#it’s 6:41am now goodnight

[aropride]

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 05:14am • 1 minute ago

Dude itsfuckig 5am ihave to go to bef goodnight #maybe inthe mornig i wontwant to kill myy self #text

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 04:41am • 34 minutes ago

aaaaouuuhgh. blorbo . from my shows #text

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 04:12am • 1 hour ago

#mewhen my actions have consequences .. crazy shit #text

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 03:51am • 1 hour ago

oh god it will never get better huh it will really never get better i will feel like thisf orever asnd ever #one of those nights #text

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 02:47am • 2 hours ago

i loveeeee fanfic like yes.pput those guys in a situation #put those GIRLS in a situation hashtag feminism #text

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aropride Feb 30 2023 - 12:03am • 4 hours ago

how to fill the mother shaped hole in my heart easy cheap free #Please #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 11:57pm • 4 hours ago

i fucking hate writing #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 11:29pm • 4 hours ago

Itsliterally like #text #in ptsdworld .crazy in here

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 11:13pm • 5 hours ago

go here https://open.spotify.com/track/5HLVrG3xcuAQVwB65hI1GU?si=691b96a8b10345cc #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 6:29pm • 10 hours ago

like i should honestly drop out i really dont know what im doing in college anymore when i cant evenfucking do any of the work and it makes me want to throw my self out a WINDOW for real but also i cant cuz i cant work a fucking job id genuinely rather die . so its likewhat do i do now lol. WAIT I CANT EVEN DROP OUT IM ON SUSPENSION. im going to fucking kill my self #text #suicide tw

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 4:17pm • 12 hours ago

the world is so fucking beautoiful. saw a tree today. a bird as well. do not EVER fucking kill your self what if one day its 69º and sunny out #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 3:42pm • 12 hours ago

just had such a good sandwich #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 2:31pm • 13 hours ago

im so fucking scared #text #get me out of here (my brain)

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 12:19pm • 15 hours ago

to do list: finish writing , sew , pet dog, shower, schedule psych appt, take meds #text

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aropride Feb 29 2023 - 11:37am • 15 hours ago

goodmornig -_- #i want 2 go back2 bed imstill eepy #text

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[luthien-under-bough]

signature - Daemon Targaryen x Rhaenyra Targaryen

Not Rated, 1225 words, Text fic, Prompt Fic, Modern AU

Summary:

Daemon gets drunk on a boys' night out - and decides to demonstrate his love for Rhaenyra in a rather permanent way.

Written for the HotD Summer Snippets & Stories prompt event.

Prompt word: signature

Italics is Daemon Bold is Rhaenyra

friday, 3:45pm

do i have to go yes rather stay home with you im not staying home im going out with laena ;) you know what i mean brat oh stop, you’ll have fun plus laenor and the boys need an old man to show them how it’s done im having 3 drinks max then im coming home whatever you say, love and dont think ill forget that 'old' comment youll pay for that later oh im counting on it :) now get back to work!

friday, 6:00pm

how do i look? [ATTACHMENT: (1) IMAGE] oh fuck you are you SURE i cant convince you stay home?? 0:) have fun old man xx

friday, 7:14pm

im the only one here why is no one ever on time being early is very uncool im not early! im punctual! if youre on time youre early need to be at least 15 min late im rolling my eyes so hard right now oh heres laenor and harwin finally laenor is already pissed LOL laena says hi [ATTACHMENT: (1) IMAGE] tell laena she needs to teach her brother how to hold his liquor

friday, 8:10pm

this pub smells like piss and regret im too old for this shit loosen up baby take a couple shots cant even remember the last time i did a shot all the more reason to do one! youre a bad influence i learned from my uncle ;) your uncle sounds hot oh he is he does shots, too does he? mmhm cmon, ill send a pic of my tits if you do

friday, 8:16pm

[ATTACHMENT: (1) IMAGE] atta boy believe im owed a tit two, even patience!

friday, 8:21pm

[ATTACHMENT: (3) IMAGES] fuck now im hard prove it

friday, 8:25pm

[ATTACHMENT: (2) IMAGES] mm maybe i shouldve stayed home still time ditch laena say the word ill leave right now think i like the idea of u having a wank in a pub bathroom instead fucking tease yeah. what are you gonna do abt it? :) adding to the list of things to punish you for fair i deserve a firm spanking ;) youll get more than that

friday, 9:11pm

well?? did u cum? in the bloody bathroom stall? im not an animal rhaenyra tsk tsk wheres ur sense of adventure come here and ill show you wouldnt dream of crashing boys night what if i beg i do like when u beg so is that a yes...? have another drink ;) youll regret saying that when youre holding my hair back later

friday, 9:57pm

kept doing shots terrible idea think im drunk now thats the spirit! harwin wants to go to a strip club have a lapdance i like when u come home all riled up ;) dont need a lapdance for that can just look at that pic of your tits again flatterer its true. best tits in all of westeros what abt essos? dont be greedy :'(ok ok best tits in all of essos too. and sothoryos and ulthos while were at it thats more like it :)

