the requests! I enjoy writing them for you guys! And thank you I hope you’re having a fantastic day! And I hope you’re taking care of yourself honey ❤️❤️✨

✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

✨🌸You and Thomas had been dating for some time now and you always wondered one thing..~✨🌸

✨🌸what was he hiding under that mask!! It drove you insane!✨🌸

✨🌸even tho you could see part of it…it still drove you crazy!✨🌸

✨🌸you told him every day how handsome and gorgeous he was but he never seemed to believe it✨🌸

✨🌸so after many,many, MANY months of begging one late…it happened~✨🌸

✨🌸you were in yours and Thomas’s shared bedroom just reading through a book you had found~✨🌸

✨🌸you heard Thomas come in but didn’t look up yet✨🌸

✨🌸and boy when you would you have the biggest surprise!✨🌸

🌸✨before Thomas came into the bedroom he decided tonight he would completely remove his mask✨🌸

✨🌸just for you! He was doing this for you! And boooooooyyyyyyy he was nervous!!!✨🌸

✨🌸literally almost shaking okay like wowzie✨🌸

✨🌸all kinds of thoughts ran through his mind like: “would if I’m to ugly?” “Will I scare her?” “She’s not gonna love me anymore” just all kinds of things!~✨🌸

✨🌸so back to the present here!✨🌸

✨🌸here he stood: no mask just waiting for you to look up✨🌸

✨🌸and you did…✨🌸

✨🌸you got up as quick as you could without scaring him!✨🌸

✨🌸you cupped his face and just started kissing him all over!🌸✨

✨🌸literally drops the mask onto the floor✨🌸

✨🌸this boy is SHOOOOKKKKK✨🌸

✨🌸you aren’t scared?✨🌸

✨🌸Wait-✨🌸

✨🌸WAIT YOU THINK HE’S HANDSOME?✨🌸

✨🌸get him to sit down quickly he might faint✨🌸

✨🌸all jokes aside though Thomas is sooooooo sooooo happy! You still love!✨🌸

✨🌸you’re not gonna leave him!✨🌸

✨🥺omgg y/n he was so scared!✨🌸

✨🌸eventually he returns you’re sweet kisses!~✨🌸

✨🌸after you go to sleep Thomas can’t stop thinking about what you said~✨🌸

✨🌸”See tommy? I knew you were so handsome! My handsome prince!”✨🌸

✨🌸He blushes at the thought~✨🌸

✨🌸You actually see him as a prince? You find him handsome?✨🌸

✨🌸Y/n you have gone and captured his heart!✨🌸

✨🌸Before he goes to sleep himself he brings his hand over to his cheek were you kissed and softly smiles to himself✨🌸

🌸✨Wow he's just in awe over you!✨🌸

✨🌸So moral of the story: Thomas was very VERY nervous about showing you his whole face but after that reaction? Oh yeah no more mask around you!~✨🥺

✨✨✨✨

❤️hihi love! I'm so so sorry this took a while but I hope it's okay! And most importantly I hope you like it! Again I apologize for being a bit late on it I just didn't check my phone 😔 anyways! Thank you so much for you're request! You have such cute requests btw!❤️❤️

With love

-☾𝒽𝑜𝓃𝑒𝓎☾

[steve0discusses]

S4 Ep 39: Pharaoh Can Fly (Selectively)

Guys, they’re back

Best storyboarder is back, and the visual difference between last episode and this episode is like when your art teacher picks up your charcoal and just fixes everything wrong with your gesture drawings. It’s like...I mean look at this:

I just really love and appreciate how illustrative this storyboarder is. And I say just storyboarder because this had about the same budget as the last episode--there wasn’t that much actual animation as per usual. But, all of the scenes were drawn so well, like panels out of a good manga. They just...they always nail it when they’re at the helm and I don’t know why they’re on Yugioh, but bless this storyboarder.

Plot wise, everyone got pulled into the dragon by gooey tentacles that came out of it’s stomach, don’t think about it.

Meanwhile, all of the minibosses could communicate with them and beg for help, yes, even the same miniboss who may have dressed up like Pegasus and catfished Seto Kaiba.

