#it’s crazy to me cause she’s literaly so fine

[nhaaauyen]

to all the people that doesn’t like sevika’s new hair it’s okay, cause I’ll be there for her with open arms… and open legs… and an open mouth

[cienie-isengardu]

    Etain sipped. The shig was citrus-flavored and kinder to her stomach than caf. "It's just such a shame that all that other data was... lost."

    It felt too cruel to say blown to pieces by your crazy brother.

    "Yeah," Mereel said, and squatted down next to her seat. He put his finger to his lips for silence and opened one of his belt pouches. Then he drew out a container, the kind that datachips were stored in, took her hand, and laid it on the little box. "Indeed."

    "Mereel..."

    "Don't you always do a backup, Etain? Tut tut..."

    "Don't joke about this, Mereel." She was starting to get annoyed with him. Skirata had been mortified by it. "Is that what I think it is?"

    "We might have behavioral problems, but we're not stupid. It is. All intact. Ordo meant what he said, but he didn't use the real set of chips."

    Etain's ecstatic relief was instantly slapped down by recalling Skirata's face. "How could you do this to Kal? What if he'd had a seizure or something? He was devastated."

    Mereel replaced the datachips and stood up. "I know, I know. Ordo and I argued over it, but it was the only way I could get Kal'buir to act like it was real. He's usually a great little actor, our buir, but he isn't always good at grief. Ko Sai would probably have spotted it."

    "Poor man."

    "I'll comm Ordo and let him know he can tell Kal'buir."

    "Kal's going to be furious. He blames himself."

    "Oh, Ord'ika can get away with murder. He's the number one son." Mereel went back to the datapad, and smiled again. "And it broke Ko Sai, didn't it?" [True Colors]

➦ Mereel is such a fine schemer but this passage makes me wonder, if his knack for manipulation and ruthlessness toward even his own family (Skirata) is actually connected to Skirata’s favoritism of Ordo (and maybe Kal’s general way to interact with people). Kal said to Etain in the same book “You can't have favorites. But [Ordo]'s probably the one I overprotect most, yes” so he may not see his attitude as having the favorite son but as a way to protect the one Null he perceived to need his attention/support the most - what may be relate to how Ordo is the more introverted Null than Mereel or other brothers.

But Mereel definitely see it in different light, as he literaly made a statement that “Ord'ika can get away with murder. He's the number one son”. In the context of his dialogue with Etain, Mereel’s words don't seem to be along the mindset Kal will understand and forgive us and sounds more like, Ordo will tell him the truth because Kal would never blame him for anything. Which to be honest, is awfully worrying to me, especially since True Colors also mentioned in Skirata’s POV that Ordo and Mereel “indulged in a little rivalry” that explained “Mereel's love of risk taking”. All because “he had to edge out of Ordo's shadow somehow”.

Of course, this does not necessarily mean Skirata went out of his way to treat Ordo better than his brothers but for sure there is quite a discrepancy between what Kal said to Etain and what Nulls feel. Ordo felt bad about being the first - and for some time, the only one - Null formally adopted by Skirata due to the implication of being the favorite son (“At least one cause for guilt had been lifted from Ordo's shoulders. He was no longer the only Null formally adopted by Skirata. It was a legal detail, nothing more, but Ordo didn't want to be singled out as the favorite. He already felt he had a far easier time than his brothers.” [O66]), Mereel’s opinion was already mentioned in above quote, then there was the “number one son” joke between all Nulls and the whole dynamic of six brothers brought by Imperial Commando: 501st:

Jaing laid his datapad on the table. "Oh good," he said. "I thought we were going to have a spat about Number One Son losing his place in the pecking order. Okay, what floor plans do we need?"

It had always been a joke, but Ordo wasn't sure it was so funny now. He'd been the informal alpha male of the brothers since infancy, and Skirata treated him as such. Mereel had always fallen into the sidekick role. In a family of six sons, it was inevitable that there'd be alliances and harmless rivalries. Now Ordo was starting to worry that they really did see him differently. The last thing he wanted was advantages that his brothers didn't have.

It is understandable that with six genius-like Nulls and 100 or 104 clone commandos to train at the same time, Kal could mess up here and there in the regard of Nulls’ upbringing. At the same time, it is worrying how differently he and his six sons look at the matter of favoritizing Ordo. For Skirata it wasn’t favoritism per se, just his protectiveness as Ordo worried him the most while for Mereel, Ordo could get away with anything regardless how furious Skirata would be - while at the same time implying(?), he doesn’t think this forgiveness also applies to him?