friday, 10:46pm

see8ng naked women ujst mkes me miss you :(( aww <3 how drunk are you?? lmao im serous tour so beuatiful i miss you[MISSED CALL: ♡Daemon♡]

friday, 10:48pm

sry love too loud here were at karaoke im up next gonna sing You're So Vain is rhat about me i bet you think so ;)

friday, 11:53pm

awful quiet over there u still alive? YES yes sintbe a brat Have s durprise for you layer oh gods laena just dropped me off heading to bed xx naked??? of course probe it

saturday, 12:02am

[ATTACHMENT: (3) IMAGES] i lvoe toy youre so fuscking hot sexiedt woman on esrth goodnight&lt;3

saturday, 1:40am

[MISSED CALL: ♡Daemon♡]

saturday, 1:41am

[MISSED CALL: ♡Daemon♡]

saturday, 1:42am

[MISSED CALL: ♡Daemon♡]

saturday, 1:45am

[ATTACHMENT: (2) IMAGES] WHAT IS THAT DAEMON! OMG ??? i love you baby xxxx i love you somuh much oh my god hahahaah you are going to be SO MAD at yourself tomorrow

saturday, 12:04pm

"About time you woke up. Thought you were dead." Daemon squints, the light sending a blinding pulse of pain directly between his eyes. He can barely lift his head, but he can see just enough to know he somehow made it into his own bed. His head is swimming, his mouth tastes like an ashtray, and he can tell by the way the sheets rub against him that he's completely naked. Beside him, slightly blurred, is Rhaenyra, wearing an undeniably smug grin. "How did I—" "Harwin poured you out of a cab around three a.m."  Harwin. Right. Boys' night with Harwin and Laenor. "Fucking hells, I drank way too much," Daemon groans, shoving his face back into the pillows. "That's not all you did," Rhaenyra says cryptically. Daemon lifts his head, craning his neck to get another look at Rhaenyra. She's smiling broadly, pointing a finger vaguely in the direction of his back. That's when he's hit with a stinging surge of pain in his lower back. Oh shit. Oh fuck.  "Don't worry, love. I took a photo. The ones you sent me were rather blurry."  Rhaenyra holds up her phone, right in front of his face. He blinks a few times, praying that each one might resest his brain and reveal that he's just imagining it—but the tingling sensation tells him it's very much real. A tattoo, right about his ass, in large, curling script: Rhaenyra "Oh my god." "That's what I said," Rhaenyra says. Daemon groans. Pieces of the night return to him in flashes: doing that first shot, then another, then another. Several anothers later and they were at a strip club. Somewhere around their third bottle of Veuve Clicquot, Daemon became convinced that he simply must get a tattoo in honor of Rhaenyra. And Laenor and Harwin apparently did nothing to talk him out of it. "What I'd like to know," Rhaenyra says, unable to keep the giddiness from her voice. "Is where you got my signature from? It's a perfect likeness."  That memory returns to him, too. A fragmented image of him waving a dinner receipt around like a lunatic. He sighs loudly. "I had a receipt in my wallet. From when we went to that Dornish restaurant. You paid." Rhaenyra laughs wickedly. "Oh, I can only imagine what it would have looked like had you not had a reference on hand."  "I'm going to kill Harwin," Daemon mutters. Rhaenyra sinks down beside him, stroking him lightly along his spine, careful not to disturb his fresh ink.  "Oh, come now. I rather like it." Daemon turns his head to the side to narrow his gaze at her. "You do not." "I do!" she insists, her eyes sparkling. "It's sweet. You love me so much you're willing to permanently disfigure yourself. Quite romantic, honestly."  Daemon can't help but laugh. "Suppose I'll keep it, then." "Yes, you have to. How else will the whole world know that you're mine?" Daemon reaches out to cup Rhaenyra's face. His beautiful wife. He strokes her cheek, and her smile outshines any other thought or feeling rattling around in his head. "In that case, it's only fair..." he trails off, raising an eyebrow. "What?" "You'll just have to get one to match." 

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[tloaftyob]

12-20-2022

Well, it’s winter break. I got A’s in all 6 of my classes. What a difficult semester that was. So many projects. Being without Ellie for a lot of it was the worst part about it by far. It really sucks having her live an hour and fifteen minutes away from me. The last 3 years were spent with her a 2 minute walk away, but now she is so far and not on campus often. Only for classes. One semester remains, then we will live together permanently.

I am SO glad that this semester is over. I am done with my computer science degree. All that remains is my applied mathematics. Next semester is all math classes. I don’t think it will be nearly as hard as this past semester, so that is good.