(keep reading under the cut)

The whole process of getting absorbed into the Orichalcos demon was a whole lot of symbolism and it was...kinda gross. Also kinda sketch. Also, for Kaiba it is a neat little nod to S1 when he had a vision that his brother was absorbed into a dragon mass.

I don’t think that the makers of the show remember S1, but either they just really like goopy dragons, or it’s a coincidence or I dunno, on purpose? Probably a coincidence.

And like I made this joke and realized...what if they actually meant to make that parallel though? This is the America crossover season, and they have referenced America’s love of trickster rabbits before with Pegasus but do they know about Br’er rabbit in Japan? Do they know? It’s a pretty Americana Deep-cut, and I have no idea how common this folktale is outside of the states.

I see anime busting out absorbing goopy masses all the time so I’m gonna assume that there might be a Japanese folklore I don’t know about which uses a similar structure (although I’m also assuming it has an extremely different history and association ((which I won’t be going into because I don’t feel like putting a trigger warning on this recap)).)

And looking at Wikipedia, there’s people that think the original reference to moist, absorbing creatures could have even come from as far as India. Which is...fascinating to how it also developed in Africa, and then the Cherokee also made the same story independently and then it fused together here in the States to make it what was eventually made into a Disney movie that will never be released again--this is just a really old ass story, all in all, possibly like over a thousand years old.

And a FASCINATING google deep dive I won’t go into for obvious reasons but knock yourself out.

Also, lets get distracted for a sec and see how well this storyboarder drew a fitted jacket at that angle. Dear Lord, did they get reference for that or did their brain just already know that those folds would be there? You can even tell that Pharaoh has just a little bit of padding at his shoulders. Ugh. Guys this storyboarder is so freakin good at these little fitted jackets.

So, once Yugi and his friends are absorbed into the mass, where they should have died...and maybe some of them did, but I don’t know if I should add that to the Death Count because like...they could have held their breath in the amount of time they were stuck in there...maybe...Anyway, they are saved by being tossed into the figurative briar patch--by the souls all hanging out in the Leviathan’s stomach--which again makes me wonder...did they pull a folklore on us? Again, I have no idea.

Like a lot of the people in this dragon have been thorns in their side this entire season, they’ve all tried to kill them at one point--all the minibosses, Mai, Pegasus--but now they have decided to team up with Pharaoh (along with the rest of the human race) and offer whatever they can to free them from the grip of the gross dragon mass.

And like, the ending of the folk tale is that the thorny ass briar patch is also where the rabbit lives usually. It hurts everyone else, but the rabbit--the rabbit can deal with it. And likewise, Pharaoh is freakin dead. He’s at home here. He’s surrounded by spirit power, his friends and their friendship power, this is like his zone, and now he’s crazy powerful for it and will be for the rest of the episode.

And like Yami is a very trickster God (especially Season Zero Yami) so like...it does make sense that he would mirror a folk tale based on trickster Gods, even if it is by complete accident.

So Pharaoh imagines everyone’s tears as individual drops in a glass or something--it’s not a literal glass or anything--it’s just there because the only thing actually happening on screen was his hand hanging out of this dragon’s weird puss skin.

And he’s now a fully charged Sonic the Hedgehog and no longer needs Kaiba or Joey at all. Just gonna grab his God card demons and take charge of everything else from here on out.

By first exploding his buddies right the hell out of this lizard and across hundreds of feet of open ocean.

Joey decides to remind Kaiba that he lost the Battle City tournament.

Seto’s roast was actually in the show, PS. He is not super excited to be reminded that Yugi owns every card that he spent 2 seasons failing to get.

And then Pharaoh did something really, really...

...just really really wild.

OH OK.

YEAH JUST TAKE OFF.

GO AHEAD THERE’S NO REASON THIS WOULD BOTHER ME.

I mean he IS super powered right now but like...

Like...WTF?

4 SEASONS. 4 SEASONS I thought this guy was glued to Yugi like Peter Pan’s Shadow and apparently--he can bounce.

Can Pharaoh do this every time Yugi asks Tea out on a date and tries to instead make the ghost in his head do all the work now? Can Pharaoh just be like “NOPE” and then phase out of the house, leaving Yugi to actually do the hard stuff?

