#it’s discouraging lololol

[3atcr0w]

[matchaflavored]

re: your last post, so real man... honestly the least they could do is censor the ship name if they're going to be really vocal about their dislike for it. also seeing someone call treyrid... too mother-son coded to ship? help girl

Oof, yeah. I think people can dislike whatever they want, whatever their personal relationship is with how they interpret and consume media is beyond my control (WITHIN REASON...!!!). Which is also why I'm like sure you can express that dislike... that is human... but at least be considerate about it haha.

A lot of what people dislike about ♣️🌹comes down to personal taste or straight up projection because that is an insane thing to claim lol. 'Coded' lost all its meaning to a lot of people who really mean 'this is what I want their relationship to be'. In general I don't like to box relationships into certain labels (mother-son... really man...) because I feel like it can be pretty restrictive to how you approach nuance like how do you look at Trey and Riddle and go oh their relationship is the epitome of nuclear family dynamics, actually.

[p1utofairy]

PAC: “all i need in this life of sin…” ⭐️🏆❤️‍🔥🍒

• the personality traits and overall aesthetic of your person.

disclaimer ✩: 18+ mature themes. take what resonates, leave what doesn't. i had fun doing this :) hope you all enjoy! feedback is always appreciated of course.

pile 1 🪷 —

“lotus flower bomb, firefly. when i'm low, she take me high. i can teach you all the sounds of love.”

heyyy pile 1, let me just start by saying the energy is strongggg af my goodness. your person is definitely a go-getter! they say what they mean, and mean what they say. this is a person who has gone through a lot of hardships in life and has experienced a lot of setbacks, causing them to feel hopeless and discouraged. but on the flip side, they possess the strength to rise like a phoenix from the ashes and overcome adversity. your person may have a deep and/or commanding voice…it's one of the things you definitely are going to love about them. your person has a lot of structure, power and authority. they call the shots and you'll love it lol. they weren't always like this either pile 1, they had to grow into the person that they are now. this provider/protector role. also, i keep hearing that they are veryyy attractive. there's a detached vibe to them that intrigues people, it's like they can't fully figure out your person & your person likes that honestly. i heard "let's keep it that way." lol they do not like people all up in their business. your person may have prominent air sign placements in their chart. this is someone who is intellectually sharp, has a clear vision, and knows how to take on challenges with a levelheaded approach. they can be headstrong from time to time but they typically make decisions based on careful thought and precision. it used to be hard for them to see the brighter side of things, but you are a beacon of light for them. you bring out the energetic and adventurous side of them, they're gonna be all over you pile 1. they can't even control it…they're usually laid back and chill but you get them so excited and aroused i'm hearing LOLOLOL. with you by their side, they know that they can do anything. i'm now hearing i won by future ft. kanye west wowww they're definitely gonna feel so lucky to have you pile 1.

their overall aesthetic:

i'm getting certified lover boy vibesssss. your person might have a calm and composed demeanor, but deep down you really stir something primal in them. they want to impress you so badly, even when you two get into the relationship they still want you to feel like you're in the honeymoon phase (i'm hearing years) down the line. whatever you want, they'll get it. they're gonna treat you with so much care, devotion and respect. i feel like this person has money mhm they're gonna splurge on you. i'm getting spontaneous trips, fine dining, luxury gifts and lots of pampering. you may not always expect that from them, but it's something they want to do for you because they love you. i feel like their love language is quality time, gift giving and words of affirmation. i see 11:11 on the clock now that i'm wrapping up your reading, WOW. this is amazing pile 1.

other channeled messages:

the party & the after party by the weeknd, aquarius, unbothered, gemini, change, cancer, authority, hey daddy (daddy's home) by usher, fancy by drake ft. t.i. & swizz beatz, 11:11, get on your knees by nicki minaj ft. ariana grande

pile 2 ☀️ —

“that's the way everyday goes. every time we've no control. if the sky is pink and white. if the ground is black and yellow. it's the same way you showed me.”

your person is an absolute gem, pile 2. i mean wow…i don't even know where to begin. i can feel their attraction and adoration for you 🥹 you inspire them so much. your person has a lot of complex emotions that they have to work through at times and they'll love how you'll always be willing to listen and give them the advice they need to carry on. i can see you two sitting really close together, faces nearly inches apart and your hand over their heart saying "i'm always here, you know that." you don't ever want them to hold back. i don't know why carmy and sydney from ‘the bear’ keep popping up in my head. (do y'all watch that show?) i'm seeing stolen glances, small smiles and hearing lots of giggling/laughter. you take their breath away pile 2. this person is not confrontational, they try to avoid conflict and discomfort as much as possible. if your upset though, they'll put their shit aside and make sure you're okay. again, idk if y'all watch ‘the bear’ but whenever sydney is upset/angry with carmy he'll immediately try to get to the root of the problem and ask her what's going on. your person does not want to fuck up the foundation they are working to build with you. they sometimes struggle with getting things started and leaving them unfinished, but with this relationship they want to see it all the way through. you have the natural ability to care for others and appreciate the beauty and value of life (i hear you romanticize life), and you inspire your person to do the same. they feel so blessed to have someone like you in their life. your person wants the whole 9 with you, they are willing to give you the world. you bring them so much joy pile 2 it nearly brings tears to my eyes.

