#it's just NOT FAIR

[nylloth]

Being in Arcane fandom is so much fun. Here are Vi fans who take apart screenshots of her emo era on a daily basis. There are Jinx fans who “color everything blue”. There's Ekko fans who constantly discuss his relationship with Jinx. And these are Viktor fans by the way.

That's all we can discuss. What gorgeous light! And did you notice the surroundings? Oh, my God, Viktor is gorgeous. Do you believe this footage exists? It's amazing. Goddamn, we're so lucky.

[izzysillyhandsy]

Thoughts about the finale, and my utter confusion about Izzy Hands

What I hated about Izzy's death wasn't him dying. I love a tragic arc, and although Con O'Neill elevated every scene he was in, it would have been ok if they'd handled his death better.

To have him die with only 10mins of the episode left (and this might even be the last ever episode!) was the first terrible decision. Everything that was built up over 2 seasons had to be resolved in a few minutes, we don't see any repercussions for anyone Izzy was important to - Ed, the crew and even Stede.

But the main criticism is the 180° turn the show made for his character arc in the last episode (or more precisely, in Izzy's last scene) and in David Jenkins' latest interviews.

Since season 1, I kept asking myself the same two questions:

What function does Izzy Hands have in the narrative? What is the nature of his relationship with Ed?

And the answers changed drastically from S1 to S2, and got more and more complex and intriguing.

Until the finale.

Izzy Hands as a plot device for the main couple

In S1, Izzy was an antagonist. His function in the narrative was to stand in the way of the Ed/Stede romance, of Ed growing and finding happiness and to move the plot along. He brought a lot of humour to almost every interaction he was in - he was such a fish-out-of-water character, clashing with everyone and constantly losing.

He was barely human - he was a pirate cliché.

But there was also so much going on in the background - his quiet desparation, his obvious love and longing for Ed, and these hints of a fascinating backstory between the two of them. This is what many fans picked up on, and going into S2 we hoped that we'd get more of this (for me personally the most important thing was clarification on Izzy's importance to Ed).

And then S2 came along and boy, were all of our expectations exceeded.

Suddenly, Izzy wasn't a plot device anymore. He was one half of the most intense (and interesting, sorry Stede) couple in the show. It was even confirmed by the showrunner that he was in a love triangle with the main couple!

In the first 2 episodes, we got so much more than we ever expected. At the end of Ep2, Izzy broke the lifeline with Ed, both of them almost dying in the process. He went on a journey of discovering who and what he even was without Ed (and right up to his death he was still deeply unhappy and broken, even though he was on the right path).

Izzy suddely became a fascinating character in his own right, with his arc of healing and self-acceptance and his inability (for now) to keep himself from sliding back into this relationship with his other half. He was blaming himself for everything that had happened. He was still so entangled with this man he built his whole life around. He still had a long way to go and a lot to work through (the same also applies to Ed btw).

But he also became the crew's unicorn, doing Izzy things (still related to Ed, always to Ed) but you could feel him becoming more himself. Slowly, Izzy's real personality started to shine through and we realized - this man is fascinating on his own accord. He's a respected and very capable pirate. He came from nothing and fought his way up. He's a really good teacher. He's creative and sensitive. He also cares about other people than Ed a lot.

Viewers who hated him or were indifferent to him in S1 suddenly became interested - this man's journey was fascinating and, most importantly, it wasn't at all finished. There was so much yet to come, and we wanted to see it.

Does this sound like a plot device to you? If it doesn't, bad news.

At the end of the final episode, Izzy is suddenly back where he was in S1.

He dies in a completely unnecessary way - almost as if how he died didn't matter. And it didn't matter, because in the end, Izzy Hands' journey didn't matter anymore. All that mattered was that he died and how it affected the main couple.

On his deathbed, Izzy is saying exactly what Ed needs to hear to move on. He absolves him of any guilt. Ed is ready. Izzy has played his part, he's ready to die.

Notably, nothing is really resolved for poor Izzy. Even if Ed says he doesn't want him to go, it's because Ed is losing his only family. He doesn't tell Izzy he loves him, or that he's important to him as a person, as his oldest friend, as the one who knows him best.