It really adds a level of complexity to their relationship if Yugi can get a room.

(If not a room for romance, but at the very least a room to poop in.)

OR has he been able to allow Yugi to wicked poop in peace this whole time, but the show just never felt like telling us because they felt like it wasn’t important (although it is crazy important)?

Either way I am just...floored at this character development.

Yami just let Yugi out of his sight for like...I want to say 8 full minutes. Just incredible amount of trust on Yami’s part. Incredible. Knowing Yugi’s track record, he should have died in those 8 minutes but...he was being babysat by both Kaiba and Joey.

So Yami summons the Gods and they shoot lasers--you kinda expect this sort of thing.

And this is...probably...the real reason why Dartz didn’t bother trying to attack Pharaoh 5,000 years ago.

I can still think it’s because of Bakura but like...this is probably the real reason. It felt pretty chump to just shoot a laser at the bastard. Pharaoh just had to be reminded that this is a thing he can just do. If he felt like it.

Which he never feels like doing, because he’s too busy watching Yugi’s every move, and getting distracted by High School shenanigans.

After this happens, the giant snake falls to the ocean, splitting into just sooooooo many ghosts.

Over 7.8 billion ghosts, if we’re to assume that this is most of the population on Earth.

(thinking the weird-o in the hat is probably a Duel Monsters card? The duel monsters were throwing themselves into the Leviathan at one point so this is probably like a dark magician boy or something...I just don’t get very attached to the monster cards so it was like...whatever. The cards die like constantly so who cares?)

It is a pretty set dressing. Like Christmas lights but...dead people.

We also find out that the lost family of our minibosses Alister and Raphael, have indeed spent the last many years inside the Leviathan stomach, which is pretty tragic. We get a bitter sweet conclusion to Alister and Raphael’s story--although it’s not a full on ending for either character. Their life still hella sucks, they are in therapy for basically forever.

Where is Gurimo?

I don’t know what sort of job or life these two are qualified to have now, but youknow...Marik’s boat probably has jobs available.

Hold up. Can we talk about the windows?

I know absolutely none of you care about this, but I do, not to be picky or condescending to an overworked art team, but because I just want to know what they were trying to aim for.

There’s an iron stained glass style windowpane thing going on and that’s what’s really getting me. Like...I know these guys were technologically advanced, but why did you use this WW2 background? What happened to Ancient Greece that you were doing before?

Like doing a super past with future tech is so cool to me--I love that sort of concept art. That’s going into like Black Panther stuff where you’re referencing the earliest stuff in Africa and then blending it with stuff beyond our science. But Atlantis is a real big shrug and a “listen we ran out of time and had to press print,” and it’s such a shame. It feels less cohesive than even when this show does Egypt.

And yo this show and how it draws ancient Egypt--I feel like I’ve already talked about that. I have a feeling I’m going to talk a lot more about it next season. I’ll get to it when we get to it. I’m hoping that they have more time and budget to actually DO Egypt for once. (I say knowing they won’t)

Like it’s one of those things where this isn’t a history show, like at all, and it’s very much a fantasy. I’m not going to be like those sewing people on youtube that get annoyed because their TV show doesn’t have handsewn stitching in their Victorian bodices they rented from the costume department from an LA discount warehouse. Because, yo, it’s TV, and I can stretch my own imagination because it’s acting. (although I confess, I watch every single one of those videos).

But...the potential, y’all...the potential.

Anyway, Dartz isn’t dead. He was just taking his toot sweet time getting down the steps of his Gazebo.

This is where things get very anime. I get this problem a lot with anime, I really do--and maybe it’s just me. But like...sometimes it feels like anime changes the rules during the boss fight.

That happens a lot, right? Where suddenly the final boss reveals something that like...should have been addressed way earlier? And he’s alive but you don’t get why?

Anyway, Pharaoh reacts by getting maybe way too attached to his newfound independence.

Which like...I can understand Tea forgetting that Yugi is one people that is two people all the time, but the writers as well?

And what’s kind of great about this scene is that Dartz does see Yugi as two people here. He doesn’t look at Yugi, he looks at both. When Pharaoh is like “Leave me, Yugi!” Dartz heard all of that.

