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Happiest Mitski enjoyer
Bruh istg I keep telling myself that this account is just as important as the Instagram one but then I’m too lazy to say the same bs I wrote on ig so I’ll just copy paste it
Anyways, feeling coquette, might be my sona? They have the same characteristics of the way I represent myself so why not? I just don’t want to look egotistical by saying they have wings or whatever (plus they’re like…a thousand times prettier).
I’m just scared I’ll start building lore around this character and they’ll end up becoming an oc (it has happened many many times before this is serious). Also new pfp lol
#artwork#digital art#art#digital illustration#illustration#sona art#vent art#thing#idk man#anyways.#mitski#i know this’ll attract attention lol#i said mitski because I had#once more to see you#in my mind when doing this#asshole move I know#ibis paint#i really need to get more into tumblr#it’s literally better than ig#I guess I love toxicity idk#soupetiedeedumpster
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my only goal in life is to make horror rpg maker-esque sunday art and have it in a sick edit
#can you guys tell i love sunday hsr#he deserves to be a little fucked up creature#as a treat#taking his whole eye motif to another level#bros got eyes EVERYWHERE#literally and figuratively#the text is from the apocryphon of john#researching gnosticism that one time bc of a song comes in handy now#sunday hsr#hsr sunday#hsr#hsr fanart#honkai star rail#penacony#art#fanart#tw body horror#i guess????? better safe than sorry ig
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I FORGOT TO THROW OUT AFTER THE EPISODE RELEASED NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
#hand jumper#webtoon#sayeon lee#heron#ig??? BRUH..................#these fireworks are going to SET ME ON FIRE!!!!#but that's alr i guess!!!!!!!!!#because charcoal grilled prawn literally solves all my problems#before thinking about killing people i need everyone to sit down and think of their favourite food#and manifest the version of them that has it!!!!!!!!#maybe then all compulsions and intrusions of the mind can just go away#what if we all just pictured better versions of ourselves and just did it!!!#if we all stretched out our hands and tried we can at least live in the world knowing we did try!!#and it's better than not trying!!!!! AND BEING USELESS PIECES OF ROTTING GARBAGE!!!!!!#idk i've had a shit three years man i don't think i can take this any longer#IGNORE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND INSTEAD NOW LET'S THINK OF THE GOODIES YOU'RE GONNA GET IN TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#or now if you offer up your wallet to OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR sleepacross#and for the SMALL price of 5USD that's right 5USD!!!! this is to the people with credit/debit cards ofc#YOU CAN ACCESS THE GOATACROSS QNA BECAUSE IT IS PEAK!!!!!!#but just because the juninators[on here in case they aren't in the server] need to hear this so we can all sing happy birthday to her#INSTEAD OF MISSING IT FOR TWO YEARS#AND HAVING A WHOLE WINTER/CHRISTMAS COMPETITION IN DISCORD WITH MEMES AND ALL WITHOUT THIS CRUCIAL INFORMATION!!!!!!!#I THINK BECAUSE I KEEP THESE IN TAGS IT'S SAFE TO SAY THAT HER BIRTHDAY IS DEC 24TH AND WE SHOULD ALL SAY HAPPY LATE/HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY#TO OUR BELOVED QUEEN JUNI CHANG#BECAUSE NOW I JUST SHAFTED A 40K WIP I NEVER FINISHED FOR LAST YEAR'S WINTER SEASON FOR THE CHRISTMAS EPISODE OF 2024 IN THE RECYCLE BIN!!#BUT NOW WE CAN GIVE HER QUINTICE THE AMOUNT OF GIFTS THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! SO LET'S DO THAT INSTEAD!!!!#ONE FOR HER BIRTHDAY!!!! ONE FOR CHRISLER!!! ONE FOR CIVIL SERVICE APPRECIATION DAY!!!!!#ANOTHER FOR BEING PEAK MENTOR!!!!! AND ANOTHER ONE FOR BEING GOD'S SILLIEST SOLDIER!!!![in our hearts!!]#APOLOGIES AS ALWAYS IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR HERE!!!! AND A GOOD EVENING TO YOU ALL!!!!
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one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!
