#it's like going to 3 am rn and I'm still sitting here writing good fucking god

[hoshigray]

Hiiiii hello, beautiful ppl :)))

yeahhh been inactive these past few days bc of irl things. So, update: 1) pushing gojo fic to next week bc I hate the drafts I'm coming up for it, so I need to rewrite everything until it all makes sense and perfect. Sorry for the inconvenience, gojo gawker babessss!!!

And 2) since it's Halloween today, I'm trying to finish up the ex-husband! Toji fic as fast as I can 😅😅 i don't have much to write, but from how it's looking, it's probably gonna be another 6k novel......sigh. at this point, it's whatever, lol. Anyway, sorry for the hold up, life is unpredictable as always, and I hope y'all are enjoying your night/day 🩵

[memberment]

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE

So the Trinitarians brain worm is back and Morning Glory is now longer and biting the dust as far as my focus goes.

But like, I genuinely want to talk to anyone who's invested in what's to come as far as part two goes. SO PLEASE. I IMPLORE THE FOUR OF YOU WHO PERPETUALLY TAKE NOTICE OF MY SCREAMS INTO THE VOID.

We're all aware that Trin is a time loop fic. That is confirmed.

BUT THE PROBLEM IS HOW I'M GOING ABOUT DOING THAT. AND I NEED INPUT FROM PEOPLE THAT ARE NOT ME AS FAR AS PLEASES AND SPARKLES GO, YES?

Because like sure I'm writing it and like fuck everything else, let me tell my story. But it's the how of it all like if I'm gonna throw another 200 give or take hours into this I would at least like one person to be having a wonderful time drinking and driving (I have since remembered this is not a common phrase, I do not mean this in a literal sense, it's an expression) with me right?

Part two is going to be 50 chapters, give or take. (Part one is about 37 for reference.)

So the plan for part 2 rn is (ROGUHLY):

(1-10) is the second timeline. There are a lot of importants and I cannot just glaze over it all more than that. But we're also working in a bit of a shorter time period than the original events of the story and introductions do not need to happen again, right?

(11-40)ish would be me running through the next timelines in a set up structure -> what changes -> the results of said changes and then inevitably what sends our looper backwards. It wouldn't be running through all the timelines but the more notable ones in kind of a four chapter structure, I am not fully sold on four, but rough estimate yk.

And then 41-50 would be the finale of part two. It's literally the last timeline in its glory and then the epilogue which kicks off part three.

COULD AT LEAST ONE OF Y'ALL SIT THROUGH THAT OR DO YOU GUYS HAVE ANY NOTES AT ALL BECAUSE LIKE

I personally kinda like it but if not a soul is reading this I am throwing myself on the curb with the rest of the garbage LMFAOOO.

I NEED THOUGHTS. OPINIONS. COMMENTS. CONCERNS. ANYTHING.

Anyways, I'm going to work. I have off tomorrow and I broke the ff investment seal for today so insanity and updates will be here tonight and homework will be tomorrow.

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD DAY <3

(9:30) I am literally falling asleep as I lazily write this angel based on Danse Macabre. Expect all of maybe one more update tonight if the tacos I am abt to receive don't wake me up LMFAO.

Also, I am almost saddened by not having something to post tm. Anyone want an early chapter of something that isn't Genesis/Desolation bc they're both on Monday?????? (I am feeling like a menace rn)

(10:19) tacos and the absolute yap session I just had did wake me up a bit. MAAAYBE might write some more. Idk I slept like three hours last night and went to work I'm kinda dead. But we're at 98.2k!!!!!!🥳

(11:06) okay we made it to 99.6k everything besides the flashback for 31 is done. I'm about to relax and watch something and figure out mechanics of some of this because god this series is A BEAST. Like, I still have six planned chapters left.

Pure insanity. I love it here. I hate it here.

Holy shit wait I just came to the realization that I started this fic exactly one month ago. I have belted out 99.6k for THIS FIC ALONE. (Moreso if we're including future shit that hasn't happened yet)

IN ONE MONTH.

THAT IS FUCKING CRAZY WHAT HTE FUCK LMFAOOOO

I may or may not be cooking we’ll find out in 6-26 business hours

(5:28) So I just had a very interesting past few business hours. I read a fic I've been waiting ever so patiently to finish. That's cool, right. I go for a walk at 4 in the morning because I'm insane. Fantastic. I get home at five and I'm like ohhhh well what do I do now it's not sleep time yet. Oh write I'm supposed to be drawing.

Nope I reread the epilogue of morning glory and realized Tweek's first address is for my morning glory and Craig's last sign off is your morning glory and now I'm ready to throw myself on the curb with the garbage as I sob. Someone call a trusted adult for me thanks.

[celestie0]

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZS2RSBkv1/

Ellie I’m gonna cry I was never into any of this stuff until kickoff like the trajectory of my brain chemicals has just been manipulated by ur writing I’m so hyper fixated and ofc the reason I was reading fanfictions in the first place was bc I was victim to the gojo girl labotomising pandemic that came with jjk season 2 like after growing up and being out of anime and all for a good year and a half and then that happened so suddenly when I was literally reluctant and cynical in watching the season on a whim and next thing I knew I was deranged in my gojo/geto/satosugu obsession but girl if I had one wish and I’m being so fr rn like if it had a time limit and I couldn’t have a family discussion to deeply contemplate what would be the most worthwhile wish that they dictate to me, if an angel came down to me and I had like 10 minutes and I had something in my system so I don’t freak tf out and I’m feeling chill and don’t think about being selfish then you’d think I’d wish for gojo to come to life and fuck me into the earth but the logistics of that are fucked so I’m pretty decided that I’d either wish for kickoff gojo to be my bf irl or to be y/n in kickoff and be written by you <3

moral of the story now I love ur fic and version of the characters more than the actual series

I’ve used my sign off too often I hope this isn’t annoying or creepy im just going into college/uni next year and I have a lot of dreams and aspirations so ig kickoff rlly resonated with me in that way

this isn’t the fat ask that’s pending hehe I just wrote this sitting on the doorstep of my house with my shoes still on cause I just got home

imma need a good relaxed night to get that down but I’m sorry I didn’t offer my support earlier I’m glad sm people did bc even though my possessive nature makes me think I’m ur biggest fan the truth is a lot of people are as taken by you and ur work as I am, I just should of typed up something on the matter as soon as I saw ur post but I rlly wanted to put thought into it and any kind of writing is a real chore for me so I’m waiting until I have that down time

ik it’s not much to anticipate but it’s important to me lol I wanna be here for u along with the many other anons

also that TikTok was random but this Olympic lovey doveyness is making me sick while im in such a state

this was never suppose to be this long I belong in yap jail

-spinster anon or wtv

AW SPINSTER ANON!! THAT'S SO SWEET PLEASE!! OF ALL THE WISHES YOU COULD HAVE!!! (yes def look out for your family first though xd...although i can't lie and say i wouldn't at least THINK about wishing for gojo to come to life and put me in a mating press)

TO SAY YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN THE ACTUAL SERIES CHARACTERS i'll sob stop. and aww i'm so glad kickoff is resonating w you as you start your journey to college!! that's really why i started writing it. there was so many things i wish i had done differently and also so many things i think i took for granted in college, but also so much to celebrate and find joy in! it's hard especially when you don't quite know who you are or what you want and yea i think that's kind of a theme in kickoff, and will be through to the end, but anywho i'm like being very preachy rn haha i wish you best of luck in starting college <3

and aw that's sweet bb thank you, i appreciate you. honeslty the thought enough and to know you love my works is so much support enough!! :'') i appreciate you. and yes that olympic couple was sooo cute i love the way he just picked her up how cute.

[psychewritesbs]

Not really much for a discussion here but it's just smth that's been on my mind I need to eject it sorry 🙏 A thing I rlly rlly like about jjk is the theme of saving people as well as the fact that characters actions actually have consequences that often times are fatal if not for them for others around them. I think one of the most consistently relevant quotes from jjk, especially relating to recent chapters but we don't need to talk about them 🤕🤒🤧, is when megumi (WHERE IS HE) was like "what happens when the person you save goes on to kill someone else?" Bc like. This whole thing started because yuji saved megumi who then decided to save yuji despite knowing he was sukunas, which he later paid for. Not only that but bc of just these choices so many people like just SOOOO many people lost their lives including people they know which is the complete opposite of what yuji is striving for and then add on the fact that pretty much all the big character deaths/megumi takeover </3 happened directly in front of yuji which is brutal but also extremely effective in showing us that in this story, protagonist or not actions have consequences and plot armour isn't gonna save anyone this time. Also whenever I think abt this I'm reminded of when yujis grandpa tells him to "save people even if it's just one" which was really the motive for yujis resolve in the first place, and I'm bringing that up rn because yuji still hasn't been able to save the people he cares for most and it's just. God it's so tragic but it's so good and it's things like this that are the reason I love jjk so much and trust in gege's story telling . Idk if I have a point to this so sorry for the random word vomit but I just think that the specific theme of saving people and the different views everyone has about it, as well as characters actually having to deal with the consequences of their actions (nobara jumping in on the fight with mahito, megumi letting yuji live, just EVERYTHING with gojo tbh, etc) is just done so well done and I really do look forward to (maybe a hint of dread in there too) seeing how he ties it all up. Having said that if he doesn't return my son to me next chapter he WILL be hearing from my lawyer and I will be taking full custody 🤝

Hola!

ok but... I LOVE this! I couldn't agree more!