Just kind of a neat thing that we finally have a dude that can just...see Pharaoh for what he is, but it probably won’t matter because there’s like only one more episode left of this season.

Anyway, Pharaoh and Dartz have a chat about where evil comes from...and like...it’s some Yugioh lore, all right.

So before the show decides to give us the Genesis on Yugioh and reveal where the evil of the Orichalcos comes from, or if all evil was created by Orichalcos itself (which is IMPLYING stuff about Orichalcos) the snake shuts him the hell up.

As it should. Leave that Pandora’s box freakin closed. That’s going into extended universe of Star Wars books territory (RIP.)

As an aside--pretty sure that Yugi is standing outside that tornado. Maybe it was just the editing of the episode but like...

Yo I’m pretty sure Yugi is just standing there. For the first time, it’s not his nuts getting roasted. Wow. Tables have turned so much since he was dead.

Anyway, here’s the link for new people so you can read these in order

https://steve0discusses.tumblr.com/tagged/yugioh/chrono

There’s only one left! We can do it! We can finish this season in 2020! And actually get back to recapping Full Metal Alchemist! ~~Woooo~~

Oh man that movie better still be on Netflix or I’ll have to buy it lolol.

[ladykatebridgerton]

I am totally onboard with the Anthony-has-wet-dreams-about-Kate program. I also really want that it is Colin who introduces them, and they better not alter this onscreen. Colin scratched at my heart, in the best possible way, in TVWLM and that was what made reading his book sooooooo satisfying, in that I'm so happy he gets his happy-ever-after. Colin and Penelope have a certain turning-point connections to Anthony and Kate's love story.

(Which one of the Bridgertons doesn’t though? They’re all very vivid dreamers lol.) 

Colin and Penelope--ugh sweet babies own a huge chunk of my heart too. And I agree I love that scene so much--even if their meeting is altered in some way like they buttheads outside or she makes some kind of a remark while they’re complete strangers, we could still have Colin come in and say his part once he’s courting. They kept Simon seeing Daphne punch Nigel, so I feel like they’ll keep some variation of this because it is such a large part of their story that Colin keeps meddling and knows. 

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 21.10.20 lb

behen abhi bhi dagmagaaati hui ek taang pe

and of course, gangsters ka usain bolt is back in action. isko koi aur cardio karna nahi hota hoga na? achchi khaasi workout mil jaati hai every 30 - 45 mins or so.

THIS ONE IS STILL STANDING HERE PLAYING LANGDI TAANG. FFS. ITNAAAAAAAAA BHI KYA AAGE PEECHE JHULNA??? JUST HOLD THE DIYA WITH BOTH HANDS AND MOVE A STEP BACK.

she's legit been just swaying for 50+ seconds in real time now.

maata rani be like there really is only ONE semi-competent insaan in this house, huh?

pffffffffffffffft. aur karo aisi wahiyaat planning.

lmaooooooooooooooooooooo out comes the secret that vansh is ambidextrous. there goes madamji's ghamaasaaan theorizing ki murderer could simply not be him, since he's right handed.

“haan, main dono haathon se kaam kar sakta hoon.” bitch kya faayda if they're doing useless things like signing papers and holding diyas instead of............ other ~~~interesting~~ things. 👀👀👀

back to square one for this missy.

vansh be like St. George where are you COZ THIS HOUSE REALLY BE FULL OF FUCKING SNAKESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

AND OF COURSE IN ALL THAT AAGE PEECHE DOLNA MADE THE LOCKET AND MEMORY CARD FALL DOWN. 

chalo ji aaj ka strength training bhi ho gaya. how handy to have an utterly disaster-prone wife like riddhima, who ensures you get all the exercise you need in a day!

sis be trying to escape to go get the card and man is like SIT YOUR ASS DOWNNNNNNNNNNNN SO HELP ME GODDDDDDDDD

“jo bhi hai, mere liye tumse zyaada important nahi hai.”

pft yeah ok, i give this sentiment .......... 5 min. tops. coz knowing her, she's sure to piss him off with her bs before this conversation is over.