((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))
but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS
(and, well. whatever this classifies as)
#whats wrong with him. seriously. he loves picking fights with literal children So Much#AND NONE OF THEM WITH WALLY ON THE MATTER OF BEING THE BIGGEST FLASH FAN. HOW DID THAT NEVER HAPPEN#about the middle page. honestly i DIDNT remember he is a Jerk in that way too until i checked his interactions with bart for this post#this man officially should not be allowed near children as a mentor.#just straight up drops ALL his insecurities on a poor kid in trying to make him feel ashamed. NO breaking the abuse cycle for this bad boy#the only thing he doesnt say is the direct 'you are a disappointment' altho the message is still the same 💀💀💀💀💀💀#AND I BET HES HELLA PROUD OF THAT. I MEAN CONSIDERING THIS FACT IG HE DOES TRY TO BE BETTER THAN HIS PARENTS. SOMEWHAT.#and omg he formulates his point like in problem based learning (leading the child to making the correct conclusion themselves)#im dying. professor to the fucking core.#and the way he feels the need to bring up flash facts in his appeal?? EO YOURE SO HOPELESS. THIS IS 100% HOW BART SAW HIM THROUGH#and god knows what he told thad promising to get him out of the speed force if he fought barry there and whether he was going to fulfill it#and do you even IMAGINE how FUCKED barry's mental condition would be growing up if thawne fulfilled his button threat#and i really REALLY wonder about the tornado twins and their relationship with 'uncle eobard' but that will be a separate post#he doesnt know any other way tho. and he might be actually mad at bart for not supporting his every action as The Flash#like. he tries to play family but the second they question he just goes WHATEVER. I DONT NEED IT. FLASH OF MY VISION RUNS ALONE#his problem is that he just wants attention. he doesnt see family/heroing for what 'its really about' or downsides that may come with them#everything is so idealized in his head. and the moment he faces reality with its complications the concept immediately gets antagonized.#and then he reconsiders and changes the conditions but fails each time never realizing the problem is his mindset and not everything else#black white at its finest yall#and man. RELATABLE.#also WHY is he standing LIKE A STATUE when appearing in front of bart????😭😭😭😭#poor museum rat has no idea what heroes in real life stand like#eobard thawne#professor zoom#reverse flash#the reverse flash#bart allen#the flash#dc
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Thats right everbody
its ur favorite boi :)
(get tf out or im gonna shot amy inthe fucking face-)
anyways i got over a minor art block.. by drawing characters from an mobile game… and on a napkin
criminal case characters
I dod the right side a couple days ago and just finished the left
#criminal case#criminal case game#criminal case grimsborough#grimsborough#Officer no#Thats literally what i named myself :)#original character#ig#my art#traditional art#david jones#nathan pandit#grace delaney#alex turner#alex turner cc#The criminal case one not artic monkeys#Sorry not sorry#The left is better than the right…….#not shocking#Posting my other shit separately
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some couples say “yappari kimi nanda kimi janakya dame nanda” / “as expected it must be you; apart from you no one else would do”
other couples say “suki sugite yabai” / “i can’t even describe how much i love you”
but m y ship says “watashi no kokoro anata/omae no mono ni natteru” / “my heart belongs to you”
#note: sukiyabai tl comes from the english heading from the 3rd charasong album hshshshshshshsh#the way that most hw couples have *that* one line that defines them… yk…#still thinking about how meoto lxl has more romantic a line than literally any other couple in the series#much better than harucouple’s ‘nokori 10cm’ at least#ig mochiaka would be the ‘boku ja dame desuka’ and natsuyuu would be the ‘zutto mae kara suki deshita’ huh…#what would be mdsn’s though… ‘ohayou’???#for nghy’s… hm… maybe the ‘zutto heroine da; mezasu wa oujisama’? or some ref to cinderella idk it seems to be their favourite fairytale#hm. maybe that’s enough interwebs for one day. see y’all when this week’s announcement(s) drop or when chizuutan manga ch6 comes out#(whichever comes first lmao) hopinggngngngngn that chizuchan ch6 preview comes out soon thoughhh i need more renren lore
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i'm sure this is old news but im hyperfocusing so hard on the worldbuilding here that i wanna talk about it anyway-
so, if i'm reading the lore here correctly, the initial meteor hit caused the development of psychic abilities in humans, but also, caused the NEED for psychics (as opposed to, like, therapists) as the meteor's fallout increased the development of mental illness in the population to such a wild degree. (not exactly sure in what way it increased it, but that does seem to be the implication here)
