#it's so good - I love all of Eve's songs
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#new rarepair Iâve become a bit obsessed with ngl#GET READY FOR THE POLY SHIP IM GONNA MAKE >:3 (bottom half is besties btw cause I live for that type of shit)#I put roxies hair down cause atm Iâm struggling to draw her pigtails in my style so for rn all your Roxieâs from me will have her down#until I figure it out (which will take awhile)#inspo and pose reference from the kororon mv by eve (go watch it now itâs amazing and the songs good too!!!!#)#i made the sketch for this last night finished the line art before work and did the colouring and editing when I got home!#btw#i will be making as many Stacey rarepairs as I can cause girl deserves some love!!!!#scott pilgrim#scott pilgrim comic#scott pilgrim takes off#stacey pilgrim#roxie richter#stacey pilgrim x roxie richter#roxie richter x stacey pilgrim#idk what ship name to give them#weâll figure it out eventually#for rn hereâs an idea#stacerox
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See? My expectations of myself are so low that I did, in fact, end up failing those odds.
And procrastinating on it with working on a prologue comic and suosakunire trio w/ will jay songs art + my thoughts on ras' suopost v2 sitting on my samsung notes like a lifeline Sighs
Another thing? Remember that Goose Mountain Tales makeup/cosplay trend from like wayback pandemic? Yeah, I wanna make a Suo centric fanart of it omfgg but like him as (surprise surprise) the fox demon (i could make it a suonire piece with nirei being the rabbit demon đ€). And i also wanna make a EndoChika song art piece with one of Alec Benjamins songs im- IM SWAMPED WITH IDEAS THAT I WISH I CAN JUST
#eve babbles#if u want to know the progress rn its like 45% done#and then like self doubt hit and all the poses didn't feel right anymore#also will jay? fucking great#his music is so good#him and alec benjamin should do a collab#THERES SO MUCH TO DO#I WANNA DO IT ALL#also speaking of alec benjamin + endochika#the top contenders are 'our love is like a burning garden'; 'o.i.n.v.'; and 'use me'#like??? sir benjamin why are your songs so fucking good#also pls pls pls tell me someone in this world is working like an ELECT wbk dance animation or smthing???#is this fandom popular enough to have smthing like that in its midst and i just haven't found it yet?
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This is among the best 7ish minutes in music history. To me
#I humbly ask that you listen at least 4 minutes before deciding opinions if you listen at all#I'm currently obsessed with this album. I listened to it once like a 5 years ago and was like 'eh decent prog album I guess' and gave it#another go on new years eve and was like holy FGUCK#Highly recommend listening to the whole album if you're into prog rock and haven't yet. It's kind of hit and miss and you can tell some#of the songs were rushed but when it hits it hits so good#Also the story is fun we love a guy going on a weird psychosexual dreamscape journey#We love penises being stolen by birds#Youtube
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woahhhh so much music
thanks for the tag komishko!
Keitai Renwa (Cellphone Love Story) - mafumafu
DOKUZU (n25 version) - NAKISO
Kaikai Kitan - Eve (<- jjk season 1 opening)
(idk if you can tell but i like vocaloid a lot-)
@andithewaterbottle @anndrag0n @gertthewise + anyone else who wants to do this! no pressure :)
p.s. if you see this, go take a quick break. stretch and drink some water, maybe go outside a bit if you can :D
MUSIC LOVERS ASSEMBLE!!
i feel like starting a tag chain so i hope this works out :)
reblog this with 3 songs:
the song your listening to right now (or last one you listened to)
your current favourite song
a song of your choice
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mine:
its now or never - elvis presley/love in the dark - adele
trastevere - mÄneskin
nevermore - queen
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tagggzzzz: (np ofc) @heartstopper-lover123 @s0lit4ir3 @ali-da-demon @vicwritesfic @skeelly @charliethinks @tori-my-love @chronic-skeptic @toulouseradiosilence @stewpid-soup @nine-frogs-in-a-trenchcoat @pessimistic-gh0st @theshyqueergirl @crowleybrekkers @a-bowl-of-soop @frogfairy444 @robinheaney12 @fairyghostgirlgaming @thatsawesomedontyouthink @venusplanetoflove2 @thelovelyvie @abookishshade @spir4nts-lun4r @i-have-no-idea-111 @kit-the-queer @a-wondering-thought @scatteredraysofhope @coco6420 @softlyunbreakable @givennnnnn @far-beyond-saving @darling-im-wonderstruck @heartstoppernerdsstuff @nonbinary-idiot-obviously @rebelrobinrules1984 @daydream-of-a-wallflower @leonine-elizer @angel-devil-star and anyone else who wants to join!!
#me when i reblog#unseriousposting lmao#tag game#tag chain#music#how do i tag this#lmao i dont do this often#was gonna put imperial girl in third but i didnt want all the songs to be proseka related#for maximum effect i couldve put heat abnormal n25 version#but kaikai kitan it is because it makes me emotional#because 1. it sounds good i love you eve#2. junpei i miss you come back whyd you have to do this to us mappa#3. coping so hard because mangas ending in 5 chapters what do you MEAN#4. jjk should keep going theres a lot that gregory akutami can still keep covering pensive emoji#5. but in all seriousness it doesnt seem like hes enjoying writing jjk thattt much because of all the massive changes made to it#so i respect his decision to move on from it. go make your sukuna idol manga gege lmao#however. please dont make the ending flop đ. good luck gege#unrelated but dokuzu goes hard#also almost put wutiwant for third but im not notorious for listening to emo slowed down edit music lmao#wanted to do junpei dokuzu animation...but geto works too#(me in my head. lying. lets be so real im never animating anything lmao)#anyway. thats. too much tag rambling lmaoooooo#away i go.
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(JUST MEET ME AT THE) APT! â gojo satoru minors dni. art by chitrartum on twt.



