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pfffft
con o'neill is out here living like no one else, and I respect the hell out of him for it
yeah man. izzy is a top shelf lay.
#it's a shame no one is fucking him#it might not fix him. but it WOULD make him worse. and personally I'd love to see that.#our flag means death#ofmd#izzy hands
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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i refuse to draw him in a normal length shirt. you cant make me
#sighhh fuckkk hes just my barbie doll now i only draw him in outfits i want to wear#but alas. i dress like a homeless person because my teeth chatter in 65 degree weather. im like a californian were-stickbug#trying to unlearn shame with my scribbles#(said like trying to calm down a horse) youre good YOURE GOOD. YOURE GOOD YOURE GOOD. ITS FINE. YOURE FINE#messy AND its that one fucking anime guy this is like a shame-combo for me#buts its FINE were UNLEARNING SHAME. WERE NOT CRINGE. CRINGE IS DEAD.#wtf... art#roronoa zoro#zoro#one piece fanart#one piece zoro
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Joel SmallishBeans mentions that he looks at fanart on tumblr.
“He’s here!” People scream, “Scatter!”
As everyone runs away, I, unmoving, look him dead in the eye & say,
“Let him watch.”
#okay this is really dramatic but like.#Joel is of the age & personality to 100% understand what he’s getting himself into here#& if he wants to look at all my art of him romantically arranged with Etho#who the fuck am I to stop him???#also I know I am sooo not the only one doing this#there are at least several handfuls of us who feel no shame associated with Joel witnessing us#doing whatever fan things we happen to be doing#Joel SmallishBeans#SmallishBeans#hermitblr#hermitcraft season 10#Hermitcraft#verdant rambles
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Professor Emmrich Volkarin is a little shit. I love him for it. But he’s a downright dastard (first and second meaning see charm merchant). I need you all to know that being creeped out by necromancy and entering a relationship can be one of the best “scared horny” tropes I’ve seen and it’s goddamn hilarious.
The very first time Rook finds out about liches they can express fear “Well, I didn’t need to sleep tonight.”
And HOW does the eminent Professor respond?!
“They’re unlikely to visit your slumber.”
UNLIKELY?!?! Rooks brain is screaming THATS FUCKING POSSIBLE??! And picturing their future where they can never rest peacefully again because APPARENTLY lich lords can visit slumber and it’s only unlikely they won’t come to theirs and they did NOT need that information. Meanwhile this ‘educated’ man keeps yapping about what these liches are and subscribe here for more lich facts I’m going to be one soon.
Imagine you’ve got arachnophobia and your crush is full special interest mode about their favorite spider. You try to pump the brakes with a light haha ‘won’t be able to sleep tonight’ and the response you get is MORE SPIDER FACTS and “did you know spiders love beds, not yours ok, but I’ll be a spider one day.”
Volkarin is a goddamn menace.
#emmrich volkarin#dragon age the veilguard#emmrook#dragon age#datv spoilers#datv#emmlich#Emmrich can see the terror and desire wisps forming around Rook and is fucking rolling in it#There’s no shame in a little attraction to the forbidden my darling.#Pfft! What? Like I want you to throw me over one of those fancy graves with skulls and flowers and floating spirits and - and…#Emmrich already picked out a spot he know is just the right amount of spooky to have Rook clinging to him but coherent#the only place Rook is going to feel comfortable sleeping is in those arms and Emmrich is well fucking aware
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i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb
#bonus when they do both by making him just utterly psychotic but he smiles so no one notices#i am a shameful idw bee enjoyer but like in the tired af ppl pleasing libra girl who needs a therapist so fking bad but#has 700000 billion duties and 900000000 billion expectations and mean bitches in his ear telling him hes stupid#sense#and not the he feels like an officer sense like no my queen is just a teachers pet doing her best which is her worst im afraid#anyways i love bee hes very indignant and a bitch but also im gonna stand beside her sorry#u do not understand how powerful it was to give him a cane . a literal crutch to hold onto to feel stronger even when ratchet says he doesnt#have to anymore but yet bee still insists bcs he doesnt have time for the repairs itll take when others cannot survive#and 2 it comforts him with support and also power and so he cradles it close with the idea of him being weak & needing smthing else#to make him strong#even tho at this point it's rlly just for comfort but he cant afford to allow himself to have comfort when others cant#or dont need it in his heroism ideals (specifically optimus being seen as so much stronger than him)#optimus also had bee tho. had him. but bee is so self conscious he just sees all his failures surrounding optimus & views himself not a#crutch to lean on but a crutch to optimus' character#he rlly needed rodimus and his fiery upbeat persona so they could fake it till they made it together and he left & fucking exploded#(in bees eyes)#like idk im just obsessed with this little tryhard loser#he islike a sad little clingy mother who refuses to think herself as human. she is just mother. lives off evrryones accomplishments#never her own#idk like hes so interesting tonme i want to kill him teehee#chew on him like sponge cak#bumblebee#transformers#tf bumblebee#tf idw#idw#tf#????#maccadam#i hate not knowing waht tag to use
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rainy day or something of the like
oldish doodle I only finished coloring...today!! wow!