which could explain why people in these games can have breakdowns over such seemingly odd things (looking at you fred), as well as the blasé approach that everyone has to mental illness and dysfunctional mental processes
(^ obligatory sasha screenshot)
that difference in their societal development is also probably why raz (and all the kids, really) can witness and say shit like this without flinching:
#the idea of weaponized emotions and mental illness has always been a compelling one imo (as an ill person myself)#but this takes it to another level#it's an almost post apocalyptic-coded society where your mind literally CAN BECOME your enemy#given the right circumstances etc etc#psychonauts#cozy.txt#and i mean. the implication here is that if you get to that point (like maligula or loboto or any of the asylum patients)#you are deemed a threat by the psychonauts and locked up for what seems like a life sentence#rather than receiving the professional help you desperately need#which um. i suppose the ableism in our society isn't much better... at least the psychonauts are up front about it ig#suicide mention#suicide tw#ableism tw
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normalize having burr be a part of the hamilsquad pls guys🙏
#hamilton musical#aaron burr#2016 hamilton fandom did him so dirty like.#he was literally there with them most of the time and they would be like “omg hamilsquad! oh and burr too. ig”#burr u deserved better treatment than that☹️
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today on random languages my brain is going 👀 at is biblical hebrew and biblical greek
#the following tags will have discussions of my faith and christianity in general so if you're not interested in that then stop reading ig#some lore: in my early teens i did consider doing a theology degree at uni and becoming an ordained minister/taking a role in the church#this was before i found out a) in my denomination only men can be ministers (deaconesses exist but yeah) and b) the church as an institutio#is pretty yikes#and then finding out i'm queer and nonbinary threw other spanners in there but despite it all my faith is still so so important to me#i want to start learning about christian/comparative theology more broadly to understand both my own faith and others' better#idk why but today i randomly ended up on the webpage for the theological college in NI and was just looking through the courses they offer#maybe someday in the distant future i'll have the money and time to burn to do an online postgrad degree with them#but yeah they have a postgrad certificate in biblical greek 👀 which looked v cool#the internet is a wonderful place and i found a pretty comprehensive looking biblical hebrew course on youtube and i'd probs be able to fin#biblical greek somewhere if i looked hard enough#greek and hebrew are both such linguistically interesting languages and being able to read some would also help in my theological adventure#so new side quest just dropped ig? at least it's my reading week this week so I can dabble in them with no consequences#i've also been wanting to try and learn a language via an immersion focus - obvs can't do full immersion with biblical greek and hebrew but#yeah using a less grammar and vocab focused approach than i'm used to#i have access to digital bibles so i could just choose a v literal english translation and then try and parse what's happening?#yeah we'll see#langblr#ellis exclaims
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gale is ambition, so he has both crippling self doubt and debilitating pride in his work.
gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll think he's not nothing left. more else can the orb destroy that it hasn't already?
gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll vehemently deny that. he's the wizard of waterdeep. he was mystra's chosen. he was her lover. who could be any better than that?
gale is ambition. it's his greatest flaw and his greatest asset.
#baldur's gate 3#gale#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#gale bg3#bg3 gale#spoilers#bg3 spoilers#rex rambles#obvious take is obvious but i've been ruminating on his reactions to sorcerer tav/tav generally undermining his experience and expertise#it's the same principle if anyone's every played an instrument and you see a 5 year old playing music better than you#who has had 20+ years of study and practice#it's humbling; it makes you feel like shit; it incenses you to try harder to get better#that's ambition. it's both the self doubt and the pride#of course gale is going to be petty back; you've literally just stepped on both the pride and self doubt at the same time#ruminating on the bg3 cast a little too late but it's fine lmao. i think he's neat and i like him a lot#i'm very obsessed with my own drow war cleric though. oh no he's hot ig lmao#i also have some thoughts about the soundtrack which ar very interesting to me
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ok but gojo actually physically going into heat when he's fighting a strong opponent is. incredibly sexy. and not in an omegaverse setting, just the canon setting. where his powers manifest like that maybe?