welcome to the christmas tour ! take a seat in section (a) and let the show begin !
prologue. â your ex, that sleazy and no-good scumbag won't stop posting tacky mirror selfies on instagram, arm around his fellow cheater-in-crime. so, christmas eve finds you morose in a dodgy dive bar. why not tumble back into bed with that random, gorgeous stranger you just met?
want to try sitting somewhere else ? take a look at the ticket chart again !
pairing. gojo satoru x afab!reader
warnings+. never drive, no matter how little alcohol is in you folks!!! never!!! making out, creampiĂš, hooking up with a stranger, ovĂšrstimulation, mildly rough sĂšx, gojo won't tell you what his job is
word count. 9.4k! song inspiration. apt â rosĂ© & bruno mars
a/n. reader lowkey a hater, i love vanilla vodka eggnog </3 i said i was gonna post on 02/12 and i kept my word, literally rushed to finished this before my clinical exams in the cardiac ward đđđđđđ hope y'all stay healthy. your future surgeons are writing gojo smut on tumblr.com
mp3. don't you want me like i want you, baby? don't you need me like i need you now? sleep tomorrow, but tonight, go crazy. all you gotta do is meet me at the apartment (ìííž) !
you think your friends would kill you if they knew this was how you were spending christmas eve. not at some glittering holiday party, nor tucked away in a snow-dusted cabin. but here, holed up in a dimly lit bar with an atmosphere so questionable it should come with a warning label alongside a health and safety audit.
the place had charm, if your definition of charm included scuffed floors, a jukebox stuck on 'last christmas' and a string of blinking lights that looked like they'd been thrown at the walls rather than hung. still, you'd swiped a couple of minty candy canes from a jar near the door, which felt like a win.
your phone sat resolutely off in your bag. self-preservation. no instagram, and no tacky mirror selfies from your scumbag ex with the same smirk he'd worn a month ago when you caught him cheating. with someone who had always been 'just a friend, babe!' you weren't keen to let that ruin the rest of the night, though if you were being honest, you had already let it ruin a good chunk of the month.
"another christmas vodka...sour, please," you squint at the messy chalkboard above the bar, where the christmas specials were scrawled in what would barely pass for handwriting.
the bartender gave a single, surly nod. he looked as though he'd rather be anywhere but here, preferably somewhere free of customers nursing post-breakup bitterness like a fine wine.
and so, you found yourself staring at the tall glass now sitting in front of you, studying the rosemary sprig that swayed lazily in the translucent red liquid. a few cranberries bobbed among the ice cubes like they were on some tiny festive raft.
"woah, that one's way too strong for me."
the voice interrupts your private session of wallowing. you turn your head, slowly, to take in the culprit. he-who-hath-disturbed-the-peace. a man sitting close enough to be annoying, but not close enough to invade your personal space.
it takes you a moment to process the stranger, mostly because of the brain freeze from your ill-timed gulp.
"i mean, it's not bad," you shrug, hoping to sound neutral enough that he leaves you be. but then because you just can't leave well enough alone, you gesture at the specials board, "better than...that, at least."
you jab a finger at the chalk-scrawled abomination: vanilla & peppermint vodka eggnog.
the man frowns, a sharp but somehow charming movement that's overshadowed by the dim lights, "hey, i ordered that one."
you blink like a startled bovine, before breaking into a laugh, "my bad. i'm sure it's really fuckin' delicious."
the stranger chuckles too, a soft and low sound that seems more genuine that it has any right to be, "i hope so. otherwise, this is gonna be a long night."
the man finally shifts, casting aside the dim shadows that lay over him, into the blinking string lights. broad shoulders framed by a dark, tailored jacket that hugs him like a second skin. his hair, startlingly white, was pushed back by â wait, was that a blindfold?
you stare longer than you should have, trying to piece the odd sight together. a cosplay? a k-pop idol wannabe, hoping to get recruited for the next bts tour? perhaps, he was blind, hard of sight? you start to open your mouth, wondering how to phrase the intrusive and awkward questions, but he beats you to it.
"i can see you just fine, y'know," he says, his tone laced with amusement.
your cheeks burn at the realisation that he's caught you gawking shamelessly. so you quickly turn back to your drink, suddenly very interested in the cranberries floating in the glass.
the bartender returns, sliding the stranger's drink onto the counter with an audible clink. it was the most obnoxious cocktail that you'd ever seen. a martini glass filled with frothy, pale liquid and crowned with a cinnamon stick that jutted out like the mast of some ridiculous holiday ship.
you watch, mildly horrified, as the man picks up the glass and downs half of it in one confident gulp. he sets it down a satisfied sigh, and a smack of his glossy lips, and you wrinkle your nose involuntarily at the sight.
"i swear it's good," he says with a laugh, catching your expression. his grin is wide, playful. and you find yourself smiling back despite your sour, gloomy mood.
he has a nice smile, you note. not forced nor smug, but genuine. framed by pale pink lips that curl up in an easy, natural way. it was strange though, to look at someone without seeing their eyes.
"i'm gojo, by the way," he offers, his voice smooth and lightly amused once more, as if he'd caught you studying him again.
your gaze drops to his hands, long and slender, tracing the rim of the martini glass. something about the way they move â elegant and deliberate, hold your attention a moment too long for propriety. you quickly snap your focus back to his face, "what brings you here, gojo?"
gojo shrugs, and you can almost imagine him rolling his eyes beneath the blindfold, though you doubt his ire is directed at you, "work, i guess. or maybe i just got bored of going to work."
"they're working you hard, yeah?" you ask, trying for sympathy. employers loved squeezing their workers dry during the holidays. your own boss was proof enough of that, running the office like a sweatshop for santa's unpaid elf labour.
"something like that," gojo says with a scoff, the corners of his mouth quirking up again, "what about you? what brings you here? it's christmas eve, isn't it?"
you sigh, the weight of gauche embarrassment suddenly pressing down as the words spill out before you can stop them, "my ex-boyfriend cheated on me."
gojo's lip curls, the kind of expression that balances perfectly between pity and disgust, "that sucks," he offers. profound and wise, you have to agree as he continues, "you jus' find out or something?"
the question makes you cheeks heat, and you fiddle with the edge of your drink, "no, i've known all month." you gesture vaguely towards your purse, where your phone sat like an unsealed pandora's box, "but he posted...on instagram. and stuff. i'm still, y'know, getting over it."
gojo makes a thoughtful clicking noise with his tongue, "ah, see, i don't do social media. but that sounds rough."
you let out a weak huff, "yeah, well...now i just feel like a loser. my friends told me to go out and have fun, and here i am..." you trail off, downing the rest of your cranberry vodka in a single, decisive gulp. the sting hits your throat, sharp and sour, and you grimace at the burn.
gojo frowns slightly, leaning in just enough that you can hear how his voice softens, "i don't think you're a loser." the sincerity in his tone catches you off guard, pulling your gaze back to him, "it's fair to wallow."
his words hang in the air, and you find yourself smiling, albeit thinly, "that's...really nice of you to say."
gojo hums thoughtfully, "i meant it, i promise. but i can't exactly say i've been there, never really dated anyone."
you blink, openly gaping at the man, "really? you're joking."
it was hard to wrap your head around that. even with the odd blindfold, everything about him screamed 'pounce-worthy'. the broad frame, the charming smile, the striking white hair that looked like it belonged in a kérastase commercial.
gojo laughs at your incredulous expression, "same old work and stuff," he explains with a casual shrug. then his grin fades, tone shifting just enough for you wonder why that feels as though the clouds have covered the light of the moon outside, "always got in the way."
"at least you never had to deal with a breakup," you offer, trying to find some weak, silver lining.
gojo frowns, his pale complexion now tinged with a faint red flush that even the dim bar lights couldn't disguise. was he really that much of a lightweight, or was the eggnog's amaretto content deceptively boozy?
he sighs dramatically, "a friend once left me outside a kfc in shinjuku. then he became a murderer and a cult leader. that felt like a breakup."
"huh," you murmur, staring at the man with a mixture of amusement and faint alarm, wondering if you'd seen any cult leaders on the evening news lately. no, nothing save for the occasional incorrect weather report, a friendly good-looking priest running some scam association, and news reports about an octopus that could predict the lottery, "that's - well, okay..."
you couldn't quite tell if he was joking or not, but gojo seems to shake himself free of the odd reverie. he's running his hand through his shock of white hair, and his grin has returned, slower and a touch softer, "still, your ex must've been crazy. letting go of a pretty girl like you?"
the words land with surprising weight, considering they come from a stranger in a sleazy bar, but it leaves you momentarily stunned. you can feel a blush rising to your cheeks, your heart doing an embarrassing little flip before you manage to get a grip on yourself.
"wow," you laugh, feigning composure as you sip the last remnants of your drink, "smooth."
gojo's smile is wider now, "hah, i call it like i see it," and his lips now curl upwards as he leans in, "and i'm serious. if i had someone like you..."
you laugh again, but this time it's far more unsteady. you wonder if the cranberry vodka is playing with your head, "big words for someone who's never dated. should i be impressed, gojo?"
gojo's chuckle is a deep sound that vibrates in his chest, "i know a good thing when i see it. you don' need to date to know what you want. and i think i want you."
your stomach does a little flip, and you feel all rationality being pounded out of you just from staring at his unfairly gorgeous hands rest on sturdy thighs, "you do flattery well, i'll give you that."
"oh, i don't know about that," gojo says, fiddling with the stem of his glass, "but what'dya say we get out of here? how about my place?"
you blink slowly, and you're aware that your heart (and...nether regions) have already composed an answer before your mind has, "what if you're a serial killer? you're not about to silent night, deadly night me, are you? you haven't killed someone have you?"
for a moment, the man stills but then gojo leans back, "smart girl. asking the right questions. but no, i can at least promise that i'm not a criminal."
you hesitate just for a beat, the words lingering on your tongue, before you let out a breath and shrug, "fine. where's your place?"
"azabu," gojo replies without missing a beat, his tone smooth, like it's the most natural thing in the world.
you gape once more, blinking as you try to process the information. azabu? as in tokyo's ritziest neighbourhood, where a one-bedroom apartment could cost you more than most people's yearly salary? the kind of place where the floors are made of marble, and everyone's shoes are more expensive than your entire wardrobe?
gojo, ridiculously handsome despite looking like a circus runaway, too charming for his own good, and not the type you'd expect to find in a cheap downtown dive bar. definitely not on a christmas eve, at least.
for a split second, you wonder how a man like him even ended up in a place like this. maybe it's some kind of self-imposed penance. or he likes to keep things low-key when he's pretending not to be rich? maybe he's looking to cosplay a succession character?
whatever it is, it's working. not only does gojo have a face carved from marble, now you've got a solid ticket into seeing what a neighbourhood for the top one percent really looks like beyond it's wealthy exterior. maybe, you'll bring back a souvenir.
you wonder whether there's a group of small emotions standing around inside your head, inside-out style. glaring at you as if you're incapable of making good and rational decisions.
well fuck that, you gather yourself and shrug off the small wave of nerves, and loop your purse strap around your finger, "alright," you say, "let's get out of here then."
you don't miss at how the adam apple of gojo's throat bobs for a second, before he downs the rest of his drink in one go, "let's get outta here then."
you follow him out into the cold, your breath fogging in front of you as you try to focus, but the man is tall, like ridiculously so. but when you reach the curb, he turns to face you again, a frown marring his face.
"so, i have a small confession."
i changed my mind and i find you repulsive.
i was paid by your ex to do this, and now i've done enough to get my money.
i'm a serial killer.
you don't know which possibility is worse, "huh, a confession? what is it now?"
gojo chuckles, lifting a hand to the back of his neck, as though he's about to spill a dark secret into the night air, "i don't have a car."
"you've got to me kidding me. how'd you even get down here?"
gojo shrugs, a casual and almost lazy movement. and you feel your gaze lingering on his shoulders. broad, impossibly wide, the dark jacket hugging him in all the right places, like it was tailor-made to showcase just how much he filled it out.
"someone dropped me off. ages ago," like it was the most normal and rational explanation in the world.
your own laugh is short, a little disbelieving, but you pull your silver keys from your purse, "well, i guess i'll have to drive then. but what would you have done if i hadn't been here to save the day?"
gojo steps to the side, opening your own car door for you with a small flourish and exaggerated bow that makes your heart jolt again, "probably teleport back home. maybe fly, since the skies look clear."
what a weird guy. hot, but weird. he seems like the type to dress up with a fake beard and show up as gandalf at the next lord of the rings fan convention.
in the driver's seat beside him, you catch yourself staring too long. your gaze slipping over a model's jawline, the white of his hair being held up by the blindfold. even his vaguely expensive scent is disorienting, pleasant like pine and blackcurrant. but it's also hard not to be amused when he's furrowing teeth into plush pink lips out of concentration, pressing an address into your cracked gps screen.
well, merry christmas to you.
gojo's place is well...how do you say this? gorgeous doesn't quite begin to cover it. he leads you into the building with the ease of someone who knows every inch of it, tossing a casual smile over his shoulder as he swipes a key card to unlock the private elevator, "i tend to move around a bit. or stay in different places. keeps life exciting, don't you think?"
you step into the elevator alongside him, the polished mirrors reflecting the soft glow of gold accents and sleek, modern lines. his hand hovers over the control panel before he presses the button for the top floor. of course, it's the penthouse.
"you move around a lot?" you ask, arching an eyebrow, "what, like a restless billionaire or something?"
gojo smiles, leaning casually against the steel as the elevator begins its smooth ascent, "now you're exaggerating."
the elevator finally dings, and gojo steps aside, offering an exaggerated bow as he gestures for you to exit, "after you, my fair maiden."
you almost scoff at the ridiculousness of it, but there's something so endearing and charming about how he pulls it off, especially when paired with the unfair symmetry of his face.
floor to ceiling windows dominate the far wall, revealing a jaw dropping panorama of tokyo's skyline. the city stretches out in a glittering sea of lights, with the tokyo tower glowing a golden exclamation point against the velvet night sky. the interior is just as impressive, with polished wood floors that gleam in the warm light and a glass dining table that sits beneath a sculptural chandelier. that same faint scent of blackberry and pine lingers in the air, heady almost.
behind you, gojo strolls with an easy and languid grace, tossing his jacket onto an artisan leather armchair. beneath it, his sky blue dress shirt clings just right and rolled up to reveal forearms faintly dusted with pale hair. you think you've momentarily forgotten how words work, and you avert your gaze quickly. though not before catching the faint smile on his lips.
"not bad, huh?" gojo says, heading to the open kitchen as though he's unaware of the effect he's having on a rational and sensible mind such as yourself, "it's no dive bar, but i'll do."
you shake your head, bewildered. trying to process how someone you met in a dingy bar could live somewhere that looks like it belongs in architectural digest. even down to the odd, ancient looking pieces that scatter the wide living room. weird looking artifacts of some sort. maybe he's also a collector? go figure.
"not bad?" you repeat, incredulous, "gojo, this place is incredible."
the man laughs, opening a sleek fridge to grab a bottle of water, "i have good taste," he says with mock modesty, his tone teasing as long fingers twist off the cap, "and a thing for gorgeous views. though, between you and me, i'm not great with heights. ironic, i suppose. paying a fortune for a view i'd rather not get too close to."
he waves a hand vaguely towards the windows, the blindfold still firmly in place.
"so, what's the deal? did you win the lottery, or inherit a fortune. or are you some kinda secret agent who moonlights as a barfly?"
gojo lifts the bottle in mock toast, "let's just say i'm very good at what i do."
you arch a brow, crossing your arms and ignoring the warm flush creeping up your neck, "and what exactly is that?"
"oh, you know. standard stuff. international intrigue, thwarting evil creatures. i even saved a kitten from a tree the other day."
"right, because nothing screams the next member of the avengers like eggnog in a seedy bar."
gojo leans casually against the counter, "even the avengers need a holiday drink now and then. don't knock it." but then he gestures towards the sleek couch, "wait, you can make yourself comfortable, y'know. i'd hate for my guest to think i'm a terrible host."
"terrible host? no, but a mystery man â"
before you can finish, your foot catches on something hard, and you stumble forward with an undignified yelp. gojo reacts instantly, how does he move that fast, and his arm is shooting out to steady you. but glorious gravity and magnificent momentum has other plans.
both of you crash onto the couch, and you find yourself sprawled unceremoniously across his lap. gojo's laugh rumbles low in his chest, and you can feel the warmth of it underneath your palms as you steady yourself, "well, that's one way to get comfortable," he murmurs, voice teasing as his large hand lingers lightly on the curve of your waist.
you prop yourself up slightly, cheeks burning, and glance back at the offending object. your brows knit together when you spot what looks suspiciously like a katana gleaming under the soft light.
"did i just trip on a â hey, what the hell is that?"
gojo interrupts, smoothly extending a long leg to nudge that suspicious object under the nearby coffee table before you can finish, "nothing important," he says breezily, the motion so quick you almost think you imagined it.
his focus shifts back to you, almost guilty, but his fingers are pressing divots into the fabric of your top, "now, where were we? hi."
you blink, caught off guard by how strange it is to feel the searing heat of someone's gaze underneath a blindfold, impossibly intent, "hi yourself," you manage.
for a moment, neither you nor the gorgeous man under you move, and the world feels strangely airless.
but your fingers twitch against the fine linen of his shirt. and before you can second-guess yourself, you reach your hand up to the edge of the silk fabric over his face and you ask, "can i take this off?"
gojo tilts his head, like it's a genuine consideration and you catch the faintest flicker of hesitation. it's fleeting, replaced by a crooked smile as he nods, "go ahead, sweetheart."
your hand rests lightly on the silk, hesitant for only a second before tracing its way to the back of his head. your fingers brush through impossibly soft strands of white hair, and his breath hitches when you find the knot tied neatly to the base of his skull.
you wonder what manner of man gojo is, letting himself be stitched undone by a stranger. but with care, you undo the knot, working deftly and clutching the fabric as you pull the blindfold away.
the blindfold slips free, and for a moment, you're certain you've forgotten how to breathe. bright, piercing blue eyes. framed by thick white lashes blink up at you. the intensity of such an unearthly gaze is softened by something more vulnerable, almost shy. nervous even.
"wow," you murmur without thinking, the word spilling out as gojo's expression shifts, an unguarded openness replacing the playful smirk that you've seen all evening.
your earlier assessment echoes in your mind: k-pop reject wannabe. the recent memory now feels like quite the injustice, a careless slight against a face that defies easy description. each detail of his face is striking, as if some divine hand had taken special care to sculpt him from the fabric of time and space itself.
gojo seems to sense your analysis, and you're sure that he's parted his lips to speak, but whatever he was about to say falters. that faint flush, pale-red like vermillion watercolour bleeding across a canvas, blooms across his cheeks. gojo's hazy gaze flickers for a second, and it sends a thrill through you. he's affected by this, by you.
it's hard to resist the slow smile that curves your lips, light and playful if only to mask the way your own heart is racing, "are you seriously shy now, gojo?"
gojo's expression shifts again almost immediately, as if that subtle invulnerability has been replaced by something sharper, almost indignant. he sits up a little straighter, the movement making you acutely aware of how the hard planes of his body feel beneath you.
"shy? no," gojo says, his voice steady but edged with some need to defend his honour, "i just...don't usually do this. that's all."
there's a sincerity in his words, an almost begrudging honesty that takes you by surprise. you tilt your head, as your murmur, "i don't either."
before you can second-guess yourself, you tilt your head down. pressing your lips to gojo's in a featherlight kiss. his taste is intoxicating, honey and sweet grapes mingling with a hint of that ridiculous vanilla drink from earlier. you pull back almost as quickly as you leaned in, testing the waters.
but your breath catches when you see that the blue of his eyes has deepened, darkened. and his lips, pink-blush and slightly parted, form a quiet and stunned oh!
"cool," gojo manages, his voice rougher than you expected, and you bite back a laugh as you watch him swallow hard.
"huh, cool?" you echo, your amusement bubbling over, "that's it? that's all you've got?"
gojo's grip on your waist tightens, and his hands are now splayed over your spine. anchoring you to him, as his mouth curves into something sly, though his flushed cheeks betray his composure, "compliments to the chef?"
you shift slightly, pressing more of your weight firmly into his lap. though not yet close enough to situate yourself over his groin, delighting in the way gojo's blush spreads down his neck, staining his skin a shade reminiscent of ripe berries swirling in cream.
you can feel gojo's attention as much as you can see it, how his own gaze lingers, deliberate and unhurried. taking you like a masterpiece that deserves more than a cursory glance. the hand that had been steady on your back shifts, his fingers threading through your hair. he watches as the strands slip and fall beneath his touch.
"thought you said you wanted me, gojo," you tease, though you're certain your voice is betraying the way your pulse is doing its best impression of the macarena in your jugular, "are y'gonna do something or not?"
gojo's gaze snaps back to you, a flicker of something far more intense passing through those impossibly blue eyes. full of hunger, need even. the hand in your hair slides away, only to settle at your jaw. it's warm and steady, his thumb brushing slightly over the plush of your bottom lip.
"i do want you," gojo says, his voice low and steady and maddeningly genuine, "want you to kiss me again. and again. as many times as you want until i forget my own name."
"gojo â"
"satoru," he interrupts, his voice cracking slightly, stripped of any previous swagger. it's unsteady and raw, affected in a way that excites you. sends a dark heat curling low between your thighs, "you can call me that."
"satoru," you repeat softly, letting the syllables fall from your lips, unfurling in the most hazy way.
something within the man shifts. his hand tightens on your waist, dragging you closer in a way that punches the air from your lungs. right over -
oh. the thick, curve of his erection straining against slacks that probably cost more than your monthly salary. it's deliberate, almost desparate at how the invisible thread snapped inside him. unravelled the careful composure he's been clinging to until now.
"go on," gojo murmurs, his voice dark with need, "kiss me again, please."
you lean closer, eyes flickering to his lips, and your pulse roaring in your ears, "who would i be to deny you any wish, satoru?" the words come out more reverent that you'd expected, as if your entire world has been tilted off its axis.
and then you kiss him, hard. desparate. as if his lips are your birthright, a homeland to claim. and gojo's kissing you back, carrying a sweetness that seems both foreign and familiar. in an instant, the weight of another man, a dreary haze in your past, vanishes. gojo is suddenly everything you didn't know you needed, vibrant and electrifying.
"let me know if it's too much," gojo breathes against your lips, his voice shaky as if he's trying to tether himself to the earth. but your kiss deepens, frantic and unrestrained. his mouth moves against yours with a hunger that sends sparks down your spine, and you suddenly realise you quite like the taste of vanilla when it's dripping from his open kisses.
you pull away, for every human needs air. but the sight before you has you clenching your thighs desperately around the bulge where you sit atop. gojo's gaze is heavy, full of that desparate longing that makes your chest ache. his lips are swollen, a soft cherry hue from your kisses. and strands of white hair fall over his blue eyes.
"look what you've done to me, fuck. miss you already," gojo murmurs, and before you can respond, he surges forward, hands pressing against your face with the intensity of a storm. one hand reaches to find the nape of your neck, letting you surrender to the heat of this touch.
you crave more, so much more from gojo, who's taking you in like you're his last breath, his final indulgance. it's as if he's found a new devotion in you, ready to worship you at the alter of your false godhood. but before you can part your mouth to tell him exactly what you and where, gojo's hands are already sneaking under your top, brushing against the trembling skin of your torso.
his teeth are biting down on your lip, leaving you dizzy. and gasping, and so damp in your panties as the fabric of your top is peeled away, and you're left shivering, fighting against the cold of the december air. you find yourself pressing harder into the warmth of his chest, letting the swell of your chest press flat against him.
"shoulda' turned the heat on before we came in," gojo murmurs, breathless as his lips hover a mere centimetre away from yours, "got nothin' to worry about, sweetheart. i'll keep you warm."
"didn't t-think i'd spend christmas eve like this," you gasp, your head lolling to the side as gojo presses open-mouthed kisses to the soft arc of your neck, sensitive even to the cool air.
"no?" gojo's reply is breathy, almost frantic as if he's fumbling in the heat of the moment and has little grasp over the words tumbling out of his mouth, "neither did i. but this? b-better than any fuckin' mission they could've sent me on."
you cock your head, feeling the heat of his clothed cock underneath your thighs, "m-mission, huh? what are you talking about - mmph!" but the rest of the question never escapes your lips for it's swallowed up by another one of gojo's candied kisses.
his rough hands work deftly, finding the clasp of your bra with ease. a pretty crimson thing, almost sheer as it caught the light. and in the centre, a tiny satin bow sat like the final touch on a perfectly wrapped gift. you had only worn it half-heartedly earlier in the morning, some forced christmas cheer for your dreary day ahead.
the look on gojo's face was anything but composed, staring at your cupped tits like you'd knocked the air out of him and his chest rose and fall as though he were remembering how to breathe. in a single fluid motion, your bra is unhooked. the faint metallic click barely audible over the pounding in your chest and he's tossing it aside with a casual flick, his focus entirely on you.
you find yourself mesmerised by his eyes, those swirling pools of blue that seem to have stolen fragments of the sky itself, clouds brushed into cerulean depths with strokes of syrupy smoothness. they're breathtaking, but the thought shatters as gojo's canines graze the flesh of your breasts, a sharp and teasing nip that pulls a gasp from your lips. leaves you rocking sharply against his erection, making him throw his head back, ragged.
the playful string blooms into a flush of heat, and gojo's at it again, his mouth working to leave faint red marks in its wake. you squeal, half in surprise and half in helpless laughter (and entirely in a lusty haze) but gojo only pulls back enough to murmur, "what? can't help myself."
but then he peers at you abruptly, his lips parted as he catches his breath, "wait. do you wanna â?" and gojo tilts his snowy hair towards the shadowy doorway that leads out of the living room, the implication clear even through his panting.
you nod, breathless, "yeah, jus' help me up."
without hesitation, a strong arm slides around your waist, and before you know it, you're being swept into a semi-bridal carry, and your head is resting against the fabric of his dress shirt. not a bad feeling, one you could get used to.
at the doorway, gojo lets out a low 'shit!', nudging the door open with his foot. the faint sound of clattering follows as he kicks something out of the way. you glance down from your entirely too comfortable vantage point, spotting a smattering of cheap tinsel, all glittering in metallic silver and gold, tangled with round baubles that glisten faintly under the dim light.
some have little smears of glue, and uneven glitter patches, as if crafted by unsteady hands, but with earnest effort.
"you big on christmas or something?" you tease, delighting in how the tips of his ears light up like nose of a famous reindeer.
gojo freezes for a moment, almost sheepish as he clears a path, clearly trying to look as macho as possible as he gingerly pushes aside a string of green lights, "made those for my students," he mutters, "thought they'd like them in the classroom tomorrow."
your laugh grows louder, and gojo's brows furrow, his tone growing defensive, "it's a nice surprise for the classroom!"
"i'm not making fun of you!" you insist, leaning up to press a gentle, soothing kiss to the hollow of his collarbone, "it's sweet. i think it's really nice, actually. wait, you're a teacher?"
gojo's mouth quirks up in a faint smile, "something like that," he says cryptically, finally clearing a decent and hazard-free path into a sleek, and clean bedroom. it's all modern space, all clean lines in shades of cream and white, and navy.
gojo sets you down gently, and the plush fabric cradles you as your back lands on fresh linen. and for a quiet, tender moment, you're both caught in the stillness. gojo kneels at the edge of the bed, his hands resting lightly on each of your thighs as if he's anchoring himself there.
his gaze is steady, content, maybe even adoring in a way that feels too intimate for someone who you barely know. there's a warmth in his expression, like he's savouring the sight of you, searching for something â and he's found exactly what he's hoped for.
almost without thinking, you lift a hand, cupping the sides of his face. his skin is warm beneath your palm, soft with the faintest hint of pale stubble that seems to fade into his skin. the moment your hands makes contact, gojo leans into your touch instinctively, his white lashes fluttering closed.
"hey, 'toru," you murmur softly, "y'still with me?"
gojo's eyes snap open at the sound of that, sharp and bright, as if the nickname itself has sparked a challenge in him. a low and almost frustrated sound escapes from the back of his throat, and he presses a feather-light kiss to the inside of your knee.
you don't miss at how his teeth sink into his bottom lip again, worrying and working the plush flesh like he's trying to steady himself. spreading your weeping thighs aside, as his gaze is fixed on something. intense, unwavering. the sheer focus of it making heat creep up your neck.
at how he must be staring hungrily at damp, sheer red fabric that clings to the outline of your cunt. at how it must shimmer almost translucently now, the sticky slick of your arousal enhancing the gloss, making your panties glisten under the light.
you're feeling an unfamiliar kind of shy under the weight of his attention, at how he must see how the fabric clings closely to your puffy, swollen folds â the delicate weave exposing the shape of your taut pussy, practically weeping for his touch.
you needn't have asked, for gojo was already diving into deliver.
he's gliding his index finger over your dripping pussy, letting the tangy syrup sink onto his fingers, leaning in to press a sweet, almost innocent kiss to your clothed cunt, "she seems desperate for me, don'tcha think, heh?"
the sound of the fabric ripping is sharp and wet, a squelching and almost fleshy tone, a sound that's both soft and sharp to the blood rushing between your ears. a strained tear of your beautiful panties, leaving cool air to gently leave a kiss of its own upon your cunt.
you gape at him, a bit too stunned to find coherent words, "hey, what the f-fuck! those were like super expensive!"
gojo rolls his eyes, the kind of look that has a bit too much attitude for someone who's practically begging on his knees for a taste of you, "don't get all huffy on me, sweetheart. 'm gonna buy you more, is tha' alright?"
"i'll r-remember that, satoru," you murmur, giving a sharp tug at his white strands, "you gon' have to give me your number now."
gojo shudders, the muscles in his back rippling underneath his tight shirt, "was already gonna," and he's back to pressing soft, kitten licks to your now exposed folds, small circles over your throbbing clit.
you buck your canting hips closer to the heat of his mouth, to where the pink tip of his teasing tongue peeks out of a pretty mouth, "satoru, c'mon. can't you just, fuckâ"
you sharply cry out as he presses his mouth forward, a sudden surge of heat jolting through you. burying himself deep, his nose brushing against the sweet, syrup that coats your pussy, and the rhythmic, wet movements of his tongue send shivers through your entire being.
"mhm, jus' as sweet as you look, baby," gojo gasps, swirling and flicking his tongue, teasing you with every deliberate patter of the muscle near your winking entrance. so messy, slick and you're not sure where he ends and you begin as it all glides together carnally.
gojo seems languidly tipsy, just from munching through the gloss of your cunt, far more intoxicated from your taste than any cheap christmas liquor. he alternates between pushing his tongue past the ring of your tight walls, and then wrapping his lips around the searing pulse of your clit, leaving your hips shaking and dragging over his mouth, smearing yourself over his chin.
you're fisting delicate white locks with fierce urgency, and he hisses and then chuckles into your pussy, "tch! ease up there for me, yeah? jus' move your hips like you were doin' before," and you comply, angling yourself better so he can flatten his tongue against your folds, jaw grinding deeper into you "hah, yeah, just like that."
"taking good care of you though, aren't i? wait, say it. say that 'm making you feel good," and he's bullying a long finger into your gummy walls, clingy and sopping, "say 'm making you feel better than a-anyone ever has," and you just mewl as your arousal must surely be dripping down his forearms, staining the cuffed sleeve of his shirt as he takes your sweet juices down his throat.
there's stars beginning to twinkle at the edge of your vision, and you know you must be close, for your heart is practically dancing a heavy beat against your ribcage, and you suddenly push his mouth away, watching as a clear strand of spit or your slick forms a taut bridge between his mouth and your folds.
"w-wait, satoru, s-stop."
gojo's head lifts, eyes blinking as if coming out of a faze. but then, like a switch, something sharp flickers behind his gaze and concern floods in. his thin brows furrow slightly, glossy lips parting as he reaches out, as if to steady your hips, "you okay, sweetheart? what's wrong?"
your heart stutters, pounding so loudly you're sure he can hear it. you try to steady your breathing, but the tremour in your fingertips betray you as they gently slide through your hair, the silky strands tangling around your hand.
"nothin' wrong, 'toru. but i was gonna cum," and gojo's face, still flushed and soft with arousal, splits into a shy, amused grin.
"hah, i know. that's what i wanted," he's close enough that you can feel the warmth of his breath hitting your aching cunt, but you shake your head again.
"feels unfair, wanna see you too. wan' you to cum in me,"
you watch, almost in awe, as a low and guttural sound escapes gojo satoru, raw and unfiltered. gojo runs his tongue over his lips, his eyes dark with something dangerously close to hunger.
"you sure?" and his voice is hoarse, unsure despite his roaming gaze. you nod, your hands digging into his shoulder, tugging at the crisp fabric of his dress shirt, desparate to feel the warmth of his skin underneath.
his shaky laugh of disbelief only makes you more aroused, whining for him to hurry up, and before you know it, he's standing up, towering over your boneless form on the sheets.
"how could i deny you anything?" he murmurs, echoing your earlier words. gojo's hands reach for the hem, the fabric shifting as he pulls it over his head, revealing a milky expanse of toned skin, smooth and taut over a set of abs that should easily land him on a gq list.
his waist is slender, defined in all the right places, and the soft taper of muscles make your breath catch. but the soft white trail of hair that reaches under his waistband makes your cunt clench.
"y'seem happy with the view, don'tcha?" gojo's voice is teasing, the cocky smirk tugging at his lips, but you can hear the impatience threading his tone now too. he's not as in control as he lets on, his hands now making quick work of his belt, leaving your mouth dry when he finally pushes his black boxers down.
you should have known that his cock would be as pretty and unfairly gorgeous as the rest of him. he's circling the strawberry-red tip, glowering and throbbing, right over your gathered slick, coating it and smacking the mushroom head in a thwack! over your poor clit, leaving you jolting as he laughs and leans down to kiss you sweetly once more.
"jus' look at me, yeah?" his drawl is slow, lazy and so ruined. at the first inch of his throbbing cock that slips through your walls, he looks utterly undone. a mess of sharp edges softened by something far more primal and raw.
gojo's head tips back, exposing the elegant line of his neck as the moonlight cascades over you, "hey, sweetheart, 's not too much, yeah?"
hazy blue eyes bore into you, and for a brief moment, in the time it takes for the lightning to strike the earth, you swear that his eyes glow. almost radiant and jewel-like, with cerulean fractals shimmering as if they're emitting life of their own. perhaps its simply the electrifying stretch of inches that's rendering you to hallucinate, whining as your nails find purchase in milky skin and rippling shoulders.
"i-it's big, 'toru," you pant, feeling him almost shudder at the clipped name again, as he grips the base of his cock to bully the final inch in, sighing in contentment as he finally bottoms out, with a wet pop!
gojo looks feral like this, heaving a breath through his mouth as though the air is being taken from him from every second he spends stretching you out on his fat shaft, "hah, 'm glad, i'm so glad i met you tonight, sweetheart. fuck, fuck, y'feel i-incredible."
he's pushing your thighs further back, running his hands over the plush skin, leaving bruising red prints that won't disappear tomorrow as you moan, wanton into his open mouth, letting gojo run his lips down your jaw and into the curve of your neck.
you're practically now folded in half under the bulk of his weight, feeling stars collide in absolutely astrophysical ways, impaled further on the long and thick length of his cock, "in so deep, s-satoru."
seems that gojo is a man of little mercy, for he seems only all the more invigorated by your squeals, drawing his torso back to watch the hypnotic smack of skin on skin, of your slick and creamy froth creating fresh rings over his pistoning cock.
he's entirely out of control, as you feel your body go limp from the pleasure shooting through every nerve and pore.
depraved.
you don't realise you might have let that slip out loud, so dizzy in your cockdrunk haze because gojo's suddenly ramming himself roughly in you, as though he was desperate to have his cock kiss your cervix, to feel for every divot and nook of your cunt's walls.
"d-depraved, hah. people call me, fuck, p-people call me a lotta things, sweetheart," and gojo's so good with it, letting your pussy have not even one moment to take reprieve, having you feel each vein and bulge of his cock, "but depraved is n-new."
the hand that was dancing over your thighs flies to your swollen, aching clit. practically glistening for his attention, and his attention you did receive, "right, t-there! 'toru, mmph!" you're trying to splay your legs wider, giving his quick hand more room to swirl tight circles where you needed him most.
your double-vision gaze lingers on the ripple of his muscles, the way his arms flex and shift as he seems intent on angling you just right for him to drill his cock over and over, at some freakish and feverish pace, "y'so good, gojo," you purr, and your nails curl against his arms, pressing just enough to leave tiny crescents in his skin, the faint dampness of his exertion clinging to him, "s-so strong!"
something shifts. the glow is back, electric blue flooding his eyes like crackling storm clouds. it's almost unnerving, this unearthly brightness, as if he's some ancient god wrapped up in human skin, and you've just stumbled into a divine revelation.
gojo stills for the briefest moment, the thick head of his cock snagging on your puffy folds as he draws himself almost entirely out. the absence of motion makes you whine, an airy and impatient sound escaping your throat. that hesitation feels like a tease, like a string that's been pulled so taut, before he finally dives forward, capturing your mouth in a messy, heated kiss. sloppy in its disregard.
"s-so strong, huh?" gojo's voice is rough, shaky, as though he's trying to centre himself but your tight pussy holds him in hypnotic sway, "y-you think so? think i'm the strongest?" his lips brush yours as he speaks, and there's something almost boyish and charming in the way that he seems to be fishing for a compliment, despite the low heat in his voice.
you pull back from his wet, spit-stringed lips. just enough to wrap your hands around his neck and push him closer, deeper into you as he gutturally groans, "if i s-say yes, are y'gonna keep showing off?"
gojo's laugh is short, breathless, "y-yeah, wanna see?"
he makes quick work of pushing himself back into you, pumping himself so far in that your slick must be painting and sopping the white hairs at the base of his cock almost translucent, "o-oh my god, 'toru, fuck, oh my god!" the stretch has your head spinning, as if the skies are parting above you, and you're melodramatically left to see the light of divinity as gojo bucks his hips harshly into you. as if he's too far gone, needs to prove himself to you with a good fuck.
"you h-have to say it," gojo stutters, his words tumbling out so quickly, like rough gravel, "say it, fuck, c'mon. say i'm â say i'm the s-strongest. you have to, hnghh, god. please, jus' agree, okay?" his voice is cracking, that cocky veneer entirely shattered under the weight of his rambling desperation as he practically rummages through your sopping insides, "y-you feel it right, i mean, you can feel me â i mean."
a high whine escapes your throat as his pace becomes almost olympian, and you wonder faintly how you haven't managed to sprain a muscle or break a bone yet, how he hasn't managed to shatter something with the sheer pace and force of how gojo satoru fucks, "hah, 'toru. i'm â"
"close? g-god, i hope so. 's what i want. nothing, like n-nothing feels better than this right?" his words are falling out of him in a messy, pussydrunk rush, his eyes flickering between your face and down to where your pussy lips are bulged around his shaft, "so good, right? the b-best thing you've ever â"
you truthfully don't even hear the rest of his words, blood absolutely roaring and rearing in your ears, your ribcage as you feel the tight coil snap, letting out short, slurred snaps of his name when you cum. as he doesn't quite let up on smacking his hips right against your ass, "s-satoru, 's getting s-sensitive, oh, fuck. fuck!"
he's suddenly whining, with pleading and erratic blue eyes chasing after you, sloppily pushing down so he can gasp and pant into your open mouth, before capturing you in a heart-stopping kiss as he finally gets milked dry by your pulsing and fluttering walls. in awe of how creamy white is practically leaking out of you, dripping a stringy trail over the flesh of your thighs.
you're agape at how utterly fucked he looks right now, though you're certain you do not look much better as fat tears prick at your eyes, streaming past your ears from the overstimulation, "s-still fillin' me up, 'toru. god, do ya always cum this much?"
at first, you don't even get a response from gojo who just sinks his teeth into the juncture of your neck, almost as if he's trying not to cry out, but then he's back to circling your clit with a rough hand, "makin' me sound like some kinda whore, s-sweetheart. 'n and i told you. don't do this m-much."
and now he's slowing down, pleasurably painful bucks of his hips keeping glossy, white seed in you. ensuring that it coats your entire entrance, "an' it's not my fault that she," and here, he gives your clit a small smack! grinning like a madman, "n-not my fault that she's so, hah, addictive."
each tight circle of his hand on your clit sends you hurtling into yet another orgasm, one that has you begging gojo for mercy, repreive, for more. an orgasm that has him whispering the sweetest nothings into your ear, "d-don't worry, gotcha like this. gonna let you rest n-now, jus' gotta relax for me."
by the time he's slipping his still somehow hard cock out of your creamed cunt, you can feel exhaustions heavy and caring hands caress you, rendering your body limp and boneless. your eyes heavy and hazy, but you can feel a soft ghost of gojo's kiss over the shell of your ear, "h-hope y'still here in the morning, sweetheart. don't leave, yeah?"
the morning sunlight filters through the blinds, and despite the ache in your limbs that cricks your bones, you drag yourself out of bed. christmas day, after all. you've thrown on gojo's dress shirt from last night, snug enough to flutter around your hips, but oversized enough around the shoulders to let you drown in it.
it's cozy though, and even the chilly air feels refreshing against the warmth clinging to you. gojo is still sound asleep, and you had smiled at how he took little puffs of air as he was passed flat out in bed. but you always like to be up early on christmas, and there's something about the holiday that makes you feel like you need to earn the right to nap later.
you wander around the bedroom for a bit, stretching your legs as your muscle protest in earnest. eventually, you decide to make your way to that kitchen. breakfast, right.
it seems like a good idea, especially considering the last thing in your stomach was a questionably sour vodka. so you pull open the fridge, expecting something befitting of this apartment. perhaps a slab of wagyu beef, a tin of caviar, a thick block of pistachio-cream dubai chocolate. you'd even settle for sushi.
instead, you're left staring back at a stack of candy canes, some strawberry yoghurt, a carton of milk and some fast food wrappers. despite your protesting stomach, a deep amusement washes over you. it doesn't surprise you that gojo would have a fridge stocked with food you'd find at a child's birthday party and a greasy diner.
still, breakfast is in order and because you can't help it, you pull out a candy cane and start unwrapping it. you're just about take a bite when you hear the unmistakable pad of footsteps. you turn, face to face with someone who would clearly not be out of place on a vogue covershoot.
gojo hasn't tossed on a shirt, and the sunlight filters over his chiselled physique before your sight is stolen by the loose sheet wrapped around his waist. delicious. you try to snap your gaze back to his face, but it's hard to not track your gaze down his torso, like a cat eyeing a particularly irresistible sunbeam.
"good morning to you too," gojo says, a grin curling his lips, "what are you doing?" his voice is still thick with interrupted sleep, laced with a morning rasp that forces you to ground yourself and stop falling prey to the god, eros and his machinations.
"breakfast, 'm starving."
"don't bother," gojo says, shaking his head, "we can go somewhere nice for breakfast. like real, actual food. don't think you want half-eaten yoghurt."
you nod enthusiastically, mind turning back to the peeling seal of the strawberry yoghurt with a spoon sticking out of it. but then, something else catches your mind's attention. a little curiosity piques, one that you cannot help but ask him.
"wait," you begin, snapping your teeth around the saccharine mint of the candy cane, "y'know what's crazy. like, i swear your eyes glowed last night. not even in a silly compliment way, but like electricity. i thought i was like, losing it.'
you expect gojo to brush it off with a wink, or maybe laugh it off like you're just teasing him. but instead, the man's face shifts, that cocky smile faltering for the briefest moment. it's gone so fast that you think you almost imagined it. but why does he look...almost guilty?
before you can process that, you realised you've leaned yourself over the counter, and in your absent-mindedness, your elbow presses a button on the answering machine. a small beep, and suddenly, a voice blares through the room,
"hey, gojo-sensei!" comes a high-pitched, distinctly teenage voice, an excited boy who sounds a little crackly over the speaker, "so, we found this grade one curse yesterday...and uh, we totally got rid of it. we were gon' call you, but you didn't pick up. but i almost got my arm torn off. wait, no! that sounds dramatic, i got shoko to look at it anyway. so what we're all wondering right is that we don't have to hand in any homework now right? as like reparations?"
the voice crackles off, leaving an eerie silence in its wake. you stand there, absolutely dumbstruck, staring at the answering machine like it's about to burst into flames or start singing christmas carols.
gojo, meanwhile, has the most awkward look on his face, clearly caught between embarrassment...and what? panic, amusement?
"satoru, what the fuck?"
he looks at you for a moment, but instead of speaking, he lets out a long and exasperated sigh before pulling out one of the counter chairs, "you're gonna want to sit down for this one, sweetheart."
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Stroke of Midnight
Max Verstappen x Alonso!Reader
Summary: New Yearâs Eve sees you crouched under a table, shoving grapes into your mouth as the seconds tick by in a desperate attempt to find love in 2025 ⊠but it just so happens that love finds you a whole lot sooner than you expect
Note: Happy (almost) New Year! Wishing everyone a sweet and fulfilling 2025 â€ïž
The club is too loud, too crowded, too much. Somewhere near the DJ booth, your father is probably breaking it down to the worst remix of an already bad pop song.
You donât want to know whatâs happening. You donât even want to be here, except here is Monaco on New Yearâs Eve, and itâs supposed to be magical. Thatâs what the internet said when you Googled it this morning. But so far, the magic feels more like sweat and regret.
And desperation. Thereâs no use pretending otherwise anymore.
Your legs cramp as you shift under the table, pulling your knees to your chest to avoid the sharp heel of a passing stranger. The white tablecloth is a flimsy barrier between you and the chaos outside â limbs, perfume, champagne flutes tipped at precarious angles.
You check your phone. Eleven fifty-seven.
âGod,â you whisper to yourself, clutching the little plastic bag in your hand. âThis is rock bottom.â
But is it? The thought stops you short. You could argue thereâve been worse moments.
There was your first boyfriend, for starters. The trust fund baby who somehow thought being wealthy made cheating excusable. âItâs not like I need you,â he had said when you caught him. Yeah, no kidding.
Then came the mechanic. Charming, sweet, and exactly what you thought you needed â until you overheard him laughing with his friends about how he only asked you out on a bet. The details are blurry now, but the humiliation is crystal clear.
And, of course, the summer of horror: introducing your third boyfriend to your dad, only to walk in on him rummaging through your fatherâs underwear drawer. âI just wanted to see what greatness looks like,â he had explained with a sheepish grin, clutching a pair of Fernando Alonsoâs boxer briefs like they were relics from the Vatican.
Three strikes. Youâre out.
âNot this year,â you mutter, shaking your head. This year, youâre taking things into your own hands.
You dig into the bag, spilling green grapes into your lap. Twelve of them. One for each second before midnight, each representing a wish for the year ahead. You glance at the clock again â eleven fifty-eight now. Two minutes to go.
Someone shifts the table above you, and you nearly choke on your gasp. The tablecloth lifts slightly, and a pair of curious eyes meet yours.
âWhat the hell?â
Itâs a man â dark-haired, stubble-jawed, vaguely familiar, though everyone in Monaco looks like they could be a movie star. Heâs crouched, trying to see past the shadows. You stare back, frozen.
âAre you hiding?â He asks, tilting his head. His accent is clipped and Dutch, which somehow makes this all worse.
âUh â no,â you stammer, holding up a grape like itâs evidence in court. âIâm ⊠Iâm doing something. Itâs a tradition.â
âUnder a table?â
âYes.â
Thereâs a pause. He blinks at you, then ducks his head fully under the tablecloth. âAlright, Iâll bite. What kind of tradition involves grapes and hiding under furniture?â
âItâs Spanish.â Youâre not sure why you feel defensive, but you do. âYou eat twelve grapes, one for each second before midnight, for good luck in the new year.â
âGood luck.â He glances pointedly at the table legs surrounding you. âHowâs that working out?â
You scowl. âItâs not midnight yet.â
He snorts. âFair enough. Carry on.â He starts to retreat, but something stops him. âWait. Why under the table?â
âBecause âŠâ You hesitate, not wanting to explain that part of the superstition involves being in a confined space to focus your intentions. It sounds ridiculous out loud, even to you. âBecause itâs quieter down here.â
âRight.â His tone is skeptical, but mercifully, he leaves it at that. âGood luck, grape girl.â Heâs gone before you can respond.
The clock ticks closer to midnight. Eleven fifty-nine. You clutch the grapes tighter, willing yourself to focus.
âOkay,â you whisper, heart pounding. âThis is it. Love. Luck. Anything but whatever the hell the last three years were.â
You pop the first grape into your mouth as the countdown begins, the music fading just enough for the crowd to yell, Twelve!
Itâs sour, but you swallow it quickly, reaching for the next. Eleven!
The third grape is sweeter. Ten!
Someone bumps the table above you, but you keep going. Nine!
The fifth grape tastes like possibility. Eight!
Youâre halfway through the sixth when the tablecloth lifts again.
âSorry, but I just-â Itâs him again, the Dutch guy. He ducks under the table fully this time, looking half-apologetic, half-curious. âI couldnât help it. What happens if you donât finish in time?â
You glare at him, cheeks puffed like a chipmunk. âWhuh ah oo doinâ?â
âTrying to understand the stakes here,â he says, crouching beside you. âItâs fascinating.â
âGo âway!â You manage, scrambling for the eighth grape. Five!
âIs this, like, a universal Spanish thing? Or just your family?â
You shove the ninth grape in your mouth, ignoring him. Four!
âYouâre really committed,â he notes, watching you chew furiously. âI respect that.â
You jab a finger toward the edge of the tablecloth, signaling him to leave.
âAlright, alright,â he says, hands up in surrender. âGood luck, truly. I hope it works.â
He disappears just as the countdown hits Three!
The eleventh grape is a struggle, but you manage. Two!
You grab the last one, cramming it in just as the crowd roars, One! Happy New Year!
Itâs chaos â cheering, champagne popping, music surging back to full volume. You sit there under the table, sticky with grape juice and feeling utterly ridiculous.
âHappy New Year to me,â you mutter, wiping your hands on your dress.
Above you, the tablecloth shifts again.
âI had a feeling youâd make it,â the Dutch guy says, grinning. Heâs holding two glasses of champagne. âFigured you might need this.â
You stare at him, utterly baffled. âDo you always bother strangers under tables?â
âOnly the ones who look like theyâre about to choke on tradition.â
You take the glass hesitantly, unsure whether to thank him or tell him to leave you alone. He raises his own in a toast.
âTo luck,â he says simply, his smile oddly sincere.
You sigh, clinking your glass against his. âTo luck.â
And for the first time in years, you think it might actually work.
***
The Dutch guy, whose name you still donât know, doesnât leave. You expect him to. After all, who bothers someone under a table, offers them champagne, and then sticks around? But here he is, leaning casually against the table, like this is his New Yearâs Eve tradition too.
âSo,â he says, studying you over the rim of his glass, âhow do you know it worked?â
âWhat worked?â
âThe grapes. Your luck in love.â
âItâs not instant,â you reply dryly. âI donât think someoneâs going to walk up and propose to me tonight.â
âShame,â he says, smirking. âWouldâve been a great story.â
You roll your eyes, standing up carefully to avoid smacking your head on the table. The club is still throbbing with music, the crowd a drunken sea of sequins and suits. Your father is nowhere to be seen, probably charming half the room with drunken stories from his glory days.
The Dutch guy follows you, holding his champagne like itâs an extension of himself.
âSo, do I get a name?â He asks.
âDo I get a name?â You counter.
He laughs, setting his glass on a passing waiterâs tray. âMartin. Martin Garrix.â
It clicks immediately. The Martin Garrix. Youâve seen him on magazine covers, his face plastered on Spotify playlists, his name on Coachella lineups.
âOh,â you say, a little surprised. âYouâre that Martin Garrix.â
âDepends,â he says with a grin. âIs that a good thing or a bad thing?â
âI havenât decided yet.â
He laughs again, an easy sound that somehow cuts through the noise around you.
âAnd you are?â
You hesitate. The last thing you want is to be recognized as Fernando Alonsoâs daughter tonight. âJust ⊠me,â you say, shrugging.
âAlright, Just Me,â he teases. âWhatâs the plan now? Back to the dance floor?â
âI donât really have a plan.â You glance toward the bar, but itâs swamped. The thought of pushing through that crowd makes your skin crawl.
Martin tilts his head, considering you. âYou know,â he says after a moment, âIâve got to play a set in a bit. But before that, I could introduce you to someone.â
Your brow furrows. âIntroduce me?â
âYeah. A friend of mine. Youâll like him.â
You cross your arms. âWhy do I feel like youâre trying to get rid of me?â
âNot at all,â he says, grinning. âBut if youâre looking for luck, heâs got plenty of it.â
Before you can argue, heâs already motioning for you to follow him.
Martin weaves through the crowd effortlessly, stopping just long enough to charm security guards and exchange handshakes with people who look vaguely important. You trail behind, clutching your champagne glass like a lifeline.
âVIP,â he explains over his shoulder, as if that answers anything.
âI was in VIP,â you mutter. âThen I left to crawl under a table.â
âYour loss,â he quips.
The VIP section is smaller than you remember, cordoned off with velvet ropes and guarded by men in black suits. Martin flashes a wristband, and the guard steps aside.
Youâre led to a booth tucked in the farthest corner, hidden from most of the chaos. Someone is slouched in the corner seat, a drink dangling from his fingers. His head tilts up when Martin approaches, and your stomach flips.
Max Verstappen.
You stop dead in your tracks, heat rushing to your face. Of all the people â of course itâs him.
Max looks at you, then at Martin, then back at you. His brow furrows in confusion, his normally sharp blue eyes a little unfocused.
âMartin,â he says, voice thick with alcohol, âwhoâs this?â
Martin grins, gesturing toward you. âStray kitten I found under a table. Thought you might want company.â
You gape at him. âI am not a stray kitten.â
âCouldâve fooled me,â Martin says, completely unbothered.
Max blinks, then sets his drink on the table. âWait. I know you.â
âYeah,â you say quickly, âI know you too.â
Itâs a terrible response, but youâre too flustered to think straight. Max Verstappen, reigning Formula 1 world champion, is sitting in front of you, looking unfairly handsome even in his clearly drunk state.
Martin claps Max on the shoulder. âIâll leave you two to it. Donât scare her off, mate.â
âWait, what-â You start to protest, but Martin is already disappearing into the crowd.
Youâre left standing there awkwardly, clutching your glass like itâs a shield. Max watches you, his expression softening into something unreadable.
âSit,â he says, gesturing to the empty seat beside him.
You hesitate, then slide into the booth, leaving just enough space between you that it doesnât feel too intimate.
âSo,â he says, leaning back. âWhatâs this about a table?â
You sigh, rubbing your temple. âItâs a Spanish tradition. You eat twelve grapes at midnight for good luck in the new year. I was under the table to-â
âFocus your intentions,â he finishes, surprising you.
Your eyes widen. âHow do you know that?â
âCarlos told me about it once back when we were teammates,â he says with a small smile. âHe thought it was funny.â
You relax slightly. âWell, itâs not funny. Itâs practical.â
âUnder a table, though?â His smile widens.
âItâs quieter!â
He laughs, and itâs the kind of laugh that makes your heart twist in your chest. Youâve always found Max intimidating â cool, calm, untouchable. But right now, with his hair slightly messy and his guard down, he seems ⊠human.
âYouâre drunk,â you blurt out.
He nods, unabashed. âA little.â
âA lot,â you correct.
âFair.â He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table. âBut what about you? Youâre here on New Yearâs Night, eating grapes under tables. Whatâs that about?â
You hesitate, then shrug. âBad luck. Bad ⊠everything, really. I figured it couldnât hurt.â
He studies you for a moment, his gaze steady despite the alcohol. âBad everything?â
âLove life,â you admit, looking away. âItâs been a disaster.â
âJoin the club,â he mutters, taking a sip of his drink.
You glance at him, surprised. âWhat do you mean? Youâre-â You stop yourself, realizing how stupid it sounds. Heâs Max Verstappen. He could have anyone.
âExactly,â he says, reading your expression. âAnd thatâs the problem. No one takes me seriously. They just see the driver, the fame, the money.â
You soften. âThat sounds lonely.â
âIt is.â
Thereâs a beat of silence, heavy with unspoken words.
âYou know,â he says finally, his voice quieter now, âI always wondered what itâd be like to talk to you.â
Your breath catches. âWhat?â
âIn the paddock. Youâre always with your dad, or with someone else. I never knew how to âŠâ He trails off, rubbing the back of his neck. âIt doesnât matter.â
âIt does,â you say quickly, surprising yourself. âI always wondered too.â
He looks at you then, really looks at you, and for a moment, the noise of the club fades into the background.
âYeah?â He asks softly.
You nod, suddenly shy. âYeah.â
His lips twitch into a small smile. âMaybe Martin was right.â
âAbout what?â
âLuck.â
You laugh, the sound light and unexpected. âMaybe.â
He leans back, the tension in his shoulders easing. âSo, what now? Are you going to wait for the grapes to work, or are we going to make our own luck?â
You raise an eyebrow. âAnd how do we do that?â
âWell,â he says, a playful glint in his eye, âwe could start by getting out of here.â
âAnd go where?â
âAnywhere,â he says, standing up and holding out his hand.
You stare at his hand, then take it, letting him pull you to your feet.
âAlright,â you say, your heart pounding. âLetâs see where this luck takes us.â
***
The valet pulls up with the car, and itâs ⊠a Ferrari Monza SP2. Of course it is. Sleek, black, and absurdly expensive, it looks like something out of a Bond movie. The kind of car you donât just drive; you wear it, command it.
Max grins at you as the valet hands him the keys, his drunken sway almost imperceptible â almost. He heads straight for the driverâs side, but you grab his arm before he can open the door.
âAre you serious?â You ask, wide-eyed.
âWhat?â His expression is equal parts innocence and mischief.
âYouâve been drinking.â
He glances at the keys in his hand, then back at you, shrugging like itâs no big deal. âIâve had worse nights.â
âMax,â you say firmly, your voice cutting through the noise of passing cars and drunken revelers spilling out onto the Monaco streets. âYouâre not driving.â
He raises an eyebrow, his grin widening. âSo, what? Youâre offering?â
You blink, caught off guard. âI-I didnât mean-â
But heâs already opening the driverâs side door and stepping aside, holding it open for you with a dramatic flourish. âYour chariot awaits, madam.â
Your first instinct is to argue, to remind him that this is his car and youâre not exactly in the habit of taking over Ferraris from Formula 1 champions unless theyâre your father. But the glint in his eye dares you to say yes.
âFine,â you mutter, slipping past him and sliding into the driverâs seat.
The leather feels luxurious under your fingers, the steering wheel practically begging to be gripped. You know Ferraris â you grew up around them, after all â but this one feels different. It feels ⊠alive.
Max climbs into the passenger seat with surprising agility for someone whoâs had more than a few drinks. He looks entirely too pleased with himself, leaning back like he owns not just the car, but the world.
âWhere to?â You ask, trying to sound nonchalant as you adjust the seat and mirrors.
He shrugs, a lazy smile on his face. âSurprise me.â
The car roars to life under your hands, the engine purring with a deep, satisfying growl. You pull out of the valet lane and into the Monaco streets, the city lights sparkling like theyâve been sprinkled with diamonds.
You have no plan, no destination in mind. So, you let the roads guide you. Past the harbor, where yachts bob gently against their moorings, and out onto the open road leading away from Monaco.
Max watches you drive, his gaze heavy but not uncomfortable. âYouâre good at this,â he says, his voice cutting through the low hum of the engine.
You glance at him, one hand on the wheel. âI should be. My dad made sure I could handle cars before I could even ride a bike.â
He chuckles. âSounds about right.â
The road begins to curve as you head toward Nice, the cityâs glow fading behind you. The winding asphalt hugs the coastline, offering glimpses of the dark sea shimmering under the moonlight.
Max leans his head back against the seat, his eyes half-closed. âThis is nice,â he murmurs, almost to himself.
You smile, focusing on the road. âIt is.â
The stretch of beach comes out of nowhere, a small, deserted slice of sand tucked between rocky cliffs. You might have driven past it without a second thought, but Max suddenly sits up, pointing wildly.
âStop!â He yells.
You react instinctively, slamming on the brakes. The tires screech against the pavement, and the car comes to a jarring halt.
âJesus, Max!â You exclaim, turning to glare at him. âWhat is wrong with you?â
Heâs already unbuckling his seatbelt, his eyes sparkling with excitement. âWeïżœïżœïżœre going skinny dipping.â
âWhat?â
âYou heard me.â He grins like a kid who just discovered a hidden jar of candy. âCome on. The waterâs right there.â
You stare at him, dumbfounded. âYou canât be serious.â
âWhy not?â He pushes open the door and climbs out, gesturing for you to follow. âItâs New Yearâs. Perfect time to do something stupid.â
âSkinny dipping isnât just stupid, Max. Itâs-â You gesture vaguely, your cheeks heating. âItâs ridiculous.â
He leans down, resting his arms on the open car door. âExactly. Thatâs the point. Live a little.â
You hesitate, glancing toward the beach. The moonlight glints off the waves, the sound of the surf mingling with the gentle rustle of wind through the grass. Thereâs no one else around.
âMax,â you start, your voice uncertain.
He tilts his head, his expression softening. âHey. Itâs just water. I wonât look if you donât want me to.â
You laugh despite yourself, shaking your head. âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd youâre stalling.â He steps back, holding his arms out as if to say, whatâs the worst that could happen?
You sigh, unbuckling your seatbelt. âIf I freeze to death, Iâm haunting you.â
âDeal.â
The sand is cool under your feet as you follow Max toward the water. Heâs already pulled off his shirt and pants, tossing them carelessly onto the beach. The moonlight catches on his skin, highlighting the lean muscles of his back.
You hesitate at the waterâs edge, the waves lapping at your toes.
âThis is crazy,â you mutter, crossing your arms.
âThatâs the point,â Max calls over his shoulder, already wading into the surf.
You bite your lip, glancing around one last time to make sure youâre alone. Then, with a deep breath, you pull off your dress, leaving it in a heap beside Maxâs clothes.
The water is shockingly cold as you step in, but itâs not unbearable. You wade in deeper, the waves swirling around your waist, then your chest.
Max is already floating on his back a few meters ahead, his arms stretched out like heâs completely at peace.
âSee?â He says, his voice carrying over the water. âNot so bad.â
You tread water, glaring at him. âI hate that youâre right.â
He laughs, the sound echoing across the beach. âYouâll get used to it.â
For a while, neither of you says anything. The water is calm, the world around you eerily quiet except for the soft crash of waves.
âThis is nice,â you admit finally, your voice barely above a whisper.
âTold you,â he says, tilting his head to look at you. His expression is softer now, less playful. âThanks for indulging me.â
You shrug, a small smile tugging at your lips. âThanks for trusting me with your car.â
He grins. âI figured it was in good hands.â
The silence stretches between you again, but itâs not uncomfortable. It feels ⊠easy. Like the two of you have always been here, floating in the moonlit water, sharing something unspoken.
âIâve always liked you,â Max says suddenly, his voice quiet but firm.
You freeze, your heart skipping a beat. âWhat?â
He turns onto his side, treading water to face you. âI mean it. For years, Iâve ⊠I donât know. I never thought youâd feel the same, so I didnât say anything. But tonight âŠâ He trails off, shaking his head. âI donât know. It felt like the right time.â
Your throat tightens, your mind racing. Youâve always thought Max was out of your league, untouchable. But here he is, confessing in the most Max way possible â honest, straightforward, no games.
âIâve always liked you too,â you admit, your voice trembling.
His eyes widen, a slow smile spreading across his face. âYeah?â
âYeah.â
He laughs, the sound full of relief and joy. âWell, I guess the grapes worked after all.â
You roll your eyes, but youâre smiling. âDonât make me regret this.â
âNever,â he says, his voice soft.
It feels like a promise.
***
When you and Max finally stumble out of the water, shivering and laughing, you head straight to the spot where youâd left your clothes. Only, when you get there, the beach doesnât look quite the same.
Your dress isnât where you left it.
âOh no,â you mutter, scanning the dark sand.
âWhat?â Max asks, standing next to you, his arms crossed against the cold.
âMy clothes.â You point at the waterline, which has crept much closer during your impromptu swim. âThe waves mustâve gotten to them.â
Max glances down and then back at you with a smirk. âYou mean those clothes?â
You follow his gaze to a small, soggy heap half-buried in the sand.
âOh, for the love of-â You dart toward them, scooping up your dress and underwear, which are completely soaked and dripping.
Max doesnât even try to suppress his laugh. âWell, this is awkward.â
âDonât,â you warn, glaring at him.
âI didnât say anything!â He holds up his hands defensively, still grinning.
You groan, holding up your dress, which now feels about ten pounds heavier with seawater. âWhat am I supposed to do? I canât wear this.â
Max tilts his head, considering. âGuess youâll have to drive back naked.â
âMax!â
âKidding, kidding!â He steps closer, tugging his own damp shirt over his head and holding it out to you. âHere. Problem solved.â
You hesitate, eyeing the shirt. âWhat about you?â
âIâll live,â he says with a shrug, clearly unbothered by the chilly night air. âTake it.â
You sigh, knowing you donât have much of a choice. âFine. Turn around.â
Max smirks but obeys, turning his back to you.
You quickly pull the oversized shirt over your head, the fabric still warm from his body. It smells like him, too â a mix of salt, sweat, and something distinctly Max. You tug it down as far as it will go, grateful that itâs long enough to cover everything important.
âOkay,â you say.
Max turns back around, and his grin is immediate and wide. âWow.â
âWhat?â You ask, crossing your arms.
âYou look good in my clothes,â he says, his voice dropping slightly.
You roll your eyes, but your cheeks burn at the way heâs looking at you, his gaze lingering a little too long. âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd youâre beautiful,â he counters, his tone light but earnest.
You open your mouth to respond, but the words catch in your throat. Instead, you shake your head, muttering, âLetâs just go.â
Max doesnât argue, but his grin lingers as the two of you make your way back to the car.
âWhere are we going?â Max asks as you slide back into the driverâs seat, the leather cool against your bare thighs.
âI was going to ask you the same thing,â you say, adjusting the mirrors again.
He shrugs, leaning back in his seat. âWe could go back to my place.â
You snort. âWhy does that sound like the setup to a bad pickup line?â
âHey,â he protests, mock-offended. âIâm a gentleman.â
You glance at him, raising an eyebrow. âAre you, though?â
âSometimes,â he says, grinning. âDepends on the company.â
You laugh, shaking your head. âWell, as much as Iâd love to see your undoubtedly bachelor-esque apartment, I have a better idea.â
âOh?â
âMy dadâs place,â you say, pulling onto the road.
Max raises an eyebrow. âFernandoâs?â
âHeâs not there,â you assure him quickly. âHeâs probably still at the club, or passed out somewhere. And I happen to know he stocked the apartment with some really good champagne.â
Max hums, considering. âFancy champagne, empty apartment ⊠I like the sound of this.â
You smile, turning onto the highway. âI thought you might.â
The drive back to Monaco feels different this time. The adrenaline from the beach has faded, replaced by a quiet comfort. Max sits beside you, his head tilted back against the seat, humming softly to himself.
You glance at him out of the corner of your eye. âYouâre not falling asleep, are you?â
He shakes his head, reaching for the radio. âNope. Just thinking.â
âDangerous,â you tease.
He laughs, fiddling with the dial until he lands on a station playing 80s hits. The familiar opening chords of Take On Me by A-ha fill the car, and Max immediately starts singing along.
âTalking away,â he belts out, completely off-key but fully committed.
You canât help but laugh. âOh my God, Max.â
âWhat?â He says, grinning at you. âYou donât like my singing?â
âIâm just saying, maybe stick to driving cars.â
He clutches his chest dramatically. âOuch. Thatâs harsh.â
The chorus kicks in, and Max leans closer to you, practically shouting the lyrics. âIâll be gone, in a day or twoooooo!â
Youâre laughing so hard you can barely keep your hands steady on the wheel. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âAnd you love it,â he says, winking.
You roll your eyes, but the truth is, you kind of do. Thereâs something about the way Max is so unapologetically himself, even when heâs being completely ridiculous. Itâs endearing in a way you didnât expect.
The next song comes on â Africa by Toto (not that Toto, the other one) â and Max doesnât miss a beat, launching into another impromptu performance.
âI bless the rains down in AfricAAAA!â
âPlease stop,â you beg, though your cheeks hurt from smiling.
âNever,â he says, grinning at you like this is the most fun heâs had in ages.
And as the lights of Monaco come back into view, you realize youâve never felt more at ease with someone. Maxâs off-tune singing, the salty breeze still clinging to your hair, and the warmth of his shirt against your skin â it all feels like something out of a dream.
âHey,â Max says suddenly, his voice softer now.
âYeah?â You glance at him, and for once, heâs not smiling. His expression is thoughtful, almost serious.
âIâm glad it was you tonight,â he says simply.
Your heart skips a beat, but you manage to keep your voice steady. âMe too.â
He turns back to the radio, cranking up the volume as another song starts. And as you drive toward the city, the two of you singing along to the music, it feels like the beginning of something youâre not quite ready to name â but it feels right all the same.
***
The apartment is just as you left it â sleek, minimalist, and undoubtedly your fatherâs. Clean lines, muted colors, and an expansive view of Monacoâs twinkling lights spilling in through the floor-to-ceiling windows.
Max whistles low as he steps inside, running a hand through his damp hair. âYour dad has good taste.â
You scoff, kicking off your shoes by the door. âHe has a good interior designer. Thereâs a difference.â
Max chuckles, padding after you as you head straight for the kitchen. âWhereâs this fancy champagne you promised?â
You open the fridge, scanning its contents. Sure enough, five bottles of Dom PĂ©rignon are lined up like soldiers, condensation clinging to their dark glass.
âHere,â you say, pulling one out and setting it on the marble countertop. âBut donât complain if it ruins you for whatever it is that Formula 1 uses on podiums these days.â
Max grabs two flutes from the cabinet you pointed to and shrugs. âI think Iâll survive.â
You pop the cork with a satisfying pop, pouring the sparkling liquid into the glasses he offers.
âTo questionable life choices,â Max says, raising his glass.
You laugh, clinking yours against his. âTo new beginnings.â
The first sip is crisp and effervescent, the kind of taste that makes you close your eyes for a second to savor it. Max seems equally impressed, letting out a low hum of approval.
âYou werenât kidding,â he says, taking another sip. âThis is good.â
âOnly the best for Fernando Alonso,â you say, rolling your eyes.
The two of you settle on the couch, the city lights casting a soft glow over the room. Conversation flows easily, the champagne loosening whatever walls you might have had left after the events of the night.
By the second bottle, youâre both leaning into each other, laughing at stories youâve never told anyone else.
âSo, wait,â Max says, his voice slightly slurred. âYou actually punched him?â
âI didnât punch him,â you correct, giggling. âI just ⊠shoved him. Hard. With my fist.â
Max snorts. âThatâs literally a punch.â
âSemantics.â You wave him off, taking another sip of champagne. âHe deserved it.â
âRemind me never to get on your bad side,â Max says, shaking his head with a grin.
By the time you open the third bottle, everything is a blur of laughter, shared glances, and a warmth that has nothing to do with the alcohol.
Youâre halfway through another story when Max interrupts, leaning closer. âYouâve got âŠâ He gestures vaguely at your face.
âWhat?â You ask, frowning.
âHold on.â He reaches out, brushing the corner of your mouth with his thumb. The touch is light, almost hesitant, but it sends a jolt of electricity through you.
âThere,â he says softly, his thumb lingering a second too long before he pulls back.
The room feels suddenly smaller, quieter. Your eyes meet his, and for a moment, neither of you says anything.
Then, without thinking, you lean in.
The kiss is messy, fueled by champagne and years of unspoken tension. Maxâs lips are soft but insistent, his hands finding your waist and pulling you closer.
You barely register the sound of your glass clattering onto the coffee table as you climb onto his lap, your fingers tangling in his hair.
âIs this okay?â He murmurs against your lips, his breath warm and ragged.
You nod, your hands already tugging at the waistband of his jeans. âMore than okay.â
His hands slide under the shirt youâre wearing â his shirt â his palms warm against your skin. The touch makes you shiver, but you canât tell if itâs from the cold or something else entirely.
âYou look so good in this,â he whispers, his lips trailing down your neck.
âStop talking,â you mutter, pulling him back up for another kiss.
He laughs softly but obeys, his hands roaming freely now, exploring every curve like heâs trying to memorize you.
You lose track of time, of where you end and he begins. The champagne bubbles in your veins, making everything feel hazy and light.
Somehow, you both end up half-naked on the leather sectional, your legs tangled together. Maxâs hands stay under the shirt, resting against your waist like heâs anchoring himself to you.
Your hand drifts lower, brushing against the waistband of his briefs. He lets out a low groan, his head falling back against the couch.
âCareful,â he says, his voice thick with a mix of amusement and warning.
You smirk, leaning down to press a kiss to his jaw. âYouâre the one who said to live a little.â
He laughs, pulling you back down into another kiss.
Eventually, exhaustion gets the better of both of you. The kisses slow, turning softer, lazier, until youâre both too tired to do anything but collapse against each other.
Maxâs arms wrap around you, his body warm and solid beneath you.
âDonât let me fall asleep like this,â you mumble, your voice muffled against his chest.
âToo late,â he replies, his voice already heavy with sleep.
And as your eyes flutter closed, you canât help but think that this might be the best questionable life choice youâve ever made.
***
The first hint of dawn spills into the apartment, a soft, golden hue creeping through the glass walls. The city below comes to life slowly, but up here, in the quiet sanctuary of your fatherâs apartment, everything feels frozen in time.
Youâre vaguely aware of the early morning light as you stir, still half-asleep, tangled in the warmth of Maxâs arms. His hands are still under the shirt youâre wearing â his shirt â resting against your bare waist. Your head rests on his chest, his steady heartbeat like a metronome beneath your ear.
You should feel embarrassed, maybe even regretful. Instead, you feel ⊠safe. Content.
The sound of keys jingling outside the door doesnât register immediately.
Then, the lock turns, and the door creaks open.
âAh, mierda.â
The low curse comes from the entryway. The unmistakable, groggy voice of your father.
You jolt upright, your blood turning ice-cold as the realization sinks in.
Max stirs beside you, groaning softly. âWhatâs going on?â
You donât have time to answer before Fernando appears in the living room doorway, his hair disheveled, his jacket slung over one shoulder, and the beginnings of a hangover etched across his face.
His gaze lands on the two of you â your bare legs, Maxâs shirt haphazardly covering you, and the obvious fact that both your pants are nowhere to be seen.
Thereâs a long, excruciating silence.
âPapĂĄ,â you manage to squeak, your voice higher than you intended.
Fernando blinks once, twice. Then his eyes narrow. âWhat is this?â
Max freezes, his brain clearly struggling to catch up. âUh âŠâ
You scramble for words, any words, but your mind is a complete blank.
Fernando steps closer, his voice sharp. âYou. Verstappen. What are you doing here?â
Max raises a hand, as though heâs trying to surrender. âI can explain-â
âOh, you better,â Fernando interrupts, his tone dark. âBecause from where Iâm standing, this looks like âŠâ He gestures vaguely at the two of you, his expression a mix of disbelief and fury. â⊠a very bad decision.â
You hastily pull a throw pillow over your lap, trying to muster some semblance of dignity. âItâs not what it looks like.â
Fernando arches a brow. âIt looks like I came home to find my daughter and Max Verstappen half-naked on my couch.â
âOkay, so maybe itâs a little what it looks like,â you admit, cringing.
Max finally seems to snap out of his stupor. He sits up, running a hand through his already messy hair. âListen, Fernando, I-â
âYou donât get to call me Fernando,â your father snaps. âNot right now.â
âOkay,â Max backtracks quickly, holding up his hands. âLook, this isnât her fault. Itâs on me.â
You turn to him, frowning. âMax-â
âNo, itâs true,â he continues, his voice steady despite the situation. âI shouldnât have let things get ⊠out of hand.â
Fernando crosses his arms, his eyes narrowing further. âOut of hand?â
âI mean-â Max stumbles over his words, clearly realizing heâs digging himself deeper. âItâs not like we planned for this to happen.â
Fernandoâs gaze flicks to you, his expression unreadable. âIs that true?â
You open your mouth, then close it, your cheeks burning. âWell ⊠yes. Kind of.â
âKind of?â
âItâs complicated!â You blurt out, throwing your hands up in frustration.
Fernando pinches the bridge of his nose, muttering something under his breath that youâre pretty sure isnât complimentary.
âI donât even know where to start,â he says after a moment, his voice tight. âYou-â He points at Max. âWhy are you even here?â
âWe were ⊠celebrating,â Max says hesitantly.
âCelebrating,â Fernando repeats flatly. âBy taking your pants off on my couch?â
âOkay, that part was-â Max starts, but you cut him off.
âCan we not talk about pants right now?â You plead, your face hot enough to fry an egg.
Fernando gives you a look that could melt steel. âNo, weâre absolutely going to talk about it. What were you thinking?â
âMaybe we werenât thinking,â you admit quietly, avoiding his gaze.
âThat much is obvious,â he mutters.
âPapĂĄ, please,â you say, your voice softening. âItâs not like we meant to disrespect you or your home.â
Fernando sighs, the anger in his expression giving way to something else â disappointment. It stings more than you care to admit.
Max shifts uncomfortably beside you, breaking the silence. âI know this looks bad-â
âIt is bad,â Fernando interrupts. âDo you have any idea what this could do to your reputation? To hers?â
Max frowns, his jaw tightening. âWith all due respect, I care more about her than my reputation.â
Your breath catches at his words, but Fernando doesnât seem impressed.
âConvenient to say that now,â he mutters, crossing his arms again.
Maxâs expression hardens. âItâs the truth.â
The tension in the room is suffocating, the silence stretching out until you canât take it anymore.
âCan we just ⊠take a minute?â You say, looking between them. âPlease?â
Fernando stares at you for a long moment, his expression softening just a fraction. âFine. One minute.â
He turns on his heel, muttering something under his breath yet again as he storms toward the kitchen.
As soon as heâs out of earshot, you let out a shaky breath, turning to Max.
âThis is a disaster,â you whisper.
Max reaches for your hand, his touch grounding. âWeâll figure it out.â
âHow?â You ask, your voice tinged with panic.
He squeezes your hand gently. âTogether.â
Despite everything, his confidence is reassuring. You take another deep breath, trying to steady yourself.
âOkay,â you say quietly. âTogether.â
Fernandoâs voice cuts through the moment from the kitchen. âYou better be decent when I come back.â
Max lets out a low chuckle, and you canât help but smile despite the situation.
âLetâs just survive the next five minutes,â you murmur, standing to pull on your still-damp jeans.
Max grins up at you, his eyes warm. âI like our odds.â
You glance toward the kitchen, where your father is undoubtedly fuming, and pray heâs right.
***
The tension in the room is suffocating as your father storms back from the kitchen, a cup of coffee in his hand and a sharp glare aimed squarely at Max. You sit on the edge of the couch, trying to make yourself as small as possible. Max, to his credit, doesnât flinch under the weight of Fernandoâs gaze, though his posture is tense, shoulders squared like heâs bracing for impact.
Fernando takes a long sip of his coffee before setting the cup down on the counter with a decisive clink. âAlright,â he says, folding his arms across his chest. âLetâs talk.â
Max leans forward, his elbows on his knees. âI-â
Fernando holds up a hand, cutting him off. âNo. Iâll talk first. Youâll listen.â
Max glances at you briefly, then nods. âOkay.â
Your father steps closer, his eyes narrowing. âSo. Verstappen. Tell me â were you trying to sleep with my daughter under my own roof?â
The bluntness of the question makes you choke on air. âPapĂĄ!â
âStay out of this,â Fernando says sharply, not even sparing you a glance. His eyes are locked on Max, who blinks in surprise before straightening in his seat.
âNo!â Max says quickly, his voice firm. âOf course not.â
Fernando tilts his head, his lips twitching as though heâs fighting back a smirk. âOh, so sheâs not attractive enough for you to want to sleep with?â
âWhat?â You gasp, standing up. âWhat is wrong with you?â
âSit down,â Fernando says over his shoulder, though thereâs an unmistakable gleam of amusement in his eyes.
Max looks like heâs been thrown into the deep end of a pool without warning. âThatâs not â what? No!â
Fernando raises an eyebrow. âNo, sheâs not attractive, or no, you werenât trying to sleep with her?â
Max glares at him, his jaw tightening. âYouâre twisting my words.â
âAm I?â Fernando says, taking another slow sip of his coffee.
âYes!â Max snaps, then seems to catch himself. He exhales, running a hand through his hair. âLook, I wasnât trying to disrespect you or your home. I swear.â
Fernando steps closer, looming over Max. âYou swear, huh?â
âYes,â Max says firmly.
âAnd yet,â Fernando says, gesturing at the couch with a dramatic wave of his hand, âI walked in on this. My daughter, half-naked, tangled up with you.â
You groan, burying your face in your hands. âOh my god, stop.â
Fernando ignores you. âExplain that, Verstappen.â
Max meets his gaze, unflinching. âI care about her. Thatâs the truth.â
Fernandoâs eyebrows lift slightly, but he doesnât respond immediately. He paces a few steps, tapping his fingers against his coffee cup as though mulling over his next move.
Finally, he stops, turning back to Max. âYou care about her,â he repeats, his tone skeptical.
âYes,â Max says, his voice unwavering.
Fernando tilts his head again, studying Max like heâs a puzzle heâs trying to solve. âAlright. Letâs test that.â
Max frowns. âTest what?â
âYour commitment,â Fernando says simply.
You groan again, standing up. âPapĂĄ, this isnât some kind of-â
âSit,â Fernando says, pointing at the couch.
âStop telling me to sit!â You snap, but you drop back down anyway, crossing your arms over your chest.
Fernando turns back to Max, a small, mischievous smile playing at the corners of his mouth. âSo. Verstappen. If you care about her, you wonât mind answering a few questions.â
Max hesitates but nods. âAlright.â
Fernando sets his coffee cup down again, cracking his knuckles for dramatic effect. âFirst question. Do you even know her middle name?â
Maxâs eyes flick to you, then back to Fernando. âOf course I do. Itâs-â He pauses, frowning. âWait. Do you have one?â
Fernando lets out a bark of laughter. âStrike one.â
You roll your eyes. âMax, I donât have a middle name. Donât listen to him.â
Max glares at Fernando. âThatïżœïżœs not fair.â
âLife isnât fair,â Fernando says with a shrug. âNext question. Whatâs her favorite color?â
Maxâs frown deepens. âPink?â
Fernando shakes his head. âWrong.â
âWrong?â Max turns to you. âItâs not pink?â
âItâs not pink,â you confirm, biting back a smile.
Fernando smirks. âStrike two.â
Max leans back, exhaling slowly. âAlright. What is it, then?â
Fernando opens his mouth, but you cut him off. âItâs burgundy.â
âBurgundy,â Max repeats, nodding to himself. âGot it.â
âToo late,â Fernando says, waving him off. âYouâre already failing.â
âPapĂĄ,â you say, your tone a warning.
Fernando raises his hands in mock surrender. âFine, fine. One last question.â
Max leans forward again, his expression determined. âGo ahead.â
Fernandoâs smirk returns. âWhat are your intentions with my daughter?â
The question hangs in the air like a loaded gun.
Max doesnât flinch. He meets Fernandoâs gaze head-on and says, âI donât know yet.â
You blink in surprise, as does your father.
Max continues, his voice steady. âBut I know I want to figure it out. I care about her, and I want to spend more time with her. Thatâs all I can say right now.â
Fernando studies him for a long moment, his expression unreadable.
Then, to your astonishment, he nods. âFair enough.â
âFair enough?â You echo, staring at him in disbelief.
Fernando shrugs, picking up his coffee cup again. âAt least heâs honest.â
Max lets out a breath he probably didnât realize he was holding, and you shake your head, still trying to process what just happened.
âJust one thing,â Fernando adds, turning back to Max with a pointed look.
âWhatâs that?â Max asks cautiously.
Fernando leans in slightly, his voice low but firm. âIf you hurt her, Iâll make sure you regret it.â
Max doesnât hesitate. âUnderstood.â
Fernando nods once, then steps back, his demeanor relaxing slightly. âGood. Now, get dressed. Both of you.â
You groan, covering your face with your hands again. âThis is the worst day of my life.â
âCouldâve been worse,â Max says, nudging you gently.
You glare at him, but thereâs a small smile tugging at your lips despite everything.
Fernando smirks, heading toward his bedroom. âYouâve got ten minutes before I come back with more questions.â
âPapĂĄ!â You call after him, but heâs already gone.
Max chuckles softly, leaning back on the couch. âThat went well, all things considered.â
You stare at him, incredulous. âYou think that went well?â
He grins, shrugging. âIâm still alive, arenât I?â
You canât help but laugh, shaking your head. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd you like me anyway,â he says, his grin widening.
You roll your eyes, but you donât argue.
***
One Year Later
The club is just as loud and chaotic as it was a year ago, but it feels different this time. Maybe itâs the crowd, maybe itâs the glow of the New Yearâs lights, or maybe itâs the fact that Maxâs hand hasnât left yours all night.
Youâre back where it all started, tucked into the VIP section of the Monaco club where you had once crouched under a table eating grapes in a last-ditch attempt to find love. That night had been nothing short of chaotic, but looking back, it had been the beginning of something you wouldnât trade for the world.
âIs it how you remembered it?â Max asks, leaning in close to be heard over the music.
You glance around at the glittering lights and pulsing crowd, then back at him. âItâs definitely less embarrassing this time around.â
Max grins, brushing a thumb over your knuckles. âI donât know. You were pretty cute in your desperation.â
You groan, nudging him with your shoulder. âAre you ever going to let me live that down?â
âNot a chance,â he says, laughing. âItâs one of my favorite stories to tell.â
âGreat. Glad my suffering is so entertaining for you,â you tease, though you canât help but smile.
Max tugs you closer, his voice softer now. âYou know, Iâm really glad you ate those grapes.â
You look up at him, your heart fluttering at the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles. âMe too.â
The DJ announces that itâs nearly midnight, and the crowd buzzes with excitement. Max pulls you to your feet, his hands resting lightly on your waist.
âReady to count down?â He asks, his voice warm and low.
âWith you? Always,â you say, grinning.
The countdown begins, and the energy in the room spikes. You can feel the excitement in the air, the anticipation of a new year, a fresh start.
âTen!â The crowd shouts.
Maxâs hands tighten slightly on your waist, and you lean into him, your pulse racing.
âNine!â
You look up at him, your eyes locking.
âEight!â
His gaze softens, his smile turning gentle.
âSeven!â
You bite your lip, butterflies fluttering in your stomach.
âSix!â
Max leans down, his forehead brushing against yours.
âFive!â
Your breath catches as the noise of the crowd fades into the background.
âFour!â
âThree!â
âTwo!â
You close your eyes, tilting your head up.
âOne!â
Midnight strikes, and Maxâs lips meet yours, soft and certain. The room erupts in cheers and confetti, but all you can focus on is the way heâs holding you, like youâre the only person in the world.
The kiss deepens, his hands sliding to your back, pulling you closer. You smile against his lips, your heart full and light-
Only to be rudely interrupted by someone literally wedging themselves between you.
âAlright, break it up!â
You stumble back a step, blinking in surprise. Max looks just as stunned, his hands still midair where theyâd been resting on your waist.
Fernando stands between you, his arms crossed and a deeply unimpressed look on his face. âLeave room for Jesus.â
You gape at him, your cheeks burning. âPapĂĄ! What the hell are you doing?â
âI think the better question,â he says, looking pointedly at Max, âis what you two were doing.â
Max stares at him, then throws his hands up. âWe were kissing. Itâs New Yearâs!â
Fernando raises an eyebrow. âAnd you couldnât do that with a little more ⊠decorum?â
âYouâre not even religious!â You protest, exasperated.
Fernando smirks, clearly enjoying himself. âAnd thatâs why, by Jesus, I mean me.â
Max blinks. âYou mean ⊠you?â
You stare at your father, your frustration warring with the urge to laugh. âAre you serious right now?â
âCompletely,â Fernando says, deadpan. âNow, why donât we all take a nice step back, breathe, and reflect on the fact that Iâm allowing this relationship to exist at all.â
âAllowing?â Max echoes, crossing his arms. âWith all due respect, I donât think you get to allow anything anymore.â
Fernando turns to him, one eyebrow raised. âOh, is that so?â
âYes,â Max says firmly. âWeâre adults. And weâre together. Whether you approve or not.â
Fernando looks at him for a long moment, then lets out a low chuckle. âWell, at least youâve got guts.â
âMore than that,â you interject, stepping between them. âHeâs good to me. Better than anyone else ever has been. And I love him.â
Fernandoâs smirk fades, replaced by something softer. He looks at you, his expression unreadable, then nods slowly. âI know.â
âYou know?â You ask, surprised.
He shrugs. âOf course I know. Iâm your father.â
Max exchanges a glance with you, clearly just as confused. âSo ⊠whatâs with all the drama, then?â
Fernando grins, stepping back. âBecause itâs fun.â
You groan, burying your face in your hands again. âI canât believe this.â
Max laughs, pulling you into his side. âI can.â
Fernando claps Max on the shoulder, his grin widening. âHappy New Year, Verstappen. Donât screw it up.â
Max meets his gaze, his expression serious. âI wonât.â
Fernando nods, then turns to you. âAnd you â try to keep him out of trouble, will you?â
You smile, leaning into Max. âIâll do my best.â
Fernando waves you off, disappearing back into the crowd with a casual, âDonât make me come back over here.â
Max watches him go, then turns to you, shaking his head. âYour dadâs insane.â
âWelcome to my world,â you say, laughing.
He grins, leaning down to kiss you again. This time, no one interrupts.
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THE LOVE PROGNOSIS, pt. 1 â JJK (m.)

