#it’s true that having people around you care and congratulate you make achievements 1000 times more rewarding

[byunsole]

i never celebrated any achievement ever

[loulines]

I'm gonna make this purposefully long so that no one reads it.

Unless I opt out in the middle.

I no longer know what's going on on Tumblr, who's still around and who is not. I'm so out of the loop it's embarrassing.

I know my blog gradually faded out, even though I tried my hardest, real life won and took all the time I had saved for trying to draw.

Not that it matters, I know. To be honest, I don't even know why I'm writing it, since it will be just another "I my me mine" post. As if anyone ever cared about those. But maybe it'll be better if I treat it as a journal entry, one of those I used to write when I was young and still somewhat hopeful--so pretty much just me rambling into the void, where I'll be the only person who will read it again after a while and cringe hard.

Sorry for not drawing anymore. I'm still trying, but nowadays one project is taking me weeks or even months. Which is my own fault in a way, because whenever I do have the time to draw or write I usually just spend hours on procrastinating on YouTube. Watching videos of people making their dreams come true just so that I can later complain that I failed while trying to work on mine.

At least I stopped being unemployed... Which is the reason why I lost over 50 hours weekly from my life, but at least I can buy food and pay my bills.

But I never knew sacrificing drawing for that would take such a toll on me. I thought I'd manage. I didn't. Now I'm a self-diagnosed still officially "normal" person because I'm unable to seek mental health, not that it would be easy in this shit hole of a country. But when your self esteem runs off to another galaxy and your executive dysfunction decides to have the time of its life, you're stuck with your own thoughts while still being damn sure you're never gonna get help.

Also not living in America or any other wealthy country makes it all even worse. In the span of two years since I digged out this ancient blog and became active I realized no one gives a flying fuck you're from a poorer country with a completely different culture. No, you will have to act like an American or at least like a native English speaking person, and you will always be judged as one. No one cares that you don't know shit about their problems just like they don't know (and would never care to know) about yours. I mean, okay, I get it, you have to educate yourself before speaking to others and it took a while but I got there. But once the labels stick to you, they will stay attached forever. And I aim this to both the "good" and the "bad" guys out there, some of you are full of shit no matter which side you're on.

I remember when I was in a completely different fandom like 300 years ago. I had my ship, people had theirs. Holy fuck how I hated that other ship.

Not even once did it come to my mind to go and attack people who shipped it with words I've been hearing every day since 2020, and which where slapped onto my username with the strongest glue you can find.

At the end of the day I know that none of this matters as long as I know I'm none of these things, and the people I'm closest to know that too... Too bad it still matters to other people and it will make trying to achieve your dreams 1000 times harder.

Speaking of dreams, I'm probably already repeating myself, but yeah, I've seen them all crumble one by one until the only thing I could do is watch other people achieve what I could not. By now I've lost all hope on still trying to reach my goals and the fact I haven't even reached 1000 followers on Tumblr before almost all engagement and activity disappeared from my blog is a testament to that. And yes, I did care about that stuff, what a "surprise". Congratulations to those who don't, you're better than me.

I know my biggest problem is comparing myself to successful people too much. But I mean, you're always supposed to find someone you could look up to so I had my small collection of role models. I've always wanted to be like them one day and at some point I thought I was getting there but then reality slapped me hard, and here I am, writing this pathetic post to no one in particular instead of enjoying life and achieving my dreams.

After some of my friends asked me to start doing commissions I finally got the guts to do them, only to realize it's taking me too long to finish even one and while I'm currently in the middle of my second commission, I realize most people won't be ever willing to wait this long.

I was also thinking about selling stuff but I forgot I live in a shit hole and there's no point in making people pay a crazy amount of money just to ship something outside of my country. So I gave up on that as well. Not that it will be a loss to anyone but myself. There are other more talented people who have much more interesting stuff you can get. You're probably even wondering (assuming you even bothered to read the whole thing) why I feel so entitled to complain when there are tens of thousands of people like me. Yeah, I don't know either.

Usually at this point I consider deleting the entire post because I no longer know where I'm going with this. Does it really matter though? I wrote this mostly to myself because I'm not *that* naive to hope someone will read it (except from that one person who knows I know she will read it and then she will tell me again to get my shit together). So yeah, it doesn't matter if this post doesn't make fucking sense. I'm not a professional journalist or writer anyway.

I always feel weird and self-conscious about posting stuff like this because I never know if I suddenly get a surge of motivation to draw something. And if I did, it would be awkward to post it so soon as if nothing's wrong. Maybe that's why I should just shut the hell up.

If you reached the end of this post, I'm so sorry for all the time you've wasted reading this. Take care of yourself. Until next time whoever knows when.

[blackpinkstories]

Two Idols

Lisa Manoban x Reader

Part: 1/4

About: Your best friend Jisoo Kim auditions for YG Entertainment. Once she makes it she never messages you again. Your dream in life is also to become a singer and you try to achieve it by using YouTube and uploading covers. You forget how much you miss Jisoo until you see her at an awards ceremony. When you reconnect at the awards, you meet Lisa. (You’re gay in this story)

Jisoo and Y/N lay on Y/N’s talking about their dreams. Both girls, ever since they were young, have wanted to become singers. Jisoo wanted to be a famous pop singer whereas Y/N wanted to write her own songs with her guitar and tour the world.

“My YouTube channel has 1000 subscribers now and the cover of Loser by BIGBANG has gotten nearly 300,000 views. It’s insane.” Y/N said, scrolling through her YouTube on her phone.

“That’s crazy” Jisoo said, laying next to her, watching what she was doing.