other stuff too :3 wow eduardo wow bingo dog!!!!
+ old trend art that kinda BLOWS but idk I like them
#everyday i draw the dumb side characters from dumb British web cartoon is the number of ROCKS I need pelted toward me#true statement 100% SHAME SHAME!!! HATE!!!!!#..anyqyas.. actually tags#ew neighbors#ew jon#ew eduardo#ew mark#eduardo ew#mark ew#jon ew#ewlaur#hello fucked up laur tag with incorrect spacing#i only drew them like once in here they really shouldn't count#bingo tag one of these days...#but not todayyyyy#edfarto edwold loves his dog that's cute#hes full of hate and evil but buys bingo 7 million outfits and little dog shoes#I FORGOT THE LETTERS ON BINGOS COLLAR FUCK#its so overrr#everytime I don't explicitly call him bingo he will get called the canon dogs name and thats horrible#JUSTICE FOR MY stupid idiot personal dog design that doesnt matter in the least bit#eddsworld#eduardo eddsworld#eddsworld jon#eddsworld mark#eddsworld neighbors
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Ya know what occurs to me?
Karai Bari is in the New World.
Crocodile and Mihawk only showed up after the establishment of the delivery service.
Buggy was in Paradise. Marineford would have been in Paradise, I think, or at least Buggy's crew still was.
He doesn't have conquerors to cross the calm belt.
So... to get to the New World and set up shop, he'd have to have gone through Fishman Island, wouldn't he? So he'd had to have gotten the ship coated.
He'd likely have had to face Rayleigh or at least he'd have anticipated it - maybe Shanks even mentions Rayleigh hanging around there, maybe even mentioning him having NEVER missed Shanks passing through....
So when Buggy goes when Buggy expects to be found and claims to be dreading it and is but is also so hopeful so scared so broken so hesitant he's got a few different courses figured for how this will go down.
Only.... Rayleigh isn't there. Shakky is. She just directs them to another coater. Buggy fights himself, wants to ask, doesn't want to beg, and-
Shakky answers the question he couldn'tdislodge from his throat. "Sorry, baby blue, Ray's just working on something real important. You know how it is."
He does. He does know how it is. Important, huh? That's fine. It's probably a job. It's probably not that big of a deal that dad master Rayleigh is preoccupied. Buggy shouldn't have expected the man to drop everything and come running why did he think that, Rayleigh never did it before, not even Shanks' assurance he'd leave a message for Rayleigh would change much, and fuck he can't afford to cry so-
So Buggy gets the ship coated. It's not as pricy as he'd worried. He navigates them down, can even bring himself to smile at the wide eyed wonder from the rest. It's nice. He's fine here - these are his people. He's okay, really, and he'll be able to let this go or shove it into that nameless box in his head and heart soon enough. He just has to ride the wave, you know-?
Only no. Not really. Because a newspaper lands in his hands. And his brain is racing.