for as long as you can remember, youâve always been a hopeless romantic.
the girl whoâs always dreamt of cheesy encounters with her soulmate, grand love declarations, and a cute little beach wedding to boot. but reality pretty much slaps you hard right on the face, because love, unfortunately, doesnât come grand â itâs simple and itâs quiet, but it is quite painful, especially when the love that youâve been seeking for all your adult life has just been right under your nose all this time.
PAIRING jungkook x female reader // mingyu x female reader
GENRE r18+ (angst, fluff, smut) MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!
CHAPTER WORD COUNT 20k đ
CHAPTER WARNINGS/MISC medical!au, roommates!au, surgeon!jk, surgeon!reader (they are both 4th year residents and are co-workers), corporate lawyer!mingyu, oc and jk are bffs since med school but their love language is fighting each other <3, jk and mingyu are bffs during undergrad, jk sluts it out quite oftenđ, hopeless romantic!oc, countless mentions of weddings and engagements, angsty undertones, itâs the⊠yearning? 97liners assemble lmao, the surgeons gang: jk, oc, nayeon, doyeon, taehyung <3, explicit sexual content [dry h*mping, making out, c*nnilingus], alcohol consumption, arguments đ€, i personally have only acquired a degree on Bingewatching Greyâs Anatomy so my medical knowledge is.. you see.. greys anatomy đ BUT! i did a lot of research for this pls dont crucify me đđŒ belated happy birthday jaykay, my forever museâ€ïžâ€ïž
NOTES hello awrkive nation!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry this got delayed!! gave up on trying to make this a one shot cos it stretched out into 50k words IM SORRY! anyways check out my trello page for updates on my writing progress đ©· make sure to comment down ur thoughts and like and reblog to circulate hehe !! asks are deeply appreciated!! scream your takes!! let me know what you think!! also made a spotify playlist for this mini-series soooo if u wanna listen to the songs that i think embody this fic, i've linked it below đ«¶đŒ
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For as long as you can remember, youâve always been a hopeless romantic.
The girl whoâs always dreamt of cheesy encounters with her soulmate, grand love declarations and a cute little beach wedding to boot. Youâre the kind of girl who thought her high school jock boyfriend would make good on his promise of keeping contact until college. That girl who thought the guy she met at nineteen at some sleazy frat party wanted more than just sex. The girl who thought that her boyfriend at twenty-one would finally be The One after introducing her to his parents on New Yearâs Eve. Youâre exactly the kind of girl who thought that it was smart to get a boyfriend in her first year of med school and get proposed to in fourth year.
Reality pretty much hit you hard with a big slap on the face; because you soon found out that your love interest doesnât suddenly come into your life while you clock in your shift at a coffee shop, and there is no such thing as grand love declarations â no one wanted to profess their love to somebody at airports anymore, or even in the pouring rain, for godâd sake! And there is never going to be a beach wedding when thereâs no one to do it with in the first place.
Because even if you do everything right, men just always somehow manage to do you wrong.
Your first boyfriend, Changsub, just suddenly ghosted you after you moved to a different town for college. When you saw him again for winter break, he was dating the girl from his History class â the blondie who was always the cause of your heated arguments in the lockers because youâve always been jealous of her. Needless to say, you never talked to him again, and Changsub never bothered to reach out either.
At nineteen, you met Soohyun at a frat party your roommate invited you to. He was part of your collegeâs football team â the regular famous jock, and you felt a little bit special when he showed you a little bit of attention. When he chased you for a while, you caved in and had sex for the first time. You soon realized that was his thing â âpopping them girlsâ cherriesâ â as what youâve overheard from his equally asshole teammates when you made an impromptu visit at their sweaty, stinky locker rooms â and that he apparently had a thing for girls in the cheerleading team (you were a part of it for awhile). Soohyun just told you it wasnât working anymore. He was out and about with another girl three days later.
You swore at twenty-one, you were smarter. Heck, you got your heart broken two times already by then by the same brand of asshole with two different names and faces! You mustâve been a bit wiser, no?
But in your defense, Jaehyun was totally different from Changsub and Soohyun. He wasnât an athlete. He was low-key⊠an introvert, and a total nerd. A film major guy who was so good at getting you through his art. He told you you were his muse, and you believed it wholeheartedly for the almost three years youâve dated, most especially when he brought you to his hometown that one New Yearâs Eve and introduced you to his family on your first anniversary.
You donât exactly know what happened then⊠he just ran cold. Backed out of your plans of moving in together. Suddenly got so busy with his gigs when he normally would make time. Until the elephant in the room was acknowledged and it was just over before you knew it.
That relationship was your first âI love youâ, Jaehyun said it was the same for him.
Fast forward, he gets married two years into the break-up, which is six years ago from the present. He has three kids now, two lovely girl twins and one boy. You didnât go to the wedding, just sent him a post-it card that said youâre happy for him.
Which is true. He was your first love, but the heartbreak didnât last long like you thought it would.
Because lastly, there was Eunwoo. The guy you met during the construction of the condominium near the apartment where you were staying at for med school.
Cha Eunwoo was an intern architect around that time, a nice one at that that it didnât really take long for you guys to hit it off. Too many encounters on the street made you think that maybe it wasnât just a coincidence anymore that he was there whenever you walked passed by. You really thought it would be difficult for you to love somebody again like how you loved Jaehyun⊠but Eunwoo made it easy. He did everything right. From the cute encounter, a grand love declaration in your fourth year together wherein he proposed to you in a romantic cruise ship dinner, down to the beach wedding he promised you during that night.
What was supposed to be a three-month engagement lasted longer than you both wanted, though. And it was mostly due to you because you told him you couldnât marry yet. Not until you pass your licensure exam. Unintentionally, it stretched into a year. Eunwoo blamed it on your internship, said you were too busy that you couldnât really give him time anymore.
You still remember that argument so vividly inside your head. When you said you told him already that it was life for you in residency. He rebutted with the sentiment that if you wanted to, you would. But you knew it was unfair of him to say that â not when he was also volunteering himself for the mountain of projects at his firm just so he could impress the senior architects there. Eventually, the engagement was called off. You two broke up. You both settled that it was the schedule conflict⊠you were just both so busy with your careers. Such big ambitions. So much to prove, passionate to a fault.
But two years ago, Eunwoo got married, and his wife is a general physician. The last time you two accidentally bumped into each other at a cafĂ© downtown, he said he was âso happy and contentedâ that he felt like âtaking a sabbatical to focus on being a husbandâ.
You guessed then he doesnât actually mind dating doctors. Doesnât mind making sacrifices for them. He just minds specifically you.
Your long, tragic dating history should already stop you by now from believing in love altogether. You mean, it just never works out for you, do they? The universe gives you a taste of what itâs like to embark on that journey, but it never takes you to the final destination.
But what can you say⊠love is just so special to you; romance, falling in love⊠they hold a significant place in your heart that you canât help but bet on it every time it comes. You just have so much love to give â but unfortunately no one to give it to, because the men you date always donât want you in the end of it all.
It bubbles up frustration in you, especially when you see all your exes getting fucking married left and right and them having the audacity to send you an invitation â and even thank you for what youâve helped made them become. Eunwoo made that lame ass speech in the cafĂ©. Itâs such a subtle physical act of slapping you right on the bone of your cheeks and violently hurts you psychologically.
Youâre frustrated that marriage seem to come easy for them, but never for you.
Itâs why you unintentionally spat water out of your mouth when one of your co-residents, close friend, Nayeon, announced:
âMinhyuk proposed!â
Naturally, your other friends at the cafeteria attend to your spluttering, with Doyeon patting your back and asking, âGirl, are you okay?â
You shake your head repeatedly at them, tapping your chest to regulate your breathing, putting on a tight smile before turning to Nayeon.
âIâm sorryâ what? Minhyuk proposed?â You ask her, and you donât intend it to sound incredulous.
Nayeon, thank god, doesnât notice it. And you realize itâs because sheâs in a lovesick haze to care about anything else.
âYep!â She almost squeals. âYou guys are all invited to the engagement party next week on Friday.â She giggles when Doyeon pokes her side, lightheartedly teasing her about the wedding.
âOh my god, Iâm so happy for you!â You say, grinning widely, but your jaw hurts from the way you forced it. You look at each one of them; Nayeon, Doyeon, and Taehyung. âYou guys are soon gonna be⊠married.â
Taehyung turns to Doyeon, taking a bite of his sandwich. âDoyeonâs still single, though.â
Doyeon throws a napkin at him. âItâs because your kind are bums. Anyway, Taehyung is also still not married.â
Taehyung pauses. Then, he purses his lips into a thin line, raising his eyebrows, nodding slowly.
âWell⊠about thatâŠâ
âHeâs planning to propose to Hyerin!â Nayeon exclaims and quickly covers her mouth when some of the doctors in the cafeteria turned their heads to look in your direction. She shrinks herself small, as if realizing what sheâs done, and then her eyes widen when she sees your guys reaction. âOh fuck, Iâm so sorry, Taehyung!â Nayeon quickly apologizes to him who looks like heaven and earth fell on him. She scrambles to say, âItâs just that I saw the ring in his locker today and so of course I have to ask and you guys met Hyerin, sheâs an amazing woman and Iâm so excited for her and Taehyung and she are a good couple aaand⊠Iâm shutting my mouth.â She stops, closing an imaginary zipper over her lips when she notices the death glare Taehyungâs sending her way.
He turns to look at the rest of you.
âWell⊠you heard it from her.â
âOh my god, Tae! This is insane!â Doyeon tells him. âWhen are you proposing?â
Taehyung shakes his head and rubs his nape. âI donât know⊠she has this, uh, case that sheâs confident on winning this Thursday. Maybe Iâm going to do it when she gets home that dayâŠâ he trails off, and Nayeon coos at him when she sees his ears turning red. Doyeon throws back the napkin Taehyung threw at him, and she receives a juvenile pinch on the arm from Taehyung back.
You laugh along with them.
But deep inside, youâre finding it hard to process all the information that you learned today. You were just letting out words when you said that they were all going to be married, an exaggeration at best, because Nayeon is apparently now a fiancĂ©, Taehyung has been in a long-term relationship with his prosecutor girlfriend that itâs easy to assume their next step is tying it down, and Doyeon is single but you refuse to believe thatâs the case. Itâs a wild theory that your friends have but you all feel like she has a secret boyrfriend or something.
Apparently, though, youâre not exaggerating at all. Because Taehyung is indeed planning to tie it down.
âIt seems like everybody is getting married these days, no?â Doyeon mentions. She looks at you and you feel your heart beating abnormally for some reason. âWhat about you, __? How did that blind date last week go?â
Sheâs talking about the guy whom your cousin set you up with a few months back and have only gotten around to meet a week ago, Park Hyungshik.
They all seem to eagerly wait for your answer, and you can only meekly shake your head, sipping on a juice box so your jittering fingers can have something to do.
âIt was okay.â
You can see the way their shoulders deflate, and you know you donât need to explain the details for them to know how bad the date actually went.
âFuck men.â Doyeon sighs.
âI agree.â Taehyung affirms, followed by Nayeon.
It earns a laugh from you.
âFuck off, you guys.â You say, rolling your eyes, knowing theyâre blindly judging Hyungshik in unconditional support for you. The joke is appreciated though, as it makes you light up and forget about the sudden grey that washes over your insides at the terrifying thought that maybe youâre never going to be married at this rate.
âYouâre laughing right now but Iâm still scared that youâll just put up an IG story of you and Jungkook getting married on a random Sunday.â Nayeon suddenly says which elicits quite a violent reaction from you.
âFucking gross, Nayeon!â You slap her on her arm and she gives you an ingenuine, âOwe!â
Taehyung laughs and adds in another nonsensical input, âThatâs where my grandma and grandpa started, by the way. The line between love and hate is thin, after all.â
Your face contorts into a deeper frown every passing second as they continue to tease you.
âFuck you, Taehyung. Iâll kill you in your sleep and me and Doyeon will hide the body.â You threaten him with your eyes and when he only laughs more, you make quick work of your hands and snatch out his egg omelet, putting it in your mouth fast enough he doesnât get the chance to take it back.
âAw, man! Hyerin cooked that for me!â He whines, going back to his seat, defeated after trying to get back the food from you.
But Nayeon is more concerned about another thing.
âWhy is it only you and Doyeon? I can help hide Taehyungâs body, too!â She says, face painted with an expression so solemn as if you betrayed her.
âYou made the joke first, you donât get the privilege.â You cross your arms under your chest.
âIâll commit perjury for you in court. Doyeon canât do that âcos she still hasnât told us about her secret boyfriend.â She insists.
Taehyung deadpans. âYou guys really do love me a lot here, no?â
âWe never pretended to love you, Taehyung,â Doyeon taps his arm, giving him a contrasting look of faux sympathy. âAnd for the nth time, I do not have a secret boyfriend,â She says dryly, sounding exhausted for having to say it again. And then, she turns to you, âWhere is that punk, Jungkook, anyway?â
You scowl at her. âSeriously guys, why do you always look for him from me?â
âItâs just that you always know where he is, babe.â Nayeon says as a matter of fact. âNo offense.â She says, looking straight into your eyes. When she sees your eyebrow raising higher, she adds quickly, âAnd malice!â And then she continues some more, âEven though I personally think youâd be cute together and all but we understand perfectly you both just have this sort of weird relationship where youâre platonic roommates and youâre like best friends but you argue all the time for no reasonââ
âOh my god, shut up, Nayeon.â Doyeon cuts her off before she goes on a spiral again.
âSee why itâs only me and Doyeon who gets to hide Taehyungâs body when I kill him? Youâre gonna tell the police word for word how exactly I did it.â You tell her, and she pouts at you.
âAnd weâre back to killing me again.â Taehyung comments, sighing, and you stick your tongue out at him in that juvenile manner, only that Taehyung does the same because heâs an even bigger child than you.
âKids, stop fighting.â Doyeon warns. âSeriously, where is Jungkook?â
âHe told me he has a laparoscopic cholecystectomy.â You say.
âDamn.â Comments Taehyung.
Everybody including you nod in understanding.
Itâs always been an inside joke in your friend group that Jungkook and you are gonna end up marrying each other because youâve known each other for a long time, the closest to each other, live together â and you both are also the ones that canât keep a relationship.
After your breakup with Eunwoo in the middle of your internship which was four years ago, you took a break from dating for a very long time. Itâs only two years ago that you picked up going on casual dates, having quick flings, all that sort of stuff. Itâs an occasional thing and they never end up as something more.
Itâs why youâre still single up until now, and itâs not even that you want to be so â you prefer to be in a happy, loving relationship, thank you very much â but you yearn for a deeper connection with someone, and every date just doesnât seem to click. And even though you find a little ugly bitterness when somebody brings up marriage, you would never, ever want to settle down with somebody just âcause you feel like you have to.
Meanwhile, Jungkook is a special case. Heâs single because he wants to be. Heâs single because according to him, the bachelor life has âchosenâ him and he canât do anything about it.
Itâs why he goes to this myriads of dates⊠with those⊠women. Sleeps around. Never attempted a serious relationship as far as youâve known him except that one time in your last year of med school when he exclusively dated Min Sora for about a year.
You donât judge him for the kind of life he lives. Heâs just an admittedly good-looking, liberated guy who hooks up with good-looking women who are looking for the same fun as him. When you asked him if they ever do fall, he told you that they always agree prior sex that itâs just going be a one-time thing (two or three or four times if they particularly like each other⊠or whatever the hell he said).
Despite that, Jungkook is â and always has been your best friend. You met each other in med school and were in the same study group together with Doyeon and Taehyung.
As much as heartbreak is a constant in your life, Jungkook is a frontrunner in it as well because from being in almost all the same classes during med school for four years, you both decided to live in the same apartment unit together.
It has two different bedrooms, of course. The apartmentâs a big unit he and Taehyung owned three years ago until Taehyung moved in with his girlfriend. Jungkook couldnât pay for it all by himself, and the only logical roommate choice was you because when he proposed it to Doyeon, she just looked at him disgusted beyond belief.
Youâve been with each other for so long itâs quite impossible to not know the other like the back of their hand. Youâve seen him during his worst in med school days up until the years of your residency as does him you. You both shared the highs and lows of life with the otherâs presence, and as much as you both quite differ in the way you approach certain things in life â heâs ultimately your person, the one-call-away friend (or the one-knock-to-the-door-friend), and the guy you can always lean on when things are just particularly hard to bear.
Jungkook may not be the most ideal when it comes to romance, but heâs the guy youâd certainly wish was your friend.
Why you donât understand when the rest of your friends tease you both is because youâre so⊠platonic with each other. Sure, youâre closest â you knew each other first â but you and Jungkook never acted borderline sweet for other people to be making assumptions. You arenât the kind of friends who call each other siblings but then get weirdly clingy towards each other behind everyoneâs backs.
You may have had a tiny bit of crush on him when you first saw him during first year of med school â itâs a common fact that heâs handsome and whatever, okay â but he had never shown interest; from post grad all throughout the years of your shared residency. You never, either.
But maybe itâs the teasing, since you always fight like goddamn children whenever youâre near each other. Thereâs nothing romantic about it, though, you donât think so. In your defense, thatâs how your dynamic works! Thatâs how your friendship with everybody works! If you didnât banter with a person, you probably hate them.
Shaking the thoughts of Jungkook in your head, you continue to eat your lunch, asking questions about Nayeonâs further plans, squeezing your break with the rest of your friends, knowing your pager is going to beep anytime soon.
What Doyeon said, though, everybody does seem to be getting married these days. If you could sigh, you would, but you have to do with a little bit of internal mulling for now lest one of the gang notices and you get interrogated for it. You donât want to get aired out for feeling suddenly weird at the tough realization that again, everybody seems to be getting married and proposed to except⊠you.
Youâre happy for them â you really are! Youâd be such a shit friend if you werenât. But thereâs a pang in your chest and you know exactly where itâs coming from.
There was an added case to the OR schedule when you checked it earlier this morning, and you were assigned to it as per instruction from the chief of your team â a melanoma excision.
After your lunch, you went to scrub in for the surgery and it was what made you busy including the paper works needed to be done, so busy that you thought youâd forgotten the pain from a while ago.
Turns out, it sat at some bench at the far end of your heart, hiding and shrinking itself for a little while, only showing up when itâs time for you to clock out; in the quiet of the locker room, alone while you change out of your scrubs.
You let out a heavy sigh and lean your forehead to your locker door, closing your eyes and getting your breathing even.
Youâre just tired from work. You tell yourself. You had two surgeries today; it would be true. But you know itâs not entirely that. Itâs the reminder of your loneliness when you see an envelope peeking out from your locker.
You take out the invitation card for Nayeonâs engagement party sheâs given you this afternoon. Itâs a thick off-white material that has her and her fiancĂ©âs name printed on gold beveled font. So intricate to the touch; you deduce once you run your fingers over it.
âYo, what are you up to?â
You quickly stand up straight and hide the envelope behind your back, your other hand going right above your chest when you turn around only to see Jeon Jungkook approaching the inside of the room.
âJesus christ, learn to knock.â You say, genuinely surprised and taken aback. Jungkook cocks a brow at you.
âFeisty.â He muses, and the way his eyes fall to your chest makes you realize youâre still in your bra having not put yourself into a clean and fresh top yet since you decided to have a sentimental moment in your locker door like some high school girl.
âAsshole.â You mutter under your breath, making quick work of putting on a shirt.
Only when youâre done wearing it do you see Jungkook stripping out of his own scrubs until heâs left with only his boxers across from you.
âSome decorum, please?â You tell him, turning around to sit on a bench to change out of your sneakers and wearing a more comfortable pair of sandals.
You hear Jungkook laugh behind you.
âWhat can I say? Iâm a bit of an exhibitionist, you see.â You take a quick look at him so he can see how far your eyes roll to the back of your head. Jungkook ignores that, wearing his shirt while he says, âYouâre out the same time tonight?â
You take out your ponytail and comb your hair through your fingers to fix it.
âYeah. You?â
Jungkook smirks and suddenly thereâs something flying at your direction. Youâre quick on your reflex and manage to catch it on time, only to realize itâs his keys.
âYouâre driving.â
It earns an instant groan from you.
Jungkook puts on another pair of shoes while laughing. âWhat? I drove us here this morning.â
Youâre about to give him an attitude but then you realize making him pity you may be more effective. Stepping closer to him, you sit on the bench where he placed his foot to tie his shoes on. You look up at him and try your puppy face on.
âBut I had two surgeries today, Kook.â
Jungkook stares at you, his expression unreadable. A few seconds pass by, with you blink up at him, and you think heâs gonna cave.
Instead of getting swayed by your poor attempt to get his sympathy, he takes down his leg and says with a sarcastic smile on his face, âI did a major one. Yours were both minor.â
Your shoulders deflate, making sure to jab at his thigh that was at eye level and snark, âAnd two is more than one. Fuck off, Jeon.â
Jungkook follows behind you while his boisterous ass is laughing.
âDonât get pissed at me, are you kidding? Itâs your turn to drive. Favor for a favor.â
You turn back to him, and because you were walking in a faster pace, he crashes to your back. He grips your shoulder, pursing his lips into a thin line, obviously holding in another fit of laughter.
âYouâre gonna drive us tomorrow here, do you understand?â You say, giving him an ominous glare.
Jungkook raises his hands up. âOkay, okay.â He nods his head, and to piss you off more, he adds, âBossy.â
That earns him a pinch to the side which he quickly dodges. Rolling your eyes, you shake your head and continue to head towards the exit.
You both enter his car soon after.
âI miss my carâŠâ you longingly say, turning on the ignition to start driving.
âItâs still in the shop?â Jungkook asks while rummaging around his compartment glove to look for a snack. He always has a few in it. Itâs convenient.
âYeah, the mechanic told me itâs gonna take a few more weeks. So,â you look at him bitterly.
âThatâs tough.â Jungkook comments, opening a granola bar and biting on it. He extends his hand to you. âYou want some?â
You stretch your neck to the side, eyes still on the road while taking a bite off his food.
âTough because you canât bring your girls here anymore?â You joke a little. Jungkook gives you a dirty look. Your eyes widen a little, realizing what you just said. âPlease say you donât fuck in your car. Iâve touched your passenger seat and your backseat.â
âGive me more credit, yeah? I donât fuck in my car, that shit is unhygienic as hell,â Jungkook rolls his eyes, and you heave a sigh of relief upon his confirmation. âI wine and dine my women before we do the deed, thank you very much.â
âYouâre just so sweet, arenât you?â You say with a straight face.
Jungkook sing-songs. âJust like how they like it.â
âYouâre really beating them off with a stick these past few years, huh?â
âA gorgeous stick, might I add.â
That earns a disgusted groan from you, which he laughs at, and you drop the subject before it even goes to another place.
Thereâs a comfortable silence that sits on the air for a while until Jungkook speaks.
âHey, what was that earlier?â
âHm?â
âIn the locker room.â He says.
You shift uncomfortably in your seat. Clearing your throat, you answer, âOh, itâs just, uh⊠Nayeonâs getting married. Do you know that?â
âYeah.â
You turn to him in surprise. âWait, how? You didnât eat lunch with us.â
Jungkook snorts. âI saw the invitation cards in her locker yesterday, she thought she was being discreet. She threatened me to keep it a secret when I asked her about it, though. I guess she told you guys today at lunch?â
âOh my god, you really need to stop snooping in everybodyâs locker.â
âI do not snoop in in everybodyâs locker.â
You give him a certain look. Jungkook rolls his eyes. âDonât change the subject.â
Letting out a heavy breath, you look straight ahead as you say, âI donât know. I wasnât doing anythingâŠâ
âJust getting a little sentimental in the locker room?â
âA bit.â You purse your lips. âBut itâs not a big deal.â
Jungkook doesnât say anything to that. From your peripheral vision, you can see him staring at you but you choose to ignore that, focusing on driving instead.
âIf you say so.â He says after a while.
Youâre thankful for the dismissal. Jungkookâs usually insistent that you tell him everything â heâs just nosy like that â but deep down you know itâs because he cares. And if youâre in any trouble, heâs always willing to be there for you may it be listening to you vent or eat unholy amount of Chinese take out in the middle of the night.
As you went on the road, he played a few of his playlists and they served as background noise as you both talked about your day, like how your surgeries went. Itâs a usual drive when youâre both in the same car together â which youâve done quite a few times now because after all, you work in the same building and gas is expensive. Itâs the most logical way to save up in this economy.
These past few weeks, though, it just so happened that your car got a little bitchy and started to act up so you made a bargain with Jungkook.
Anyway, you both arrive at your apartment shortly, with Jungkook and you taking turns in the shower.
âYou wanna order in something?â Says Jungkook whoâs currently drying his hair, a towel wrapped around his lower half.
He wasnât kidding when he said heâs some kind of exhibitionist. Jungkook has the habit of walking around the apartment shirtless and sometimes with just even his boxers on, and itâs not like you arenât used to seeing it! You admittedly see a lot of it when you guys would change in the locker rooms back at the hospital, but that is work, and you have more things to worry about at work other than your co-worker changing in front of you.
Still, itâs hard to get used to his exhibitionist tendencies. You had a hard time with it especially in the first few months of living together, but you had to adapt, and right now, even though you can say youâre partly immune to it, his naked upper half still bothers you. A little.
Listen, youâre a human being with primal instincts and men who have good bodies do, in fact, distract you a tiny bit.
âNope.â You take a sip of the glass of water, closing the refrigerator with your foot, looking at Jungkook who groans at your answer. âWhat?â
âI was hoping we could split the delivery fee.â He deadpans.
âWow. And they say chivalry is dead.â
Jungkook laughs while you head towards your room. He follows you until you reach your door so you turn to him, putting your hand on your hip as you ask, âWhat?â
âDonât think too much about it.â
Your furrow your brows. âHow do you mean?â
âThe wedding,â Jungkook says with a soft smile. âAnd weddings, in general. I know youâre thinking about a few things up in that smart brain of yours. Donât.â
Youâre completely taken aback by his words, but at the same time, youâre not at all that surprised. Jungkook can read you almost like an open book.
Still, you decide to lie.
âIâm not thinking about weddings, weirdo.â
âLiar,â Jungkookâs brow arches, and you know heâs figured out your shit. âYour nostrils flared up. Youâre lying.â
You groan, giving him a light jab at his bicep. Jungkook chuckles.
âMy nostrils do not flare up.â
âIt does so,â Jungkook points out. âLike this.â He stands there on your door and start to purposefully enlarge his nostrils to imitate you.
You roll your eyes. âMy face is not like that when I lie. Go back to your room,â you say, pushing him slightly out of your doorway, ready to close it in front of his face, but you add more, âAnd donât bother me.â
Jungkook stands up straight and gives you a salute. âYes, maâam.â he says in a register octave lower, walking away with laughter as you tell him heâs annoying. You roll your eyes once again before finally closing your bedroom door.

A lot of people may judge your love for romance as naivety, but you really couldnât care less. Even if you get heart broken countless times, love will never fail to make your heart soft and make you feel like youâre floating.
Itâs exactly what you think as you look at Nayeon and her fiance, Minhyuk, on the stage huddled so close together, laughing and giggling to each other. They look so incredibly happy. So connected. So sweet. It brings a feeling of warmth to your heart â to see one of the most important people in your life finally meeting the person she wants to spend the rest of her life with. It makes you melt on the inside to see two people so deeply in love that it emanates in the whole venue of the garden their engagement party is being held at today.
The weather is sunny â not too hot, like the universe knows not to fuck it up for Nayeon and her fiance. Thereâs also a lot of people; their families, some of Nayeonâs friends and probably Minhyukâs â people youâve never seen before. You assume itâs Minhyukâs friends or acquaintances. The guest list for their wedding must be big, but it isnât surprising, given that Minhyuk comes from the big corporate world.
âYou want more champagne?â Jungkook whispers beside you, ready to stand up from his seat.
You stare at him, and you notice his eyes are not even on yours. He has it glued towards a woman across from you. A pretty woman wearing a satin dress that shows off her slender figure. You notice Jungkookâs been looking at her since the beginning of the party.
Shaking your head, you scoff. âYouâre just gonna pick up some woman.â
Jungkook sputters and quickly take his gaze off the woman. âNo, Iâm not. I just think sheâs familiar.â
You raise your brow. âLet me guess⊠one of your hook-ups?â
Jungkook huffs. And then off he goes.
Everybody has their plus-ones except you two, and now that Jungkook is probably off his mission to find a hook-up for the night, youâre left alone as usual.
You donât feel bad about it. The champagne is good and thereâs hors d'oeuvre on the table.
âMiss?â
You look up, finding the owner of the voice.
And holy hell.
âHi.â You greet reluctantly, not sure if he meant you. Youâre also trying to contain a blush from spreading across your cheeks because goddamn, was the man beautiful.
He smiles. Wow. Whoever this is⊠he looks pretty damn good.
âIs this seat taken?â The stranger says, pointing to the now empty seat beside you. You look around but canât really spot Jungkook.
So, you shake your head, gesturing to the chair beside you. âNo, not really. You want to sit here?â
He nods. âAlone?â
âNo, not really⊠but Iâm Nayeonâs friend. Iâm her co-resident at the hospital.â You smile, taking a sip of your champagne thatâs already about to run out. âAre you one of Minhyukâs friends?â
âYou guessed right. Law school friends. Worked at the same firm when he was a practicing lawyer until he quit some time ago,â You nod at that, and he gives you a boyish smile again. He offers his hand for a handshake. âIâm Mingyu, by the way. Kim Mingyu.â
You take his hand.
âIâm ___.â You both laugh when you shake your hands together.
His hands feel rough but at the same time warm. Itâs nice.
âYouâre a doctor?â Mingyu asks, keeping up the conversation.
âYeah. A resident surgeon.â You glance at him. âIâm assuming youâre a lawyer?â
Mingyu nods. âYeah. Corporate.â
âI see.â You nod, looking in front of you again, trying to stray from any eye contact. Heâs way too attractive for your own liking.
âSay⊠I hate to make this about work but I just need to ask real quick,â Mingyu says, and when you look at him, you furrow your brows at the worry in his eyes, suddenly growing nervous at the depth of seriousness itâs showing. âSo, I got here, and I suddenly have this sort of⊠feeling of heart palpitation. Increased heart rate. Itâs like itâs missing a beat and itâs been making me real nervous.â
âOh,â you look at him in concern. âThatâsâ did you drink uh⊠coffee?â He shakes his head. You place your champagne glass on the table and turn your body to him so you can face him properly. You donât know if itâs just the doctor in you, but you forget about pretty much everything when you see or hear someone feeling under normal. âAre you a smoker, then?â You continue your line of questioning.
âI quit years ago.â
âI see⊠okay, uhmâŠâ You look around, trying to look for something. âThereâs a lot of roots for heart palpitations. Does your heart feel like pounding right now? Flip-flopping or something like that?â
Mingyu nods.
âOkay⊠well I canât say for sure â I wish I have stethoscope with me right now. But Iâm gonna lay out all the possible reasons why you might be feeling so. Smokingâs out of the question. You didnât drink coffee, but do you drink more than one cup in a day?â
âNot in the past few weeks, no.â
âSo, youâre not overcaffeinated, then. I really donât want to lay this out on you, but you might want to check in with your doctor if this is not your first time feeling this. Heart palpitations is normal most of the time but Iâve seen lots of people get in these situations and it ends up being arrhythmia, which is a really serious condition.â You look at him straight in the eyes.
Mingyu looks stricken back. âWell⊠are there any more reasons out there thatâs not⊠as dangerous?â
You still in your position.
Oh, right. There is more.
âAre you feeling certain emotions right now? Like, really, strong emotion?â You say, internally face-palming yourself because how can you not remember one of the very basic roots of palpitation!
âYes, I am.â
âWell⊠certain emotions do trigger your heartbeat to accelerate. It might be anxiety⊠fear, panic, stressâŠâ You look at Mingyu, noticing that his once serious face is now forming a smile. That makes you back-track, but you hesitantly continue. â... infatuation.â
And then he says, âI think youâre right off the bat with that one.â
Your lips part slightly. A few seconds passed and then suddenly, what heâs doing registers in your head, and you canât help but to let out a laugh.
âOh my god,â You say in disbelief. âYou werenâtâ you werenât actually asking for medical advice?â
âBad way to flirt with a pretty woman, huh?â Mingyu smiles and itâs so dashing that you shy away from his gaze, but youâre still laughing at the turn of events.
âGod, no. I canât believe I didnât get it earlier.â You say, gingerly placing a palm on your forehead at the embarrassment.
But Mingyu just laughs along with you.
âIt was just bad flirting. Iâm sorry,â He says, sipping from his glass and takes a glance at you. âI can do better.â
You arch your brow. âOh?â
âYeah. If you let me. Say, Friday, ten oâclock?â
You chuckle. âThat was really smooth.â
Mingyu was about to say something when suddenly, you hear a familiar voice approaching your direction.
âMingyu?â When you look up, you see Jungkook. You eye him in confusion, wondering how the hell he knew Mingyuâs name.
But then Mingyu speaks and you grow even more confused.
âJeon Jungkook?â
âOh hey, itâs you,â Jungkook says, and he looks genuinely surprised. Mingyu stands up from his seat to give Jungkook a hug, slapping him on the back â kind of like how guys usually greet each other. You watch as Jungkook reluctantly reciprocates it.
âYou work with Nayeon?â Mingyu asks, and even with a smile on his face, you can see heâs also in disbelief to be seeing Jungkook.
Jungkook nods at him, still looking a bit stricken. You canât figure out if itâs just his surprised face or something else. Youâve never seen him look so⊠stunned like this before. Nevertheless, he says, âYeah. How âbout you?â
âBeen with Lee and Song for the past three years, Minhyukâs previous firm before he quit and went out to the business world.â Mingyu chuckles, tapping Jungkookâs back.
Jungkook smiles. âThatâs crazy, man. I canât believe weâll meet here again.â
Mingyu, seemingly sharing the same sentiment, says, âMan, itâs been, like, whatâ almost ten years?â
âYeah, yeah, too long, man.â Jungkook nods, chuckling slightly.
You hate to interrupt, but youâre confused, and you need to confirm something.
âWait,â You butt in, making them both look at you. âYou know each other?â
Jungkook sits across from you while Mingyu follows.
âWe did pre-med together during undergrad.â Mingyu says.
âYou did pre-med in undergrad?â You look at Mingyu incredulously, and he nods with a bashful smile on his face. You squint your eyes at him, feeling slightly betrayed that he asked you all that stuff earlier when the whole while he has a pre-med degree.
Jungkook cuts in.
âHow the hell do you two know each other?â He said, leaning back and pointing between you two. It seems like heâs finally out of the trance he was in earlier.
âI just met him today.â You tell Jungkook, blinking your eyes at him.
âWell, how about you two? How do you know each other?â Mingyu asks and the whole thing suddenly feels like watching a game of tennis somehow.
Youâre about to answer when Jungkook beats you to it.
âWeâre co-workers. Together with Nayeon.â
Mingyu nods his head and then turns to you, âSo not his girlfriend, then?â
âWhat? No!â you didnât mean for it to come out that violently, so you repeat it in a gentler manner this time. âI mean no. What?â
Mingyu turns to Jungkook whoâs now looking confused.
âI was just asking her out for a date.â
You suddenly feel blood rushing to your cheeks at his straightforwardness. In front of Jungkook, out of all people! You arenât embarrassed! You just feel weird and shy.
But Jungkook looks at you as if silently asking you if Mingyuâs being serious. You tuck your bottom lip under your teeth.
Then he nods his head slowly. âReally?â Jungkook chuckles, looking at you. âWhatâd you say?â
Mingyu looks at you with a hopeful smile. âWhat do you say?â
You feel weird about doing the whole thing in front of someone, but you look at Mingyu again â how attractive he is, his charming smile, his physique, and his charisma⊠and you donât think itâd be too bad to chance at least one date with him.
So, you nod, avoiding Jungkookâs sudden way too intense gaze.
âI would like to,â But he cocks his head to the side. You chuckle, adding, âYes, Mingyu. Iâd like to go out with you.â