It's like one big massive hard dish of cold truth. And I think that's what's so deeply resonant about this particular theme in the story is the idea that the road to hell is paved with good intentions because there are simply so many moving parts that are beyond our control.

Of course, in this case, we're also talking about how these characters are responsible for, not just their own misfortunes, but also that of others.

So, as you say, I also love that "in this story, protagonist or not actions have consequences and plot armour isn't gonna save anyone this time".

Because ain't that the fucking truth? Like if I had plot armor going for me I'd be a millionaire by now lol. But instead I have to sit with the consequences of my choices loooool.

idk, I am going on a tangent here but I just love how Gege can write about these deep truths about the human condition that are so relatable and agree with you that he's doing a beautiful job of it.

And to me, that's the kind of storytelling I like. So I also hear you about trusting Gege's storytelling.

I'm looking forward to seeing where Gege takes this whole thing AND to more word vomit from you too! Thank you for sharing the jjk-love!

Also, I'm totally interested in joining a class-action suit against Gege for custody of Megumi LOL 🤝.

Thank youuuuuuuuu 🫶🏼.

[arpiniko]

just venting a bit bear with me or just scroll over

not me being so completly overwhelmed with work and preparing for new college (gods i start tomorrow. i'm kinda panicking)

i'm finally going after 5years of trying to fine art college. so i'm kinda stressed. its not my first college but it kinda feels different in premise. so i'm so stressed. but i try to calm down. i cant even concentrate on my work atm. yes i write this at work. when i should be doing some other stuff.

and the fact that my roomate (the third one) is absolutely still useless. and so stupid.

and i had to clean whole flat myself today before work. even tho i worked today since 13. i had to wake up at 6am to clean it all. and i mean deep CLEAN

my hands are so worn out from all the chemicals over htis month. back when the aforementioned roomie fucked up big time and while me and other roomie were away she didnt throw out the trash and we had bugs. i had to clean kitchen fully like every day untill they were completly gone.

and her inviting her friends. and not cleaning after. i know i should have made her to clean. but i'm only starting to learn to be assertive or even aggresive. and also i hate her for not cleaning after herself. and in the common space. i need to have clean counter. or knoves or pots or whatever to eat. and she just. leaves everything dirty. sticky. yucky. and she cant even cook well.

and at work. the cleaning lady that work here are on veeeeeery long break rn and i have to clean there too.

hah. even last sat i went to work on short notice bc there were two parties taking place and i was like oh ok. i know a lot of stuff happeing. so i will prolly just keep the reception desk and the rest will take care of clients. so i wore my good vampiric shirt and all to look ok. did i sit by reception desk?

no. i got apron. and was peeling almost 10kg of potats. preparing food. and doing over 40 schabowe. i was supposed to look nice and click stuff on pc. not work in kitchen. my hands are starting to look like my grandma's

and today. again. cleaning the apartment since i woke up. went to work. and then turns out i have to clean here too. i'm so tired of cleaning.

today just grabbing a jar of cottage cheese my skin was cut open and bled quite a bit.

and also bc of college i will have so little time now. so little i have only 3 days of work this month. total. its .... i will get so little money this month.... i'm kinda scared.

tomorrow will be so difficult for me... bc its also my problem with remembering faces and new ppl. i only now am starting to remember my work colleagues. i've been working here for few months now. and yet i still have problems. and another ppl at asp will be soo... so so so stressful

[charmspoint]

10, 18, and 28 for the ask game!!

10. Have you ever written for a fandom without reading other fanfic for it?

All the time hjbjh especially for smaller fandoms like...I just wrote a fic for Gachiakuta and the only other fic in that tag is a x reader smut so.... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ small fandoms make do am i right.

18. What’s your most underrated fic?

In my opinion that would be Seven Days Before He Left i worked really hard on this one and tried a bunch of new things and think it came out really really well and i will never stop shoving it in peoples faces like LOOK LOOK AT THIS. It's a fic covering seven days before Suguru left the school (+day of and day after) and it's shaped like am ominous little count down, switching from Satoru's to Suguru's perspective of events (5 days from Satoru's perspective and 4 from Suguru's). Here I really wanted to play with the feeling of dread and inventiblity , of reader KNOWIN what will happen and being TOLD what will happen and still having to sit through it and watch them struggle to a conclusion they cannot avoid. The overall wordcount is 12k but its divided into 9 short sections most of which are around 1-2k at most so despite it's length i think its super digestible and easy to read as well as jam packed with tiny lil relationship and character studies and some neat curse designs. Here's a lil excerpt

I think i did a good job id like it if more people would read it :3

28. if you could only ever write for a single crossover or a single fandom again, which would you pick?

Fuck that sounds like a nightmare scenario jkhjkbkjk sounds like a sure way to burn out. Jujutsu Kaisen has been treating me really well with it's themes of grief and death and love which are all themes I adore and like to write about so I suppose I wouldn't mind sticking around if I had to choose any one thing but also if I was forced to choose maybe i would just go back to my roots and do durarara??? I'm reading gachiakuta rn and it has such wonderful themes of finding value in things and people that are discarded and about fighting darkness and hate with love and care so I can def seeing it becoming one of my favs but it's still v early in that series so I would have to see.

Point being I'm far too fickle and unfaithful to ever marry myself to a fandom jhbhjbj :3

ask game

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary167

2/27-28/2024

wednesday - thursday

i'm sisisisitting here, and i have a bank acct. now.

my card is gonna be sent to my parent's place, i've gotta go over there to get it, in about a week i suppose. that'll be interesting but i talked to my mom today. not about the card yet, but i'll talk about it tomorrow i think, when we talk more. she is not mad at me, it seems like.

i got really dressed up for the bank today, look!

people were nice to me basically except in walmart where lots of people stared at me, and then this guy that worked there looked totally totally totally disgustedddd. it was fun. i wish i told him to fuck off. i need to stick up for myself better. i think that'd be like, sticking up for myself, right. or is staring back the only thing i should really do? idk.

i ate too many chips today, also, so i'm feeling yucky rn. blehh.

just found out about a really awesome seeming book:

gonna find out more abt this soon, the publisher too, the bits my friend is sending me from this book of poetry are really really good.

just really really beautiful writing, grounding itself in / exploring/ telling history, in ways it is typically not told. a beautiful project, at minimum. but it does not feel like it's just hitting that minimum, truly good writing. it's also from 2023, which is super exciting i think. good writing is still coming, you just have to look.

another thing today, i got new lyrics and vocals down on a song, i wonder if i care about the lyrics that much, but idk, i think it's good, it's definitely about a lot of stuff i've been thinking about lately, re: music people, dj scene and stuff. frustrations. it felt good to scream, today, cuz of being so fucked up yesterday i guess.

i think maybe i could go in and re-record the middle bit and parts of the end, but i think the way the song opens vocally is good. i might also just be having funny issues w/ the sound of the vox. idk. we will see how i feel tomorrow. but since i did that i did also mess w/ how the song sounds, did the saturation thing to it, and that does sound quite good, imo.

tomorrow i need to do some more songs, just re: producing/mastering, i wanna do at least 2-3, and maybe on the 3rd i do a song that has vocals but i want to replace them entirely, so i can start thinking of new ideas for the song.

i also have a new idea for a drawing, that's fun, a new little pixel art ornament thingy.

listening to a lot of the album now, to see how things are coming along, one song still has overly saturated vocals, and some little pieces that need cutting, should be easy enough, i think i like that vocal take, i should sit on the take still, not go in and do that, and for the most part everything is feeling like, good, i think. coming along well, and stuff i thought was worse off isn't too bad really. that might change tomorrow for me but we'll see. there's gonna be a time where i need to just let this all go, and put this out. that time definitely feels like it's coming. or idk, that makes it sound like i'm just putting less effort in, i don't think that's true, it's just that things really are wrapping up in a way i feel like. like how many more times can i conceivably mess with nuances of guitar tone, everything is getting closer and closer to what i want, what isn't that's just getting cut and put off for later, and i can tell at least one of the songs i cut is going to really benefit from that, since i can rewrite parts and have something last longer, i can have this part i really like be like, a closer for this next ep maybe.

anyway, it's like 1 am and i need to prepare for the next days of work where i'm going in at 11 am soo,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[forjongseong]

I AM FINALLY HERE FOR 7 AND 8.

Hwiyoung being the real one to stay by ceoyn when Jay freaken fainted. omg I PAUSED MY MUSIC SO FAST, NANA!! And the whole brushing his hair scene PLEASE! Jay let me run my fingers through your hair, dammit!

WHY ARE WE CRYING? Because we love jay omfg

“You’re beautiful even when you cry. That seems unfair,” he protested.

SHUT UP JAY! i'm still crying omg they are so beautiful wtf.