➦ Etain’s thought “It felt too cruel to say blown to pieces by your crazy brother.” is so... rude?. Like yeah, Ordo wasn’t at his best and news about Fi did not help much to improve his emotional state, but being angry and acting under strong emotion (for what it looked back then) is hardly the same as calling him crazy - a word that usually is associated with someone mentally deranged, especially as manifested in a wild or aggressive way. Dunno maybe my memory is just bad, but I don’t remember Etain thinking about Ordo or Nulls in general by outrightly calling them crazy before? Even during the previous scene, her POV described Ordo as “he walked a fine line between self-control and chaos far more often than anyone seemed to realize, and news of Fi's condition hadn't helped.” What hints Etain was aware of Ordo’s mental problems but she did not classified - insulted? - him as a crazy man. And yes, she was so devastated when Ordo supposedly destroyed the chip and that meant Darman’s chances for normal life dropped dramatically so this attitude could stream from that. But at the same time, the book series like to label people as psycho (Vau, Sev) and crazy (Arla Fett) and dunno, Etain’s remark, even if the one she kept to herself, feels more like an insult than a real worry about Ordo’s mental health.

[inosukki]

midnight memory, nishinoya yuu.

synopsis: showering with nishinoya yuu!

ok so basically your a second year co-manager who’s going to take kiyoko’s place after she leaves

and you’re dating noya!! lucky u huh >:)

unlike kiyoko you’re staying the night at training camp bc you don’t live as close as she does (she did offer for you to stay the night but you wanted to spend time with noya so you respectfully declined)

anyways onto the showering part

basically noya texts you at an ungodly hour so you have the smallest chance of being caught

noya: hey baby gorl😼 tryna shower 2gether or sumn???

you: yes king🙏🙏 im omw rn!! don’t get nakey w/out me😡

noya: wouldn’t dream of it angel😊 now get yo fine ass over here asap im tryna kith u🥺🥺

(mf is a SIMP)

you put down your phone and grabbed your pjs and a towel before zooming (quietly) to the bathroom

your so giddy... like your about to spend time with your bf who you barely has had any free time because of stoopid volleyball!!! jk u support him sm so even just watching him play was enough for you

noya is the best libero and the best boy

you try to be as quiet as possible and tiptoe into the communal showers

and there he is

noya’s literally just standing there doing nothing mf is straight up this emoji🕴

but when he sees you his eyes light up and he makes this grabby motion with his hands which makes u MELT. he is baby

he literally whisper-yells “hi baby!!” before engulfing you in a much needed hug

you pout, telling him you missed him

he decides to ruin the moment by saying “whatever bitch, just take off yo clothes im tryna see sumn” but his eyes give him away because he’s literally looking at you in awe he is straight up in love

you roll your eyes and laugh before stripping down to your underwear

you were about to take off your undergarments when you notice he’s fully clothed and looking at you with his eyes wide and mouth hanging

“dude take off your clothes”

he snaps out of his trance and literaly takes off his clothes at the speed of light

now you’re both nakey (oo la la😼) and he turns on the shower

you both get in and stand in silence

he’s literally just staring at you which makes you nervous for some reason

“hi”

“hi”

to get rid of this ~tension~ you open your mouth and let water collect in it before spitting it straight at his face

he’s like :0

and you’re like >:3

and before you know it he spits water straight back at you while your mouth is WIDE OPEN

he’s literally losing his shit while you try not to slap this mf

“turn around noya”

he literally goes “huh?” thinking this might be a trick to get back at him or something but you just roll your eyes and forcefully turn him around so that he’s staring at the wall and you’re staring at his back

you then squirt a glob of this amazingg coconut shampo and just go crazy go stupid on his head

jk your gentle because he’s a precious baby

you slowly massage the shampoo into his head, making sure your touching his scalp with the pads of your fingers and not your fingertips

his head literally falls back and he’s moaning (not in that way u dirty bih)

he wouldn’t admit it to you but training has literally exhausted him especially since he doesn’t know when to stop

so the fact that you’re massaging him is helping him relax a lot!!

as you continue to massage his scalp you place a light kiss to the back of his neck which causes him to turn around immediately

he’s smiling so big and gently placed his hands on both of your cheeks, pulling you into a kiss

your chest feels warm and you smile into the kiss, but then pull away and embrace him