and he's always felt that small spark. that heat birthing in his gut when he's in fights, but they're ultimately, always disappointing. his opponent is too weak, always. the small flame dies along with its birth, never growing enough to spread along his body and truly bring him alight. it's all so boring. and unfulfilling.
it's only when he's fighting sukuna that he FEELS it properly. that thrill. that heat that grows and grows and grows inside him, except it doesn't stop, to the point where it's unbearable.
and his insides burn, and the heat seeps from his hole, scorching and burning all along his thighs. spreading and spreading to have his entire body on fire and on the edge of bursting. and he needs. he needs. he needs much more than a simple fight can give him.
#f.txt#it's very much of a 'complete unfulfillment --- excruciating need' split.#he's either totally insatisfied. or he goes into heat which has him go completely crazed in need#clawing at sukuna and pushing over him and choking him and begging. forcing him to fuck him. to fucking do it. to DO IT. and he's livid.#bc he NEEDS this. and sukuna better fucking give it to him#ig it does enter some noncn territory#ohhh god that's so hot#but it wouldn't stay like that long. sukuna is willing to oblige. except satoru is much more than sukuna can handle. he realizes#it would end up in dubcon in the end i suppose 🤔#WAIT WAIT WAIT THIS GOES SO WELL WITH MY NECROPHLIA TOJIGO THING#the reason gojo is so desperate to get toji's body to react and to ride toji's corpse is bc. he's literally in heat. he needs it. he NEEDS#IT#but toji's dead he's fucking dead. he won't move he's bleeding all over gojo and he's unresponsive and the only heat coming from him is the#blood pouring all across satoru and soaking into his pants and staining his hole and having it leak with unfulfilled desire#neglected and needy and angry and paining#i think i need a separate post for that#jjk#gojo#sukugo#ns4w#i love heats i fucking love heats okay it's probably my favorite thing ever#but i always like to not make it omegaverse#just incorporate it into canon hehe#gojo satoru
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Wait crying again bc I was rewatching The Intruder today (episode 4 of season 1) and I realized that like. The glyphs represent a few things in the narrative but one thing that's consistent is they're always there when Luz doesn't feel like she's good enough on her own. They appear to her as comfort in moments of self depreciation or self doubt, or she coincidentally learns them in episodes where she faces her fear of rejection or makes a mistake (at least this is true in terms of the first four base glyphs she discovers). It's the titans way of saying "you may have to do things differently, but you can do anything they can do" to Luz bc he cares about her
AND THEN. IN WATCHING AND DREAMING. WHEN THE TITAN PASSES ON AND THE GLYPHS DON'T WORK ANYMORE. IT'S BECAUSE NOW LUZ FINALLY FEELS LIKE SHE'S GOOD ENOUGH, ALL ON HER OWN. SHE'S LEARNED THAT SHE HAS INTRINSIC WORTH AS A PERSON AND SHE DOESN'T NEED TO MAKE UP FOR WHO SHE IS. SHE MIGHT DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY BUT SHE CAN DO EVERYTHING ANOTHER WITCH CAN DO- THIS TIME WITH HER OWN, MORE PERSONAL ACCESSIBILITY TOOL (HER PALISMEN) INSTEAD OF THE ONE THE TITAN GAVE HER. MAN!!!!!