husband man vows vengeance. sweet.

chanchal is worst shadiyantra rach-er of all times. why do this shit if you don't have the fortitude to see it through???

mummy be like could you stop freaking the fuck outtttttt

meanwhile someone is spying on them, coz of course. it's this house. kisi ko aur kaam hi kya hai? not since the K shows of the early 2000s have i seen this much room ke baahar khade hoke doosron ki baatein sunna.

ah yes, this is the perfect time to question him on being ambidexterous. even though he did nothing greatttttttt with his left hand to get so inquisitive about. he literally just took the diya from her and held it. not like he was shooting machli ki aankh or anything.

oh???? he's opening up about something that happened 3 years ago that made him stop using his left hand?!?!!

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

bro, you're rich. you can afford laser removal of tattoos.

also ragini be a real dumbass. instead of just blowing the candle out, she's standing there pleading with him not to burn his hand. looks like vansh really has a type: STONE COLD STOOOOPID.

gentle enquiry begets gentle response full of affection.

.................. and the dumbass had to ruin it by bringing up the R word. (R word in this show = Ragini.)

the fact that you get sooooooo fucking hyper over this matter is exactly why she wants to know, you idiot.

lmaooooooooooo she just asked him if he trusts her. this should go great.

yup, we're shoulder grabbing and growling into the face of the woman we absolutely do trust.

he's like if i didn’t trust you, i wouldn’t have ignored my bitchass sister's chugli about the memory card you put in my laptop and then hid. man i've been outta the relationship game for too long, i didn't know that you gotta disclose digital memory device usage and all to our partners these days.

blah blah no matter how much i tell you you'll never believe me and stop investigating this shit, so what's the point in me telling you anyway. which is a realllllllllllllll smooth way to get outta saying anything in the first place, and then convincing you that you’re being intrusive. classic manipulative bs. don't fall for it girls.

riddhima deployed best weapon: aansoon.

bhai pighal raha, but is in no mood to share stories anymore so..........

what's the point of crying now? shoulda just kept your damn mouth shut and let him talk.

“samajh nahi aata ki aisi harkat kaun kar sakta hai.”

LMAO REALLLLLLLLLY????? THERE'S LITERALLY JUST 4 PEOPLE IN THIS WHOLEASS SHOW WHO DON'T WANT YOU DEAD. 3, depending on vansh's mood of the hour.

these two still discussing. ouff. bas bhi karooooooooooo. the first rule of bitch club is not to discuss your bitchidity.

bitch club has a new member who is delighted at this plotting and planning.

mummy and chachi like welcomeeeeeeeee welcomeeeeeee, tumne bhi toh kam kaand nahi kiye hain.

LMAO WHERE THE BOARD COME FROM IF HE'S STILL COMING AROUND THE CORNER. HE HAS BOARD BENDING SKILLS LIKE ANGELINA JOLIE IN WANTED OR WHAT?

he's being more calm than i would be while reading them to filth.

ishani be like whut, no, us, never!!!!!

bhaiiiiiiiiiii se hoshiyaari????????? he's in sole possession of the single raisinghania brain cell, and he knows how to use it!

calling out everything from the killer dandiya sticks to maim angre, to the nails that chachi was using to put up the decorations.

ofc this dumbass is hunting around for the memory card.

aryan's like oh good, i was bored, what are we looking for?

“chot tumhare pair pe lagi hai aur asar tumhare dimaag par dikhne laga hai.”

OMG MAYBE THAT'S WHY SHE'S SO DUMB!?!?!?!!? COZ SHE HAS MULTIPLE FOOT INJURIES EVERY WEEK. IT'S LIKE HER EQUIVALENT OF REPEATED CONCUSSIONS!!!!! ARYAN, YOU MEDICAL GENIUS!

i know what you did last 3 summers ago.

now that she's scared aryan away, she vows ki VANSH KE AAGE JO BHI MUSIBAT AAYE USSE PEHLE MUJHSE TAKRAANA HOGA. behen tujhse badi kaunsi musibat hai uske life mein jo roz roz usse takraati hai.

idhar patidev bhi exact same dialogue maarte hue.