“i love you bubs” you whisper

he rests his face in the crook of your neck

“i love you more” he whispers back

*swoons* he’s perfect

the water washes over you two as you pepper kisses on his shoulders, neck, cheeks, and nose

you push back his wet hair and stare at him

“we should probably get out soon, it’s getting late”

he nods, so you both get back to doing shower things like washing yourselves and shi

you step out first, grabbing your towel and tightly wrapping it around your body

he comes out after, literally whipping his head around like a dog to try his hair

grabbing your pjs off the counter, you snort at his adorable antics

why was literally everything he did cute... if it was anyone else you’d be yelling at them to stop

but he🥺

anywho y’all starting putting on your pjs and tiptoe to the exit

he holding onto your hand as you walk out of the bathroom like a little baby

the coast is clear!! you’re about to part ways before he grabs you by your shoulders, spins you around, and places a big fat kiss on your forehead

you blush and look down.. he makes u... shy🥺👉👈

“bye baby, i’ll see you in the morning! save me a seat next to you at breakfast, okay??”

you nod, before pressing a chaste kiss on his lips

“goodnight babe”

you walk away with the biggest smile on your lips... you’re in love with this doofus

[poetic-photography]

Heaven and Back - Chase Atlantic

[Verse 1: Mitchel Cave] Uh She was always dealing with the devil

Everyone has their own demons, and I sure as hell had a lot of my own to deal with. In this song, they do not literaly mean the Devil, but more of the demons people face every single day. 

She was always into taking those chances, yeah

Everyone, including me has at least once in their life listened to the devil on their shoulder and dispite the risks, going through with it. I listened to that devil a lot, and it became one of my best friends. 

She said she met a couple other women who were into going late night dancing, yeah

Finding people to follow your path makes you feel less alone, and in a way also less insane. If people do the same as you, it makes it feel less as if you are doing a bad thing. 

Then she fell in love with a pill that could take away all her pain, yuh

Everyone has their poison to pick, their search for a way out of reality. it an be very extreme of very lighthearded, but everyone has their own escape.  

Then she fell in love with a whole new drug that could fill her veins And then

In a way addiction is the biggest killer of humanity. It can be addiction to drugs, alcohol, but it can also be addiction to things like your own depression, love, or someone to hold you back from making mistakes. Getting addicted to what keeps you sane, is a silent killer everyone faces.  [Chorus: Mitchel Cave] She's high (High) She lives in the sky

Being high doesn’t mean being high on drugs to me. it’s being high on something other than reality. Living in another life, even if it’s just for a minute. 

Tonight, she's satisfied (Satisfied) Rolling back her eyes But then she starts to cry (To cry) Everything is turning to black All in one night (One night) She just went to heaven and back (Back)

This part of the song hit really close to home.  When I’m out, when I’m away with people and am pulled out of my own reality, I feel great. I can have fun for hours, and can feel genuinely happy. Although when being left alone, I collapse. 

[Verse 2: Mitchel Cave] Boiling water Dying in an empty corner

When I’m being left on my own, and this could legit be just going to the bathroom, I have the posibilty to completely break down and lose it. All of my emotions hit me at once and I feel numb to the core. 

Tied to aluminium borders She tried, but the obsidian caught her, yeah, uh And it might seem like she's crazy By the things that she might say, but

I will start to talk to random strangers about my deepest and most private struggles, and just let everything out to the closest person who is being nice to me. Making me look like an actual retard. 

While you're talking, she shoots diamorphine right into her veins And then

Although, when people try to help me in those kind of situations, I just get pulled closer to another hit of any mindnumbing substance [Chorus: Mitchel Cave] She's high (High) She lives in the sky Tonight, she's satisfied (Satisfied) Rolling back her eyes But then, she starts to cry (To cry) Everything is turning to black All in one night (One night) She just went to heaven and back (She went) Yeah, ooh yeah (Oh yeah) She went to heaven and back, ooh yeah, uh She went to heaven and back (Yuh, yuh) Now everything is turning to black All in one night (One night) She just went to heaven and back Heaven and back Heaven and back Heaven and back [Bridge: Mitchel Cave] Well, you lied You said you were fine But now you're terrified 'Cause you don't wanna die (Die) Then you start to cry You wish that you could take it all back 'Cause you just went to heaven and back