In the end, Izzy's function in the narrative, even after everything that happened in S2, was to be an obstacle to the Ed/Stede romance, to Ed growing and finding happiness. He had to die to free Ed of his Blackbeard persona and because "it's nice that Blackbeard is upset by it" (WTF).

The problem is, for the rest of the season, that wasn't Izzy's role in this show at all and I felt completely blindsided.

More than a spurned, jilted lover

"I guess it's a journey of redemption, but I think it's more a journey of finding out, who is he to Blackbeard?" According to Jenkins, Izzy is "more than a spurned, jilted lover." "What is that relationship about? And I think by the end of the season it kind of becomes a little unexpected of who they are to each other and what they mean to each other." (source)

I also made a poll about that question after Ep3 if anyone's interested.

The answer is, apparently, the two of them were Blackbeard. Or, Izzy was the brains behind the operation. Or, Izzy egged Eddie on to give in to his darker impulses (which, I think, was alluded to quite strongly in the murder/suicide scene).

I mean, yes. That was one of the options on my poll that I was quite sure of, and I think most of us suspected this even in S1.

Izzy was Eddie's only family. Ok, I think family doesn't quite express what was going on between them in S2, but that certainly was one aspect of their relationship.

This is all fine. I can see that being built up to over the two seasons.

But.

"And then there was the realization that [Izzy] is kind of a mentor to Blackbeard and that he is kind of a father figure to Blackbeard. It felt nice to have him die and have Blackbeard be upset by it, because Blackbeard killed his father. But this is a father figure that he’s losing that it’s hard for him; it's sad and he doesn't want him to go." (source)

This is not fine. Not at all.

Izzy is not Blackbeard's mentor. Izzy is obviously in love with Ed (and Ed is fully aware of that). Izzy might have been a mentor-like presence in Ed's life when they were younger, but when we meet them in S1 Izzy is more like an overworked housewife cleaning up behind her disinterested husband. Izzy would do anything for Ed (apart from killing him) and is ready to die at one point because of him. Izzy is desperate, grabbing onto the scraps Ed throws his way.

Where, where does Izzy seem like a mentor to Ed in all of this? A mentor is supposed to be at least at the same level or above but Izzy is clearly not.

And in the death scene, suddenly, that's all there is left of their complex, intense dynamic.

Izzy took young Eddie in and fed his darkness. He was Eddie's only family, binding him to himself out of selfishness in the process.

So that's their unexpected "who they are to each other". Izzy taught Ed everything he knows (which is actually bad for him) and it'd probably been better if they'd never even met.

And don't get me wrong, I don't completely disagree with this take. As a part of their dynamic, this is a fascinating concept - but only if this wasn't the end.

Because there was so much more, so much promise of a complicated, mutually destructive relationship that nevertheless was also full of love. Those two seemed so intertwined (and I'll never forgive Stede for stealing that for himself and Ed). Ed is Izzy's missing half and Izzy is Ed's.

And I still believe that, without Izzy, Ed isn't complete.

And with this rushed conclusion, and all the mess left behind and never even looked at, Ed will never be happy.

Conclusion

I think what hurts the most is, that with Izzy dead and their last conversation being that reductive, all possibilities of an exploration of all these complex and fascinating aspects of their relationship are now closed. I know this show isn't about Ed and Izzy. But Izzy is a big part of what made Ed interesting, and he's a brilliant character in his own right. We could have gotten so much more (even if it's only allusions, we really don't need everything spelled out).

I guess I expected too much from this show - but with good reason. The actors gave it their all. S2 set up such an intricate dynamic (and it was probably overly ambitious with only 4 hours of screentime!). I've never gotten so much of what I wanted from an outsider character in any show.

And then it let us down in the last 10 minutes.

And even if we hadn't gotten a season 3 - the setup was all there for meta, for fanfiction. Why ruin it all with killing off Izzy for all the wrong reasons and making their last conversation all about Ed "outliving his mentor".

To quote Prince Ricky: "Oh, my goodness. You've just grown so tedious."

Still, I love everything they've done in this show except for the ending. I will watch it again, many times, and enjoy the drama, the humour and the complexity. But I will try to forget these interviews and convince myself Izzy's senseless death was just a dream :).

[wecantalktomorrow]

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[georgebbwbush]

if you're a woman then your cigarettes should never go stale

[m0rfeline]

SPOILERS IN THE TAGS!