âWoah!â
âJungkook, please knock!â
You look at Jungkook irritably while you lock your stud earring, standing up from your chair in front of the vanity table to pick up your purse from the edge of your bed.
âI was just going to borrow your hair dryer.â Jungkook says, trudging inside your room freely which makes you roll your eyes at him.
You watch as he expertly makes his way to your vanity table and slides one of the drawers, taking out the hair dryer.
âYou need to buy your own one.â You say with a straight face.
But Jungkook just stands there for a while, and when his stare goes on longer than necessary, you start feeling conscious.
âWhat.â
âWhat are you so⊠dolled up for?â
You jab him on the chest when you get near him, enough to make him wince. âWhat an asshole way to say I look good.â
Jungkook laughs. Your heart drops.
Most of the time, you understand that your dynamic consists of teasing and bantering with each other until one of you gets pissed off. Thatâs usually you. But they never go too far â youâve built a foundation of respect in your relationship which you love. However, sometimes, there are moments when youâre under a certain kind of pressure â like right now in which you only have twenty minutes before Mingyu arrives to pick you up outside of your building complex and you still havenât done your hair â and Jungkook laughing while looking at you is not helping.
The faux confidence falls as fast as that.
âOkay, Jungkook, can you just tell me nicely if this dress looks ridiculous or if I put too much make-up on?â You say, failing not to sound defensive.
Jungkookâs quick to halt his laughter, and he looks taken aback at your clipped tone.
âWhat? I didnât say anything.â
âYou were laughing at me.â You point out, turning around to rummage through your make-up products scattered on the top surface of the furniture, thinking that maybe you overblushed. So, you look at yourself in the mirror.
Jungkook situates himself on your vanity table so youâll look at him.
âWhaâ you thought I was laughing at you?â You donât answer, checking if your cheeks are way too pink, purposefully ignoring him. âOkay, thatâsâ I wasnât. Iâm sorry if you thought I was. I laughed at your words, not the way you look.â
You let out a sharp breath, look at him angrily, ready to present more argument, but you see the look of sincerity on his face and you realize then that youâre being borderline sensitive.
You sigh. âIâm sorry.â
âHey,â Jungkook places a gentle hand on your shoulder.
You pout at him. âItâs just⊠first date jitters. I feel slightly anxious, I donât know,â You sigh again, âI bought this dress two days ago.â You say, looking down at it. It has a tube top with thin straps, fitting your upper half like a glove but flows prettily to the bottom, stopping just about four inches above your knee.
âIt looks good on you.â Jungkook comments, and you quint your eyes at him.
âYou swear?â
Jungkook rolls his eyes. âWhy would I lie?â
âTo make me feel better, I donât know,â Then you canât help but chuckle. âAnyway, does my make-up look okay? I didnât put too much blush?â
âYou have lipstick on your teeth,â Jungkook says, baring his own to emphasize what he meant.
âShit.â You panic, quickly ducking down to check it in the mirror.
You soon realize Jungkook was fucking with you when you hear him laughing beside you.
âI hate you.â You hiss, pushing his thighs so he can get off your vanity table. He remains on his seat, fighting your force while laughing. âUgh, donât you have a date of your own or something?â You groan as you take the hair straightener on the side, sitting back down again on the chair to straighten a certain part of your hair again so itâs looks nothing but perfect.
âOhh, so you are going on a date.â Jungkook says as if he wasnât there in front of you when Mingyu asked you out.
You give him a weird look. âWith Mingyu, remember?â
âOh, right.â Heâs quiet for awhile, and then, âYouâre really dating him?â
You put down the hair straightener.
âYeah⊠why?â
Jungkook shakes his head. âNothing.â
But you want to insist. âHeâs your friend. You told me heâs a nice guy.â
He nods his head. âThatâs true.â
You eye him suspiciously. âYouâre making me nervous.â
Jungkook chuckles and pats your head. You scowl at him and slap his wrist.
âYouâre like a cat,â Jungkook comments. âAnyway, I told you, itâs nothing. Itâs justâŠâ He trails off. You look at him, waiting for his continuation.
You donât expect the genuine smile he sends your way.
âI wish it works out for you this time.â
Lips parted, you think about what to say to that, but nothing comes out of your mouth.
Jungkook gets off the table and brings with him your blow dryer. Before he heads out completely, he tells you, âAnd donât worry about how you look. Mingyu likes pretty women. Youâre exactly his type.â

âReally, mini-golf?â You ask Mingyu, but he already has his fingers intertwined with you as you both enter the course.
Youâve just had dinner at some fancy restaurant that served, admittedly, good steak. He told you it was some sort of special place for him; where he takes himself to whenever he closes a deal or wins a case. You tried not to think too much about what it meant that he brought you there â given that youâre only on your first date.
But hey, maybe he thought you deserve to eat good steak? Thatâs probably what it was.
You donât ask.
You thought the night was over when you finished your meal and good two glasses of Malbec, but Mingyu commented in his car that heâd love to burn off the food for a moment â and you didnât really want to leave just yet.
So, you end up at Pier 26, and Mingyuâs enthusiastic.
âCome on, itâll be fun.â He says, and you have no choice but to follow behind him.
âI really donât know how.â You tell him, smile bashful as you watch him carry the golf club, walking towards the direction of the ball.Â
âWhatâs up with that? Iâll teach you,â Mingyu says, putting down the club and unbuttoning his cuff to push his sleeves up to his forearms.
You try not to focus too much on the veins that show up at the action and how his biceps are almost fighting to pop out of his sleeves. His hands look so big compared to yours when he offers it to get you to stand beside him.
âReally? Youâre gonna teach me like a big⊠macho man?â You tease, taking his hand nonetheless.
Mingyu smiles once youâre beside him, placing himself behind you, guiding your hands so you can hold the club together.
You can feel his breath on your neck as he instructs you what to do. âYou just have to stand like this,â He lets go of your hands in favour of your hips, and your breath hitches when he whispers, âLook ahead, and you just⊠let go.â
The golf ball jumps out of the line and you giggle at the way it completely misses the hole.
âThat was⊠wow.â Mingyu says, staring at the ball.
âShut up! Okay, okay, Iâll try it alone.â You say, dismissing his incredulous look, a bit embarrassed at your performance.
From your periphery, you see Mingyu closely watching you as you grip the golf club a little less tight this time so itâs not too tense when you hit the ball. Squinting your eyes, you eye the goal and let out a controlled breath. You relax your posture just like he taught you and when you finally hit the ball, it lands right in the hole perfectly.
You turn to look at Mingyu immediately with widened eyes, and when he gives you a huge grin, you do a little jump out of excitement.
âOh my god, I did that!â
Mingyu chuckles at your enthusiasm. And due to the high of hitting the goal once, you agree to another round until it turns into a session.
You only stopped when you got tired. Nonetheless, you realize itâs actually something youâre good at, and that geeks you inside. Meanwhile, Mingyu suggested you walk around the park for a little while.
Mingyu told you he was just going to buy some food at a stall, but as you sit on the bench to wait for him, you think about how youâd like to go with Jungkook here some time to challenge him to mini-golf. You almost always never beat him to any games⊠surely, he must not know mini-golf, right? You can finally have the upper hand, if ever.
âIce cream?â Mingyu returns from the stall and extends the cone to you. You try not to show your wince. Youâre lactose intolerant.
âThanks.â You say, not wanting to make a big deal out of it. Itâs not that bad, and you want this date to be perfect. Mingyu joins you on the bench.
The nightâs cold and you regret not bringing your blazer with you and leaving it in his car instead.
âYou know,â you start to strike up a conversation. âIâm still pretty shocked you studied pre-med.â
Mingyu chuckles. âWhy?â
âI donât know⊠but in hindsight, I shouldâve known the moment you asked me about âheart palpitationsâ.â You say, quoting the last two words, trying to tease him.
âI really thought that was a good idea, huh?â
You snort. âIt wasââ you gesture with your hand, pursing your lips. âPretty lame, yeah. But admittedly⊠it was cute. So, there.â
Mingyu laughs. âThanks. I also thought that was a brilliant way to flirt with a doctor.â
You shake your head, laughing at him.
Silence sits in the air for a while until he speaks.
âYou know what they say? Study law when you donât know what to do after getting a degree, so law it was.â Mingyu shrugs.
âYou didnât see yourself as a doctor then?â You ask curiously.
âNot really. Didnât really think too much about it when I chose a pre-med program as my major. Soon realized it wasnât for me. I was lost in law school too for a good couple of years, though. But I love it now,â Mingyu looks at you whoâs intently listening. âYou? You always wanted to be a doctor?â
You look ahead, nodding. âFor as long as I can remember.â
âJust like Jungkook, huh?â Mingyu chuckles. âHe really wanted it a lot. I remember him excelling during those moving tests. He had a lot of people getting jealous over him for balancing his school and basketball lives so well, you know?â
You furrow your brows. âHe did basketball?â
âYeah. We were in the varsity team together.â
âHah.â You smile. Jungkook. A jock. âThat makes sense.â
âThat Iâm a jock?â Mingyu asks with a teasing smile on his face.
You didnât mean him, but regardless, you nod, finding that it also applies to him. âYou look like someone who plays basketball.â
âAnd whatâs the diagnosis of that, doctor?â Mingyu leans closer.
You nibble on your bottom lip.
âLetâs say you have a⊠chronic jock face.â You say, not backing down from Mingyuâs sudden challenge of eye contact.
âI donât know if thatâs a good thing. Is that a good thing?â
You chuckle. âIt just means that you are conventionally attractive.â
âAh,â he nods, but you notice his hand making its way around your waist. You donât make a move to protest it. âThen, can a conventionally attractive guy like me chance a kiss with a pretty girl like you?â
Your breath hitch when he leans his face closer. One more inch and his lips will lock against yours.
âYeah.â
Mingyu doesnât waste a second longer and leans in to plant his lips on yours. Itâs nothing short of a peck when he breaks away from the contact, but when you look up at him with parted lips, he goes back to kissing you again, cupping your cheek and angling your face towards him better, this time taking you closer by your waist.
It starts off as something experimental, like heâs testing the waters first. But when you take out your tongue to prod the side of his mouth, he does the same and inserts his tongue in yours.
You did not really think that youâd end up making out of some bench at a park, but here you are.
âOh,â you unintentionally let out a low moan, and you hear a guttural sound coming out from his throat. Your hands come up to fist his collar as some sort of support, and Mingyu responds with a slight pinch to your hip.
You break away from the kiss to regain your breathing, and Mingyu takes that as an opportunity to plant kisses across your cheek down to your jaw. Sighing at the sensation, you close your eyes as you let yourself get drowned in the feeling of his soft lips against your skin.
But when you open your eyes, you see people walking by at a short distance and thatâs when you wake up from your trance.
âMingyu,â You call him, but heâs too busy kissing your neck. âHey, I think we shouldnât do this here.â
Mingyu stops. Then, he looks at you, eyes hooded, hair a mess, his lips swollen, some of your lipstick getting on it.
Your blood flows to your cheek at the sight. He looks unbelievably hot. God, what more if he was under you and you were doing more than just kissing andâ no, no. Not going there. Absolutely no thoughts of ⊠there.
âFuck, Iâm sorry,â Mingyu says after seemingly snapping himself out of the trance as well. âShit. I really am.â
He looks so apologetic, so you put your hand over his arm.
âItâs fine. Just uh⊠letâs take it slow?â You tell him.
Mingyu gives you a small smile.
âSlow. Yeah. Letâs do it slow.â

What's the definition of slow, anyway?
The tension at the park was too much and you made out some more in his car with heavy petting that may have included Mingyu copping a feel of your boob and you coyishly feeling out the bulge in his pants.
Safe to say, you havenât been able to stop thinking about it since.
You started coming over to his place, but you still havenât had sex. Not yet at least. You havenât even taken off your clothes in front of each other yet. Suddenly, you remember being eighteen and just making out with your boyfriend â the territory of any form of sex prohibited for some reason. Somehow, you two have never gotten around that for the past few weeks youâve hung out. It may be because you always stop it before it happens, but itâs not because you donât want to; just that it feels like youâre going to a place you wonât know how to go back to.
So, itâs mostly date nights, a sneaky coffee hung during the afternoon when youâre not particularly busy and your schedule aligns, and making out in his car until your pager beeps or when his phone rings.
And as good as Mingyu may be with his lips when he locks them with yours, heâs more than what you thought he was.
You have to admit that you had doubts when you first met him. You donât trust a lot of good-looking men, because they always end up being assholes. He also has the face of a guy who â in a cliche fashion â likes to break womenâs hearts on a regular basis. You went to the first date a little hopeful of something real, but you knew your luck with romance isnât the best â may be the worst youâve ever known â but recently, youâre starting to think that maybe the poisonâs wearing out and Mingyu may just be⊠decent.
Decent enough to be a boyfriend. Your boyfriend.
And it feels so weird to think so. Youâve been single for so long, and sure, you went to a lot of dates during the past two years but Mingyuâs going on two months, and everything just seems so⊠right. Like this can be it.
You hate having wishful thinking. You hate getting your hopes high. But god, he makes it so hard.
âYou going with us later?â Nayeon asks, stretching her neck while looking at you.
Youâre all currently at some abandoned ward at the hospital where you take quick breaks from your shift to eat or talk for a while.
âWhere to?â You ask, taking a bite off Taehyungâs egg sandwich which he gave you earlier.
âWeâre going out for barbecue tonight. Jungkook didnât tell you?â Doyeon says, coming back from her quick trip to the vending machine.
You look at them confused. âNo, he didnât tell me about⊠barbecue or going out.â
As if on cue, Jungkook arrives in the scene.
âSheâs not coming with us,â Jungkook says, and you look at him with visible offense on your expression. âSheâs going out with her boyfriend tonight.â
The room quickly becomes rowdy at the declaration, and you flip Taehyung off when you hear him let out a lighthearted âbooâ.
âOh my god,â Nayeon squeals. âMingyuâs your boyfriend now?â She asks, going over to the bed youâre sitting on, huddling closer to you ready to hear some gossip.
Doyeon looks surprised as well.
You look at Jungkook to give him a death glare. The fucker just puts his hands up in the air.
âNo, godâ why would you believe him?â You huff out, rolling your eyes. âMingyuâs not my boyfriend.â Nayeonâs shoulders deflate. âYet.â You add, and suddenly, she smiles. You take a glance at Doyeon who looks at Jungkook subtly. Or not so subtly, since you saw her. She didnât seem to notice.
But Jungkook just wears a smug expression as he approaches you closer.
âSee?â He shrugs, plopping himself on the same bed beside you. He looks at everybody. âShe barely goes home nowadays.â
âShut up, Jungkook!â You say, continuously hitting him on the arm as he makes little effort to dodge them.
But as usual, your friends love to bully you and join in the teasing.
âSo, you joining or what?â Taehyung says after a while.
You actually had plans with Mingyu tonight. Just the usual dinner at his place and some movie and some fooling around, but you remember Jungkookâs teasing and felt the competitive need for him to not be right.
Besides, you donât want to be the kind of friend who suddenly ditches their friends just because theyâre starting to date â and you know that beneath their good-natured chaff is a genuine feeling of sulk because youâve been admittedly bailing out on all your hangs lately.
It isnât even that much because you donât get to hang outside the hospital often â but you usually do go out on Fridays or Saturdays for some barbecue and go to a KTV bar afterwards. Itâs sort of like became a tradition at this point, and it dawns on you that you havenât been present in them for the past few weeks, which makes you feel bad.
âIâm coming with.â
Jungkook immediately eyes you with an arched brow. âFor real?â
You challenge him with a look. âYes, why?â
âI just remember you mentioning youâre going to Mingyuâs tonight.â
âEh,â you shrug. âIâm just gonna tell him Iâm hanging out with you all. No big deal.â You say, believing what you said. Mingyuâs come accustomed to your group of friends and youâre both adults who live separate lives. As far as you know him, he wouldnât be making a big deal out of you cancelling on a plan. You think heâll understand. You hope he does.
âOh my god, donât!â Nayeon cuts in. âDonât worry about us. Go date your hot lawyer boyfriend right now. Are you insane?â
You look at her incredulously. âWhat are you talking about?â
Doyeon looks at you, nodding her head. âNayeonâs right. If itâs between a date with my boyfriend or having barbecue with Taehyung and Jungkook, Iâd rather be with my boyfriend,â She looks at the two guys. âNo offense.â
âAs if I donât want to be with my girlfriend either tonight?â Taehyung says in disbelief.
Doyeon rolls her eyes, but she lets out a low chuckle.
âWaitâ why are we fighting right now? If __ wants to cancel her date with Mingyu to come with us for barbecue night, then let her be.â Jungkook says.
In the corner, Taehyung crosses his arms and sends a certain look Jungkookâs way.
âDonât get too excited, Jungkook.â
Jungkook and you pretty much have the same exact reaction at that.
âWhat the hell does that mean?â
You feel a slight pinch to your arm.
âAw!â You slap Jungkookâs bicep for what he did. âWhat the hell!â
âI said it first.â
âYouâre a child.â You roll your eyes.
Taehyung raises his hand. âI think youâre both twelve-year-olds trapped in thirty-year-old surgeonsâ bodies.â
âTwelveâs too generous, I think theyâre mentally still in first grade.â Doyeon comments.
You donât get to rebut as you see a glimpse of the resident chief coming your way. It seems that the rest noticed the same thing, and suddenly, youâre all scrambling from your comfortable positions on the ER beds and going your separate ways to the hallways.

You went to your go-to-barbecue restaurant as soon as your shift ended for the day.
The eating becomes a drinking session until everybody tapped out but you and Jungkook. More like, you, because Jungkook wasnât drinking at all. Doyeon was the first one to call herself an Uber, and then Nayeon and Taehyung had to leave because they have an early shift the next day.
âDonât you have a shift tomorrow?â You ask Jungkook, downing another shot glass of soju. Your alcohol tolerance is not that high nor is it that low, but after two bottles â you admit youâre starting to feel a little dazed.
âYeah. Afternoon.â Jungkook responds. When he sees you pouring yourself another glass again, he takes the shot and downs it himself.
âRude!â You pout at him.
âYouâre all red and shit, itâs time to tap out.â Jungkook chuckles when you show him an even deeper frown. âCome on, itâs nearing twelve.â
âIâm so tired.â You whine, not even bothering to take your glass back from him, just letting your shoulder deflate and bowing your head down, your eyes becoming droopier by the second.
After four years of residency, you feel like you have started to operate on autopilot somehow. Wake up at fuck-ass oâclock at dawn to prep for work and finish a varying number of hours of shift for the week. You admittedly barely get time to partake in leisure activities â and itâs not new per say. Itâs just like in med school except youâre actually doing the real thing now and instead of grades, real lives are involved and at stake â which puts an even bigger weight on your shoulders.
Itâs why youâre thankful to Mingyu; for his presence⊠for starting to invite you to his place rather than eat out. Donât get it twistedâ you love the bougie dinners and all that, but his penthouse is definitely way more comfortable.
But lately youâve forgotten about what it is like to hang out with your friends outside of the five-minute breaks in the hospital â and times like these you love letting yourself loose and relax because, hey, you deserve it a little!
âShould I buy you soup to drink in the car?â You can hear Jungkook ask. You donât answer. âYeah, I should buy you soup.â He tells himself.
And then you see him going to the counter only to come back after a few minutes with a paperbag in his hand.
âYouâre drunk.â He announces.
You snicker. âIâm not.â
âYou sure are.â Jungkook shakes his head as he takes you by your waist to help you stand up.
âJust feeling a little dizzy, âs all.â You mumble when you fall against his neck upon straightening your legs.
âYouâre not just a little dizzy, silly.â Jungkook whispers against your head.
You hum as a response and you can feel the vibration on his chest as he laughs at you. He doesnât say another word as he guides your steps outside of the restaurant, and before you know it, youâre situated in the passenger seat of his car, with him wearing your seatbelt around you.
âThanks.â You give him a lopsided smile, shifting around in the space to get more comfortable.
âWelcome, your highness.â You giggle at his response. âDrink up, itâs gonna help you sober up.â He says, handing you the paper bowl of soup he bought from the restaurant a few minutes ago.
You groan, taking it from him and slowly sip from the cup. Jungkook tells you to get his water flask from his backpack on the back seat when you finish your soup.
The soup and water relieve you from the acid reflux you feel in your stomach. Only slightly. Because when you close your eyes and lean back on the seat more comfortably, thatâs when you feel something in your throat.
âJungkook,â You call him.
âHm?â
âI think I want to puke.â
Jungkook immediately turns to look at you. âFor real?â
You bite your bottom lip, nodding your head repeatedly.
âOkay, shitâ wait,â Jungkook looks around for something. Probably a plastic bag or whatever. But when he finishes scoping the area around the interior of his car, he seems to find nothing. When he glances at the rearview mirror, he takes a reverse and suddenly, he turns off the ignition of his car. âIâll park here for a while. Letâs go outside.â
He gets out of the car first before opening your door. You think youâre fine to walk on your own, but you donât oppose to Jungkook wrapping his arm around your waist and leading you to aâŠ
Playground. The swings, in particular.
âSit here for a bit.â He instructs, holding the chains steady for you as he waits until youâre sitting on it. He runs towards the car, and you feel way too weird in the throat to ask him why.
You recognize the place thatâs not exactly far away from your complex. Maybe a ten-minute drive away.
Jungkook comes back with a crumpled plastic bag. Itâs from a familiar provision shop. Probably was in his compartment glove the whole time.
âHere,â he hands you the plastic. âIâll help you.â
You get it from him and shake your head.
âNo, itâs fine.â
âI donât mind.â
You look at him straight in the eye. âYouâre not gonna help me puke, Jungkook.â
Jungkook stares at you for a while and then sighs. He holds the chains of your swing again, standing beside you, putting his hand in his pockets.
âOkay. Puke your heart out.â
You snort. You open the plastic bag and get a feel of that weird invasive push in your throat â until you realize Jungkook is watching you.
Looking up at him, you whine, âJungkook. Donât watch.â
Jungkook furrows his brows. âIâm not watching.â
âItâs gross.â You say, a bit embarrassed. The whole thingâs embarrassing, to be honest. Jungkook taking care of you because you got stupid drunk. Itâs not the first time, and there were definitely a lot more occurrences worse than this â youâre just grateful he hasnât kicked you out of a curb. Yet.
âWatching somebody puke?â He scoffs as he says your name. âWe literally amputated a leg today, and FYI, Iâm just scared youâre gonna have some serious complication while puking.â
You frown becauseâ okay. Fair. He has valid points.
âOkay. Well. Iâm not gonna die puking. So, turn around or stand back there at the slides far from me.â
âSeriously?â Jungkook asks, disbelief painting his voice.
You just nod. Thankfully, he doesnât say any more and obediently walks about five steps away from you, acquiescing to your request.
It takes you a few minutes to settle yourself before you let out the accumulation of what youâve digested for the day. Your throat feels crass when youâre done, and your stomach feels empty. When you look ahead, your head still feels like itâs floating. But at least you feel a little better now.
âDrink this,â Jungkook approaches you again and gives you his tumbler once again. You drink from it quickly and quietly. âFeel okay now?â
You hum, nodding and smiling up at him.
âThanks, Kook.â
He only mirrors your smile and goes to sit on the swing beside you. âYou wanna go home now?â
You nibble on your bottom lip, contemplating his question. As you look around, you notice itâs so... solemn. Itâs midnight, after all. Thereâs a sort of eerie calmness with the cricket sounds but the wind is nice and the dark skies project twinkling lights.
âItâs so nice here,â You say instead.
âIâll take that as a no.â Jungkook chuckles and you follow.
You look at him and sincerely, you ask, âJust for a few minutes, please?â
Jungkookâs quick to say, âOkay.â
His voice is just as gentle as the night breeze.
âThank you.â
âItâs nothing. Youâre sobering up?â
âEh. Iâm getting there.â
âGood.â
You look at him again. âThank you.â
Jungkook sends you a confused look, but thereâs a smile on his face.
âI heard that.â
You chuckle. âAnd Iâm saying it again. Thank you.â
Jungkook shakes his head. âAlright. Youâre welcome. Times two. And youâre not allowed to say it again.â
You both laugh at the exchange. The silence that follows after that is comfortable.
âYou know, you still remember Changsub? My first boyfriend?â Jungkook nods at your words. âHe asked me to be his girlfriend at a playground. Some old one in our hometown.â You pause for a while, recalling that memory. You laugh because it was just⊠so long ago. But the pictures are still so vivid in your head.
âSweet. Too bad heâs an asshole, huh?â Jungkook comments, having known most of your relationship history.
âYeah,â You shrug, laughing still. âBut I, uhm, I remember a day after thatâ I had, like, this whole scenario in my head. I pictured a few years down the line, heâs on his knees and heâs showing me a ring asking me to be his wife on the very same playground. I thought it would be really sweet if he proposed to me at the same place.â
âWow.â Jungkook muses, and you chuckle at the reaction.
âI know. It was crazy. I mean, why the hell was I thinking about getting married at that time? I was literally only sixteen and I think I had an AP assignment due the day after that. I was just so in my head.â You say, looking at Jungkook who has a smile of amusement on his face.
And then your laughter fades.
âI was so naive that time. But then I was also naive at twenty. And JungkookâŠâ You bite your bottom lip, feeling it quiver when you look into his eyes this time. âIâm afraid that Iâm still naive at thirty.â
Jungkook calls your name softly, noticing the drop on your tone and the shift from playful to⊠melancholic.
You close your eyes and draw a deep breath.
âI like Mingyu. I really like him a lot,â And the declaration feels weird verbally announced. Youâve thought it for the past few weeks youâve been with him â but youâve both never said it to each other. Not yet. But saying it out loud now â it feels different. It feels real. And youâre so scared. âAnd we enjoy each otherâs company a lot that I feel like he likes me just as much as I like him. You know, we kissed on the first date. I donât usually kiss on the first date. But I like him so much that I did.â
You look at Jungkook sadly. You gauge the look on his face, but he just sits there with an unreadable expression on his face, though he listens. He always does. Youâre not particularly looking for any response, anyway. And he just seems to know so well that right now, you just want to vent.
âItâs so embarrassing to say but I feel like heâs it, Kook.â You swallow the lump in your throat. âAnd I feel like⊠like the last time I felt this way about someone was with Eunwoo. And that was four years agoââ You let your head fall slightly. âAnd Iâm so scared.â You donât intend the crack in your voice when you say it.
âHey,â Jungkook calls you again, turning his body towards you, reaching out to hold your arm.
âWhat if Iâm wrong? Again?â You tell him.
It takes Jungkook a few seconds to answer.
âI think, __, that youâre a person with a big heart,â You scoff with a smile on your face at that. You get that a lot. But Jungkook insists, âI think you have so much love to give, you know? And I think⊠Mingyuâs a lucky guy if he gets to receive it.â
That makes your lips curl. Touched.
âYou think so?â
Jungkook only nods.
âWhy canât you be nice to me like this all the time?â You crack a joke.
âIâm always nice to you,â Jungkook says in disbelief, obviously finding your words absurd. You only laugh but now Jungkook turns serious, and you fear you might have induced a genuine worry in him. âAm I not always nice to you?â
âYou always tease me and shit in front of our friends but so incredibly sweet when weâre all alone.â
Jungkook stutters when he says, âWell⊠thatâs my love language. Teasing you.â
You squint your eyes at him. âAwe, you love me?â
âOkay, fuck off.â
You burst into laughter when Jungkook rolls his eyes at you.
âHey, swing me.â
You tell Jungkook, situating yourself more comfortably on the wooden platform attached to the chains.
âA dollar per minute.â He says, standing up from his own seat and placing himself behind you.
âI thought you hate capitalism? What is this?â
âThis is forced labor.â Jungkook says with a groan that you think is a feigned exasperation, since you begin to feel movement right after it.
âYou broke my hairdryer the other day. Consider this your compensation.â You look up at him to give him a smarmy smile.
Fom where youâre seated, you realize just how⊠big his presence is. Itâs not the looming, ominous type, though â itâs quite the opposite. When Jungkook surrounds you, you find a bit of comfort in it â a huge one if you want to be honest to yourself.
âAnd I already bought you a new one. Weâre even.â Jungkook squints his eyes at you.
You laugh.
âYouâre gonna borrow and break it again.â
He visibly winces. âTouchĂ©.â
Jungkook swings you while you talk about your day, just like usual. He asks you about your laparoscopy that kept you from having lunch with the rest of your friends at the hospital earlier that day, about your new scrub cap, and you gossip a little about the new lab tech having a crush on the scrub nurse you both know.
For all his complaints earlier, Jungkook seemingly doesnât seem to mind having swung you for the past ten minutes now. Heâs relaxed and gentle with his movements, and his voice is quaint and soft as he talks to you.
But then you start to feel bad for him so you tell him to stop, standing up from the swing.
âOkay, your turn.â
Jungkook gives you a big grin.
âNice.â
You chuckle at his enthusiasm when he sits on the swing chair this time around. But when you attempt a push, he barely moves, prompting him to laugh.
âWhat weak ass push was that?â He says incredulously, looking at you.
You jut your bottom lip out. âYouâre heavy and Iâm drunk.â
The second time you push him is more forceful but then Jungkook voices out a complaint after the third, fourth, and every single time you do it. You roll your eyes at his tantrums, but then suddenly, you think of a much better idea.
You push him off the swing with all your remaining strength even though your body feels like jelly from all the alcohol you consumed an hour ago.
âWhat the fuck, __?â
You burst out in boisterous laughter at Jungkookâs state, his hands and knees planted on the ground. He then sits on it, clapping his palms together to get rid of some dust that gathered on his skin.
Without thinking too much about it, you make quick steps over to his direction and situate yourself beside him.
Jungkook looks at you, confused, but you only give him a grin.
âLetâs lie on the ground.â
âWhat? No!â Jungkook immediately opposes it. As you expected.
You scrunch your face. âOh! Look at me! Iâm Jeon Jungkook and Iâm a germaphobe and Iâm afraid of dirt!â You say, intentionally making your voice a pitch higher.
Jungkook deadpans. âPathogens can kill your cellsâ metabolic machinery, so, yeah? Iâm afraid of dirt.â
You roll your eyes at him and while he goes off about how they can also cause a toxic massive immune reaction, you push his chest forcefully which catches him off guard, prompting him to lay on the ground. Before he can say anything, you take his arm out to spread beside you and you use it to rest your head on.
Jungkook stops his rambling after that.
âSee, shut up.â You say, backhanding him slightly on the chest. You fix your gaze at the skies.
âThe sky is beautiful tonight. Worry about your pathogens next time.â
Jungkook chuckles, and you feel the vibration of his body as he does so, being so close to him.
As you peer up to look at him, you see him folding his other arm to lie his head on it.
You smile, going back to looking at the sky.
âThis is like in The Notebook.â Jungkook says after a beat of silence.
âRight?â You grin. âAnd with the pathogens, too.â You tease.
Jungkook laughs, pinching your arm in his reach. âGod, shut up about your pathogens.â
You chuckle at the irony.
âThatâs me,â you point upwards, referring to a big twinkling light in the sky. Then, you move your finger towards the star beside it. âAnd then thatâs you, âcause Iâm a bigger star than you.â
You feel Jungkook look at you from his position. âYou are so drunk.â
That causes you to giggle, clutching your stomach because you canât stop laughing at pretty much everything tonight.
âI feel like I'm not anymore. My head just feels like itâs floating but no, definitely not drunk.â
âWhatever you say.â Jungkook says, chest vibrating from laughing at you.
âHm. Race you to sleep, Jungkook.â You snuggle on his armpit. As you do, you smell a waft of your water lily springs body wash from Bath and Body Works. âCan you stop using my body wash?â
âWhat?â You can hear Jungkook say, but as he calls your name and more, his voice starts fading. â__? Hey, donât sleep on me.â
You hum, eyes still closed.
â__, hey!â Jungkook grazes your arms. You can feel your head moving as Jungkook starts to sit, guiding your back to sit upright. He calls you again, gently tapping your cheek to wake you up.
The truth is, youâre really sleepy, but not so much that you canât hear him anymore or move on your own.
Jungkook gives up trying to wake you up, though, convinced by your acting. Soon, he goes over in front of you, reaching for your arms and placing them around his neck.
âJust put your legs around me, yeah?â He whispers against your hair once youâre glued against his back.
You hum, intending it to sound like a mumble so Jungkook thinks you donât actually understand.
Jungkook fixes your legs around him, standing up, bouncing a little to get you nice and snug in his back. You smile at the prospect of a piggyback ride.
âI know youâre awake, silly,â He says suddenly, his voice painted with amusement.
You stifle your laughter against his neck, breaking your supposed to be convincing act.
âRace you to the car, Kook.â you whisper into his ear.
Jungkook scoffs, but he doesnât say anything more until you reach his car. He wears your seatbelt for you, though, and tells you to drink more water from his tumbler.
You fall asleep easily mid-drive.
In the morning, you wake up with a banging headache, your eyes catching the sight of a post-it note on your desk with one tab of Advil.
morning/afternoon stinky i made porridge before i left for my shift just heat it up again when you wake up ps: your medical bill from my personal care will be discussed later when i get back home. no friends discount allowed â your angelic friend, kookie
You chuckle at the (annoyingly elaborate) sketch of an angry bunny on the side.

âMingyu,â you call his attention. Mingyu turns to look at you. âThis is a really nice place.â
He smiles at your remark. Mingyu moves his hand from your waist to your lower back as he leads you to the entrance door.
âIâm glad you think so. Iâve been wanting to bring you here for a while.â
When you both reach the door, Mingyu introduces himself to the butler. You let the two of them talk for a while, him confirming his reservation, your eyes roaming around the restaurant and taking in the classy interior.
âPlease follow me, Mr. Kim and Ms. __,â
The butler gestures inside and you both follow behind him.
Itâs another one of your date nights. While it isnât unusual for you both to get fancy with dinners, youâve gotten used to the casual dinners youâve been having at his own place with take-outs and his impressive cooking.
But tonight is a little different. Thereâs a certain something in the air â especially when Mingyu especially asked you to dress a little more formally. He always has a suit on naturally with his line of work, but tonight heâs wearing a particularly shiny one. The tie is something youâve never seen before, but maybe you just like to think that. You on the other hand settled for an indigo satin dress that hugs your figure like a glove and shows just enough skin. Youâve always thought you looked good in it.
And you think itâs perfect for when Mingyu asks something that will change the trajectory of your relationship for good.
Today marks the third month since you started seeing each other. You donât know if heâs aware of it â but itâs been, indeed, whole three months. An monthsary some sort? Granted, thereâs no official label to it, at least not yet. But with the fancy set-up and the way he cryptically replied to when you asked him what the whole thing was for tonight, you think he does know. And this is his idea of surprise.
Of course, you donât let yourself get obsessed with the idea lest you end up with only mere assumptions.
âThank you.â You both say to the butler as he leads you both to your table. He gives you the menu book and you take your sweet time to choose from the selection, giving the butler your orders after a few minutes.
When he leaves, Mingyu looks at you wearing his usual charming smile.
You donât think youâll ever tire of his face.
âThis is really fancy,â You tell him, smiling.
âItâs sort of like special place,â Mingyu chuckles. âYou know, Mr. Yangâ the senior partner over at workâ officially announced me as partner here.â He tells you, eyes looking into yours.
You feel your heart do a somersault at his gaze and the possibility of his words.
âGood steak?â You say, trying to act oblivious to the weight of his confession. You also donât want to assume heâs saying what you think heâs sayingâŠ
âYeah, yeah,â He nods his head, chuckling, then his laughter fades as he begins to look more serious when he continues, âSo⊠itâs been three months since we started seeing each other.â
Your heart skips a bit when you listen to his words. You didnât think what you were thinking earlier was true, but now that heâs brought it up, you deduce you might not be too far away.
â__,â Mingyu calls. You hum, leaning in closer to let him know youâre listening attentively. He gives you a coy smile, then his hand on the table moves over towards yours. You donât fight your big smile off when he places it on top of yours, especially when you feel the warmth it radiates and how it looks like it could just easily enclose your own. âYou said you wanted to take things slow, and I respect that. I just want you to know that this is â this thing between us â itâs serious for me.â
âIâm serious about us two.â You say immediately.
Mingyu chuckles, simpering when he looks at you again. âIâm glad weâre on the same page.â
âSo?â You ask, waiting.
âI want to be your boyfriend. If you let me.â Mingyu says, clear and firm. âItâs just⊠Iâm happy with our dates. And I just love hanging out with you. But I think Iâll be even happier if we go out together as boyfriend and girlfriend â officially â from now on.â
You nibble on your bottom lip; couldnât contain the big smile youâve been fighting against since earlier.
Youâve been expecting the question ever since you got here, but youâre quite surprised for your assumptions to be right.
âOkay.â You say coolly.
Mingyu furrows his brow. âOkayâ as inâŠ?â
âOkay, as in, I wanna be your girlfriend.â
His lips part. âAre you⊠for real?â You nod your head repeatedly, stifling a giggle as Mingyu begins to smile so widely. âFuck.â
âHey,â you lightheartedly scold.
Mingyu nods his head, still smiling. âIâm sorry, Iâm justââ he cuts himself off with a chuckle. âYouâre my girlfriend now.â
âYeah.â You chuckle.
âI wish I can kiss you right now.â
You feel your cheeks heat up as you look around. There are too many people. But the hopeless romantic in you tells you itâs okay.
âWhy wonât you?â You challenge him, and Mingyu arches a brow at that.
He looks like heâs giving in, but then he shakes his head. With a smile that borders on flirtatious, he leans closer to you and whispers, âLater.â

Mingyuâs sweet promise at the restaurant ends up with you straddling his lap on the driverâs seat, your dress riding over your thighs and the thin straps falling off your shoulder.
"Fuck," Mingyu breathes in your ear, hands full of your ass while you continue to grind against the bulging crotch of his slacks.
You're not any better, panting on the crook of his neck as he encourages you to move on top of him. You feel the wet kisses he bestows across the column of your neck, moaning at the delicious friction from one particular thrust of his hips.
It wasnât supposed to be like this, in your defense. Your dinner ended on a really good note and Mingyu was just supposed to lean in for one sweet kiss once you were situated in his car.
But then you swiped your tongue over his lips and Mingyu threw away his gentlemanly act for the night, granting you back with a kiss that had more fervor in it. Forceful in a way that says he wants you.
And the feelingâs more than mutual.
His coatâs long gone now, stashed away on his back seat, and youâve already undone the top three buttons of his dress shirt. Mingyu squeezes your boob over the thin material of your dress, prompting you to let out a low moan.
âWhyââ Mingyu cuts himself off to kiss your lips one more time.
âWhy donât we go to your place?â
You donât register his words the first time, too drunk from the sensation of his touch over your body.
âYeah?â You mindlessly say, eyes shut as Mingyu peppers kisses to your jaw down to your neck once again.
âYouâve never invited me to your place.â
At that, your eyes open and you still on top of him.
âWhat?â
Mingyu looks up, and youâre about to be distracted by his messy hair and his swollen lips but then he says, âWeâve never gone to your place before.â
âOh.â
Heâs quick to gauge your reaction. Cupping your jaw, he plants a kiss to the side of your lips. âIâm not insisting if you donât want to.â
âN-no, I want to,â is your immediate response. âItâs justâŠâ you trail off, thinking about how to approach the subject.
Mingyu hums, waiting for your next words, rubbing his thumb over your cheek. It helps you regulate your nervousness at the sudden mention of your place.
âI have a roommate.â
There you let it out.
Somehow in the past three months youâve been dating, you never mentioned that youâre living with Jungkook. The subject just never came up â until now, that is â and you didnât really feel the need to tell him when he never asked in the first place.
But deep inside, youâre a bit hesitant to tell him about it. Sure, Jungkookâs his friend, and Mingyu did say they were close and knew each other well, so it shouldnât be a problem for him that youâre residing with his close friend â but thatâs exactly what makes the whole thing weird. Itâs one thing as a woman to live with a man in one place, and itâs another if that man is a friend of your â well, now boyfriend.
And you know to yourself that you and Jungkook are purely platonic so there should be absolutely nothing to be worried about. Itâs not even that you donât trust Mingyu to understand â itâs just that itâs not as easy to tell him straight up. Not when youâre just starting a relationship right now with an official label to it â not when youâre finally in a serious relationship after four whole years of looking and waiting.
You donât want to ruin it. Not right now.
âOh, okay.â Mingyu nods at your confession, understanding. âIs it whyâŠ?â
You nod your head, already getting what he means. Licking your lips, you look anywhere but his eyes. Instead, you focus your gaze on the exposed upper part of his chest and let your fingers toy with his collar. Mingyu lets you.
âBut⊠roommateâs away for the night.â You tell him. And itâs true. Jungkook told you he has a date tonight and that usually means he wonât be going home.
And you want Mingyu so bad itâs not even funny anymore.
That puts a smile on your boyfriendâs face.
âShe is, huh?â
Your heart skips a bit, and you give him a smile you hope he doesnât recognize as fake.
Somehow, you donât bother to correct him even though Jungkook â your very roommate â is most definitely not a she.