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH IS THE SCENE FROM TIKTOK WHERE YOU SENT ME ABOUT JAY STAYING IN T-T IM CRYING OMGOMGOMGOMG MY HEART

“Come here,” he invited. “Sit on your throne.”

BYE! I NEED HOLY WATER

Your lipstick began to stain the base of his dick, and when he opened his eyes to look at you he almost cummed right then and there.

WEE WOO WEE WOO I NEED TO GO TO THE ER I AM CRYING AT THIS SCENE

“Be a good girl and do as I say, will you?”

#TEAMFERAL BYE I AM DEACTIVATING

wtf nana THAT ENTIRE SEX SCENE i am levitating. omg i feel dizzy. someone needs to help me for a minute

NAMJOON?! EXCUSE ME!? WAS K NOT ENOUGH? omg my heart.

-- onto pt8

 the very finger that was already tainted with your arousal.

I JUST LEVITATED YET AGAIN CAN JAY STOP?

There was a lot of pouting and whining and stomping your feet softly when it came to persuading your boyfriend

GIRRRRRL me right here dhajskdajk always trying to convince my man to go to places with me T_T i know how ceoyn feels

Hoseok noticed your behavior and was about to ask you about it

HOBI MY MAN! MY MAIN MAN NOTICING hjdsakhdakjdakj come here hobi

“If I win, we’re getting the fuck out of here so I can have some alone time with you,” he said, ever so gently and right into your ear.

WE LOVE THIS MAN BYE! jay we dont need play. lets just leave rn. right fucking now dhsajkdhakj

Okay their conversation about Nam is so mature and awesome? Like this is what communication in a relationship is about. You communicate before the assumptions build and I love it so much. Jay didn't like the way Nam was looking at her and its fair enough for him to say, "dont see him again."

“Was I too rough last night?” He asked again, voice lowered to a whisper.

JAY FHJKDHJAKSDAKS CHILL, MY DUDE! Our bodies hurt for different reasons okay!

JAKE BABYSITTING CEOYN T-T PLEEEEEEEEASE!! That is the sweetest thing every omg im weeping happy tears. Jake is the man for the job.

NANA T-T the entire bed scene of them cuddling and ceoyn in tears, afraid of losing something wonderful to jay freaking out about her being in pain lord have mercy i just wanna hug them both. ceoyn is soooooo relatable when she gets a lil emotional because im the same

Not Hwiyoung out here sharing information and Heeseung knowing dhakjsdhakjs HWI SHUT YOUR MOUTH SDFGHJKL

NOT JAY PUTTING HER IN A HEADLOCK WTF FGHASDJHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH EVERY GIRLS DREAMS OUT THERE RN

omg game night with the boys pls that is so fucking precious. me squealing at Jake telling them to get a room but they're the ones raiding her house dhsajkdhahaahahahha!!!

AND THE MINISODES PLEASE! I LOVE HOW CUTE THEY ARE I AM HERE GUSHING AND KICKING MY FEET IN THE AIR UGHHHH worth the wait <3

I'm laughing because I can't imagine how tired your eyes must be after reading all the parts that you missed!! I have missed your reactions! And I'm glad you liked the parts that I liked writing too especially when Jay explicitly said he didn't like her ex <3

I TRY MY BEST to make ceoyn relatable to all of you like... okay maybe not all of us own a company lol but she is a woman just like everyone of us and we get emotional sometimes!!!

also I didn't know you'd be that surprised to find Namjoon because I thought I talked about him a lot HAHAHAH GREAT THEN, A SURPRISE!

part 9 is in the making and thank you for always tuning in!!!

[cquackity]

hello thes! i am here to talk about another one of your aus/fics.if that is ok with you of course. this time the questions will be about your tnt duo au/ideas/fics (you aid u had 2000+ words. u can just pick one)

HI MYE!!! well. i actually have around 20,000 or so words of various tntduo fics. the problem is i half finish everything or scrap shit because i'm hypercritical 💀 but i'll tell you about the one i have the most for so far!!! its called Sober to Death, i've got about 8.1k words, and is quackity centric (like most shit i write). putting my rambling under a cut

so it takes place almost directly after slime's death. wilbur comes across an absolutely heartbroken and desolate quackity, who at the time assumes he will be dying shortly - believing this due to sam's lie that dream is out of prison, and possibly coming for las nevadas. i wrote it with the "last night on earth" trope in mind. the two end up getting absolutely trashed together and do a bunch of silly shit. including having a burger cook off, getting married in 15 minutes a la las vegas style, getting into a fistfight, having at least 3 mental breakdowns each, and then to top it all off they break into philza minecraft's alcohol stash. few scenes in between that i'm really excited to write too, i have a few more ideas. and then they wake up in the morning incredibly hungover and... well i won't spoil the ending. it was my favorite part to write, maybe my favorite thing i've wrote for any dsmp shit period. i do genuinely mean to finish this one at the very least, it's kind of my personal love letter to these two characters i adore. if that makes sense? it's named after my favorite song i've gotta complete it. actually i'm going to sit down and write more rn because reading it made me remember how much i genuinely love this fic. my wilbur characterization could use some work tho i think. maybe i'll ask holly for some tips on that. and i'm not sure if i'm going to make it just one huge chapter or what i'm doing with it, but either way!!! it's very dear to me. here's a super short snippet that i guess is sorta shareable. it's not beta read and is largely unedited. so i'm riding on the hope nobody but you has read this far 💀formatting don't fail me now so help me god

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He was living with a sword to his throat, an arrow constantly knocked pointed at his heart. Wounds from where his previous lovers and friends, now gone from his life, had festered for far too long. Quackity was unsure how he could be better in a world so fucked. One that was designed to strip away his humanity and attachments. But Slime would at least want him to try. That was Slime's legacy, greater than if he had taken charge of Las Nevadas - showing Quackity that goodness still existed. Or did it, now that Slime was-

 

Wilbur snapped his fingers in front of Quackity’s face, cutting off his thoughs. "Hello?" 

"Shit. I think I'm hitting the sad drunk point." Quackity rubbed his face, trying to shove his heart away.

"You think? It's too bad we don't have tequila." Quackity screwed up his face at the thought, but Wilbur continued on. "Only alcohol that's an upper, didn't you know?"

"I didn't." It was a lie - Schlatt had said the same exact thing to him, almost word for word. It was one of the first nights they'd shared together. Before Wilbur could keep going on, Quackity stood, tired of the liquor talk. It wasn't that Schlatt and Wilbur were comparable as people – he just didn't want to fucking hear it anymore. Quackity stumbled through overgrown grass, bottle in one hand, to the edge of L'manberg's crater. There he peered out over the edge, enjoying the slight breeze that flitted across his face. 

She was beautiful, waterfalls cascading over the edge shimmering under the full moon. Every single time he'd come back there was another dangling piece of moss, green taking over the previous barren crater. From here he could see birds resting on the flag pole, chattering amongst themselves. Fish and frogs created ripples in the water that had pooled at the bottom, hopping up to eat the fireflies that dotted the surface. L'manberg's grave was thriving, more peaceful than it had ever been. The sight was heart-wrenching still, even after all this time. 

Quackity hadn’t realized how close to the edge he’d gotten until hands grabbed him by the shoulders and wrenched him back. He fell in the dirt with a loud oof, hitting his funny bone on the way down. 

[steve-keychain]

I finally got around to binging your wwdits fic, and - holy shit man - it's incredible. I enjoyed every sentence; I loved the repeating motifs and symbols and the fucked up pseudo-religious dreams that Guillermo had. I always enjoy canon for what it is, but I often feel the comedy takes away some of the real heartbreak the characters have experienced. If wwdits was going for a more serious framing, THIS kind of fic hits the nail on the head. Rewriting the master/servant dynamic into something new - something not based on a doomed transaction - freshened the whole thing up for me, though I appreciate that you still kept them Weird. Really scratches the itch of adoration borderlining into horror. 10/10 would read again

oH MY GOD CERTIFIED ICONIC ASK- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR STOPPING BY TO SAY ALL THIS???? omg let me try to become Normal and have Normal thoughts (this is a long response but. you left good thoughts so im piling more thoughts onto this bus)

I am so happy you've enjoyed the Wonderful Weird World of Violet Hill, it means so very much that you read through it and saw exactly what I'm trying to put out there, message/theme wise. I wondered literally that- 'what would shadows be if it wasnt as much of a comedy' and this is where my brain took me lmaO. I worked really really hard to try and Fit their characterizations to this new world, and it's really just lovely to hear that they're hitting their marks within the context of VH!