Ellie and I made cookies, some kinds we have never heard of before. They’re good. After my last final I drove up to her and have been living with her since. It is currently 1:41AM. She is asleep as I type this. I have a meeting tomorrow with the company I interned at to discuss my future employment. I am hoping for at least 70K, but am going to ask 80K. I think that I deserve it. I don’t want to brag or anything, but I am really good at what I do. For my field, 80K isn’t much, but the company isn’t huge, so I don’t know.

2022 is coming to an end, time is going so fast. My teeth are moving slowly. I need to do something about that. I am going to the dentist in less than a month, so I guess I’ll ask about it. They recommended Invisalign last time, but I didn’t do anything about it.

I beat Factorio, 102 hours in the world. It is a big mess. I went HARD with the logistics and am running into some major bottlenecks. Now I am trying to balance trains with logistics with belts.

Ellie and I started watching Better Call Saul and it is pretty good. We are on season 2 now.

Man, I want money so I don’t have to worry about money. Still searching for the optimal way to get it. I don’t really feel like typing much more, so GOODNIGHT TUMBLR!

[illwaitforyoumylove]

Day 24

August 25, 2020

5:41am palang. Milo, dii nanaman maganda panaginip nya. 😟 Ayaw mo na daw sa kanya. Umalis ka tas iniwan mo lang sya sa school tapos di mo sya masyado pinapansin nung magkasama pa tayo tapos lungkot lungkot ko tuloy. Tapos gusto daw kita itext kung love mo pa ba ko 😭😭😭

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Gusto ko sana maglambing kaya lang baka di mo gusto eh. Dami ko na nga gustong ireply na mga hirit. Baka naman biglang di mo nako replyan... 😓

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Love, ingat po kayo. Ingat ka sa pagddrive. I love you po!

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Milo, naalala mo nung one time, company outing nun. Nung araw na dapat gigive-up mo nako kasi parang tinetake for granted kita? Parang ganto din yun diba? Pero nagkabaliktad lang tayo ng pwesto. Milo, aabot din ba ko sa ganung moment? Tataningan ko din ba? Kanina kasi naisip ko try ulit yayain ka ulit next week. Malabo man pero try padin. September na din naman. Malapit na mag monthsary yung huling beses mo kong tinawag na "Milo". Sabi ko din kasi gusto kong hintayin yung point na makita ka ulit at makasama bago ko ifinalize yung guts ko. Tsaka diba iniignore ko nga yung mga guts na yun tas naghohold on nga lang ako sa tiwala ko sayo. Basta napost ko na yun nung nakaraan dito sa tumblr. Kaya nakakatakot man, gusto narin talaga kita makita para makausap din. Baka kailangan na eh. 😔 Ayawko naman na din baka napipilitan ka nalang sakin o baka naaawa. Gusto ko lang malaman kung ano yung totoo kahit ano pa yan, Milo.

Sorry, weird lang today kasi kausap naman kita maghapon pero I feel anxious at kinakabahan. Di ko alam bakit. Tsaka mas hirap ako huminga today o baka dahil malapit na talaga ako magkaron. Haay.

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Haaay, berirong. Dapat pinilit na kita makapagpacheck up at makakuha recommendation for swab. Para naman lumaki na yung chance kong makasama ka na ulit. Gggrrrr.... mali mali mali.

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Nag"pth" ka nanaman.

It breaks me and my heart everytime.

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Milo, 10:20pm na. Tulog kana. Tulog na tayo po. Kinakain nanaman ako ng emosyon ko eh. Tapos kinakabahan ako sobra. Sumasakit dibdib ko. Gusto ko nga umiyak ng malakas eh, para gumaan gaan pakiramdam ko kaya lang diko naman magagawa. Tulog kana. Baka may maitanong pako sayo ng wala sa oras. Di ako dapat magtanong. Di pa. Tulog kana ah. Wag mo na ko pansinin. Goodnight. I love you.

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MILO PLSSSS HUHUHU WAG KA NA LANG GUMAMIT NG "PTH" NASASAKTAN PO TALAGA AKO. MAGBBREAKDOWN NA SYA ISANG SABI MO PA TODAY. SA IBANG ARAW NALANG UNG IBA PLS.. 😭😭😭

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Inhale... Exhale... Milo, sobrang sakit ng puso ko. 😔

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6 weeks pa.. haay Milo. Ung isang araw sakin pakiramdam ko 1 bwan na. Pero willing to wait. Kakayanin ko pa Milo. 😪😪😪 sana kayanin ko pa talaga. 😔😔😔

For now, tutulog nanaman akong nahikbi at di mapigilan ang papatak ng luha. I love you, Milo. Maghintay po ako.

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Milo, gusto kita sabihan ngayon ng I love you. Okay lang ba? Sabihin ko aah. Wag ka maiinis o ma-awkward-an.

.....so yun. Diko talaga masend. Baka kasi ayaw mo eh. Magtry nako magsleep. Almost 1am na din.

Milo, i love you.