#it’s 3am i need to Chill The Fuck Out but I Can’t
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please don’t leave me please don’t leave me please don’t leave me please don’t leave me
#brain machine broke#laying in bed crying over something incredibly stupid bc i saw a post earlier that has NOTHING TO DO WITH ME but triggered one of my#Big Fears about something and then i feel like i’ve slowly been losing so many of my friends who meant so much to me for so long and i dont#want them to go because i don’t know what i’m going to do without them and i just feel so pathetic#it’s 3am i need to Chill The Fuck Out but I Can’t#i’ve been so miserable lately when i’m not absolutely consumed by something that takes up all my attention or actively interacting with#my friends and anytime i’m not talking to my friends i just feel such an undercurrent of fucking misery#i’m so scared of being left behind. please don’t leave me behind. i’m sorry i can’t keep up i’m trying my best#please don’t leave me alone i don’t want to be alone anymore#i also got into a fight with my mom and i’m still so mad at her but i’m also hitting the point where i feel guilty for being mad at her but#i don’t want to feel guilty because she was the one in the wrong and i’m *still mad*#i wish i wasn’t so desperate for people to give me attention i wish that i didn’t want it so bad#sometimes i wish i had stayed isolated because at least then i wouldn’t be dealing With This#but if i had i’d still feel like i’m staring at the backs of my friends and watching them walk away from me without me knowing them anymore#without them looking back#one of my friends said they had a partner and i didn’t even *know* and i didn’t *say anything* but i’m fucking *devastated* i didn’t know#why didn’t they tell me??? why didn’t i know???? i feel so left behind please don’t leave me#please don’t leave me please don’t leave me please don’t leave me#i’m so sad and so lonely and so miserable and i wish i wasn’t and i wish i could tell someone but i just feel like a *fucking burden* and#aaaggghhhhh#*screams*#going to try to sleep now i guess because i have class tomorrow and it’s 3am but i might just keep crying idk.#idk idk idk idk idk#mourning mourning mourning#i’m sorry. i’m sorry
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Zoya, Rahu and Angell (separated) with a chief!reader (fem) that is surprisingly physically stronger then them
Thank you for reading :)
જ⁀➴ AA THIS IS ASK IS SOMETHING IVE BEEN WANTING TO DO, I feel like their reactions would be so funny. Enjoy Nonnieeee!
જ⁀➴ Warnings ! .. None
Her jaw is dropped she is torn… Listen, she loves you regardless; but what the fuck. How?? What?? HUH??
I feel like this woke another beast inside her and asks you many questions on how this is possible, have you been training? How? What did you take?
Her ass is training extra hard now, 100 pushups at 3am now became 200 pushups at 1:00am. She is keeping a close eye on you because she cannot figure out how the heck you are stronger than her.
On another part though, she finds it pretty admiring and amusing. Finally someone she can challenge, however she won’t get ‘physical ‘with you if you don’t want to; like wrestling and fighting to see if she manages to win you this time.
Doesn’t worry as much about you possibly facing some enemies— that is if you know how to fight. She knows your strength and can take care of yourself more easily; but even then she makes sure there is someone with you if she can’t.
Overall nothing that impacts your relationship, it’s something that takes her by surprise but grows used to it, the members of the Legion admire you as well! Horo is a fan of yours— BUT ZOYA WILL FOREVER BE HER NUMBER ONE.
Oh… oh ok.
She was surprised at first but never really asked much about it; it was just like woah! That wasn’t expected. Now she doesn’t have to worry too much for when a stranger comes and tries to attack you while she’s on her way back home after completing her tasks, she knows you have the strength to fight them off for a bit.
Sometimes she randomly wonders if you are capable of accidentally breaking something due to your strength.
You are literally the reason why no one except her comes anymore ദ്ദി(ㅠᯅㅠ) People on the dark web heard someone say something about some ‘deadly strong housewife’ that Angell has… It was something.
I really like the idea of the strong woman that in reality is just a sweetheart waiting for her wife to come back from work and pamper her with kisses and ask about their day; it’s funny lmao.
SHE DOES NOT CARE SHE IS STILL GOING TO PROTECT YOU.
Taken back, she even asks how that is possible but doesn’t push it any further if it’s something you wish to keep private.
Honestly.. I feel like she probably would be into it. Protecting you knowing you can probably handle things yourself if someone ever attacks you.
This also feeds into erm.. some kinks perhaps .
If she ever needs help breaking something you are literally the first person she asks. On other occasions— very rare ones, she will ask you if you can open the lid off of a jar if she can’t. She’ll be very flustered about it.
Pretty chill about it at the end, it’s still very impressive! However eventually she will get used to it.
#path to nowhere#ptn#ptn x reader#path to nowhere x reader#ptn zoya#path to nowhere zoya#zoya path to nowhere#zoya ptn#zoya x reader#ptn rahu x reader#rahu path to nowhere#ptn rahu#rahu ptn#path to nowhere rahu#rahu#rahu x reader#angell path to nowhere x reader#ptn angell x reader#angell#angell ptn x reader#angell ptn#angell path to nowhere#ptn angell#angell x reader#path to nowhere angell
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Okay, but here me out … modern!Aegon x reader Casual coded
I know that our Queen Miss Roan did not write this song about a man and the fandom has dubbed it one of the Rhaneyra x Alicent songs. However, as a bi I can attest that this song can apply no matter the team you bat for. It especially applies when the situationship is with someone who’s emotional attachment skills fluctuate whenever the wind blows. So Aegon.
Modern!Aegon, maybe you met in college through overlapping friend groups. He likes to party, your friends like to party. This continues past graduation.
My friends call me a loser/ 'Cause I'm still hanging around
Whether you’re still in uni or not, your friends think it’s time for you to mature and move forward from this cycle you have with Aegon. He’s not good for your health.
I've heard so many rumors/ That I'm just a girl that you bang on your couch
Your friends fill you in on what’s being said about you as a part of their reasoning.
“See how he talks about you. And you stay?”
I thought you thought of me better/ Someone you couldn't lose/ You said, "We're not together"/ So now when we kiss, I have anger issues
You confront him about what he’s been saying to his mates, but that silver tongue of his can smooth anything over. When you’re alone, he’s so sweet and you’re putty in his hands.
You said, "Baby, no attachment"/ But we're/ Knee deep in the passenger seat, and you're eating me out
Aegon’s got big Peter Pan energy. He bolts at any form of responsibility and that includes the responsibility of maintaining a relationship. He doesn’t want to grow up, his partying years to end, and to take on the role his parents have carved out for him. He’s afraid that if he commits to you it’s a sign he’s ready to commit to his future.
Is it causal now
He likes you. He wants you. Maybe as close to love as he can get. But he’s Aegon, so he keeps you at arm’s length despite demanding the intimacy.
Two weeks, and your mom invites me to her house on Long Beach
However, you’ve been around long enough that his parents do know you. They’ve seen your face enough. When he has an event that needs a date he always brings you.
I know what you tell your friends/ It's casual
It’s what he tells them when they’re high at 3am and the question comes up again. He can’t bring himself to say it’s anything more.
Then, baby, get me off again/ If it's casual, it's casual now
You always fall back into his bed. He’s addicting. You love the rush and thrill being with him gives you. You crave it despite the burn you receive every time you crash out.
Dumb love, I love being stupid/ Dream of us in a year/ Maybe we'd have an apartment/ And you'd show me off to your friends at the pier
Despite your better judgment, you still go to that delulu headspace. It’s the post orgasm high and he’s being so sweet and gentle. Maybe he’s finally changing.
I know, "Baby, no attachment"
And then his words are bringing you crashing down into the reality of it all.
Knee deep in the passenger seat, and you're eating me out/ Is it casual now?
And yet he gives you these intimate moments. They almost feel sacrosanct. And you’re thrown in the whirlwind of emotions again only to be smacked down.
It's hard being casual/ When my favorite bra lives in your dresser
You’re with him so goddamn often that his neighbors think you share the apartment.
And it's hard being casual/ When I'm on the phone talking down your sister
You’ve been at this for so long. You know him. You know Helena. She treats you as if you’re some pillar, some constant, someone who’s always been in the family.
And I try to be the chill girl/ That holds her tongue and gives you space/ I try to be the chill girl
You try so fucking hard to please him. You’re trying so goddamn hard to suppress all your desires that will scare him off. It’s like he’s given you a 4x4 dimension of space to take up in his life, but you’re a 5x5. You’re tipping over and bleeding out.
But honestly, I'm not
For some unknown reason on some random day, the scale finally tips to far. Like a spring that’s been coiled and tightened as far as it can go, you bounce back with force.
I fucked you in the bathroom when we went to dinner/ Your parents at the table, you wonder why I'm bitter
Maybe that was the moment. You’re thinking he’s finally taking this seriously if you’re having a one on one dinner with his family for no special occasion. His parents compliment his growth. You’re more than willing to comply when he drags you off to the bathroom. You think you’re both caught up in the evening. When return is when you realize it was all to antagonize his parents. You go home alone.
Bragging to your friends, I get off when you hit it/ I hate to tell the truth, but I'm sorry, dude, you didn't
You confront him the next time you see him. For the first time you actually catch him talking with his friends about you. He’s gotten bold to do it with you around. You nearly blackout while burning with rage. You’re spewing every hurtful thing you’ve ever thought while he’s dragging you into a private space.
“What the hell was that?”
I hate that I let this drag on so long, now I hate myself/ Hate that I let this drag on so long, you can go to hell
The invisible string that’s connected the two of you, he’s stretched so far that it’s finally snapped. You’re furious but you’re finally free. And you leave him. Not like any other time before, where you were meek and teary eyed. There’s no “I love you, but…” No, you’re red faced, voice hoarse, no decorum letting him have it. Everything.
You leave him a stuttering mess. Nothing left to say. Nothing to go back to. You’re broken but you’re free.
And his pain is just beginning.
#aegon ii fanfic#aegon targaryen x reader#aegon x reader#aegon the second#king aegon#aegon ii x reader#aegon ii targaryen#hotd aegon#modern aegon#house of the dragon#hotd fanfic#hotd#aegon targaryen x you#aegon smut
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Hi !!! Idk if you've done this already but can you do my angel boy Gaz and Ghost with a girl who love scary movies ??? I feel like they'd totally have the mentality of "I gotta comfort her when she's scared" but Gaz specifically flinches and I think Si would like "brace" if that makes sense like wincing his eyes. I dunno if you've done something like that but your emo story reminded me of me and it made me so happy I'm a metalhead and I was gonna ask for more but it was already in there and that just mad emy day ilysm already okay bye -🫀
Simon n Gaz watching a horror movie with s/o
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Again so sorry (I’m sorry for saying sorry sm) but like Omg I love this cuz I love horror smmmm!!! Insidious,suspiria,Bwp, conjuring you name it I love them omgggg.
So thank you so much for the awesome ask and I hope you enjoy it 🩷🩷🩷
Also I used the movies sinister and lights out for the references :))
SIMON-
♰ he thought watching the movie sinister will be fun cuz he thought he could protect you from the jumpscares
♰ he needs to be protected from the damn movie tho (okay this movie is fucked up tho and it’s totally normal to be scared)
♰in the beginning he thought it will be some poorly made movie with shit ass jumpscares but boy was he wrong
♰ when the scene of the family hanging themselves comes on he was taken aback and he lets out an audible wince shutting his eyes
♰ he genuinely finds the movie scary and gory, cannot help but find himself wince and shut his eyes whenever he thinks there will be a jumpscare
♰ as the movie progressed and the other tapes were revealed he just couldn’t take it anymore, his limit broke off when the mowing scene came
♰ but you seemed to be enjoying the movie, anticipating what the next scene will reveal
♰ he shut the tv before he could see further, it was too much for him
♰ “fuckin hell love this movie is a fuckin nightmare” he groans
♰ “noo It’s a well made film :( plus I enjoy a good scare ya know”
♰ god how could you be so chill with it, he can’t tell if he should admire you or keep his distance
♰dw he admires you :)
♰ keeps on ranting about how he’d never do such a stupid fucking thing
♰ says Ellison was a stupid fuckin idiot for getting his family there and curses him for the rest of the day
♰ asks you your opinion on the movie and who you think is recording the tapes
♰ ends up going on the net to see how the movie ends cuz he can’t let it go
♰when he finds out the ending he has an ‘aha’ moment.
♰ tries watching the movie again but ends up stopping in the beginning itself cuz he can’t handle it.
♰ probably doesn’t want kids after this movie
GAZ-
♰ Awh this poor guy just wanted to watch a scary movie with you to hold you when you’re scared but it kinda ends up being the opposite
♰ you both decide on watching lights out (I wanted to pick hereditary or mother but too much cuz I’m writing this at 3am)
♰ see lights out is a Pretty chill film but Diana is creepy as hell and sadly gaz became a victim to Diana’s jumpscares
♰ when she killed the dad gaz visibly flinched like on the edge of the sofa hoping the dad would survive
♰ but boom the bitch killed him :/
♰ felt really bad for the brother (Martin)
♰sympathised with him a lot by saying he’s a good kid and that he’s really strong.