When Jisoo and Y/N were young children, they would sing their hearts out on a beaten up kareoke box Jisoo had been given as a birthday present from Y/N. It didn’t sound the best but it provided them with years of entertainment.

“Y/N! Y/N!” Jisoo yelled, running through the school corridor to reach her best friend.

“Look! This morning I saw on YG’s website that they’re holding auditions in Korea in two months. I signed up instantly and I’m waiting on a reply now. I’m scared! It’s YG! Record company of BIG BANG!” Jisoo said, very quickly as she was so excited.

“Jisoo that’s so great!” Y/N squealed with her best friend. “What do you need to do?” Y/N asked. “I’m not sure yet. They’re going to email me soon. They’re holding 1000 auditions so hopefully I’ll be in time.” Jisoo said, nervous already.

That lunch time, Y/N and Jisoo found an empty classroom to brainstorm. “YG emailed me duing third period. Here it is.” Jisoo turned her laptop screen toward Y/N so she could read.

‘Dear Kim Jisoo,

Thank you for your application. We are delighted to inform you that you have an audition at the YG Entertainment Building on the 26th September. To the audition please be prepared with a dance to any song you like, an original song and you’ll be asked to sing a section of a song you won’t have prepared for. We look forward to seeing you.’

Y/N squealed excitedly before getting in her musical zone. “You can help me write the original song because you’re so good at it! Please Y/N?” Jisoo asked hopefully. “Of course I’ll help you. What kind of song do you want it to be?” Y/N asked, getting out her pen and notebook out of her bag to take down ideas. “I was thinking of a love song, with a twist to make it indivial. I want it to show off my vocals.” Jisoo said, thinking intently. Y/N wrote it down quickly as the bell rang for their next and final class of the day. “I’ll think tonight and I’ll let you know what I have tomorrow and we can adapt and add. See ya!” Y/N said before disappearing down the corridor to her next lesson.

That evening, Y/N sat at her computer with her microphone set up, ready to sing if creativity struck. She had scribbled down many words and chord patterns but she was yet to find one she was satisfied with. Y/N nor Jisoo had any experience in love so she was trying to be poetic but she felt it was becoming too cringe, which she didn’t want for Jisoo. Suddenly, a bright idea popped into Y/N’s head and her pen was flying. Words and notes were being written down so fast, the pen wasn’t far from breaking. Y/N began to record what was in her head with her guitar and her own singing voice. ‘I think I have something. Come over if you can’ Y/N text Jisoo, hoping she would come despite it being 11pm. In ten minutes, there was a knock on the door and Jisoo stood there impatiently. Both girls hurried upstairs and Y/N made Jisoo sit and listen to the recording.

“This is incredible Y/N.” Jisoo said, placing the headphones on the table. “We can change it to however you want as it’s only the first demo.” Y/N said, happy with her work for once. “No, no. I want to sing it exactly like this. It’s perfect. The lyrics aren’t too cliche and it’s melodic too. You’re a genius.” Jisoo said. Y/N and Jisoo switched some lyrics around and changed the end but after that, Jisoo was so excited to record she couldn’t wait the next day so at 1am on a very early Saturday morning, Y/N’s room was filled with Jisoo’s honey-like voice.

The sun had risen and it was 7am, but Jisoo and Y/N finally found the perfect take. They were both tired and once they had finished, instantly they laid down and fell asleep.

The next two months went extremely fast. Jisoo sang their song everyday to make sure it was engrained in her head. She had the song on a disc and she had an instrumental version that she could sing along too as she doubted Y/N could come with her to the audition just to play guitar. Jisoo had gotten advice from their schools dance teacher and perfected her dance to a song she loved. The audition day arrived and Y/N was getting ready with Jisoo before she would drive her to audition.

“Don’t wait outside, because I don’t know how long I’ll be or what happens after it. Thank you so much for everything you have done these past two months. With the song and everything too. I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to have someone like you.” Jisoo hugged Y/N before walking into the large glass doors of YG. Y/N felt emotional, and terrified, for Jisoo.

Y/N didn’t hear anything from Jisoo that evening, or the next day, or the next day. She was confused because she had no idea why Jisoo was ignoring her, or where she was. Their friends from school hadn’t heard from her either and Jisoo’s parents refused to answer any of Y/N’s questions. She was lost.

time jump: 2 years later

It had been 2 years since Y/N had last heard from Jisoo. She tried not to think about it too much but it still hurt her. Y/N graduated school, and was spotted by someone from a different record company. She took the deal and started to work on her professional singing and guitar playing. Her dream was finally coming true but her best friend wasn’t there to share it with her.

In the past two years, Y/N had changed a lot. She had finally come to terms with her sexuality and she dressed differently. She acted the same, humble and caring, but she became more confident. Y/N was very happy that her dream was finally beginning to come true, especially as she walked onto a stage where she was about to make her debut as a rising singer.

She gripped the neck of her guitar nervously as a man announced her name. Y/N walked out as confidently as possible and began to play a song she had written long ago, the first original song she ever wrote. Every person at that debut show was going crazy. Phone cameras were out and cheering was heard. Y/N smiled as she had a conversation with the host and gave some simple facts about herself.

When Y/N walked off the stage, she was on a high. Many people approached her and congratulated her as she realised this is what she was born to do.

Jisoo was a trainee at YG Entertainment now. She had met new friends, one being Jennie Kim. She didn’t think about Y/N often, even though she could message her whenever she wanted, she just chose not to because she didn’t want to make Y/N feel bad that she was achieving her dream and Y/N wasn’t. Jisoo felt bad, but it was for the best. At least that’s what she told herself.

“JISOO! We are going to be debuting early! Me, you, Lalisa Manoban and Park Chaeyoung!” Jennie screamed as she ran into their dorm room. Jisoo jumped off her bed and began dancing around with Jennie.