Because Rayleigh wasn't at Sabaody at all. He was with Strawhat. He was training Strawhat. He showed up, after the war, so close to the conflict, to train the kid. Rayleigh is fast, but not that fast. He'd have to have left around a week before Buggy even arrived. Shanks had assured him Rayleigh was there when he dropped by ((two weeks ago)). He knew because his brother had wrapped him in his arm and tears were shed, voices were raised and hearts were broken, wounds torn open to drain the festering rot and the healing hurt, it hurt then, it hurts now, it will hurt and hurt and hurt, because Buggy had pushed the Big Top to her near limits just to reach the archipelago that his former guardian ex-father previous family that Rayleigh called home. Shanks had called him, said he'd dropped the message and Rayleigh had chuckled and nodded and Buggy wanted to see his dad because there were still so many scars that had to be seen and acknowledged and Buggy himself wasn't even fully recovered physically but emotionally he had to do it, had to take the step and try because vulnerability brought the best and worst of him out, because he lost a brother and gained him back and he wanted for his father, at least one of them.
But Strawhat was on that front page. And Rayleigh was behind him, smiling, warm, proud, happy, and - Buggy aches. He's angry. He's livid. A week or so, by his estimate, for Rayleigh to find him and get there to the war ground. A week or so because Rayleigh was old but he was still painfully fast. In a week or so, the older man hunted down a boy he'd possibly met once or twice in passing. A week or so and The Dark King showed up to bring another strawhat wearing monster of epic proportions under his wing, had made impressive time in finding the kid, making the plan, getting to the navy hq, getting out, and that's accounting for the article writing, printing, and distribution.
A week or so to find a bright little sunshine boy he barely knew when one he raised rotted in a cell for months on end.
Busy with something real important, he recalled Shakky saying.
His chest burned for a moment, hot and wild and unyielding - and just as suddenly, the fire was gone. He was tired. He was so fucking tired. His injuries throbbed, his head hurt, his scars itched. He sighed, set the paper aside and curled impossibly small into his chaise lounge with a teary chuckle as he gripped his hair and tried to silence the keen building in his chest. He cursed himself for it, bitter and angry.
After all, he should be used to being outshined, out classed and out loved by energetic boys with bright smiles in little wicker crowns.
Story of his life
He is unaware of the many eyes on him, of the people Plotting and Arranging things on their own time. Their captain is the best - uncommon, unexpected, temperamental though he is, he is everything everyone needs him to be because it's the only thing he knows how to do. They see the seams in his mask and performance, and they ache to pay back the pain left on their captain, their boss, their leader and friend. Buggy pirates stick together, freaks and weirdos united - and nobody is allowed to hurt their captain without some serious followup.
#buggy the clown#buggy d. clown#*smacks my blorbo* you can fit so much projection into this bad boy!!!#honestly i can see Buggy as kinda.... fixating on luffy a luttle#in a surrogate sense#personally? clown is petty ngl but 1v1 he actually likes and respects the brat#he refuses to acknowledge that though#if anyone asks it's On Sight#the yearly battle to the death with his nephew is non negotiable#but Luffy also is a walking Trigger to Buggy#oh no wouod be a SHAME if i used my favorite charavter to explore therapeutic growth aince i can't afford therapy!!!!#the HORROR#also buggy anf Shanks as brother for this one bc AAAAAA#sibling shuggy#they've got The Range#also it's so funny when you think of it#shanks: wow i love my little brother so glad I have him again#also Shanks: excuse me is a mafia man fucking my brother and my ex???? what???????????? IS MY EX FUCKING MY BROTHER??????????????????? WHAT-#cross guild polycule
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the idea this game posits that just as much as or even more so than lucanis is having a demon problem, spite is currently having a lucanis problem. is everything to me. spite voice bitch you live like this???