their overall aesthetic:

i'm hearing that your person has the midas touch; everything they touch turns to gold. this is random but i feel like you're their first bad b*tch lol they've never had someone like you. i feel like their last relationship didn't end on the greatest of terms and they felt really down about it, doubting if love is even real. but you came along and shook things up! i feel like you both match each other's fly. they have a very clean-cut, simple yet effective style that you'll really like. possibly even tattoos. also, they're gonna be BIG on physical touch.

other channeled messages:

i know you by faye webster, carmy berzatto from the bear, you bring me joy by mary j. blige, leo, flirty, separation anxiety, broken, happy by ashanti, money, 222, honey by mariah carey

pile 3 🌅 —

“i'm tellin' everybody you're mine and i like it. and i really hope you don't mind, i can't fight it. no, you know i cannot hide it 'cause i am so excited that i finally decided on you.”

heyyy pile 3, i'm getting major best friends to lovers vibes holy shit. thinkin bout you by frank ocean just came to mind. literally anything you say or do will have your person in such awe of you. i'm getting serena van der woodsen and nate archibald vibes (without the betrayal and cheating behind a friend's back lol) but there's an undeniable chemistry between the two of you. i'm hearing "the golden boy and the it girl" 🌟 you both shine so bright together. your person is very career-oriented and self disciplined, they've worked hard for everything they have. your person has a lot to offer you! i can see you two traveling to tropical places, trying out new hobbies together, and unlocking parts of yourself that you didn't even know were hidden. you're gonna take a leap of faith with this person because they're always so encouraging and reassuring that everything will work out just fine. you might be a person that likes to plan things out and have things in order first but your person? they're just like fuck it let's do it lol they're very spontaneous and that might catch you off guard at first, but you'll actually grow to appreciate their optimism as the relationship goes on. i can hear that quote from scarface, "the eyes chico, they never lie." they'll be so enamored by you. they have a very old-fashioned way about them, in terms of how they'll court you and show you off. (they might like those classic 90s/2000s mob movies idk) but your person is very generous, romantic and sweet. you're all they can think about and vice versa. you'll both be sprung hehe.

their overall aesthetic:

they love nice things. nice cars, nice watches, nice tux, you name it. i feel like because of how they carry themselves and how well-kept they are, they attract envious people/haters. they're not oblivious to it but they definitely try to pay it no mind. i'm hearing "fuck the haters!" lol they don't care. again, i feel like they're really going to love showing you off and claiming you loud and proud for the world to see. they're very confident and some of you may be a little shy but their energy is so infectious that you'll start owning your power even more. i love love love love it pile 3!

other channeled messages:

harry potter, ravenclaw, hufflepuff, the less i know the better by tame impala, adorn by miguel, daydreamin’ by ariana grande, you taught me how to live again, sweetest taboo by sade, pride by kendrick lamar, upper east side, video games by lana del rey, motorcycles, gemini, ibiza, loyalty, charming, power couple

pile 4 🎇 —

"drop the roof and let the smoke clear. i got diamonds doin' toosie slides in both ears. dice rollin' on the las vegas strip tonight. slip that on and we might miss the fight.”

hiii pile 4! i know this is straightforward but right off the bat i'm hearing that you're gonna give your person hell LMFAOOO? paint the town red by doja cat keeps playing in my head 😮‍💨 especially the part that goes "she a bad lil' bitch, she a rebel. she put her foot to the pedal, it'll take a whole lot for me to settle." you have high standards (as you should!) and they will be met. i feel like some of you that chose this pile have really bold and assertive personalities and people may find it intimidating, especially masculine energies. it's funny cause i feel like your person does have a bit of an ego and it's gonna take a minute to really figure out how to navigate the relationship. your person is a BOSS, (a big boss i'm hearing) and they have a similar mindset to you in terms of not settling for less. they are assertive by nature and it's gonna catch them off guard when you're not submissive initially. they like to take control, but you also like to take control so that's where the friction comes in. i'm not getting that it's bad or toxic though. if anything, it turns them on. i will say, out of all the other piles this one has the strongest sexual energy 😅 very very spicy! this person likes to put the work in but if something/someone is boring them they won't hesitate to move on. they hate wasting time. but you? you keep them on their toes, it's neverrr gonna be boring! i feel like you're gonna make them love drunk. i'm hearing church by mariah the scientist which is a very sensual song. they feel so pulled to you, it's out of their control and it scares them. i feel a bit dizzy rn (your person is lowkey dramatic it's hilarious) you're gonna drive them halfcrazy because they love you so much. definitely hearing halfcrazy by musiq soulchild. “my minds gone halfcrazy cause i can't leave you alone.” YEAH, they're gonna be deep in their bag about you. they may need to step back for a minute to get their mind right but one thing they know for sure is that they want you. they want it all. i'm getting heavy scorpio vibes (maybe even 8h placements) but this relationship is going to be very transformative, passionate, hypnotic and exhilarating. you're gonna love how much they yearn for you even though they try to fight it. y'all know how much power you possess hehe just be careful of playing too many mind games with this person. they really do love you pile 4, it's just gonna take a minute to find a nice balance between you both. they may need a little reassurance from you.