âAnd here goes my bedroom,â You say as you open your door, letting Mingyu in. Youâre not really worried about its state because thank god you cleaned up before leaving for your date tonight. Jungkookâs the cleaner one though, and thatâs an advantage because heâs kind of obsessed with cleaning the whole apartment and not just his room when he has the time. Itâs exactly why Mingyu pays you a compliment on the neatness of the place.
âCute,â he muses, looking at the Sanrio plushies on your nightstand.
âYeah.â You nod, feeling a little shy. Mingyuâs place is the definition of bachelor â his bedroomâs literally out of an Architectural Digest page. And while youâre proud of your Sanrio plushie collection â theyâre your childhood gifts and youâve collected them until college and they were expensive as hell â you canât help but think that maybe youâre coming off as childish right now. You wish you couldâve hidden them or somethingâŠ
You hope Mingyu doesnât think too much about it.
âI like the room,â Mingyu says, looking at you whoâs sitting on the edge of your bed. âIt feels very⊠you.â
âReally?â You chuckle. âI mean, Iâd hope so. Iâve been here for two years.â
Mingyu chuckles, following you to the bed. You feel the mattress sinking in when he sits beside you.
âI wanted to give you something at the restaurant earlier, but I kinda chickened out,â He says.
You arch your brow. âWhat is it?â
You watch as Mingyu takes something out of his pocket, your heart skipping a few beats when it turns out to be a jewelry box. Mingyu looks at you and smiles, hands slowly opening the velvet box, and your lips part when it reveals a dainty silver necklace with a small drop diamond pendant.
âWow.â You utter, eyes blinking repeatedly, not knowing how to react.
âWellâŠ?â Mingyu says, gauging your reaction.
âYouâre giving that to me?â You ask in pure disbelief. He only nods. âThatâs reallyâ itâs really pretty.â
âI thought about you when I picked it up. It made sense.â He says smoothly, and you giggle at his words.
God, you like him so much.
âI honestly donât know what to say,â You chuckle, cupping your face with your hands as if it could make the blood go away from your cheeks. âThank you.â
âIâd love to wear it on you.â Mingyu smiles.
âOf course.â
He takes out the necklace from the box and asks you to turn around for a bit. You do so, helping him put your hair over one shoulder. You can feel him scooting closer to your back, his breathing on your nape, and the way he slowly caresses your shoulder first before his arms go around your neck to lock the necklace around your nape.
The cold of the material hits your skin, just on time when you feel Mingyu planting a kiss on your clavicle.
âItâs really pretty.â You say in awe, touching the pendant.
âHm,â Mingyu continues to pepper your skin with small kisses. âYouâre beautiful.â You turn to look at him, smiling. He mirrors that and cups your jaw to give you a peck on the lips. âGod, youâre so fucking beautiful.â
You giggle when he squeezes your waist.
âThank you.â you say in between your laughter. You hold his arms and stand up from the bed to place yourself in front of him. Mingyu looks up at you with one brow raised, but heâs quick to manspread when you begin to straddle his lap. As you situate yourself on top of him, you wrap your arms around his neck and let him run his hands across your body when you do so. âI really appreciate the necklace.â
âYeah?â Mingyu whispers against your lips.
You hum, trailing your fingers down his collar then start to unbutton his shirt. When you get the few undone, you look Mingyu into his eyes and he meets your lips that crash into his in a few seconds.
You suppose itâs not exactly surprising that the kiss turns heated way too quickly. After all, you were both humping each other in his car earlier.
Sighing into the kiss, you tug at his hair, and it prompts his hands to squeeze your ass a little too tight. Mingyu breaks the kiss and thereâs a barely noticeable string of saliva when your lips move away from each other. He trails kisses from your jaw down to the base of your neck, taking the straps of your dress down, hands beginning to rub your bare arms.
âSo beautiful,â Mingyu sighs, lips travelling back to your own. He prods his tongue in your mouth that you gladly open for him. You let out a moan from the sensation of his tongue against yours, clutching his shoulders so hard you're sure you're gonna imprint your nails on his skin despite the shirt he still has on.
"Mingyu," you whisper, mouth ajar and gaping uselessly against his hair as his mouth leaves yours eventually to go down to your cleavage. His wandering fingers go around your back to fumble with the ribbons that are holding the dress, and youâre quick to help him tug it down completely until your chest is out for his full viewing.
Mingyu hisses at the lack of bra â except the nipple tapes â when the top of the dress comes off. He stops and stares, then takes a long and deep breath, as if the sight of your breasts intoxicated him; sighing as if he's long wished to see you like this.
"Fuck, sweetheart, you're so hot." He cups the swell of your chest in his two large palms, fondling them as you continue rolling your pelvis against his straining crotch area. He grazes the silicon material covering your nipples, looks up at you as if to ask.
âY-yeah,â you sigh out, knowing what he meant with the look.
Taking them off gently, Mingyu earns a moan from you, the sound getting a bit louder when he puts one of the two peaks in his mouth, and the sight is nothing short of erotic.
It elicits a sharp breath from you, hands flying to his soft and brunette locks. You almost feel bad thinking that you've been grabbing at them since earlier.
But you have more important things to mind than attending to Mingyuâs silky and healthy hair.
You seek for his lips which he gives you almost automatically when he notices you asking for it, the two of you meeting in a hungry kiss, your nails on one hand clawing at his back as you cup his jaw in the other. But his hands don't leave your breasts, palming them roughly but just right; squeezing so hard all the while tugging at your nipples.
For a moment, you take a halt, catching your breath and look at him with your hooded eyes. You kiss the corner of his mouth. "Take your shirt off."
He does as you say so, and you help him unbutton the entirety of his dress shirt to get the thing off him faster. Mingyu lets go of your boobs but quickly holds them as soon as his shirt is off. This time he flicks at both your nipples, and you canât help but bite at his neck. The pleasureâs too much and you can feel yourself dripping down your thong, the sticky feeling of it making you squirm on his lap.
As if Mingyu has read your mind, he grips your waist and sets you down on the bed. He hovers over you, fingers idly exploring under the skirt of your dress until he finds the band of your panties.
You groan when you feel the cold brush of air on your bare thighs, suddenly feeling impatient. "Mingyu,"
âYou want me to eat you out?â He whispers, pressing a quick kiss to your lips.
You almost cry at his question.
âYes,â
Mingyu drags his fingers on your clothed core, groaning when he feels how soiled your thong is. "You're so fucking wet, sweetheart. Look at you," he sighs, hands leaving your pussy as he leans back and palms the strain of his pants. Your toes curl at the sight, uneven breaths puffing from your lips. "Look so sweet under me."Â Â
And you're also a mess under him, writhing and completely getting lightheaded from his actions.
You let out a mewl when he pushes up the skirt of your dress to your hips, dragging down your underwear to your thighs.
Lifting your butt off the mattress, you help him get it off of you completely and you don't miss the way the flimsy thong sticks to your pussy before he takes it off you entirely. Mingyu seems to notice as well, judging from the way he hissed under his breath.
Your pussy is slick and sloppy, wet and dripping for him.
"So fucking pretty for me, god, I canât believe I get to have you like this," he whispers against your throbbing heat, leaving a small kiss on your clit.
You arch your back when he uses his finger to run it through your slit, adding another one to spread your walls. Mingyu groans at the juices that stick to his digits.
As he adjusts himself on the mattress, hands gripping the back of your knees, you push them up until you're bended in almost half. You hold up your own legs, getting whiplashed when he licks a long, firm and deep stripe over you, making your eyes roll from the back of your head, breath hitching as you keep yourself steady in your own hold.
"Oh my god â Mingyu!â"
He starts slow, kissing around your labia, the tip of his tongue teasing your clit. Your head falls from the mountain of pillows under you, suddenly feeling frustrated.
"S-stop teasing me. Please, Mingyu,"
Ending your misery, he spreads your thighs, puckers his lips and dusts a few pecks over your bare heat and dives in for it seconds later with too much fervor. He savors every drop that oozes out from your hole, licking and lapping until you feel his tongue inside you. Mingyu could be spelling out his name for all it matters, but you really couldn't give a fuck.
"Oh, fuuuuckâ" you groan, trying so hard to keep yourself steady. "S-so good,"
He hums in your pussy, and you don't help the way one of your legs drop to the mattress, the other one hooking on his shoulder. It makes you grab for his hair, pushing his head down and thrashing underneath his face.
It felt like minutes passed and you're almost crying by how good it all feels, his tongue doing wonders in the walls of your heat.
Soon, tears start to well in your eyes because of the pleasure, drawn out moans and heavy breaths filling the room. You couldnât care less about the volume. Right now, you just want to cum.
"Your fingers, Mingyu,â You sigh out, and before you could even prepare yourself, he's inserting his middle finger inside you, pushing it in until it's knuckle-deep. "Oh god!"
âYeah?â
He starts at an average pace until he adds another finger in your entrance, this time picking up his speed â and it makes you drip everywhere.
When he settles on scissoring his fingers inside you, moving at an abnormal pace that have you gasping under him, your body shake and your toes curl on the sheets. Mingyu swoops down to kiss your pussy again, two digits being repeatedly swallowed by your warm hole, slurping every juice that comes out of it. As he feels you tremble, the precedence of you nearing your climax, he takes his thumb to your clit.
"Oh, fuck, fuck," your pant, "I'm comingâfuckââ
Mingyu removes his fingers from you, exchanging them with his tongue instead and you cry out while he continues to rub your clit vigorously.
And when you arch your back higher this time, you spasm around his fingers, moaning uncontrollably.
âThatâs it, sweetheart, thatâs it,â Mingyu whispers, pecking your heat a few more times to calm you down from your high. After a few moments, he removes your thigh from his shoulder, quickly coming up to kiss you on the mouth.
You taste yourself on his tongue but you couldnât pay much attention to it when you feel his dick against your thigh. Closing your eyes, you let exhaustion wash over you.
Mingyu lets you stay still, and when you open your eyes again, you see him staring at you with a warm smile dancing across his lips. Your heart skips a beat, could no longer feel it but hear it instead, and you bite your lip, pushing his chest away slightly in an attempt to get on top of him.
âLet me suck your cock.â You say, but Mingyu shakes his head, firm on his place: on top of you.
âLetâs do that next time. Tonight, I have to fuck you well into the next day.â
And he does.
You didn't cum again â you usually don't from penetrative sex â and your first orgasm exhausted you way too much to let yourself go the second time. Mingyu didn't mind, telling you it was fine when you gave him an apology about it.

You wake up panicking at the thought that youâre going to be late for work.
Scrambling to sit on your bed, you take your alarm clock in your hands, letting out a dramatic âThank godâ when you see it read as 5:06am. Your alarm goes off at 5:30 as your weekday shift starts at seven.
Which means itâs still early. And youâre not going to be late for work like you feared.
You remember last nightâs events though, and your eyes quickly go over to the other side of your bed.
Mingyuâs not in it â but it feels warm. An indication of the fact that he stayed the night over after what you did. You also deduced that he mustâve only gotten out a few minutes before you woke up.
Thinking heâs outside your room, you begin to stand up â groaning the way your thighs ache a bit as you do so. Youâre only dressed in your panties and camisole, and you thought about going out in them â but then it made you feel a little weird. Okay, sure, Mingyuâs already seen everything there is to see â you had sex last night â but being naked in a non-sexual fashion in front of someone is kind of a little different, so you opt on putting on a pair of short shorts.
As you head towards your door, fingers ready to twist the knob, youâre surprised to see Mingyu meeting you halfway.
âHeyââ
âWhy the hell is Jungkook here?â
Your smile drops and you look at him in confusion.
Mingyu wears an expression youâve never seen him in before. Heâs pissed. Eyebrows furrowed, gaze not soft like it usually is when it comes to you, and above all⊠his tone borders on accusatory.
âWhy is he in the living room saying heâs your roommate?â Mingyu asks once again when you donât say anything.
âIââ but youâre rendered speechless, frozen in your position. Your mouth moves but nothing comes out. Your brain is a jumble of thoughts and all you can think about is Mingyu seemingly getting mad at you.
â__?â A voice thatâs absolutely familiar speaks up. You hear Jungkookâs steps getting closer to your door when he finally shows himself to you. âWhatâs Mingyu doing here? And why doesnât he know we live together?â
Mingyu forces himself inside your bedroom and bumps into you a bit as he faces you with a venomous tone. âIâm going.â He declares, grabbing his shirt from your desk chair and putting on his belt.
âMingyu, itâs notââ
âSave it, __.â He cuts you off before you can finish your sentence, hastily buttoning up his dress shirt.
Jungkook frowns and butts in. âMingyu, let her talk. I told you earlier, weâre roommatesââ
âJeon,â You turn to look at him, almost spitting out his name. âNot now.â
You see Jungkook visibly recoiling at that. But youâre too concerned over Mingyu already on his way out the door, ready to leave.
âMingyu, just hear me out.â You say, looking at him sincerely.
âI donât wanna hear it. Not right now.â Mingyu tells you with a cold look paired with a cold tone. You deflate, taken aback at how nothing on his face screams like he cares about you. He glances at his watch. âI have to go to work.â
He heads towards your apartment door and you follow him there, hoping to change his mind about hearing you out.
âI know what youâre thinking right now, and itâs not that, Gyu.â You tell him once again, following him outside your unit.
Mingyu stands there for a while. Then, he sighs, putting his thumb over his temple. He heaves out a breath, looking into your eyes as he says, âI just donât want to talk about it right now, okay? Letâs just⊠let things cool down for a bit.â
You swallow the lump in your throat. âHow do you mean?â
âIâm flying to Chicago this afternoon but Iâll be back in the evening. Iâll call you later after work.â He says, and now his face doesnât look so devoid of emotions like how it was earlier.
But you worry about his words.
âYouâre flying to another state.â You reiterate, just so you know you heard him right.
âItâs just for a few hours, sweetheart,â The petname soothes you a little but then he continues to add, âLook, Iâm not sure of how I feel about⊠Jungkook being your roommate. You didnât tell me about itâ just imagine my surprise when I saw him after I went out of your room. Itâs not a nice feeling to get lied to,â He says, and you feel an arrow shooting straight to your heart at that. You blink your eyes, feeling like there are tears forming on the sides. Mingyu seems to notice that as he steps closer to you and rubs your arm. âWeâll talk later, __. Just not now. Give me time to process this.â
You give him a weak smile.
Mingyu cups your cheek, and you lean towards his touch. Rubbing a thumb over your skin, he leans down to kiss your lips.
When he breaks away after a quick moment, he tells you, âLater, hm? I promise.â You nod. Mingyu gives you a smile. âAnd thank you for last night.â
That erases your worry. Not all, but some of it.
âThank you too.â
âAlright, Iâm going, okay?â Mingyu lets go of your face and you look at him as he turns around after you bid your goodbye.
You watch his retreating back in the hallway from your position, nibbling on your bottom lip trying to process the turn of events â and itâs only five fucking am still.
When you enter your apartment again, you see Jungkook sitting on the couch of your living room. And he looks just as pissed when your gaze falls to him.
âWhat the hell was that?â He welcomes you with.
âWhat the hell is this?â You point back at him. âYou told me you werenât coming home.â
âYeah, but I have work â which we both go to at the same time, by the way. Apparently, youâre bringing boys now to this goddamn place.â
You do a double take at his tone.
âWhat the fuck do you mean by that?â You say, voicing starting to pick up volume. You feel irritation bubbling up inside you as Jungkook stands up from the couch and turns his back to you, ignoring your question as he heads to the direction of the kitchen.
âI said weâre both gonna be late for work.â
You follow his steps. âNo, you said Iâm âbringing boys hereâ, what do you mean by that?â You grab his arm and thatâs effective enough to make him turn around and look at you. But he avoids eye contact. âDonât turn your back to me when Iâm talking to you, Jungkook.â
âIâm so sorry then, Iâll make sure to look into your eyes when I say every word that comes out of my mouth from now on.â He sarcastically says, and your annoyance grows.
âWatch your goddamn tone.â
Jungkook scoffs. âYouâre the one to talk about watching tones when you literally just told me to shut up in front of your boyfriend?â
Your frown instantly. So you were right to think that moved him a little. But you tell him your confusion, âWhere the hell did you get that? I didnât tell you to shut up.â
âYeah, you just told me ânot nowâ like Iâm a child trying to insert himself in mommy and daddyâs little argument. You might as well just have told me to shut the fuck up.â
The way he phrased your argument with Mingyu âlittleâ rubs you off the wrong way.
âOh, I am so sorry,â you sarcastically say. âDid getting told to shut up by a woman in front of another man hurt your big macho man ego?âÂ
âYouâre making it about another thing.â Jungkook rolls his eyes, opening the refrigerator and taking out a loaf of bread.
âYou think I forgot about your little âbringing boys hereâ comment?â You point out, but Jungkook decides now is the time to be an asshole and starts acting nonchalant instead, putting jam all over his bread. But you see the tick in his jaw, the tongue prodding against his mouth. Heâs just as pissed as you are right now.
âAnd you sure as hell did. I donât know what to tell you.â
You seethe. âFuck you. I donât bring âboysâ here. Mingyuâs my boyfriend,â You say, and to be petty, you add, âAs if youâve never ever brought girls here before?â
Jungkook looks at you instantly. âDonât you dare pin that on me. That was in the very first week that we lived together, mind you. But you told me how uncomfortable it made you feel and I thought about boundaries since then and never did it again. Why do you think I come over at their place instead of just hanging out here, huh, __? Even when we didnât verbally agree on not having sex around this place, I thought it would be a goddamn principle. Heck,â He looks somewhere and scoffs, âMingyu didnât even know Iâm your roommate. What did you tell him?â
You open your mouth to make a rebuttal, but nothing comes.
Because you realize in the middle of his outburst that⊠heâs right.
The first time that you saw a woman coming out of his own room and Jungkook noticing your discomfort about it, he just stopped doing his⊠thing in the apartment. It wasnât a verbal agreement, as per his words, but heâs right. It should have been a principle.
In the past two years you lived with each other â that was the only time he ever did it. It became an unspoken rule: donât bring your hook-ups here. But you never really had to worry about that unspoken rule because you didnât do one-night-stands often, and when you did hook up with people over the past two years, it was rare so it was easy to do it in their place.
It has become a norm for you that you donât see other people here anymore except for your friends when they invite themselves over â but you arenât aware that Jungkookâs apparently making an active choice to specifically not hook up in here this whole time.
Coupled with the fact that you didnât tell Mingyu about him being your roommate and him being caught up with your argument earlier â you feel a sense of guilt. A huge one at that.
But the stubborn part in you thinks that Mingyuâs different. Heâs not a mere hook-up. Heâs your boyfriend now! Couldnât that be an exemption to the rule thatâs unspoken in the first place?
âIâŠâ you trail off, scolding yourself internally for not forming a coherent thought faster than youâd like.
When you donât follow it up with anything, Jungkook takes his plate with him, turning on his heels away from you.
âSee you at work.â He says, but itâs sarcastic and clipped.
Jungkook leaves one piece of bread for you though â just like he always does. And you take that as a sign that heâs not all that mad at you.
⊠Maybe?
You stand there in the middle of your kitchen island like some stupid stoned individual, going over the things that happened for the past â what â twenty minutes? You donât even fucking know. Your wall clock in the living room had run out of battery, and your brain is too occupied with messy thoughts scattered all around you can feel a headache coming.
One thingâs for sure, though: youâre in the wrong. With Mingyu and with Jungkook. And you need to make it right somehow.

PART TWO | PART THREE

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the night before ïœĄïœ„:*Ë:â§ïœĄ



pairing: rafe cameron x sweetheart!reader
summary: rafe comes home from work on christmas eve to his very excited girl
c/w: fluff, not a whole lot just lots of soft and cute rafe and reader
authorâs note: welcome to my first ârafemasâ fic!!! make sure to get your requests in my lovelies!!
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an instant smile came to your face as you woke. snow settled outside, the comfort of the fluffy blankets and rafeâs arms wrapped around you making your heart feel warm.
you let out an excited squeak as your feet rubbed together under the covers, realising today was christmas eve. a soft groan sounded in your ear as rafe woke with your movements, âgo back tâsleep baby.â he mumbled in your ear as his grip tightened around your waist, âi canât sleep rafey itâs christmas eve!!â
you turned around in his arms so that you could face him, âand i need to be at work in an hour, was gonna leave you in bed to rest.â he said as he placed short sweet kisses on your lips.
ânooo you canât leave me on christmas eve! what am i gonna do all day?â you pouted as he chuckled, âsure youâll think of somethinâ angel, make some cookies, watch filmsâŠâ you hummed but was still upset that rafe had to work, âpromise me that youâll be christmassy with me when you get home?â
you stared up at him with those big doe eyes and he melted, âcourse i will baby, anything you want. promise,â he placed a final kiss on the tip of your nose before climbing out of bed and going to the bathroom.
you rolled over into rafeâs side of the bed, taking in his scent on the pillow and smiling, wrapping more blankets around yourself.
rafe comes back in to get dressed and places a soft kiss on your forehead, admiring your adorable sleeping form for a moment before heading out of the door.
you wake up not long after and head straight in the shower, washing your body with your new cinnamon and peppermint flavour body wash, and shampooing your hair. after rinsing out the conditioner, you put your new leave in honey hair mask which smelt like heaven.
after moisturising and getting into your new christmas pjâs, you headed downstairs and lit all the nice smelling candles, the scents of pinewood, cinnamon and peppermint filling the house.
you laid out your christmas cook books and began getting the supplies out to make cinnamon rolls to start with, mixing the ingredients together to make the dough nice and fluffy. you had christmas songs playing softly in the background as you danced around the kitchen.
once you had baked the rolls and pulled them out of the oven, you smiled and clapped your hands as they came out perfectly. carefully spreading the icing on top that made them look so delicious, licking the spoon (which rafe always told you off for) and smiling at your success.
you spent the rest of the day pottering around the house, cleaning every surface possible and making sure the decorations were perfect. before settling down on the couch with a hot chocolate and putting on your favourite christmas film, warm blankets covering your frame.
you were dozing off slightly when you heard the key turn in the door, followed by quiet footsteps that got closer to you. you peeked open your eyes to see rafe hovering over your head with a soft smile on his lips, âhey angel.â he dipped his head down to place a kiss on your lips, making you smile.
âhi rafey.â you snuggled closer into the blankets as you watched rafe take off his coat and shoes, before joining you on the sofa. nuzzling his head into your neck and whispering, âmm smell so good baby.â you ran your nails across his buzzed hair as you smiled, âthanks rafey, my new gingerbread and vanilla body lotion.â
you giggled as rafe inhaled the sweet smell again, âoh yeah?â he placed soft kisses on the skin of your neck. the film on the tv was just finishing as you tapped rafeâs cheek, âmake gingerbread men with me?â you smiled sweetly at him as he sighed.
âcâmon then,â he gave into you as you squealed, âyou need to get into your pyjamas!! i got us matching.â he sighed as he took in your excitement, âall right, all right. one sec baby,â he ran upstairs and when he returned you had the biggest smile on your face, rafe wrapping his arms around your waist as he kissed you.
âsâgood job i love you,â he mumbled as you pecked his cheek before dragging him to the kitchen, showing rafe how to make the gingerbread biscuits.
the christmas music was turned up louder now that you could enjoy the songs with rafe, singing at the top of your lungs as rafe chuckled at your behaviour.
he lived for moments like this, never in his wildest dreams would he have imagined his life turning out like this.
after you and rafe had decorated the gingerbread men, you saved some of them for tomorrow whilst you both shared the rest whilst watching another christmas film.
both of you had never been happier, wrapped in each others arms and covered with fluffy blankets. the tree lights glowing in front of you as the house looked so christmassy and cozy.
best christmas ever.
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đđđâđ đđđđđ đđđ đđđđ đđ | J.JK
â part 1
â pairing | fem!oc x dealer!jjk
â summary | after a petty argument jungkook spots you showing out at a party with the hosts arm around your waist
â warning | bad writing (iâm doing my best)
unprotected sex, toxic fwb, lots cursing, jealousy, angst, ratchet behavior, dirty talk, angry sex, belittling, drinking, smokingđ, womanizer behavior, breeding kink, both đ©đ© , daddy kink, degrading, slapping (face), false accusations, double standards
â word count | 6.2k words
â song suggestion | love you like me â william singe
He was blocked once again.
He didnât even know for what this time.
Well, he had a good idea.
Running his mouth again. They always argued and he was always blocked and unblocked.
This time he think he actually irritated you.
âGoddamnit Y/n.â He cursed. He pissed you off once again but now his number and his Instagram was both blocked by you.
For some reason this time irked him more than the others.
âYouâre still stressing over that girl?â Jimin plopped on the couch next to him.
âI canât believe you still fuckin on her.â Taehyung walked in, taking a seat on the couch too.
âThatâs my girl yaâll know that.â Jungkook bit his lip, staring at his blank phone screen.
âYou need to get like how you used to. 3 or more at a time. Always.â Jimin spoke, âYou used to be like that. You used to make fun of guys like you. Now youâre giving out free shit to some girl.â
âI mean he does get pussy from it but like, only her bro?â Taehyung looked at Jungkook. âYou used to have all these girls on you. Stephanie, Nari, Seunghee, Belle, Maya⊠What happened to you man?â
Jungkook thought about what they said. âShits just different now.â
âOh my gosh sheâs ruined you.â Jimin groaned. âNah man. Weâre going to a Jackson party.â
âHeâs having a party?â Jungkook looked up from his phone. âWhy havenât I heard anything about it?â
âBecause youâre too busy stressinâ about some bitch.â Jimin shook his head.
Before Jungkook could correct him, Jimin corrected himself. âSome girl. Before you start.â
âAnyway, itâs tonight.â Taehyung spoke.
âSo bring whatever cash you got and weâre definitely gonna send you home with a girl or two.â Jimin swung his arm around his shoulder.
âOh shit I think sheâs posting about you Jeon!â Taehyung was on her phone, immediately making Jungkookâs head snap over.
âReally?!â
âNo man.â He laughed. âWe really gotta get you more girls. You need more pussy than just her.â
âYeah, no more Y/n.â Jimin shook his head.
âWhatever.â
àŒâ
âIâm so jealous.â Seungyeon swooned over the text messages on your phone.
âI donât see why. This looks annoying as hell.â Elkie rolled her eyes.
Jungkookđ
Wyd
Lemme come over
I got shit for you and your friends
Omg fucking answer
Youâre mad annoying
I ainât even mean what I said fr just reply đ
âI think itâs cute. And hilarious.â Seungyeon chuckled. âWhat made you block him this time?â
âHe was bragging about how many girls he sells to. How theyâre all pretty and thick as hell. So I just said âcoolâ and blocked him.â You shrugged.
You and your friends had been getting ready for hours for a Jackson Wang party they had personally been invited to.
âYou better not hope he doesnât pull up tonight.â Elkie spoke.
âYeah Y/n. Taehyungâs going and Iâm sure theyâll try to convince him.â Seungyeon told her.
âHeâs probably too busy getting high in his room.â Elkie replied. âOr selling in the east side.â
âWouldnât doubt it.â You shook your head. âI kinda do wish he would be there though.â
âIs his dick really that good?â Elkie asked you as she was baking her makeup.
âUnfortunately it is. Like, real good.â You started to get flashbacks.
âHere she goes.â Seungyeon rolled her eyes.
âHe fucks me sooo good yall donât get it.â You began. âEven though heâs annoying and shit Iâve never had dick like his. Once we started recording our shit I canât stop rewatching.â
âYou arenât worried heâll show people?â Elkie asked.
âTheyâre all on my phone. He only has a few. Even if he does show his homeboys itâs whatever. Heâs damn near louder than me anyway.â You told her.
Your phone went off, making you look over at it to see the notification.
kplugđ has added you on Snapchat
âOh my gosh.â You said out loud, immediately making the girls look over.
âHe fucking added you on Snapchat!â Elkie laughed out loud, âHeâs crazyâ
âAnd on his plug account?â Seungyeonâs eyes widened. âHeâs obsessed.ïżœïżœ
âWhat can I say? This pussy makes him insane.â You jokingly boasted.
âDid you add him back?â Seungyeon asked.
âNah not yet. Iâll wait until Iâm almost done getting ready.â You tossed your phone on your bed.
âYeah thatâll be better.â Elkie nodded.
âUgh I need to hurry anyway. Iâm tryna look good tonight.â You groaned, looking at your barely half done makeup.
No matter what it was, you loved to look good. You were a confident woman who took pride in her appearance.
Tonight mattered. You hadnât took good pictures in quite some time and Jacksonâs party was the best place to take them at.
You had just changed up your hair last night. You had a brown base with blonde highlights. And for tonight you decided to add gold and bronze tinsel to elevate your look.
Your friends always had the same energy, wanting to look as good as they could even if it was a simple occasion.
Seungyeon and Elkie definitely showed out with you tonight.
You all had skimpier outfits on tonight. You were a low cut brown latex top with a matching black mini skirt.
Your heels were black and the strings wrapped up around your mid calf. You sprayed your expensive perfume all over, making sure you smelt as good as you looked.
Your makeup was finally done for the night and it couldnât have looked better. You looked incredible.
The girls had taken some pre party pics in your room, posting on all social media.
âOh Y/n! Add him back.â Seungyeon told you.
You nodded, adding Jungkook back on Snapchat.
âHeâs gonna see all our videos at the party. Heâs gonna regret saying all that shit to you.â Elkie laughed. âGonna see so many dudes all up on you and start punching walls and shit.â
âHe probably already is and we havenât even left the house yet.â Seungyeon laughed with her. âThe pictures we posted right now are enough to make him tear his hair out.â
âDamn right.â You giggled. âYall got everything? Iâm about to order the Uber.â
Both girls nodded, making sure they had everything they needed.
kplugđ just sent you a snap
You looked at the notification, âHm.â You hummed to yourself, not opening his snap quite yet.
Once the uber pulled up all of the girls climbed in, taking more pictures in the backseat on the drive there.
You lived in a nice area, but nothing compared to Jacksonâs place.
The location was one of his many homes,
âJackson lives so far from us.â Elkie looked at the map on her phone.
âYeah but his area is so nice. Itâs worth it.â Seungyeon added. âI wonder how many people are gonna be there.â
âGirl you know itâs gonna be so packed we gonna have to get dropped off damn near a mile away.â You laughed.
âYou better hope Jungkook doesnât show up.â Elkie looked over at you, who was just opening his snap.
The snap was him a car, sitting in a car full of tackily dressed women right corner of him. One of the girls was taking the picture for him.
âI shouldâve just shut up.â Elkie covered her mouth. âTheyâre definitely going.â
âHeâs petty as hell!â Seungyeon looked over at your screen. âWhat does he expect you to say to that?â
âProbably nothing.â Y/n turned off the phone. âHe wants to be like that he can go right ahead.â
âYouâre so cool about it.â Seungyeon looked at her in amazement. âI wouldâve went batshit crazy.â
âIâm not trippin because Iâm not holding back at this party.â She laughed.
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âWhy would you guys do me like this?â
âYouâre so dramatic.â Jimin rolled his eyes. âWe found you a car full of girls to take to the party and youâre complaining.â
âDidnât ask for it. Yâall make me look like a charity case. I couldâve gotten plenty at Jacksonâs.â
âWhatever.â Taehyung rolled his eyes. âYou know how much play sheâs gonna get there? And youâre gonna have to watch it alllll.â
âYeah man. Youâre gonna have to watch all sorts of dudes kissing up on her and shit. Youâre gonna look like a bitch.â Jimin added.
âExactly. So let us help you bro.â Taehyung smiled. âCome on itâll be worth it. Plus, you look great man. Sheâll be unblocking you in no time.â
Jungkook and the boys got in the car full of women, instantly leeching onto them.
âHello ladiesâ Jimin greeted, buckling up.
âHiii Jiminnnâ They replied in union, almost fighting to talk to him.
One of them turned to Jungkook, immediately biting her lip. âHey Kookie.â
âHey Oliver.â He exhaled.
âItâs Oliviaâ She laughed. âYouâre likeâ so funny!â Her annoying voice rang in his ears.
âOhâ my bad.â
The girls had tried talking Jungkook the entire ride there, trying to get him to open up and talk to them.
âOuuu look at his phone.â One of the girls motioned.
âOmg look!â One was quick to snatch his phone, âHe added Y/n on Snapchat, letâs send her something!â
âYou guys should!â Taehyung added.
âNo one needs to do that!â Jungkook tried to take it back but they already snapped pictures and sent them to Y/n on his phone.
Olivia passed the phone to Taehyung who kept repeating âgive it to meâ
âTaehyung what the hell!â
âItâs for your own good!â Taehyung held onto his phone for the rest of the ride there.
àŒâ
âYep. Iâm definitely gonna get sloppy drunk.â Seungyeon announced as they walked inside Jacksonâs party.
âThereâs no way you wonât. This shits fucking cool.â Elkie looked around the home.
âšPeople everywhere and the music was booming in all corners. Girls dancing damn near naked on tables and guys dancing around with empty shot glasses.
âOh my gosh theyâre here!â One of the guys accidentally said a bit too loud, making some heads turn towards the girls.
âSeungyeon come dance with us!â
âY/n come on we already have shots for you!â
âElkie come get on the table with us!â
Multiple people were trying to holler at them in attempt to get their attention.
âYeah itâll be hard to stay sober tonight.â Elkie laughed.
âUh huh. And when Taehyung gets here Iâm dipping.â Seungyeon giggled.
âYouâre still fucking with him?!â Both girls snapped their heads.
âYâall donât get it! He is soooo fine whenever he talks to me I just wanna do whatever the hell he wants.â Seungyeon swooned.
âShe canât be serious.â Elkie looked at you. âSo let me get this straight. Youâre fucking on Taehyung and youâre fucking on Jungkook. Should I just dance with Jimin tonight? Since weâre the three musketeers all of a sudden.â
âOkay Jungkook was an accident!â You defended. âYou wanted weed didnât you!â
âCut the crap! It was one timeâ Elkie shook her head. âI canât believe you two.â
âWhatever.â Seungyeon rolled her eyes. âYou should go with me when I go talk to Taehyung. Omg! We can all hang out tonight!â
âUh, did you forget weâre not on the best terms?â You interrupted her fantasy.
âYou never are. Get over it.â Seungyeon rolled her eyes. âElkie pleaseeee.â
âI canât believe you.â Elkie kept shaking her head. âYou guys are sick.â
âWhoâs sick?â A voice interrupted them. âI donât need any illness spreading around at my party.â
âOmg Jackson!â Seungyeon gasped.
âHey ladies. Hey Y/n.â He gave you a side hug. âI knew you guys would come showing out.â
âAlways. You know us.â Elkie giggled.
Jackson knew the girls very well. Theyâve been around since his early party days, helping him promote and build up his status for the parties.
You always went above and beyond for him, offering to even financially support the parties during the time.
Now Jackson was so rich his party budget skyrocketed. All because of those girls he was able to be where he was now. He was more than grateful.
âI know. I shouldnât have expected any less.â He chuckled, âIâll tell the security upstairs about yall so donât sweat anything okay?â
âYou got new security?â You questioned him.
âFuck yeah I did. Last party the security was too drunk to even do their fucking job. I was pissed.â Jackson shook his head.
âEverythingâs all good now though,â He continued. âGotta nice new set up and itâll do yâall real good. I promise you wonât be disappointed. You ladies have fun, okay?â
âThank you Jackson.â The three girls bid their goodbyes. They didnât expect to speak to him for long, especially since he was running a huge party.
âLetâs hang out down here for a bit and then make our way up yeah?â You suggested, earning a nod from the girls.
âUnless itâs too hard for Seungyeon to keep herself away from Taehyungieâ Elkie teased her.
âOh my gosh I hate you.â Seungyeon groaned.
âSpeaking of Taehyungie,â You eyes behind her. âHere comes the man of the hour now.â
âWith a shit ton of girls at that.â
Seungyeon snapped her head his way. âOh my gosh.â
âDonât look!â Elkie turned her attention. âAct unbothered. You canât let him know you care. Like Y/n when Jungkook calls!â
âYeahâ Okay whatever.â You rolled your eyes. âBut sheâs right. Heâs with hella girls. Heâs not thinking about you right now. You canât act like youâre waiting for him.â
âLook at you miss love expert.â Elkie teased you. âLetâs get you drinking Seungyeon.â
âYes! Letâs drink! Finally.â You clapped your hands.
The girls walked off to the bar, plenty of people wanting to take shots with them.
The girls played a few drinking games and partied on tables just like the girls before you.
It would be a lie to say Jungkookâs eyes werenât locked on you.
It was just him, Taehyung, and Jungkook in their own little section, a few guys coming up to talk to them here and there.
âOh my gosh I hate you guys.â Jimin groaned. âTaehyung you canât do this to me too.â
âSheâs so bad Jimin. Iâm almost as bad as Jeon.â Taehyung stared down Seungyeon.
âI thought you wanted to drown yourself in pussy! You were hyping me and Jungkook up earlier!â
âIâm a big fat liar okay!â Taehyung folded.
Seungyeon and you were both dancing on tables, lost in your own little world with drinks in your hands.
Jungkook hadnât said anything in a minute. Simply staring.
Damn did you show out.
He watched as many guys threw themselves at you, begging you to come down so they could have a piece.
What could he expect? You were a beautiful woman blessed with a body others would pay millions for. You could actually dance and you had looks that could kill.
You were a heavily desirable woman. Especially at a party like this where everyone knew of you.
He knew you werenât gonna go home with any of these guys. None of them stood a chance.
He didnât understand how he had one if he was honest.
The way you two startedâ having intercourse was wild and random. Just a random string of flirty led to you giving it up for him.
Goddamnit he missed you. It was a petty argument like usual. Him getting blocked just to get unblocked in the morning.
This time bothered him more than the others. Especially seeing you like this.
âShoutout to these lovely ladies right here!â Jackson suddenly announced, all three girls surrounding him.
âMy day ones right hereâ He said proudly.
Jackson wrapped his arm around your waist, pecking your cheek.
Interesting.
Jungkook hadnât realized you two had become so close.
Was he the reason Jungkook wasnât unblocked yet?
âEspecially Ms. Y/n here. Shit would not be possible without her.â He spoke, making everyone cheer. âEveryone treat them well tonight alright?â
Elkie and Seungyeon cheered before Jackson walked off, finishing his announcement.
Why would it not be possible without you?
None of it made sense to Jungkook.
He downed a shot, hissing at the aftermath. It made Jimin look over.
âSomeoneâs mad.â
âShut up.â Jungkook huffed. âI have no reason to be.â
The girls were laughing together and drinking a bit more.
Seungyeon kept stealing glances at Taehyung.
âOh my gosh. Sheâs going insane.â Elkie pointed out Seungyeonâs constant tabs on Taehyung.
âAlright weâre going upstairs.â You motioned both girls to follow you to the next story.
âJimin we have to follow them.â Taehyung watched as they left to go upstairs.
The man rolled his eyes.
Jungkook looked over, seeing Jackson look over that way too.
âYeah.â Jungkook opened up his mouth. âLetâs go.â
The boys shortly followed them, heading upstairs.
This level was just as intense as the first floor. The only difference was that these people smoked a bit more than they drank.
âSo many bad bitches in here.â Jimin looked around. âNice move Tae.â
âMan who cares? Where the hell is she?â Taehyung looked over.
âGoddamnit.â Jimin cursed, forced to walk over to your friend group with Taehyung.
Jungkook wasnât too thrilled either. Especially because he didnât know how you were going to be like.
âHey Seungyeon.â Taehyung approached her, making her instantly turn her head.
Poor girl had been waiting for that man to talk to her all night.
âOh. Hey.â She kept it short, just like you and Elkie told her to.
âLet me get you and your girl friends some more drinks yeah?â He offered, making it harder to fight and say no.
âPlease.â She caved in, making everyone follow them to the bar.
âFucking great.â Jimin mumbled.
âšIt was awkward as hell. Two odd couples and two random friends all forced to hang out together.
All because of Seungyeon and Taehyung.
Taehyung got all of them drinks like he said, everyone drinking together to ease up a bit.
Taehyung and Seungyeon were lost in their own conversation.
They were so corny it was making everyone extremely nauseous.
âAre you proud of her?â Jimin shook his head, speaking to Elkie. âYour friend single-handedly ruined my friend group.â
âMy friend? Your boy here started it all.â She argued.
âLike hell he did. She took advantage of him.â He told her.
She laughed. âWhoâs the one whoâs supposed to just drop the shit off and go?â
âYou canât blame a man for just tryna get some.â Jimin shrugged. âNot his fault.â
âYouâre delusional.â Elkie rolled her eyes.
âI like how you speak to me. You wanna go make out?â
âSure.â Elkie shrugged, walking off with Jimin.
Youâve got to be kidding me.
You were alone with Jungkook.
âSo,â You began to speak. âWhich girl in the car was your favorite?â
âIs that seriously how youâre gonna start this?â Jungkook stared you down.
âHell yeah.â You chuckled. âYouâre a fucking prick. Youâre childish and youâre just down right stupid. Sending me some photo of some bitches. Made you feel so good being with other girls huh?â
Started off strong already.
âYou know what, it did. They didnât have a fucking loud mouth like you do. Didnât have to hear a bunch of bullshit every two seconds.â
âSee this is exactly why youâre blocked.â You scoffed. âYouâre a dick.â
âYou block me all the time mama.â He shrugged nonchalantly. âDoesnât mean shit.â
âProbably doesnât mean anything because youâre too busy with all those other bitches.â
âMe? Iâm not the one fucking the party host.â He argued back.
Your eyes widened at the accusation. âOh wow.â
You werenât going to deny it.
It wasnât true. You never slept with Jackson.
But Jungkook thinking that you did was enough to satisfy you.
âWeâll come back to that.â Jungkook poked the inside of his mouth with his tongue.
He was obviously very irritated.
âYouâre always so angry.â You groaned.
âBecause you just manage to strike that one nerve.â He shook his head.
âYouâre so aggressive all the time baby.â You eased him. âLetâs drink some more. Please?â
He shook his head. âTrying to sober up. Someone needs to take you home.â
âI can Uber back.â
âBy yourself?â He scoffed. âFuck no. Your friends are long gone and most likely gonna end up going home with Jimin and Tae. Who canât drive.â
He wasnât wrong.
Elkie and Seungyeon were going to town on them. The couples were drunken messes.
You agreed, continuing to drink. You two talked for a bit, somewhat civilly.
The both of you couldnât help but check each other out.
For you, that alcohol came in through your mouth and went straight to your pussy.
Jungkookâs going straight to his dick. Probably why you two always had sex whenever you hung out.
âLetâs go to Jiminâs car.â Jungkook mumbled lowly to you, making you nod.
Jungkook lets out a low whistle as you walk next to him. He couldn't help but stare at your body.
You were so fucking beautiful, he thought to himself.
The car was a bit far from the entrance. The lot was big so the parking was a bit inconvenient.
However, it was hidden well enough.
He opened the backseat car door for you, waiting for you to get in.
You could sense he was still irritated with you. It was written all over his face and you could sense it in his body language.
His anger and irritation had the opposite effect on you, making your pussy wetter than it already was.
Jungkook started the car, letting out a heavy sigh as he pulled out of the parking lot.
He glanced over at you, his eyes scanning over your body. "You know, you make me so fucking angry sometimes..." He growled, his hand reaching over to grab your thigh.
âItâs not my fault. You started it this time.â You shook your head.
"I didn't start shit," Jungkook retorted, his eyes narrowing at you. "You did. You always fucking do."
He couldn't help but get more and more irritated with you.
The idea of you and Jackson weighed heavy on him.
You were fucking Jungkook for weed. Were you fucking Jackson for drinks and party invites?
âYou did last night. Thatâs exactly why I blocked your ass. Always running your mouth.â
Jungkook's fingers tightened around the steering wheel. He couldn't believe you just said that. "You didn't have to block me. Youâre so fucking dramatic."
He snapped at you, his anger getting the best of him. "I fucking hate you sometimes."
âFine. Just drop me off right here then.â You replied, just as irritated with him now. âIâll fucking walk home.â
âYou're not fucking walking anywhere. I'll take you home." He gritted his teeth.
âWhatever. Just drive me home and you can just get rid of me after. Since thatâs what you want so bad.â You folded your arms.
He couldn't believe how much of a stubborn girl you were, but he still couldn't help feeling attracted to you. Even when you were like this. "Why are you so fucking difficult?"
He glared at you for a moment before turning his attention back to the road.
âIâm not even doing anything.â You grabbed your purse once he pulled up to your place.
It was natural for Jungkook to let himself in. He did so again, despite their arguing.
âI thought you would approach me at the party to apologize. But no, youâre just arguing with me because youâre jealous of some guy!â You huffed.
Jungkook scoffed at your words. "Jealous? Fuck no. I just don't like seeing you with other guys, that's it."
âYeah whatever.â You rolled your eyes, âYouâre annoying. Your stupid pride wonât let you just admit it.â
You lifted up the couch cushion, a small bag of pre rolls packed away.
âYou know what? Fine. I was jealous when I saw you with Jackson. Are you happy now? I fucking admitted it.
âGonna fucking smoke with me or what?â She looked at him, ignoring him. âGot your two favorite things right here. Weed and arguing.â
He ignored her, grabbing his own preroll and lighting it up with her lighter.
âThatâs all youâre gonna say?â He scoffed.
âDo you want a fucking cookie? Congrats, you actually told me the truth for once.â She took a few hits. âSo you were jealousâ
âYeah, I fucking was. I don't like seeing you with other guys Y/n. It makes me want to rip their fucking heads off." He chuckled and shook his head. "Especially him.â
âIsnât Jackson your homeboy?â
âExactly. Why the fuck would I want to be fucking on the same girl as my bro? That makes me look like a fucking loser.â He glared at you.
âWe were just catching up. Weâve known each other for mad long.â You defended.
Jungkook couldn't help but stare at you as you took a hit from the roll. He felt a surge of jealousy, but he tried to push it down.
"Just fucking catchin' up huh? With his bitch ass?" He chuckled and shook his head. "I know what kinda guy he is.â
âI know youâre not talking. Tell me, Jungkook. How many girls do you sell to that donât pay cash? Too busy selling with their bodies.â She looked at him.
âYeah? Youâre gonna fucking start this shit again?â He chuckled, anger written all over his face. âIâve told you the same shit over and over Y/n. Iâm not fucking anyone else but you.â
âCar full of sleezy bitches all climbing on you? Yeah okay. Find that fucking hard to believe.
Jungkook understands your skepticism. Especially with the type of guys he hung around.
âTell me this Jungkook.â You began, âHow come itâs an issue when Iâm with Jackson but when youâre with all these other girls Iâm just supposed to believe you.â
Jungkook leaned in, his expression more serious now. He muttered. âI donât want to do you like that.â
"I just get fucking pissed when I see other guys trying to fuck what's mine." He cocked his eyebrow.
âYouâre annoying.â
Jungkook's gaze never left yours face as you rolled your eyes. He could tell you were irritated with him, but he didn't back down.
"I'm annoying cause I don't like seeing other guys around my girl?" He raised an eyebrow.
âDonât like all these fucking guys tryna hop on you.â His eyes darkened as he stared down at you.
âI get it.â She sighed.
âMm I donât think you do.â He shook his head.
Jungkook turned you around, pushing you against the couch. "Fuck you piss me off. Youâre just so fucking sexy" He growled, pinning your hands above your head.
"You're gonna let me fuck you like this?â He looked at you. âBecause Iâm fucking angry. And Iâm not sure Iâll be able to give you that slow and lovey shit right now.â
You simply nodded. You swallowed hard, knowing exactly what was going to happen.
Weed made you horny.
Alcohol made you horny.
And you were definitely cross faded.
âFucking open your mouth.â He moved his hand, now slapping you across your cheek.
It wasnât enough to really hurt, but enough to leave a sting.
He seen your facial expression change. âNo way. You actually like that shit?â
You two always had rough and angry sex. With the amount of times you two pissed each other off, it was like second nature.
This time was different. Jungkook was livid.
âI do.â You swallowed. âN-No condom tonight please.â
This was the first time ever. You never thought those words would ever leave your lips.
You needed it bad tonight. Real bad.
âOh wow.â He laughed sarcastically. âYouâre that sick? You get onto me every fucking day for asking to hit it raw. Now you want to?â
He almost couldnât believe it. âLetting me toss you around like a fucking ragdoll. He fucking teach you about that shit?â
âN-No Jungkook.â
He slapped you once again. âDonât fucking lie to me.â
âI promise. He didnât.â You pleaded.
Jungkook let out a deep breath, knowing you submitted to him.
He moved his hand to your neck, squeezing enough for you to feel.
âFucking embarrassing me.â He slid his pants down. âGot all my fucking friends talking about you. That what you wanted?â
âN-No.â You swallowed.
He slipped your skirt up, sliding your panties to the side.
He forcefully pushed himself inside, giving you not a single warning. âYou let him fuck you raw did you?â
Staying still for a moment, knowing he would soon start fucking you with all the frustration he had in him.
âN-No I didnât Jungkook.â You honestly replied.
âNot my fucking name.â He warned.
âYou clearly wanted his attention Y/n. You think I ainât notice that shit today?â His grip on your neck got slightly tighter.
âChanged your hair. Spending money to look good for him. Didnât look in my fucking direction once. Get some new dick and you forget what you already have? Forgot about daddyâs dick?â He scoffed.
Jungkook's thrusts became more powerful, as he let out all the anger and jealousy he felt towards Jackson.
âT-Thatâs not what Iââ
Jungkook's grip tightened on your hips, as he started thrusting. "Shut the fuck up Y/n." He grumbled, as he started pounding harder.
He smacked your ass, leaving a red mark. "Didnât think youâd be this fuckinâ tight. Figured he stretched this pussy out.â
âH-He didnâtâ
âYou really have the fucking guys to speak to me right now?â He slapped her.
âMmphâ sorry daddyâ
Jungkook grinned, hearing the slight tremble in your voice.
You couldnât help but be turned on by how angry he was. How degrading he spoke to you.
Him expressing how jealous he was of Jackson definitely did a number on you.
"This.. is all yours, Y/n. It always has been." He slapped your face. "Don't.. you dare fuckin' look at him again. Donât you fuckinâ
dare question if Iâm with other bitches or not.â
âWonâtâ promise Daddyâ She apologized.
Jungkook's expression changed to an angered confusion, as you apologized. "Sorry? You think.. You fuckin' deserve my mercy?"
He hissed as he stopped thrusting, grabbed you and forced you on all four. "I'll show you fuckin' sorry."
âYou're mine to fuck. Mine to spoil. Mine to hug. Mine to love.â He grabbed your hair and pulled it back, as he started thrusting hard again. "And you just fucking gave that away?â
âNo Iâ Daddy no I didnât.â You whimpered.
Jungkook's thrusts became more violent as his anger continued to fuckin boil. "You.. You fuckin' slut," He growled and smacked your ass hard once again.
âD-Didnât fuck him.â You confessed, swallowing. âN-Never fucked him.â
Jungkook stopped thrusting, his expression was furious, he looked at you with pure shock.
"You didn't fuck him?" He repeated between gritted teeth, not entirely sure if he should believe you or not. âAre you serious?â
âN-Never fucked him.â She hit her lip.
âSo you lied?â His voice was low.
âI just never denied anything you said.â She confessed, a bit ashamed now that she was confessing out loud.
"Wow Y/n." He murmured lowly, making a pause in his thrusts, as he looked at you with confusion and shock. "And you made me do all this.â
âI-â She felt her stomach drop.
Jungkook scoffed and shook his head in disbelief. He was still holding you by the throat, a little tighter now as his cock started to thrust intensely again. "Yeah, you did.â
Jungkook grunted, his thrusts became louder and more intense, holding you tighter. "You're a fucking slut.."
He whispered in a low voice, his hand starting to squeeze around your throat. He pulled himself out a bit to slap your face.
âPulled all that just for some dick? Seriously Y/n?â He grunted into your ear.
âSo sorry Daddyâ She apologized softly, the sensual nickname slipping from her lips.
Upon hearing you call him "Daddy" his thrusts became more intense. Hearing it made him weak everytime.
A low growl sounded out from his throat again as your body was pushed back onto the bed with each thrust deeper into you.
He snickered, his hand reaching down to slap your ass cheek, hard. "You're a fucking whore.." He moans, his thrusts are so hard that he's smacking against your body. He leaned in to bite your neck.
âFinally got the dick you wanted? I canât fucking believe you pulled that shit.â He grunted, utterly shocked. âCanât fucking believe you did that.â
His thrusts became even more forceful, each hard smack against your ass echoing around you.
He moans as he bites into your shoulder, teeth grinding into your skin angrily. "Why'd you fucking lie to me?" He growls into your ear.
âWanted youâ Wanted your attention.â She whimpered. âWanted to see how you felt.â
âYeah? Thatâs how you fuckinâ wanted me to confess?â He roars out angrily, his grip tightening almost painfully.
âI-It workedâŠâ She boldly whispered.
His glare is fire as he grabs your throat, pulling you back to look into your eyes.
"You like it when I get tell you how I feel? You fuckinâ like it?â He growls out, squeezing your throat tighter for a moment before letting go.
âI liked it Daddyâ She bit her lip.
His jaw almost cracks from the intensity of his teeth grinding as he hears your response.
He begins to fuck you harder, losing his anger and going into a frenzy. "Youâre so fucking lucky I love to abuse this pussy.â
âShit feels so fuckinâ good Daddyâ Fuckâ She cursed repeatedly.
A low groan rips from his throat, feeling your walls squeezing around him at your curse. He liked when you talked dirty. âSo fucking pretty like this.â
âLying about other dudes is different for you baby..â He huffed. âYou love this dick huh baby? Tell me.â
âYes Daddyâ I fuckinâ do.â You nodded quickly.
He leans back down, biting at your bottom lip and nodding.
"That's right, you love this dick, mama. Fucking take it then." He spoke lowly, encouraging you to get more vocal and naughty while he pounds into you.
âFeels so much fucking better raw.â She rolled her eyes back. âShouldâve fucking let you months ago.â
He lets out a growl, feeling how tight your walls are on him with no condom. He nods, agreeing and liking the feeling of you raw.
"That's right mama. You ainât believe me when I said you were the only one. Shouldâve been let me hit it raw.â He chuckled. âGonna fuck you so good now though."
He's on the brink of losing it, he knows he's about to cum soon.
He looks down at you whoâs absolutely fucked dumb on his cock.
He curses, slowing down just a tad. "You fucking loving that we're doing it raw now?â
âFeels so much fucking better now. W-Want you to cum inside too.â You begged, making his eyes widened.
âAre you serious?â
âW-Want it so bad Iâ Please.â
He groans, loving the idea at your request. âPretty girl gonna let me cum inside, I couldnât ask for more.â
He speeds up a little bit, slamming into you roughly and grunting. "That's right, fucking want my cum? Wanna turn mama into more than just a nickname huh?â
He dirty talked her so good.
âMm yes Daddy yes.â She swallowed.
His eyes grow wide at the idea but he smirks while he continues to thrust into you hard, making a dirty scene in his head.
"That's right, I wanna fill your womb up with my kids, make them from your tight fucking pussy, don't fight it mama. So closeâ He mumbled in her ear.
âShit Iâm close too.â
He knows he's close too, groaning almost in pain from not cumming yet. He continues to fuck you relentlessly as you near the edge.
"Shit! Cum on my cock mama, you need to cum, you want to cum so bad don't you?"
âCumming fuckâ She immediately let go of the feeling building up in her stomach.
He's right on the edge with you, his cock swells up before he pulls out and shoots his hot load to the side of your stomach, he's not ready for kids, at least not yet.
He slumps backwards and curses. "Fucking shit.â
The two were panting on the couch, struggling to catch their breaths.
She panted. âIâm sorry for lying Jungkook. It was wrong of me to lie to you.â
He smirks and shakes his head but still looks at you with an amused expression.
"No need to apologize momma, we're fucking both dirty. Besides we both liked it didn't we?" He winks and wraps an arm around you.
âYouâre really not mad?â
âI mean it irritated me a lot when I thought you fucked him.â He sighed. âIâm just relieved now.â
âWhen I told you I havenât been with anyone else I meant it.â You told him. âThatâs not
something I would lie about. Especially after I pressed you for so long.â
âI know. When I seen him touch you like that I justâ I thought I lost you.â He looked at you. âI just kinda thought you were using me.â
âItâs not about weed for me anymore Jungkook.â You swallowed. âIt hasnât been for a while.â
âIt was never about the weed for me.â He confessed. âI just wanted to see you since the beginning.â
âYou thought that was a secret?â You couldnât help but snort.
âOkay Iâm never being vulnerable with you again.â He shook his head.
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This Christmas