♰ surprised on how you’re not getting scared or anything
♰ thinks that you have watched this film before
♰ gaz got shit scared during the scene where Rebecca and her boyfriend came and Diana creeped around them
♰ the end made him tear up just a lil :(
♰ you ended up comforting him holding him close cuz he felt bad about their mom
♰ thinks it’s adorable how you give lil facts about the movie from time to time though.
♰ cursed Diana for the rest of the day,
♰ if you take any medications, don’t worry you’ll never miss them now cuz gaz will make sure you eat yours on time
♰ keeps the bathroom and living room lights on that night
♰ will search for movies like lights out
♰ will never watch them though
♰ is proud that he got closer to you tho
♰ will definitely hold you the entirety of the movie
♰ will never have a horror movie date again tho
♰ but will watch a horror movie with you if you ask him cuz how can he say no to you :))
#cod mw2#ghost mw2#simon riley#simon x reader#tf141#ghost simon riley#simon riley x reader#call of duty simon#simon fluff#simon ghost riley#ghost#simon ghost x reader#kyle gaz x reader#kyle gaz garrick#kyle x reader#gaz mw2#kyle garrick#cod mwii#cod#tf 141 x reader#tf 141#cod simon#cod gaz#domestic cod#cod simon riley#ghost cod#cod simon ghost riley#ghost x reader#simon riley call of duty#gaz garrick x reader
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Reaching
word count: 920
warnings: mentions of alcohol, sex, and kind of self-destructive vibes I guess?
Similar to and taken some inspiration from @snailmail444's fic, "Elliot Situationship"; but I promise while are inevitably structural similarities, the content is, hmm, unfortunately organically homegrown. Hope you don't mind the mention--it's a fic that stuck with me and I just felt it fair to acknowledge the similarities! 💕
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Elliott needed a muse; you needed a release. Neither of you were ready for commitment, but neither of you were ready to be alone.
So together, per the agreement, you do everything except love.
He reads you his manuscript. You tell him the town gossip. You dance, you drink, you dance some more, you drink a little more. You discuss philosophy, politics, religion, family, and all the things neither of your last partners knew very much about. You smell salt in his hair, the cherry wine on his breath, and taste the cherries when he kisses you.
It’s well past 3am—and not for the first time nor for the last—when he asks you if you’ve ever…? And the answer is complicated—it always is. When he listens, you’re certain you see it—in his intention, disbelief, sadness, care. When he holds you in his arms, it’s secure.
Then you make love. Or, you would, but it can’t be that, so you… what was the word he used, ever the wordsmith?
“Fuck.”
He tries to say it smoothly, but it trips out of his mouth like an accident. Elliott doesn’t curse. He could euphemize, allegorize, wax poetic… but whenever it comes to this, he curses instead.
He is gentle, tender, slow as he lights sparks down your body.
The first several times, everything feels right in the world. Riding the high of release and connection, you hardly notice it’s not the same. Then its absence begins to grow heavier on you, time after time, until you finally recognize—it hurts.
You spend your days raking yourself over different scenarios: we have to stop doing this, or I can’t keep doing this, or this is no longer beneficial for me, or you’ve begun to mean too much to me, and always, I’m sorry.
You spend your nights chasing, reaching for what you know you cannot have, and telling, lying to yourself that the act of reaching is enough. Because you can’t, but you do. You do, you do, you do.
If you think you are in love, and you feel like you are in love, then how far of a reach is it to say you simply are?
Pain’s like that, too.
“Harder,” you tell him the next time he’s between your legs.
He kisses you just below your ear, whispering as he does not falter in his steady pace, “Patience, patience…”
“Harder.”
Now he pauses. He looks at you, his beautiful auburn hair tossed in a way he never lets anyone else see, and you look at him. His voice is soft but firm.
“I don’t want to hurt you…”
--but there’s a lift at the end, you heard it. He’s weak for you. “You won’t,” you lie, sinking your teeth into his weakness. “Please.”
You blink and hope the lowlight hides what had welled in the corners of your eyes when he’d stretched you to tears only moments ago.
His eyes hold yours in the winded silence between you. He opens his mouth to say something, then looks away, lips pressed into a thin line.
This is what we signed up for, isn’t it? If you don’t love me, then fuck me like it.
“Do it,” you press.
And not without hesitation or passion, he does.
It hurts, but at least it’s an honest hurt.
Afterwards, you lay your head on his chest and listen to his heart gradually find its steady rhythm again. His arm is wrapped around you. He pauses before he kisses your hair, where his lips do linger.
When it is time to leave, because someone must always leave, his fingertips trail against your skin. For a split second, you imagine they twitch, reaching, as if to grab you and bid you stay. But you stand up and only feel the chill of empty air on your skin.
It’s not the first time you’ve done this together, too, so there’s a ritual around leaving. You go through it with mechanical precision. He thanks you for coming by, says he enjoyed your company. You say the same, and together, at an arm’s length, you do both mean it.
“Good night, Elliott,” you bid him as you reach for the door.
“Good night, love,” he says back to you without flinching.
Why would you say that? you want to scream, Why would you say that?
And so, instead of screaming, you don’t say anything at all. You open the door and step outside and away from the cabin, and maybe the door closes behind you, maybe not, it doesn’t matter. Your eyes transfix on the sea as the roaring of the waves crashing against the shore drowns out everything else. They swell, they break, they reach and reach and reach, and then they’re dragged back, cast back into the devouring void. To be re-congealed, reformed into swells destined to break again and get dragged back again—
and reach. And reach. And reach.
It’s high tide, and the sand an arm’s length away is solid and cold from a wave for now receded. Another wave swells, breaks, reaches, and is dragged back, leaving barely a trace to show so that each wave looks fresh and new, and not an infinite plus one.
You are not so lucky. Though your tracks in the sand quickly erode in the breeze, you will hold the memory from each and every time you find yourself here again.
How many more times will it be?
You begin to count the waves.
#sdv#sdv elliott#stardew valley#sdv fanfiction#sdv fanfic#stardew elliott#sdv elliott x farmer#sdv elliott x reader#situationships#organically homegrown angst babey!!!! thanks as always for being a conduit Elliott#unabashedly posting
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Genshin Characters During Finals Season (College AU)
Characters: Zhongli, Thoma, Venti, Xiao, Albedo, Bennett, Childe, Kaeya
Type/Genre: Bulleted headcanons, comedy
Warnings: Foul language, slightly suggestive humour/for comedic purposes
Zhongli
Calm and collected at first
As the days go by, Zhongli would start looking more and more like a tired dad
Walks around slightly frowning, bags under his eyes from all nighters, and clutching a mug of coffee so hard that people are afraid it’s gonna break, but even more afraid to tell him to be careful
Has heat compresses on the back of his neck and forehead to ease the headaches from the lack of sleep
Probably told Childe to shut the fuck up and mind your own business when he warned him about his cup
“Childe, if I do not kill this final I will kill you in its stead. Leave me be.”
Thoma
Probably part of one of those student care organizations that makes care packages for other students
His smile when he hands out the packages is so bright and healing it could bring back the dead
Always motivating his peers and tries to keep everyone’s spirits up
Offers to get everyone in the study group coffee
He’s not the best at school but he has a lot of friends that are willing to tutor him and do his assignments help him with his work
Likes to snack while he’s studying
“No giving up yet! Let’s take a snack break, you’ll think better with something in your belly.”
Venti
Chills at a coffee shop with a big friend group to “study”
They do jack shit
Probably spends more time staring at the drink menu than his exam notes
Grade A procrastinator, does all his homework the night before it’s due and studies for exams the morning of
Due tomorrow do tomorrow amiright
Always seems to do okay tho?? People wanna scold him for his bad study habits but he actually does okay in school so they can’t really say anything
Doesn’t study hard but parties 100x harder
“Come on, live a little! If your exam is at 2pm, you can just start studying at 9 tomorrow morning and you’ll be fine.”
Xiao
Pulls all nighter after all nighter after all nighter after all nighter after-
No one can ever find him during the day on campus or in his dorm—it’s like he despawned and just does not exist
Only time he is spotted by others is always at 3am in the morning like a cryptid and he looks like a zombie
He’s actually working a part time job along with going to classes and helping others with their work. An angry looking good boy.
Studies in the lecture halls by himself, blasting music as loud as he can on his headphones to keep himself awake
Mf going to go deaf is2g lower ur volume boi
“…hey. I’m getting a coffee, do you want one?”
Albedo
Plans his time meticulously. Has an extremely organized planner where he writes out exactly what he’s going to do at every hour of the day so he can maximize his week
Includes mealtimes, breaks, and poop times relaxation periods
Usually studies in his room, but for some reason people keep barging in on him to ask for study help so he has to find different hiding places to work in peace
So far, the best place has been the graduate students lounge. No he does not belong there, but no one questions him because it looks like he does
“If you really need my help, I have twenty seven and a half minutes between lunch and my bathroom break this Thursday. Come find me then.”
(Rejected quote: “What’s my masters in? No no, the only thing I’m a master of is your mom.”)
Bennett
The type of person to have the “please don’t talk to me I have work to do and if you talk to me I won’t stop” sign on his back while working in the library
Fell asleep while completing an assignment
Missed the midnight deadline for said assignment
Slept through the exam the next morning
At this point just let him sleep at least he won’t have to deal with it then
“That was a good nap…now I got the energy for my assignment and the exam!”
Childe
Would be a good student if he wasn’t bothering other people so often
Probably bakes when he’s stressed. His roommates are always awoken at 4 in the morning to the sound of the oven beeping and the heavenly smell of freshly baked cookies
Has a friendly rivalry with Zhongli. He always asks when Zhongli will be turning in an assignment, and what mark he’s aiming for for the final exam
Turns in the final paper at least a week before it’s due and aims for ten percent higher than Zhongli on the exam
If he needs bonus marks to reach that then so be it
Otherwise slacks off a bit
He’d be a really good student if he wasn’t so competitive with Zhongli all the time
“You good, Zhongles? You trying to squeeze a better grade out of that mug?”
Kaeya
This man probably used red bull as the liquid for his instant coffee
An absolute menace and loves messing with people
Tells them that the exam is on a whole other different thing than what they were studying for, or that the due date of a big assignment was changed
Nobody goes to him for help
If you do genuinely need help with a concept, though, he’s more than willing to help
Just make sure to provide adequate compensation for him ;)
By compensation I mean more red bull this man has drank 3 cans in ten minutes please stop him
“What? If they do shit, that only helps with our bellcurve, right? Their fault for trusting me anyways~”
#I was just being silly w albedos lol#genshin impact#genshin scenarios#genshin imagines#genshin headcanons#Zhongli#Thoma#Childe#Kaeya#Bennett#albedo#venti#Xiao#fluff#funny#my writing
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A very dear friend of mine has cancer. I don’t want to make you any more anxious or scared, I just want to send a story so you know you’re not alone.
In short, his answer (I suppose) in keeping some grain of sanity is letting go of every goal you’ve had and every insecurity you’ve had for those goals.
For example, he’s always wanted to try a long zip line but was waiting for the right weather. When he processed the words from hospital staff, he came to my house, used my phone and booked a weekend away so he, myself and a few friends could all go zip lining. Only after he did that, he told me the news. We cried and cried and cried.
Of course it’s easier said than done just to stop worrying about it but his logic is that “I’m going to die some day, I’m not immortal, I’m booking these fucking things before I feel I’m sick. Work can fuck off.” That man is now 5 months off chemo treatment and has that same mindset.
I know it’s not a ‘size fits all’ situation, but I thought talking about Stephen might help. He’s going for some archery lessons next week.
[continued from additional messages]
Actually I want to talk about Stephen more.
When he told me he had cancer, we cried for hours and hours. We confessed things that won’t ever be whispered to another soul and kept promises well into the night.
Now we take turns in booking experiences for him in the friend and family circles. We’ve all got a spare mattress for us and a bed for Stephen incase he feels iffy in the house. He booked the zip line weekend, I booked a table in that county, someone else drove us to the seaside to eat fish and chips in the freezing cold car, another person bought us stand up comedy tickets. He’s booked himself and his partner in for archery lessons next week. I’ve secretly bought him, his partner and his parents tickets to see a west end show and a room for the week at some point in the very near future.
Anyway enough listing. Of course he still gets scared, he’s not immune. We all offer a line incase he needs to talk to us at 3am, the nurses are incredible to him, his workplace is advocating for him to get better sick pay. We all offer a shoulder to cry onto (which has been used many times) without smothering him in false hope and premature grief. He has been off chemo for 5 months but of course he’s scared that it will come back.
Stephen is genuinely incredible and if you ever feel scared about the results of your mammogram, there are lines to call and support groups.
