#it's not gonna look Bad™ like my hair is long and wavy and no one's gonna notice if it's uneven

[kittyhazelnut]

I just cut a solid inch or so off my hair and I won't really know until I wake up with dry hair whether it looks good (or whether I got all the dead ends) and it's killing me

[ftm-radio]

my main quest for 2022 is all about acquiring Boy Goop™ so with that in mind, I thought it'd be fun to compile a list of my current transition goals/the changes I am most hopeful for!

honestly I'm really only writing this bc I can't stop thinking about it and maybe typing it all out will get it outta my brain for a bit lol

a good, deep, masculine (and sexy? 😳) voice. I know I cannot be corpsehusband (rip my impossible dreams 💔) but I'd love to be a lot closer to his voice than the one I've got rn lmao

some scruffy stubble. idc if it takes me 10 years to get a proper beard, I just want the scruff rn. I'll worry about a beard when I'm like.. 30

curly/wavy hair, please god, give me this 😫🙏🏻 I have wanted curls for as long as I can remember, I want to join the "I started t and got curls" club so bad awhzjjsjdjsk if my hair curls I WILL grow it out again is2g, I will love & appreciate my hair way more than I did as a kid 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

a modest but respectable amount of muscle. I know t makes it easier to gain muscle so hopefully it won't let me down lol

ngl i kinda want a bigger nose?? iirc t can make your nose grow a bit (jammidodger said that happened to him in one of his vids) so if I have to have a boring kinda feminine (imo) nose maybe it can at least be a little bigger so I like it more lol

square jawline?? I'm fat so it's hard to see but I'm pretty sure I've got a squarish jaw under my facial chub so if t could chisel that out a bit I'd sure appreciate it

thicker fingers, more masc hands. [chanting] manly man hands manly man hands manly man hands manly man hands MANLY MAN HA—

fuller/darker eyebrows! always loved the bigger brows, mine are okay but kinda sparse tbh. also throwback to 16 y/o me pretending to agree with my sister but secretly feeling bad when she made fun of aria prettylittleliar's thick brows <3

general body hair growth. my brother is a pretty hairy dude so I think I've got this one in the bag but 🤞🏻 just in case, lol. when I was a teen one of my older sisters was envious of how light/fine my arm hair was and commented on it every once in awhile and tbh I think that made me feel weird/self conscious looking back so maybe round 2 of puberty will fix that

I know im too old for it to happen but like... could I be a little taller?? just an inch or two? pretty please? 😭

it's not a physical change but hello t please give me self confidence 😘

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🤏🏻🍆😏💕 c'mon u know what this one's about lol

okay most of this is so basic lmao 🙈 whatever, I guess I'll be easy to please. I just want the boy sauce. the man lotion. essence of masculinity.

as soon as I get my ss bullshit fixed & i can change my name on my insurance I'm gonna make doctors appointments and figure out what I gotta do to to get hrt!! 😤💕