“When?” Jisoo asked.

“5 days from today! We have to begin immediately which is why we have to find Lisa and Chaeyoung. Let’s go!” Jennie dragged Jisoo as they ran through the corridors. Their dreams were starting earlier than they expected!

Jisoo, Lisa, Chaeyoung and Jennie all met in the dance studio where they were immediately thrown into dancing for a song they recorded last week - Whistle. They found the dance hard but at the end of the day they had already completely the first verse.

Y/N was very excited to begin her career. Once people started noticing her, she was busy instantly with promotion of her single and performances on TV shows. She even starred on ‘The Tonight Show’ in the USA, where she announced her first album. She was more than excited to release her first album, but a lot was too be decided. She had to think about the photo book and photo card, the front cover and how she wanted it to sound. Her manager had told her she wouldn’t have long to decide to she sat in a hotel room at a desk, looking through pictures online to give her inspiration. The thought suddenly struck - light and dark. Y/N loved wearing black and it was her favourite shade, and darkness for the photos would be great, and she could have light ones as well. Her songs could be a mixture and she already thought of song ideas that would match. Great!

Jisoo, Jennie, Lisa and Chaeyoung, who had adopted the stage name: Rosé, stood backstage as they were prepared for their debut. One by one, they slowly walked out onto the dark stage as their names were called. They were scared and nervous but they had been waiting for this moment almost their whole lives, and the excitement weighed out any other feeling. “BLACKPINK” was the group name chosen. It felt good to have a name and have people soon saying it, Jisoo thought to herself.

The next month was spent releasing music, for both Y/N and BLACKPINK. Jisoo didn’t pay much attention to the media so she didn’t know about Y/N’s rise to fame, but Y/N knew about Jisoo. She saw her with her members on articles and on social media. Jisoo looked happy. Y/N’s album was released a week prior and it had blown up instantly. It hit #1 in Korea, Japan, Thailand, America and China. Everyone knew who she was, except Jisoo. Jisoo really was in her own world when it came to new music.

The Seoul Music Awards arrived, and Y/N was nominated for many awards, those including the Daesang award, Bonsang award, Record of the year and New artist award. She was against BLACKPINK in two of those, the Daesang award and the New artist award. To say she was nervous would be an understatement. Y/N would be performing in front of many other artists like Red Velvet, BTS, and most importantly, BLACKPINK. BLACKPINK weren’t performing but as Y/N was shown around the large venue, she knew exactly where they would be seated.

Jisoo, Lisa, Jennie and Rosé took their seats at a large table in the hall, where the awards were about to begin. “Who’s performing today?” Jisoo asked Lisa, who had been raving about the performances at the awards over the past few weeks. “BTS, Hyuna, GOT7 and Y/N.” Lisa said, saying Y/N’s name excitedly. “Y/N?” Jisoo asked, her heart dropping. “Yeah, her new album dropped the other month and it’s blown up. We are against her for the Daesang and New artist award. She’s really good, my girl crush.” Lisa said happily. “Do you have a picture of her?” Jisoo asked nervously. “Of course, she’s my home screen actually.” Lisa chuckled embarrassed. She had been obsessing over Y/N ever since her debut and clearly Jisoo hadn’t paid attention. Lisa showed Jisoo the photo on her home screen and Jisoo’s heart beat faster with nerves. Her old best friend was on the screen, smiling at a crowd with a guitar in hand. “What’s wrong unnie?” Lisa asked, locking her phone and placing it on the table. “She’s my old best friend.” Jisoo said. “I stopped talking to her completely, she probably hates me.” Lisa gasped slightly. Their conversation was interrupted by a large booming voice and the host walking out onto stage. Jisoo wasn’t really focusing as she was looking around for Y/N. Just as she turned to her right, she saw her. She sat on a table with Red Velvet and she was laughing about something with Yeri. Y/N looked more mature in her suit, seemingly made by Gucci by the design of it. Jisoo looked back at the stage, scared Y/N would see her.

The awards went fast, and then the first category Y/N was nominated for appeared. Record of the year. Many other amazing albums were nominated, including Red Velvet’s. Y/N joined hands with Yeri and Irene as they all waited, hoping the best for each other but also themselves.

“The winner for record of the year is, Y/N Y/L/N with her debut album.” Y/N stood up and hugged the members of Red Velvet and shook various hands as she walked up to the stage, a huge grin on her face. She took the award graciously, bowing to the host respectively. Y/N gave a small speech before her time ran out and she went and sat back down, placing her award on the table before it was taken away by her manager for safe keeping.

Y/N won the next two awards she was nominated for, the New artist and the Bonsang award. She beat BLACKPINK in the new artist award and saw them sitting here, her eyes settling on Jisoo as they made uncomfortable eye contact. Backstage, Y/N was preparing for her performance. She had changed and her hair had been restyled. Now she was wearing a casual outfit. She had a large shirt tucked into high waisted shorts as it was hot. Simple but Y/N liked it.

“Now, the performance you’ve all been waiting for, Y/N Y/L/N!” The host announced, disappearing from the stage. Y/N began to play her guitar from the side of the stage as the stage was still dark. It lit up slowly as she walked onto the stage with her guitar, singing happily. It was a joyful pop song that showed off Y/N’s vocals as she played her guitar along with the additional backing track. Everyone was going crazy for her as she sang, the hall being filled with people singing wildly. The whole hall erupted in cheer as Y/N ended on a high note. She walked off the stage humbly and went and sat back down, not before passing her guitar to her manager who took it away. The members of Red Velvet congratulated her as she sat down. The whole hall fell silent as they waited for the Daesang, the most prestigious award, to be announced. “This award has many incredible artists nominated, but we can only have one winner. The winner of the Daesang is...”