Stephen is a very eccentric and marvellous man. He has tweed waistcoats and a green leather armchair and has a collection of pipes he doesn’t smoke anymore. He’s also very laid back and funny. He cooks incredible curries that will burn the mouth off you. He had a phase of making his own chocolate just to understand how it was made. He has a dog called Frank. Frank is a very old man and he’s got a matching dog cover for him with a hood on it.
He’s the type of man that is a great confidant and is incredibly funny. He plays the banjo and harmonica at the same time just to wind up the neighbours. He’s one of those people that are chilled out, easy to talk to and is just so incredibly silly.
I suspect he has a secret library with original manuscripts from the 12th century or something.
Can you tag everything I’ve said with #stephen ?
[End]
Thank you so much for your messages. His mentality is really the mentality I’m trying to have while I’m in limbo here waiting for results. I’m scared. I might die young. I might lose all my hair and weight and will to fight. I might never get to get married or have kids or own a house.
But that doesn’t matter, it can’t matter anymore because if I spend my time being worried sick, I won’t get to enjoy what time, whether it be months or decades, I have left.
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Chads homework Crisis
It’s about 7:30 on a Thursday. Sams just getting home from work to an empty apartment. Tara and Mindy have their film studies class tonight which goes until about 9:30. Sam isn’t too keen on a night class but it was the only film class with two vacancies. As Sam was getting out of her work clothes and into something more comfortable she’s startled by panicked knocking at the front door. “Sam, Sam, Sam. Oh please be home” she heard Chad say from the other side. Her heart dropped why would Chad be freaking out at their door. Her mind immediately goes to worst case scenarios involving Tara. She opens the door quick as if she’s now in a panic. “What. What happened. Is someone hurt?” She said wide eyed looking at Chad as he hurries inside. He turns to look back at her confused he says “what no. I need your help. I know I normally go to Tara or Mindy with this but they have class and you’re the only other person I trust.” He said sheepishly. Sam sensed his embarrassment. “Hey it’s okay what can I help with?” She asked calming down. “Well I have this paper due. And I pretty much have it done but well you’re the only one who’s available and actually knows I’m dyslexic so I was wondering if you could help me finish it.” He said with a dopey grin. Sam thought to herself for a moment. I mean ya she’s helped him before but it was with minor stuff. she would spell a word for him or read something to see if it makes sense. Shes never actually sat down with him to fix his papers. Tara and Mindy were always around to do so. I mean she only has a high school diploma what if she can’t help him enough to pass. An expression of worry crossed her face. “Hey if it’s too much of an ask I can just try it myself. Don’t worry about me” Chad said as he headed for the door. Sam grabbed his arm before he could even take a step. “Oh no we’re doing this. And we are gonna get you that A” she said as all her doubt turned to determination. “Fuck ya” he said. They both sat at the dining room table. Notes and paper covering every inch of the table. Lap top open with a million tabs and it’s already on a charger. 9:45 hits and Tara comes back from class. “Sam I’m home” she says as she walks through the door and stumbles upon Sam and Chad super focused on a lap top screen. “Um hello?” Tara says again as she didn’t get a response the first time. “Oh sorry hi. wait what time is it? I didn’t make dinner yet. How was class?” Sam said in a fluster looking around for her phone. “No worries I ate before class. What are you two doing?” Tara asked extremely confused. “Paper” Chad said as he finally broke concentration from the laptop. “Ahh I see I’ll let you get back to it then” Tara said as she walked to her room. Chad looked to Sam who was already back at it. “Maybe we should ask her for—“ Sam cut him off before he could finish “No we got this” Sam said as she gave Chad a look that sent chills through his spine. They spent hours checking sources and proper MLA formats. Reading the paper back and forth to each other to make sure it made sense. Around 3am though blood shot eyes and shaky hands Chad looked to Sam. “I think this might be the best paper ever written” he said. “It fucking better be.” Sam added before putting her head down on the table and passing out. Chad walked to the couch and crashed.
In the morning Tara walked back out into the living room to see Sam still alseep at the table and Chad sprawled out on the couch. Knowing both of there schedules she grabbed a pot lid and wooden spoon. She bangs them together “Wakey wakey we got places to go and people to see” both Sam and Chad jump to there feet “What the fuck Tara” said Chad as he try’s to rub the sleep from his eyes. Sam glares at Tara but doesn’t say anything as she technically wasn’t in the wrong. However as Sam realizes the time she looks to Chad. “Chad your paper. your class is at 10” she exclaimed. The clock read 9:45. Chad scrambles to check his phone which had died in the night. “Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” He said as he ran around the apartment collecting all his things. Sam helped as best she could. And before anyone could saying anything else he was gone. “Thanks for the wake up call. Even though…” Sam said gesturing to the pot and spoon still in Tara’s hand. “You’re welcome” Tara said with a shit eating grin.
About a week and a half pass. Mindy, Anika, Tara and Sam are at the apartment watching a movie. When Chad busts through the front door. “SAM, SAM, SAM!” He says trying to catch his breath. He looks as if he ran all the way there. “Whoa there big guy” Anika says as she goes to pause the movie. Sam gets up and walks towards Chad who is now on the floor digging through his back pack. As she gets closer he hold a paper in his hands as if he was presenting her with an Award. She grabbed the paper from his hands and she scanned it over. In big bold red pen read A+ 100%. “You got an A!” She beamed at him. “Oh no no no. WE got an A” he said as he went in for a hug but then hesitated knowing Sam isn’t too big on physical touch from anyone, but Tara. Sam however was to happy to care she met Chad half way for the biggest celebratory hug in the world. Just then Mindy walks over and snatched the A+ paper from Sam’s hand. “My brother got an 100% on a paper? In college? Oh my god it must be the end of the world” she said being extremely over dramatic. Chad snatched the paper back “ya with no thanks to you” he said giving her a little shove. “I have the perfect spot for that.” Sam said as she grabbed the paper and headed towards the kitchen. “Ta Da” she sings as she backs away from the fridge with Chads paper hanging proudly as a parent would hang their child’s drawings. “Aww that’s so cute” Tara added “Wow what an honor.” Said Chad as he walked closer to the fridge. “ I just want to thank my mom and dad for giving me this opportunity. And most importantly Sam for sticking it out through the night.” he says as if he’s giving an award acceptance speech. “Well it looks as though you don’t need us anymore” Tara said “Yep I don’t need either of you anymore. I got Sam for every assignment now” Chad said happily as he puts his arm around her. Sams eyes widen realizing what she’s gotten herself into. “Haha have fun with that” Tara teases as she and Mindy walk back to the living room. Chad looks confused and turns to Sam. “What” he says looking at Sam. She sighs taking pity on him “Nothing buddy come on” she says as she walks Chad to the couch to finish the movie.
Disclaimer* I am also actually dyslexic. So if anything is spelled wrong or if I have poor grammar, Cut me some slack plz. But anyway hope you enjoyed this!
#sam carpenter#scream#scream franchise#scream vi#tara carpenter#chad meeks martin#mindy meeks martin#anika kayoko#core four#samantha carpenter
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Tag yourself! I’m Slowly Dying, Discord Server Mod, and Poor Little Neigh Neigh
[Image Description: Chibi-styled headshots of the Thirdverse cast with the following descriptions under them (character names indicated in parentheses, not part of image):
Homophobic Dog (Celestial Blessing)
Would rather drink a smoothie than go to therapy
“You have depression? Just cheer up”
Gives you a dirty look if you start crying
Constantly judging everyone
Slowly Dying (Bismuth Sun)
Full time student with a job, doesn’t even need it to survive
Three majors and five minors, considering another
Attends every single community event
Somehow has time for online discourse too
Quiet Quitter (Evergreen Blaze)
Does the bare minimum at work
Works with someone for 5 years and never learns their name
His favorite color is “personal information”
Avoids his coworkers at the grocery store
Influencer (Moonray Chill)
Goes on annual trips to Disney, thinks this is normal
Believed in Santa until she was 14
“If you’re homeless, just buy a house!”
No concept of money whatsoever
Common L (Lantern Glow)
Looks at themselves crying in the mirror when they have a breakdown
Has daddy issues or mommy issues if not both
Finds comfort in their childhood interests well past that age
Can’t find a therapist so they have several diaries
iPad Kid (Strawberry Breeze)
Bites people like a rabid dog
Life goal is to scream louder than Krakatoa
Picks her nose and wipes it on the wall
First word was fuck
Better Than You (Earth Day)
Always dresses in style
“I won’t have my son doing makeup like that, his eyeliner is all wrong”
Can convince you that you need something you had no interest in
Joins every single conversation just to be the center of attention
Nepo Baby (Princess Cut)
How much could one banana be? 10 dollars?
Thinks Kim Kardashian is a self-made millionaire
Saves money by cutting out avocado toast and Netflix
Also dad owns a business
Chihuahua In An Itchy Sweater (Sunny Sweet Dreams)
“It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me”
Takes even the slightest teasing personally
Selective in showing affection including to herself
Thinks being school project partners is "too intimate"
Dont Mine At Night (Laffy Taffy)
Curses at you in the Call of Duty lobby
Has a meltdown when the game lags
Fall Out Boy blaring in headphones 24/7
No sleep, bad grades, but defeating the final boss was worth it
Shallow (Galatea Candyheart)
Everyone wants to be her friend
Because she has the cool 24 pack of crayons with the sharpener on the back
She has to check her schedule to plan playdates…in preschool
Calls people she just met her best friend
Oh Worm? (Tiger Lily)
Says I love you to the cashier at McDonalds
Holds the door open for people who didn’t ask
Offers snacks and band-aids to everyone including strangers
Cries harder than you do when you scrape your knee
Discord Server Mod (Daisy Wasp)
The only one with conflict resolution skills
Stays up till 3am to moderate the group discussion
“No venting in the general chat”
Calls herself the friend group babysitter
Poor Little Neigh Neigh (Fairyfly)
Puts all the pressure on himself because his parents won’t do it
Complains about the stress he’s under as if it isn’t self-imposed
Thinks it makes him a better person
“Shut up I’m not short I just hit 4’11”
International Harvester (Blackberry Maple)
Posts travel pics at 12pm on a Tuesday
Accepts every single friend request on Facebook
Knows every stranger’s life story
You only ever see him at Thanksgiving dinner
Living Pinterest Board (Orchard Sunrise)
Does school notes about horrible tragedies in cursive with a pink highlighter
Every outfit is coordinated, even the work clothes
Spends hours in the bathroom doing her makeup
Asks you for help but nitpicks every step of the way
Useless Little Fuck (Fireside Jam)
Quotes distracting vines while his family does dangerous yardwork
Tries to carry the groceries inside but spills the whole bag
Offers to carry one (1) thing and hands it back to mom when it gets too heavy
Parents have to re-do all the chores he did badly
End Description.]
#KindsArt#KindsMemes#thirdverse#celestial blessing#bismuth sun#evergreen blaze#moonray chill#lantern glow#strawberry breeze#earth day#princess cut#sunny sweet dreams#laffy taffy#galatea candyheart#tiger lily#daisy wasp#fairyfly#blackberry maple#orchard sunrise#fireside jam#tag meme#my little pony#mlp fim#mlp g4#next generation
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I want morning cuddles but can't find something fitting to read so I'll just make it myself :) (kinda also general fluff)
Pairing: Bowers gang x reader (seperate)
I should write Losers club soon but I can't help it okay
Warnings: fluff? Man if you simp for these bois u do not need warnings
I'm very sorry that Belch and Vic are a little shorter than Patrick and Henry, I just don't have as many headcanons for them
Henry Bowers
if you two weren't facing eachother before, you are now
I feel like Henry starts with spooning or cuddling you, but slowly drifts away into his own space while asleep
when you two wake up that gap closes again basically
also, congratulations on getting that far with him
you deserve a Medal 🏅
he'll give you lots of forehead kisses & mutter about the future he pictures with you out of Derry
rubs ur cheek with his thumb
if he's awake earlier, he'll watch you sleep
not in a creepy way, more in a adoring way
he just wonders how he got so lucky
he tries to make you breakfast but you wake up every time his form leaves the bed, so you waddle after him
he truly thinks you are the cutest thing ever
feel free to ruffle through his hair, we all know he's a slut for head pats and ruffles
you'll hear a lot more of his laugh, I wouldn't complain honestly
asks you if you dreamed something while making breakfast
I feel like Henry's a tea drinker rather than coffee, so he'll prepare ur favourite tea too
when you are getting ready in the bathroom, he'll just stand behind you & have his arms around ur waist, head on your shoulder
very wholesome boi
but don't you dare tell anyone about this side of him
Patrick Hockstetter
he doesn't sleep
he has trouble with letting you sleep for such a long time
how can he survive 8 hours?
every night??