Summary: LN4 + âThereâs no way Iâm letting you spend Christmas alone.â
Song: Last Christmas by Wham!
Authorâs note: Just Lando being the best boyfriend to his girl. Well done to Lando and McLaren for getting the constructor championships! Please like, reblog and share this! đ«¶
Word count: 5.8k
MASTERLIST - F1

Lando wrapped an arm around you, pulling you closer as the credits rolled on the movie you had been watching. The couch was warm, the atmosphere cozy, and even the remnants of the loud celebration from earlier felt distant.
It had been an incredible season for Lando and his team. They were the constructors' champions now, a victory that had led to a night of wild celebrations with friends and colleagues.
And here he was, still buzzing with excitement, while you tried to suppress a yawn.
âSo, what should we do over Christmas?â Lando asked, breaking the silence. His voice was laced with anticipation, as if he had been savoring the question throughout the night.
You shifted slightly, your throat still sore from cheering too much, and murmured, âI thought I should stay over at my apartment and study for my exams.â
It was a practical thought, one conditioned by years of solitary holiday experiences. A part of you felt guilty even thinking of the studying when there was so much joy around.
âStudying? On Christmas?â Landoâs brows furrowed, and his expression turned into a dramatic pout. âSo weâre staying over at yours then?â
You blinked in confusion, your heart skipping a beat at the thought. âArenât we having Christmas separately?â
Memories of past boyfriends flooded your mind, each one marked by their own traditions and expectations that rarely included you.
âGod, I hate your exes so much,â Lando muttered, his tone shifting from playful to serious in a heartbeat. âYouâve never had a good boyfriend, have you?â
You turned to him, meeting his gaze. His eyes were sincere, a vibrant green that seemed to pull you in.
âIâve never spent a holiday like that with anyone before,â you admitted quietly, biting your lip. âThey always had their own family commitments.â
Lando shook his head, clearly frustrated. âThatâs not how itâs supposed to be. Christmas is about spending time with people you care about. Itâs about making memories together.â
You couldnât help but laugh lightly, shaking your head. âAnd what about your family? Donât you want to spend it with them?â
He waved his hand dismissively. âIâll see them on Christmas Eve. But Christmas Day? It should be with you. I want you with me. We can have breakfast together, open gifts, maybe even start our own traditions if you want.â
He nudged closer, his brow furrowed in genuine concern. âYou deserve that kind of love and happiness.â
His words warmed you, sparking something inside you that had been buried for so long. âYou really mean that?â you asked, searching his eyes for any hint of doubt.
âAbsolutely,â he replied, his voice steady and unwavering. âI want to make you feel everything your exes never made you feel. You deserve to feel cherished and loved, especially during the holidays.â
You couldnât help but smile at his sincerity. âOkay, letâs do it,â you said softly. âIt sounds perfect.â
As the realization settled in, a jolt of excitement coursed through you. This would be your first holiday together, the first time you could allow yourself to build a beautiful memory rather than keeping your emotional barriers up.
âAwesome! What do you want to do? Should we decorate? I know Iâm not the best when it comes to that kind of thing, but I can try,â He grinned broadly, his enthusiasm infectious.
You playfully rolled your eyes, imagining Lando with glittery decorations and a lopsided Christmas tree. âOnly if you promise to keep it from turning into a competition,â you laughed, knowing his competitive spirit all too well.
âI canât promise that,â he replied with mock seriousness. âBut how about this? We can make it a team effort. I can provide the muscle, and you can provide the creativity. Weâll create a beautiful Christmas masterpiece together.â
âOkay, deal,â you agreed, captivated by the spark in his eyes. âAnd maybe we can even bake some cookies or something?â
âBaking? You mean I get to eat too? Count me in! But, full disclosure, I might need your guidance in the baking department,â Lando chuckled. âLast time I made cookies, they turned into rock-hard, unidentifiable shapes.â
You laughed, picturing Lando in an apron, mixing flour and sugar, and it filled you with warmth. âWeâll have to do some research then. Itâs not Christmas without cookies.â
âGreat! This is going to be the best holiday ever!â He exclaimed, squeezing you tighter.
Resting your head against his shoulder, you felt the warmth of his body, the rhythm of his heartbeat matching your own.
There was a sense of safety in his embrace, something you had longed for but never quite attained in your past relationships.
âLando?â you said softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
âYeah?â
âThank you for wanting to include me,â you replied, your heart full. âYou really do make me feel special.â
He leaned down, brushing his lips against your forehead, his breath warm against your skin.
âThatâs all I want for you, always. You deserve to feel special; Iâll show you how great it can be.â
In that moment, you both silently agreed: This Christmas would be different. It would be filled with joy, laughter, and the kind of love that made holidays unforgettable.
And as Lando pulled you closer and promised to make memories with you, you knew in your heart there was nowhere else youâd rather be. . . . .

The gentle rays of sunlight filtered through the sheer curtains, casting a soft golden hue across the cozy bedroom. You stirred beneath the plush duvet, feeling the warmth radiating from your partner beside you.
A lingering smell of something sweet and buttery wafted through the air, pulling you from the realm of dreams.
You blinked a few times, taking in the sight of Lando, still half-asleep, propped up with a tray on his lap. He smiled widely as he noticed you waking up, his green eyes sparkling with excitement.
âGood morning, sleepyhead,â he said, trying to suppress a yawn but failing miserably. âI hope youâre ready for the best Christmas breakfast ever!â
You rubbed your eyes to clear the sleep, instantly caught up in the delicious array of treats laid out on the trayâfluffy pancakes drizzled with maple syrup, crispy bacon, perfectly scrambled eggs, and a couple of steaming cups of cocoa topped with whipped cream.
It felt like a scene from a holiday movie.
âThis⊠this is amazing,â you said, genuinely touched. âYou didnât have to do all of this!â
A teasing smile crept across his face. âOh, but I wanted to. Itâs Christmas, after all! Plus, you deserve it. You work so hard.â
As you propped yourself up on your elbows, he leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. You felt warmth surge through your body at the contact, and suddenly, the holiday spirit felt even more alive.
âI canât believe youâre actually mine,â you muttered against his lips, still a little dazed by the sudden sweetness of it all. The very thought still felt surreal sometimes.
He chuckled, pulling back slightly, amusement dancing in his features. âAs much as I love you, please let me kiss you in peace. Iâve worked hard for this breakfast, and I donât want to risk it getting cold over kiss-tastic moments.â
You pouted playfully and attempted to frown, but it was impossible with Landoâs infectious grin in front of you. âFine, but only because you made me breakfast.â You settled back against the pillows, eyeing him.
âLetâs dig in, shall we?â He lifted the syrup with a flourish, the motion exaggerated as if presenting a trophy. âThe pancakes are the star of the show today, after all.â
You laughed, anticipation bubbling in your chest as he handed you a fork. âFeast your eyes, babe! And your stomach!â
As the two of you savored the delicious meal together, exchanging bites and laughter, the room was filled with a sense of comfort that felt right at home.
Lando would occasionally steal little tastes from your plate, and the playful banter arose naturallyâmaking silly sound effects when he took a huge bite or pretending to be too full for dessert after just one pancake.
âIâm saving room for the pie later!â he said dramatically, clutching his stomach.
You rolled your eyes but couldnât help but smile. âAre you actually planning to eat pie after this?â
âOf course! Christmas is all about indulging, isnât it?â He leaned closer, his eyes mischievous. âBesides, I have to make sure I can out-eat you. Itâs a matter of pride, you know?â
âPride? Since when has food turned into a competition?â you replied, laughing.
âEver since I met you,â he shot back, leaning in for another quick kiss before you could protest. âYou bring out the competitive spirit in me!â
The banter continued endlessly as you finished your breakfast together, the moments effortlessly turning into cherished memories. After breakfast, he proposed the plan of opening gifts.
âI canât wait for you to see what I got you!â Lando said excitedly, his childlike enthusiasm palpable.
âOh, really? Youâre that confident in your choice?â You teased, arching an eyebrow playfully. âYou didnât just get me socks or something, did you?â
âHey now, socks can be super thoughtful, but no. I went all out. Youâll love it,â he said, his eyes twinkling with a secret.
âOkay, Mr. Mysterious. Letâs see then!â You hopped out of bed, excitement mixing with a hint of curiosity.
Lando jumped up too, leading you to the small pile of gifts artfully arranged under the twinkling Christmas tree, adorned with ornaments that sparkled like stars in the early morning light.
After a whirlwind of tearing through wrapping paper, playful giggles filling the room with joy, you finally held the gift in your handsâthe one that made your heart race a little faster.
You unraveled it carefully to reveal a delicate silver necklace. It glimmered in the light, a tiny star shaped charm dangling gracefully from it.
âItâs beautiful,â you gasped, turning to him with wide eyes. âLando, this is perfect!â
âI remember you saying how much you loved stargazing,â he grinned, standing behind you as you clasped it around your neck. âSo I figured, why not wear a little piece of the night sky with you everywhere you go?â
Tears brimmed in your eyes at the thoughtfulness of his gift. âYouâre seriously the best boyfriend,â you said, your voice trembling slightly as you turned to face him.
âAnd you make me the happiest guy ever,â he replied softly, wrapping his arms around you. âNow, about that pieâŠâ
âNot until you give me a kiss!â you laughed, finally slipping back into the moment's warmth and charm.
You tugged him closer, pulling him in for a series of sloppy, heated kisses. You couldnât help but tug a bit too hard on his shirt, the thrill of the moment sending jolts of energy between you.
âOkay, we have to stop, we canât be kissing the whole time,â you said breathlessly, pulling back slowly to catch your breath.
â...nooooooo!â Lando exclaimed, chasing your lips. His eyes sparkled with mischief, and his laughter echoed in the night air.
You giggled, enjoying the playful energy that surrounded you both. âLando,â you began, a teasing glint in your eye, âwe canât just keep making out. What about the pie?â
He raised an eyebrow, the corners of his mouth lifting into a boyish grin. âThe pie will wait. Whatâs more important? Dessert or a moment with you?â
Your cheeks flushed, and you felt a wave of shyness wash over you. âYou know itâs not just about the pie...â you said softly, looking down at the ground.
But the warmth in your chest told you how truly valued you felt in that moment.
He took a step closer, his gaze locked onto yours. âI know, but moments like these? With you? Theyâre rare. And I want to savor every second,â he said, his voice filled with sincerity.
You smiled, feeling your heart swell even more. âOkay, maybe just one more kiss⊠and then we can eat the pie,â you relented, your voice laced with laughter.
âOnly one?â he asked, feigning disappointment. âWhat kind of boyfriend do you think I am?â
You couldnât help but chuckle at his playful demeanor. âThe type that can wait fifteen minutes for pie,â you teased, leaning in for another kiss.
His lips were warm and inviting, and you melted against him before reluctantly pulling away.
âAlright, you win. Letâs have some pie,â Lando said, finally stepping back towards the kitchen.
As he reached for the pie wrapped in a cloth, you couldnât help but appreciate how warm, intimate, and genuine the morning felt.
After cutting a generous slice and serving it on two plates, Lando nudged you playfully. âA taste of sweetness to go along with the sweetness of the moment. What do you think, my lady?â
You laughed, taking a bite. âPerfect! But you know, this still doesnât compare to the sweetness I get from you.â
With a grin, Lando took a bite of his own slice. âToo mushy?â he chuckled, wiping a bit of whipped cream from his lip.
âNever,â you said with a soft smile, and before you knew it, you were both in a playful food fightâlaughter ringing through the night as you tried to dab each other with creamy spoons.
Lando leaned closer, lowering his voice dramatically. âWell, get ready for a full day of mushiness. This is going to be the best Christmas.â
âBesides⊠youâve already made this Christmas special just by being here with me,â he said, his tone unexpectedly sincere. âI wanted to create memories that we can look back on and laugh about for years.â
Your heart fluttered at his words. âYou know, youâre really good at this mushiness,â you said, pretending to contemplate. âAre you sure youâre not hiding a secret poet inside of you?â
âOnly if you promise to be my muse," he shot back, puffing out his chest theatrically.
The crisp winter air whipped through the city, curling flakes of snow into delicate spirals as they drifted lazily from the sky.
Lando had suggested a day out in the snow, a break from the mundane, and while he had every confidence in the warmth of layering up, you were still determined to make a splash and resolve the winter blues.
In the mirror, you surveyed the finished look; a long, teal woolen dress that hugged your figure gracefully and flowed just above your knees.
It had a deep V neckline, trimmed in a subtle silver, but what made it really stand out was the shimmering overlayâit sparkled just enough in the light, suggesting a hint of magic.
The back had a modest plunge, which you hoped would garner Landoâs approval while still keeping the winter chill at bay. You had paired it with thick, knitted tights, soft leather knee-high boots and the necklace Lando had just got me, intertwining style with practicality.
As for layers beneath? A snug thermal top kept you warm, unseen beneath the gorgeous fabric.
You stepped out of the bedroom, feeling like a princess bound for an ice kingdom. âAre you ready?â Lando called from the living room, his tone bright with anticipation.
You paused, taking a moment to admire his grin before approaching him. His casual outfit, a thick navy overshirt paired with dark jeans, looked effortlessly stylish.
But as you turned to present your dress, you noticed his expression change.
He fell silent, eyes wide as he surveyed your ensemble. âWow,â he finally managed, his breath catching in his throat. âYou look⊠stunning.â
âDo you like it?â You twirled playfully, causing the silvery accents of your dress to shimmer in the soft light.
Landoâs cheeks flushed a light pink as he tried to muster a composed response. âItâs beautiful. Really. ButâŠâ his brow furrowed slightly as he took in the lack of snug winter wear. âAre you going to be warm enough?â
You smirked, feigning indignation. âI have layers, you know. Underneath. And these tights are pretty thick. Plus, itâs all about the confidence, right?â
He chuckled, a warm sound that filled the room. âConfidence is great, but youâll lose that confidence pretty fast if you end up freezing out there. I refuse to let you turn into a popsicle.â
âLando,â you laughed, shaking your head. âI promise I am layered up. Itâs a winter wonderland, not the Arctic. Iâll be okay!â
Yet there was something in his eyes, a protective flicker that made you warm in a different way. He stepped closer, brushing a lock of hair behind your ear.
âPlease promise youâll be careful. Iâm literally all about the thrill of winter, but Iâd hate to see you uncomfortable.â
You sighed, your gaze softening. âAlright, I promise Iâll stay warm,â you said, your voice teasing. âBut only if you promise to enjoy this day with me without fussing over my dress!â
Lando rolled his eyes, his shoulders relaxing. âDeal. But Iâm still going to make sure you stay warm.â He extended his hand toward you, a silent invitation filled with assurance.
Taking it, you felt an electric pulse of warmth flow through you, igniting excitement for the adventures ahead. âSo, what is the plan for our day in the snow, Commander?â you inquired playfully.
âI'll keep it a secret for now,â he declared, a mischievous glint in his eyes.
âOkay, only if you promise to have food ready,â you chimed in, raising an eyebrow challengingly.
As you headed outside, laughter bubbling between you, the winter air wrapped around you like a cozy, albeit brisk, embrace. The world was a tapestry of white, and every step was punctuated by the delightful crunch of snow beneath your boots.
The air was crisp, filled with the soft scent of pine and cinnamon wafting from nearby holiday markets. You and Lando strolled down the bustling street, twinkling lights above illuminating your path in a kaleidoscope of colors.
The excitement was palpable, but you were still in the dark about where exactly he was leading you.
âSeriously, Lando, where are we going?â you asked, glancing up at him with a mix of curiosity and playful suspicion. His signature grin widened, revealing a hint of mischief in his eyes.
âPatience, my dear!â he replied dramatically, throwing an arm over your shoulder as he pulled you closer. âGood things come to those who wait.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât suppress a smile. Lando had a talent for making even the simplest outings feel like an adventure.
âAre we going to see some kind of massive display of lights?â you guessed, your eyes sparkling at the thought. âOr are you just dragging me to some random holiday market?â
âNot just any holiday market,â he corrected, feigning seriousness. âThis is the holiday lights tour of the season.â
âOh, really?â you said, raising an eyebrow. âAnd how did you know Iâd like that?â
âLetâs just say I have my sources,â he winked, pulling you into a crosswalk as the light turned green.
As much as you wanted to prod him for more details, the mystery was building a sense of anticipation that was hard to resist.
After a few more blocks of chatting and light-hearted teasing, Lando led you toward a charming park you had never seen before. Towering trees draped in white lights sparkled like stars, and colorful displays lined the pathways.
The sight was breathtaking; every glimmering ornament, twinkling string, and spirited figure crafted a wonderland of joy.
âWow,â you breathed, taking it all in. âThis is incredible! How did you find this place?â
âI have my ways," he repeated with a laugh, leading you deeper into the enchanting landscape. âBut I know you appreciate the beauty of the season, and I wanted to share this with you.â
You shot him a grateful look, your heart warming. âThank you, Lando. This is really amazing. The lights are so beautiful.â
As you meandered through the park, laughter and joy enveloped the atmosphere.
Children ran around, marveling at the displays, while couples strolled hand in hand, immersed in romance. The soft sounds of holiday music floated through the air, weaving together the spirit of the season.
âLook,â you pointed excitedly. âThey have a giant snow globe! Can we go inside?â
Lando chuckled, his eyes twinkling. âIf thatâs what you want, then of course!â He took your hand in his, guiding you toward the globe adorned with shimmering snowflakes.
Inside the massive globe was a scene of animated holiday cheer, complete with faux snow falling gently from above and cheerful carolers. You both stepped inside, and for a moment, time felt suspended.
âThis is ridiculous,â you laughed, playfully swatting some of the fake snow away from your face. âBut also kind of magical.â
âJust like this evening,â he said, glancing at you, moments of quietude settling into the laughter. âYou bring the magic, you know.â
You felt your cheeks warm as you met his gaze. âStop it, youâre making me blush.â
âGood!â He grinned, relishing the moment. âWatch your step, itâs slippery in here.â
Just then, Lando pretended to slip, theatrically flailing his arms before catching himself, and you couldnât help but break into hysterical laughter.
Once you exited the snow globe, you strolled back onto the path, your fingers still linked. The sparkles from the lights danced around you, and there was an indescribable warmth in your heart.
âLando,â you said after a moment, âI really appreciate you planning this. Itâs exactly what I needed.â
âGlad youâre enjoying it. Honestly, I wasnât sure how youâd feel about it,â he confessed. âI just wanted to create some holiday magic for us, you know?â
âYeah, I do,â you whispered, your heart swelling with affection.
As you walked, you found yourself lost in thought, the atmosphere so serene you almost wished you could pause time. The lights twinkled brighter above, like stars in a perfectly clear sky.
âI heard they have hot cocoa near the entrance,â Lando mentioned, breaking your reverie. âHow about warming up with some?â
âThat sounds perfect,â you replied enthusiastically. After all that magic, a cozy drink felt like the ideal way to cap off the evening.
The two of you shared laughter and hot cocoa, the warmth of the drinks a comforting companion to the aesthetic beauty surrounding you.
As you sipped and recounted funny stories from the past, the world around you faded, leaving just the two of you amidst the holiday splendor.
âWhat do you wish for this holiday season?â Lando asked suddenly, his eyes casting a thoughtful glance toward a nearby light display.
You considered it for a moment, glancing at him. âHonestly? I wish for moments like these to never end.â
He turned to you, a soft smile gracing his lips. âMe too."
And as the night wore on, surrounded by the magic of the lights and the warmth of shared laughter, you couldnât help but feel that perhaps this holiday season held even more possibilities than you had ventured to imagine.
As the evening sun dipped below the horizon, painting the sky in hues of lavender and deep orange, you and Lando returned home from a day of holiday festivities.
The air was rich with the sweet scent of pine from the Christmas tree you had picked together earlier that day. Lando opened the door to your apartment, letting you walk in first.
âLadies first,â he said with a playful bow, a grin spreading across his face.
âChivalry isnât dead!â you laughed, glancing back at him with a smirk.
He followed you inside, shutting the door behind him. The warmth of the room enveloped you, contrasting sharply with the chill outside.
You sighed contentedly, taking in the decorations, the twinkling lights casting a soft glow throughout the living room, and the faint sound of carols playing in the background.
âAlright, movie time!â you declared, rushing to the couch. The soft throw blankets piled up beckoned you to snuggle in.
Lando plopped down beside you, the couch suddenly feeling smaller. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer to him, his warmth radiating against your side.
âWhatâs our movie choice tonight?â he asked, scrolling through the streaming service with a look of concentration.
âHow about one of the classics? Maybe âItâs a Wonderful Lifeâ?â you suggested, settling into his embrace.
Lando nodded, a smile creeping onto his face. âPerfect choice. It never gets old, right?â
You grinned back, tucking your head against his chest. âExactly. You can always count on a good old Christmas movie to set the mood.â
As the opening credits rolled, Lando absentmindedly began drawing circles and patterns on your back, his fingers tracing a gentle rhythm.
It felt soothing, calming your racing thoughts from the day's excitement. You closed your eyes and let out a small sigh of contentment.
âDo you ever think about how different our lives would be if we didnât meet?â you mused softly, breaking the comfortable silence.
Lando paused in his drawing, his voice thoughtful. âSometimes. I canât imagine it, to be honest. Youâre like my favorite Christmas gift,â he teased lightly, earning a playful elbow to his ribs.
âYouâre ridiculous,â you chuckled, nudging him playfully. But you could see the sincerity in his eyes. âBut really, Iâm so grateful for you. You make everything better.â
He smiled softly, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. âI feel the same way. Youâve brought so much joy into my life.â
The movie played on, but your focus shifted more toward Lando, feeling the warmth of his body protectively enveloping you. It was as if the world outside faded away, leaving just the two of you wrapped in this cozy cocoon.
After a few moments, you whispered, âYou know, you hold me like youâre trying to shield me from the world.â
He chuckled, squeezing you a little tighter. âIsnât that my job? To keep you safe and sound?â His voice was teasing, yet there was a sincerity beneath the playful facade.
âOkay, but are you planning to fight off any villains if they come bursting in here?â you joked, tilting your head to look up at him.
âAb-so-lutely. Iâll grab the nearest snow globe and defend us,â he said, a mock-serious expression on his face. âThatâll show them!â
You laughed, imagining the scene. âOh no, whatever will I do without my brave knight?â
âDonât worry, Princess. Iâve got you,â he declared dramatically, his serious tone breaking into a laughter.
With the movieâs plot winding through timeless moments and familiar faces, you found yourself lost in the feeling of Landoâs fingers tracing gentle patterns across your back, each stroke lulling you into a serene state of mind.
As the film reached its climax, his embrace felt like an anchor in a world of chaos, as though nothing could ever shake you both from this moment.
The room was dimly lit, save for the soft glow of the fairy lights wrapped around the bedpost. You nestled comfortably on Lando's lap, the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest acting as a lullaby.
Just as you were drifting into sleep, you felt a gentle hand brush through your hair.
"Right, it's time for my last surprise," Lando said, his voice playful but urgent.
You stirred slightly, opening your eyes to meet his cheeky grin. "What is it?" you asked, the drowsiness still thick in your voice.
"Just follow me," he replied, standing up slowly to let you slip off his lap. Your heart raced with curiosity as he took your hand, guiding you upstairs.
The two of you ascended the staircase, Lando's excitement palpable. You could feel a peculiar thrill in the air, something almost electric. When you reached the balcony, he turned to face you, a mischievous smile dancing on his lips.
"Okay, close your eyes," he instructed softly.
You complied, trying to suppress your giddiness. Lando covered your eyes with his warm hands, then whispered, "Okay, 3... 2... 1... look!"
With a light laugh, you opened your eyes, and your breath caught in your throat at the sight before you. The moon hung majestically in the sky, brightening the velvety darkness. The stars twinkled like a million tiny diamonds scattered across an ebony canvas, and everything felt almost surreal.
âLandoâŠâ you murmured, your hand instinctively reaching to touch the star necklace he had given you, one that had been a symbol of many cherished moments you both had shared.
âI had to wait for the exact time that it would look like this,â he said excitedly, stepping closer. âThe moon is at its peak, and the sky is clear. Itâs perfect!â
You gazed at him, a mix of awe and love swelling in your heart. âThis is incredible. How did you know?â
âIâve been watching the weather and the moon phases all week,â he confessed, grinning sheepishly. âI wanted tonight to be specialâjust for us.â
You wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him down to you, planting a tender kiss on his lips. âI love you so much,â you whispered against his mouth, filled with a warmth that radiated from deep within.
Lando held you tighter, the melody of the night wrapping around you like a soft blanket. âI love you too. More than you know,â he breathed, resting his forehead against yours.
The two of you stood in a comfortable silence, mesmerized by the night sky.
Occasionally, you would point out a particularly bright star, and Lando would respond with a playful commentary about its imaginary backstoryâas if each one had its own history worth telling.
âLook at that one!â you exclaimed, pointing to a star that seemed to shimmer more brightly than the others. âWhat do you think its story is?â
Lando squinted up at it, deep in thought. âThat star is called Stella,â he began, adopting a theatrical tone. âShe was once a lonely star shining in the void of space, but one day she caught the eye of a cometâand now, they race around the galaxy together, leaving trails of stardust behind.â
You couldnât help but giggle at his impromptu storytelling. âAnd what about us?â you asked, leaning into him as the cool breeze brushed against your skin.
He looked down at you, his eyes sparkling with mischief. âWell, I suppose weâre like two stars in the same galaxy, always pulled towards each other, destined to shine together.â
You smiled, heart swelling with happiness. âI like that. Itâs poetic.â
âIâm glad you think so. I just wanted to create a moment that we could cherish forever, something that would remind us of how special our time together is,â Lando said, his voice softening.
As you gazed back up at the night sky, you imagined the two of you, forever intertwined in the cosmos, like the very stars above you. The calmness of the moment enveloped you, and you felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude wash over you.
âThank you for this, Lando,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper. âYou always know how to make me feel loved.â
âIâd do anything for you,â he replied earnestly, his fingers intertwining with yours. âEvery day with you is a new adventure, and I canât imagine a better way to spend my life.â
The two of you leaned back against the railing of the balcony, watching as the stars twinkled and danced across the night sky. You found yourself lost in thoughts of the future, of all the moments yet to come, under the same moonlight.
âPromise me something?â you suddenly asked, your voice taking on a more serious tone.
âAnything,â Lando answered, turning to face you fully.
âNo matter where life takes us, or what challenges we face, letâs always find our way back to nights like this. Together.â
His smile was warm and reassuring. âI promise. Weâll always find our way back to each other, no matter what. Always.â
âMerry Christmas, Lando,â you whispered, the words slipping through your lips like a long-held secret finally shared.
âMerry Christmas,â he replied, and in that moment, you knew that the world could change, and perhaps it would, but whatever came, youâd made a promise together under the stars.
With that vow hanging in the air between you, you both returned your gaze toward the sky.
As the night deepened, the stars continued to blink high above, bright and steady, just like the love that blossomed between you. . . .