Reality kicks in. I know I have pushed it too far once again. Too far, I can’t take it back, and I’m hopeless. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know who I can trust with my problems. So I trust no one, and pray for the best.  [Chorus: Mitchel Cave] She's high (High) She lives in the sky Tonight, she's satisfied (Satisfied) Rolling back her eyes But then, she starts to cry (To cry) Everything is turning to black All in one night (One night) She just went to heaven and back Yeah, ooh yeah (Oh yeah) She went to heaven and back, ooh yeah, uh She went to heaven and back Now everything is turning to black All in one night (One night) She just went to heaven and back

[ilcodicedavinci]

The Invisible Knight

Today is one of those days where the light coming from outside is strangely too strong for sleepy eyes and the coffee tastes like shit. The chitty-chatty of my flatmates is so lively that I can barely think of something. They can be sometimes so lavish and sore at the same time, driving me crazy like a bull.  Example? "Have you seen Kat downstairs? She is G-R-A-N-D. I would have never thought of combining the colour of the nails and the lips." I mean, they can get excited for bullshit like this and they probably expect from me the same reaction. So I just smiled to this grand declaration and, for Chrissake, they are now back to their room and I can finally enjoy the black tasteless coffee in front of me. I'm getting so depressed in this moment though. You know, stuff like this can really put you down and it seems like nothing really interesting can come up to your mind again. Like never again in your damn life. Oh gosh, sometimes I can be so fatalist. I really mean it. Like, I have this huge problem when I meet someone. I have that horrible pretentious attitude that people can't get through their life without my presence after they've met me. Isn't it so fatalist and dramatic? I'm the queen of drama, or simply a dickhead. But after all I think people really love me, or at least most of the time. And I definitely love them too! For example, there is this guy I met one week ago. He literaly loves me with all his heart. I was in my favourite bar, dressed up fancy and careless at the same time. I was in the mode: look at me but don't get close. What a dickhead I am. I could feel those hungry eyes on me. I was enjoying it like a crazy chick. You know, everything was going prefectly fine. I reached the ideal tipsy state and I was not anymore listening to the typical philosophical conversations of my lovely flatmates. I was on the point of starting flirting with the bartender just for the fun of doing it when a guy sat next to me saying nothing. I new he was mustering the courage to talk to me, but I've preceded him: " I know whatcha tryin'a do, boy." Such a stupid thing to say, I've realized it while I was saying it. But he seemed so released by that, that the only thing he could do was smiling. A really bright and mischievous smile, though. The bastard, he knew perfeclty what a smile of that kind would have caused on me. I'm pretty sure about that even now. Anyway, I stared at him with this really terrific and still glance for an everlasting couple of minutes. I could not put my thoughts in a logical order. First because of that smile I told you about. I mean, I really know myself. Guys, especially when they are so innocent and nasty at the same time, drives me crazy. I can't help it. My chest was bursting into hells' flames. Drama queen, again.   Second, I could not concentrate because of the noise of this bunch of drunk people screaming as wild monkeys. In that moment I could distinctly feel what my mum would have thought about pubs I use to hang out. My lovely mum used to say many things about young folks like me. But, of course, when she had to talk about me she was even too honest. I still remember the day when I stared at a cake on the kitchen's table for hours. I mean.. it was a really nice one, with a nice smell too and I was not particulary hungry. So I've just stayed there, sitting on the chair, staring at the cake thinking about anything and nothing when suddenly her voice broke the prefect silence: "You are a waste of time." That particular time hurted me a lot. Somehow since that moment my mum thought that the wall of politeness between us fell and she kept repeating that statement 'til the very last second of my departure. I got so used to listen to it that I've started thinking that "waste of time" was no long a deplorable thing to say to someone. I mean, if I were a waste of time, I was a really wonderful one. But anyway, could you believe that after those couple of minutes I was literaly eating that guy with passionate kisses? It was definitely a firestorm for both of us. A thunder that explodes in the middle of the night and other of these poetic and common images. He loved me and sure he still loves me. I remember what he kept repeating during the night: "Oh Reb, I wanna see ya again. Oh gal! you drive me crazy". And the way he said it was so convincing that I was having the same feeling. I mean.. I really wanted to see him again. So we tried to figure out how, where, when we could have seen again. You know, in a  different place with a different atmosphere in order to know each other better, as if we had the feeling that there was an hypothetical "better" to know. I have to admit though that sometimes I was getting a little bit of that typical depression that catches me easly, but he was still saying the magical revitalizing words "wanna see ya, gal. I mean it, I wanna see ya". To make things easier to him, because girls we all know that boys sometimes can be really slow at doing stuff, I gave him my number and I was getting  ready to head back home when suddenly he decided to say some more words: "Ya know, I've gotta do some stuff in this period, don't wanna waste lots of time. But we'll see soon, gal."