he knows you need it, but damn he wants you
probably gonna wake you up at fucking 3am with groping or kissing you
when he does sleep tho, I feel like his secret soft spot for you comes out
he'll totally fall asleep first, you cannot say no
you'd be on your phone, and just hear soft snoring
it's not loud, or annoying. Just kinda cute
Patrick looks really peaceful then :)
in the morning, he'd totally admire you just like Henry
he wonders why you stick around, if you even have a reason to really
puts his forehead against urs & closes his eyes again, just enjoying the moment
he totally wraps his entire body around you lol
lots of sleepy kisses
he's gonna hold you hostage for cuddles
has a strong grip on you, there's no escape
finds it adorable when you love to lay your head onto his chest to listen to his heartbeat
always lets you do his hair because boi got no sense of style
he'll be very clingy when sleepy :)
Belch Huggins
best cuddler ever
he'll envelope you, waking you up with kisses and sleepy chuckles
you two talk about anything and everything for some time
you make breakfast together, and get out very early so he can watch the sunrise with you
puts his head onto ur shoulder all the time
he'll just wrap you up in a blanket burrito so you don't get cold and go outside with you, keeping you on his lap
gives u lots of forehead kisses to earn those giggles he loves from you
during the week, he'll get ready with you of course
lets you do his hair so maybe he'll go to school without a hat sometime
on weekends you two end up chilling somewhere in his house with Madonna in the background, wrapped up in blankets while you paint his nails
where's my Belch, I want him
Victor Criss
listen, he'll make you hot chocolate and watch a movie with you.
you end up falling back asleep
when you wake up he's got breakfast in bed ready :)
takes a morning shower with you
goes on a walk afterwards
I can imagine that last night you two had a little bonfire in his backyard and you listened to The Cure while making marshmallows
he starts a pillowfight with you
lots of laughs and cuddles
STARGAZING
you two totally fell asleep for a while after the fire, stargazing
he shows you constellations
plays with ur hair, and if you have longer hair he braids it :)
#henry bowers x reader#henry bowers#henry bowers imagine#henry bowers headcanons#enhypen fluff#x reader#fanfic#bowers gang#IT chapter 1#patrick hockstetter#patrick hockstetter x reader#patrick hockstetter imagine#patrick hockstetter headcanons#morning cuddles#belch huggins x reader#belch huggins#belch huggins imagine#belch huggins headcanons#victor criss#victor criss x reader#victor criss imagine#victor criss headcanons
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May I please req Vin Jin relationship hcs?
Jesus that bully 👀? I'll try lmaooo
Vin Jin hcs
Word count: 560
(Fav photo)
First things first, matching sunglasses. periodt.
Kinda feel like Mary would be the one to introduce you two, though she does feel sorry for your misfortune
Holds your hand while walking around school to show off
Vasco would probably asked if you were forced, would not change his mind even if you say you're not
3am talks, if you chat about serious things like school, he will change the subject, in the weirdest ways
"Did you hear me rapping in the toilet today? It was good wasn't it."
Loves nicknames, will melt if you use them for him
Crackhead, will need your help in math, you cannot be worse than him
Brings you to his rapping auditions to impress you, obviously failed, honestly please comfort this blind man
"Nahhh it's fine baby they just have bad taste, my music and my face are both first class."
Was really hurt when you disagreed
Has without doubt twerk along with you in the club to Duke's song
You and Mary would definitely gang up and bully him, no one will save him though lmao
But avoid big boy logan, they be good bros
Still, if he does touch you or genuinely anyone Vin jin will start a massacre
The only time you really saw him without sunglasses was probably in the God dog arc, where the three of you were playing claw machines
Though you didn't look, and I applaud you for that
He still needs privacy so you respect that
And putting aside the funning parts, so I feel like he is an insecure guy, so just make know that you do find him handsome from time to time, he'll overreact and make you sign marriage papers
The people who ship you guys the most is definitely his victims, he'd be too occupied to bully people and will stop when you tell him to
Dates consist of karaoke and theme parks
You have all kinds of songs he sang recorded
Has absolutely made you rap before, will hype you up so much the other rooms hear
Wins the worst prizes in fairs, but don't tell him just let the man be proud
Does pick fights, but ends up running away with you cause you didn't want him to fight
If you hang out at his place, you will have to wear his swaggy clothes
And you guys are playing just dance, no exceptions
Lets you paint his fingernails black, but of course, you did pink
He can't see anyways, it'll stay there for a few weeks
Obviously Mary won't alert him, you both laugh every time he brings lunch
"The fuck are you looking at Logan?"
You guys may have convinced logan not to tell, or maybe he's enjoying it as well
The only moment where sunglasses comes off is when you sleep together
Likes to be the big spoon, and if you plant some soft kisses on his neck, worry about the consequences
Wakes you up with the smell of burnt pancakes
My mans did try, you'll end up cooking with him attached to your hip
He acts high and mighty, but if you give him silent treatment he is on his knees
Always shamelessly fishing for compliments, will whine if you refuse
After all not a bad guy to date, pretty fun actually, not chill though. Chaotic dates only ⚠︎︎
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I don’t know if you take requests for nurseydex fics... but if you do the song “omg did she call him baby” by Beth McCarthy screams a heartbroken Nursey when Dex has a girlfriend
i like really can’t do genuine heartbreak but i CAN do angst that ends happy, so here’s my best shot :)
Nursey’s got a red Solo cup in one hand and a plastic champagne flute in the other and it’s sometime after three but before five and he is definitely not thinking about her or him or them together when he looks up between one sip and another to see the telltale blue hair reflecting the murky spotlights of the basement.
Nursey squints. He could be making things up--his brain is nice like that-- but he doesn’t think he’s imagining things. She’s got very distinctive hair, Dex’s--girlfriend. It’d been rather disappointing, actually, the blue hair. The whole thing had been easier to deal with when he’d been picturing some light-haired brunette going for an economics degree who smiled like a mom at soccer practice. Someone who Nursey could reasonably dislike on grounds of, like, predictability.
But no, Dex had to bring home a blue-haired physics major with a nose ring and good taste in music and the ability to out-argue Shitty while polishing off Bitty’s pie, i.e. perfect. Even Lardo couldn’t pretend like she wasn’t awesome for Nursey’s sake. Even Nursey can’t pretend like Amanda isn’t awesome for his own sake. She’s just so--so--
Nursey squints.
So-- making out with some random girl in a blouse at a frat party.
What the fuck.
Nursey is about two margaritas and three years too deep to be dealing with the emotional ramifications of catching the girlfriend of his best friend (who he’s also kind of sort of possibly maybe totally in love with) macking on some consultant for Goldman Sachs or some shit in the basement of arguably one of the worst frats at Samwell. This one doesn’t even have good music, Nursey’s only here to get drunk without the possibility of Dex calling Nursey Patrol and helping Nursey up the stairs and saying nothing about the poetry Nursey spills or the way his hands linger.
(Fuck does Nursey hate Nursey Patrol, fuck does he hate how much he loves it.)
Nursey downs the rest of the champagne flute--which was probably mostly orange juice at this point anyway-- and hands the red Solo cup to a freshman gearing himself up to talk to a cute boy a few feet away and then Nursey gets the fuck out of dodge. He manages to get a better look at the corporate recruiter Amanda is cheating on Dex with (and really, if you’re going to cheat on Dex, you’re really going to pick a chick in a blouse that probably has opinions on the stock market???) and if he hadn’t been sure before, the distinctive tattoo on Amanda’s shoulder proves that it’s really her.
(“Tattoos? Tattoos? I have tattoos.” “I know you do, Nurse.” “They’re really nice tattoos.” “I know they are, Nurse.”)
Emerging from the basement and then the frat house itself is instantly sobering. The chill from winter hasn’t quite left the air at night and Nursey wraps his arms around himself and doesn’t think about how Dex chirped him about not wearing a coat before he’d left. The frat isn’t far away from the Haus, thank god, but it is slightly farther when he turns left instead of right and then has to a backtrack a bit, but he still gets back in under ten minutes and he can still feel his hands, so overall, a win.
Attempting to get into the Haus quietly is a lost cause, given its one thousand year old floor and the fact that a ladybug could fart in the kitchen and wake up the guys in the attic. Still, Nursey gives it the good college try, which is why he’s creeping ridiculously through the living room when the light turns on suddenly and he screams, much to the amusement of Dex, standing in the kitchen doorway.
“Fuck, dude, what the fuck.”
Dex just smirks in that horribly attractive way of his. “How was the Psi-U basement?”
Nursey thinks of blue hair, washed out in the lights, Amanda’s hand on that girl’s cheek, the way Dex smiles when he’s around her. “Fine,” Nursey says, swaying.
The amusement falters and Nursey wishes he could figure out a way to keep the smile on Dex’s face the way Amanda does. Dex takes a step closer. “Are you alright?”
Nursey shakes his head violently and takes a step back, a step farther away. This is the part where he says yes, yes of course Dexy-darling, I’m right as rain, what about you? This is the part where Dex rolls his eyes and loops his arm around Nursey’s waist, his warm side pressed into Nursey’s. The part where they go upstairs, where Nursey writes his best poetry that he’s too embarrassed to write down when he’s sober, where Dex tells him to sleep well and lingers outside the doorway long enough for Nursey’s breathing to slow and then the floor creaks and Nursey knows he’s gone and wishes he’d held on just a little bit longer--
“Nursey, what’s wrong?”
Nursey shakes his head again. He means to say nothing, he means to say, I’m going to bed, he means to-- “Amanda, she--”
The concern turns to alarm. Why can’t Nursey ever make it better? “Is she alright? Did you see her? Is she okay?”
Nursey shakes his head again. He can’t seem to stop doing that. “She’s fine, she--she--” He swallows, and it’s sticky, cloying, citrusy and sweet on the back of his tongue. “She--there was this girl, she-- Amanda, she--”
Dex won’t stop frowning, concern knitting his eyebrows together with three short wrinkles, and Nursey has wanted to smooth them out with his fingertips every time he sees them since sophomore year, and he shouldn’t be doing this, shouldn’t be telling Dex this while he’s drunk, shouldn’t be telling Dex this at all, but he’s Nursey’s friend first and Nursey has to believe he’d tell Dex regardless of the love thing, he must--
“She was kissing some girl. In the Psi-U basement.”
The wrinkles smooth out. The amusement returns. Nursey--he can’t make sense of it over the ringing in his ears. Why is Dex smiling? Did--did Nursey do that?
“Did she look like a lawyer?” he asks, and at Nursey’s confusion clarifies, “The girl Amanda was kissing. Did she look like a lawyer?” Nursey nods dumbly. Dex’s smile only grows. Nursey is so, so confused and also more in love than he’s ever been. “Finally. I just won fifty bucks.”
What the fuck. “What the fuck.”
Dex laughs--laughs. “The girl’s name is Tammy. She graduated last year and moved to Boston. Amanda’s been in love with her forever, and I bet her that she’d get with Tammy before I--” Flush appears high on Dex’s cheeks, the soft pink one that means embarrassment and Nursey imagines would taste like cherry pie against his lips.
Nursey is--still quite a bit drunk. He needs--clarification. “You--you bet your girlfriend that she would get with her friend at a frat party?”
Dex’s nose scrunches up in Nursey’s favorite way--the same way it does when he’s trying to write humanities essays, the reason Nursey always says yes when Dex asks for help. “Girlfriend? Did you think Amanda was my girlfriend?”
Nursey remembers the start, hearing about Amanda every other day, then every day, then it was, sorry I can’t come, I’m meeting Amanda at-- and then one day at Annie’s, a girl with blue hair and a sharp grin yelled Babe! from across the room and planted a kiss on Dex’s cheek, her hand lingering on his shoulder, sipping from his coffee cup, getting him to smile like that--
“Well, yeah.” Nursey’s head is spinning and, for the first time tonight, not from the gin. “Is she--is she not?”
“Oh God, no, she’s so fucking gay, dude.” Laughter twinkles in Dex’s eyes. Nursey is drunker than he’s been since freshmen year of high school when Shitty snuck in some of his dad’s hard liquor and the janitors found them on the roof singing Disney songs at the moon. Dex’s girlfriend is gay. Dex’s girlfriend isn’t his girlfriend. Dex is--is smiling at him like he smiles at his girlfriend who isn’t his girlfriend.
“Oh,” Nursey says, dazed, “chill.”
“Oh wow,” Dex grins, leaning into the doorframe, “I can’t believe you thought--and you thought telling me my girlfriend was cheating on me at 3am while shit-drunk was a good idea?”
Nursey says, “Hey, honesty is important, and I’m not--” He stops. He remembers something. He squints. “Wait. If you bet 50 bucks on Amanda getting with Tammy, who did Amanda bet you would get with?”
The cherry pie blush is back. Nursey takes an absent-minded step forward. The room feels so much lighter now that Dex’s girlfriend isn’t cheating on him. The distance between them feels so much sillier now that Dex doesn’t have a girlfriend.