#ramblings of a lunatic#the owl house#toh#toh meta#luz noceda#the glyphs are there for everyone who doesn't feel good enough#eda and lilith after losing their magic...the kids overcome with exhaustion and fear in watching and dreaming#hell you could even argue that philip uses them to cope with the unspeakable horror that these non-person witches-#-could be better than him at something! gasp! the audacity!#he uses them to harm and co-opts the titans language to make sure that no witch could have a chance of thinking they're better than him#(bc again. philip is not afraid of witches. he hates this. his background is not a literal investigation into Christian superstition-#-it is a non-literal parallel to modern day conservatives.)#(they're afraid of what they don't understand but much more than that they hate it-#-that's why you can't change their opinions solely w/ rhetoric and argument)#ANYWAY. I've heard some ppl stressing over the amount of ppl being vocally negative in the maintag recently#and i see it too. think it's just a thing that happens when shows end? ppl pop out of the woodwork to be like#''well i never liked it in the first place!''#like. okay. good for you ig#anyway i hope this sparks some joy in the maintag instead#that's all I'm here to do#i stopped watching the episode to type this post i should go finish it
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it's been one day and im still pissed when will this end. season 4 had some neat assassination scenes but none of them shined as bright as the writers assassinating the characters like go off monarchs
#like dude#all of these characters have SO MUCH potential#and it's wasted time & time again#LUTHER MY SON why do they keep portraying him as himbo material#like sure he can be goofy and fun whatever who cares but???? it's like they keep using him for JOKES#klaus idk dude they just wanna torture him ig?#in every single season they put him in yet another traumatizing situation and for what lol#they don't even use it for character growth it's just?? angst for the sake of angst atp#ALSO STOPP LUTHER DIDN'T EVEN GET TO GR I EVE SLOANE#five...............#marvellous five writers have already talked about his character assassination and no one knows better than them ok#im just soooo tired#also LOL BENNNNN#im a ben blog AND HERE I AM SAYING NOTHING#BC WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT JENNIFER INCIDENT HUH#sparrow ben was a mistake there i said it i don't care#sparrow ben has no connection to the hargreeves !! fight me if u disagree#viktor wanting to save him and their little bonding scene where ben says 'im scared' is cute & all and was probably meant to parallel +#ben comforting viktor in s1 i if i remember correctly??#BUT THAT'S NOT EARNED u know why#bc ben <3 doesn't get <3 bonding moments <3 with <3 them <3#bc he IS right#they're not his family. his family was KILLED#they fumbled so hard with the jennifer incident im so pissed#really went & made his death so... idk how to explain#a plot device#that's all ben is#he IS a plot device#literally gets no growth whatsover#avril's ramblings
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Chocolate floof makes me feel embarrassed and guilty to be a sex repulsed asexual because that means I have something in common with someone who tells people to die over fiction
Nah, don't feel that way. You should feel superior to them. Feel proud of the fact that you are able to look at things and go "Wow, I hate that. That's so gross to me, but you're happy and you aren't doing anything wrong so live your best life" while they are still unable to. It's an incredible thing to do and it sucks they haven't learned that. Hopefully they will one day
#asks#this is genuinely what I do when I see someone I have something in common with being a dick#like literally earlier today I was like ''ffs you're 21 and still acting this way? sucks that I'm better than you ig''#it helps me LMAO#don't feel guilty about having something in common with a loser. feel proud that you are both that thing and AREN'T a loser LMFAO
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Hirano to Kagiura light novel translation 4-1
Chapter 4: Fall.
Part 1
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It might be September by now, but the sun’s rays know no bounds.
Heat from the weather aside, the schoolhouse on the coattails of summer break is permeated with the fervor of the students.
Among all those in the athletic clubs who have undergone away games and training camps, there are many who have deepened both their tans and their virility. The sense of achievement characteristic of those who kept up with their exercise lives within their growth spurts.
Hirano’s roommate is, once again, one of them.
Kagiura, who’s gotten a bit taller, has gotten used to high school, completely devoid of the anxiety he’d seemed to have around the time he’d started school.
Since they’d met up over the summer, he’s become more and more relaxed, and Hirano can’t help but think of him as a beloved younger brother.
Wait, but younger brothers don’t do things like give you earrings, do they?
Hirano isn’t really in a position to judge, with no siblings of his own.
He’d found his original earrings while organizing his luggage after returning from Kagiura’s countryside home. They’d fallen into his school bag and hidden themselves beneath the stiff bottom plate.
What should I do about it? he’d wondered, but figured well, whatever, and didn’t bother switching out his new ones. He’ll keep them in the dorm just in case, but ultimately plans to keep using the ones Kagiura gave him.
As soon as the new term starts, preparations for the Cultural Festival are full speed ahead. Even the first years, who aren’t used to running events without the guidance of a faculty member, are gradually gaining opportunities to build character. The Executive Committee members have so many responsibilities that it has become difficult to carry out their studies without the cooperation of their classmates.