Everyone waited. BLACKPINK, Seungri, Y/N, BTS and Hyuna were all nominated. “Y/N Y/L/N.” Y/N’s heart stopped as she sat there shocked. She saw her own face on the screen and realised how crazy she looked. Winning the Daesang was something she didn’t expect this early on in her career. BLACKPINK stood up and clapped and everyone followed. Y/N was still in shock as she walked slowly to get the award.

“Wow, thank you so much for this. Thank you for supporting me and buying my album, and listening to it. I can’t believe anything like this would ever happen to me. Not long ago, I was just someone who went to school and wrote songs in their bedroom, but it’s insane that something like this has happened. I’ll forever be grateful to each and every one of you. Thank you.”

Y/N wiped a tear as she walked off to backstage, ready to be interviewed as BTS closed the event with their fantastic performance of Fake Love. She took pictures with other artists like the members of iKON and the many members of NCT. These people all congratulated her and praised her. She was overwhelmed with emotion.

“Y/N!” Lisa called as the rest of BLACKPINK followed. “BLACKPINK! Hi!” Y/N said, hugging them one by one.

“Hi Jisoo.”

“Hi Y/N, congratulations.” Jisoo said. The uncomfortable silence was filled up by Lisa praising Y/N nervously. Y/N stared right into Lisa’s eyes which made her even more nervous.

“Lisa is a huge fan, you’re her girl crush.” Jisoo said, making things less awkward between them. Lisa slapped Jisoo’s arm as Jennie and Rosé laughed. “It’s true. You’re her home screen.” Rosé said as Lisa turned a bright red. “That’s so cool.” Y/N said, laughing at how embarrassed Lisa was. Y/N put her arm round Lisa’s shoulder as Lisa looked like she was going to explode. “Do you guys want to come back to my apartment for our after party? There’s an official after party but ours is better and you guys can stay over if you want as with how drunk everyone’s going to be getting, I don’t think anyone wants to go home after that. Red Velvet are staying so you guys can too.” Y/N said. “That would be great.” Jennie said, hugging Y/N. “It’s starting almost now so just get here whenever you want, I’m about to leave to go so just turn up and you’ll be let in. See you later.” Y/N said before walking off to do one last interview before heading home.

“You guys are so embarrassing.” Lisa said. “But, she’s so hot! Jisoo, how could you not have set us up sooner if you’re best friends.”

“I stopped talking to her.” Jisoo said bluntly. Lisa coughed awkwardly as she felt Jisoo was not in the mood to explain why. “Okay, well let’s go to our hotel and get our overnight bags and then head to hers.”

Back at her apartment, Y/N and everyone there was already drinking and celebrating. Many artists and different people related to the music industry were there enjoying themselves. Yeri and Y/N spoke in the corner to each other, the music being so loud they had to yell in each other’s ears. “You look so beautiful tonight.” Y/N said, making Yeri blush. “So do you.” Yeri said in return, making Y/N grin largely. “Thank you.” Y/N said.

The door opened and Blackpink walked in. They had all changed and they held their bags, which were taken and put into a room that was locked. Lisa instantly spotted Y/N in the corner, and looking at her and Yeri made her jealous. “Hey Yeri, I’ll be back. I’m just going to say hello to my friends.” Y/N said. Lisa slapped Jisoo’s arm as Y/N approached.

“You made it!” Y/N exclaimed. She was slightly tipsy already and it was obvious. “Cool party Y/N.” Jennie said, taking the drink Y/N was offering. “Jisoo, can I talk to you?” Y/N asked. Jisoo nodded nervously as Y/N took her over to the corner privately. “I don’t want things to be awkward. I’m sure you had your reasons for not talking to me and I’m just glad we can reconnect again.” Y/N said, seriously. Even though she was tipsy, her words were coming from a place of love. “I’m so sorry Y/N. I don’t know what I was thinking. You’re the reason this all happened and I just left. I don’t want things to be awkward either.” Jisoo said. Y/N and Jisoo embraced warmly as they rejoined the other members. Lisa was happier now that Y/N returned.

“Make yourselves at home. Go dance, drink, do what you want!” Y/N exclaimed. Jisoo, Rosé and Jennie left to get more drinks but Lisa stayed with Y/N. “You’re pretty.” Y/N said to Lisa, watching the blush creep onto Lisa’s face. Y/N took a liking to Lisa and thought she was so beautiful. Her head was spinning and all she was focusing on was Lisa’s eyes.

Lisa felt her heartbeat speed up. Her favourite celebrity was standing right in front of her complimenting her and she couldn’t believe it. She was starstruck. Lisa had watched Y/N’s interviews and videos and instantly had been drawn to her personality. Now she had the chance to know her due to their careers. It was thrilling. “Let’s dance.” Y/N said, dragging Lisa onto the floor that was cleared to make a dance floor. Lisa was a natural born dancer and Y/N followed her moves. Y/N was watching Lisa intently as her hips swayed to the music. Y/N grabbed Lisa’s hips and pulled her closer. “You’re hot.” Y/N whispered into Lisa’s ear. Lisa again blushed. “So are you.” She whispered back. After this, Lisa needed a drink. She left Y/N to go over to Jennie, who was getting another drink for her, Rosé, Jackson Wang and Kai. They were all chatting and drinking in the corner. “I see you’re getting cosy.” Jennie said, passing Lisa a drink. “It’s a dream Jennie. She’s so hot, it’s painful. She’s playing with my heart I swear.” Lisa laughed. She saw Y/N talking to Yeri again and she instantly got jealous. Jennie laughed. “If you stare at Yeri like that any longer she’ll burst into flames. Is Y/N gay?” Jennie asked. “I’m not sure. I’ll ask Jisoo. She keeps calling me hot so I hope so but I don’t know.” Lisa said. What if Y/N wasn’t gay?