“Ah, well.” Dex rubs at the back of his neck, all country bumpkin sheepish to ask his sweetheart to the dance, and--and--
“I’m the sweetheart,” Nursey realizes with the kind of crystal clarity only afforded by the most copious amounts of alcohol.
Dex’s eyebrows furrow, those sweet little wrinkles appearing between them, and Nursey takes two long strides forward and presses his thumb into them. Dex goes cross-eyed trying to watch, but moves his eyes to meet Nursey’s after a moment.
Nursey grins, likely a bit sloppy from the gin, but he can’t find it in himself to care at the moment. “I’m the sweetheart,” he repeats, beaming.
Dex tries to repress the smile at his lips. “You’re not a sweetheart.”
“Yes I am,” Nursey sings, listing forwards. “You like me.”
“You’re an asshole.” Dex’s smile grows. Nursey watches its progress and sways.
“They’re not mutually exclusive,” he says, tracking the pink lips as they spread, revealing teeth and--and tongue and--
“I hate that you can still say mutually exclusive when you’re this drunk.”
“I’m not that drunk.”
“Yeah?”
“Mhmm. See, I’ll prove it.”
“How do you plan on--”
If Dex’s mouth weren’t so preoccupied, he might say that the taste on Nursey’s tongue is a good indication that he is in fact fairly tipsy, but as it is--well. He’s got other things to do.
(Amanda asserts that they tied since it happened on the same night and only pays $25. Tammy throws in five more and a condom and they call it even. Nursey kisses away Dex’s protest and pockets the condom, much to Amanda’s amusement. Turns out, she’s even cooler when she isn’t dating the love of Nursey’s life.)
#nurseydex#dexnursey#check please#derek nurse#nursey#dex#william poindexter#my writing#sort of fic#ficlet#i wrote this instead of an essay#bc i make good decisions#also sorry it's like almost not at all based on the song#i don't do heartbreak well#i can do angst with a happy ending#or even jealousy#but no heartbreak#also also i am rather tipsy atm#so if there are any typos#no there aren't#cool?#cool
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Finish Line
pairing: denki kaminari x reader
SMUT, characters aged up 18+
word count: 4K
cw: NSFW, alcohol, cursing, penetrative sex, oral, quirk play, denki saying ‘baby girl’
a/n: We all know two things about Denki for sure: he’s constantly horny, and he’d do anything to help out a friend. So in honor of his birthday, we’re celebrating that. Also, it’s an AU where pro heroes gotta get a college degree first, so you’re in your sophomore year of college but also quirks still exist. Will add read more when I’m on desktop. Happy birthday pika boy!!
summary: you and your bff kaminari have always been open books to each other about everything, including sex, but when he finds out that you’ve never climaxed before, he takes it upon himself to show you that it’s absolutely possible.
It was nearly midnight when you and Kaminari made it back to your college dorm with a bag full of snacks and the drinks he was able to buy with the fake ID he wouldn’t even need much longer. His birthday was right around the corner, and a huge blowout was planned at Bakugou’s place for the following weekend. To prepare, the two of you were staying in this weekend instead of hitting any of the start of summer ragers happening around campus, and you were perfectly fine with that.
These late-night snack runs were a mainstay of your friendship since high school, the tradition carrying over when you both chose to attend the hero program at the same university, and not by accident. As upperclassmen, you’d both scored single rooms in your sophomore year, and your room was the hangout spot tonight. You perched cross-legged on your bed, immediately tearing open the candy you bought. Denki popped open one bottle of booze for himself and one for you before sitting down on your rug with a pillow in his lap, settling in for the night.
Not ten seconds later, you heard the sound of stilettos and cackling from the hallway. You recognized the voices instantly. A few girls who lived in the building loved to pregame next door before going out, which was fine, it’s just that they were always so goddamn loud-especially at 3am when they were stumbling back in and you were trying to sleep. It was about to be another one of those nights, and without thinking, you sighed and rolled your eyes.
“You know, those girls are ALWAYS laughing. I’m just wondering, like, what’s so funny all the time?” Denki said after tossing back a big swig of his drink, reading your mind. The two of you had been best friends for so long that you practically shared brain cells at this point.
“Couldn’t tell you. Didn’t you sleep with one of them freshman year though?” It wasn’t an odd question, not for you and Denki. You told each other everything, including the nitty-gritty of your sex lives, without a second thought. It was normal for conversations to turn raunchy between you two. It was just the kind of friendship you had: no judgment and no filter.
Denki nodded. “Yeah, but once was enough. I’ve moved on.”
“I remember, directly to your next flavor of the week.”
“Hey, just because I played the field last year while you got yourself into a ‘committed relationship’” he said, playfully mocking you with air quotes, “doesn’t make me any less valid.”
You smiled smugly. “You’re right. Didn’t hurt that we live in one of the co-ed dorms, either.”
“Yeah, that’s a plus,” Denki agreed, tipping the top of his bottle toward you in acknowledgement.
“Can you believe there are some schools where none of the dorms are co-ed at all? Like, some are so prudish that you can’t even have someone of another gender in your room with the door shut.”
“That’s fucked up dude. You and I couldn’t chill like this, and that’s bullshit,” Denki said, reaching for one of the snacks he picked out at the convenience store you hit up. “And like, not LGBT-inclusive at all.”
“It’s archaic,” you said, munching on your candy. “I heard that at Shiozaki’s school, two people can’t even be lying down at the same time. The rule is door open and one person has to be, get this, VERTICAL at all times.”
Denki clutched his chest and laughed. “Vertical? Like, leave room for Jesus?”
You nodded wildly. “Yeah, insane, right?”
In a flash, Denki hopped up off the floor and set his beer down on your desk. Before you could even put your drink down, he was practically tackling you onto your bed, hugging you around the waist and nuzzling against your shoulder. Another facet of your friendship with Kaminari? It had always been physical. As you reached to set your drink down on your nightstand, Denki said, “I’m good with horizontal.”
You couldn’t help but laugh. “Yeah, I mean, if lightning doesn’t strike us down, how bad can it really be?”
“I could arrange that, you know.”
“Let’s keep our quirks to ourselves, please.”
You were lying flat on your back as Denki molded himself to your side. For years, practically everyone who’d met you thought that you were dating him, but as affectionate as the two of you could be, you’d never crossed a line into relationship territory. No kissing, or anything more than that either, despite what everyone who knew you suspected. Denki was a shameless flirt and so were you, That didn’t mean your relationship couldn’t be platonic. As easy as it could have been for the boy on your bed to roll over and make a move on you, instead, Denki sighed and confessed, “Man, I haven’t gotten laid in a while. Sucks.”
“Must be off your game, playboy,” you teased, poking him in the cheek. Static electricity danced off the tip of your finger from the contact, releasing the energy into the air between the two of you.
“How about you? Have you been with anyone since you and whats-his-name broke up?”
You scoffed. “Ugh, no. I don’t need men. They disappoint me.” After nearly a year and a half with your ex, you’d discovered he was cheating on you with someone at his internship, and you’d dumped his ass on the spot. Since then, you’d sworn off dating for a while. Maybe Denki had it right, opting to keep it casual instead of going exclusive with someone.
“Ah, so someone’s been getting themselves off, huh?” You could hear the suggestive eyebrow waggle in his voice without even seeing it.
“Sure, whatever,” you said, grabbing a pillow and dropping it onto his face.
Denki sputtered and pulled the pillow away. “Hey, nothing to be ashamed of. It’s natural. Everybody does it. I tug one out from time to time, when necessary.”
“Gross, Denki,” you said, whacking him with the pillow again.
“Don’t tell me that jerk ruined sex for you forever,” Denki said, suddenly concerned.
“No, that’s not it.”
“Yeah,” Denki snorted. “I don’t even know how a tool that dumb could even make you cum.”
“Well, he didn’t.” Maybe it was the alcohol you’d downed or the fact that Denki’s lips were right against your ear, and he was touching you in a way that nobody had for a month. You don’t know what made you say it. That ex just so happened to be your first. Not the first person you fooled around with, but the first and only person you’d really slept with, and Denki knew that. He was the first person you told about it. But this was the one detail you held back in your conversations about it.
Denki sat bolt upright in your bed, staring you dead in the eyes. “Oh my god. I was kidding. Are you serious?” Denki was incredulous, unable to believe his ears.
You felt yourself blushing, feeling stupid for admitting it. “Yeah. I mean, we did it all the time, but I never…”
Denki grabbed your shoulder. “But you have… on your own?”
You bit your lip and shook your head at him. This was weird. You never felt so self-conscious in front of Kaminari, not like this. It felt horrible.
Denki slapped his hand over his mouth. “Y/n. I’m so sorry. If I would have known that douche didn’t know how to please you-”
Surprising yourself, you pushed Denki away, needing space between the two of you. “What, you would have done it yourself?” As soon as you said it, you watched Denki’s face flush, and you wished you could take it back.
“Well, I mean…”
You put your face in your hands. That line you swore you’d never cross? You just pole-vaulted across it. You shouldn’t have implied anything about you and Denki sleeping together. You’d spent so many years denying that you had any interest in him. It was too late to admit that you were attracted to him, to take back all the arguments you made to friends and strangers over the years that the two of you were strictly platonic. You were used to being vulnerable around him, but not this vulnerable.
“Denki, no. I shouldn’t have said that. Besides, it’s my fault. Some people just can’t orgasm. Like, physically. I’ve accepted that I’m one of them. If it was going to happen, it would have happened by now.” What you hadn’t expected were the tears that sprung to your eyes, the hurt and shame you felt over your own inadequacies bursting out after being bottled up.
Denki pried your hands away from your eyes, even though you didn’t want to look at him. He dried your eyes with his thumbs, the tiniest crackling sensation from his stored electricity playing over your cheeks, tickling you into a smile. He did that on purpose, you thought.
“Hey,” he said softly at you. “Look, there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Some people, they just don’t work together, like, physically. And sometimes, you need more than just your imagination.” You rested your cheek against his hand, trying to find some kindness for yourself.
“But honestly?” Denki asked, pausing, and you looked up to meet his eye. “I bet you’re not one of those people. I bet you can orgasm, if you want to. And,” he said with a look of pride, “I’ll help you.”
You immediately covered your face again. “Oh my god, shut up. You’re drunk.”
“From that half a beer? No. Listen, just think about it, you’re comfortable with me, right? And I’m, let’s say, experienced. This could work! Let’s get you your first orgasm!”
You clapped your hand over his mouth, knowing the walls in this old building were thinner than they appeared, even for being made of painted cement block. “Be quiet, you idiot! Someone is gonna hear you.”
“Ok, listen. Obviously, we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do. I would never force you to do anything, you know I’m not like that,” Denki said, eager eyes practically burning holes in yours. “But I feel like you’re not thinking about this. It’s a win-win situation, and it can be just this once. And I promise you-I PROMISE you-we will both get to finish.”
Every nerve in your body was screaming. Obviously, it wasn’t that simple. Sex with your best friend in the whole world, who you also found extremely attractive in multiple ways, was not simple. But despite all the reasons not to, was that really what you wanted? Or were you going to take this chance and let him show you something you’d never felt before.
You swallowed thickly and nodded your head. “Ok.”
“Ok as in yes, let’s do it?”
“Let’s do it.”
Denki solemnly nodded his head, suddenly more serious than he had been moments ago. He got up from your bed and switched off the overhead light, the moon outside your window casting a silver square of light on the floor, just bright enough for you to still see Denki climbing back onto your bed. On his hands and knees, he crawled toward you and laid a soft hand on your cheek, his face inching toward yours. Your breath hitched in your throat. “What are you doing?”
Denki cocked his head to the side. “Setting the mood. I mean, don’t you think we should at least kiss first?”
“W-well…”
“Listen, y/n. If you didn’t know, foreplay is super important to most people. But if you don’t want to do this, or if you want me to stop at any time, just tell me and-”
You cut him off by pressing your lips to his, your eyes closed while his popped wide open before quickly melting into the kiss. His hand slid up your neck, holding you under your jaw as your lips moved together, slowly at first but picking up the pace with every sighed exhale. He tasted like beer and salt from his snacks, but also a little like lemon zest. You wondered if the bright, almost electric taste in your mouth was a side effect of his quirk as his tongue swiped against your bottom lip, asking for entrance. You parted your lips and he quickly found the backs of your teeth, running the edge of his tongue along the roof of your mouth in a way that made you shiver.
He held you there for what felt like forever, taking his time kissing you until your breaths became heavy and your kisses sloppy. Never in a million years would you have through Kaminari could kiss like this, deep and sensual enough to make you almost lightheaded. It was better than you could have imagined, and then he pulled away.
Thinking you knew what was coming next, you grabbed the hem of your t-shirt and began pulling it up over your head. Denki’s hand caught yours before you could. “Hey, woah, slow down.”