And yeah god, I just adore the idea of like. Guillermo's Catholicism acting as a ghost almost? I wanted it to Creep its way into the story, and it's going bonkers bananas in there rn a;lsdkjfl; Beyond his whole deal too, Nandor is inherently also haunted- so putting them together in this dynamic Shakes them up, because they can talk about it as equals!! Here are two characters profoundly disturbed/unable to escape their pasts. What if they had freaky dreams about it. Roll the tape a;lsdkfjsa

And exactly like you said, all of them underneath their facades- are deeply troubled. I really wanted to sit down and like. Unpack as much of that as I could, and I wanted to do it in a world that left them free from their existing dynamics-this is obvious with nandermo just being two Dudes, but I really wanted Nadja and Laszlo to feel comfy with openly loving Guillermo. He's their Stu. I wanted a world where, for once, Guillermo was universally adored, and herE WE ARE

Shadows has some of the most interesting and unique characters I've seen in media in a long fucking time, so it would have been such a disservice to them all if I didn't keep them all (mostly) stupid/silly as fuck alfkdlksdjfa. So I am happy you found this fic, my dear mutual, and are loving it for all its horrific, strange, (and romantic oh god hitting myself over the head with a pan how did i write so much vampire pining already) new vibes!!! I'm holding this ask dear to my heart, thank you so very much for letting me know you enjoyed ;___; <3 <3 <3 <3

[edengarden]

Hiii!!! I'm here for that regular bnha matchup👉🏿👈🏿 I really love the hq one u did omg!! It's *chef's kiss* kekdjdjdkdhd!!!! Here's the info:

Appearance: I'm fem, black, 5'1, slightly athletic & curvy-ish figure (lol), short? (mid-neck) hair, straight, dark brown eyes, size 9 shoe size (I still dk if it's relevant but oh well lmao)

Personality stuff: infp-t, Hufflepuff, Taurus sun, scorpio moon, sanguine, chaotic good, ambivert, a BuzzFeed quiz told me I'm a Pinto bean and a pumpkin spice mocha (do what you will with that info jdskdj)

Positive traits/qualities:

I'm super enthusiastic!! I love hyping people up and being energetic in general! I'm always down to try new things and have fun! If anyone is not feeling appreciated I'm ready to make sure they know that they're a queen/king and they're amazing!!!

I'm optimistic! I like to look at the brighter side of things and I always try my best to find a silver lining in any situation! Positive thinking helps me get through tough spots in my life because there's always hope for something better in the future!!

I'm observant!! I usually like to sit quietly and observe my surroundings. Especially in a new environment. Irl I like to read people's body language to asses their mood so ik how to approach them lol. I also do little things like remembering what they (friends/family) like to order at restaurants or something they pointed out at random that they liked. (Idk if I'm making sense lol)

Negative traits/flaws:

I'm annoying. Sometimes I just like being a little shit and cause mischief (being the youngest child does that to a person) but I think sometimes I'm too enthusiastic/energetic that it can be seen as obnoxious/annoying so I usually try and tone it down so I don't bother people...

I'm argumentative. When I have something to say I have to speak up. I try not to step on any toes but I can't help but argue with someone when our views on something clash. I like hearing different sides of debates though so I always give others a chance to talk. I don't go picking fights but if I feel like my opinion is being disregarded/not heard I will argue until it's known!!

I'm forgetful. Sure I'll remember random stuff like 'what my friend said in that one coffee shop last year' but important things like appointments? Birthdays? Assignment due dates? Idk her 😭 I try my best to write anything important down cause my memory is a selective sieve and it'll keep the most useless/random shit.

Hobbies: I love: Reading, writing, listening to music, learning languages, playing saxophone (I'm still learning tho lol), swimming, watching anime and cooking!

Music taste: any type of rock (punk rock, grunge, j-rock, metal), pop, kpop, RnB, jazz, dubstep, lofi hip hop, rap, bangers from: Elvis, the beach boys, Khalid, Ateez, Kendrick Lamar, p!atd, mcr, fallout boy, Nirvana, BTS, mxmtoon, Marianas trench, twenty one pilots, stray kids, Jay Park, crush, Dreamcatcher, Skrillex, MJ, troye sivan etc

Traits I look for: idk kind, funny/fun, loving/lovable, loyal (idk I ain't picky)

Traits I don't like: (nobody's perfect, just don't be a racist, xenophobic, sexist asshole lol)

More fun facts:

My love language is touch! I live for hand holding, cuddling, hugging, tickle fights and more!! 🥺

I love learning new stuff and rn I'm learning how to draw, paint, play music on sax, a new language and new recipes! :3

I love traveling!! It doesn't even have to be too far, as long as I don't know where I am it's an adventure! I usually end up getting lost whenever I travel (rip) but it's fun finding your way around and makes the trip more exciting!!

My current aesthetic: Sunflowers, striped turtle necks, warm blankets, rainbows that come out after storms, friendship bracelets, watching movies cuddled up w/someone, the joy of being alive. <3

It's mostly the same lol I just added a little something at the end :D Can't wait to see who I'll get! Don't forget to stay healthy & drink lots of water!! Take care 💙✨

I’m matching you up with Tokage! (You didn’t specify your gender preferences I hope this is alright ;-;)

You guys. I can’t even decide where to begin. The ENERGY- oh my god, you’re so enthusiastic, she’s so enthusiastic?? And you also recharge each other’s batteries so it’s a never ending stream of optimism and cheers!! People can’t believe the two of you are together but then again they watch you two go and they wonder how you two COULDN’T be a couple.

And her?? Thinking YOURE annoying? Fucking never. She’s the same as you to an extent and we KNOW she wouldn’t doubt your affection for her, but for the love of god if it does bother you, talk to her. She’ll have you thinking differently in NO TIME. this girl uses her words and she uses them well. And the two of you ARGUE. but it’s mostly fun arguing, Tokage isn’t the type to be so cocky as to not admit when she’s wrong; she’ll fight for her point if she knows it’s valid. Otherwise, if YOUR point becomes the only valid one, she’s giving it to you. She wouldn’t want to lose you over some stupid pride thing.

Oh my god, she’s 100% the type of person who’ll go “hey remember like two years ago when...” and theN MENTION SOMETHING STUPID OR EMBARRASSING YOU DID THAT YOU COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT

Tokage loves physical affection, both giving and receiving. She’s just so proud to call you hers?? Let her hold your hand and watch her always call dibs on you during training (Vlad never lets the class choose their partners anymore because of you two lol). She’ll tone down the PDA if you’re uncomfortable or if others warn her that they don’t like it, but otherwise?? She’s always by your side unless you need some space.

My god the two of you just have SUCH a fun relationship!! It’s never dull or boring, trust me.

Songs!!!

- my boy, Billie Eilish

- Feel It Still, Portugal. The Man

- butterfly addiction, Cö shu Nie

- Let’s Spend the Night Together, David Bowie

[shiro-0197]

God no I'm sorry 😭😭😭 the way Tumblr eats all my drafts, and now your replies. (Someday I'm gonna eat Tumblr grrrr) that must've been so frustrating tho, I'm sorry love.

someday we could go to a country with Highlands together. It'll be super cold and nice. And the views would be really really pretty too!! WE COULD EVEN BE AMONGST THE CLOUDS >//< aww yes I hope you'll be able to try them soon in the future!! I died and had to stay in bed for an hour, (because my spice tolerance is nonexistent <3) but yeah I'm better now! Name is: "대박 ghost pepper noodles" the Korean word 대박 literally translates to "awesome" but— 😭😭

oh I see!! I hope school goes well, it's good that you're excused for a part of the day :D and aww I understand. Replying can be lengthy sometimes, so please please only do it when you're free and comfortable >:(( we're in no rush, after all :D

I was studying earlier too. and I texted my principal about the exams ( because apparently none of my teachers know anything about it, and I was so frustrated with everyone being so clueless ) she just replied with a : "hi Ariana, will let you know on Friday" like excuse me, ma'am. GRRRRR >:( STOP BEING CLUELESS.

awww that's okay!! I'm sure those prep slides were really pretty too :D aww that's sweet of you. some of my online friends sometimes sit in on my Leo events (if it's open to everyone) and it's pretty fun when they do (once, one of them had to talk for like, an activity and my club mates were like "SHE HAS AN ACCENT??". It was hilarious hehe) zoom is great for that reason, and only that. they're just ready-made slides tbh, I use canva :D

Shiro, love, you won't disappoint anyone, I promise you that. I'm sure your mom is more proud than you know, and from the way you talk about her, I can tell that she truly adores you. tho I also understand your worries. If you want to rant or anything, you know I'm here. And I'll just continuously reassure you of how amazing you are :)

that's my boy 🥺🥺 grr, you're so feisty, please imagine me holding a "you go, Shiro" sign everytime you tell someone to fuck themselves :D Laurent is indeed amazing. He's my favourite character for that exact reason >//< there's another character, from a book I read, just like that. His name was uhh, Kieran. And he knew so many different languages, and was just in general; super smart. I remember being so in love with him when I first read it (The title of the book is "genius")

HAHA. ikr. They're all hot, and most importantly; smart. nevermind, when I meet you someday we can cry over them together 😭🤚 pffft no offense, but being evil is hot sometimes 😾 (I mean, Kieran was evil. So's Moriarty :] and I am: a simp for them all)

aww bae that's okay 🥺🥺 your feelings are valid, and it's not wrong to express them whenever you feel like it. Grrr if I ever see your dad, he might be missing a limb >:( sorry, that was violent, but I get especially mad if anyone upsets someone i love )

exactly?? It's been a year?? Where's that blink meme where someone blinks and it's suddenly 2021. Oooh that sounds really nice!! Adding it on my list of things to try in March >.< Honey is really delicious. especially all those desserts which have a lot of them.

glad I made you laugh >////< grr my sense of humour is just so weird tho, so I'm glad you aren't freaked out by it.