“Jisoo unnie! I have a question for you. Is Y/N gay?”

“She is. It was always a secret and she was never happy with herself but I think she’s come to terms with it now. I’m not sure.” Jisoo said.

“Thank you.” Lisa said. She scanned the room to find Y/N. She couldn’t find her until she saw her being pressed against the wall by Yeri. Yeri whispered something in Y/N’s ear which made Y/N smile. Yeri leant into Y/N’s neck and kissed it, which made Y/N smile. Lisa’s eyes narrowed and confidence overtook her. Lisa stomped over to Y/N and Yeri and pulled Y/N’s hand. Yeri stepped back shocked but they barely had anytime to react before Lisa had pulled her away and dragged her across the room. She pressed her against the wall and her eyes were dark and narrow. “Don’t do that.” Lisa said, staring into Y/N’s eyes. “What?” Y/N asked. “Don’t tease me. You know what I’m talking about. Yeri.” “You’re jealous!” “So what if I am?” Lisa asked. Before she knew it, Y/N had leaned forward and kissed Lisa. She grabbed her by the waist and pulled her closer. Lisa’s head was exploding.

The party continued and more people left. Y/N and Lisa were inseparable. Everyone was beginning to sober up by the end and at 2am, the only people left were Red Velvet, Blackpink and Y/N. They sat in the living room, which had been closed off due to the expensive couch and rug. “Thank you for a great night Y/N.” Irene said. “We better be off to bed. We have a show tomorrow night.” Irene, being the leader, made sure her members were not tired for their performances. “Goodnight guys.” Y/N said as they all left. Yeri, Irene and Seugli were in one room, and Joy and Wendy in another.

“Did you enjoy yourselves?” Y/N asked Blackpink. “It was so fun.” Rosé said. “I agree.” Lisa said. “I wonder why you found it so fun.” Jennie teased. Y/N laughed as Lisa turned red, once again. Y/N’s arm was around Lisa so Lisa turned her head into Y/N’s shoulder whilst laughing so the other members couldn’t see her bashful expression. They all laughed at how embarrassed Lisa got. “For rooms, there can be two of you in one, and three in the other, including me. Or, I can go alone and you two can share, and you two.” After much discussion, Jennie and Lisa stayed in one room, Jisoo and Rosé stayed in another and Y/N slept in her own room. They all said their goodnights before disappearing to their selective rooms. “You like her a lot don’t you?” Jennie asked Lisa as she left the bathroom, cleaning her teeth. “I do. She’s been my celebrity crush since her debut and knowing her today has just made it worse.” “She seems to like you back though, she kissed you after all.” Jennie said. Lisa smiled at the thought. “Go say goodnight to her. Turn right and three doors down is her room.” Jennie said. Lisa immediately left and followed Jennie’s instruction. Y/N’s door was open and Lisa stood at the door into her room. She had guitars lined up on the wall and a big microphone attached to the wall, with two big computers on a large desk. Her bed was huge and her duvets were white with sheep on it. Cute. Y/N was sitting at her desk with her back to the door strumming her guitar softly. Lisa knocked lightly and Y/N span around in her chair. “Hey, is everything okay?” Y/N asked. Lisa walked into her room and sat on her bed. “I just came to say goodnight, and to thank you again.” Lisa said. Y/N put her guitar back against the wall and sat next to Lisa on her bed. “It’s okay. I’m glad you enjoyed it.” Y/N said, staring into Lisa’s eyes. “It was fun. I’ve never been to a party like that before.” Lisa said.

“Like what?” Y/N laughed.

“I’m not sure, but it was different. Everyone was more relaxed. It was good.” Lisa said.

Lisa and Y/N shared a moment of silence before they leant in slowly and kissed. Y/N held the side of Lisa’s face as they deepened the kiss. “I should go sleep.” Lisa whispered once they’d pulled away. “Yeah, you should.” Y/N said. Lisa slowly moved away and walked out the door, Y/N watching her as she walked out. Lisa ran down the corridor and burst into the room she was sharing with Jennie. Jennie was laying in bed ready to sleep. Lisa jumped in beside bed and screamed into her pillow. “She kissed you didn’t she?” Jennie said. “Yes.” Lisa breathed. “Told you she liked you back.” Jennie said. Lisa just smiled as she turned off the lamp.

[archivesdiveronarpg]

Congratulations, DIANA! You’ve been accepted for the role of CELIA. Admin Bree: After months of going without a Castora, this application was everything I could've asked for and more—witty, well-written, and her, dripping from every word. You made me laugh with your headcanons and nod my head at your sample and interview, and there wasn't one thing in your application that wasn't utterly and completely true. You nailed it, and for that, I'm so excited to hand Castora off to you! Please read over the checklist and send in your blog within 24 hours. 

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Out of Character

Alias | Diana

Age | 19

Preferred Pronouns | she/hers

Activity Level | I’m around an 8 right now, because I’m off school and have more time to rp (minus one week in the beginning of July where I’m not sure what my computer access will be due to a vacation), but once I’m back at university I’ll be at my busiest on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, but activity will pick up on the weekend. Overall, I’d rate my activity at around a 7 to a 7.5.

