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gen0c1de · 1 year

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I got my first tattoo!

A longer post about the details of my experience and whatnot. Hopefully a bit of a stress/anxiety relief for those who are getting their first tattoo and want some form of reassurance. <3

I'm 19 years old, and in the state of Michigan in the US, idk what tattoo laws are anywhere else, but when you turn 18 years old, you're considered a "legal adult" although you can't legally purchase nicotine or tobacco nor can you purchase or drink anything alcoholic. Can't go into a casino or even rent a vehicle. But I digress.

The tattoo I got is in memory of my father who passed away July 12th, 2017. Just a few minutes shy of my 13th birthday... so that was fun to wake up to. He had an all black tribal armband tattoo around his left upper-arm, which was his dominant arm, and it wasn't finished because it hurt him too much to finish the underarm part.

I was gonna get his tattoo or something close to it on my left upper-arm, but I have an implant where the tattoo would be so I chose to have it mirrored and put on my upper right arm, my dominant arm.

I was nervous as fuck and I was low on iron at the time so I was twitching like hell, so that didn't help calm my nerves or anxiety about it getting messed up. The outline didn't hurt and he did the underside of my arm first because that part is a bitch to do last cause of how sensitive the area already is. So adding on it being tender from doing an outline would've made the ordeal WAY worse. I likely wouldn't have been able to get it finished so it would have been unfinished like my dads was lmfao.

The filling part of the process was decent in the beginning, it only really hurt when he would have to go over the same spot multiple times to get it filled, much like when you color in a book or on paper, you have to go over the same area a few times to make sure its all even and complete. So when he reached the back of my arm it was more painful because it had an hour untouched, so the newly sore areas were being abused again.

It wasn't as painful as I had expected though, I'm a bit of a cry baby when my body actually LETS me cry and I surprisingly didn't cry, so the anxiety of me crying and embarrassing myself went away after a while. I did flinch a time or two and I apologized a lot throughout because I wanna be a good client and I don't want the artists to have a bad impression of me so when I go and get another tattoo they won't be annoyed that they have to deal with me.

The artist was super cool and talked to me every now and again and let me rest my arm when I had to have it above my head so he could do the underside. He said if I needed a break to let him know and complimented me on how I barely reacted in the beginning and how, although I was shaking from adrenaline, my right arm was perfectly still for him. He did grab, pull, and stretch my skin some and I had a large bruise but it didn't hurt, just looked weird for a few days.

When it was peeling it was SO HARD to not pick at the skin... I ended up picking some off and so there's a couple little places that are discolored, but if I make an appointment to get it touched up within the next 3 months then the touch up is completely free, so that's a plus! I'll make sure not to pull at the skin when I get it touched up...

Also, it's at the itchy stage. It's so hard not to scratch it... so if anyone has any tips or pointers on what to do, that would be great... cause I can not ignore it... I have ADHD. If it bothers me, I will focus on it and won't be able to distract myself. If I do manage to forget about it, my brain will suddenly be like: "Yo, remember how itchy it is? Wonder if it still itches like a motherfucker." and then the cycle repeats.

My dad's tattoo

My tattoo!

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thatforgottenbasilisk · 4 months

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having nothing

Word Count: 2547 (AO3) (My Fic Masterpost)

Originally Posted on 6/3/2024

Rating: T

Summary:

Case #0141207: Statement of Tim Stoker, regarding an unseasonable chill in his flat. Original Statement given 12th July, 2014. Audio recording by Jonathan Sims, Head Archivist of the Magnus Institute, London. Statement begins.

The tape recorder is clicked on.

In a lot of ghost stories, a draft- especially in midsummer- is pretty much a hallmark of the genre.

A draft is a nod to the genre-savvy, as if to say, "Here's where the scary thing starts." A draft is a confirmation that you picked up the right book. A draft is likely to fly right over the heads of an unsuspecting audience, but in this day and age, it's hard to find one of those. Most people have at least a little bit of a clue going in, that they're going into a ghost story. What kind of ghost story can still be up for debate; all that the draft signals is that there is a ghost present, not what kind of ghost it is. Not what is going to happen to it, or what it is going to make happen.