“But if we’re going to-”
Denki pressed a kiss to your cheek. “I know, but we have all the time in the world. You don’t have to rush into it. What’s more important is the build up, you know? That’s half the fun. Besides, it’s more fun if you let the other person undress you,” he said with a click of his tongue. Instead, Denki gathered you in his arms and pushed your back down against the mattress and rolled on top of you. It felt so right and so wrong at the same time, the way you could already feel his cock getting hard against your hip. It turned you on immensely, but you had to keep reminding yourself: this was Denki on top of you. Running his hands down your abs. Dragging his thumb over your lips before kissing you again.
Maybe you’d wasted all this time. Maybe you should have been making out with him in high school when everyone else already thought you were. Maybe this should have been your first time, but you didn’t have time to think about all the maybes you couldn’t change. Not when Denki’s mouth was hot on yours and your hands finally found something to occupy themselves with, carding through his messy blonde hair.
“That’s it,” he said between kisses. “It’s give and take. Actions and reactions.” He thrusted his tongue hard into your mouth once, forcing a moan out of your throat that made his dick twitch against you. God, he was good at this. You understood now why girls practically lined up to get their chance with him.
True to his word, Denki pulled back, finally, and began to undress you. You felt self-conscious, suddenly, your hands flying to cover your bra after he slid you out of your t-shirt, but Denki gently pulled your hands away. “It’s just me, y/n. Don’t be scared.” Only when you nodded did he reach for the waistband of your shorts, pulling them along with your panties down over your ankles and dropping them onto the floor. Then he sat back. “You can do mine now,” he whispered, voice suddenly low and gravelly.
Your heart pounding, you pulled his shirt over his head the same way he’d done yours, then struggled with the button and zipper on his shorts until they were loose enough to tug down. He kicked them off, then looked between you and his boxer briefs until you, with shaking hands, hooked your fingers under the elastic and pulled them down as well, his erection springing free against his lower stomach.
“Wow,” you breathed, unaware that you were sawing it out loud until Denki snickered.
“Like what you see?” he teased.
You could feel yourself blushing, but the answer was yes. He was longer that you expected, and a nice thickness, with a pretty curve slightly to the right that made your mouth water. You shook yourself out of your daze, forcing yourself to stop staring and lying down instead. “Oh my god, you’re pulling me out of the moment,” you groaned.
“Nah,” he replied, a seductive lilt in his voice. “A little teasing usually helps. Ups the anticipation, in my experience.”
As Denki hovered over you, you prepared yourself for the big moment, thinking back to what you were used to when it came to sex. But instead of immediately sheathing himself inside you, Denki slunk down, his chin right above your mound. “Can I get you ready… like this?” he asked, pressing a kiss to your sensitive skin. You sucked in a breath but nodded your head yes.
He started with kisses, trailing down your folds in a way that made you almost embarrassed, but you loved it at the same time. His breath was warm when he exhaled over your hole. “You’re already pretty wet. That’s a good sign,” he mumbled darkly, his voice tinged with lust. He stroked your folds with his long fingers a few times before attaching his mouth to you with a groan, his tongue flicking out at your entrance. You couldn’t help but squirm, despite the hand that snaked up to your hip to hold you down. With his other hand, Denki reached up to rub a circle over your clit with his middle finger, sending bursts of pleasure to your core that you’d never felt before. Your ex never took this kind of time with you. With him, it was about getting it over with as quickly as possible. But as Denki moaned and slurped at your pussy, it was like he was pacing himself to drag you both closer to the finish line together.
Everything in your lower body felt tense, a buildup to something you truly hoped was approaching. You felt your legs squeeze involuntarily, trapping Denki’s head din a vice grip as he continued lapping at your wetness. When your thighs began to shake, he came up for air, panting and with drool and more dripping down his nose and chin, which he wiped away with his arm.
“Hey, uh, are you still on birth control?”
“Yes.” Good thing, because you knew for a fact that you had no condoms in your room. Maybe you didn’t care even if you did. You just stared at him, waiting for what happened next.
“Ready?” he breathed.
Your eyes practically rolled back in your head. “Yes, Denki, please.” You couldn’t stop his name from rolling off your tongue. You wanted him so badly, more than you’d ever wanted him, more than you’d ever wanted anyone inside you. You saw stars when you closed your eyes, and then you felt his hand on your face again.
“Look at me, please,” he asked, his voice so sincere it almost made you want to cry. You couldn’t do anything but nod at him, his face like a light in the darkness. His golden eyes locked on yours as he lined himself up at your entrance and rocked his hips forward and back, pushing just the tip of his cock inside you, then a little more, and a little more until he was fully seated inside you.
Your head rolled to the side as he began pounding into you, more force than you were expecting, but in the best way. You heard his strangled gasps, saw him biting his lips as he thrusted, until he asked too loudly, “What do you like to be called?”
“What?” You asked, head spinning.
“What should I call you? Baby, sweetheart, slut?”
“I-I don’t know.” You could barely form the sentence, the stretch from his cock taking up all of your brain space.
Denki chuckled deep in his throat. “Ok, how about baby girl? Can I call you that?”
“Yes Denki,” you replied automatically, savoring the way your stomach flipped at the pet name.
“You’re doing so well baby girl, fuck,” he said through gritted teeth. “Clench down on me a little more, ok?”
You did your best to do as he asked, the rhythm of his thrusts pulling you down, hard against him. One hand found the underside of your leg and pulled your thigh up against his hip, giving him access to press farther inside you, making him curse uncontrollably.
“Fuck, baby girl, fuck, y/n. You feel so good. S-shit. So good, fuck. I love-“
He stopped himself with a growl as he pounded harder still, and you couldn’t help but moan and yelp as his tip pressed against your g-spot inside, making you dizzy.
“Denki!” You shouted as your hands grabbed into his shoulders for stability. This felt different. Something was happening. You’d never felt this way before, in your core and your head. You were close; you had to be.
But at the sound of his name, Denki couldn’t help but shudder with a beautiful moan, and in a moment, he was spilling inside of you, struggling to breathe until finally he was spent. You bit your lip hard. Denki had finished, and you hadn’t, but you didn’t want him to see you cry about it. You would just have to be happy that you could please him.
But once he caught his breath, Denki kept going. “Listen, I have one more idea. Can I use my quirk?” You would have agreed to almost anything at this point. Anything to keep it from ending. You nodded.
Denki pulled out of you and laid a hand to your core, your clit under one finger. He took a deep breath, and with all of his control focused, he swirled his finger around while it buzzed faintly with electricity, just enough to vibrate against your overstimulated nerves. You reached back to grab your headboard, stabilizing yourself while you focused on the sensation of his hand on your most sensitive spot. He spoke one more time, “It’s ok baby girl. Let go.”
As if you’d been waiting for permission, your back arched off the mattress, and for the first time, you felt it. Your eyes were open but you saw nothing but a flash of white and then Denki’s face, holding you as you shook and panted and came down from your climax.
“Was that ok?” He asked, brows knit together with concern.
“Amazing,” you breathed.
As he laid down beside you, you couldn’t help but paw at his chest, desperate to be held and to hold him close. You heard what he almost said when he was talking nonsense. You weren’t thinking straight from the bliss, but you couldn’t help but confess. “I’ve wanted that for so long. Not just the sex. I wanted you.”
“Yeah,” Denki said, stroking your hair. “Me too.”
“Maybe,” you whispered, catching your breath, “maybe it doesn’t have to be a one-time thing. Maybe we could make this our thing. Like, a relationship thing.”
“You know, my birthday’s coming up. It could be your gift to me.”
“Oh my god, shut up.” You shoved a pillow over Denki’s face, but only for a second. When you pulled the pillow away your lips were right there to kiss him again. And again and again until you fell asleep in each other’s arms. You had a feeling your time together was about to get a lot more horizontal from now on.
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Too Far || Slashers x Reader
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A/N: I had two requests that were kind of the same, which I will have below. Warnings, there is angst! Enjoy!
Request 1 by @brideofcthulhu10 : Hey! First of all I wanna say I absolutely love your slasher fics, very detailed, you have a lot of talent! (I mostly dabble with Lost Boys on my blog!) Anyhoo, I'm not sure if I sent this yet, but I was wondering if you could do Brahms reacting to an S/O who's usually very patient with him crying because of an outburst? Like she's his caretaker who usually can handle his fits, but one day he goes too far screaming in her face, breaking things, and she just falls apart?
Request 2 by anon: Hi!I was thinking of a request if you wanna do it ofc, with Michael Myers when he is stressed out about something and maybe neglects or takes it out on s/o and she gets reallyy sad and goes for a walk at 3am and he Wakes up and not seeing her makes him feel guilty and sad and starts getting a panick attack just when she is returning and comforts him,im sorry if I’m being so specific I just wanted super angst with fluffy ending with Michael being super needy 🥺 sorry if i bother you
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Brahms Heelshire:
You had never seen him so angry over something so small in the time that you’ve been with Brahms. Not even being able to recall what the fight was about, you stood there in the center of the room that had been utterly destroyed. The lamps that were on either side of the couch were beyond repair, the book case was tipped and all it’s remains were scattered on the floor and the glass topped coffee table had long been broken. Brahms circled you like a feral animal, the glare in his eyes made you look to the floor in fear. You jumped when you heard another object being broken behind you and a coaster went flying by your head from behind you, hitting the wall in front. The small dent in the wall from the coasters collision, reminded you just how strong Brahms was.
“You can’t do anything right!” He shouted; the sound of glass crashing followed his words. “Why do I even bother keeping you’re pathetic ass around?!” He shoved past you, moving down the hall to grab the coatrack and throw it to the floor. One of the ends broke off and rolled towards you but you didn’t dare move, or even breathe. Your heart pounded ferociously against your chest and you wondered how you hadn’t had heart failures yet from all the stress he puts you through.
“Honestly, I should just get rid of you.” Brahms continued his rampage, breaking things and ripping paintings off the walls. You had become so numb to his usual rampages, that you were surprised when you found tears pooling out from your eyes at his words. Suddenly turning around, he walked over to you and you did your best to tune him out. His words cut like a knife and all you could do was stare forward and pray that this would all blow over.
But even then, prayers have their limits. “Why can’t you understand that I can’t stand you? You’re nothing but a good fuck and that’s all you will ever be!” That was the icing on the cake. A gasp so silent, it cut through the quiet air, left your lips and that’s when Brahms realized exactly what he’d done. It was like a switch had gone off in his head and the anger was gone, replaced with a guilt and fear of abandonment. His hands moved to cup your face but you almost tripped moving back, his eyes widening at your actions.
Everything he said was a lie; you both knew it, but he still thought them up somehow and felt like unloading them onto you in that moment. “(Y/N), I didn’t mean it.” Brahms felt sick watching as you backed away from him into the nearest corner he managed to maneuver you in. All the thoughts in his head came to one conclusion: There was nothing he could do or say in that given time that would make you want to stay.
“Please, listen to me.” He begged, his eyes holding so much fear you almost didn’t recognize the man before you. Brahms reached out to you gently, touching your shoulders and then your neck and then your face. “I didn’t mean any of that. Please forgive me; don’t leave me.”
Your throat was dry and you had nothing to say, all you could do was stare. “I love you, baby, please talk to me.” You felt his thumbs wipe away the tears on your cheeks and his lips pressed kisses to your forehead. Brahms knew exactly how much he had fucked up and the guilt and shame were eating him alive. “My god, what have I done?” You tensed as he pulled you into a tight and possessive hug. Your arms stayed by your sides, not moving an inch as the words and his face full of anger, kept replaying in your head. “Don’t leave me okay? I can fix this; I’ll fix it, I swear, my love.”
Meaningless. Everything felt meaningless.
But you had nowhere to go and you loved this man, even with all his issues. So, you swallowed any pride you had left and hugged him back, hearing him sob just a bit as he swore up and down that you wouldn’t regret it.
Michael Myers:
You couldn’t remember how you managed to get out of Michael’s grip while he was sleeping, but somehow you ended up outside in the freezing cold of night, walking down the sidewalk. You had managed to snag one of Michael’s jackets on your way out the door and thanked god it covered you well enough.
It wasn’t like you and Michael didn’t fight; you did, a lot. Tonight’s was just different and hurt you in more ways than you thought possible.
“Can’t you fucking leave me alone for once?” Michael’s voice was harsh as he moved away from your hands that were on his back. You realized he’d been under a lot of stress lately and he hadn’t really been himself; you were only trying to help ease the tension.
“Sometimes I really hate you and I think ‘why in the world, did I end up with her?’.” You remember that being the moment your heart sank to your stomach. The cold glare in his eyes was real, not like all the other times he’s done it.
The moon made your shadow look odd as you watched the pavement before you, every now and then glancing around to see if anyone else was up. Your already puffy eyes burned with the feeling of tears again and you managed to choke them down. “I should’ve let your father kill you. I would be a free man right now.”
You made your way around the block, making your way back home. “The only time you’re worth it is when your warming my cock.” You stopped, having arrived back at the front door. Your fingers twitched at the doorknob and you wondered if it was really a good idea to go back in. Michael had apologized after the fight and resulted in him not letting you out of an arm’s reach. But still. Was it worth it?