ishani's like ugh what wife, that bitch a spyyyyyyyyyyy.

for literally the first time someone in this marriage is acting right and telling people to fuck right off from sticking their nose in their marriage.

plus some very serious warnings ki i know how to handle y'all if you act up like this again. dang, i'm a little hot for him rn. (y'all know i have a raging boner for righteously angry men.)

dadi fussing over ms. hot stepper for not bothering to rest her feet. plus some blah blah on the akhand jyot and the going to maata ka mandir and taalofying saari buri balaayein. mataji aap sab se pehle apne do bahuon ko dafa karein, automatically saari balaayein hatt jayengi.

oh thank god. dadi found the card and brought it straight to her. now watch riddhima set it in the flowers in her hair or some shit, so that it can fall down YET AGAIN.

YET AGAIN SHE'S DECIDED NOT TO SHOW VANSH THE FOOTAGE AND IS PUTTING IT OFF. I JUST.......

these shady fucks being shady as usual.

what DID you do 3 years ago to ragini, you asshole???

and of course this aunty is eavesdropping.

hein???? she's genuinely interested in the ragini thing???? it's not just one ainvayi ka excuse that you ppl fed riddhima to get her into the house???? also, she just heard aryan copping up to it and that riddhima has proof of it. how the hell they gonna pin it on vansh now??????? 

[roz-ani]

Day 3: Magic eyes. Promise me.

Warning: If you don’t want to see our babies cry, maybe you shouldn’t read it XD

- Sooooooo… you’re not really a party person too, huh?

- Well, I like parties, but… - he turned around to look at a giant ballroom filled with people – Not the fancy ones, I’m afraid.

Ruby chuckled. It felt good, having someone to talk about struggles of not liking parties and other sumptuous events. Especially the dancing part. Well, Weiss said Oscar was a surprisingly good dancer. Not as good as she, Jaune or Ren, but still good… Definitely better than Blake. Ruby kinda wanted to see him dancing. She wouldn’t ask him to do that, not mention being his partner. She was just curious.

- Yang said you don’t like dancing? Is that your biggest problem?

- You saw me on practice today, right? – she asked mockingly

- It wasn’t that bad!

- … - she looked at him reproachfully

- What?

- You hesitated.

- No! No I-

- UGH! – Ruby buried her face in her hands while Oscar turned away, a little embarrassed - I just hope Jaune’s okay…

- You did step on him…

- I told Weiss this practice was a bad idea! And I can’t believe my own sister made me wear these again!

Oscar looked down. He could only imagine what she was going through. She looked pretty though. Well, Ruby was pretty. She only looked taller which, considering his height, wasn’t really that good. He just caught up to her!

- I’ve seen him dancing with Nora earlier. I think he’s fine. Besides, you can take them off, you know?

- Huh?

- You’re not dancing right now and – he looked around the snow-covered balcony – we’re the only ones here, so…

- Oscar, you’re a genius! – she shouted happily and immediately started taking off her shoes – I mean, they are only suitable for throwing them at someone! I just have to take a swing and-

- Woah, easy there! I surrender!

They both burst out laughing. Not too loud, they didn’t want to attract the guest’s attention.

- Yang told me she actually met someone who fought using heels!

- Seriously?! I guess anything can be a weapon nowadays.

- No offence, mister, but you’re basically fighting with a wooden stick.

- You’d be surprised what this thing can do! - he pulled out the collapsed cane -  I’m pretty sure I’d be dead withou-

He stopped and looked at Ruby. She was smiling slightly, but he noticed how her silver eyes started filling with tears.

- I’m sorry, I shouldn’t-

- No, no! I-I’m fine!

- I’m sorry. I know you’ve been worried…

- You explained everything. There’s no reason to-

A loud laugh from the ballroom interrupted her. They immediately turned around, but there was no reason to be alarmed.

- It sounds like they’re having fun.

- Yeah, fun…

- What’s wrong? - he asked worriedly

- No, it’s just… I don’t know how to say it.

- You know you can tell me everything – he said calmly and got close enough that their shoulders touched slightly.

- Should we even have this party?

- W-Well, we won. Isn’t that a reason to celebrate?

- But at what cost?