My flat has been cold for almost a year, now. Don't know what that means, in the context of a story; probably that I'm dealing with an amateur writer that needs to get their timeline tightened up before we can continue editing, and publishing isn't anywhere near the realm of possibility with that kind of lackadaisical structure, though that's if it's already been thrown at me from the slush pile; if I'm the one stuck sifting through it, the manuscript would probably be rejected if there's not some other redeeming context.

In real life, I'd suspect that it means I've got faulty aircon, or one of my neighbors has been running their fan too much or in the wrong direction, or else a dozen other possible issues with the building. I don't suspect any of those things for a few reasons that I'll get to in a minute, but I want to establish that I'm not just someone who's read too many of the aforementioned ghost stories and started to get paranoid about it. It's not even by choice, anyway; my job requires that I read anything we're intending to publish, and some things submitted by authors who want us to publish their work.

Ghost stories are either a lot more popular than you'd think they are, or they're just what sticks out in my mind right now. Dealer's choice, I guess.

I'm sure you're wondering why I'm bringing up ghost stories at all. I don't believe in them, if there was actually a ghost in my flat he'd have made himself known by now; he'd have done more than just make me cold. No, I know that I'm alone when I'm home, the same as I have been for years, now, and the same, I suspect, as I will be for the foreseeable future.

I wasn't always alone. My flat wasn't always cold. I used to have a little brother, and he was everything to me- he was the one who kept dragging me through his fleeting interests, he was the one who kept introducing me to new people I'd never have met if not for him, he was the one person I could count on always being there.

Until he wasn't there anymore.

The how of it isn't important. It was tragic, and sudden, and violent and dramatic and all these other things that I could explain further on, but I won't. It's none of your business. How much of my account is even real, versus how much of it is- is trauma-induced hallucination or exaggeration or whatever, it's none of your business. You don't need to know what I saw, and you don't need to know my therapist's input on it.

The point is, my brother died a year ago and I've been alone since.

It was... it was hard at first, I won't lie. I hardly even noticed the cold, despite the fact that July and then August were unbearably hot everywhere else. It became something I was used to before I had the presence of mind to realize I needed to get used to it. By time I did notice, it was October and just as cold everywhere else, and only then did I realize that my flat hadn't dropped in temperature from the summer.

I asked my landlord to get somebody to take a look at the insulation, and there was a maintenance guy in the walls by the next week; the insulation was perfectly fine, he'd said, practically brand new. My flat shouldn't be cold. I tried to show my landlord that it was cold, but when I went inside with him, my flat was the exact same temperature as the hallway, when for months, it had been at least a few degrees cooler once I stepped over the threshold.

There was no more maintenance after that, despite multiple photos I took of various thermometers that proved I was right. He didn't want to hear it, I guess, less work for him if he decided I was lying. I don't mind it as much as I probably should, so it's no skin off my back that he's not fixing it. Just means I can't have company, not that I was going to have any in the first place.

The only people I talk to anymore are my coworkers, and not much. I lost contact with everybody else just when Danny died- over half the people I know, I last saw at the funeral. I haven't felt the need to bother to reach out, and everybody else seems to agree with that. It's been too long, anyway, talking now would just be awkward, and it's not like I had the presence of mind to maintain the relationships I used to have when it was still acceptable to be maintaining them. I was too deep in a mental fog of grief, and yeah, people say they get it, but I really don't think they do. I really don't think that most people would accept, "hey, sorry I haven't spoken to you in several months, I was too busy curling up into a ball and crying" as a legitimate answer that they could also just move past without also making it awkward. It's a lose-lose situation no matter what I could do, so I may as well not bother.

I'm fine on my own, anyway. Most of those people were friends with Danny before they were ever friends with me. I know how to be friendly, and fun, and affable in general, but fuck is it tiring, pretending to be someone that I'm not just so that I can have a bigger variety of people to pretend I'm okay in front of. At least nobody at my job is asking weird questions, at least they leave me alone, because we all know we're stuck together and not by choice, so they don't have to reach out and try to act like there's not a giant Danny-shaped hole in my life that everyone can see. They don't have to try to be concerned about it, when they can mind their own business and save themselves the trouble.

For that, I'm perversely grateful; I'd rather not have everyone at my work knowing with explicit certainty that I'm taking way too long to properly grieve, rather than quietly suspecting it at their own desks like they do now, because I can't put on a mask of pretending to be alright for eight hours a day, five days a week. That's just impossible.