their overall aesthetic:

i feel like your person is a bit cold and reserved, but that's going to draw you to them even more. you want to know what's behind the mask. i just thought of the scene in ‘the batman’ when cat woman and batman are on the rooftop and she strokes his face and asks “who are you under there? what are you hiding?” AH, that's exactly what this is! you have that enticing push and pull that neither of you can walk away from because it's just too good. you're not gonna find that with anyone else, this person is your soulmate. you or this person may have had previous relationships that just didn't satisfy you or awaken you like this relationship will. i just heard f&mu by kehlani LOL y'all will love to get them riled up just to kiss and make up. i feel like you both will say it to each other too, it's a consensual game you both like to play. you both will be very upfront and honest with each other as you get comfortable, which will bring you two even closer. your person does have a bruce wayne vibe going for them lol definitely not boring but very intelligent, neat, practical, a bit brooding and always prepared for any and everything. i just heard “the bat and the cat…it's got a nice ring.” AHHH.

other channeled messages:

been away by brent faiyaz, crew by gold link ft. brent faiyaz, spread thin by mariah the scientist, u are my high by dj snake & future, electric by alina baraz ft. khalid, maneater, popular by the weeknd ft. madonna & playboi carti, how to lose a guy in 10 days, awkward by sza, is there someone else? by the weeknd, 7 rings by ariana grande, famous, flashing lights by kanye west, trust fund baby, tall in height, nothing burns like the cold by snoh aalegra ft. vince staples, wild side by normani ft. cardi b

[nyewclear]

Has Kurou ever been inlove? Did he ever tell that person he was inlove with them?

YES he's been in love before. i briefly talked about his ex-girlfriend ximena in this ask, but he loved her soooo much. everyone thought they were gonna be together for a long time. i love talking about them so let’s dig into the kuromena lore :D

as i’ve spoken about before, kurou met ximena at kolia’s job. kolia works full time at a high-end marketing firm, and often times kurou will drop by to bring her lunch when he’s not doing anything. because kolia’s job deals with big-time clients and is in a high-end office building, everyone is wearing business formal (including kolia). kurou is never wearing business formal when he comes in. matter of fact, sometimes he’s barely wearing a shirt. when he starts to come by to drop lunch off for kolia, he quickly became known as “crop top” by the receptionists, which inevitably spread upstairs to the rest of the employees LOL

basically, after a while, kurou comes in frequently enough that the receptionists just start letting him up into the building to go directly to kolia’s cubicle. in order to get to the marketing department where kolia works, you have to walk through the accounting department. ximena (bless her heart) works in the accounting department. the first day kurou was allowed up into the office, he saw her at her desk as he was passing by and he was like shot through the heart instantly when she met his gaze to idly say hello. he quickly became very smitten with her lol, but he didn’t want to say anything because if kolia found out, she’d actively discourage him pursuing anything with any of her coworkers, but especially ximena. she explicitly told kurou to not even think about talking to ximena any type of way. ximena was one step down from the accounting department manager and was about 7 or 8 years older than kurou, so she was nearly 30 at the time. she was very clean cut, organized, and classy, and kurou was OBSESSED with her. as i’ve said before, he has a thing for older women, but he really has a thing for put together older women hahahaha.

kurou started to bring kolia lunch a lot just so he’d have an excuse to go see her and have small talk. he’d try to flirt with her and she’d laugh him off, but one day he was like, “i really wanna take you out, i’m so into you, please ximena pleeeaaaaseeee” and she thought it was so pathetic (in a good way) that she agreed to it just because she thought it would be a little funny. turns out kurou really knows how to turn the charm on when he’s given the chance to do so in an uncontrolled environment HAHAHA and ximena found herself liking his messy insufferable ass quite a bit.