- Ruby, we knew people would die. You saw Salem’s army. It was inevitable.

- But we could have saved them! - she replied furiously, moving away from the railing.

- Don’t tell me you’re still blaming yourself.

- I’m not! – Ruby took a few steps away and turned her back on him.

She was crying. She sounded mad, but she was crying. Oscar, though worried, remained calm.

- But you sound like you do.

- I’m a huntress, Oscar. I have Silver Eyes. I was destined to save people and I failed! I failed at Beacon, I failed at Haven and I-

- You didn’t – he walked to her and placed his hand on Ruby’s shoulder. Oscar tried to get a good look on her face, but she turned her head every time he tried to do this – You petrified a Wyvern and a Leviathan. You saved everyone at the farm. You won at Heaven. And what you did in Atlas…

- Exactly! I was lucky! Every single time. It was luck, not me! I can’t use them properly. I-I don’t know what’s wrong with me - she drowned out her last words covering her mouth with her hand.

- Nothing. Nothing’s wrong. You just have to give yourself some credit. You’re a great leader and an amazing friend.

- I’m not… I’m not like my mom…

- I didn’t say anything about your mom, I-

- You think I don’t know what you all expect from me?! – she turned to him furiously. Her eyes flooded with tears - Ever since I was little, everyone has told me how similar I am to her. I have her hair, her smile, her laugh, her way of speaking, her… I have her eyes! I’m sure Ozpin accepted me to Beacon only because of that…

He didn’t know what to say. He felt, deep down, she was right, but he was also sure she was wrong. No one thought about her like that. He certainly didn’t.

- You’re saying that because of Salem.

- What? – she asked, clearly shocked by his words

- I know what happened in Ironwood’s office. I know she was there. What she told you.

- Of course you know… Of course – she moved her head again.

- Ruby… You have to talk with your teammates.

- NO I DON’T!

The sudden flash of light and Ruby's scream surprised Oscar so much that he immediately pulled away. But no one beside him noticed that. Everyone was focused on music and dancing.

Ruby started blinking and breathing heavily. She tried to apologize, but she couldn't say a word, choking on her own tears.

- Ruby…

- Don’t! – her eyes glowed again

- It’s okay. Calm down. Hey, look at me. Just… Look at me.

She couldn’t. She tried to concentrate, but her eyes kept glowing. She couldn’t control it and Oscar didn’t know what to do. Ozpin was silent.

- I’ll go get Yang.

- NO! – she clutched his arm tightly and her eyes glowed again – You can’t! No one can see me like that!

- But you need help!

- I don’t- I don’t need it! – she pulled him away from the entrance as far as possible – That happened before. I-I… I just need to calm down…

- But you can’t! If not Yang, I’ll get Weiss or Qrow, or Jaune…

- No! No one, I said! I can’t worry them… And you… You shouldn’t see me like this…

She fell on her knees, still holding Oscar’s arm.  He sat next to her, not knowing what to do.

- Ruby… Ruby they’ve seen you like that already. They are already worried… I’m worried.

- No… I didn’t… I’m a leader-

- Ruby…

- I’m supposed to be strong! I can’t let them-

- They know. You hid it from them, but they know. Deep inside. You have to tell them…

- That wouldn’t change anything! If I don’t know how it works, how are they supposed to… They won’t understand… - she took her hand from his shoulder.

- But I do.

Ruby looked at him. Pity. The only thing she didn’t wanted to see. Pity. His hazel eyes filled with tears… Because of her.

- I know we’re not as close, but… We both play bigger role in all of this. Me as the next Ozma, you with your Silver Eyes… Actually, - he chuckled - my eyes…

- W-What about them?

- They… They glow too, don’t they? They turn gold… For a second, when he…

- Yes, yes… Very… I like when it happens… It’s very pretty.

It was hard for both of them to speak. Ruby’s eyes weren’t active, but she couldn’t stop crying. Oscar too. However, he was more worried than sad.

- The thing is, I’m never alone. Even when he was gone, he was still watching. You can’t be alone in moments like this one…

- But-

- No. You can’t. Even if it’s only me, you need to have someone with you.