I thought about quitting, after everything happened. Thought about coming to work for you guys, actually, because I felt like I needed to know the truth behind why Danny died. But, well, it turns out I didn't need anything but a therapist, who explained a lot about the way that trauma gets processed, the way that some things are exaggerated and others are minimized, and the way that memories warp as they're recalled and reconstructed repeatedly, especially in a context of something as traumatizing as witnessing your own brother's murder. There's no truth to be found about it, at least, no truth that your people can provide. Just a truth that can be proved in a courtroom, if it ever winds up there. I'm not counting on it.

So I didn't quit. I just took some time off, halfheartedly planned a holiday out of the country and never carried it out, and did a lot of moping on the floor. It was a pretty uneventful January, in all honesty, but my therapist said it's fine that I didn't leave; I got away from things for a while, and while it may not have been particularly helpful in the short-term, taking breaks is never a bad idea. To be honest, I did feel better; less pretending for a month was nice. I got to put away the mask of a functional person for an extended period of time.

All of this should be normal. It would be normal, if not for the chill. After January, I think it decided it wasn't content with just sticking to my flat anymore.

My office consistently drops at least three degrees whenever I walk inside; I know this, for a fact, because I see the temperature display drop every time I walk through the door, and it doesn't do that for anyone else. Just me. I'm always cold, now, there always feels like a sharp wind cuts through however many layers I have on. There's nothing I can do about it, I think; nothing to stave it away. Space heaters break, scarves and overcoats grow too thin too quickly, not even blankets do anything.

I can't sleep anymore because of it. It's always too cold, I'd swear it's subzero if it weren't for the fact that it's impossible. My thermometers must be broken, because it's July and even industrial freezers would have trouble with that kind of temperature difference. I know I look like a zombie, with dark circles you can probably see the purple in. Sorry for not looking all that presentable, my boss has chewed me out enough for it. I can't even be bothered to tie a tie anymore, he's lucky I change my shirt with the fog I'm in, but that's neither here nor there.

I couldn't eat for a while, either. Anything warm would be chilled by time I bit down, but at least now that it's summer, more cold things are on more menus. I think I'll survive until autumn, but as it is, I've already lost too much weight. I'm skin and bone, and it's not like being outside helps me look any less pale. It's like there's always a cloud over me, even on the rare days when it's otherwise sunny- am I cursed? Is that possible? I just can't think of any other explanation.

There's no reason for everything, everything, to become so cold. To freeze me out, to- to shut me down, leave me drifting through a sleepless and hungry haze of nothing.

There is nothing. There's nothing to look forward to, living like this. The only thing I feel anymore is cold. There's nothing else, just the dull monotony of ice in my blood and drifting through the dull colors of the office, the tube, and home. Even the advertisements are washed-out, faded from the artificial light. The office is the same beige it's always been. My own walls used to be nice, bright, until the sun bleached everything. I haven't felt like touching it up; it feels too much of an accurate reflection of its occupant.

I tried walking along the river, once. Just to see what would happen, I guess. To see if that would make any difference, to be on the edge of a bridge when I should be trying ineffectively to at least get an hour or two of sleep. I wasn't really surprised when it was just more nothing.

There was white mist on the bridge. It was just me there, so nobody else can verify the unusual sight, but I swear there was. It was thicker than it should be, especially in midsummer. It felt like I could get lost in it. It felt like I could go in and never come back out. It felt like the mist, at least, would welcome me. The cold was still there, ever-present, but it fit. It was supposed to be there. I was supposed to be there.

I think I'll go to the bridge again soon. I don't think I'm going to come back.

Statement ends.

- ... Well. This was... interesting. It's... I think it's more of a suicide note than any actual account of anything supernatural occurring. Martin gave me this file, though, and he told me it felt- how did he phrase it? Familiar. I'm... I have to admit that I'm not entirely sure what he means by that.

- Ahem. Personal inquiries aside, there has been some follow-up work done by Martin about the veracity of this Statement.

- Tim Stoker disappeared without a trace shortly after giving this Statement here, and was only reported missing by his boss after three weeks of not showing up to work. Apparently he hadn't given any notice that he was going anywhere, which is why it was investigated at all. After calling the publishing company that Mr. Stoker was once employed at, we received confirmation that he was indeed on their payroll at the time of the Statement, but little else in the way of details. The woman who answered the phone apparently said that she'd worked in the same office as him for years, but only vaguely remembered his existence when pulling up payroll.