The second you opened the door, the air felt wrong. Shutting it behind you and taking your coat off, you realized why. Everything was torn apart. The furniture was all over the place and some pieces were broken, the TV was shattered and various pictures on the walls were on the ground. Loud sounds of footsteps came from upstairs when you shut the door and Michael practically tackled you.
To say you were shocked was an understatement. The man who put on a ‘Mr. Tough Guy’ act was now trembling in your arms, pulling you closer to him with each passing second. “Michael.” You said calmly, gently stroking his back with your hands. You heard him sniffle and your made a mental note to remember this moment.
“Look at me.” Your voice was calming and you were there. You didn’t leave him like he thought. His eyes met yours and you reached up and brushed his tears away, moving his hair from his face and cupping his cheeks in your hands. “Are you okay? Did you hurt yourself?”
He shook his head, his mouth too dry to speak from all the yelling he did while you were out on a walk. He’d woken up to your side of the bed cold as ice and all he could think was that you finally left him. He tore the house apart looking for you and when he couldn’t find you, he broke. This mountain of a man who hates showing one ounce of actual emotion, broke.
“That’s good. Can you tell me why the house looks like this?” You asked him, being very careful with your words as his hands once again pulled you against him.
“I-I was looking for you. I thought you left me.” His body shook as though the thought alone sent a chill down his spine. “You aren’t leaving me right?” His voice was so weak it was hard to remember what this man was actual capable of.
“Of course not, Michael. I couldn’t sleep and needed some fresh air.” You cooed, peppering kisses along his jaw and chin. “I’m here, I’m not going anywhere.” You assured him, nuzzling your face under his chin and letting him hold you close.
“I’m so sorry for hurting you. I didn’t mean any-” You shushed him, wrapping our arms around his back.
“I know you didn’t mean it.” Your words were music to his ears and he pulled back enough to bend down and press a kiss to your lips. “Let’s go back to bed, okay? We can clean this up in the morning.” You told him as your lips parted; you led him upstairs and to your bedroom, not leaving his arms for the rest of the night.
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Cathartic- Yellow Metal Lyrics
Heres where I am with the lyrics, I referenced @25Goldenn on twitter for some of it that I couldn’t comprehend.
*music*
0:23
Dark matter, like painted splatters, they fit better, the old saying, the way it goes, better the devil you do then you don’t know. I hit pedals and switch levers, my heart metal, I can't settle, im part trouble, they are not subtle. I fuck good so fuck cuddles, burst bubbles the thrist levels at new heights, i down doubles, and got baked til I felt high, my face puzzled, felt muddled, far strung and your floors woodent, the thought might but the fit wouldn’t. A fortnight
0:46 - 1:00
And I thought right, it’s all bark and no bite, I’m Tony Stark still embarking on a dream, took a bit of time to take darkness from the team. Seen what I saw. Heartless on the sleeve. Tried to burn my wings, so I put them in a piece on my chest , at peace no rest.
1:00-1:15
Flipped this on it’s head. Rip the script up now, flip it don’t pretend, slipping shit again, Fakers all around me, I’ve been living in pretense. Fake friends won’t make amends. There’s no need, these mean comments control the scenes. Attentionseekers, the spine is weakened
1:15-1:24
This family needs, what a family needs, and the planet bleeds, the damaged trees. It’s never leaving til we ascend so fuck the fence, and until they stop killing colour it’s fuck the feds.
1:22 - 1:44
You must be off it, I mean it, you know you ain’t never get with the judging and I used to dread growing my beard too long, never felt I belonged, but it's really long like a minute I ain’t looking to no mans for the limits, They’re feeling timid, I’m telling them who they mimic, why they don't look like a clinic …. Why they don't get no women, Still, we’re just fucking girls, Lost in the wrong world, Jurassic, now to this vermin
1:41- 1: 50
Kicking the game I’m serving, these losers are never learning, my fire is forever burning, adding it to my fuel, seems like I’m always focused on never becoming you, These locals that rob us feeling … was for a reason.
1:52-2:02
I’m seeing my new beginnings, watch out this loser’s winning, and no water is too deep to swim in Like I’m about to see a killing, I’m all the way that and living, flawless and feeling lawless, the prison now to the gimmicks, my vision is set to something,
2:03-:2:20
I’m watching you bitches plummet, no matches here for my cunning, you rappers are feeling done in, switching your genre, running and Running your jaw, stunting, pulling at straws, something I think you’re a poor effort, deaf and tone deaf and I ain’t treat you separate. Living, I’m in my element, riding it like a … never lose me to fentanyl, scared when I take a benadryl. Keeping it green in general
2:20- 2:46
Think that you remain irrelevant. Look at yourself with reverence, hoping to always elevate. Celibate of these thoughts, killing themselves with sedatives. In comparison to eminem, you’re feeling feminine. Impolitically correct, still dropping on my dick. And I never gave a fuck about what they say abt my shit, I’ve been moving things in my mind like it’s this mountain dew Memories have made me wonder if one day I’m after you. What’s the purpose that you do, is what you're hoping that they learn, i’d like to say i’m done but it’s getting up on my nerves
2:46 -2:55
I’m looking at my life, saying what do I deserve. It’s hard to say I know when I’m walking through the dirt. Talking while you’re nothing I can see for what it’s worth. I’m tired of feeling hurt and I’ve tried enough but nothing works.
2:55-3:40
I’m racking up excuses while I’m slacking off on work. Chit chatting is the usual, talking to this clerk, i beg you don’t include me. I might write it on my shirt so everytime they see me, the oldest know to swerve. SWERVE Life is potent, bits of fucked shit… till they took notice weren’t no hocus pocus, it was hard work that got me heard so i put in the graph like google maps but the whole earth
… around my door mat, taking over like the drones, rolling dirt up in miles like the water, and exploding like Annas hematoma. Don't need to see a slammer to know that I don't want to go man
I’m a showman. I’m just focused on the drama… like i’ve got my own insurance, show myself the pain, like i boxed it in the frame, if we’re about to talk greatness im great, the way you have to say my name like beyonce
“Say my name”
4:00-4:46
Just a bum with a cigarette, sun coming up, all my thoughts on the internet. Feeling deep, I’m just bored with the silhouette single sec, get fucked up for the thrill of it . killer streak playing Pacman. Like I came from the Philippines vanilla bean still a thing for the thrill of scene,
Theres a beam, UFO, Leave it well alone I aint moving, stood still on the peloton, telephone and its always on the dial tone, it's been a while since i’ve smiled at a milestone, seen a big pile in my mind stone, me against the world on my Jack Jones, Like I’m John Jones, With pictures in the condo, far from John Doe, in the ___, like I'm Johnny Bravo, got pravado, with a small dick sitting in golados, feeling far gone, cuz that last hit was the good shit, was that stay lit
4:48-5:02
You can never take my shit come and get me. On the top floor, cloud 9, fading, never bailing, felt amazing, inhaling, til my lungs two guns blazing. Overcome all the stunts that I pulled. A suit of just skin and then wool
5:02- 5:17
This life doesn’t give you no armour, a lot of myself can harm ya. I swear on what’s good, that I’m here till they take me. I pray that I’m wrinkled, at least over 80, and start moving like a ruler, ?damaged? Like a computer going fast, bars from the jeweler, bring the songs to the beach in hopes of finding tuna
5:18-5:36
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5:36- 6:16
Grab a bat, lose my rag. Couple things got me mad, a couple people got me wrong and now I’m changing up the swag. Coming in and stealing it, I might take the whole bag. Feeling undefeated, I’m a beast with a reason, and imma lead the whole pack. Fearless like I’m Caesar, I’m just waiting for a chance to fill it up with diesel, and all I've been achieving is clocking miles in its region, moving like a legion.
Promise that I made to myself an allegiance. Do you still believe I’m a fool for ever leaving, staring at the ceiling, can never put a cap on achieving. I’m just here for the rap, then I’m leaving.
I’ve had about enough of being my own enemy, it’s time I grew up, a long way from 17. Always went against the grain, struggles in my life. Got some things to say when I stand up on a mike.
6:16-6:32
I ain’t dropping this for fame, I need this time, like therapy, it’s just to keep me sane. The truth is on my medicine, can’t put that on your plate.
Speeding into everything, bout time I fixed the brakes. Don’t say I can’t communicate , you know I conversate with you in several different ways. And I know you know it’s references, looking at your face.
6:33- 6:53
Can’t justify mistakes, like every man that made them, seems I ain't the one to blame. Lying to myself, only had so much to gain, so now I’m switching up the plate, see if that affects the place, im at on most days
I ain’t going with the usual so they looking at me strange. Confused, I can feel it all, I’m here to make a change. It’s cold at 3am outside, I’m walking with the dog, thanking god that you don’t talk at all, my mind is switching off
6:54-7:12
Driving down to find myself, cuz I’ve been getting lost, lived this selfless life and found I can give a toss. Lessons that I’ve learned I’ve tried teaching to myself. What I’ve learnt from certain people is that they’re better than myself.
So I surround myself with real ones, and you feel the plastic melt. Like burning toy soldiers that used to go up on the shelf. Recycle the ideas, conveying on the belt
7:14-7:29
.. circus, always hurting the way we felt? Embarrassed that we dreamt of bigger things and letting go of notions till we feel them in cement
Tired of only hoping, we feel broken men. Cuz the gravity is weight and has kept us to the ground, see the only people speaking with favors in their mouths
7:46-7:58
Got killer rhymes… no fillers, like godzilla, eating clouds cuz my smokes thicker, throat licker, my dope sicker, bringing people their hope like im the pope slicker, i hope you’re getting the point cuz i walk quicker
I thought my city was shit bcs I want bigger like my zipper couldn’t zip up fed up with the…my love is fickle.. Residual age has a primitive face
I see demise for your limited ways, Left it to simmer, simmer away…a fake glimmer in the haze
8:09-8:11
Feeling trapped this industry is a cage
8:34-8:50
Nobody’s speaking the truth, I’m offended by the State. Look at the state of the news, I’ve decided the argument, reciting my views, while they’ve been sat in their chairs, I’m feeling pressure to choose.
Standing here as one man, how can I do half when you’re half the person I am. If it wasn’t in your life, you didn’t choose it. It’s the funny thing about music. It’s the pain and beauty of it.
8:52-9:11
Don’t give a fuck what my suit is, it looks good so I wear it, better than the shoot that People’s wearing, changing the whole narrative for these basics and scarcity
Been facing the racists from back when i were a kiddie .born up in in 93’. been living in Bradford City..kicked me out of the schools, they had a problem with me hitting the kids that would call me p*** still sitting in the classroom chilling, and i'm angry now that I’m older I see they treat us different
9:12-9:25
got me thinking I’m the problem cuz they never dealt with those issues.
20 years later I’m still in the same boat, tryna treat me like my grandpa, say I came up off the boat. Came to tell you what I stand for, man I think you’re shit, a joke. How can I be civil, when they got me by the throat
9:25-9:35
Pushing my feelings down, you ain’t got it like them
‘Boy your skin is so light’, ok motherfucker take my name up on a flight. Try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white.
9:35-9:45
I don’t know how that’s acceptable, when life is more susceptible to perception, be the death of them. I’ve been looking at the sky saying where’s that day of reckoning, you had your prophets right when they say that you would speak to them.
9:45-9:55
I need justice in this life and I trust that it’s my fight, cuz when I’m writing it feels right to have them focused on the facts again. Focused on the rap again, hoping for the change, gunna put this on the map again
9:55-10:16
Writing in all caps again, the pain, it goes through me so I write the letter. All the shit that could have brought me but made me better.
I’m at home with a pain in my soul , yeh rap… cuz you know I was too real to contest it, my time was invested. Now I look at the industry, I see it infested, looking like kids who would write on nesquik.
10:17-10:29
My name ain’t on the list unless they label it ethnic.
I ain’t never gave a fuck about these jokers and jesters. Ain’t no answers for these things, so just save us the questions, man allowed of violence, cuz my silence is deafening, your opinion stinks, somebody get him a breath mint.
10:30- 10:42
Start to understand why they think that I’m threatening, I move in certain ways, couldn’t slow me with ketamine Now they all wanna hear me, got a table at letterman. Direction changed, like I changed up the lettering. Don’t believe the age ,bcs I move like a veteran.
10:42 - 10:47
Raised on the benefit for whose benefit, they’ll never learn shit, man, if the shoe fits.
…no words coming out when you open your mouth
And to be honest, it’s insulting, offensive to my wounds that have been salting. Tryna ask me questions that they know I never answer. I’d rather sit online and reply to the fan art
11:00-11:06
Fuck a sports car, coming through when i rapped
tell you what I like, farm life and the tractor
11:06- 11:17
Fake life, 'sup online, suck a fat one. You don’t wanna buy into that, none of that son. Sitting in the garden 98’ in the Datsun, seen some hot summers but I still remember that sun.