they went on a couple dates and ximena would let kurou get away with waaay too much lol, but after some weeks, she randomly was like, “you know, kurou, i wouldn’t mind being your girlfriend” and kurou nearly exploded in that single moment. however… kolia still didn’t know about this. all of kurou’s friends (and family) knew about him and ximena except for kolia because kurou kept telling people to not tell kolia because she would KILL HIM if she found out. it was a big secret for a while, but then one day she caught the two of them giggling and fondly touching each other in one of the office break rooms and she got sooooo mad 😭😭 she banned kurou from bringing her lunch for a long while and she didn’t talk to him for almost two weeks… especially after she found out that everyone was keeping the secret from her. oops!!!!

anyways, ximena and kurou had a very cute and blissful relationship and he loved her more than anything. he told her all the time and was always fawning over her in a way that many of his friends were surprised to see, as he’s generally pretty dismissive with people he’d dated short-term. love changes him in a crazy way lol. he becomes a lot softer and sweeter. the way he looked at ximena was sickening for the others to witness lololol. they were together for a year and a half, and kurou SWORE he was gonna marry her, like he would tell his sisters all the time. he was convinced that she was like the only woman of all time.

but then… ximena got a job offer to be the head of the accounting department of the main branch of the marketing firm, which was in a big city across the country. it was paying CRAZY money and she really couldn’t pass it up— it was a once in a lifetime opportunity. she loved kurou so much too and she wanted him to come with her when she moved… but kurou couldn’t bear to leave his family, his friends, or the band, which had just barely started at this point. ximena made it really clear that she didn’t want to do long distance and this shit tore kurou up inside something fierce. they ended up breaking up on the day he dropped her off at the airport for her flight to her new home, and it was soo sad because they both wanted to stay together, but the cards hadn’t fallen into place :-( kurou was inconsolable for weeks.

but long story short hahahaha, yes kurou has been in love before and he made sure he let her know about it so loud and clear. i think a part of him will always love her.

[gem-de-lune]

rather than fixed on a specific timeline, i hope we can channel our anger and disappointment to be louder! having positive affirmations that seunghan indeed is coming back (using present tense!) helps me to stay grounded with our purposes :) just wanted to share so ot7s everywhere dont feel too discouraged!

also rly funny bc i tried checking how sm's been pressured with all the fast moving energy from the media coverage, and i pulled the hanged man... 😅

LMFAO not Harold the Hanger- literally they are so annoying 😭😭😭

BUT YES you are sooo right anon. Our reality is what we create. Mass manifestation works wonders.

If any of you feel discouraged, just hop onto Seunghan is back tiktok and don't look at the dates lololol works everytime.

[amaiguri]

When you're a Writer and a Vtuber...

If you like storytelling, Vtubing, or both, this one's for you 🥰

You'd think there'd be more overlap of "People who want to be fantasy characters and hide their face" and "Writers" but there really aren't. I know like me and @moonfeatherblue and that's it for the writing/worldbuilding and Vtuber overlap lololol. I think there should be more of us!

So, let me convince you to become a storytelling/worldbuilding/writing Vtuber like me...

In addition to just loving all the cool things you can do with Live2D as a software (if like art and you don't just stare at rigging showcases on YouTube, you should. It's so cool!), I also love storytelling in a social media space. Like, how do you tell a story over time? How much information should you reveal and when? What colors, images, and sounds evoke the feelings you want? And what feelings will keep people coming back for more? Basically, Vtubers have made me fall in love with marketing because the best marketing is just storytelling with some sort of call-to-action at the end.

Am I GOOD at marketing? No, lol, but maybe YOU would be! KEEP READING to find out XD

On the flipside, so so many Vtubers are like "I'm the embodiment of sin and also a gamer and a singer" or "I'm a cottagecore whale who is also the collector of lost souls and I play video games" and it's like... clearly Vtuber audiences LIKE the fantasy aspects of this. Why is the Vtuber default just gaming? Why is there not waaaaay more whimsy and storytelling? (This isn't to say Gaming Bad TM. I'm literally a game dev. I NEED streamers to play my games. I love them.) There's just so much opportunity for cool storytelling with Vtubers!

If you wanna get into being a fictional character/having a kayfabe-like wrestling persona for your writing, you should 100% get into Vtubing. You don't even need to stream to be a Vtuber -- and honestly I'm not even sure you need to post videos necessarily lol -- GIFs and pictures could probably get you pretty far on the right platforms. You could start out using a PNG --there are so many good, free PNGtuber softwares and you could use Picrew images (with the right permissions!) for your PNGtuber to start. Or if you can draw, you can just DO THAT.

Or if you have like $50 USD, Raindrop Atelier has a FULLY rigged Vtuber "Picrew" with chibi models that are so high quality and cute! Or if you have like $300 USD, you could get one of the Picrew-like Vtubers from Charat Genesis. (Yes, that's a lot BUT most Vtuber models — 2D and 3D alike — run you from $2000 to $8000 sooooo $300 is a steal in comparison.)