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in eternal lines
spencerâs mindâbrilliant and boundlessâwas one of the reasons you fell for him in the first place. but when the deadlines are looming, it takes everything in you not to snap. because while youâre good at literature because you have to be, spencer's great at it because, well, heâs spencer.Â
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader (second person, no y/n)
genre: angst, comfort, fluff... i don't know anymore
content: student!reader gets kinda pissy and snappy but she has a 3000 word essay due and a fever so go easy on her. and spencer is spencer, so patient, so kind :'
word count: 5.2k
note: as a literature major this was extremely self-indulgent... i'm sorry. i love lit student reader and i hope you guys do too! also aptly titled after the one and only sonnet 18 because it was the first poem we were given read in uni <3 (reader is basing her essay on george macdonald's 'the princess and the goblin' and isaac watts' 'divine songs' if anyone is curious; but don't read too deeply into her lines about it because i submitted that essay weeks ago and it's been relinquished it from my mind oops)
a line: Youâd decided then and there that if you couldn't break the glass ceiling, you'd make a comfortable home just beneath it. Always looking up, never quite breaking through.
When in eternal lines to time thou growâst: So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee. - william shakespeare
You love your boyfriend. Truly, you do. After all, who else would sift through pages of Whitmanâs dense poetry with you or debate whether Rossetti was really referencing Eveâs bite of the apple in Goblin Market? Nobody else ever cared enough to try. Spencerâs mindâbrilliant and boundlessâwas one of the reasons you fell for him in the first place.
So yes, you love your boyfriend. But when deadlines are looming, and submission dates are bearing down on you, it takes everything in you not to snap. Because while Spencer can dissect poetry and prose with an ease that seems almost otherworldly, you sometimes feel the weight of comparison pressing on you. Youâre good at it tooâof course you are, you have to be. Youâre pursuing a degree in it forgodsakes. But Spencer? Heâs great at it because, well, heâs Spencer.
And while you can hold your own most days, a fair challenger when you come back from a particularly intriguing lecture too layered to dissect by yourself, there are times you feel like youâre running to keep up. Spencer will pull references from texts and obscure sources you havenât even heard of, leaving you struggling to connect the dots. And thatâs just literature. When he dives into his other passionsâyou donât even bother to compete. Instead, you resign yourself to the couch, nodding and asking questions during the rare moments you can sort of follow the thread of his thoughts.
Having an IQ of 187 and an eidetic memory does have its perks. Everyone knows that.
Your friends see it too. Like today when one of them stopped by between classes to return an essay youâd been stressing over for days.
âWell, donât you look fantastic,â she teased, smirking. âGuessing those leftovers werenât as âfineâ as you thought?â
âââDonât even start,â you mutter, weakly grabbing the paper from her hands as you lean on the doorframe. You flip through the pages marked in red ink quickly with the little strength you have, eyes scanning briefly through the comments before youâre on to the next page, next page, next page. Theyâre not what youâre looking for.Â
And then you see it. There on the last page, a definite red circle around it: B+.Â
Youâd expected it of course. B+âyour ever-reliable benchmark. It's a mark of consistency you've been forced to be contented with. It wasnât horrendous. It wasnât amazing. It was fine. But youâd worked hard on this one. Youâd hoped, maybe, for something more. Youâd expected it, and yet, you donât know why you still feel a pinch of disappointment.
âHowâd you do?â you ask grimly, fighting the nausea creeping up your throat.
âSame,â she replies nonchalantly, scrolling through her phone.
You nod, trying not to dwell on the fact that sheâd seen your grade before you did.
âOh, you know itâs always the same,â she adds with a wry smile. âSolidly subpar, as per tradition.âÂ
The phrase stung a little more now than it had when youâd coined it back in your first year. Back when, after a string of middle-of-the-road grades, youâd decided then and there that if you couldn't break the glass ceiling, you'd make a comfortable home just beneath it. Always looking up, never quite breaking through.Â
âWhatever, it was only 20% anyway,â she shrugs.
âYeahâŠâ you reply weakly, though the disappointment still gnaws at you. You canât quite shake it. Maybe itâs because deep down, you know you do careâno matter how often you tell yourself youâve accepted the fate of being perpetually average. You still want, so quietly, so desperately, to be something more. Youâve always had a love for literature: the way words flow across a page, imbuing meaning into simple phrases, transforming them into art. Youâve always admired the beauty of it. But passion doesnât translate to academic brilliance, and appreciation doesnât equal A grades. Itâs a hard truth youâve come to learn.
âHow was class?â you ask, trying to steer your mind away from its current spiral. âWe still on Faerie Queene?â
âMhmm,â she hums, rolling her eyes. âKristoffâs still rambling on and on about virtue and chastity. Ha. Imagine me living in those timesâat the rate I ghost men, Iâd be a certified whore.â
âWell, actually, theyâd probably get to you first,â Spencer interrupts as he steps out of the bedroom, his tone slipping into that familiar, matter-of-fact cadence. âVirtue and chastity were considered to be absolute truths in the 16th century. A womanâs value was intrinsically tied to her perceived purity, which of course, was a reflection of her familyâs honor.âÂ
If you werenât so ill, you wouldâve laughed at her faceâeyes wide, mouth slightly open in disbelief.
âAnd then thereâs the public shaming,â he continues, leaning casually against the doorframe with his hands tucked into his pockets already miles deep into his thoughts. âIn fact, the entire allegory of Book III revolves around chastity as a cornerstone of moral virtue. Witch trials in the late 16th and 17th centuries often targeted women who were thought as sexually deviant or independent, framing their âsinsâ as some sort of evidence that they were consorting with the devilââ
He pauses, glancing between you and your friend. âSo yeah⊠considering all that, if youâd âghostedâ a few men back then, they probably wouldâve gone straight to accusations of witchcraft or worse.â
Your friend stares at him, â...Right. Good to know,â she says, blinking slowly.
âBut you know, Edmund Spenser intended The Faerie Queene to be a moral guide for young men,â he adds as an afterthought, realizing heâs just indirectly affirmed your friendâs self-deprecating joke. Spencer shifts awkwardly but canât help himself by continuing, âIt was meant to instil chivalric virtues to shape a model English gentleman. So technically, your interpretation is, um, modern at best.â
Her expressionâequal parts baffled, impressed, maybe even a little scaredâalmost makes you forget how sick you feel.
âSoâŠâ she says after a pause, âIâm guessing youâre Spencer?â
âI am,â he replies simply.
âWell,â she says, drawing the word out, âItâs nice to finally put a face to the name.âÂ
Spencer offers a smile, âLikewise.âÂ
âAnyway⊠Iâm off.â She slings her bag over her shoulder, âEssayâs not gonna write itself. This oneâs 30% by the way. God, I hate Kristoff but Burtonâs a close second for sure.â
You wince at the reminder, the weight of your unfinished work pressing on you. The brief called for at least three secondary sources, and youâve barely scratched the surface.
âFeel better soon, sweetie,â she says, offering you a sympathetic look. You manage a weak smile in return.
âBye Spencer,â she says, her voice taking on a teasing lilt. âTake care of her for me, will ya?â
âWill do,â he says curtly, giving a small wave as you close the door behind her.
A moment later, your phone buzzes. Heâs cute, her text reads. Another follows immediately: And basically a walking Wikipedia.
You start typing a response, but another text pops up before you can send it: Donât dog on us for using ChatGPT now. You huff and click your phone off instead, tossing it aside.Â
Therein lies another source of stress. Spencer is always happy to help you untangle a difficult text or interpret a dense poem, but he draws the line when it comes to your academic work. He never interferes directly. Youâve seen it yourselfâThe first time you handed him your laptop to review an essay, heâd made his comments verbally, pointing at sections on the screen while explaining his critiques in detail, but never actually touching the keyboard. Youâd brought it up during an argument once, after a particularly crushing grade. Your frustration had spilled over: Youâre smarter. You type faster. Why canât you just fix it? But Spencer had only responded with something about âacademic integrityâ and the importance of maintaining the âcode of conduct.â The conversation ended there, and after that, you stopped asking.Â
Even yesterday, when you managed to scrape together 300 words for a draft, youâd handed your laptop to him, and again, he was careful to keep his boundaries. Too drained to make edits in real-time, youâd expectedâmaybe hopedâthat he might step in more directly. Instead, Spencer quietly switched the document to âsuggestingâ mode, marking up your draft with precise yet detached annotations, never infiltrating or overstepping your own words. Spencer Reid is and always will be a stickler for rules. You try to hold yourself to the same standard. You steer clear of AI, no matter how tempting it might be. You know better. Well, that and because Spencer would never let it slide.Â
But now itâs late and the thought of letting some website churn out polished, perfectly phrased sentences for you in seconds has never felt more tempting. The nausea has faded, leaving behind a fever in its place. Spencerâs in the living room, reading. Youâd banished him to the couchâeven the faint sound of pages turning, not to mention the speed at which he reads, was enough to derail your already fragile train of thought. Youâd felt bad of course; heâd made soup for you earlier, fed it to you and everything. But with this essay worth 30% of your grade and your 300 words barely scratching the surface of the 3,000-word requirement, you donât have it in you to be oh-so-sweet and ever-so-grateful. Not right now. Youâve nailed down the introductionâa quick overview of historical context, a sweeping statement on the authorsâ intents. But now, the real challenge looms: The thesis. And youâre utterly stuck.
This essay argues thatâŠÂ thatâŠ
You groan in frustration, flopping back against the pillows. So much for childrenâs literature. Youâd chosen this class thinking itâd be an easy rideâfairy tales and picture books, how hard could it be? Yet here you are, being tasked with dissecting the significance of form and language. Now, the simple language and pretty pictures are anything but your friend, doing nothing to help further your argument. Your head throbs, your mouth feels like sandpaper, and the brilliant points youâd thought of in last weekâs class are nowhere to be found, lost in the haziness of your mind. With a defeated sigh, you peel back the sheets and shuffle out of the bedroom, laptop in hand, every joint aching in protest. Spencer looks up from his book as the rustle of sheets catches his attention. His heart aches slightly when he sees you in the doorway, clutching your laptop and looking every bit as pitiful as you feel. He sets his book to the side.Â
âHowâs it going, honey?â he asks sympathetically, even though he already knows the answer from the state of you.Â
âItâs barely going,â you admit with a yawn, tears prickling at your eyes from the force of it. They only add to your overall air of defeat as you cross the room and crawl into his lap, laptop balanced precariously on the armrest. âBrainâs foggy, canât think straight,â you murmur in incomplete sentences.Â
âFinalized your thesis yet?â he asks again, his voice gentle but patient. You shake your head, sinking deeper into his chestâItâs a silent surrender, as if giving in to the exhaustion and frustration thatâs been building up. Spencer notices, brushing your hair gently away from your face, his hand cool against your hot skin. He presses the back of his hand to your forehead. âYouâre burning up, hon,â he says softly, voice full of concern. âWhy donât we get you to bed, take a break for tonight, hm? You can work on this tomorrow.â
Tomorrow. The thought of putting everything off feels like both a relief and a burden. The idea of sleep has never seemed more appealing. But then, the thought of letting this drag on for another dayâof pushing the finish line even further out of your reach fills you with dread. But you know youâre not in any state to be working on anything right now, let alone something worth 30% of your final grade. You know that you canât focus, not when your body feels like itâs ready to give up and when your mind can barely hold onto a coherent thought. âTomorrow, okay?â Spencer prompts again, calm and gentle. You know heâs right, so, despite the gnawing anxiety in the back of your mind, you nod. âOkay.âÂ
Spencer doesnât push, just gives you a small, reassuring smile as he stands. Every movement feels like a chore as he guides you back to bed but the warmth of the blankets and the prospect of rest is more than enough motivation. He tucks you in, his touch comforting and steady. You feel like a weight has been lifted, albeit temporarily. Either way, itâs enough for now. You close your eyes, the thought of picking up where you left off tomorrow seeming almost bearable.Â
You wake to the sunlight filtering through the curtains. It takes a moment for your brain to adjust to the new day, the stress of yesterday not entirely gone. But as you sit up, stretching slowly, mind less hazy and joints less achy, you feel a renewed determination, a flicker of focus that was nowhere to be found last night. Your mind is still whirling with fragments of ideas, half-formed arguments, and theoretical connections when Spencer strolls in with a cup of something warm for you.
âTea.â he announces, handing it to you with a small, triumphant smile. âDecaffeinated.â
You frown, rubbing sleep from your eyes. âNeed coffee.â
âStudies say caffeinated beverages stimulate the colon,â he counters matter-of-factly.
âEww,â you groan, wrinkling your nose at him. âWhyâd you have to say it like that?âÂ
âExactly like that,â he replies without missing a beat, his tone precise and measured. âYouâve just recovered, and everyone knows caffeine is a gastrointestinal irritant.â
You huff, taking the mug from him. âFine, but if I donât finish this essay, itâs on you.â Spencer raises an eyebrow, completely unbothered by your protest. âSomehow, I think youâll survive.â
You grumble under your breath but take a tentative sip of the tea anyway. Itâs not what you wanted, but you canât deny that heâs probably rightâhe usually is. The warmth seeps through the mug into your hands, grounding you just enough to pull your laptop over from the bedside table. Its practically empty screen blinks back up at you, as though itâs been waiting patiently all night. Hi again. Still here. Still empty.Â
Spencer takes a peek at your screen and you canât help but glare half-heartedly at the mug in his hands. Of course, itâs coffee. Heâd get to enjoy caffeine while insisting you couldnât. Typical.
âSo, I was thinkingâŠâ you start, deciding to let the injustice slide for now as you scroll through your document.
âHmm?â He looks up, his gaze meeting yours over the rim of his cup.
âWhat if I say that MacDonaldâs pedagogy was more effective for children because Wattsâs text was too directive. That works, right?â You look up, scanning his face for some form of agreement.
âThatâs hardly arguable honey,â his words land softly, but you still feel your shoulders sag. âItâs an observation.â
"Butâlook at the words they use! It's so different. Here, look at the tone," you insist, nudging your laptop toward him. "There has to be something to be said about that, right?"
Spencer leans in, glancing at your screen before looking back at you. His expression is calm, composed, and maddeningly reasonable. "Wattsâs text was meant to be read as a textbook. Of course itâs directive. You know that."Â
Do you? You think you don't know much at this point. You donât know what you know, and you donât know what you donât know. You groan, dragging your hands down your face as if you could physically scrape the frustration away. Darn you, Isaac Watts. Darn you, pedagogical learning. Darn you, whoever had the audacity to name this course a simple exploration into the history of childrenâs literature.Â
Before you can wallow further, Spencer slides your laptop away. âHow about we brush our teeth before crying over educational theories for children in the 18th century?â he suggests, his voice light. You sigh dramatically, dragging yourself to your feet like itâs some Herculean effort. When you shuffle back from the bathroom, hair slightly damp from washing your face, Spencer has taken over your spot on the bed, laptop resting on his legs as he scrolls through some article. He glances up when you flop down beside him with an exaggerated sigh.
"Feel better?" he asks, the faintest trace of a smirk on his lips.
"Not at all," you grumble. You donât let him know that the brief pause in frustration has given your head just enough space to try again.Â
Itâs been hours, but youâve finally narrowed down your thesis. Itâs not amazingâfar from itâbut itâs something. Itâs arguable, at least. Spencerâs been relegated back to the living room, his presence a vague hum in the background as you attempt to focus. Youâd claimed you worked better in bed, though Spencerâs tried (and failed) to prove with statistics and studies that itâs just a placebo effect, a lie your brain insists on believing.
But right now, none of that matters. You have a thesis and on that note, an essay to begin. Or, at least, the faintest glimmer of one. And thatâs when you hit a wall. Again. You sit cross-legged, laptop perched on your knees as you stare at the cursor, blinking like it knows youâre stuck. You wish it would stop judging you. You drag yourselfâand your laptop thats become an extension of your body at this pointâinto the living room like a child seeking comfort. Spencer barely looks up from his article when you slump into the couch next to him.
âWhat about this?â You straighten your back, determined to sound confident this time, even if you're not sure where you're going with it. âWhat if I say that MacDonaldâs use of fantasy is critical because it creates like, an emotional bridge and that makes it more effective for moral teaching andââ
âWell, yes," he says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. Spencer doesnât even look up from his article. "But thatâs kind of a subpoint, honey.â
You stiffen, irritation rising like bile in your throat. âItâs not a subpoint. Itâs a point.â
He shifts in his seat, eyes flicking up, finally meeting yours. His tone isnât dismissive, but it might as well be. âHow is that significant? What does it build toward?â
You grit your teeth. âUgh, you sound like Kristoff.â You mutter, more to yourself than to him. You know itâs not fair to snap, but your patience is paper thin. You can feel the fever creeping back into your skin, and youâre not sure if it's the heat or the mounting pressure, but suddenly everything feels like a little too much.Â
âFine,â you say, swallowing your frustration, trying again. âWhat if I say that MacDonaldâs narrative style is more progressive because it like, engages the readerâs emotions directly? And thatâs why Wattsâ text feels scarier?â
Spencer pauses. For a moment, you think youâve finally hit something solid, his eyes narrowing just enough to show heâs intrigued. âAnd how are you planning to argue that?â
âWell, um⊠umâI⊠I donât know!â You exhale sharply, throwing your hands up in exasperation. You sink back against the cushions, frustration seeping into your bones. âSomething about how MacDonaldâs vibe is all nice and charming while Watts is all like, âlearn this or elseâ.Â
âSure I guessâŠâ Spencer acknowledges, nodding slightly, a faint smile tugging at his lips. âBut youâll need more than vibes and a strong dislike of Watts to support it sweetheart.â
âGee, thanks,â you say bitterly, rolling your eyes.
He chuckles softly, a sound thatâs too calm, too collected, and somehow that makes it worse. Heâs not wrong, but youâre still pissed off. You take a breath, steeling yourself for the next round of dissection. âOkay, then what if I say that MacDonald lets kids think for themselves, and Watts... doesnât. Because of his moral authority and intellectual agency and whatever.â
Spencerâs eyebrows rise, just a fraction, but itâs enough. You feel a flicker of somethingârelief, maybe? Itâs hard to say. His voice has shifted, just slightly, less detached now, more engaged. âYou can build on that.â
âReally?â you ask, suddenly more hopeful than youâd like to admit.
âReally,â he confirms, leaning back in his chair. But then he tilts his head and furrows his brows in a way that makes you want to throw your laptop at him. âBut youâll need to define those terms and back it up with examples. Otherwise, itâs just a claim.â Of course.Â
âGod, youâre making this so much harder than it needs to be!â you snap, the irritation rising in your throat. âI get it, okay? I need examples. But youâre not even letting me work out a point before you just, I donât know, shit all over it.â Spencerâs eyes widen, and for a second, you almost feel bad for snapping at him.Â
âIâm just trying to help,â he says gently, but there's something in the way he says itâjust a little too patientâthat makes you bristle. You hate how right he always is, how calm he always looks, how much care he always has in his eyes even when youâre acting out.Â
âYouâre trying to help?â you repeat incredulously, shaking your head. âYouâre poking holes in everything!â Even in your feverish haze, you know youâre being cruelâbut you just canât help it. All you can think about is how everything is slipping away, how your thoughts wonât line up, how your head is starting to hurt again. Youâre not even sure if youâre angry at him anymore, or just angry at everything else.Â
Spencer doesnât answer right away. He glances at your screen again, a mess of quotes and bulletpoints. âI just want to make sure itâs solid, honey,â he says finally, his tone softer.
You scoff. âYeah, well, you tore apart whatever solid lead I thought I had after two hours of work in just about five minutes, so thanks for that,â words tumbling out before you can stop them. Spencerâs silence hangs heavy in the air, and for a moment, neither of you speak. âJust⊠just let me get through this.âÂ
Spencer sits there for a moment, just enough for you to feel the weight of the tension shift in the room. âIâm not saying you canât get through it. I just want you to get through it right,â he says carefully, his voice quiet but insistent. âThatâs all.â Thereâs no judgment in his voice, just care.
But the heat, the fever, itâs all swirling inside you, and you canât hold it together much longer. âOf course you areâŠâ you mutter bitterly, already regretting everything youâve said. It feels like every step forward just leads you straight into another wall, and youâre just too tired to keep going. Itâs not that you want to push him away or that you donât appreciate his help. Youâre just too irritable, too exhausted. You just want the whole damn essay to be doneâand you wish you didnât need his help to make it happen. You want to yell, to throw something, to demand that the world stop spinning long enough for you to catch your breath. But all that comes out is a hollow, defeated sigh.Â
You feel like you're drowning and you donât want to drag him under with you. âIâm justâŠâ You stop yourself, swallowing hard, trying to gather whatever little strength you have left. âIâm just so tired.âÂ
Spencer looks at you, eyes full of concern, but it doesnât help. You donât want sympathy. You want to be betterâto be able handle all of this. You want to be able to write this damn essay on goddamn childrenâs books without falling apart. And it doesnât help that youâre falling apart in front of Spencer. The same Spencer who can recite verses from Paradise Lost at the drop of a hat. Youâd almost burst into tears the last time he did it after it had taken you an entire week just to decipher and analyze a single chapter with any real confidence. You canât help but feel that pang of inadequacy every time he breezes through something youâve struggled with, even if he doesnât mean to make it look so effortless. You hate yourself for it. You canât find a way to shake the feeling that youâre not doing enough, not good enough. Not for yourself, not for him. You feel the sting of it, itâs pressing on your chest, suffocating.
âI just⊠just feel like I canât keep up with any of it.â You donât say it with any anger, just exhaustion. Itâs not even directed at him anymoreâitâs just the fact that you feel so stuck, so far behind where you should be, where you so badly want to be. âLike I canât keep up with you.âÂ
Oh. Spencer feels his heart sink. Heâs always prided himself on being able to read people. He shouldâve known better. Heâd been so focused on helping, so intent on pushing you to reach the level he knows youâre capable of, the level he knows you want to be atâeven if you keep telling yourself you donât. The fever, the deadlines, the constant pushingâhe shouldâve known that it was all too much.Â
âYou donât have to keep up with me honey, Iâm right here with you,â he says, trying to get you to look up at him. You canât meet his gaze. You feel guilty for snapping, for letting the frustration slip out, but youâre not rational enough right now to pull yourself out from this spiral of self-pity. Itâs easier to stay here, in the anger, the frustration, than to face the embarrassment of it all.Â
âIâm sorry,â he says quietly, his voice tinged with regret. âI didnât mean to make things harder for you.â Spencer takes your hand, cautiously, testing the waters. He knows you donât exactly want to be touched right now. He knows it makes you feel coddled. He pauses, waiting for your reaction. When you donât push him away, he gains the confidence to cradle your face gently. You donât resist, your tired eyes meeting his, heavy with sadness and Spencer thinks he can actually feel his heart break.
âYouâre doing just fine sweetheart. Youâre not falling behind. Youâre just stressed. And sick.â He knows youâre feeling fragile, like any comfort might smother you so he threads forward lightly. âThis essay? Youâll get it done. I promise.â It sounds right, and yet it doesnât really help. It doesnât stop the doubt thatâs eating at you, the sense that youâre just not measuring up to everything you want to be. You feel like youâre barely treading water, no matter how hard you swim, the shore never gets any closer.
But for now, Spencerâs words are enough to quiet the panicâa buoy in your sea of sadness threatening to pull you under. You cling to it, knowing youâll have to start swimming again soon. But for this moment, you allow yourself to stop. A beat. A pause. A breathâJust for now.
Itâs only the next day that you manage to get the words on the page, not in any smooth, brilliant way, but theyâre there. The sentences form, sometimes haltingly, sometimes with more confidence, until the essay is painfully but finally done. Not perfect, but itâs done. Relief washes over you, even as exhaustion lingers.Â
The moment you hear the front door open, you practically leap up, laptop in hand, meeting Spencer before he can even take his shoes off. He raises an eyebrow, setting his bag down as you both settle onto the couch. Without a word, you hand over the laptop, nerves bubbling beneath the surface. You wait with bated breath as he begins to scroll, your laborious effort displayed in black and white. The sound of the touchpad clicking feels louder than it should in the quiet room. He asks a few questions, here and thereâclarifications, mostly. Questions you answer with ease, surprising even yourself with the confidence in your responses. He nods along, his expression thoughtful, but not critical. Finally, after what feels like an eternity, Spencer looks up, eyes bright, a proud smile on his face. âIt looks great, honey. You did a really good job.âÂ
You canât help the grin that spreads across your face at his praise. âReally?â Spencer leans in, cupping your cheek gently, and presses a soft kiss to your lips. âReally.â When he pulls back, his forehead rests lightly against yours for a moment, his hand still cradling your cheek. âYou worked so hard on this,â he murmurs. âSo proud of you.â
Your chest tightens, but in a good way, and you canât stop yourself from leaning forward to kiss him again, this time slower, savoring the comfort he always seems to bring. âNow," he pulls away just enough to smirk, "can I have my bedroom back, or should I just start setting up camp on the couch?â You laugh, rolling your eyes, but itâs full of affection. âDonât even start.â Spencer chuckles, his arm slipping around your waist as he pulls you closer, the tension of yesterday long forgotten.
When you get your paper back, you flip through the pages, one after the other, looking for the feedback, waiting for the corrections, the marks that tell you where you inevitably went wrong.
Next page. Next page. Next page.
And then, there it is. On the last page, in a definitive red circle, unmistakable: A.
Itâs an A.Â
A goddamn A.
It doesnât feel like a one-time fluke, not exactly, but you canât shake the thought that this might be the only time you break through the glass ceiling youâve spent so long looking up at. And who knows, maybe youâll never push past it again. But for now, you allow yourself to relish in this singular moment of triumph. Itâs enough. Itâs more than enough.Â
Because now you know that the other side is real, and that you can get there. But Spencer, the genius, the enigma, whoâs always been a step ahead of everyone in everything academic, has always known.
And while everyone knows that an A in an essay thatâs only a partial percentage of your overall grade isnât anything compared to what heâs achieved, nothing compared to the academic milestones heâs already crossedâStill, heâs here, celebrating with you. You can see it in his eyes, even if he knows youâre not one to make a big deal of these kinds of things. His quiet joy is evident in the way he grins that little grin of his, the one thatâs only for you.Â
So, in summary, in essence, in all the words and ways you could possibly use to phrase a conclusionâYou love your boyfriend. Truly, you do. After all, who else would read through your entire syllabus for the semester (frustratingly quickly), just because he knows you understand better when you can talk things out? Who else would patiently stick around, exiled to the couch in their own home, while youâre exhausted, irritable, and buried in deadlines? Nobody else ever cared enough to try. Spencerâs mindâthough brilliant and boundlessâisnât the only reason why you fell for him.Â
Because when the world feels too heavy, when the never ending lines of poetry and prose become too difficult to untangle by yourself, Spencerâs there reminding youâever so gently, ever so steadilyâthat you can make it through, one word at a time.
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Let's Hear It For The Boy!
Pairing - Steve Harrington x Fem!Reader
WC: 2.4k
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, smut, cursing, oral (f receiving), emotional sex, aftercare, tooth rotting fluff bc i love them, latter half as usual is not proofread bc i can't bring myself to read my own smut. maybe someday!
AN: hereâs a little Dress bonus chapter bc so many people loved that series! I know i didnât let them bang in the final part, so here ya go. I hope it scratches the itch :)
The sounds of a specially curated mixtape drift and settle over the room. Steve has you underneath him, his entire weight crushing you like your own personal safety blanket. He peppers kisses over every inch of exposed skin and then some, giving you a brief reprieve from the steamy makeout session you were previously engaged in.
It had been 3 weeks since New Year's Eve. In that time, Steve has managed to spend every waking second with you that he could. Heâd taken you on lavish dates to the only fancy restaurant in this dying townâ Enzoâs, and youâve spent countless days snowed in, watching âborrowedâ tapes from Family Video. He takes you grocery shopping and puts your favorite cereal in the cart before you get the chance to grab it yourself. To be loved by Steve, is to be seen. You think he knows you better than you know yourself, in every way except for one.
You had decided to take things slow, for the fear of risking everything the two of you had worked so hard to build over the length of your entire friendship thus far. Steve loved you, and you loved Steve. He had a reputation, or he did at one point, and the last thing he wanted was for you to feel taken advantage of. More importantly, he wanted to take his time with you.
In the midst of a sweet, languid kiss, you hear the beginnings of Deniece Williamsâ âLetâs Hear It For The Boyâ and break away from him with an excited gasp.
âStevie Baby, this oneâs for you!â You brace yourself against him enough to flip him onto his back, reversing your previous position and straddling his hips. He giggles when you grab your hairbrush from your nightstand to use as a makeshift microphone, and sing pitchily to the verse.
ââCause everytime he pulls me near, I just wanna cheer, letâs hear it for the boy!â
You give a seated performance as you sing and wriggle on his lap. He rolls his eyes in an attempt to pretend like he doesnât find your theatrics the most endearing thing heâs ever seen.
âLetâs hear it for my baby!â You shake both his shoulders and give him a smacking kiss on the cheek, âYou know you gotta understand!â
Steve didnât know it was possible to be more in love with you than he already was. The adoration he felt for you was insurmountable; the blood in his veins seemingly replaced by pure sunlight that seeped from him wherever you touched. He wanted to marry you, he was sure he was going to marry you.
When the song finally hummed its last notes, you flopped dramatically against his chest. Hair mussed and chest heaving with the exertion of singing him all four minutes of the song. He deserved it, after all.
âHave I ever told you youâre a horrible singer?â he asks playfully.
You swat his chest and laugh, âRude!â. Forget the other five, teasing was Steveâs love language.
âI still love you, though,â
âYeah I donât know, the juries still out,â
âAlright, I think thatâs enough out of you,â he says as he flips you over in one sweeping motion to lay on your back again. Youâre a fit of laughter as he presses open mouthed kisses down your neck and over your collarbone.Â
Your giggling starts to subside when your senses clock how good his lips feel against your skin. You exhale a breathy sigh when one of his large hands presses firmly up your side, his other hand cupping your cheek. He grins up at you before returning to passionately collide his mouth with your own. You moan into it, presenting him with the opportunity to slide his tongue eagerly against yours.
âNothinâ else to say, huh?â He smirks down at you. You can only respond with a blissful shake of your head âNoïżœïżœ.
Your legs are hugging either side of his torso, and he gives an experimental grind of his hips against your clothed core. You can feel the hard outline of him and it elicits a groan from you, tugging the hair at the nape of his neck that you have woven through your fingers.
âThat feel good?" Youâre embarrassed to be panting slightly already, it's just the effect he seems to have on you.
âYesâ Steve,â
The most the two of you had done until this point was hand stuff, and even then it was few and far between. Thatâs not to say you haven't thought about doing more; lately it actually seems to be all you can think about. You feel like a horndog teenager again.
Steve continues to kiss you as he slips a hand beneath the waistband of your pajama shorts, and he can feel the wet spot already forming on your cotton panties. You let out a breathy whine at the sensation.
âPussy feels so good baby,â he murmurs against your mouth, âwonder how she tastes,â
Your eyes turn to saucers at his implication, but he only smirks at you as he shuffles slowly down your body, pressing kisses all the way down your torso and leaving goosebumps in his wake.
He makes eye contact with you as he slips two fingers beneath your waistband again to ask, âCan I take these off?â
âYes, please,â you try not to sound too pathetic as you lift your hips to assist him in removing your layers.
Steveâs never seen you in anything more intimate than a bathing suit on a hot summer day. Now heâs staring at you like youâve hung the moon just for him. His best friend, the love of his life, and heâs about to go down on you. It feels like an episode of The Twilight Zone.
âEverything okay?â you chuckle nervously, feeling the weight of his gaze on unexplored territory. It feels vulnerable in a way youâve never felt before, and youâre scared he doesnât like what he sees. You werenât a virgin, and neither was Steve; but right now, you might as well have been.
âYes, yes, sorry. Youâre beautiful. Itâs perfect, everythings perfect,â
It always feels like the greatest privilege to watch Steveâs usual dominant and confident exterior melt away. Itâs not often you get to make him flustered instead of you, and you canât help but find it adorable.
He nuzzles his stubbly face into your thigh, and inhales deeply; taking in your scent. It causes your stomach to erupt in somersaults. He locks eyes with you as he slowly removes the last barrier between you and his mouth. Self consciousness takes over when you realize he can finally see all of you, causing you to tighten the space between your thighs.
Steveâs quick, though. He stops you with a hand on each leg, keeping you open for him. âDonât be shy, honey. I wanna see you,â
âOkay, I trust you,â You stare up at your popcorn textured ceiling to escape the intensity of it all. Just then he places a tentative kiss to your clit. Itâs barely anything but the surprise of it makes you cry out in pleasure. Steve takes it as a sign to properly begin, and he laps at you like youâre his last meal.
âOh, Steve!â Your hands fly to his hair and you tug, eliciting a groan from him that vibrates through your core and amplifies the feeling of his tongue on you.
âTaste so sweet, baby,â you can hardly hear him as heâs nose deep in your pussy. The sharp point of it massages your sensitive bud as his tongue teases your entrance.
If that wasnât enough, youâre seeing stars when his index and middle finger breach your hole, hitting that spongy spot inside of you that only Steve could reach. He curls his fingers as his lips wrap around your clit and you all but grind against his face. He quickens the pace, and you can already feel the beginnings of your climax in your tummy.
âSteveâ ah!â Iâm gonna come,â you cry and he doesn't change a thing. No speeding up, no slowing down. Thereâs not a thing on this earth that could separate his mouth from you. All that matters to Steve is making you finish on his tongue, and hearing those sweet little sounds you make when you do.
Your release washes over you in waves as you sloppily grind your hips against Steveâs face. When he finally looks up at you from between your sticky thighs, his face is shiny with you from nose to chin and heâs beaming. Actually beaming.
âDid so good, baby,â he praises as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand and leans down to kiss you, âso beautiful,â. Itâs a strange thing to taste yourself on someone elseâs tongue, but you really donât hate it. If anything, it turns you on more.
He continues to kiss you with a renewed fervor, you reach a hand between your bodies and palm him against his sweatpants. The whimper you elicit from him spurs you on enough to slip a hand beneath his waistband and take his velvety length into your hand.
He doesnât think heâs ever been so hard in his entire life, every nerve in his body alight like a live wire. Unconsciously, he thrusts into your handâ desperate for some friction. The soft skin of your fingers feels euphoric wrapped around his length.
âGodâ I love you,â he half groans into the crook of your neck as he grinds against your palm.
âBaby,â you gasp, âI want youâ I wanna feel you,â Your hips start to lift again, in search of any type of stimulation. This seems to break him out of his arousal induced trance as he snaps his head up to look you in the eye.
âIâ like you want to, want toâ?â he sputters, suddenly nervous at the idea. Still, you find his hesitation at your request charming. Itâs obvious how much he cares for you.
You giggle, âYes Steve, I âwant to, want toâ,â you repeat his words back to him in the same cadence, causing him to roll his eyes, though the action has no real irritation behind it.
âOkayâ Yeah, Okay,â heâs reeling as he reaches into the drawer of your nightstand to retrieve a condom from the box youâve kept there for a little over a week now. Tearing the foil with his teeth, he rolls the rubber down his length with expert fingers. You try not to think about the fact that heâs done this probably a million times before you.
âIf it hurts or you want me to stop or you donât like somethingââ
âIâll tell you,â you cut off his anxious rambling with a hand on his cheek, âI promise.â
He nods and presses his forehead to your own. Itâs a little sticky with sweat already, but you donât mind. He smells like cinnamon and mint and something so ineffably Steve.
When he finally pushes into you, youâre both gasping into each other's mouths. He wraps his arms around your back in a sort of hug, not bothering to hold himself above you anymore. He needs to be as close to you as he can possibly manage. You return the embrace, locking your ankles behind the small of his back and placing his cheeks in your palms to kiss him deeply.
When heâs finally to the hilt and your hips are completely flush, he gives you a moment to adjust before setting a rhythm.
âAre you okay?â
âYesâ yes, I'm good. You feel so good, Steve,â You can feel tears brimming at your lashes with the intimacy of it all. Having him like thisâ this is something youâve only ever dreamed of. The affection you feel is insurmountable.
His hips start at a slow pace, heâs so big you can feel him in your stomach. âFaster, baby, please,â. And who is he to deny you when you ask so politely?
âDonât cry, love,â He removes a hand from behind your back to wipe away a stray tear, and kisses the salty trail it left down your cheek.
âI just love youâ Iâve waited so long,â you hug him tighter around his neck as he starts to pick up the pace.
âI know, I love you,â You can feel his hips stutter and you realise heâs close. The shared sweetness bringing you both closer to the edge. You cry out again as he repeatedly hits that sweet spot, the small thatch of hair at his base providing the perfect friction.
âIâm closeââ he manages to strangle out.
âMe too. Inside meâ please,â
He falters only for a moment, âYou sure?â
âYes, Steve, I need you,â
Your nails dig and leave crescent shapes in his shoulders. You miss the sound he makes when you tug gently on his pretty locks, so you do it again. Itâs enough to send Steve hurtling over the edge of his orgasm.
âOh -- Iâm coming,â He all but shouts and the sounds heâs making are obscene enough to have you there with him.
âLook at me, baby,â he commands, not unkindly. Heâs so pretty like thisâ cheeks flushed pink, lips permanently fixed in a âOâ shape, sweat beading at his upper lip; his brow bone and hairline.
You stare at each other as you come; itâs the most intimate thing either of you have ever experienced. Suddenly you realize Steve has tears welling in his eyes, too. You pull him into a slow, languid kiss. You press your lips to the corners of each of his eyes, as well.
When he moves to pull out, you wince slightly and he soothes his hands up and down your leg as he stands. âI know, honey. Stay there, I'll be right back,â. With that, he slips his boxers back on and makes his way towards the bathroom. When he returns, heâs holding a warm washcloth and a small dixie cup of water. As you drink, he takes the liberty of cleaning you up, as gentle as youâve ever seen him.
He kneels by the bed to be level with you, and runs a hand over your head to brush away stray hair. The repeated motion in which he does it nearly puts you to sleep.
âWant me to run you a bath?â You almost cry again. How is he real?
âThatâs okay, maybe in a little while,â youâre becoming too sleepy to talk properly now, you raise your arms signaling for him to join you in bed. âJust want you to lay with me,â
âI think I can manage that.â
He moves to hold you against his chest, pressing a kiss to the crown of your head, and you fall asleep to the sound of his beating heart.
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Adam x Reader General Hcs
HAD TO WRITE SOMETHING FOR HIM HES JUST SO. AUGAHGEHEG. i love him. characterizing him is so fun, but so challenging at the same time.
đ„ Cw: adam being adam, sfw + nsfw hcs, smut, breeding kink
đ„minors dni with the nsfw portion
sfw:
Adam is more prone to casual flings and hookups, hes def not huge on relationships and longterm partners
this means that if your with him, you must be pretty special bc hes a huge ass handful
while he is a pretty big douche, adam is definitely loyal imo
deep down, hes still pretty insecure about both lilith and eve, and im a firm believer that he would never cheat on a partner if he was in a serious relationship
adam comes up with very.... interesting nicknames for you that are 10x more vulgar than the ones he uses for everyone else
hes HUGE on nicknames and petnames in general, at the start of a relationship theyre pretty crude and flirty but over time they start to become sweeter
sugartits, doll, sweet cheeks, bitch boy/babe, babycakes, BAE, lemondrop (idk it just fits), mama/mami, honeytits, honestly anything that comes to mind
adam likes to put "my" in front of most of your petnames, its not so much in a possessive way, moreso in a bragging way, he just loves telling the world that your HIS
he also definitely calls you bro, brah, dude, etc he doesn't care that it "doesnt sound romantic" đ
adam finds the MOST unhinged things hilarious, hes the type to watch those ten hour long youtube videos of a spinning potato chip and laugh every ten seconds
speaking of, he has one of those loud, booming laughs with a slight wheeze to it
"BAAHAHAHAHAH BAE COME HERE LOOK AT THIS HAHA" and its just a low quality video of a water bottle falling over???
100% a shitty pickup line user
and also a shitty flirter in general
his flirting is just
obnoxious
adam is very proud of you, when the two of you officially got together he probably called half of heaven to announce that you two were dating
"THATS MY PARTNERâŒïžâŒïžâŒïž" type of vibes
adam acts like he isnt big on cuddles bit is secretly the clingiest, most touch starved person alive
PLEASE let him hold you, this man is tall af and loves just swallowing you in an embrace
when he was "courting" you (irritating you constantly and flirting with you obnoxiously until you caught on that he was serious) the biggest tell that his feelings were genuine was the amount of physical contact he initiated
adam was always leaning on you, throwing an arm over your shoulder, resting a hand on your thigh, hooking his arm through yours, overall invading your personal space
he was incredibly happy to FINALLY be able to cuddle with you when you both got together, and HAS to fall asleep touching you in some way every night
adam is almost always wearing his exterminator helmet, but he really likes it when you take it off for him at the end of the day. even he doesn't really understand why, but there's something so intimate to him about the fact that you love his real face more than the persona he puts on
he would rather die than admit it tho
hes not good at words or communication in general, and prefers to express his appreciation through actions
he brings you foods that he knows you like on days where you're especially busy, he gives you song recommendations that he'll think you'll like, he'll buy you a trinket he saw you eyeing at the store, just tiny things like that
adam genuinely does care about you, but as per his usual adam-ness, he would rather go bald than live up to that đ
nsfw:
you cant tell me this man isnt kinky as shit
hes tried pretty much everything
HE LOVES TO HIT FROM THE BACK, DEF LIKES DOGGY STYLE
i also think he would like the mating press too, getting to watch your face as he wrecks you while also having the opportunity to leave bites all over your thighs, and feel them tremble as he fucks you? sign him up!
his dick is big big
i think hed be a little thicker than average, with a few veins running up the underside, but its his length that's downright heavenly
adam keeps himself pretty well groomed, but has a prominent happy trail and light fuzz at the very base of his cock
listen, this is the first man we're talking about, he KNOWS what hes doing
whether you're male or female, he will go down on you
once he buries himself between your thighs youre done for, adam barely comes up for air as he devours you
hes def sloppy w it too, loves when you cum on his face so he can lick it up
enjoys it when you return the favor as well, i actually think hed really realy like receiving head
would def fuck your face until your drooling
if you hve an oral fixation, you're in luck bc he LOVES watching you suck his dick, his fingers, anything really
adam always makes you lick and suck his fingers before fingering you, and will sometimes trigger your gag reflex by shoving them down your throat to watch you gasp and whine
adam has STAMINA, expect to stay up all night bc this man will stop at nothing to make sure you're both satisfied
i swear this man is built to breed, he has a HUGE breeding kink and goes crazy at the sight of his cum dripping from your hole. even if it's physically impossible for you to get pregnant, adam still babbles about "fucking a prety little babe" into you when he cums
adam likes using plugs to make sure his cum stays inside you, he'll also finger it back inside and loves smearing his cum on your thighs and ass
he also brings his fingers up to your face and has you lick the cum off of them
LOOOVEEEESSS marking you, by the end of the night youre always covered in bruises and scratches and hickeys galore
i love adam guys yes ik hes a douche but hes my douche <3
i wish i characterized him better but whateverrrrrr i dont want to write him as a total asshole but hes def not an angel either (haha im so funnyđ)
#hazbin hotel adam#adam x reader#adam x you#adam smut#adam fluff#hazbin adam#hazbin hotel adam x reader#hazbin hotel smut#hazbin hotel x reader#hasbin hotel#hazbin hotel x you#hazbin hotel fanfiction#hazbin hotel x y/n#lute#hazbin hotel#hazbin#i love him your honor#i could fix him
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the Forbidden fruit
NSFW: headcanons about your sex life. hazbin hotel Adam x fem!reader That feeling when my drafts are almost halfway through the smut with Adam that I wanted to write, but at the last minute I stopped liking that text, so I switched to something else. Everything is (not) good. I wrote this text while listening to Landon Tewers - She Thinks of Me. the meaning of the song is not at all important and has nothing to do with the lyrics, I just liked the melody.
Adam has beautiful hands. Aesthetic. When he takes off his clothes and folds his arms across his chest, rests them on a surface, or carries heavy objects, his veins appear.
His fingers are thin and well-groomed, long, like those of a pianist, which Adam never was.
Just imagine the contrast it has on you during sex. His rough, sometimes wild, character and gentle movements of his hands that slide over your entire body while he whispers all sorts of dirty things in your ear. Imagine those hands touching your hips, squeezing your skin gently but noticeably to make you feel excited and excited, and then with a knee-baring grin, he leaves you unsatisfied.
Adam can and loves to tease. His hands pass dangerously close to your sensitive places, and his words are full of subtext and hints, which are sometimes not covered at all. And because many are accustomed to the character of Adam, who speaks complete nonsense, no one pays attention to the fact that Adam literally said that he would fuck you against that wall before entering heaven.
Adam sure has a sexy morning voice. He can lie on his back, finally finding a comfortable position without his wings getting in the way, one of his arms wedged under your body and resting on your side. He brushes the hair that is falling into his face back before turning his head in your direction. A smirk graces Adamâs face as he rolls onto his side and pulls you closer to him, allowing your two hot bodies to grind against each other. Adam wakes you up with a kiss behind your ear, slowly lowers himself to your neck and whispers some nonsense to you, but you donât wake up or pretend to be asleep, he takes it as a challenge and the hand from your hip slowly slides down, straight into yours underpants.