Kagiura also has the situation of being part of the ‘Sports Recommendation Squad’, and his grades are not up to snuff. It would be good if they don’t take a hit from his extracurricular responsibilities, but that will come down to his own efforts.
It’s not just the Executive Committee members who are swamped. The students in the culture clubs are also at their busiest, and with the autumn tournament right around the corner, there’s no way the athletics clubs can cut back on practices.
The sweltering nights have yet to abate; yet despite these conditions which could even be called cruel, most of the students are eagerly awaiting the Cultural Festival. You might even get away with saying all of them.
Because, after all, girls come to visit the cultural festival.
And even without that element, a festival is still a festival.
This is a time when the whole student body is restless, so the Disciplinary Committee will be on top of keeping everyone in line—or such is their public stance, but they won’t be too strict about moderating uniforms and hair styles.
In any case, a high proportion of the students will be in costumes on the day of the festival.
There's also at least one class cross-dressing every year.
This year, that’s right, it's the class that Hirano is unfortunately a part of. More specifically, it's been decided that Hirano will be one of the ones in drag.
Oiwa-san—a famous spirit who makes an appearance in the Yotsuya Kaidan.¹
There are many variations of the famous ghost story, in which Oiwa, the deceased wife, holding a grudge over the betrayal of her husband, Iemon, slaughters every last person involved. Apparently, they will be basing the makeup off of Tōkaidō Yotsuya Kaidan², which is popular among Hirano’s classmates.
He’d been shown reference images of the ghost, her face half disfigured and inflamed by poison, but the picture was nightmare fuel when viewed in the dark.
Supposedly it’s a style of Halloween makeup that’s been popular in recent years, but the trial makeup that had been applied to his arm after school in order to match the shade to his face had been truly grotesque.
This information is to be kept top secret until the last possible minute on the day of, in the interests of building hype.
While Hirano is putting away his homework, the door opens with a click.
His roommate is home.
It’s still bright outside, but the dining hall is just about to open for dinner.
“Hirano-san, I’m home!”
“Welcome home, Kagi-kun.”
These days, Kagiura usually gets a bit bashful in reply to Hirano’s greeting, seemingly tickled. So naive and innocent he must be, making such an expression with no fear of being misunderstood.
There were days they’d spent together, but summer vacation had been long.
There’s an air of a different kind of newness from the one there’d been in the period before they’d gotten used to sharing a dorm—Kagiura probably feels it too. At least, Hirano thinks so.
He feels closer to Kagiura compared to before. After all, he’s met his immediate and extended family, so of course they’d feel more intimate. It’s as if the part of himself that had been on guard while thinking about how to act as a senpai in his second year in the dorms has been absolved.
After Hirano had filled out his print-outs as if in competition with Kagiura, who’d spread out his homework in a frenzy, they’d headed to the dining hall a little later than usual.
It always takes him about 3 or 4 days to get back into the swing of dorm life.
Speaking of which, he thinks.
Before Kagiura moved into the dorms, Hirano had been quite nervous.
He’d talked to Hanzawa about it one time when the Disciplinary Committee had a meeting, and they’d brainstormed strategies to avoid scaring Kagiura off.
He’d also felt it would be a waste of his efforts if he was only friendly at the beginning of their time spent living together; thus, they’d come to the conclusion that it wouldn’t be too far out of Hirano’s depths to give him a nickname and use “-kun”.
Oh yeah, that’s right. At the beginning I called him Kagiura-kun.
He’s been calling his name every day, enough that he’d ended up shortening it, thinking it’s too long and clunky.
Kagiura has morning practice tomorrow, too, so there's no way he can let him oversleep.
Hirano got that, but there was something on his mind that just wouldn’t go away, so he asked before shutting off the lights.
".....Hey, um. I know you're working hard, so I don't wanna rain on your parade, but are your studies going all right? I haven't heard how your proficiency test went yet."
As the words leave his mouth, he thinks, what am I, a private tutor? and laughs drily to himself.
For the results of the test held right after summer break, a list ranking every student in their grade and the standard score were passed out to each person, the same as for the periodic exams.