And then, over time, you could post and reveal facts about yourself and tidbits of your lore! And you could give writing advice or talking about your worldbuilding in-character! I've had this idea to make a fantasy creature mockumentary for actually years now and I'm just trying to find a good scope for it...

On the downside, as with all "storytelling in real time", it can a little discouraging at the start when you don't have a big audience. And this specific niche is especially underdeveloped so it's definitely hard to find a foothold. BUT I find that, because it's all play -- it's all FANTASY -- I have a lot more energy for this kind of marketing than I would if I were promoting myself as "just a writer, trying to sell my writing." Getting people to like me is exhausting. Getting people to like my writing is part of the writing process!

Cuz like, aside from just "inhabiting a fictional character" and "reducing your face presence online while still giving your personal brand a face", being a Vtuber is also a fun way to tie into your work.

Like, my Vtuber model is Arlasaire and she's the protagonist of my (probably) upcoming RPG, Untitled Yssaia Game, (Not the final name, real name pending lol). She talks about cooking and music and geography over on my YouTube channel and it's all infused with cool fantasy music and sound effects. She speaks in and teaches you about conlangs in the world. And she goes on fantasy dates or fantasy vacations! So now, I'm getting people attached to this character and her world BEFORE I even get into her actual story. And all her merchandising and stuff is really just game merchandising and so on and so forth... and that's just good branding! Hopefully some day, this translates into more people playing the game and seeing more of my work!

But obviously, I'm very new to marketing or else this blog post would convince more writers to become Vtubers and more Vtubers to write lol.

Anyway, here's some Arlasaire art (art: LexiKoumori on IG, rig: Kanijam) AS WELL AS some of her earlier model sketches before I asked for her hair to be silkier and less feathery! And lastly, a short unedited video of me being cringe so you KNOW you could do better :DDDD

[canipetthatdeaddove]

Hi!

Just saw you reblog that post about Thorin and physical touch from me with your thoughts, and I wanted to say I’m not trying to tone police anyone, or virtue signal, or anything like that at all, really! I just thought it was an interesting take, is all. I really enjoy reading other folks headcanons, and I think however anyone wants to interpret the source material, films *or* book, is completely fair enough. Truly, I just really love seeing all the variations that people come up with - it’s one of my favourite parts of fandom!

Anyway, I’m sorry if it upset you, or if my reblogging it made you or anyone else feel attacked - that was certainly not my intention! Of course the post wasn’t mine, as such, but since you reblogged directly from me and it’s been in my queue for a few months now (so I’ve essentially reintroduced it, I guess?) I just wanted to clarify, and apologise if I caused any upset.

Thanks, and take care!

@conkers-thecosy NOOOOO CONKERS NEVER! You are the sweetest most precious thing you've never done anything wrong a day in your life and if anything happened to you I'd kill everyone in this room and then myself. (Parasocial relationships are weird, but I've been following for a couple years before my last blogged was nuked and I know what a force for positivity you are in this fandom.)

I am coming from a humble place, but unfortunately my writing style is "condescending, stuck up" so bear with me. I don't mean to sound like a butthole when I write.

These anti-dark-Thorin takes get reblogged by all the popular bloggers in the fandom. I'm never personally offended by them, just exasperated because I think it's almost an auto-reflex people aren't really inspecting very closely. We ARE all anti-censorship, right? We're not, like... passively encouraging totalitarianism, yeah? Not even accidentally by reblogging posts that discourage a negative depiction of a character in favor of a positive one, right? RIGHT!!!??? (insert padme and anakin meme)

All of this could have been said without invalidating those people who write dark-Thorin. That's ONE of the main points I want to make here. Love romantic, heart-melting, chivalrous, not-bigoted Thorin. Promote him. Write about him. But don't make him the standard. That's not reality.

Maybe because of the shades-of-grey character that Thorin is, it's caused people to come out the gates in defense of him. And I love all the ways in which writers have enriched his character by leaning into or creating positive qualities so it's easier and more satisfying to enjoy him and Bagginshield. (So that's its easier for Bilbo to put up with his ass lololol.)

I think it's wrong and a terrible disservice to, as I said, imply that people who explore the dark side of Thorin misunderstood the source material. Or to discourage creativity. "You're not playing in the sandbox right!" No, it's just I'm writing a Game of Thrones AU, and you're doing The Princess Bride AU. Neither is wrong just very different.

I know, @conkers-thecosy, your intention was not to do what I have described above. I don't think its the intention of MOST authors to repeat censorship-y rhetoric. I just don't think a lot of Hobbit fandom writers are inspecting this at all because they feel very strongly about a negative depiction of Thorin.

I have a great deal of admiration and respect for you @conkers-thecosy and nearly ALL the writers I've seen do this. I'm not mad at anyone. When I'm writing in my own voice, though, I can be what others have called "spicy". Blunt, direct, er... rude? That's not my intention towards you or anyone else in this fandom in regards to this issue. I'm sorry if my reblog was overly-aggressive.