Adam likes the cowgirl position when he's too tired but still wants you. This gives you both an imaginary sense of control: you control the speed of the process, Adam controls the movement of your hips.
He likes to look at your hips and butt, whether in tight pants/high-waisted shorts or skirts/dresses that contour your figure. Adam basically likes to look at you in tight clothes, style doesn't matter as long as you like it. Besides that, he likes to see his dick penetrate your body slowly or quickly (well, I mean, he likes to watch your pussy swallow his dick, let's be honest). He loves watching your breasts bounce rhythmically as you move. He loves the feeling of your fingers on his chest as you lean against him, finding a comfortable position.
If you don't mind having Adam's dick in you without having sex, then please allow him. He is overwhelmed by a feeling of unity that has not visited him since the time of Lilith and Eve.
Not against quick sex (or blowjob).
Speaking of fetishes, Adam loves creampies and he doesnât hide the fact that heâs flattered by the idea of ââimpregnating you. And the latter is not so much a fetish as his sacred duty, because he seemed to be created for this? First man, first man and all that. However, if you can't get pregnant (or it's your mutual desire not to have children due to your lifestyle), he still loves creampies.
Adam loves to leave his marks on you: hickeys and bites, especially on your neck, arms, collarbones, chest, hips... In general, wherever he can reach with his mouth and lips. Adam likes to do this not only because he finds it sexy, but because of his insecurity. He had two wives who went to a dwarf duck! Somewhere in the subcortex of consciousness, Adam wants every living and dead soul to see that you are already busy with him and minding your own business.
Adam will probably let you do anything (within reason and as long as he feels like he's in a dominant position) if you praise him during sex or tell him you wouldn't choose anyone else over him. This will upset him.
I'm not sure exactly what word is supposed to mean what I'm about to say next (at least I've seen it called "happy way", but I can't be sure), but Adam has a faint trail of hair from his belly button to the groin. And although he takes care of himself (if you ask, he doesnât care until it starts to get in the way), but he will never remove this particular hair.
His cock is worth forgetting about toys. So are his fingers.
Adam doesn't have a favorite place to have sex, but he prefers you to be alone. Teasing in public is a whole different story!
If you want to quickly excite Adam, then touch his wings. But this should not be a light touch to the tips of his feathers, but a targeted stroking of the growth area of ââââthe wings and between the shoulder blades.
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Fic Recommendations Pt. 2
*i do not own any of these works*
Smut - âĄ
Jack Hughes
The First TimeâĄ
smutceptionâĄ
summary: when jh accidentally picks up his gfâs kindle for a roadie instead of his own, he finds some surprising books downloaded. they give him a few ideas for what heâll do when he gets home in a weekâŠ
SECOND BEST
summary: secretly pining over someone is never funâeven less so when theyâre your childhood best friend, and dating someone else.
A NONSENSE CHRISTMASâĄ
summary: when jack decides to gift you an early christmas gift, he didn't think it through when he was left wanting to rip it completely off.
RIDE 'EMâĄ
summary: in which Jack Hughes wants Fem!Reader to ride him in a different way than usual.
 âĄÂ·Â·ââàšà§ââ··âĄÂ·Â·ââàšà§ââ··âĄÂ·Â·ââàšà§ââ··âĄ
Quinn Hughes
take a seatâĄ
summary: Quinn grows a playoff beard and his girlfriend loves it. the day he decides to shave it after the Canucks get eliminated, she tells him how she really feels about it and Quinn gives her the moment sheâs been wanting since he started growing it before he shaves it.
wanna bet?âĄ
summray: you make a bet with quinn, which of you will win?
reading interruptionsâĄ
summary: when yn gets interrupted by quinn and his dirty mouth, while reading on the boat.
bed chemâĄ
First time for everythingâĄ
summary: which Quinn lets you ride his face!
SurrenderâĄ
summary: A brutal loss to the Bruins leads to Quinn showing up at your apartment at one am, and subsequently changes everything. Title and fic is slightly inspired by the song Surrender by Kut Klose.
STUCK WITH YOUâĄ
summary: of all the things y/n thought she was going to do on christmas eve, being stuck with her sisterâs brother-in-law, quinn hughes, wasn't one of them.
Luke Hughes
"Baby Zegras"
summary: childhood friends to lovers, reader is trevor's sister, secret dating caught by jack, trevor is portrayed as a mean older brother at the start (im sorry I love him I promise he gets better), italics mean flashbacks.
Stress ReductionâĄ
LIKE THATâĄ
summary: reader wants a turn at making Luke feel good, but sheâs in need of assistance from the man himself.
Shower SexâĄ
summary: after a terrible day, luke knows just what y/n needs. because what's a better relaxation than shower sex?
Sundress SeductionâĄ
summary: where luke is seduced by y/nâs sundress and he cant keep his hands off of her.
You're my dream girlâĄ
summary: Other girls made Luke's girlfriend feel insecure about her look and he's there to show her how gorgeous she is.
I'm in power todayâĄ
summary: Luke agrees to be dominated by his girlfriend in bed.
wet dreamâĄ
summary: Luke wakes yn up during her wet dream, leaving her all embarrassed, but happens when Luke makes her dreams a reality?
JUST A TASTEâĄ
summary: in which Luke Hughes is never tired between Fem!Readerâs legs.
Draco Malfoy
A Different Lesson Than UsualâĄ
summary: During potions class you get paired with Draco. From the start, he takes charge, ordering you around and making you do all the work. Despite your efforts, Draco is unimpressed with your performance and attitude. After class, he drags you to his dorm, determined to teach you a lesson. âIf you canât listen, Iâll make sure you learn.â
Flutterby BabyâĄ
summary: Draco finds out another student sabotaged your Herbology project.
Mat Barzal
CINDY LOU WHO
summary: after an agonizing breakup drove you from the country you return to long island for the holidays. but a chance encounter at a holiday party forces you to confront not only your unresolved emotions from your past, but also the revelation that mat had moved on with someone new.
know no betterâĄ
summary: with your work responsibilities taking you away from long island, you and mat haven't had much time to blow off some steam. his friends, however, are tired of being on the receiving end of mat's "steam" and enlist you to help.
feverâĄ
summary: it's your birthday. mat's horny. nothing new.
Fred Weasley
Amortentia Pt. 1
summary: you, ever so studious and diligent, despised fred weasley, the total opposite of you. it came as a surprise to you when you smelt a certain someone when brewing amortentia. one day you get stuck in a closet with him, and letâs just say the situation between you changes.
Hate and LoveâĄ
summary: in the mission of transporting Harry safely to the Burrow, you and Fred get thrown off-track as his broom breaks, resulting in an overnight detour at a hotel.
if youâve been nice, you getâŠâĄ
summary: during your trip to hogsmeade, you decide to pop into the famous honeydukes for some sweets. who wouldâve guessed that your best friend would find the sight of you with a lollipop so enticing?
Working LateâĄ
summary: you got a new job at Weasleyâs Wizard Wheezes, and youâve developed a strong attraction to one of your new bosses.
quiet rideâĄ
summary: a thirst about sneaking into fredâs room to ride him in the middle of the night.
#quinn hughes#luke hughes#jack hughes#hughes brothers#draco malfoy#mat barzal#fred weasley#jack hughes smut#luke hughes smut#quinn hughes smut
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Last, Last Time (alternate ending)
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader (she/her pronouns)
WC: ~8.2k
TW: Angst, guns, violence, mentions of domestic violence, blood, swearing, depression, kidnapping, manipulation, self-deprecating thoughts, heartbreak, arguing, the grieving process, drinking, screaming, crying, being under pressure, and anything else that comes with a criminal minds episode.
a/n: based on S15 E6 - first date. I love u aubrey plaza <3. Also inspired by the song Last, Last Time by Boys Go To Jupiter.
hey guys! some people had asked me about a happy ending version of this, and I've never really written an alternate ending before, I was struggling with whether I wanted this to be good angst or not, so having been swayed....here is the alternate ending!
Original Spencer Masterlist
âSpencer I wonâtâI canât keep doing this. Iâm sick of arguing in circles.âÂ
âY/nâŠâ
âI-I feel like you take me for fucking granted Spencer. All I do is work and then come home and wait for you to actually be able to, I donât know, sleep in the same bed as me for more than four hours.â
The look in his eyes almost took you out but your heart had already been broken long, long before this argument. If anything, you were starting to feel this sense of freedom as you broke his heart.Â
âPlease. Y/n. JustâI donâtâJust give me a few days to convince Hotch to let me have some time off and we can work on this please.âÂ
âWait for the potential of us?âÂ
Spencerâs jaw loosened. You couldnât read beyond the initial layer of pain and confusion, which made your chest ache since not too long ago you could have been able to find everything you needed in his expression.
âGod Spencer this canât be fucking news to you. Weâve been drifting apart for months now.âÂ
âI know, I know. You have been so patient with me and Iâve just beenâŠ.there was that whole thing with Cat and thenâŠ.I-I was trying so hard y/nâŠâ
âNo, first there was that whole thing with Maeve.â
âThatâs not fairââ
âOh thatâs not fair? Really? Youâre going to tell me the entire Maeve thing isnât fair to you?â
âIâm sorry.â
You sighed and closed your eyes. âIâm not saying you werenât trying but come one Spencer. Thereâs no need to deny this shit anymore. I hate it when you lie to me about these kinds of things.âÂ
Spencerâs hand came up to his face and it dragged down, aging him significantly with the fatigue written all over his face.Â
âSo youâre just going to pack up everything, break my heart, and leave? Were you even going to say goodbye, or was I going to come home to an empty home and no noteâŠâÂ
âI-I donât know Spencer. I just donâtâŠâÂ
The tears were starting to creep in, and you had to place the box down before you lost it.
âThis isnât easy for me eitherâŠâ Your chest heaved.Â
The both of you stood in silence, tension simmering surrounding the both of you like heat on a summerâs eve. Neither of you could really look at one another, but it felt wrong to look at anything else. Something was missing but you couldnât say it outloud. You knew you would always love Spencer Reid but this time it was not enough.Â
âIâm tired of arguing Spencer.âÂ
Your eyes met his. You felt Spencerâs arms around you before you could even feel the tears hit your cheeks. Your arms immediately went to his neck, so familiar. No longer home.Â
Spencerâs voice muttered into your ear. âDonât cry Jolie. Itâll be okay..âÂ
About three years ago, Spencer had decided that he didnât like that you had nicknames for him, and he had none for you. He spent weeks workshopping different ones : Sugar, Honey, Pumpkin, Sweetheart, Darlin, Pookie, Lover, Sunny (like sunshine), Sunshineâit was a wild week trying to figure out who he was talking to. Then one day, offhandedly, he was trying to tell you about this french film he had been watching, and trying to get Emily to watch with him.Â
He called you âtres jolieâ, and blushing you had asked him what it meant. He told you it meant pretty.Â
And it stuck.Â
Now? It stung.Â
All you could do was squeeze tightly onto him, not ready to let go.
âYouâre so pretty when youâre lying through your teeth.â You whispered after a few moments, pulling away out of his arms.Â
âI.â You swallow and step back, out of his reach. âMaybe Iâll.âÂ
Spencer just looked up at the ceiling, trying to hold in the tears that were streaming down his face.Â
You grabbed the last box on the counter and your keys, and walked out, for the last time.Â
You awoke in your bed, eyes adjusting to the complete darkness the blackout curtains provided you.Â
Another fucking night thinking about your decision those four years ago, and trying to decided whether your life had gotten better because of it.
You still werenât sure. Â
Moving to get up from the bed, you decided to leave the curtains closed for now, feeling as if you could melt from the sun touching you.Â
You turned on the bathroom light and started your morning routine. Wash face. Take meds. Brush teeth. Fix hairâ
Somewhere in that process, you got lost, and just stared at yourself in the mirror. You werenât sure for how long. All you could do was replay the last four years.Â
Did you make the right choice?
Something was missing. It was missing from the spot on the couch. It was missing in the mug cabinet. It was missing in the kitchen while you played music and moved around by yourself.Â
But you were happy. You have been able to throw yourself into your job, and open your own firm. You had your dream career, with some of the most amazing friends you could have asked for.Â
None of which you would have met if you stayed with him.Â
Maybe it was true what they say, you can only have a career or love, but not both.
The only thing taking you out of this spiral was the ringer on your phone going off.Â
This caused some hesitation because your phoneâs ringer was always offââthe loud noise startling you. There were only a few people who had that emergency bypass, and none of them had called you in four years.Â
You peaked out of the bathroom and saw the name light up on your phone.Â
Emily Prentiss
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The door to the round room opened up and in walked Spencer Reid. âCatch me up.âÂ
Prentiss clicked the remote, and the TV lit up with a picture of a woman smirking facing the camera while holding a gun up to another one next to her. âEarly this morning, Garcia got an email from an anonymous server.â
The second woman was tied up, mouth slightly open, and eyes filled with tears, while a man on the other side just had his eyes closed, tired. .Â
Spencer just stared at the photo.Â
Rossi nodded at the picture. âShe's not obscuring her face, telling us she's got nothing to hide.â
He never pulled focus away from the screen, mouth dry at the thought of what today was about to be.âAny ideas on the unsub?â
âNo.â Prentiss sighed. âOnly the unsub's demand. That we release Catherine Adams in 24 hours. I'm having her transferred here for questioning, but we have no illusions. This is just a game to her. We know that. The question is, do we want to play it or not?â
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Receiving a call from the FBI was not entirely new to you, since you had been engaged to one of their agents, but receiving one now? Something was deeply wrong from them to have to send you a call.Â
You hesitantly pick up the phone. âHello?â
âHey Y/n, itâs Emily Prentissââ
âI know who you are, Emily. Itâs been a couple years, not millions.âÂ
Emily hummed a brief laughter, and you could hear other voices behind her, unable to make out anything.Â
âI know this is hard to ask of you, but would you stay on the phone with me and come in?âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
âI need you to stay very calm Y/n, but I need you to stay on the line with me, leave your apartment as soon as you can, and drive to the BAU.âÂ
âUh, yeah Em. Iâm so sorry, I, uh, I completely forgot about our plans today. Let me get ready, and Iâll be there as soon as I can. Are we still meeting at your place or did you have a different location in the city?âÂ
âWeâll be at Quantico.âÂ
Your entire tone changed, having remembered what Spencer had told you all those years ago about if people were listening into your apartment, if they bugged your carâall paranoia that didnât pay off then, might be paying off now.Â
You were sure you could hear Emily sigh, and it sounded a little upset at the fact that you knew what to doâyou knew how to handle a dangerous situation, which made her question everything in her life.Â
Quickly you pulled on a pair of jeans and threw a sweatshirt over your pajama top and grabbed your keys off of the counter.Â
Today was already stressful enough, what was the point of adding a bra.Â
You left your apartment, waved to one of your neighbors, and hopped into your car, still on the line, just trying not to panic. Maybe something went wrong, maybe Spencer wasnât okay, maybe he had diedâyou refused to even acknowledge that thought and decided it was something else entirely.Â
It was a very tense hour of driving, that was only about forty since you knew how to drive above the speed limit.Â
You realized that it was past midday, and you had taken full advantage of the weekend. So at least you had a decent amount of sleep under your belt for what felt like the beginning of an extraneous night.Â
As you pulled into the parking garage, Emily Prentiss and someone you had never met before were standing there waiting for you. You placed your car in park, hopped out and walked up to themâonly hanging up as soon as you were out of the car.Â
Both of them have such grim looks on their faces, but at least they were trying to pretend like the situation wasnât as bad as it appeared.
Emily engulfed you in a hug. âMissed you Y/n. Itâs been too long.âÂ
âWell Em, next time I break up with someone Iâll consider your feelings first.â You squeezed her back, dryly laughing at your own joke. At least it caused Emily to snort.Â
âY/n this is SSA Luke Alvez. Luke, this is Y/n Y/l/n.â
âItâs nice to meet you.â He gave a small smile and nodded at you.
âI wish it were under different circumstances.â You looked over at Emily.
âLetâs head inside?âÂ
You nodded and the three of you moved inside.Â
Sure, you hadnât been here in a while, but you knew your way to the BAU Bullpen if your life depended on it, which was ironic since that was what this kinda felt like.Â
As soon as you were safely in their round table room, Luke shut the door, and stood by it, Emily coming and sitting down next to you.Â
âWhat do you know about Cat Adams?âÂ
That bitch.Â
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âI would like to go on a date. With you.âÂ
Spencer stared at her, face stoic as ever. âA date?â
âYes. I want to look pretty. And I want to have fun.â She looked him up and down. âAnd I won't even get physical, ok? Unless you want me to.â
Spencer sat down across from her. âCome here. Closer.â
Cat leaned in, a small smile on her face, absolutely intoxicated by being so close to him.
âThe only date that I'll be there for is the one where they stick a needle in your vein.â
Cat scoffed. âYou're just going to let her father and sister die? I don't think so.â
âI never said it was a father and daughter. You're already slipping.â He stood up from the table. âWe'll find them. We always do.â
Cat leaned back and crossed her arms. âNot tonight. Tonight I win.â
His resolution had yet to change, âThe score between me and you is two to zero. By tomorrow morning, it'll be a clean sweep. Enjoy eternal nothingness. It's a metaphor for your life.âÂ
And with that, the door slammed shut behind him.
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Both the profilers watched a series of emotions run rampant across your face, before you settled on a somewhat displeased smile. âA lot.âÂ
They exchanged a look, and you didnât have the energy to pretend like you didnât know what it was.Â
âDonât start with me today Emily. I know what youâre doing. Ask me the questions you want to ask. Donât try to trick me into giving the answers you want. Donât profile me.âÂ
Part of being engaged to a profiler meant you picked up on some of their own quirks. Which meant you saw Alvez bite his tongue and try to hide his smile. And you noticed that Emily, on the other hand, hid her smile a bit better but it was still there.
She nodded and pulled a file from across the table. âIâm assuming you know the basics since she, uh, is obsessed with Spencer.â
âGlad to see he still has that going for him.â You muttered and looked into the file.Â
Emily shot Luke a look when he let out a huff or air, trying his damndest not to laugh.Â
âWhat is the last thing you know about her?âÂ
You recounted the days leading up to the restaurant, and then the few days after, decidedly stopping short of the engagement breaking off a week later.Â
They shared another look, and you didnât enjoy whatever it was that had moved across their faces.Â
âWhat happened?âÂ
âY/n..â
âNo Emily, I drove all the way from DC to Quantico on the phone, I deserve to know what happened.âÂ
Emily then begins to explain to you the past four years of Reidâs life. Cat pretending she was pregnant with his kid in prison, kidnapping his mother, framing him for murder in Mexico, going to prisonâ
âSpencer went to prison and none of you thought to call meâŠ.â
âWe didnât think youâdââÂ
âIâm a fucking criminal defense attorney in DC Emily. Of course Iâd want to know if he was arrested, especially internationally. I know that law better than all of you. If someone I knew was kidnapped, Iâd call you immediately. Faster than the cops.âÂ
Both of them went silent.Â
âSo is he out?âÂ
They nodded slowly, silently.Â
âHow long was he in there?â
Nothing.Â
âI asked. How. Long.â
Luke spoke up. âThree months.âÂ
âJesus christ.â You stood up and started to pace around the room, taking the time you needed to calm down.Â
Why didnât Spencer call you?
Well you knew why Spencer wouldnât call you.Â
âOkay so heâs out.â You said finally. âWhy am I hereâHe didnât startâŠ.did he?âÂ
Emily shook her head. âHeâs actually been really good about it.â She said softly, trying to calm you down.Â
You started fidgeting with your rign finger; a habit you have picked up many years ago, and have yet to lose, even if the ring wasnât there anymore.Â
âCatâs execution is coming up.â Emily started, trying to get you back on track. âAnd weâŠ.we found out that sheâs convinced one of her former cellmates to kidnap...peopleâŠclose to Reid, and we knew youâd be on that list for him.âÂ
âShe already ruined that relationship years ago, she won that one. Why would she bring me back into it?â You sat down and looked down at the file on the table. You had never really seen a photo of her before, doing your best to avoid all of the media surrounding her arrest.Â
She was very pretty, that much was certain.Â
Just as you went to say something else, JJ knocked on the door, another blonde woman behind her.Â
They entered and JJ gave you a small, yet genuine smile.Â
You returned it, but quickly shifted your gaze onto the woman behind.Â
Your whole body shifted slightly, into a place of defense, locking your emotions down. You knew all the profilers were watching it happen in real time, which is why Emily very casually put a hand on your knee under the table.Â
âWould someone like to tell me what is going on here?âÂ
Your head turned as you looked over to Emilt, bewildered by this woman and her, well, bewilderment.Â
JJ walked over and sat down on the other side of you. âUh, Max, this is Unit Cheif Emily Prentiss and SSA Luke Alvez.â She pursed her lips before looking over at you. âAnd this is another one of the victims affected by Cat Adams, Y/n Y/l/n.âÂ
Max had crossed her arms and nodded. âVictims?âÂ
You quickly onced her over, a slightly unimpressed look crossing your features. âPeople close to Spencer get fucked over a lot.â This came out with a sigh attached to it.Â
Max almost scoffed, but you watched as she nodded. âAnd how do you know Spencer?âÂ
Your eyes met with Emilyâs really quickly.Â
Emily looked over at Max. âSheâsâŠâ
âIâm Spencerâs ex-fiancĂ©.â
It felt better to let this poor girl know, but somehow saying the words out loud left the most rotten taste in your mouth.Â
Watching Maxâs defenses go up in real time was a little sobering.
At least Spencerâs taste in partners with attitude hadnât changed.Â
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âVictimology is off.â
âHow so?â Prentiss looked up at him as he walked into the room.Â
âFather and daughter. Sheâs never done that before.âÂ
Lewis spoke up. âShe usually kills men that remind her of her father. Childrenâeven adult children, are off limits. Do we have an ID yet.âÂ
Prentiss, Rossi, Garcia, and JJ all looked over at Reid, and he just pulled a hand down his face. âItâsâŠItâs Issac and Noelle Y/l/n.âÂ
âY/l/nâŠas is Y/n Y/l/n.â Tara looked up surprised at Spencer.Â
Reid nodded slowly, just staring at the picture on the projector.
While Luke spoke up. âWho is Y/n Y/l/n.âÂ
âAn old friend.â Rossi quickly interjected, before any more explanation had to be said. It was clear both Alvez and Simmons, that whoever this was, was an extremely touchy subject for Reid.Â
Tara, who had only known you for a little while, looked back at the picture.Â
Rossie spoke up. âWhat do we know about the partner whoâs helping her?âÂ
âItâs got to be someone from her prison.â Simmons spoke up. âShe hasnât had contact with anyone else?âÂ
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After all of that, you found yourself back in a place you swore you left for the last time. It looked almost the same as when you had first moved out, but there was less of it.Â
Almost as if he was having trouble covering places where things used to be.
There were almost no photos on the walls, since you were half of them, and had taken the rest.Â
Calling someone you once loved a stranger feels wrong.Â
Max was just sitting on the couch in your spot. She was looking around as you and Rossi stood by the kitchen counter.Â
She had, understandably, decided she was not your biggest fan.
âCat had a cellmate named Juliette Weaver. We believe the two were working together, as a way for Cat to get something against Spencer, and as payment, Cat would hurt Julietteâs ex.â
You nodded. âHow does this affect me?âÂ
âShe took your father and sister.âÂ
Your back straightened and immediately brought out your phone, to call your sister, but Rossi just placed a hand on your phone and shook his head. âIf she finds out you know, then itâs all over. Sheâs doing this on purpose. She knows about you and Reid, but she knows that dragging you into all of this will hurt him more than anything else.âÂ
His voice had gone low and quiet, so that the girl on the couch couldnât hear. JJ, who was on the couch, talking to Max, looked like she was trying to block out whatever conversation was happening in the kitchen.Â
âSo why is she here?â You whispered back.Â
âBecause we donât want anyone in danger, and itâs better for us if we have eyes on both of youâÂ
You closed your eyes and nodded. âI need a cup of tea.âÂ
Rossi nodded, and placed your phone on the counter, and you walked into the kitchen,eyes closed from the stress of the situation.Â
The apartment went silent, watching as you grabbed a kettle, and started to make tea. It was like second nature to you as you turned the stovetop on, grabbed a mug from the cabinet (careful to not grab one of his favorites), and grabbed some tea from the cabinet.Â
It didnât dawn on you that you were drinking your favorite type of tea until the second sip, while the entire apartment was still silent.Â
The pity from JJ and Rossi was palpable.Â
The disbelief from Max was a boulder on you back, like Atlas transferring the world to your shoulders.Â
âDonât even start.â You muttered, moving to sit down back next to Rossi on the kitchen stools.Â
He shrugged and stayed silent.Â
That is, until JJâs walkie went off and she looked at Max. âItâs time. Letâs go.âÂ
Rossi looked over at you and gave you a quick hug, squeezing you tightly. âYouâve got this kid. Remember everything we talked about.âÂ
You nodded and gave both agents a strained smile as they left the apartment, taking Max with them, leaving you all alone in this place you once called home.
Never once, since you left, did you think you would ever be back here. You didnât even realize you were drinking from one of your own mugs until it was just you. The irony of it was not lost on you, and you sat down in your spot on the couch.Â
Well first you sat in Spencerâs seat but it felt too weird, so you shifted back into your spot on the couch.Â
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âJuliette staked out in Reidâs life. Found out he was dating someone, but then must have discovered his ex-fiancĂ©e.â Simmons sighed. âHe was probably so focused on Max, he didnât even realize that someone was digging into his history, following them around.â
Prentiss nodded as they walked and talked. âBut if Juliette was able to find Max, that meant she was easily able to find Y/n and her family. Plus, Y/n is not that hard to findâsheâs a prominent public attorney in DC. That means Juliette mustâve had access to all of her publicly available information. â
âWell at least we found their hidden agenda.âÂ
âNo. We found Catâs hidden agenda. Juliette doesnât care about Reid. Thereâs something weâre missing here. Do a deep dive with Garcia.âÂ
Simmons nodded at Prentis. âOn it.âÂ
âIâll go to Reid's apartment and monitor onsite. Is there a trap and trace on his landline?âÂ
âGarciaâs almost set up.â Simmons walked away from Prentiss, and down towards Penelopeâs office.Â
âWell this went from bad to worse.â Tara walked up to Emily.Â
Emily sighed in agreement.Â
Lewis spoke up. âFemale narcissists destroy their competition. Y/n really shouldnât be in there.âÂ
Emily just nodded and the two of them headed out of the bullpen. âWalk with me.âÂ
Tara kept stride with her as they pushed through the doors. Rossi was just getting off the phone with someone and turned to look at the two women approaching him and JJ.Â
JJ spoke up when Rossi was finished. âSo, the hospital just released the dadâ Issac Y/l/n. He's on his way here now.
Rossi scoffed. âQuestion is, why let him go at all?â
âMatt's on that.â Emily gestures in the direction of Garciaâs office. âJuliette Weaver's real agenda should tell us where she's taking Y/nâs younger sister.â
Lewis spoke next. âI still think the play here is to get Cat and Juliette to contact each other, but I have no idea how.â
Prentiss crossed her arms. âI have a plan, but first we have to talk about Y/n.âÂ
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Just then, you heard the click of the door, and stood up, watching as the door swung open.Â
And there he was.Â
This was the first time you had seen Spencer in four years.Â
And there he was, kissing Catherine Adams.Â
The woman you could give partial credit to for ending your relationship.Â
After a moment Spencer looked up, and took several steps away from Cat. His eyes were wide and locked on yours.Â
It took a lot of self-restraint to not punch the lights out of Cat, and to stand still arms crossed.Â
âY/n?â Spencerâs voice broke a little bit.Â
You never would say that Spencer was unattractive. In fact, it would be a lie if you ever even thought about it. But something about the past four years aged him like a fine wine.Â
His hair was a bit longer, he had some scruffâhis baby face had melted away and standing in front of you was a man who you thought you knew everything about, but was now a stranger.Â
You didnât answer him, watching as he took you in, standing in his apartment, for the first time sinceâŠ
âWhat are you doing here?â Spencerâs voice cracked.
You looked over at Cat, who had the most devious smirk on her face.Â
Remember what Prentiss had said to you.Â
âYou know why Iâm here.âÂ
Cat nodded and the two of them moved into the apartment, the door closing behind them.Â
Spencer just stood ten feet away from you, eyes never leaving you, and you watched him right back.Â
Cat, on the other hand, was walking around, examining the apartment. You could see her take notice of the tea you had made yourself on the counter. You could see the hatred from the corner of your eyes. The two of you were starting to piss her off.Â
She spoke up, after a few moments of silence. âDid it make you mad that I was kissing your FiancĂ©?âÂ
You shook your head. âNo.â
Your focus had fully turned to Cat, but you swore you swore you could hear Spencer take a sharp inhale as you spoke your next words.
âWell, he's not my fiancĂ© and I kind of have some other things on my mind.â
Cat didnât scare you, but there was just something so off-putting about her. âLike what?âÂ
âAre you gonna hurt Noelle?â
Cat shrugged. âNot if I don't have to, no. Honestly, if she follows instructions, she might even learn from this whole experience.â
You scoffed. âWhat does that mean?â
Cat just started fiddling with the chess set on the dresser.Â
âSpencer, what does she mean?â You turned to look back at him, his name feeling so good on your tongue.Â
Spencer, who really hadnât stopped looking at you and sighed. âShe means that Noelle isnât learning from her, but from Juliette.âÂ
You sat down in your spot on the couch, eyes closed, trying not to let Cat (or Spencer) see how truly upset you were starting to feel. Â
Spencer noticed where you sat and had to look down to conceal any notions of a smile on his face.Â
Cat watched him before turning and looking at you, more disdain on her face than before.Â
âNormally, Spencie and I, we spend our time together playing games, but tonight, I've brought you all here to make a point. You are doing so much better.âÂ
Spencer spoke up. âWith you?â
âWithout you.â Cat snapped at him. âBesides, Iâm not talking to you Spencie, I'm talking to her.â
She turned to face you. âBecause, girlfriend, you need to know the truth about your fiancĂ©.âÂ
âHe's not my finacĂ©.â You were unsure about how many more times you could say that outloud.Â
âNo kidding. Whenâs the last time you spoke? RightâŠâ Cat walked over to the center of the room, right in front of the couch. âHere?âÂ
Your head whipped around to Spencer. âYou told her about that?â
Spencer was pleading with his eyes. âI had to say a lot of things tonight.â
Catâs voice caused your head to snap back to her. âYes, he has. He said that you never compared to me, that, um... That no matter what, he will never get me out of his mind, unlike you. Unlike that girlfriend.âÂ
You tried not to wince at the mention of that girl Maxine out in one of the trucks.
Spencer sat down next to you. âEverything I saidâI was lying to save your family.â
Cat scoffed. âDid our kiss look like a lie?âÂ
âNo.â You locked eyes with Cat, almost challenging her.Â
She seemed to enjoy it.
âThank you. See, now we're getting to the heart of the matter.â Cat started mocking Spencer. âYou see, everyone thinks that Dr. Spencer Reid is... Is just this nice, bookish, uh, genius who, uh, always saves the day and has all the answers. And has zero mommy issues, right? But, um... I know the real him.âÂ
âOh, yeah? Who's the real me, Cat?âÂ
âThe real Spencer Reid throws women against walls. And hisses that he's going to kill them.âÂ
Spencer stood up, squaring off against her. âThat was a very different situation.â
âNo, it wasn't.â Cat was holding the smirk back this time, making your gut wretch.Â
âSpencerâŠWhat is she talking about?â You looked from the psychopath in front of you, to Spencer, poor Spencer who has spent the entire day entertaining her.
âYou tell her. She's not gonna believe it coming from me.â She huffed.Â
âCat..â
âDo it.â She hissed, eyeswide with hints of threate.
Reid turned and looked at you, his mouth dry and body stiff. âTwo years ago, Cat had her partner kidnap my mother. Just like tonight. She got under my skin andâŠâ
Your chest hurt. âAnd you threw her against a wall?âÂ
Catâs smirk was breaking through whatever resolve she had. âDon't skimp on the details, Spencie. She deserves to know everything.â
Every single time she said Spencie you swore it was harder to not deck her in the face.Â
Spencer looked down at his hands, and then over at you. His voice had gotten quieter. âShe was pregnant at the time and I knew that when I hurt her.âÂ
âAnd?â She stood there expectantly, waiting for Spencer to finish. When he didnât, her face suddenly became solemn. âThe next day... I miscarried. The end.â
Spencer looked at her. âThat's not true.âÂ
Youre eyes went wide. âWhat?â
They just continued to argue over you.
âIt is most certainly true. Check my medical records.âÂ
âThat doesn't mean I-I wouldâŠâ
Cat held up her hand to him. âStop. Look.â
Spencer looked over at you, just sitting on the couch, trying to process everything that was going through your head.Â
After thinking about everything you had gone through, especially with Spencer. âI thought you were better than that Spence.âÂ
It was the first time you had used a nickname for him in years. And he was hearing it for the first time while you were stuck in a standoff between himself and Cat Adams, your sister being god knows where.Â
Spencerâs voice cracked. âI'm sorry.âÂ
Cat squatted down in front of you, a sick smile on her lips. She was enjoying this. She truly enjoyed watching his life crumble to bits. âNotice how your Spencie is apologizing to you and not me.â
You clenched your hands. âHeâs not mineâŠâ
Spencer just looked over at you.Â
Cat nodded. âThat's good. Because men are all the same. Aren't they, Jolie?âÂ
Spencerâs eyes lit up with an emotion you rarely saw from him when you were together. âDon't call her that.â
And you couldnât blame him. The word ran you through like a spear and you were sure if you looked behind you, the blade would be through the couch. You tried so hard to not let either of the two people near you see how much it messed with you. You couldnât believe Spencer had told her that. Luckily for you, Cat was too busy pushing Spencerâs buttons to see the way her words won against you.Â
Cat hissed at him. âWhat, are you gonna throw me against a wall and choke me, or do you only do that to pregnant women?âÂ
You finally spoke up. âWhy are you doing this?â
âBecause I want you to see it.â She gestured to Spencer. âI want you to see that he is...no better than he was before, or any man after. Theyâre all the same.âÂ
âStop.â
Cat squatted down in front of you. âI can see it on your face. What's his name?âÂ
You stared back at her. âIt's none of your business.â
That damned smirk of hers returned. âIt is exactly my business. In fact, it's my specialty. I mean, I could have Juliette and baby sister go over there if you want. They could take care of him.âÂ
Reid looked over at you. âSay yes. Give her what she wants.âÂ
âHmm. See, he wants you to get me to make a little phone call so they can trace it.â She moved away from you both and sat down in the lounging chair across from you. âThey're so good, the FBI.â
You jumped up and started pacing, a spitting image of four years ago, unable to look at Spencer. âWhat is wrong with the two of you? What is this sick, twisted thing that you have? Listen, I just want to save my sister. Will you please just tell me what I have to do to do that?âÂ
âTell me his name. Tell me the story. That's it. And then if they can let Juliette exit stage right, then I promise you I will let her go.â
You looked between Cat and Spencer before walking over to the kitchen, and hanging up the phone. After staring down at the decision you had just made, you walked back over and took your phone out. âHere. Use this. Use my phone. They can't trace it.â
She just watched you. âYou'd be surprised.â
âI don't even need a call. Just... just a photo.â You held the phone out to her. âSomething to prove to me that she's still alive. Pleaseâ.Â
Cat just looked up at your face. âStory first.â
âY/n. Please.â Spencer turned to you, hoping youâd look back at him. âI have been here with her before. She called the number and told the partner to kill my mom.â
âIt is so tricky, isn't it? I mean, who are you gonna trust? The lying, cheating, violent psychopath... Or me?â
You looked down at the ground, refusing to look over at Spencer. âHisâŠHis name was Mike Davis. We dated for about two years. I met him a month after weâŠwe split.â
Catâs attention on you felt as if there were a million bees stinging your body all at different intervals, pain coursing through your body. âGood. When did it end?âÂ
âLast year.âÂ
âWas he good in bed?âÂ
Spencer stood up. âShut up.âÂ
Cat was enjoying this. She was enjoying watching you make Spencer uncomfortable. She was enjoying hurting him in every masochistic way she could. âWhat? You have to know where you stand.â
âHe was goodâŠâ You looked back at Cat. âGood at, um, separating me from my friends and my family. Enough that the first time he punched me in the face, I didn't have anywhere to go. And my first response was "I'm sorry, Mike." A fucking defense attorney apologizing to someone when they got hit. That's when he knew he had me.â
There was a glint in Spencerâs eyes, and you could swear they were tears, but you couldnât tell from rage or sorrow.Â
Cat continued to probe. âHow many hospital visits were there?âÂ
You showed her a small scar on the inside of your elbow. âNone. No, he... He knew how to hurt me just enough to hide it all, I guess. I never missed a day of work.â Â
âBut you found the strength to leave. What did you do?âÂ
â IâŠâ
âTell me.â
âI planned. I planned and then I waited.â
Catâs eyes lit up. âWaited for what? â
âI live here in D.C.â You looked between Spencer and Cat. âBut I'm also a resident in Virginia. It takes 60 days for the permit to clear, but because I-I know some peopleâŠit was sooner.â
Spencerâs eyes widened. âY/n, stop talking. Stop talking right now.â
Cat shushed him. âNo, don't stop. Here. Give me the phone. Look, I'm gonna enter the text. Stick the landing and I'll hit send."
You handed her the phone and she quickly typed out a message, her thumb hovering over send.Â
Fiddling with your ring finger, you started to speak again. Slowly. Concisely. âWhen I was ready, I picked a fight. Loud enough for the neighbors to hear. And he came at me with his fist just cocked back, so I pulled my Glock 19 out of my purse. I shot him.â
Spencer tried to interject. âIt was self-defense. He was attacking youââ
âThat's what I told 911 as he was struggling to breathe on his kitchen floor. That's why the police never charged me. Iâm a lawyer, I know how to plead.â You closed your eyes. âBut I... after I hung up, I... I shot him two more times.âÂ
Cat was glowing, spinning around to face Spencer. âWow, you really have a type, don't you? Quite a dilemma, too. She just admitted to murder.âÂ
Spencer was in disbelief. âShe'll beat it.â .Â
âProbably. But whatever feelings she might have still had for you, and whatever Maxine might have seen in youâ-itâs all gone.âÂ
The phone in your hand buzzed.
âOh, wow. Look at that. Your sister. Alive and well. You're welcome.âÂ
Your face hardened up, and you stood up straighter. Walking away from the two of them, you opened the door. âI got it.âÂ
Emily took the phone from your hand and you turned back to the two of them. There was no emotion behind your eyes as you looked back at Spencer.Â
Cat smirked and looked up at Spencer. âI win.âÂ
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The prison transport was quiet, with the two guards sitting across from Spencer and Cat. It had been silent for about twenty minutes, but then, Cat spoke up.Â
âDo you know why I did this? Why I really did this?âÂ
Spencer looked down at his hands. âYou wanted to prove I'm a monster just like you.â
âNo... Silly. I just wanted to see you again. I just wanted to make sure that you would never forget about me.â She sighed. â'Cause when they do put that needle in my arm, I just want there to be even the slightest chance that... Maybe you're still thinking about meâŠâ
Spencer stiffened as she placed her head on his shoulder. âYou didn't have to terrorize innocent people. You could've just written a letter.âÂ
âWould you have written me back?âÂ
When Spencer didnât respond, Cat knew her answer.Â
âBye, Spencie. I really enjoyed our date.â She smiled at him desperately, getting dragged out of the vehicle by the guards to the prison.Â
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The elevator door opened and Spencer walked out of it, his whole body reeked of defeat, and he barely looked at Emily as she spoke. âWe need to debrief.âÂ
âI need some time Emily.â He muttered, walking right past her and into the bullpen. His expression changed when he saw you on one side talking to Tara, and Max on the other, looking up at him right as he walked in.Â
âSpencer, are you okay?âÂ
Her voice caught your ear, and immediately you looked up to see her walk over and embrace him in a hug.Â
He stiffly smiled at her, and returned the hug before muttering that he would be back in a moment.
Watching Spencer hug her and whisper something in her ear, make your stomach lurch, and you had to turn away.Â
Spencer walked over to you, and you stood up as he approached.Â
âUh, Tara, would you mind giving usâŠâ
She nodded at him and walked away.Â
Both of you went to speak, trying to say something to the other.Â
âI should explain all of this.âÂ
Spencer shook his head. âYou donât have to explain any of that Y/nâit doesnât.âÂ
You cut him off. âSpencer, please.âÂ
The two of you moved out and voer into the kitchen, providing a bit more privacy than before. âIt was fakeâmost of it was fake. I didnât kill anyone, Spence. I was just lying to her to get her to send the text from my phone. It was allâŠIt was made up.âÂ
He just nodded, staring at you, eyes cloudier than a storm crossing an ocean.Â
You gave him a soft smile, and gently placed a hand on his shoulder. Both of you could feel the pulse between it, but your hand stayed where it was.Â
âMike Davis is alive, and I donât really know about well. But heâŠwe dated for about two years and he didâŠhe raised a fist one time but never actuallyâŠhe never hit me. I threw him out that night. Iâm okay.â
Spencer lets out a breath slowly, just trying to take in everything you were saying.Â
Spencer watched as what little resolve you had left crumbled under his gaze, and you looked up, trying to keep the tears at bay.Â
He gently wrapped his arms around you, and helf you tightly, like all those years ago. âIâm so sorry you got dragged into this.â His words melted into your skin as you wrapped your arms around him.Â
After a minute of standing like this, the two of you broke apart, and one of his hands came up to your cheek, wiping away a single tear that was left.Â
You took a step back, the irony of this mirror image not lost on you, and you guestered back into the bullpen. âYou haveâŠYou have to talk to Max.âÂ
Spencerâs face dropped a little at the mention of her name and he shook his head. âIâllâŠIâll deal with her in a second. She wasnât the one who had to face a woman who completelyâŠ.â
âChanged and fucked up what I thought my life would be. Yeah, I know. But she also cares about you.â You laughed a bit, putting back together a resolve that was nonexistent.Â
âSpence, They filled me in on everything that happened between both of you in the past couple years, and they asked me if I would be willing toâŠhelp them beat her.âÂ
He didnât like that you knew about everything that had gone down. He was so happy you were okay. He was a little impressed by the way you beat Cat at her own game. He was upset that you put yourself in danger. You could read him like you read one of your favorite books, knowing which emotion was coming up next.Â
âThey gave me an ear piece and everything.â You gave him a small smile, trying to make light of something.Â
Spencer shook his head. âYouâre not trainedâthatâs extremely dangerous of you.âÂ
You sighed and nodded. âUnfortunately Spencer, this isâŠthis was the life I was used to when we were together. I knew the stakes. I mean the briefings I had with Hotch after you relapsedâŠâÂ
Spencer just clammed up and stood a bit straighter. â I didnât know that..â
âIt was like that on purpose. I didnât want you to think that you were a burden or too much orâI was doing it for the potential of usâŠâ You cut yourself of, flinching at the parallels between this and your previous final conversation.Â
Garcia walked over and placed a hand on Spencerâs shoulder. âIâm sorry to interrupt darlings, but I just need you both to know, Cat Adams had a miscarriage, but it was months after whatever encounter you had. Itâs not your fault. We looked at her records.â She was speaking low for you both, yet both of you let out a quiet sigh of relief.Â
You looked over at Garcia. âThank you Pen.âÂ
Taking another small step back from Spencer, even though every single neuron in your brain was firing off, telling you what you were doing was wrong. âI should, I should grab my stuff, and go back. Penelope?âÂ
She had a rueful look on her face, but she nodded and took your arm, walking you back over to the desk where your stuff was.Â
Spencer flexed his hand, almost as if he wanted to grab yours and never let go, but he just walked over to Max.Â
You started to collect your things, but got sidetracked by a conversation with Rossi.Â
You missed the small conversation that Spencer had with Max. You missed the way they hugged, and the way that the two of them walked out of the bullpen and to the elevator. You missed as they disappeared for a few minutes.Â
âRossi, I promise to do better about keeping in touch. I swear.âÂ
âI donât just invite anyone over for dinner, you know. Itâs an exclusive invitation.âÂ
You smiled, almost all real. âTrust me. I know. Besides⊠the phone is a two way device, so you have to text me first sometimes too.âÂ
You looked over for Spencer, the smile on your face shifting ever so slightly into one of sadness when he wasnât around. And no one would have noticed, if not for the fact that you were in a room full of profilers.Â
âWell everyone, IâŠthis was lovely. Weâll have to do this whole âgetting my family kidnappedâ again some time.âÂ
This remark caused a few laughs and some smiles, as you said your goodbyes, and Emily walked over to the elevator.Â
She was about to say something, but the doors opened and revealed Spencer. He seemed like a weight had been taken off his shoulders and you smiled at him.
Emily excused herself, giving your shoulder a squeeze, and leaving the two of you alone.Â
âLet me walk you out.â
You nodded, and entered the elevator.
The two of you stood in silence until you reached the parking lot.
You both stepped out, and looked over at your car, before looking back at one another.Â
It was Spencer who spoke first.Â
âIâm so so sorry Y/n.â He whispered. âI never meant any of this to happen to you, and for you to get dragged back here andââÂ
As soon as he met your eyes, you dropped your bag, and Spencer wrapped his arms around you tightly, just holding you and resting his head on yours; trying to give you the comfort that he was rarely able to give you. You just tightly wrapped your arms around his torso and just held onto him tightly. Trying to decompress, trying to truly understand everything that had happened in the past twelve hours.Â
Part of being a lawyer meant that acting and diffusing situations was part of your life, but sometimes, it was just a defense mechanism. It was exhausting.Â
âAre you okay?âÂ
Spencer looked at your face, pulling away slightly. You were worried about him.Â
He went to nod, but decided to shake his head no. âToday wasâŠIâm so sorry sheâŠâÂ
âItâs what she wanted, Spence, and unfortunately she justâŠâ You whispered. You tried so hard to find the right words.Â
After another moment in his arms, you took a step back and shook your head.Â
âIâm sorry.â
âY/nâŠâ
âSpence you have a girlfriend.âÂ
âY/n.â
âAnd IâŠI donât know if I could put myself back to where I was four years ago.â
âJolie.âÂ
You took another breath, but kept going. âYou are amazing, and funny, and so smart Spence. But thisâŠwe ran our course. It didnât work then, and I donât know if I have it in me to try again just for it to fail.âÂ
âWe wonât.âÂ
âYou canât promise something like that.â
âI can. I will.â
You shook your head. âMaxâŠâ
âWe broke up.â
Spencer gently grabbed your face, giving you enough time to back out.
You didnât.Â
His lips locked with yours, his thumb rubbing against your cheek as the two of you shared one more moment, just for the two of you.Â
Catharsis didnât even begin to describe the feeling of the ache in your bones subsiding. Every single moment of stress, of doubt, just melted away and left you grabbing a hold of Spencerâs shirt and pulling him impossibly closer.Â
It was going to be different. Everything was not the same. You both had grown, you had changed, and for the better. But eventually, you were always supposed to find your way back to this moment, with yourself in Spencerâs arms and your lips on his lips.Â
It was solidified when a few months later, Spencer left the BAU to become a full time professor in DC, and moved into your apartment, abandoning the one where Cat had ruined your life not once, but twice.Â
It solidified as the two of you made time for one another, constantly finding new cities around the world to explore.Â
It solidified forever when he placed a ring on your finger and whispered I do in front of your friends and family.
It was always meant to be, and sometimes, the path to forever, is everchanging.Â
But at least you were able to do it with Spencer Reid by your side.Â
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