- Martin was unable to find the therapist mentioned in this Statement, due to a combination of a lack of information provided to us and the strict enforcement of privacy laws, even with regards to people who have been declared dead in absentia. He did, however, manage to find a police report on the state of Mr. Stoker's flat in the initial investigation- it was described as "bare" and "pristine," with a thin layer of dust covering most of Mr. Stoker's personal possessions. There were no notes about unusual temperature, and there have been no reported complaints about the same from the current tenant.

- No body or organic evidence has yet been found matching Mr. Stoker's DNA; however, occasionally, a man of similar likeness- thin, pale, and wearing ill-fitting business clothes- has been spotted by more than a few people in their Statements to us and elsewhere, but only when partially obscured by fog on a bridge in London. Which bridge, exactly, does not seem to be particularly important. Many people who live near the Thames have decided that this figure is a new ghost, though there has yet to be a consensus on his name. Personally, I think it's utter nonsense, but one person described faintly seeing a tattoo on the figure's arm, which matches Mr. Stoker's own tattoo that appears in the photo of him provided in the file, so it's close enough that it should be included.

- End recording.

#tma #my writing #tma fic #suicide tw

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frozaru · 2 years

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Hello and welcome!

A lot happened yesterday in the new Nintendo Direct from many of the big franchises. It had started off weak imo but credit where it's due, got better as things went on! I have much to talk about so let's get on with the show.

𝙋𝙄𝙆𝙈𝙄𝙉 4

The game to kick off this direct. I will admit that it does look visually pretty, and the new pooch is certainly cute! There's chances for a lot of chaotic fun no doubt. I've never tried a Pikmin game before, and whilst it does not interest me enough to say "buy now", I hope people will enjoy this game. We already know a certain blue puppet went crazy over this. 😉 Perhaps I'll take another look when Pikmin 4 goes on sale one day. The game releases on July 21st, 2023.

𝙎𝘼𝙈𝘽𝘼 𝘿𝙀 𝘼𝙈𝙄𝙂𝙊: 𝙋𝘼𝙍𝙏𝙔 𝘾𝙀𝙉𝙏𝙍𝘼𝙇

An unexpected surprise from Sega happened! This will be the first Samba De Amigo game since 23 YEARS AGO (as of Dreamcast release). Dancing games are not really my thing but hey, maybe this one will be unique enough to consider me giving it a shot! It releases sometime this summer.

𝙎𝙋𝙇𝘼𝙏𝙊𝙊𝙉 3: 𝙀𝙓𝙋𝘼𝙉𝙎𝙄𝙊𝙉 𝙋𝘼𝙎𝙎

If anything, this announcement was the main course for me! Just...wow. ♡ As someone who started within Splatoon 2, it's going to be so fascinating to explore Inkopolis Plaza for my very first time! Also SQUID SISTER SPLATFESTS ARE BACK! I already know @atlantisportal2 is about to have a nostalgia trip. I'm so freaking excited! 😁 Not only that...but Side Order is looking VERY intriguing for me.

Could this be a corrupt version of what happened if Team Order won Splatoon 2: Final Splatfest? Also Pearl and Marina baby, woohoo! Very glad seeing them back along with what looks to be Agent 8. Also you better believe I purchased it ASAP! With that said, wave 1 is set to release sometime in Spring with wave 2 inkcoming (haha) somewhere on the holidays (according to placeholder dates).

𝘼𝘿𝙑𝘼𝙉𝘾𝙀 𝙒𝘼𝙍𝙎 1+2: 𝙍𝙀-𝘽𝙊𝙊𝙏 𝘾𝘼𝙈𝙋

I haven't got much to say about these games, however, I did like what they've shown so far and looking to pick it up sometime in future if reviews are looking good. Like the artstyle they're going for! They will be avaliable on April 21st.