[coffeeisfortheresponsible]

Heyyy i FREAKING love your art style and i wanna get into digital art but i have no skills whatsoever in drawing :(((( Can you tell how you learnt drawing and some tips for a beginner thankssss

hello hello!! honestly it’s weird giving advice for digital art i still feel very new at it myself!! i’ve only been doing it seriously for a little over a year so i feel like kind of a beginner still ajhdjsjd

but i can definitely give any advice i have!!! hopefully something will be helpful but i don’t think i have anything revolutionary to say lol

1. everyone says it but it’s true, you just have to be okay with making bad art. half the time i make art that i hate and its never shown to anyone lololol. you’re going to have off days where it feels like you can’t draw literally anything, and that’s okay! just don’t be discouraged by it :) it’s practice and its the only way you’ll see improvement!

2. i use pinterest a ton!!! for photo references ofc but i also have a board of references for character art that i like the style of! if im feeling like im missing something in my art or i dislike a specific way im drawing something, i go find art and i’ll try doing what works for others! that’s what art is all about, being inspired by other art!

3. don’t aim for consistency. your style will come naturally eventually (mine still isn’t consistent though haha so it might take a long time)! but just try and focus on making art that you like each time. art style really isn’t that important as it feels like it is

4. if you’re struggling with colors there’s lots of different things you can do! best route is to go and learn color theory, but i know that can be hard to absorb without actually just figuring it out yourself. so i’d say either use premade color palettes or color pick from art you like!! colors really have a massive influence on the style and appeal of art :)

5. random stuff: use colored lineart, find brushes you like (customize them!!), learn anatomy (i suck at this LMAO)

I HOPE SOMETHING I SAID WAS HELPFUL,, GO HAVE FUN!!!!!

[thatdesklamp]

Hey! I just wanted to say that I love your writing and I thing your magnificent! If you are ever feeling discouraged with your writing just know that there are many people cheering you on :D

Thank you!!!! This is lovely of you to say. There are always ups and downs with writing but it’s super encouraging to know there are genuinely people who are genuinely interested in reading the next chapter etc etc… that’s just so sick.

I still don’t feel like an Actual Ao3 Author but I think I’m getting there, lol. I’m checking off some ao3 author milestones, anyway—I’ve had IW on fic recs *and* I’ve had ‘yo this song reminds me of ur fic’ (both are so wild and so so flattering), which I still kick my feet and giggle about. Lololol.

[subdee]

Subdue! How are y'all doing?

Good... except tumblr for some reason didn't show me this ask until three days later... aha.

I'm chugging along with the new parent life - the baby will be 100 days old next week - all the cliches about the difficulty of parenting are true but they don't capture the details.

Like how I was so sleep deprived for the first couple months that I would HALLUCINATE the baby in bed next to me, and even when I knew - I KNEW! - that he was in his bassinet next to the bed, while half-asleep I would still touch the pillow or a lump in the covers and it would FEEL like the baby and I would SEE him there. Even though I knew he was not there. That was trippy!

Or how some babies, like mine, have what's called a "shalow latch" which in laymen's terms mean HE CHOMP on the nipple.

(But he's learned how to breastfeed without doing that by now... and it only took two and a half months >_> so now I get to enjoy feeding time with him for another, like, two weeks, before I head back to work LOLOLOL and in the meantime I thought I would try using the breast pump to get used to it and got a painful fungal infection, one of many things new moms all know about but that they don't tell you about so as not to discourage you from ever having kids or breastfeeding them.)

Or how you'll read all this stuff online about awake windows or sleep routines and how important it is to not do ANY of the easy things to help the baby fall asleep, like putting him in the swing or car seat or feeding him to sleep. And how you're supposed to put him in the crib "drowsy, but awake" so he'll learn how to fall asleep on his own but it's actually impossible because your particular baby spits up half his food after meals if you don't hold him upright 20-30mins but during that time he just falls asleep on your shoulder.

And on and on, but actually we are already out of the newborn stage and through most of these challenges (for now knock on wood). Now we're in the infant stage which is a lot more fun.

I'm putting all this TMI stuff here because you asked, but the truth is I'm really enjoying my time with Baby, especially lately. I know all new parents probably think this but MY baby is an actual genius, he's always looking around at everything, and he's already rolling and trying to sit up. He's gotten better at keeping his food down, better at recognizing when he's hungry or tired or gassy or bored, and better at communicating what he wants with his hands. Every day he does something new that he couldn't do before! Plus now that I can like, actually leave the house with the baby my mental health has improved a lot -_-b We've been going to the library and we're doing swim classes next week!

Plus he is super cute, this is not my bias speaking, it is true objective Fact.

