#it’s posted on my ao3 @sintiva

[sintiva]

hey bae do you still have that fanfic of nerd!eren called “you n me”?🫶🏾🫶🏾 was my absolute fave !

i sure do, currently gate keeping it😏

[sakurashell]

Hello hello, I haven’t been active in the past few days and I used the time offline to take a final decision. Hopefully this doesn’t come off as a surprise, but I’ve been pondering over it for a while, so now I can finally bid you guys a proper (and ultimate, unlike the last time) goodbye. I, in all honesty, didn’t even want to bother you all with a long ass post —so I hope I won’t fall yet again in my bad habit of explaining myself too much— but leaving so suddenly felt odd, so here I am.

There’s really no specific explanation to this, I just don’t feel like staying and for as much as I try, I realize that playing this kind of role in the community isn’t for me, and I want to focus on different things now. Having a writing blog is so much more than just writing, and with the way readers tend to consume content these days, I find myself uncomfortable with sharing things on this platform. Mind you, there’s nothing wrong with it, it just isn’t my cup of tea! I struggle to write most of the time, I have a limited amount of time to indulge in this hobby in the first place as of now, and unfortunately, I usually feel pressured even when no one is actively pressuring me into doing something, and tumblr would just be another source of stress I don’t feel like putting on my shoulders (especially when it should be something I purely enjoy). Of course, this is no one’s fault.

Tumblr is, after all, a social media, and with the way I want to keep things —that is, merely writing a fic instead of, you know, blogging and sharing stuff along with it— it goes without saying that having a blog is not something that particularly fits my personality and intentions when it comes to writing. I will continue to post updates on ao3, when I feel like it and I have time, but that’s about it! I’m grateful for every person I’ve had the opportunity to interact with on this app, as it really made the experience tenfold better. I loved seeing you on my dash, talking to you, complimenting your beautiful works, and overall just having the opportunity to interact with such beautiful people. To everyone who liked, reblogged, followed me or commented on one of my stories even once, thank you. If you’ve ever left a nice message in my inbox, thank you.

@lacheri, @astridthevalkyrie, @bibblelevi, @junibugs, @oh-katsuki, @heich0e, @princess-jaeger, @ficsforeren, @coyloves, @bokebelle, @iinumaki, @yandereshingeki, @httpjaeg, @peace-for-levi, @sintiva, @levmada, @novaresque, @jeanslove, @eldiandiablo, @ryukatters, @starryenigma, @j0livi0ni and to all my mutuals I didn’t have the chance to interact with more (or the ones I forgot, because I’m sure I missed someone), I love you all and I wish you the best. You are all —each one of you in their unique way— amazing writers and extremely talented people, I really wish I could thoroughly pay back the kindness you guys have shown me, because coming back here wouldn’t have been the same without you. I hope you know that, in spite of my limited presence on the app and the screens separating us, you partook in making my days better sometimes. It’s the little things :)

I can’t promise a quick reply (I often spend days without looking at my texts, especially on discord), but if you ever want to leave a message, then you’re all more than welcome to text me on discord. If you don’t already have it, I’ll gladly give it to you. I still have to decide what to do with this blog, as I’m torn between deactivating or leaving it as an archive, but either way I felt like informing you of my decision before going ahead and just disappearing. I’m about to start a new chapter of my life and closing this one so roughly just didn’t seem right. Thank you for reading and enduring my rambling, it was nice while it lasted!

Ben :)