𝙉𝙎𝙊: 𝙂𝘼𝙈𝙀 𝘽𝙊𝙔+𝙂𝘼𝙈𝙀 𝘽𝙊𝙔 𝘼𝘿𝙑𝘼𝙉𝘾𝙀

More games for the service? Yes freaking please! It took a while but now they're here. The games really whizzed by and it would be impossible to put them all here, so if you'd like a glimpse of what I'm personally interested in, take a look. Take your time. 😊 *Tick tick tick* Oh, you're back? Lovely! Nintendo really popped off with the choices imo (looking at you Wario Land 3 and Mario+Luigi Superstar Saga). Some of these games are being released today with others being added in the future.

𝙋𝙇 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙉𝙀𝙒 𝙒𝙊𝙍𝙇𝘿 𝙊𝙁 𝙎𝙏𝙀𝘼𝙈

A miracle has happened!! After tragic events with both Level 5 and the original creator years ago, Professor Layton is looking to make a return. I've not played any of these games yet which judging by general buzz, I'm missing out! Hope to see more details soon as they come and maybe look into this considered-to-be underrated series in future. A release date has not been confirmed yet.

𝙏𝙇𝙊𝙕: 𝙏𝙀𝘼𝙍𝙎 𝙊𝙁 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂𝘿𝙊𝙈

GANON IS BACK AND MORE TERRIFYING THAN EVER! With an amazing reveal of more info, this game is shaping up to be something great already. The visuals, music, and maybe even voice acting...it leaves me impressed. The gameplay could even be a step up with new weapon types and tools among other things (we can make our own cars legit now!?) However, it also reminds me that I need to finish BOTW someday. 😅 I'll be sure to look into this game at some point. Sharpen your blade and prepare for adventure on 12th May, 2023...

(Tysm for getting up to this point reader, it's been wonderful writing it all. I'm still not done yet though and might do part 2 in future. Take care! 👋

🎴My Carrd

#nintendo #nintendo direct #pikmin #samba de amigo #splatoon #advance wars #game boy #game boy advance #professor layton #the legend of zelda #gaming #9.2 #2023

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ynderebot · 3 years

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ファイル...FILES.

choi yeonjun. nancy mcdonie. lee gahyeon. kim sunwoo. kim doyeon. choi san. kim sihyeon. yang jeongin.

執着型 [ shuuchaku-gata ] obsessive.

"where were you? who were you with? what were you doing? why didn't you answer my messages? oh come on darling, don't be like that...I've been waiting for hours!"

[ PROFILE 1. ]

choi yeonjun.

5'11. 21 yrs old. September 13th, 1999. virgo. blood type a. born in seoul, south korea

at age 14 yeonjun was sent to a boarding school in japan, this is where he discovered his...tendencies. halfway through his first year he met a girl, kang iseul. he was instantly infatuated with her, he had an impulsive urge to know every little thing about her. to do so he befriended her, using his appearance and charms to win her over and eventually made her his. the euphoric rush that ran through his body when she was officially his was like nothing he'd ever felt before. she was finally his and he didn't intend on letting go, not without a fight at least. he was in for a shock when one day she tried to run away after his true colors started to show. unfortunately her best friend was killed by yeonjun for trying to help her, but she did escape.

he's a switch with no lean. a hard/soft dom or obedient sub all just depends on his mood and how he's feeling

[ PROFILE 2. ]

nancy mcdonie.

5'4. 21 yrs old. april 13th, 2000. aries. blood type o. born in daegu, south korea.

nancy was always a little obsessed with things, she'd go through phases too. she would find one new hobby/thing that intrigued her and hyper fixate on it for a few months. then, just like that it would be forgotten as if it had never happened. it started from a young age too, so when she would tell all her friends and family about the boy she met it came as no surprise to them. soon enough he was all she talked about, all she cared about, it was true obsession. everyone around her thought that it was just a phase like everything else, but they were sadly mistaken. the day he broke up with her, she lashed out. screaming that he couldn't break up with her, no she wouldn't let him break up with her. even after that day she would never stop talking about him, she tried to stay involved with his life as much as she could and even ended up scaring away any potential lovers. she never stopped either, until she had no choice when he moved away.

she's a sub, usually obedient but can be bratty if she's in a mood.

ストーカー型 [ sutookaa-gata ] stalker.

"how did I know? I'm always with you, following you...watching you...it's only because I love you"

[ PROFILE 3. ]

lee gahyeon.