[epicfranb]

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS i got an idea for a new au 😅 BUT HEY i believe it's ,y first actual Life Series AU, and i called it: nth life_

The usual team, no new characters, no lizzie and mumbo (sorry lizzie and mumbo), they get 3 lives (tho that could be changed) and their goal is... to survive in the void. (inspired by this video lololol)

Initially i wanted them to have some time on the surface, they they have to go down and survive in the void for as long as they can. i struggled to imagine how that would go, so i uh... accidentally might've made a Made in Abyss crossover 😅

So, each session, the guys go down lower and lower in the world. first it's just caves, then it's the deep dark, then they start going deeper and deeper... the nether and the end are also layers, they can't just go there whenever they want. And i want to add some cool mc mods in there to spice things up (mostly so layers are cool and different, but also mods that let them find or make food where there isn't any in vanilla)

Now, i don't want to copy Made in Abyss in that going back to the upper levels has more negative effects the lower you go, but i do want some sort of drawback to doing so. I think the lower levels could be opened up gradually, so nobody rushes, and the lower you go, the better materials and equipment you can get, so players are discouraged from staying in one place for too long, and setting up permanent bases IS NOT ALLOWED. You do need materials from every level to survive the void though.

Void really fucks with people's heads. The closer they are to it, the more paranoid and anxios they become. Some wil also become aggressive, have hallucinations or derealization, thinking they're in previous season or in a different series bringing up things that didn't happen and people that aren't there (Grian searching for Mumbo? Etho paranoid that Gem is out to get him? Pearl and Cleo feeling like Lizzie and Gem respectively possess them?)

With that, i think it could start out silly,similar to how the normal series usually goes, but, as theygo down, it gets more serious in tone and even steps into the horror category. that could be neat.

I either don't want watchers there at all, or have a non-obvious interpretation from fanon? Something like in OFF, DDLC or Undertale, where the player is a separate character in the story, but here it's the reader. Idk yet if the reader will be able to make choices or not. Could intepret watchers in some fun way, but only if it adds something to the story. They don't need to be there and they're only canon to Martyn anyway im pretty sure

I guess the reader could make a choice of whose story to follow, mirroring how you choose POV's when you're watching the actual series. Like, Martyn and Cleo are doing something, and there's Joel and Scar somewhere else at the same time, and you choose who to watch. Could also add replayability/rereadbility (is that a word??)

I imagine the whole thing as a text adventure, with cryptic vibes like "breaking the 4th wall/they know they're in a game" and "liminal space/backrooms". there could also be puzzles for the audience to solve to make it more engaging and immersive :)

Maybe i could start out by deciding who teams up with who. I don't want to pair up people who i actually want to pair up, cuz that could make me focus solely on them (looks at clethubs), but i still want the teams to go well together and have fun dynamics.

Some brainstorms from 1 am me:

For Jimmy, i want him to team with someone as stupid+silly+goofy like himself. Current options include: BigB, Martyn, Skizz (i might go w him) and Ren. Any combination of them could also work.

The team i'm 100% decided on is... Etho, Pearl and Cleo. Girlbosses + a wet rag

Joel and Bdubs would be suuuuper fun. Tango, Joel and Bdubs? Do i want a team that just gonna yell at eahc other all the time? Perhaps yes,

But Scott and Bdubs... sounds chaotic.

I want Grian with Impulse!!

Scar and Ren are left? Scar and Joel could be a good combo.

Aaaand that's everything for now. It's not an au i believe i can work on by myself though. as much as i like this concept, it feels like one of those that i will abandon very quickly, especially seeing as i have other au's i'd like to work on... but i want to at least do a lil bit on this one!! so uh... if anyone gets the vision and wants to collab... i invite u :D

[wingsadorned]

i just used my pendulum for the first time and that was interesting . at first i was really nervous and i was getting radio silence . i mean , my ceiling fan wasn’t even rly moving it . later , discouraged , i sat back on my pillow and tried again . i asked if anyone was there and got a soft yes . i asked them if they could tell me who they were and got a no . i asked “ . . so you won’t tell me who you are ? ” got a no . i asked if i’d find out at any point and they said yes . i asked if i could maybe get some details and they said no but changed their mind when i asked again a little later . abrahamic ? no . greek ? no . norse . . . yeees . i had to ask multiple times bc sometimes it would go in little circles bc of my ceiling fan . anyways i asked if it was female and they said no ( even tho i went on a lil ramble where i said “ although i can’t conform you into our societal and human gender or sex norms but you get my point i think ) . male ? yes . i reluctantly asked “ Loki . . . ? ” bc i’ve really been wanting to reach out to him and i got a yes ! i got rly excited actually . i asked if i could reach out to him often and got a couple circles , then a no . asked again , another no . i fixed my nervous hands and asked “ so . . can i talk to you from time to time ? ” he said yes . i had the image of talking to him every night in my head so i think it was clear the question was the same , just phrased differently , then i got a yes . then i asked “ . . . were you just fucking with me before ” and got a yes lololol .

interesting first time using a pendulum . very nerve wracking bc my hands are kinda shaky and i have the ceiling fan . but honestly it was fun . probably will do it again .

