#it's a legitimate choice holy shit it's OKAY i can handle it im handling it rn cuz i can tell you it's obvious | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

anaalnathrakhs · 5 months

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my mom KEEPS aiming for COMPLETELY the wrong problem, like she seems to notice i'm not doing too hot, and then she's like. oh, hope you aren't too bored :( and like, me, on my third food-based event of the day (not counting the daily fucking binging she KNOWS about, bc im a piece of trash), walking in circles and doing a billion parasitic movement she always bugs me about and also straight up vocalizing pain when i can't hold it anymore, i'm just talking to her like :) boredom is not the problem. "oh" she says. thanks mom. really feel loved and cared for.

#i prefered when you didn't pretend to care about me while making zero effective change #fucking tell me face to face that your priority isn't to cater to my well-being #it's a legitimate choice holy shit it's OKAY i can handle it im handling it rn cuz i can tell you it's obvious #despite how you act like nooooooo i can't see what you're talking abouuuuuut #you are not required to sacrifice everything for your older-teenager kid im not a toddler #i want you to fucking UNDERSTAND that it's hard for me okay #i want a sliver of relevant compassion #perhaps a crumble of emotional honnesty cuz we had that for like 2 months and then gone back in the aether forever #and you wonder why i say i can't count on you. stop demonstrating incompetence or unwillingess to help every step of the way.#stop proposing help when you don't want to and won't take the actions that would help #if you want to help me HELP ME i have stated what i have trouble with #if that's too much sacrifice for you TELL ME THAT FACE TO FACE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE #i wish i could powerwash my guts it hurts so fucking bad #ed tw #vent #broadcasting my misery

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