[nebulacritter]

why is a piece of stolen art winning the contest????

[omi-boshi]

pisses me off that kiyoomi was probably one of those people who had naturally good skin. you're sharing the sink with him while you're doing your 10-step skincare routine that you've developed and followed meticulously through the years and he's just there using a bar of soap for his face and slapping his skin all silly and you're still the one who's gonna end up with a pimple on your chin.

[dadralt]

yes i'm still crying about the making of screencap of henry & anya snuggled up watching freya ice skate wbu ;_;

[lucy-moderatz]

i miss lee dongsik and han juwon.

[anxiouspotatorants]

So while I’ve noticed that there are a lot of parallels between characters in 1899 (Maura and her mother’s memory losses, Eyk and Daniel losing their families, all the people who killed someone prior to getting on board), I’m also starting to notice some interesting contrasts.

The one I currently can’t get out of my mind is Daniel and Lucien. Both of them are in somewhat dead or dying marriages, but the situation and their responses are complete opposites. Daniel has lost Maura to a simulation because she would rather lose her memories of him and live in a nightmare loop built to make her question her sanity and kill her every 8 days than live with the knowledge of her son’s (impending?) death. But Daniel refuses to give up on her and does everything in his power to make her remember or at least get her out of the simulation. And when he finally manages to do that, he is willing to let go of his desire to have her remember him as long as she is free. 

Meanwhile Lucien himself (at least simulation Lucien) is the one in need of salvation. He’s living another man’s life in his clothes and wealth but is physically at death’s door. And instead of clinging to Clémence, who he admits to loving, he pushes her away because it’s easier to think she’s disgusted by him and die with that perception than die with the hope that she might love him back.

The people on the Kerberos are really so screwed up what the fuck.

[isekyaaa]

I was talking to my sister the other day about love languages and how for me, I rank low on Acts of Service and I was thinking how that like... portrays me as a selfish person. At least that's how I perceive it.

From a young age, I was taught that a good person does things for others. That a good person is self-sacrificing and always willing to help. However, while I was supposed to treat other people like that, I was never treated like that in return. Growing up, I remember having to do everything myself. Though my siblings were given help, that was a luxury never given to me. If I want something, I have to fight for it. I have to do it all myself. I'm not allowed help.

Being raised like that made me despise the idea of acts of service. To do things on your own is to grow as a person. You learn, you adapt, you improve. The more you help and baby someone, the more you hinder them. But it's also made me way more stingy with my time. I'm spending all of my time doing everything on my own that I don't have the time to work in the service of others. I want to spend my free time for me. I've done so much work already. Let me be lazy. Let me be selfish. I deserve it, don't I?

The worst part about people that rank high in acts of service is that they're so transactional about it. They act with the expectation that you'll act in return. They set themselves up for failure. They cannot comprehend that other people don't rank highly in it, so they'll use their acts of service to hold people hostage through guilt tripping, etc. "I did this for you, so why aren't you doing it for me?" It's a disgusting mindset that I absolutely hate. I hate it when people use this thinking against me to force me to act in a specific way.

Okay I got distracted with that last paragraph, but the fact that I don't rank high in acts of service often makes me feel guilty from time to time. I don't want to do things for others, even in my family. I don't want to. I'm selfish. I don't want to give up my time for them. I don't see the point in doing things for them out of my goodwill. I should be that way. I should be better. But I'm not. And I don't want to be.

[olive-riggzey]

Well, since it’s apparently already spring (I'm glaring out my window at this warm rain) I guess I'm passing off the baton of happiness to the people with winter SAD extra early this year.

It was... a good two months I guess

[thestarseersystem]

It's frustrating to run into constant blogs that are anti-kink bc they don't know how it's like that you can't help being hypersexuality since you were bodily 5 years old.

[fella-lovin-fella]

just broke down sobbing while washing my hands dhjdjdjs #hotgirlshit

[tenaciousmoneymuffinzine]

Not me having a total breakdown in my car during my break at work because I've had a bad week and instead of getting to unwind for a half hour, ao3 decided it was gonna be down so I can't read my book 😭

[who-the-fuck-is-sennalye]

awful news. the tiny scrap shop filled with all sorts of interesting parts and electronics that only ever existed in my dreams closed down in 2020.