5'3. 22 yrs old. february 3rd, 1999. aquarius. blood type ab. born in seongnam, south korea.

she was so excited when her crush asked her out, she couldn't contain herself. the problem was, it's difficult to get to know someone when you already know everything about them. she'd been stalking him ever since he caught her eye, every single day. she'd follow him to and from school, to his friends house, wherever he went she usually wasn't far behind. he could never find out about that side of her though, so she played along. laughing at childhood stories she heard him tell previously, pretending to be shocked when learning things she already knew. even after they began dating she continued to stalk him, he noticed things were off. she was the one he confided his "paranoia" in and she was the one who reassured him, but little did he know she was the cause of it all.

she's a sub, also obedient but can be bratty if she feels like it.

[ PROFILE 4. ]

kim sunwoo.

5'10. 21 yrs old. april 12th, 2000. aries. blood type b. born in seongnam gyeonggi, south korea.

unlike gahyeon, sunwoo was not always a stalker. he'd heard of stalkers but it never peaked his interest, he didn't even take any note of his slightly possessive tendencies. until his first relationship that is, his first partner showed signs of cheating. he might not have realized his own possessiveness and how it was seemingly growing stronger, but he was no fool. all the coming home late, the scent of another person that was not their own flooding the house when they entered. so he began following them around, at first it was...innocent, or as innocent as stalking could be. they were cheating, this made his possessiveness shoot through the roof. he was most aggressive and warned his partner that they do not want to do that again. they listened, and he continued to stalk them, it turned into a fun...game of sorts.

he's a switch with a sub lean, soft dom/occasionally bratty sub.

独占型 [ dokusen-gata ] monopoly.

"who were you talking to? do they know me? no no, do they know you're mine?"

[ PROFILE 5. ]

kim doyeon.

5'8. 21 yrs old. december 4th, 1999. saggitarius. blood type o. born in wonju-gangwon, south korea

doyeon had always been just about as normal as you could get. until she got a boyfriend, she was possessive of him sure...but it was nothing too extreme. until she started having doubts, all the gorgeous girls that would go up to him, flirting and doing who knows what when she wasn't around. she made it her mission to let everyone know he was hers and she was his, wether it meant glueing herself to him or just reminding everyone at school on the daily. ever since he broke up with her, her tendencies only grow stronger and more extreme with each passing minute.

she's a sub, brat tendencies but will be obedient sometimes

[ PROFILE 6. ]

choi san.

5'9. 21 yrs old. july 10th, 1999. cancer. blood type b. born in namhae-south gyeonsan, south korea.

san's first love was a girl in his sister's class, was she a year older than him? yes, but he didn't care. despite all the people telling him he would never date her, he proved them wrong and he did. everything was perfect, they were both madly in love with each other, spending every minute of every waking day together. until something happened that san hadn't expected, his sister began to steal his girlfriend. well "steal" in his definition at least, she'd wanted to talk with his girlfriend every once in a while before he knew it they were always together and it seemed as if he was the real third wheel, this pissed him off more than anything. he got fed up one day and got into a physical fight with his sister, shouting about how the girl belonged to him and only him. from then on out he's made sure to stay in the middle of every single relationship.

he's a switch with no lean hard/soft dom or obedient/bratty sub, it all depends

排除型 [ haijo-gata ] removal.

"you haven't seen them in a while? I'm sure they're alright darling, after all I'm the only one you need. isn't that right?"

[ PROFILE 7. ]

kim sihyeon.

5'6. 21 yrs old. august 5th, 1999. leo. blood type b. born in bundang-gu, seongnam-si, south korea.

she's a sub, usually bratty but can be obedient too

[ PROFILE 8. ]

yang jeongin.

5'8. 20 yrs old. february 8th, 2001. aquarius. blood type a. born in busan, south korea.

he's a switch with a slight sub lean but can be a soft dom

sihyeon and jeongin's stories go together, they were childhood friends and neighbors. eventually they realized that they had feelings for each other, but this soon after developed into a toxic mindset. the thought that they only need each other, no one else. one by one people from the other's life began to disappear, especially anyone who could be a romantic rival. they were both oblivious to the other's actions until each confronted the other, instead of being upset they were each ecstatic. ecstatic that the other felt the same, that they were the only person they needed in their life

notes/rules

this isn't an accurate representation of any of the members/their companies/groups nor am I claiming to be them!