Timezone | PST

In Character

Character | Celia; Castora Maria Aguilar

What drew you to this character? |

When I was reading Castora’s biography, I thought “this is the kind of person who would miss the point of Elsa’s story in Frozen.” Not that Castora would be a fan of Disney movies, per se. I find her coldness and her avoidance, dismissal, and fear of love fascinating - because love is around her; her mother loves her and Ramona  loves her, but she’s just so afraid of it. I also thought it interesting that she doesn’t really blame her father, the root of it all, for her problems; instead she wants to prove him wrong. Also, throughout her biography she reasons her mother’s behavior as a result of her father as her reasons for her psyche, when to me, it the death of her innocence was probably death by a 1000 cuts: her father leaving, watching her mother break, knowing her father left her because he would not risk everything by loving her, etc. So much weighs on her soul, but it has made her the person she is today. And despite it all, Castora is proud of it. She is proud of surviving.

There’s a lot of contrasts in her personality that I think make her an interesting character. She’s so capable of compartmentalizing her emotions away, of denying herself (and the people around her) love, that when she lets it spill over, which she rarely does, Castora forms these deep attachments and love for people - her relationships with Ramona and Valentina (and, with development, her relationship with Pandora who she already looks on like the mother she always wanted) for example. She is equal parts vengefulness, sharp-tongued, and cruelty as she is undying loyalty, diligent, and a hard worker. She’s equal parts loyalty and selfishness: just as devoted to the Montague’s, to Ramona, to her job, to the people she chose (even if she doesn’t like them and they don’t like her) as she is devoted to herself - her ambitions, desires, and willingness to withhold affection. The same girl who unabashedly broke her mother’s heart and joined a mafia is the same girl who when her trust is earned treats it like a marriage vow: until death do us part. It’s all rather like a Shakespearean tragedy, and Castora is made up of fatal flaws (which is a part of the reason she is so determined on surviving and rising)

There’s a lot of emotional baggage in that that would be interesting to explore in how she makes connections with other people on all sides of the war and how the battles can push her to either side of her personality, or to a breaking point.

There’s a line in her bio that I thought particularly interesting: “no, like smoke, she’ll rise.” Not like a phoenix, or something bright and magnificent. Like smoke - something that can help bring warmth or show the path (smoke signals) but that can also bring, with long time exposure, disease. Like smoke, something that will whisp away into nothingness soon and needs a constant fire to rise. Castora is determined to rise, but she won’t make it easy for anyone, including herself.

What is a future plot idea you have in mind for the character? | Where do you see this character developing, and what kind of actions would you have them take to get there? 3 future plot ideas would be preferable.

LEAST OF ALL, A CAPULET: Castora is, first and foremost two things: loyal and selfish. A loyal sister to Ramona; a loyal friend to Valentina; a loyal pupil to Pandora; a loyal soldier to the Montagues - and thus, loyal in her hatred for the Capulet’s. And in all those things, she holds it inside her heart, letting it bloom, fester, and rot in turn. All these practically consume her. And isn’t that what the daughter of Dolores Castillo and Arturo Aguilar should be? Loyal and selfish, to the point of self-annihilation? I think it would be interesting if Castora’s loyalties to the Montague’s and especially her perception of the Capulet’s was challenged or changed, perhaps having doubts about the Capulet’s killing Alvise, or having something Priam says to her stick? Castora’s so stubborn and so loyal to the Montague’s that having that challenged would cast a shadow of doubt over her worldview if she became friends/lovers/allies/etc. with any Capulet.  More specifically, I think an interesting plot would be Castora with a Capulet in a life-or-death situation against the Spades, or with the Spades against the Capulets, or any other mutual enemy (i.e. some rogue Veronian trying to kill them, or some Savonarola type figure trying to eradicate vice in Verona).

TO THAW A FROZEN HEART: Castora will never relinquish control of her heart and she has cultivated this Ice Queen image. Yet, she has let people in, particularly Ramona and Valentina (pretty much only Ramona and Valentina). Her biography mentions that people assume that she is the way she is because she “has never known love” - I headcanon that she lets people believe that because it’s easier - and I think an interesting plot for Castora would be to fall in love or to let someone in, and deal with the consequences. She is already so deeply closed off, and relates her “ice queen” exterior to survival, so I think it would be interesting in the gang world to see who Castora is thawed. More specifically, I was thinking that she shows mercy to someone - a duplicitous Montague, a Capulet or a Spade - and it comes back to bite her, leading to her going back to Ice Queen mode out of pain. Or having the person/people she loves being used against her to make her do things she wouldn’t do otherwise - betray the Montagues, or Ramona in particular, or have to go to the Capulet’s or Spade’s for help, when her go-at-it-alone method doesn’t work.

AMBITION: In Castora’s relationship section with Pandora, it mentions that Pandora was not threatened by Castora’s ambition, “see[ing] potential - rather than a threat”, which makes me wonder - have any of the other members in the Montague mob seen Castora as a threat? And who does she see as a threat on her ascendancy? Castora’s personality doesn’t really attract friends, after all. As I picture her, she’s not really the loudmouth “I hate your guts type” (unless it’s a Capulet); within the Montague’s she’s more quiet and when she speaks, she’s really blunt (which easily crosses the line into cruelty, insensitivity, apathy, etc.). She feels like she’s so close to becoming a captain, that she would tread over people she perceives as a threat or go above and beyond to earn the rank, perhaps making more Capulet enemies or setting off a chain reaction that leads to painful consequences.

AMBITION II: Castora could potentially reach the level of captain, and then find out that she is not suited for that level of leadership. I think it would be interesting for Castora to struggle with achieving her ambitions, and still feeling unsatisfied. No matter what she does, she can never really shake off the albatross of being her mother’s daughter. She feels that weakness inside of her. Also, if Castora were to lose anyone like Pandora, Ramona, or Valentina - or any other friends or potential future lovers - because of the rivalry between the gangs, I think it would be interesting for her to change her Montague career goals - going for becoming an emissary, a position of peace, and changing her world view.