#'rook. talk to him >:('#<- both people in this ongoing one person family therapy session. thank god my rook is a watcher I think they might get it#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#spite#it's a good metaphor for trauma AND it's excellent da spirit lore building on a lot of things already established#and also. frequently hysterically funny. mary kirby has such a knack for Thematic Depth sneaking through#she did it with varric and storytelling and here she is again 'what like it's hard' style. god fuck EA so much#having to admit that the thing happened and was not in his control and that he's different now and can't go back is harder to deal with#than the actual ways he's different now when engaged with honestly. I mean. yeah. yeah. trauma breaks and rearranges a self#and no one goes 'great love this I'd like some more' right after that#add all the cultural fear and shame around demon possession in andrastian thedas and I would not be doing well either haha#but also. poor spite in the middle of all that being like physical reality is already so weird but I really don't want this to be happening
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every morning 4am this is what i see when i wake
#snap shots#woah…. rare irl photo…#i has a funny blurred pic that just makes me think of like. some kinda shoegsze album cover for some reason djdjWODJSJ#anywaydjKWKJA#stop staring at me with them big ol eyes#i got him Ever ago bur i wanted to shaew him tonight … i just changed the batteries in my candles …#it still looks like i sleep in a dungeon but thats ok Look At Him#whenever im feeling lost or down i pull him out of my pocket and hear him tell me to stop fucking around and focus#i stare into his eyes and i feel immediate shame and Stop Fucking Around immediately#works everytime …#the plush set this comes from is so funny cause its like scott jean logan#and then this freaks just there too. like nawww why is erik the bus driver all of a sudden#the day theres a lil charles plushie ill actually ascend to the high heavens PLEASE#you CANNOT separate them :((#anyways … i sleep now … with this little weirdo watching me#i cant say he’ll protect me from bad dreams but he’ll at least be a witness if i die during one so thats nice#good night team !!! i dont wanna do my presentation tomorrow ………#also im lyin. im gonna doodle a lil then sleep …#gettin a drawing tablet was the worst thing i coulda done i cannot put it down fjOWJSSJSK#ok byebye ….. prob wont post anymore tonight at least ….#so we can act like im sleeping 😏 and yet erik also acts as a witness to my lies 😔 a travesty….
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i know the ace attorney fandom is just racist i know i know i know its racism I KNOW it makes no sense i can't try and make sense of it but every time i think about how weird they are about diego using a fucking innocent pet name for his girlfriend i feel fucking insane and then you ask them to elaborate and theyre just like "pet names are gross!!!" and im like ALWAYS??? OR JUST WHEN A BROWN GUY DOES THEM??? WHERE AM I??? ARE YOU FROM MARS???????
#pwaa#ace attorney#ITS JUST SO FUCKING WEIRD MAN#THEY ARE SO WEIRD TO HIM#THEY MAKE UP SO MUCH WEIRD SHIT ABOUT HIM#AND TAKE EVERYTHING HE DOES IN THE WORST POSSIBLE FAITH#AND THEN U LOOK AT THEIR BLOG AND ITS ALL PICTURES OF MILES#WHO IS ALLOWED TO BE A MISOGYNIST BECAUSE HE IS LIGHTSKINNED#I FEEL INSANE#ITS LIKE. NOT NICHE WEIRDOS EITHER ILL SEE SOMEONE SAY THAT#AND CHECK THEIR BLOG AND THEY'RE LIKE??? RUNNING ZINES AND BNFS AND STUFF???#AND JUST BEING RACIST??? IN THE OPEN??? AND IM LIKE IS ANYONE ELSE GONNA SAY ANYTHING#mom pick me up im fucking scared#s/o to that one blogger who said they believed all the heinous accusations against me because i liked manfred von karma#i have never been in a fandom with so few collective braincells or shame#im talking ZERO shame#EDIT: sorry forgot to clarify this post is not about any one person. it KEEPS HAPPENING its happened like 4 times now
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getting queerbaited by an action webnovel is so embarrassing. but goddamn this dog is just too fucking good at chess
#this could apply to orv as well but i am talking about sctir#normally i hate when books that are very much not bls get called bls because of queerbaiting. but with this one.......#the relationship between sung hyunjae and han yoojin is just too good#han yoojin's type being people way taller than him. sung hyunjae always making sure to give han yoojin sweets cause he knows he likes them#the 'if you could give me what i want i'd lick your shoes and whatever else you'd like' 'its a shame we're on the phone right now' convo#not too mention the way sung hyunjae is the only one han yoojin relies on#and how han yoojin is the only person whos changed sung hyunjae#the possesive 'toy i like x person thats useful' to 'my partner' dynamic#the edge to all their conversations where sung hyunjae is juusssssssssstttt resisting breaking han yoojin because he's more fun in one piec#and how that changes when sung hyunjae starts to genuinely value han yoojin and want him safe#but part of him still wants to carve han yoojin open to see whats inside#like FUCK. why is this dog SO GODDAMN GOOD AT CHESS
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I'll have a good day and then boom, I remember that DC writers force Bruce to protect the bitch ass clown that murdered his child under the guise of a bullshit moral code, and not because he's profitable to their audience of edgy incels