He killed me. That sonuvabitch.  

[taiblogcomics]

A Hair-Raising Adventure

Hey there, rap-offs. Well, got a new shipment in! And now we have plenty of really good MLP comics to cover. Like, you're gonna wanna see all of these, they're cool. And I'm pretty sure the final season is going to begin within this month of reviews, so that's appropriately thematic. However, to get to the rest, we have to do this one first, and it's a little soft. I mean, comparatively. It's still good~

Here's the cover:

Wow, this cover is awesome. Do you remember that episode with the Tantabus? That's what this cover reminds me of. However, it's not exactly super-representative of its contents. It's not a literaly depiction of the contents, but it is metaphorical. You see, this issue is about anxiety~

So we briefly open at the Frienship School, where Silverstream, Yona, and Sandbar are having a bad hair day. They ask Fluttershy for help, because Fluttershy always has great hair. And you know who helps her with that? Why, her brother Zephyr Breeze, who became a hairdresser in that one episode. He quickly diagnoses their problems, and quickly tries to set things right. He's pretty good, but while combing Yona's mane, he starts to wander verbally and begins getting over-anxious. This causes him to over-fluff her hair. Turns out the guy is a little bit stressed and might even be suffering from a bit of imposter syndrome. Sandbar suggests he try going to a stylist conference, so he can be around other creatures in a professional environment. And Fluttershy decides to make a field trip out of it~

At the con, Zephyr is enjoying himself. At least, until he sees a stage demonstration of various manestyles judged by a panel of professionals. The idea of doing it so publically turns him off, and he ends up crashing into another pony in his distraction. Her name is Pixie Cut, and despite their classic meet-cute introduction, I don't think she's actually meant to be a love interest. But I suspect that won't stop the shippers. He helps her pick up her papers, and they get to chatting. She's been doing the hairdressing thing since she was little, and assures Zephyr that it's okay for him to be overwhelmed a bit, he's still starting out.

Since everypony else ("everycreature" is a conceit of the narrative I refuse to indulge) split off to let the meet-cute play out, they rejoin Zephyr after Pixie has finished parting ways and advice with him. Silverstream, of course, then reveals she's signed Zephyr up for one of the haircut demonstrations they saw earlier. The stage fright immediately begins overwhelming him, and he's not even at the stage yet. He runs off, pursued by his gloomy thoughts, but somehow finds himself back at the stage. Coincidentally, this is good timing, because Pixie Cut is about to do a demonstration of her own. It goes wonderfully, and the judges have nothing but compliments.

Zephyr ducks backstage to compliment her himself, only to find her sitting looking very poor. Not the mood you'd expect from somepony who just tasted such glowing praise. She admits that she has big anxiety and is fighting off a panic attack. She's actually very bad at presenting in front of a crowd, and her going on stage is a practised act she's putting up. Zephyr wonders who has the nerve to put her up to it, and she says she signed herself up. Not everypony has a Silverstream in their life, Zephyr! She's trying to get better at it, and thus she can't get over her anxiety if she never confronts it. Zephyr realises he needs to do the same thing and heads off for his own demonstration--and then kindly comes back for a moment to ask if she needs a glass of water or anything. Aww~

Zephyr makes his stage debut, demonstrating the "Canterlot lob style" manecut. The judges are complimentary, but their criticisms are fair. They're not overly harsh, recognising him as both a beginner and somepony with a lot of potential. He's very proud of being called "talented", which seems to be the confidence booster he needed to start shaking off his anxieties. He meets up with Pixie Cut again to thank her, and she gives him a little further advice: if you get caught up inside your own head, look for a friend to pull you out. She's glad to be that friend for him. Silverstream also apologises for pushing him into the demonstration, but it's fine because it was the push he needed. And then they all retire to the snack bar~