LUKE I AM YOUR FATHER: Castora’s father left her and her mother when she was young because of his activities and loyalties to the crime world. In As You Like It, Celia’s father, Duke Frederick, is an usurper. Her biography doesn’t mention if her father was living/dead/participating in in Verona’s mafias by the time Castora has joined. To use some Shakespearean inspiration, I think it would interesting if Castora’s father came back as a threat to her/her interests/the Aguilar family (including her mother)/the Montagues - basically everything Castora cares about - and if he had any participation in Alvise’s death or any other shady events. I was thinking Castora “joins the dark side” either because he’s her father, and it would be the ultimate act of silencing about her fears of weakness and love, or doing it as a double agent.

In Depth

The following THREE questions must be answered in-character, and in para form (quotations, actions written out if applicable, etc). There is no minimum or maximum limit for your response - simply answer as you would were you playing the character.

What is your favorite place in Verona? | “The Castelvecchio Bridge. The Montague side, of course,” she responded, even though she was not averse to crossing the dividing line. The Bridge survived decades of war and it still stood. Castora appreciated that. “It’s usually quiet.” Quiet. Not peaceful. Like her. “It’s a good place to smoke.” A good place to think, she thought, but did not say out loud.

What does your typical day look like?

“Coffee,” Castora said bluntly. “It has to start with coffee.”

The Phoenix and Turtle, being in Capulet territory, was out of the question unless Castora really felt like gunning for a fight. But she was wiser than that - dying for an espresso seemed a tad ridiculous. Luckily there were several other cafe’s in Verona, one in Montague territory that would be persuaded to open at 5:30. She’d grab her and Pandora’s orders, carefully regarding her mentor, and say “Where and when?” The why doesn’t matter - usually.

“Then the gym,” she continued. Usually kickboxing. Sometimes spin classes, but the Montague soldier would drop dead before admitting to something her mother would do. Or probably does? Did? “Then work,” Castora ended with a smile that halfway met her eyes before the woman remembered to be as cold and unfeeling as the marble that breathed “life” into Verona. “You know, checking shipments, making sure people hold up their end of the deal.” Castora was very good at reminding buyers to keep their promises.

She smirked, “What happens after hours isn’t really anyone’s business though - is it?” And left. A girl’s got a reputation to uphold.

What are your thoughts on the war between the Capulets and the Montagues? “War is war,” the Aguilar girl said dismissively. “Peace is not a fucking option. Not now. Not after what they did to Alvise.” This is Verona! Castora wanted to scream. We don’t get justice here. We get even.

In-Character Para Sample:

There’s a half-full suitcase on her bed. She decided to buy new sheets and pillows and blankets, she decided she was ok with having lifeless white walls (and really, that was probably the better option than having those glow in the dark stars on her ceiling and posters for bands she didn’t listen to anymore but her mother was too nostalgic to throw out). She decided she was ok not bringing any photos. And Castora Aguilar never had much interest in fashion (not including her ability to rattle off all the shades of black), so choosing which clothes to leave behind and which to take with her wasn’t difficult.

Nor were the photographs. There was one on her nightstand of Castora at her sixth birthday party. Her mother on her right; her father on the left. She had studied it many times. She was brunette then, and without the dark determination to burn herself up into brilliance. Her father had the look she had now in his eyes in that photo - Castora could see the practiced joy, his skillful farce at loving fatherhood. If memory served, Arturo Aguilar left right after the candles were blown for “work”. Castora’s mother pretended not to mind.

But Castora could not be fooled by her mother even then. Perhaps this was the downfall of being an only child raised by a single fool of a mother in a beautiful city teeming with love, and lust, and horror - having too much time to think. Having too much time to dream of being a part of Verona’s chaos.

Castora picked up the photo in one hand, considering whether or not to take it with her. Maybe she would take her lighter to it and make it cinder. It’d be an accurate representation of her family - far more real than that ugly photograph. And besides, she had some photos of her with Ramona (and was certain Ramona has some as well) so the sentimentality felt useless. Weak. Like her mother. The Aguilar woman ignored the twinge of guilt that tugged at her heart - no, this is a test, she told herself: If you stop now, you’ll become her. A surge of fear replaced the guilt, you’ll become her you’ll become her ringing in her head like a deadly lullaby.

That restored her faith, and she dropped the photo back on her nightstand in disgust. “It’s for the best,” Castora told herself - the first words she had spoken aloud since she began packing.

“For you or for us?” Her mother lurked in the doorway. Castora left it open on purpose, as a test to see whether or not the woman would challenge her. She raised her head, looking at the woman in the eyes. They had the same golden eyes - earth-shattering when angry, devastating in the midst of tragedy. It made them stand out. They were the mark of gods - except Dolores Aguilar decided to lower herself to mortal. Castora decided to find that more tragic than her red-rimmed eyes and tear-streaked face.

She only sighed, “There is no us, mother. This is the best for me.”

“Cas, don’t be selfish.” You mean don’t be my father, right? Castora wanted to ask, but she even though she rejected love she could not reject this last sense of duty. As bitter as the daughter had become, she knew better than to speak his name under her roof.

“Don’t be him, Castora.” Apparently her mother would not give the same courtesy. “Please, if you love me do not…” The sobs came. She waited patiently for her mother to collect herself. “If you love me, do not go to them. Do not become a Montague!”

“Mother, I know this may be hard for you to believe, but this is not about love. And for fuck’s sake, it’s definitely not about him. This is about me. I want to be one of them. I want to be free. I want to be strong.”