KAJDKSJSKS SIR WAIT. There was an explanation for that u but I guess it got cut off in my notes 😾😾 IT WAS MEANT TO BE A Ü (smiley) but I was using my computer and I couldn't add the two dots above, so I typed "imagine the eyes" (but apparently that part got cut off and now it just looks like a random alphabet SKJSKSK IM SORRY 😭😭😭

I understand, the lack of opportunities can really get on one's nerves. But oh yes, Japan and Norway are beautiful countries. Apart from Japan, I've been really into Korea and Switzerland. The Alps 😻

grrr y'all have tough exteriors. But it's so rewarding when you finally get them down, tho I think, you guys have tons of other layers to yourselves. I guess that's just the charm, I find it endearing, because it just means there's a lot more than meets the eye :)

MY FRIEND MAKES FUN OF ME FOR LIKING PINK. HE TEASES ME MERCILESSLY SKSJSKSK (so I published a poem line in the school magazine to get back at him for it, because I'm petty like that)

that's so funny >.< There are two girls, and a girl and a guy, who share the exact same names in my class, and it's so funny because they're opposites of each other xD

he really is precious. The best leader, I would literally die for him, he's wonderful. yeah the book actually started out different, with them just being best friends. Best plot twist 😭😭 AWW

NOOO I'm sure it's cute, in it own way? :P tho that meme tho. LDJCJSBSKS. Don't worry, hehe, the character may be .... Unpleasant to look at?? , but you're not the least bit at all :)

how was your day btw? My day sucked ass and was literally the worst day in the history of uh, days. Yeah. sad. tomorrow will be better.

God, you're so adorable wtf. Marry me rn. AKDJSKSJS I didn't find it lame at all, (tho were you flustered? Because that was cute as hell xD) I love you too 🥺🥺

—☃️

It's okay, it's not your fault. We could storm the Tumblr building together or something..:3

Oh I really hope we can!!! I love cold weather. You can wear sweaters and hoodies and all that💞 and you have an excuse to cancel everything and cuddle up with a blanket or someone else😝

Im so glad you're better now!! Spice sickness or whatever is the worst😔 WBHDJWKX that's hilarious I hope I come across those soon! Let's see who wins😼

Yeah, about that, they started making us do after-class activities, which now leaves less time for the stuff I have to do .... which sucks . But I'm managing, I think, so it's cool xD yeah, I've always been kind of cautious about the timing, it's nice to have a little freedom now, thank you so much <3

Wow😭😭 our teachers usually have the dates set two weeks before the exams, we always recieve a message. Though I've been there, where the teacher have no clue, it's so annoying😭😭

Ohh, that's so cool! I hope I will be able to visit one someday. Though I dont think itll be too soon, but I'm looking forward to when I can😝 also that's funny, whenever I speak people go "he doesnt have an accent???" Even though I so obviously do. They just have no idea 😭

Okay..... that's the best words of encouragement I've ever received, I'm so touched- thank you🥺💘

Bwahah, that's gonna make my day every time 😭 Yeah, hes my favorite too!! He seems like a simple himbo at first, but the more we see of him the better he gets. (That sounds cool!!! I'm gonna check it out when I can!)

Thank you🥺 also, dont worry, I wouldn't mind that. I'd love that, actually, wanna go rip off guys arms together?

MZJXKGJJAKXKAKX IT'S ALRIGHT HAHAH, ITS REALLY FUNNY SO DONT WORRY😭😭

JSNFNMWMDMS IM GONNA MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR MAKING FUN OF YOU how could he . I will eat his eyeballs. Also I 100% agree with the poem and I'm glad you posted it. I hope some people thought about it.

Wow😭😭 its honestly so funny, because they're all so different and yet their names fit them so well either way.

Also, wow I feel so bad it's been almost a week since I responded😐 I'm really sorry. I've been writing snips of this message any time I could and yet it still took me days xD I'm getting free, though, so I'll try to respond faster now. I missed talking to you so much😭 thank you for your patience🤍🤍🤍

How've you been? I'm pretty good, tired but feeling good because I can finally respond😩 I hope your day went well. Love you!♡

[punkscowardschampions]