For first years, they can be used as nothing more than a reference, but due to the breadth of the material covered, in some cases they might be used to determine which schools to apply to when compared to results from previous cram schools.
“...I just barely passed.”
“What’s the damage?”
“The teacher said, ‘You didn’t do badly enough that I need to pull you aside, but keep working hard’...”
“I see.”
Which is bad in and of itself, really.
Kagiura hangs his head dejectedly, and Hirano’s tempted to comfort him all the more for having seen the extent of his efforts, but his lack of preparation is unmistakable.
“Kagi-kun, after the cultural festival is over, you gotta step it up. If you miss some of the notes, get someone to show you theirs before the next day. Don’t let them build up. If you end up with a backlog of notes to take, you’re not gonna be able to understand them.”
Hirano knows deep down he’s probably worrying too much, but he keeps the expression on his face stern. The beginning is the key to everything. Among his classmates in the ‘Sports Recommendation Squad’ who, like Kagiura, are bad students, there are many whose grades plummeted after going on to their second year.
Who knew he’d become this much of a worrywort after becoming someone’s senpai?
“Yeah…Hirano-san, will you teach me again?”
“Sure. But you better bring back good grades.”
“I will! …By the way, can I ask you something?”
He ducks his head as he asks the question, a gesture with all the charm one would expect from someone as cute as him.
“What’s up?”
“When you were a first year, did the senpai you roomed with teach you how to study, too?”
“Nah, no way.”
“Hm…did you not get along?”
“It’s not that we didn’t get along, we just weren’t really that close. I wasn’t nearly as friendly a kouhai as you are.”
This is usually the case for dorm students. Hanzawa, contemptuous of homosexual relations, has a reputation in certain circles for having a finely-tuned gaydar and showing up to cockblock any time he senses anyone getting a little too close.³
His distaste isn’t unwarranted; apparently it has to do with his family, so even Hirano feels bad for him.
“...Does that make me special, then?”
“Why are you so happy about that?”
At Hirano’s jests of what are you, a dog? Kagiura breaks into a grin.
“Yeah. You know, I’m glad I’m your roommate, Hirano-san.”
Hirano smiles wryly; Kagiura’s got him wrapped around his little finger without a hint of insincerity.
With Kagiura cozying up to him like this, he doesn’t stand a chance.
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T/N: (1) Not sure I need to add more info on this to the story, but it's pretty interesting, so you can read more about it here.
(2) A movie based on the story made in 1959.
(3) Yall....idek what to say about this. I tried to keep the tone lighthearted but the original text literally says 'gay-hating Hanzawa' and describes his feelings as disgust. Idk why the writer put this but our boy is NOT like that 😭 I actually broke my vow of not looking at the official TL just to see how they handled this bit and they completely watered it down lmao. and tbh, yall know my dedication to accuracy but I WAS TEMPTED. While going back and forth about what I should do, I told my sister about it, and she suggested that Hanzawa doesn't actually hate gays, he just hates gay sex and will stand for none of it in his dorm so...we're going with that interpretation 💀🙃💀🙃
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#you guys can reblog these posts btw <3#remember likes are great but they don't do anything to spread the posts around!#friendly reminder that tumblr is not ig/tt and we love her for it <3#re 3rd footnote: im still trying to cope#im really hoping that the 'homophobic' and 'disgust' etc are referring to his reputation rather than his real feelings#tho i'm not sure that's much better 💀#also im sorry but wtf is up with the whole 'its to do with his family so hirano feels bad for him thing'#like??? oh poor you your sibling is gay that must be such a struggle#guess you have the right to hate gay people. ??????#this makes it sound like there was some TRAUMA involved#but it was literally just his brother (and other sibling) saying btw im gay and then they all moved on with their lives??#shoutout to my sister for this slightly inaccurate but much better take#i told her about it and she was like 'nah this mf just repressed as hell 💀'#she does not read ssmy/kghr btw#hirano to kagiura#hirano and kagiura#kagihira#hirano to kagiura light novel#hirano to kagiura translation#harusono shou
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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.
#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol#like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset#and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it#but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all#(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have#and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth#(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves#and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol#but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates#the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation#that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me
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