For such a mild issue, this is actually really good. I mean, it’s not super exciting, but it doesn’t have to be. Anxiety and imposter syndrome and other such things are real problems folks have to deal with, and so this issue is probably really relatable to folks who do go through such things. I’m not an expert on the topic or even deal with anxiety much myself, so I can‘t say how accurate or helpful this issue is. Fortunately, I don’t think it’s intending to be a PSA on the subject, so it doesn’t come across as heavy-handed, even from an outsider perspective. And honestly, I feel like Zephyr Breeze is an under-utilised character. I hope we see him at least once more in the final season~

Next issue, though: another milestone for the comic. Be prepared, because issue 75 is a crazy one~

[darcrostics-blog]

55th (April 24, 2018)

And we continued chattting until midnight passes. We're talking about your laughter and how you laugh with your friends. It is true that you're laughter is like a virus that if a person heards, he/she will also start to laugh maybe thats the reason why you always laugh with your friends and the way how you laugh, laughing like you're gasping for breath is really funny. You've said that I should not message you for a minute and after that I became curious asked why and you said that you've done some backread to see if you've send some images of what you're wearing last night when you went out with your cousin Aila or Kitty. Then I asked what did you wear and you've said "offshoulder na stripes at shorts", what the heck, going out in the middle of the night wearing that kind of outfit and going to a bar when you know that there a lot of manyakol on that place. I wasn't mad at you, I was just concerned because I'm worried that some crazy man will just come at you and harass you and you can't fight back because of the fact that man is much stronger than woman physically, so please stop wearing that kind of outfit when going to that kind of place, I know you're cute wearing that kind of outfit but that place. You didn't hide that thing and you're sorry for it and won't repeat it again, so how cant I forgive someone like you but wait, its not a sin that you somehow like to wear revealing outifts but its the person's motive that really makes me unease. After a few minutes later I've asked if I'll call and said I'm playing lol with my classmates and you answered that I should just play  and just call each other tomorrow. Nah, why can't you be so selfish sometimes, or maybe it's just sarcasm that you're saying you are fine. I called and I can hear your cough, you should go check your pedia cause its been a long time and you strill have that. You are now insisting me to say what I'm saying to your pictures while you're gone eating and you're gonna send something too after I say what I'm going to say. I know you somehow know what will I say so I just shifted that and just said the things that I love about you. I'm really shy to say things like that and I think that between of us, I'm more of a girl and you are lot boyish than me because I always do or initiate the landi move. I've said some things that I love about you, and  I hope you can still remember some cause I will not say it anymore cause you've laughed couple time that really made me shy lol. I've think that and said that you aren't expecting that I'll say all of that and you're expecting something, i don't know but it's what I'm thinking right now, cause you've asked me if I'm gonna say more and I see that you're patiently waiting AHAHA. I really don't want that word to be said on call or converation cause I think it'll be best if it's gonna be personal and yet you forced me to say I LOVE YOU for the first time without any "happy april fools" or "Joke"  and ended the call. You said that I should open our secret conversation and you replied "I Love you too" sdhasidhaishdisad but it was gone after 5 secs bitch why and hope remember all the next things I've said and we just sleep. I was the first one who woke up first and and after 3 hours you replied. You said that you posted a pic that made you scolded by your mom and I asked what was that and you're to shy to send it to me cause it was somehow a nude pic of you Lol but my insisting skills are better than your "nah", "NO" so you send it to me dafuq that pic, training to become a model? AHAHAHA but don't worry it's safe with me and you're hot, joke. I also have a nude pic AHAHAHA, to make things fair I've send some to you and I guess you have reasons to trust me AHAHA and just said forget everything what we send to each other. Afternoon came and you said you want to call cause you miss my voice but sorry I really need to go out for I'm really hungry and to buy food. after 2 hours I got home and immediately. I asked youwhat do you want to eat? I hope you remember what you've remember with that question AHAHAHA. The call ended when you needed to cook that aroz la bla bla bla, I dont know what name was that. And yehey, you've send vm again, you singing yehey, yehey, im happy Lol. I wish I didn't said that I'm sleepy coz you're now forcing me to sleep Lol. The sentence that I said "Malapit na ako ma expire" was just a joke that you literaly believed, and you blocked me, I was happy and sad, sad because you don't believed me that I was saying the truth and happy because I can feel that you somehow care for me that my family can't give to me. I'll just sleep for now and hope that tomorrows gonna be fine, I love you.