Jac & Amelia

Jac: So, you got your room 🙌 What other wins did freshers bring you? 😄 Amelia: Yeah, thank god Amelia: it's been full on enough without adding travel sickness Jac: Never going to fly when class starts either Jac: it's just slightly more inventive than coming down with the 'flu' every Monday morning, but not enough Amelia: bit intense to start crashing on my new friends floors too, I don't want to be THAT gay Jac: 😂 Jac: I doubt they'd mind Jac: but having a base that isn't totally covered in crochet decor is a plus Amelia: now that freshers is over and they're going to 🤞 they never see those hook ups again maybe Amelia: still, not the first impression I'm trying to make Jac: Oh God, tell me about it Jac: I am not trying to have people I've got to avoid for the next 7 odd years Jac: not trying to make it like home like that Amelia: very relatable Amelia: even though I have no need to count that high Jac: Is your course 3? or 4? Amelia: depends if I want to go to Canada, Denmark, Italy, Poland, Sweden, USA or the UK for a year Jac: Oh wow Jac: 🦪 Amelia: that emoji is the gayest Amelia: so yeah probably Jac: Very O'Keefe of you Jac: can't give up the 🎨 quite yet? Amelia: 😂 Jac: I've met THE perfect girl for you, oh my GOD Amelia: because I'm going to travel to Edinburgh for 🦪 after dodging a 3 hour commute Jac: She's American, you could convince her Cork has a lot to offer beside 🦪 Jac: but actually, she is UNBEARABLE, and I'm trying very hard to be nice and give everyone a chance rn Jac: she does Art History, despite the fact she seems to know less about art than I do Jac: doesn't stop her 🔊 Amelia: 💔 you put your mean girl years behind you too soon, I'm SO proud though Amelia: and I'm sure Savannah appreciates it just as much Jac: 😏 I can feel the sincerity Jac: I know though, talk about completely crazy Amelia: if you want sincerity I can totally believe she'd follow you there as if nothing happened Amelia: are you okay? Jac: I think the prestige probably beat the off-chance I'd also be there but I appreciate the belief Jac: Yeah, actually, I am Jac: it went well, better than I could've or would've imagined before Amelia: alright, that's a relief Amelia: not that it's been playing on my mind or anything since the ✨ livened up my feed Jac: I would've got in touch sooner Jac: It did cross my mind, that you'd see Jac: I also didn't wanna encroach on your freshers' experience at all, that idea won out Jac: It must've been a shock for you and all Amelia: I get it, because likewise obviously Amelia: plus you seemed like you were coping, and it's not the same as before, you have people to go to now if you aren't so Amelia: I don't know, it seemed too dramatic to come at you all !!!!!! Amelia: which is why I didn't Jac: I wouldn't have bitten your head off Jac: but I see and appreciate that logic Jac: not to mention previous experience would say I actually would so Jac: She's changed a lot too, in those 2 years Amelia: good Jac: Yeah, turns out she had a pretty rough time of it too Jac: which, obviously, but I wasn't really in a space to think too much about that back then Amelia: was likely to be more 🥀 than 🌹 living with her dad, and everything that happened with her mum Amelia: I'm not surprised even if I couldn't be very sympathetic then Jac: I can't believe I was zoned out Jac: I didn't even know about her mum Amelia: you had loads of your own shit going on, it'd be more unbelievable if you were tuned into hers Amelia: I didn't know how bad it was, or didn't want to hear it, whichever Jac: Jess made it sound like the world and his wife knew Jac: I feel awful Jac: but her mum is doing better now, and they're trying to mend their relationship, so, that's positive Amelia: it always feels like that in my 🏠 but I would've told you if I'd realised Jac: It isn't your fault remotely Jac: like you said, sympathy about it wasn't at the forefront of your mind Jac: and you can't be blamed there Amelia: I'm genuinely glad things are getting better, the last thing she needs is to feel like shit for leaving her mum again if they aren't Jac: I know you are, you aren't a monster Jac: even if you and Savannah had your differences, and the obvious situation from there 'til now Amelia: that's enough sincerity though, the last thing I need is Savannah Moore trying to be my friend again Amelia: you can keep her Jac: 😂 Alright Jac: about that though Jac: things have changed, between us too Amelia: okay Amelia: what does that mean? Jac: Well, I told her, this time Jac: that I'm not straight Jac: and neither is she Amelia: she really has fucking changed Jac: She hasn't also come out, there's no label on it or anything Jac: but she likes me back Jac: you deserve to know, and would, regardless of where we were in our relationship Jac: I'm sorry if it's not what you want to hear though Amelia: thanks, I guess Amelia: for not waiting for the 💍 announcement Jac: Things haven't moved quite that fast Jac: although, yeah Jac: I know Amelia: It's still Savannah, I doubt she's had a TOTAL personality transplant Amelia: you probably wouldn't like her if she had Amelia: so I'll keep an eye out for that post and put my congrats on it Jac: No, she's still her Jac: and I doubt her plans include a 💍 that could be bought on a student budget Amelia: true Amelia: I'll send some 💐 she'd NEVER put in the 🗑 Amelia: just the 💌 I'll actually bother to write, you know, like a normal person Jac: There goes the mystery Amelia: because of course you wouldn't recognise my handwriting Jac: I've checked your homework over enough times Jac: I doubt anyone else is rushing to send us a bouquet so Jac: process of elimination Amelia: there you go then Jac: but I have told my brother and that Jac: on the off-chance you catch him and he's dying not to bring it up Amelia: bit rude of him not to try and gently break the news Jac: Assumedly either thinking I've imagined the whole thing all over, or it'll all fizzle out before there's any need to go there Amelia: or I'm thriving so hard there's no need to bring me down 1 week in Jac: Obviously that too Jac: but you know that wasn't my intention, yeah Amelia: it's obvious you're not thinking about me, don't worry Jac: Okay Jac: do you want me to leave you now? Amelia: Why would I want that? Jac: Plenty of valid reasons Jac: to process, to not, you just don't feel like talking to me at this precise moment Amelia: what's to process? the bit about her not queerbaiting you the entire time is new, the rest isn't Jac: That's not nothing Jac: it changes the whole thing Amelia: not for me Jac: Alright then Amelia: you were hung up on her every second, what's changed for you is that was a least a bit mutual Amelia: I don't need to process any of that, it doesn't involve me Jac: It's still new information, that's all Amelia: not really Amelia: I probably should have guessed anyway Jac: If I didn't, I don't see how you could've Jac: she didn't even then so Amelia: too late to become a 🔮💎💫 gay, I hear you Jac: 🕵 is definitely a better idea Amelia: maybe I'd just really love to be able to say 'it's just a phase, mum' about something Jac: You've had plenty Amelia: name one Jac: [that boy band I said they liked lol] Jac: for starters Amelia: that wasn't a phase that was me lying that I cared Jac: yeah, okay Jac: you knew all the lyrics 'cos you cover was so deep Jac: no need to lie, they had some tunes Amelia: I knew all the lyrics because there was about 5 lines repeated over and over Jac: uh-huh Jac: you had badges all over your school bag Amelia: because you've never fully committed to a lie, oh wait Jac: There's no need to be a bitch Amelia: 😂 Jac: No, I'm not super ready to laugh about that time in my life, as it goes Amelia: okay Jac: I'm going to leave you to it now Jac: Good luck with your first proper day, hope it all goes well Amelia: actually wait though Amelia: I didn't mean that Amelia: I'm sorry Jac: Alright Jac: I know you're upset, or pissed off Jac: but being a better person doesn't extend to being a punching bag for you to get that out Jac: you can feel it, obviously, but that's just unproductive for you, and not gonna happen from my end Amelia: I know Jac: and I know that's what I did to you Jac: so it probably seems fair, or justified at least, that you get to now Jac: but it wasn't right, and an eye for an eye, you know Amelia: no, it's not fair, I wasn't being, that's why I'm sorry Jac: You don't need to stoop to my lowest Amelia: I'm trying, okay Jac: Yeah Jac: and I accept your apology Amelia: thanks Jac: should I not have told you? Amelia: I think that'd be worse Jac: I thought the same Jac: unless you were going to block me on the sly, then you would have seen Amelia: maybe I should now, I don't know Jac: If you want to Jac: to take some time Jac: or more permanently Jac: it's up to you Jac: obviously my offer of being friends still stands but I understand Jac: as I said, this changes things Amelia: yeah, if we let it Jac: You can't help how this makes you feel Amelia: but why should I let her take everything again? Jac: Savannah isn't actively doing that Jac: but if you want to keep trying, so do I Amelia: we worked hard at getting here, me and you, that's not about her Jac: True Jac: You don't have to be friends with her now, that's not it Jac: just accept that she's my girlfriend, and a big part of my life Amelia: does she know? Jac: About what happened between us? Jac: No Jac: she doesn't know a huge amount about those two years, for me Jac: I plan to tell her everything Jac: but it's a lot to throw at her in a sitting, especially unasked, you know Amelia: it'd really fuck with her freshers, for sure Jac: Right Jac: all for having the hard but necessary conversations Jac: but there's a time and a place Jac: I don't want her to feel like I'm trying to make her feel bad for me, either Jac: like 'look what YOU did' because nah Amelia: too 🥀🥀🥀 Amelia: it can wait, neither of you are going anywhere Jac: That's my logic Amelia: she'll get why you waited Jac: I hope so Amelia: come on, it'll be harder for you to say than it'll be for her to hear, she's a LOT of things, but she won't want you to go through that before you're ready to Jac: You're right Jac: it just feels like secrets, and that feels like 10 steps back Jac: but it isn't that Amelia: I'm sure even she hasn't had time to tell you everything, she'd need to be chatting non stop Jac: True Jac: if you're ever done talking about yourself and your life, that's gotta be a sign you need to get out more, right Jac: there's always more to say Amelia: right Amelia: stop being so virgo-ish about it and give yourself a break Jac: 😂 okay Jac: I just need lectures to actually start Jac: so I can freak out on that instead Amelia: same Jac: are you more 😁 or 😱 Amelia: 😕 Amelia: over 😣 Jac: You'll be fine Jac: let me know how it goes though Jac: I'm interested Amelia: okay 🤓 Jac: Well there's a lot of overlap Jac: obviously, you can usually do them as a double discipline but I wanted to go pure Psych Jac: doesn't mean I'm not 🤔 Amelia: yeah Jac: 🤏🤓 fine Amelia: we're not strangers Jac: I remember Jac: so, what are your new mates like then? Amelia: great, obviously Jac: It's a good thing you aren't taking English Jac: that description leaves a lot to be desired Amelia: what do you want me to say? Jac: Isn't there anyone in particular? Amelia: there's a whole course full of people Jac: Yeah, I like one of my profs, he's really cool Jac: but I don't know anyone on my course that well yet either, they all seem nice enough though Amelia: of course you do Jac: it's so refreshing in comparison to the teachers at our school Jac: even if he acted like a base level human, it'd be a step up Jac: but he knows his stuff, and he's down to help me get ahead, what more could I want Amelia: literally nothing Jac: But I'm still not into dudes so I won't commit that cliche, don't worry Amelia: a real weight off my mind Jac: sure Amelia: 😏 Jac: I've already done loads of prep Jac: can basically chill in his class this whole term Amelia: you can but you won't Amelia: 🤓🏆⭐ Jac: we're not strangers Amelia: maybe we are 🤏 because reading's the only prep we were given but I've already done it Jac: Not really Jac: you just pretended you weren't 🤓 Amelia: no, I just actually wasn't 🤓 about school Jac: plenty of other things Jac: you can't hide the 🤓 Amelia: it's not 😳 I literally can Jac: not from me Amelia: that'd be 10 steps back Jac: try 10000 Amelia: no thank you, that sounds exhausting Jac: you've got a 🛏 Amelia: yeah, I don't know who's more thrilled, me or my dad Amelia: getting to pretend he's allergic to pets for another year at least Jac: result Jac: won't have to fake seduce him on your behalf either Jac: I'm most thrilled Amelia: Savannah is Amelia: undoubtedly Jac: Yeah, that ain't something I ever want to explain 😂 Amelia: she'd be less understanding about it Jac: None of us are understanding that Jac: sorry to your father Amelia: 😂 Jac: I think your mum would snap Jac: go full psycho Amelia: probably Amelia: they're very 😍🥰😘 right now Jac: that's nice Jac: bit gross but good Jac: she won't call you every 10 minutes Amelia: she can try but I won't answer Amelia: the friend I like best will be here soon Jac: Sounds promising Jac: I'll leave you to it for now, for real Jac: you better get ready Amelia: you're so Amelia: you Jac: what does that mean? Amelia: I don't need 👗👠💄 Jac: what's that, a humblebrag? Amelia: hardly Amelia: it's a compliment for you, you're cute for caring Jac: It's not cute, I just like to look nice Amelia: oh so you don't think I look nice? Amelia: rude Jac: everyone looks better for effort Jac: that's simple facts Amelia: anyway, I meant it's cute you care about my social life this much Jac: because I really need you being a loner to worry about Jac: no tah Jac: obviously I'm happy for you Amelia: you don't need to worry about me whatever happens Jac: It's not optional Amelia: okay Jac: I never stopped Amelia: you can stop now Jac: That's just what being friends is Amelia: I'm no expert Amelia: have to take your word for it, if anything Jac: I know you care about me too Amelia: but you're thriving so I don't have to worry Jac: I guess Jac: it's not just for the bad times though, is it Amelia: I hope not Jac: it's not Jac: come on Jac: pull yourself together and at least do 1 out of 3 👗👠💄 Amelia: fine, I'll put shoes on Jac: that's what I like to hear Amelia: 🙄 just because I'm ignoring my mum there's no need for you to take over from her Jac: I still can't do any handicrafts so unlikely Amelia: Savannah is unlikely to wear a homemade 🧣 so I think you're fine Jac: she loves anything thoughtful but I ain't gonna start there still Amelia: 💐 Jac: Naturally Jac: both our rooms look like a florist already Jac: makes up for the shabby walls and carpet you can't do much about Amelia: any time you'd like to fully lean into the 👵 I'll do you an embroidery hoop or something Amelia: very chic Jac: they do sell a lot of that sort of thing in the charity shops Jac: I'm sure your 🎨 will be better than whatever the actual 👵 decided to do 🖼 Amelia: SUCH a compliment, I have no idea how I'm not 😳 Jac: Charity shops are in Jac: I'm not going to call it thrifting, I'm not even half-American, wouldn't be able to take myself seriously Amelia: good, please don't Jac: vintage, upcycling, all acceptable Amelia: for my mother Amelia: I'll take how 'modern' my room here is Jac: I suppose that does make a change Jac: I love the buildings though, the architecture Amelia: 🎨 Amelia: yeah, would be inspiring if I had any time Jac: Is Cork by the coast? Jac: I know nothing about that area Jac: I'm like NEXT to the beach, it's incredible Amelia: it's one of the largest natural harbours in the world, if that doesn't make you want to come and visit me, well ?? Amelia: it has it's own lovely architecture Jac: You should work for the tourism board, honestly Jac: good speech, that Amelia: 🤷🏻 Amelia: I'm here for the 🤓 and you're already interested in that Jac: I'd go to Italy, if I were you Jac: but then, Denmark might have the most interesting criminal practices and laws, so that's a good choice too Amelia: you'll visit me there then, yeah? Jac: I forgot about Sweden, but those three are the real ones to consider Jac: and we can sort visiting when we're even a bit settled Amelia: okay Jac: we've only just left Amelia: thanks for that obvious reminder Jac: 😏 Jac: you know what I mean Jac: give me a chance to get my diary in order before you're saying I'm avoiding you or whatever Amelia: give you a chance to miss me, you mean Amelia: you've got one right now, because I have to go get ready Jac: Oh, if we had to wait for that, you'd never see me again 😉 Jac: have fun 👠👠 Amelia: 💔 Amelia: bye