[nagiscap]

You've been inactive lately what happened?

omo nothing really just school has been killing me im studying statistics and it’s quite a stressful major lololol plus im working a job for extra cash. in the summer when i have a longer break i’ll be more active but thank you sm for asking ALSO i’m so behind in blue lock and i heard nagi is flopping which has been discouraging me from reading 😭😭😭 BUT i think im going to start catching up next week so sorry for the inactivity but i will be back promise

[mymanreedus]

There was a interview/documentary called Behind the Dead a few years back. This link to my blog has the quotes about Norman's casting and his reaction. Click here

There's also this quote which I think is from a different behind the scenes interview: Click here

Norman's talked about it in lots of panels and interviews over the years so the more detailed story of how he was cast took literal years to come out. As I remember he was doing casting calls in LA for a number of shows. Cop shows, lawyer shows, doctor shows. He heard there was a zombie show and really wanted a role but it had been fully cast already. He asked his agent to try to get him an audition anyway. If I remember right he said he'd do any role, he just really wanted to be in this zombie show. In later interviews he said his agent/management discouraged him from auditioning because they thought the show wouldn't go anywhere and get cancelled lololol. His agent was able to get him in and Norman was given Merle's "I vote me" scene to read. Here's a clip from tiktok of him reading the lines: Click here

The casting agents didn't think he was right for Merle, which Michael Rooker had already been perfectly cast for, but Norman made such a good impression on them that they suggested to production that he be given a role. Greg Nicotero called up director John Carpenter to ask about Norman (all 3 had worked together in a film called Cigarette Burns years before) and got a glowing review. Here's a link to my blog about that: Click here.

So production asked the writers to create a role just for him as Merle's younger brother. Later interviews said that the writers were going to kill off Daryl in the 4th episode but they liked writing his character so much that they kept him in. Best. Decision. Ever. Back in NYC Norman was walking somewhere in Chinatown where he lived when he got a call that they'd made a role just for him. And he was really happy about it. And that's the story of Norman's biggest break and AMC's best decision. 👏👏👏

Does anyone know how Norman reacted when he got hired for his Daryl role? I found JDM’s reaction but not Norman’s. Does anyone know?

[mmmleckerlecker]

I’ve been curious about these things for a while, and kept forgetting to ask! Three questions in one, cuz I have a lot of curiosity. What happened to Benji’s dad? Also, what is the world of HP like? Is it basically an alternate version of our same earth, or is it different in terms of countries, names, landmarks, etc? Also are neutralizers and emetics available for preys to buy too, as self-protection?

Lololol imma be real. I have no clue what happened to Benji’s dad. When I first started writing HP, I didn’t really imagine anything had happened to him at all. Just that he was like… not around when anything of importance was going on. Probably at work or something. I think there’s even a mention at some point about Benji’s “parents” plural. But the dad’s presence in the story somehow quickly became so irrelevant that I sorta just… felt more and more obligated to… skip over his existence? Otherwise it would be hard to bring him up at that point without causing a stir. His lack of presence in the story has been kinda rarely questioned so far, so I guess it’s worked for the most part?

And yeah! I kinda imagine it more of an “alternate earth.” Different history and probably a slightly different landscape, but a lot of parallels. By the way the government and school systems are run in HP, it’s pretty clear it takes place in an alternate USA. How did it get to be that way with an entirely different history? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just did I guess. But I avoid naming any specific places for that reason. There’s a scene where Benji is heavily implied to be eating Chinese takeout, but I never referred to it as such because, although there’s probably some HP version of China, I don’t imagine it would be CALLED China. (And casually bringing up AU China in that moment of the story would be distracting at best and totally derailing at worst.)

I also don’t see why the prey SHOULDN’T be allowed to buy things like neutralizers and emetics (tho I feel like emetics might be a little more regulated in general FOR EVERYONE since they could do a lot more harm in the wrong hands than some neutralizers.) Tho maybe there might be a bit of a social stigma that discourages prey to buy them as much. Like the weird looks a man might get while browsing the tampon section of a store. Perhaps, tho, there was a time when prey couldn’t buy those types of products since preds just assumed they would be used against them. It would be interesting to see how that would change as the two sides grew closer and prey voiced their need to buy them, not just for protection, but for their pred partners as well… 👀

[chestofletters]

Just saw a very serious tumblr post refer to adults age 25+ as “older adults.” I am begging you kids to go outside and interact with diverse groups of people. Please. It’s for your own good.