She threw her arms around his neck, almost knocking him over. At first, he was taken aback, but quickly embraced her.

- Please, don’t tell anyone about it - she whispered through tears.

- Ruby-

- Please. I’ll tell them. Someday, I will… But please, not now. Promise me you won’t tell them.

- I… I can’t promise you that.

- Please, Oscar! I’m begging you…

- …

- Please, – she grabbed his jacket – promise me that…

- I… I won’t tell them.

- Thank you! Thank you so much, Oscar!

- Yeah… You’re welcome – he replied sadly.

He hated lying.

[ellsey]

Agents of Shield Rewatch 5x22 The End

Well, here we are. Another episode I’m not excited to watch. But I know what’s coming in season 6 so let’s do this.

Look everyone’s fighting how fun

:( I feel really bad for Elena because she is honestly trying to do what she can but ayaya what a choice to have to make

Why isn’t anyone barking at May about that like they were griping at Elena? She essentially just made a choice for them like Elena did. 

Idk I’m with Elena. Coulson is one man who has made peace with dying. It seems like an easy call to me.

This is really mean to do to Robin 

Boo

I just really feel for Elena. She’s seriously is watching a trainwreck and can do nothing to stop it

RIP Chicago skyline

:( Deke is making me sad too

There’s too much sadness in this episode!

But Deke reading and absorbing all these books is very Fitzsimmons of him

I think May is putting Phil in an impossible position right now which is kind of unfair of her

But also I get where she’s coming from

Director Mack!! 

This is amazing for him. He’s amazing. What Daisy is doing is amazing.

Well at any rates it’s nice to see Phil up and about

FITZ AND SIMMONS YOU SEPARATED AGAIN UGH

This is gonna suck isn’t it?

In the end Phil made the hard decision by himself

Daisy is not happy about it though

Noooooooooo this can’t be how Mack and Polly die!

I mean obviously I know the answer to that

I just wanted it noted right now that I love Daisy Johnson so much

This is a timely speech by Daisy

Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I hate this

Although bless Iain’s agent for giving the heads up that he’d be back because that was the only thing that saved this for me

“Something’s different” YAY

PHIL GAVE IT TO DAISY!!! HE KNEW!!!

PHIL’s ALIVE!!

Fitz is...less so

Did Daisy legit just quake him off into space?

Queen

HENRY, MING, AND IAIN ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

Even knowing what happens this still makes me want to cry

Seeing May cry has to be the worst part of this. 

Noooo someone has to tell Jemma whyyyyyyy?

:( Jemma packing up everything

:( Everyone is sad

“We were different people back then” noooooooooo 

They were though

What a beautiful scene

Even if it hurts

I mean, he did miss his own wedding Jemma sooooooo

And his grandson

Ok legit Fitzsicle missed a lot

Phil is such a proud Dad and I love him for it

I’m so glad Daisy and Phil got to tell each other that they love each other because I think they’ve held back for various reasons

For real though if this is how the show had ended I would have been so ticked

Spending his lost moments with May is exactly the way Phil should go out though bless 

Mom and Dad are empty nesters now

Enjoy it you two. You both deserve as much happiness as you can get.

We did it you guys! My first rewatch of season 5! So with the exception of 2 things, this season was actually amazing and so much fun. I know people were heartbroken at Phil’s imminent demise, but I felt like it was a wonderful way for him to go out. On his terms. And finally seeing Phil and Melinda get together made my heart so happy. We are never guaranteed any amount of time with anyone, so knowingly choosing each other in those last moments is one of the most loving and romantic things I can think of.

A lot of the choices they made with Fitz for this season ranged anywhere from AMAZING to AWFUL. I feel like they just went “Let’s have fun!” and didn’t really take time to figure out what consequences those writing choices would (or least should) have. Oh well, it’s done and over and we can’t change anything about it.

I know this episode should rate really high on the Philinda scale and probably not so great on the Fitzsimmons scale but I’m only going to give a rating on one scale- the Personal Growth scale. And every one of these characters scores a 500000/10 on this scale I love you all my Shield family.

The song for this episode (and maybe this whole season) is “Fumbling Towards Ecstasy” by Sarah McLachlan. I won’t fear love indeed.