#also if you like him good for you this isnt about that and it doesn't apply to you#anti joker#anti batjokes#just to be safe#bruce wayne#like its one thing for bruce not to kill him because of his deep trauma regarding death and murder but they dont give a fuck about that#its ANOTHER thing for him to actively protect him and even scold others for trying to maim him. bruce would've put that mf in a coma#if he was allowed and the clown didn't have the plot armor to put iron man to shame#dc#dc comics#dc critical#batdad#batman
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new ldb in the works
#doing doodles to get his vibe down#tes#skyrim#autumn art#yes he and miraak are intended to be the green eyed freak duo#I have to fact check a bunch of tes lore because I haven’t played in ages but#the initial idea for ark was that he’s a beast-blooded briarheart#which based on what lore I Can remember#that should check out lore-wise since the Forsworn worship Hircine#swap the briar heart for a wolf’s heart#you see where I’m going with this I’m sure#say lore one more time ken#based on some in-game books this does appear to be a canon friendly premise#it’s a shame forsworn werewolves aren’t in the game proper#the only time lycans outside of the companions even get mentioned is when you’re in the like#first dungeon Farkas takes you through#and here’s like ‘and here’s the body of a feral werewolf i fucking guess. anyway’#in general i think Hircine should’ve gotten more quests related to him#outside of the companions i mean
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screaming and crying over Spider and Neteyam and Fable;
When I lifted his urn Divinity says, "Destiny can't be earned or returned" I feel when I question, my skin starts to burn Why does my skin start to burn? Capital loss Love was the law and religion was taught, I'm not bought Feel when we argue, our skin starts to rot Our skin starts to rot
So, share me your plan If I implore you, could I be your lamb? Understand I look for the truth in the back of your hand, and I Look into the open sky Stars blink like my brother's eyes Stars blink like my brother's eyes Stars blink like his eyes Like his eyes I dream of eternal life
Spider grieving the death of the baby brother he failed. he never pushed him away, he clung to him, he clung so hard, even if he did so quietly, because that was his first brother, his baby brother, in a way that Lo'ak was not (because first and younger are different. they matter the exact same, he could never have a favorite, but it's different in a way there are no words for). Neteyam could push and push and he'd still watch over him and love him and worry over him.
When I lifted his urn Divinity says, "Destiny can't be earned or returned"
Spider holding his baby brother one last time, even if he just sneaks into the mauri holding the dead, because he otherwise does not belong, scooping his head into his hands to kiss his forehead and whisper a goodbye and tell him he always loved him no matter what and that he's sorry. he's so sorry.
in that moment he realizes that their fate has come to end. they were always doomed. to be brothers. to fall apart. to never get a second chance. that no amount of goodness— because his baby brother was good. flawed. that's not even the right word, too harsh. he could call him flawed. no. no he was a child stumbling through life, a hard life, blindly. but he was good. always. always —could have given them a better fate.
I feel when I question, my skin starts to burn Why does my skin start to burn?
a flashback to Neteyam. maybe a memory in Eywa, when the soul of a boy who died too young with too many regrets and dreams and things to fix breaks through the idea of paradise, of peace and rest, of closure, and instead falls onto his brother.
the one he abandoned.
onto whispers— demon. he should be with his own kind. it is unbecoming of you. you need to be a warrior, Neteyam, not running of with him. he will only become his father. his blood bears his sins —that plagued him.
shame blisters his skin. it hurts. it aches. he turned his brother away over whispers? he hurt him over whispers? he put them both through so much pain over whispers?
it had always burned. the feeling was familiar. so familiar. every time he looked back to him and considered taking his hand or curling into his arms or falling into his lap, like old times, questioning why he had ever left this behind... it burned.
why did it burn? he used to think. and now he knows. shame. it was shame.
Capital loss Love was the law and religion was taught, I'm not bought
death. death and blood. death and blood and pain and...
words left unsaid.
clinging apologies.
pleading— take me back. come back to me. take me back. come back to me. take me back. come back to me. take me back. come back to me. take me back. come back to me. please I'm begging you —words wanting to spill out at freely as the blood on the rocks
none of it was worth it.
love should have always come before hate.
hate was taught.
they only fell apart when they were old enough to understand what hate was.
when Neteyam was old enough to understand he should— according to his mother and his people and his clan and all the weight on his shoulders —hate his brother.
when Spider was old enough to realize no one but his brothers- brother and sisters liked him. liked him enough to fight for him. in their childish ways.
none of it should have been.
had there been love, maybe Neteyam would still be living and breathing. maybe it would have changed their fate.