[gimmesumsuga]

I feel like there's been a few moments throughout this story where I would've left for a night/couple days. I'm the type of person that needs space, so whenever MC stays in that environment I feel like a step of the healing process has been skipped. But that's just me. I like to hide away and lick my wounds. And now, as hot as evil Joon is, he has utterly betrayed her (fragile, tentative) trust. And idek how Jimin & Yoongi will be. I would def be calling Sam up. I'd feel so used & embarrassed.

I think I’m quite guilty of putting a lot of myself into the reader in that respect - if ever I have an argument or get upset I desperately want to be around people and talk/cuddle it out until it’s all sorted!  I think Sam will most definitely be helping to deal with some of the fallout. 

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Anon: THE FIRST THING THAT LEFT MY MOUTH WHEN I FINISHED CH 65 WAS “FUCK, OH NO”. ITS 2 AM AND I HAVE A FINAL LATER ON;;; THE CHAPTER WAS FUCKING HOT BUT IM STILL I GOD DAMN SHOCK

Ohh I hope your final went well despite the shock! 

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Anon:  Omg STS 65... I screamed at the last two words. Bravo! Genius! Amazing!

Aww thank you nonnie! ^^

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Anon:  Small spoilers‼️ *towards the ending of chap. 65* I— DID HE REALLY JUST— OH MY GOD HE DID. HE SO DID THAT. WHAT THE— NO. Oh my god that chapter was so good by the way but like- WAY TO JUST PUNCH ME IN THE FACE NAMJOON OH MY GOD. THIS IS SO GOOD I SWEAR TO GOD THIS IS THE QUEEN OF ALL PLOT TWISTS AND CLIFF HANGERS. Tbh I kinda suspected cuz Jimin would’ve been there to supervise the whole thing or at least nearby so like- BUT SHIT I DIDNT REALLY THINK- I love you. I’m a mess rn but I love you~💌

Yup... yup he did.  He went there, he did that lol glad you enjoyed it hun.  Love you! 

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Anon: Ma’am, I’m gonna need to stop trying to KILL me because holy balls. STS... I’m dead over here. It’s too good!!

I really can’t make any promises...

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Anon: Just so you know, I just read chapter 65 of STS and uuuuhhhhhh UUUHHHHHHHHH I'm not okay with how it finished it's exactly what I was afraid of 😭😭😭 ((don't get me wrong I loved the chapter but I had sneaking suspicions about what was up and oH bOi WaS i CorReCt)) --feel free to not respond in case of spoilers or something for tumblr readers ❤️

You certainly were correct! Well done! 

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Anon: GDHDJD CHAPTER 65 IS GIVING ME A MENTAL BREAKDOWN 😫 the smut was so good I honestly don’t know what to do with myself but thaT ending has me all kinds of fucked up

You’re not alone nonnie.  I think a lot of people were left feeling a bit compromised! 

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Anon: OMG I JUST FINISHED READING CHAPTER 65 AND IM SCREAMING! Your writing is amazing and I check your blog everyday 😊keep up the good work love

Aww thank you nonnie! Glad to have you as a reader 

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Anon: OH SHIT!!! THAT ENDING IM DEAD OMG YOUR A FUCKING GENIUS

You’re far, far too kind sweetie

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Anon: WHAT THE FUCK. I KNEW I DIDN'T TRUST HIM. I FUCKING KNEW JOONIE LIED. SOMETHING DIDN'T FEEL RIGHT. JIMINIE WOULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING TO HER. JOONIE WOULD HAVE TAKEN HER TO HIS ROOM TO DOMINATE HER AND PUT HER IN HER PLACE. I KNEW IT. OOOOHHHH NOOOOO. AM I ABOUT TO CRY??? Once again, great job boo. I absolutely loved it. 👏👏💕 -A.P.

Noooo, don’t cry!  Daydream about being taken to Joonie’s room to be dominated with me instead lol 

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Anon: That ending was evil :( lol can't wait for next part 😙

Kinda was, wasn’t it? lol

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Anon: So..... I usually felt pretty OK (very OK) with her (reader) fucking the other guys in the house, and don't get me wrong, 65 was awesome, and perfect and I loved it, but when he told her "I lied" my heard felt full of pain, and now I feel like I've cheated on my boyfriend. This is fucked up, my heart bleeds, you made it bleed. You are good!

Aww hun, as sad as I am to hear it hurt you so much, it’s always kinda nice to know I’ve had the ability to affect someone so greatly. Thank you 

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Anon: Okay okay okay so I want to ask a question about what may happen in chapter 66.... I totally understand if you don’t want to answer but I was wondering if in this new chapter Jimin will be upset with the main character???! Or is it mainly going to be a mad at Joonie thing?! I’m also scared because I think it was Yoongi that walked in and my baby boy bias is gonna be hurt and I’m afraid... thanks babydoll💙

I’m afraid you’re going to have to sit tight and see what happens in the next chapter sweetie!  Just keep in mind that I’m a big fan of happy endings along the way :)

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Anon: BDKFHBSJENFBD CHAPTER 65 HAS ME FEELING A WHOLE LOTTA THINGS BC ON ONE HAND HOT JOONIE SMUT AYY BUT ON THE OTHER HAND HE FUCKING LIED THAT ASSHOLE OH GOD IT WAS SO GOOD THE WAIT WAS FUCKING WORTH IT

Hahaha I’m glad it was still worth it for the smut though! 

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Anon: So like my question for chapter 65 is literally wtf? I enjoying the chapter and then out of no where it’s just like BOOM, I was smacked with a ton of dicks wtf. I really liked the chapter though, it was amazing lol, love your works

Did you.... did you actually mean a tonne of dicks?  lol this ask made me laugh so hard, because even if that’s a case of autocorrect or a typo, how absolutely apt it is in regards to this fic hahaha

[myperfectlyself]

I'm not even gonna ask ppl to ask me bc i know they won't and I'll just answer bc I'm bored as heck bc we got a free period in school and I've watched all the fun stuff on Netflix and YouTube.

1. Yes, according to my online medicalfiles 🙃

2. At the end of summer 2017, I think (my memory and sense of time is wack to say the least)

3. Everything was just so hard to do and from what I read online the diagnosis fit me so I went to a psychologist (but this was in like 2013 or no wait idk probably 2015, you know what,I give up on trying to place things in a timeline)🤷‍♀

4. They don't last long at all so rn I'm just deadly bored, or I guess this??

5. Memory. Wack. Idk.

6. I mean, when I sleep, I sleep well, but I use HOURS to fall asleep and it's always hours too late so I don't get enough sleep when I have to get up in the morning for school and other stuff and I'm constantly deadly tired when I wake up and the physical pain of waking up is so horrendous I can't even maybe I should write a poem about it

7. Probably a good mix of em ahaa

8. I live it, I go on a reading spree about once every leap year and read maybe a thriology in a week (which reminds me of something that might've been my biggest hyper fixation, which was me reading one whole Nancy Drew book a day for a whole summer when I was younger and, again idk when)

9. Ehmm idk some are fun and some are decent to fall asleep to

10. I'm not like with the popular people, but I have good friends and popular people didn't bother me, so I was doing fine just doing mah thang, still am

11. Actually average/above average, but idk how or why

12. I stopped doing homework in like 5th grade, but when I first do them I use an hour on something others may use 5 minutes on which is why I stopped doing shit because it was just so fucking frustrating and I did well in school anyways so what was the point of extra torture??