all of the members are bisexual with no lean

all of the members are yanderes [ obviously ] so they will act as such, however some can be more possessive than others at times

the ones who can be the most possessive are sihyeon and jeongin and the least are yeonjun and nancy

sihyeon and jeongin are obviously not still dating, it was just for backstory/plot purposes

nsfw is an option, if you would like it included please state so when you activate the bot

however please don't make everything nsfw, it gets boring when the plot dwindles

nsfw is 18+ but purely sfw option is available if you aren't comfortable with it or if you're below 18

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zaine-m · 2 years

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July 12th - Still behind but hoping to catch up today. We're on "What team?" then ta catch up I also have to watch "Thanksgiving". Tomorrow with "The Tech rehearsal" we won't get any Gina which sucks but we'll survive.

Previous -- next

Season 1 Episode 6: "What Team?" thoughts under the cut:

Okay so this episode is starting the Monday after Homecoming, which was Friday

Everyone is working together and is having fun, finally

Why do they have big red do all the miscellaneous stuff

Seb's little pink streak of hair 🥰

How tf did Gina turn her personality around so quickly

And just because of a guy, where did the don't change yourself for a guy message go?

Yes Nini feel that pain, Ricky has girls other than you in his life, you can't just drop him and pick him up as you see fit. Honestly I just like seeing her in pain

Why did Gina jump so early, her and that Ryan guy

Gina's "I figured", this girl takes responsibility for her actions

Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like there was a deleted scene where a lot went down because Ricky told her like once that she was too ambitious and that's what caused all this change. Has no one ever called her out before? Was her entire confidence act really all that weak?

"It's was more like I felt like I had to get it" "That's the same thing"

It's hard to take them seriously when they're wearing the most brightly coloured outfits ever

"little too literal for my taste" she's such a english teacher (derogatory)

We never see the principle in season 2 do we?

Kourtney switched so fucking quickly like before she was stealing Gina's stuff because her friend had a hunch Gina stole her phone and now they're being all friendly. I guess if Nini told Kourtney what Gina said and Gina didn't know about Kourtney's part in it it doesn't matter that much but still, like Kourtney used to hate Gina

Carlos putting his acting skills to work

Nini, Carlos is already soo stressed about this, why are you making his life harder with all your questions?

"This is not a democracy"😂

Nini pushing Carlos to his limits then being like "are you okay? it's not that deep" like, you're the issue

Seb's little "You know you could've told me"

Ricky just hanging onto "the show will still go on" for sake of his dying mental health then Gina just being like, "wtf, you can hold onto to stuff, even when it's unlikely, not just run away at any sign things could fall apart, seems fake but okay"

Gina's making friends!!!! And they're close!!!!

"Has it occurred to you that Miss Jenn is responsible for her own untimely demise" This is why Mr. Mazzara is my favourite character

Ej being this unstoppable force of making bad decisions and Ashlyn trying her best to stop him

HE'S GROWING AS A PERSON. CHARACTER DEVLOPMENT. I'm so proud of my little asshole baby, he's doing the right thing on his own

"I've messed up. More than you know" He's so responsible

"The audience doesn't know what they're missing" And he still uplifts her after everything that happened where she was a pretty shitting girlfriend to him

This is peak EJ. He will never get better than in this scene

His little stop when he's checking to see if he has anything else to apologize for

We better get a billion sorrys 2.0 in season 3

Nini's suffering when she sees Rina😍😍😍😍

Why tf did you think you would be able to stroll back into Ricky's life after how you left him. Because of his fear of abandonment and change that makes him willing o do anything to get things back to the way they used to be? Oh, yeah, okay, fair

How many teachers does this school have? would none of them be willing to help the students finish the musical?

Big Red made friends outside of Ricky!!!!

Ashlyn inviting a ton of people to Big Red's house

Please tell me I'm not the only one who doesn't miss Natalie Bagley. Her sass is kind of funny at first but then it just gets annoying

Gina says that like she has a lot of skeletons in her closet

Again Nini with this voice thing. Show me one fucking scene where no one listens to her, where everyone ignores or invalidates what she's saying. Any decent writer would add a scene like that to make this actually be a believable issues

Unless what Nini means by being heard is to have her voice be scene as the only important one and it's just so fucking shitty for anyone to have that

Okay but Ashlyn, I don't think your parents would be as relaxed about a teacher lying about their sketchy past

So mike and Miss Jenn find out that they're both connected to Ricky. This seems so early in their relationship that they could just break it off now

This entire show acts like theater is this very hated community which I never saw at my school. Idk is it an American thing?

