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daddestboyhalo · 1 year ago

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I think I'm going insane. Like my eyes feel weird and nothing feels real. I honestly don't even know if I'm dreaming or not right now. I think I'm driving myself insane like actually. I gotta stop. I feel sick to my stomach.

What did I do wrong?

#nobody look #just. what did I do? what did I do wrong?#I feel like a little kid again. just. wondering. not knowing what I did. knowing I did SOMETHING.#I. Well I was gonna say it's been so long since I've had friends #but I think the truth is that this is the first time.#that I've had multiple and like all in one spot like this #and have really had to get to know people etc.#I have no idea what I'm doing and I think deep down I'm still just waiting for someone to scream at me or hit me #it's so stupid - I've fought and killed things much bigger and stronger and scarier than angry human beings #I had this all carefully packed away - I was someone completely different #and now I have to talk to people and I'm thinking about what it was like being a kid #and it wasn't good at all and now the long-dead human I used to be is coming back and just ruining everything.#I wish I'd never been human. I wish I didn't care.#...please someone tell me what I did. I just need to know what I did. that's the worst part.#please tell me what I did.#please.

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