Feel when we argue, our skin starts to rot Our skin starts to rot
another flash. the final fall out. a blow up.
desperate pleading once more.
Neteyam begging his brother to leave him alone, because he cannot keep pushing. it is breaking him. but he can't— he is not allowed to have him.
Spider finally breaking under the weight. he cannot keep doing this.
but as they walk away, nausea eats them away.
Neteyam will cling to each second he can pretend things were as they used to be.
Spider will watch silently.
they are dying.
long before their deaths; the death of a body, the death of a heart and mind.
they are dying.
they are rotting.
fading away
So, share me your plan If I implore you, could I be your lamb? Understand
Spider seeking out the Great Mother. offering himself a sacrifice. forever the lamb.
he did it long before now. before Neteyam was gone. when the war came. when the war parties went out. when Neteyam joined them. when he came back bloodied and bruised.
What is your plan? do you see blood? will take my blood instead of his? I will bare my neck, just leave my brother unharmed. please I beg. I beg.
he asked again when he was taken.
take mine, not his.
because Neteyam might have been a warrior, but he was also his baby brother, and he would always bleed first. he would bleed the blood that tore them apart to begin with.
and now he asks again, still trying to scrape his brother's blood from his nails.
why couldn't you do this one thing for me? why couldn't you let him live? why couldn't you take this hated blood? why could I be your lamb?
I look for the truth in the back of your hand, and I look into the open sky
Spider holding his baby brother's hand. again and again and again. growjng older, larger, wider, tougher each time.
holding it one last time.
tracing where stars should be.
they aren't there.
neither are the answers.
he looks up.
Stars blink like my brother's eyes
he wishes his brother would just open his eyes. that he would see that childish brightness—
hope and love and light and blissful naivety. unknowing of hate
—once more. just one last time.
the stars hold that light.
Stars blink like my brother's eyes
tears prick his eyes once more.
there are more stars in the sky than there ever were on his skin.
more light than there was in a lifetime of watching his eyes.
they had gone so cold and tired so fast, just like his shoulders.
Stars blink like his eyes
he stares up at the stars and cries.
Like his eyes
he wants his baby brother back.
he just wants him back.
he'd give anything.
I dream of eternal life
Spider prays for his brother's peace in Eywa.
Neteyam plays in the creek with his brother, a wide smile on his face.
#back on my fucking bullshit#and I don't think I'm hopping off anytime soon#this song is theirs actually#grief and guilt so strong Neteyam can feel the burn of shame in the afterlife#Spider would give his soul to soothe it#to tell him to never. ever. blame himself for it. to blame the hate shoved down his throat instead.#maybe one day he will get to.#Spider 1000% said goodbye to his baby brother. and if you think otherwise you don't know him.#he kissed his forehead. like when they were little and he made sure his brothe fell asleep first so he could kiss him goodnight.#he held his hand and held his head in his lap and told him he loved him. just for a moment.#he held his han when he was first brought to the water#just so he wouldn't be scared#he looked up to the stars and blinked back tears#avatar 2#avatar the way of water#spider socorro#miles spider socorro#miles socorro#avatar#avatar spider#neteyam#neteyam avatar#neteyam atwow#avatar neteyam#atwow neteyam#neteyam te suli tsyeyk'itan#neteyam sully#brothers your honor
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Nine's deterioration while using the Paradox Prism
#these are all after Grim Big is destroyed#HE'S LIKE A GROSS LITTLE SPIDER!!!!!!!!#theres other examples of him being. ILL. But these are some of my favorite#the last gif. fought me for like. HALF AN HOUR OR SOMETHING#SO IT IS NOTICABLY SHITTIER BECAUSE I COULD NOT MAKE IT BELOW 10MB WITHOUT DESTROYING IT.#nine the fox#sonic prime#tails nine#tails the fox#miles tails prower#sth#my gifs#its a shame the last one is so bad because when I noticed his hand trembling I was like what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HE NEEDS SOME M&MS AND WATER
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