Are you allowed to fire people sp publicly, like that seems like humiliating people in the workplace. Is this a thing that actually happens?

Also those seem like pretty good reasons to fire her

The way Ricky looks at his dad when he stands up

Seb says "she's the one who cheers us on" but then she's always just saying "no seb"

Where is Nini's other mom???

The hugging scenes are always so fun because you can just see them randomly hugging eachother in the background. Like Ashlyn and Ricky, EJ and seb, Carlos and Nini

Yessss, more of Nini in pain!!!!

Ricky's look when he realises they're flirting

#hsmtmts watch through #hsmtmts season 1 #hsmtmts

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uta-no-sin-sama · 3 years

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New Post Series Coming Soon: 5 Fun Facts and 5 Headcanons

I hope 2022 has treated you all well so far. I've had this idea for a post series for a couple months now, and wanted to wait until the new year started before I started the series.

This was inspired by a TikTok series by user alli_bugg that she does on her page where she mentions 5 fun facts about various anime characters on their canon birthdays. I figured, why not do that on my blog?

I'm also adding my own little twist to this series by also adding 5 small general headcanons I have for each character. I know most people here just write an imagine as a sort of "special" for character birthdays, but because my life offline is too hectic and energy-draining for that, I figured this would be easier to keep on top of while still celebrating with the rest of the fan base.

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What can some of these fun facts include?

I'm going to try my best to include things that can be found in material other than the anime (the games, manga, etc), but my main source I'll be using is the Fandom wiki page. Some things I might include are:

- star signs

- likes and dislikes

- Canon information (Warning: might contain spoilers, especially for later seasons)

- info about their VAs and their roles outside of Utapri (important note: because Utapri does not have an official English dub at the time of writing and is likely one of those anime that will probably never get an English dub, assume any and all information regarding VAs is for the Japanese versions of any other anime mentioned)

- original concept ideas/stuff deleted from final product we all know and love (this one will probably be lacking, ngl)

What can headcanons include?

I have already posted a few headcanons on here, but I'm going to try not to repeat any of the ones I've already posted. They'll be more focused on the characters themselves rather than in given scenarios. These can include, but are not limited to:

- fluff (what I write best lmao)

- angst (I'll try not to post too much of this, we're celebrating birthdays here, after all)

- possibly canon-inspired

- smut/semi-smut (some characters, definitely not all in this little series)

When can we expect these posts?

My time zone is about 12 hours behind Japan's time zone, so I plan on posting each of these between the hours of noon and midnight EST the day before the birthday of the character in question, so that would make it available sometime between the hours of midnight and noon in Japanese time.

When's (insert best boy/girl here)'s going to be posted?

Here's the order of when I'll post these. There are 23 total characters that will be in this series, 20 of which I regularly write for and 3 I don't usually write for. You can also find the links to their posts here in case you miss any!

January

- 7th: Nagi

- 23rd: Camus

February

- 14th: Ren

March

- 1st: Ai

- 3rd: Haruka

April

- 30th: Yamato

- 11th: Otoya

May

- 5th: Kira

- 15th: Ryuuya (Note: This one might be posted a little bit earlier, maybe by a day or two, because I actually have the same birthday as him lol)

June

- 9th: Natsuki and Syo (they will each have their own post, and I'll try to space it out so they're not posted at the same time)

July

- 7th: Tomochika

- 13th: Reiji

August

- 6th: Tokiya

September

- 1st: Eiichi

- 15th: Ringo

- 29th: Ranmaru

October

- 20th: Eiji

- 31st: Cecil

November

- 4th: Shion

- 22nd: Shining (I'm probably going to regret including him in this list lmfao)

December

- 12th: Van

- 29th: Masato

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I can't wait to start this new series for you all and I hope this will make up for a lack of any kind of imagines as I try to get back into the swing of things.

Up first, our favorite cosmically-cute idol!

- Lizzie Rose

#utapri headcanons #uta no prince sama #utapri #not a scenario or imagine #haruka nanami #starish #quartet night #utapri heavens #tomochika shibuya #new project

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