“Where did I go wrong? My darling, darling girl.” Dolores reached out and cupped her daughter’s face. Castora spared her mother the pain of the answer, swallowing the resentment and rage that she did not even know why she felt. It had become a survival instinct. She was proud of that. And even if she wasn’t, Castora would convince herself of it.

“I’m going, mother. It’s out of your hands. Take this as an opportunity. Go back to school, get a better job, join a book club…I don’t know. Just try to fucking live, ok? It’ll probably be easier without me around.” No kid to worry about feeding, no constant reminder of him. Freeing her mother of her duty to love her would free her.

“You are my greatest love, Castora.” One final plea.

It’s not enough. “Then perhaps we shouldn’t love at all.”

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HEADCANONS

Since the Aguilar’s are part of the group of Montague families that “practically consider each other kinsman and blood,” I wonder what Castora and her mother’s relationship was with them after her father left. I think that sometimes some of the family’s would drop in and check on them (not in the “bring you a casserole uwu”, which Castora’s mother would have appreciated instead of them) because Castora is an Aguilar. Dolores Aguilar was always hesitant to accept help from them, or even their presence, and actively tried to keep Castora as far away from the Capulet’s and Montague’s as possible, but it only fed Castora’s fascination. These visitors, these “extended family”, all seemed so strong and brave and fearless. As opposed to her feeble mother. The only visitors she couldn’t keep denying were her uncle and therefore her cousin because family is family and her mother wanted someone who would understand/miss/love/hate her husband the same.

Castora has great respect for Alvise. After going to her uncle to join the Montague’s she spoke with Alvise and he sort of welcomed her into the ranks. Was it partly practical - to ensure a young girl’s loyalty to the cause because her father’s reputation? Sure. But Castora likes to think there was something more - a bit of kindness or compassion or honoring of her Aguilar blood, perhaps - but she can’t put her finger on it. She was horrified and devastated by Alvise’s death, even though she didn’t show it. Alvise’s acknowledgement of her meant the world (#givecastoravalidation2k17) and she deeply admired him, and perhaps wished her own father was more like him.

After her father left, his money stopped coming in too. Her father left her because he was too in lust with the dark side of Verona and never bothering to pay child support/alimony. Since he left when Castora was old enough to remember him and the change in her mother, I put it that he left when Castora was 8 years old. Before leaving, the family had a nice house in a decent neighborhood - exactly where her mother dreamed of living happily ever after and raising her daughter. After he left, her mother, a stay at home mom, struggled to find work. They were evicted and stayed with Castora’s uncle until they got on their feet. After, they moved to a small apartment and struggled financially until Castora was 14. It makes her relative security as a Montague soldier something that makes her even more loyal to the Montague’s.  

Castora has not checked up on her mother since she left her to join the Montague’s. Not even a google search or walking by her last known residence or job. Not because she’s apathetic to her mother, but because the guilt would crush her. When she’s awake at 2:00am, she does like to think about how her mother’s doing - maybe Castora’s abandonment finally made her get her life together (by Castora’s standards) and it was the final nail in the coffin, driving her to drink and pills or something like that. All she knows is that her mother is still alive; if she died and the police found the body, Castora is next of kin.

She was raised Catholic and actually identifies as Catholic, even though most people would think she’s agnostic or an atheist. Castora’s just a severely lapsed Catholic and if you asked her why she still believes in God she would not be able to answer.

Castora is bisexual, but she’s equally scared of and hateful towards intimacy from all genders.

(NSFW, ish) She’s not afraid of sex though.

She tried fake nails once and absolutely despised them.

Castora takes after her mother in appearance. She’s naturally a brunette, but started dying her hair blonde because of that, even though she’s not the biggest fan of blonde hair (believing in the blonde = ditzy and blonde = Regina George stereotype). But at this point, she’s gotten so used to it that dying it another color, unless she had to go undercover, would be a hassle.

Her most listened to song (and her workout song) is “No Scrubs”

She is fluent in Russian and knows conversational German for business

Castora speaks Spanish fluently, but rarely speaks it.

Her full name is Castora Maria Cruz Aguilar after her father left, Castora didn’t want her mother to change her name but wanted her to do a power move and reclaim her identity as Dolores “Lola” Cruz not Signora Aguilar. Castora rarely mentions the Cruz part of her name to anyone. Also, I included the middle name “Maria” because it means bitterness and that’s appropriate for her character.

Castora is a smoker. Although she can go a day without a cigarette, around three is really pushing it.  When she’s particularly anxious, she smokes more.

Someone has compared her to the Tinman from Wizard of Oz (but if she would give Broadway a chance, she would like Wicked)

Castora is wary of physical contact - like people who are too touchy-feely put her off and she’s so pent-up and reserved that natural physical contact is something of a mystery to her. I think about it like that time in Pride and Prejudice (2005) when Darcy held Elizabeth’s hand for 0.5 seconds and did the hand flex. One time, Ramona hugged her and it was the first time Castora felt love in a really long time. Also, the closest she came to crying in years.

Ramona is “her person” and the idea of her cousin one day no longer seeing Castora as “her person” is devastating to her.

I like the idea of Castora being a good troublemaker: she’s just as good at finding trouble as she is at getting herself out of it. Most of the time.

PERSONALITY TYPES

MBTI: ISTJ

Hogwarts House: Slytherin (although there can be an argument for Hufflepuff, but Castora values ambition more than fairness.)

Zodiac: Capricorn (born December 29th)

GRAPHIC + PLAYLIST: https://prosrpiina.tumblr.com/post/161906131131/a-thousand-tiny-paper-cuts-a-castora-aguilar And here’s the link to the quote i used in the graphic: x

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