13. Restless. Leg. Also, idk, many different things, it varies a lot bc I get bored, but I guess I tear up a lot of paper in nice shapes and then also fold paper and also stuff that moves

14. Both. Depends on the situation, I can be very quiet and seemingly still, but restless af on the inside, or I can be restless af on the inside and it shows on the outside a lot, depends on the situation I'm in 🤷‍♀

15. Talking and understanding the subject. I can't memorize what I read, unless it's interesting, which rarely happens and more rarely when it's for school. I need to talk about it bc I remember better what's told to me and also discussing and telling people about the stuff so that I understand it and it makes sense so I remember.

16. I can be shy, but also not, depends. I can be destructive to be around, but more nonverbaly bc I'm scared 😂

17. Yes, I love sports. I've been doing a lot of sports and mostly handball and football (soccer) and I'm still doing football (I've been doing it for like 15 years or so)

18. No, unfortunately.

19. Idk if I'm getting this question right and idk anyways

20. Using my phone or whatever's near me (idk, can't remember omg)

21. Idk, my mind is blanking rn

22. Idk, sounds that I don't wanna listen to??

23. Idk what that is, so probably not??

24. None that's confirmed, but my grandpa probably has (and I'd say my dad too, but that's two different sides of the family 🤷‍♀)

25. LATE teens.

26. No, not really at all, but also yes???

27. I have a normal self-esteem I suppose

28. Nothing much, had good grades, didn't miss school or interrupt class, but the teachers here are very nice and not strict, but I have been chronically late for school since 5th grade tho, but they only wrote me up for it sometimes in 12th and 13th grade whoop

29. I am confusion

30. Yes and mostly on my hand (I have this white pen that basically just don't sit that well so it's 100% gone if u use water 🤷‍♀

31. No, I don't like coffee or anything with it, but I use sugar instead 🙄

32. Not really, but like maybe 5 times a week

33. I don't drink, so idk, but my friends would like to know the answer to this question

34. Yes, but I also hate it. I like writing, but it takes long and consist mostly of me starting at the wall for hours

35. All of the above and not at all??

36. Probably??

37. Idk?

38. Yes, they mostly like me at least

39. Bad. Oh dear Lord I cry at the thought of asking someone if I can borrow a pencil???

40. Idk, help?? Someone help me I'm still just as lost as I was???!?? ;?

ADHD Ask Meme

1: Are you diagnosed? 2: When were you diagnosed? 3: How did you find out that you had ADHD? 4: What’s your current hyperfixation? 5: What has been your most intense hyperfixation? 6: How well do you sleep? 7: What subtype (inattentive, hyperactive, combined) are you? 8: How do you feel about reading? 9: How do you feel about podcasts and lectures? 10: Were/are you popular in school? 11: What were/are your grades like in school? 12: How long did/do you spend on homework? 13: What’s your favorite way to stim? 14: Is your hyperactivity internal or external? 15: What’s your favorite memory strategy? 16: Were/are you talkative in class? 17: Did/do you play a sport? 18: Have you ever tried ADHD medication? 19: What characters do you most identify with? 20: How do you most often fidget? 21: What sensory things do you love? 22: What sensory things do you hate? 23: Do you have any comorbid diagnoses? 24: Do others in your family have ADHD? 25: Did you find out you had ADHD as a child, teenager, or adult? 26: Are you creative? 27: Do you have high, low, or normal self-esteem? 28: What did/do your report card comments usually say? 29: What piece of media makes you blissfully happy? 30: Do you doodle in class/meetings? 31: Do you self-medicate with caffeine? 32: Do you exercise often? 33: What are you like when you are drunk? 34: Do you like writing? 35: How do you process your thoughts and emotions: internally, verbally, in writing? 36: Do you have any friends with ADHD? 37: Have you ever been to therapy? 38: Did/do teachers like you? 39: What is your experience with RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria)? 40: What would you like to say to any person who has just been diagnosed with ADHD?

[tminor09]

Once you piss me off...I'm Heartless

Once you piss off a person like me I’m done, I’m emotionless. I don’t care about you or your life…fuck you fuck your feelings fuck your family all that…it takes so much to really make me angry. If you keep picking at me Ima blow up and I’ll knock you out. I had anger issues growing up all of my life. I learned to control them, I keep my mouth shut. Sports and hobbies helped as well as good friends. My mom helps a lot, I can tell her anything and she calms me down. Im genuinely a nice guy I go out of my way to help people. I work hard and do my job at work. Because I don’t kiss up or act worried fragile egos crumble. They think I don’t care. I start off going 100 mph doing everything I can to show I care. Once you mess me over or I peep game, you fucked up, now I push the limits to fuck with you as a joke to me. I don’t care about what you say or think. I shut off emotions proudly. If you want me to be happy then don’t take me for granted, then I’m the best person in the world. So, the reason I was so angry this morning is because my supervisor Sam showed up this morning picking at me again. He’s been doing this for the past year. When I came to this job, I never missed work I always came early, I knocked out all of my jobs. I was eager to learn and do everything, then Sam started showing his Hoe tendencies. At that time it was to other people, which I peeped it, but it didn’t really effect me. When he started picking at me it started when I had all of the credentials besides one more year to get a promotion. At my job we have 3 positions, Mechanic 1,2 and 3, 3 being the highest. A Hispanic guy who is younger than me who I went to orientation with jumped from a mechanic 1 to a 3. How? I don’t know. He got the job no issues. I went up the ranks from a 1 to a 2 tried to go 2 to 3 I was here for a year and a half at the time. They tell me “you did everything right but we want you to wait another year.” So I waited. Job never came back even though sam said he would save the position. Now he’s a hoe to me. You messed me over. He had no issues giving the Hispanic guy the job. I still worked hard and did my job, but I lost my respect for him. He spineless, so basically its fuck you. I stopped trying to kiss up to him point blank period. For an example, he throws yearly Christmas parties for the body shops we bring food and we sit together and eat at the main location. The last two years I skipped them. The reason, “I don’t fuck with them like that.” That’s it, I don’t get paid to make friends I get paid to work. I did go to the thanksgiving party at my location with the truck mechanics up front. This is basically where majority of the black people work at the Kelly location in 5th Ward. So I recall sam crying saying “I give you guys a day to sit and not work, I throw a party and guys don’t show up?” Oh well shouldn’t have fucked me over. From that point on, Sam tries to pick at me. Critique every little thing that I do. Every single job. Even when we knock all of the work out he’ll cry and he actually said, “How come when I show up Tay-Shunn never acts like he’s busy?” The lead tech peter said “Well Sam we don’t have any work.” So Sam said “When I come everyone should jump up and act like they’re doing something even if it’s nothing to do.” Sam is scared of me, he always goes through peter when he has a issue because sam knows I’m unpredictable so he don’t know what he can and can’t say. Mainly because I act unbothered when he tries to yell or I look at him like he is stupid. Just like he sound stupid for what he said. Even if it’s no work, if I show up act like you are doing something WTF…if it’s no work then it’s no cars, what am I suppose to do jumping jacks??? That’s why I don’t have respect for him. It seems like he is one of those guys that got bullied in school and now that he has this position he wants to be treated like Jesus. All he have to do is send more work, not cry like a baby. So basically what happened today, we come in at 5am for overtime, get off at 3:30 so 50hrs a week. Since we don’t have any work Peter was face timing to some woman on his phone, I was writing blogs. So Sam shows up, he don’t blame Peter, he blames me for siting down. So he cuts overtime in half and he says (again telling peter not me) “if I didn’t see Tay-Shunn sitting down you guys would still have overtime. So yal go home at 2:30 (regular time) and come in at 5 (1 hr early). So basically it’s my fault that the overtime was cut and the guys should blame me. So I told peter "Fuck Sam and this Job! I’m quitting.” I know I can make more money at METRO painting and they been calling me. They make is equal to mechanic 3 over here with the overtime added. Peter is trying to talk me out of it, even though he kissed up to sam talking about “I don’t know what he was doing I gave him a job and the vehicle wasn’t here so he sat down.” And he said “Don’t let sam get to you. Let’s try to outlast him.” Even though I’m semi cool with peter it’s still fuck him too. He was sitting down as well. I talked to my mom. She is good at calming my nerves, she said apply and don’t let sam get to me, always act professional, and keep letting him think you are unpredictable. The supervisor at metro, especially on the night shift he said “We don’t get much work at night so bring a tv if you have one, bring snacks, and chill out until something comes in.” I’m just trying to get paid until I finish my bachelors degree so I can become a RN then work towards my next chapter in life. But I’m not going to get picked on by a spineless bitch plain and simple. After talking to my mom I’m good now, I’m calm…but one thing people have to know about me. I’ll bend over backwards to keep someone happy until they do something to make me change…then I’m heartless…