*music*
11:51- 12:34
I make millions off of my pain, cause I know a few millions still living that way
Dealing with the hurt, they should know cause they don’t deserve it, it hit deep cause i hit the nerve. Only way that the sheep learn if the street firm, in my ways I don’t wanna change, everything just stay the same
Who you tryna convince you understand, cant maintain, let the lights dim some, get the Chow Mein, flex, get the tape, right up at night
Why these men be nice to my face, be nice, i ain’t tryna be a gangsta ruins my vibe
Rather be low-key and on my phone. Never need the trophy or the show piece
Never show peace in a North Face fleece. Show kids this like i wrote my flip
Cause the sign might fit till the start i’m sick
12:37-13:05
Now you see where I come from, the world don’t. Only achievement in this life is the Jordans. Committing petty crimes out of boredom, we can’t afford them. So I stole it, need a rolex
Go make sense, get yourself a job, It’s a poor man’s game tryna sit and pray to god, he ain’t sorting out your problems, gotta sort them out yourself
Used to tell us fables, now I’m writing them myself, Cause we raw like animals we all just need some help
Cathartic, I’m an artist, trying to put my heart in
Felt double crossed like Leo in Departed
13:05- 13:27
For the knowledge i’m not charging see I got it all free
But my hunger kept me starving like i’m feening for the feed
I just Need a reason to see me bleeding for my creed. Trick you with the words like I keep em up my sleeve. Picking where I fit, I see me sitting with the queen
I ain’t doing it unless you’re used to saying please
Let me flow a bit, before I sting 'em with the bees, They tryna kill us with disease
(Music)
13:34- 14:12
Why does it feel like they had the same notebook and the same four looks
Like the rain won't touch on their face, so sus when they lie don’t trust not a minor
Please no fuss, I just move through the game like must
Something in the way i adjust till i stick, Free falling like the ship, free fall till i bust
Remember 21 brother gave no fucks. Trying to project when they give them looks
In the projects, in the objects us
In my own way, never gave me love, shoulda never started this, broken hearted kid
Dried up the feeling till I stole the lid
Don’t wanna relish in the fame but I can’t resist
14:46-14:58
I like the way we feel, I like the way, I like the way
Ain’t no mistake, i am a being
I ain’t tryna be a leader, been selling out since Jesus
All my rhymes are for the readers, between the lines, like Father time, I fuck Mother Nature
14:58-15:40
That’s what they get, the connotations. Tell 'em I lived a life, and then I lived a life of adjacent? like its…. and played it patient.
Alone on my own spaceship, always tryna find greatness, still defying lines, but I’m fighting in my prime.
Shining light like Kylo while imma kill it all the time. Aging like I’m wine
Asian in my face, but still my race you can’t define. Focused on defiance, imma fight it while it’s life.
Started something sick and on my mind is what’s next, just became a dad so now I’m taking all the cheques. Better know I’m staying and paying like it’s debt. Imma get it done, if it’s taking all my breath, sweat, and down I ain’t messing around til I’m the best
Speaking in full sentences, shoulda thought about a strategy before you went at the stratosphere about this… rings around Saturn, this ain’t a battle, I’m sat, I’m here
15:40-16:22
Catch me doing magic, hired and sounding tragic I think you could use practice and until that you get the blacklist and pull like a … actress? Fooling them like a catfish, schooling like a legend, happy to be the reference, fusing like iridescence, leaving them all guessing, leaking out of my brain like a pipe I aint fixing, shining like a star you can see it from a distance
Aint many of me around p*** I’m just different Certain stages to this level aint here because fame is to the devil fuck a label, imma do this from the ghetto, clean up like Im Dettol
I’m the man to put a bet on, sight smart like a weapon, this is my kind of setting, i write the world I’m sat in, while these others live on hype, i see them fight in how they type, the fruit is ripe for the taking, i think i might
16:22-16:57
Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here
16:58- 17:47
Eccentric things are mentioned like a kid stuck in detention tryna escape im just spitting what is written on the next page, spitting image of my dad in his young days
Born sinner when i’m livid i say fucks sake
Don’t worry i’m too cunning with no plumbing, the waterworks, i sung something that resonates, i thought it first like giving birth to the parrot perch
They see me do it and they know it works
Don’t know what’s worse: the way that you live your life or the way that you write a verse
You’ll be nervous, you don’t deserve it we’ll scratch the surface ill leave a crater, lift the dirt up to find the hurting
Can’t know for certain nothing is guaranteed, tryna be a better person than the world deserves to see cuz i see a lot of sharks still swimming in the sea
Cease and arrest what’s the reason.. And these the kinda kids we bringing up next
Distorted reality, all they needed was family, too hard to face, to see what the damage is
17:47
*i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, no, i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, *
18:04-18:38
Sometimes they ask the questions too deep to form a sentence, to disform, is this the norm, is this the sentence i feel defenseless i played the setlist, and all my sweat blood and tears, forgot to mention feeling lost, going off into different sections i feel like love wrecked it
If it’s not a drug why am i waiting for the next fix, affected, i cant believe that you left this
I guess I leave for the best wish, moving on like im fine for the lectures
We see it all from spectrums, cuz if we’re falling down we can fall down together
Staircase to heaven, mirror down the middle like 11, resentment on one side it won’t settle
18:38- 19:14
Mind fried but taking sense, they aint got a sense of themselves in the rich ends
Need to spell it out for them.. Made for them so witness
I know you feel afflicted but you always love it with me while im laughing at you, ya think you’re laughing with me
I try to (i love you) but im grown so they don’t fit me, my body thrown from the new to this old city so Im sick of sitting on my own, feeling so shitty, i’ve been on roads where its cold and the snow hitting
Its okay to be yourself, sit and talking to myself
I’ve been walking for the longest, just need a little rest, know i ain’t the strongest, I can feel it in my chest, talking about my feelings and of me, they get the best
19:14-19:59
They aint leaving, seeing breathing in my breath
Till death do us part is just seeded in my heart, like a work of art
Never winning,im just scared
Cant begin from the start, do i play a part in the rhythm of the night
I guess i’m onto something cuz the dark is feeling right
Every cloud got a lining, put my own miles in, like moralis, figured that they’re jealous, that they could just never tell us to change because the weather never made me question whether or not i’m not that level
Got rid of all the bullshit sitting in my way, most of them are full of shit i see it every day
I do hearing the same things that i do, maybe that shits hitting like haiku
How much do you pay for them to hype you
Recycle your flaws but they aint like new, leaving and conceded and full of diesel like engines that need a cleaning, the ending will be revealing. Even though we ain’t raising the facts, now we been facing.
20:01-20:52
The cactus with spikes, needing spaces. Different faces, the same story. A full body like straight body direct to your system.
Could never tell 'em we missed’ em. Not even with the thoughts, we gift them. Cuz they just take advantage, guess we are caught in a system.
My soul pouring out details of borrowed time, had enough of a fill, this is for sorrow time. I’m seeing visions of Heaven, I seen the severed line, between the gospel they speak and when theyre telling lies.
Remember telling a friend of mine, you’d sent of mine, identified like a 3rd eye. Got a habit of knowing now where the dirt lies. So benign. I ain’t sober after 9, so I fuck their minds. Why you flipping out, see another
Try to rep it from the city, fuck a chiller crew, repping for the nittys, trying to keep us down, raised on the social, don’t want to let us out of the system. Me, I insist we assist them, me alone putting shifts til I lift them
20:53-21:12
I know it’s hard, that’s why I like it, I’m fit to fight it, I’m from the North, I’m backing Tyson, it’s been decided, don’t see no light. They needing guiding, just redefining, realizing, I’m realigning, in full finance, they stay silenced.
Can’t be louder, I’m juiced up with no powder. I fix shit like a slick spanner. Gone green like Bruce Banner. So free Gaza on my banner
21:12-21:51
The real McCoy, I ain’t nothing to toy with, signifying peace like a Japanese Koi Fish. How did this happen, we’re moving backwards in our timeline, killing us with cyanide, Right up for the freedom 'til we transform like Ironhide
This is bout my feelings, the way that I move affects the fate that I’m sealing. Can’t say nothing, with that something being on the page, kept inside the pen like the bars that have been kept caged. See I always had a plan, since I was young, we had nothing man
Now it’s been a few years since I ain’t seen the fam, on foreign lands. Bout to climb Everest in the avalanche. Right into the riddles as soon as you were born. Never asking the question cuz it’s the norm. See I’m in a questionin’ session
21:52-22:03
Like the manner got a method to teaching a lesson, listen to MF Doom, he taught me like Ra’s Al Ghul. Felt like living in Gotham, the people were rotten. Still we play cartoons so it’s never forgotten.
22:03-22:15
Chilling at the top but we came from the bottom. Writing and jottin for them life by, spotting the difference
*Dreams, was growing out of me, sun promising that tomorrow it will rise, time playing games with my mind, I swear it will pass us by
Train goes on the tracks, smoke, I’m tired to hide my thoughts, so blinded in flames, Don’t know where we’re going, I have no way of knowing, only see what’s in my head
Can’t we wait a minute, so we can savour this, It’s on my brain again, these days, It on my brain again these days”
23:10-23:46
They’re hating on Palestine ways, The oh no Palace playing Prince on the Steinway, Sending out mind waves, stop them like crimewaves, Freedom fighter, Yellow Metal is my name
Like vipers, I see the sly ones, the snake that’s called Biden, none of them abiding what they might put in writing
We should be used to it by now, say whatever for the vote and then just choose another route, say they’d never kill another unless that brother’s skin is brown
I’m just telling you the facts, if you can’t take it, the truth naked, to bare bones and my thoughts lately, spitting politics.. Done ain’t it, Shit just gets me vexed, and now I’m sitting that I think of it
23:45-23:59
Feeling on the brink of it, whatever it is, Figure out some shit at least it feels that way
talk about my feelings and I don’t feel so strange, finding solace, that’s a promise, in Metropolis but being honest, can’t write a sonnet, without some pain
24:00-24:40
Can’t fade away, away so we can savour this, been on my brain again these days
Can't find a way to be so you can savour this, been on my brain these days
Singing the song for another, singing a song for another
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Heyo, this is my first time asking (im kinda new to tumblr, so please dont judge) if you would'nt mind, could you do some headcannons (or oneshots, it dosen't matter) with all the demon bros and a MC who is crippled/paralized in their legs, and has to use a wheelchair to get around? Thank you!!
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This is the first time I’ve written about a crippled MC, so I hope I didn’t fuck this up or anything. I found out that being paralysed in both legs is a disability called Paraplegia so that’s how I titled this post. And y’all are too sweet, you are more than welcome anon! I hope I can portray this properly because I am not crippled myself so I’ve opted to do some research before writing this! I hope you like it! Also, I feel inclined to add that none of the brothers would treat you too differently if you happen to have a disability because you’re their human nonetheless :)
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The Brothers with an MC that has Paraplegia and needs a wheelchair to get around:
Lucifer:
-Lucifer was in charge of choosing the final human, exchange student for the program so it’s guaranteed he already knew about your predicament before you even arrived
-Him and Diavolo probably had many meetings concerning your disability before the program could commence, considering that being unable to walk would double the chances of you getting killed since you are obviously more vulnerable
-Not to mention all the treatment you would require
-Lucifer is not well versed in human illnesses and disorders, but he makes sure that he is educated enough on the matter before you get brought down there
-It would not be easy, but he is determined to help you survive your year in DevilDom for the prince’s sake
-First problem of the day was, of course, your wheelchair
-Due to lack of time, Lucifer was unable to instal ramps around the House of Lamentation which meant that for the first couple of weeks, someone would’ve had to help you move around certain parts of the house
-He gave that highly prestigious job to himself because he didn’t trust his brothers and thought they would accidentally drop you and your wheelchair down the stairs
-He talks a lot to you, even at the beginning, because he needs to establish your needs and what he should do to make sure you don’t die for the following year
-You would have to tell him about physical therapy and how most commonly it uses heat, massage and exercise to stimulate your nerves and muscles, making it a great treatment for people with leg paralysis
-Once you two enter a more intimate and personal relationship, it’s more than likely he’ll help you perform those things himself (instead of kidnapping a human doctor from somewhere)
-Lucifer knows you have no problem getting around with your wheelchair by yourself but there are times where he’ll insist to push you along in order to give you a quick break
-I can totally imagine you two strolling around DevilDom and having cosy chats about RAD and your adjustments to DevilDom
-He has a softer side to him that he’s afraid to show most of the time, but he feels so at ease when you’re around, it’s hard for him to hold that part of him hidden from you
-Of course, your safety still remains his primary concern and he acts more like your guardian than Mammon does, even if he was originally supposed to look out for you
-He will accompany you almost anywhere. And if he can’t, he’ll have one or more of his brothers do it. And even then he’s probably lurking nearby, just in case
-He would always be willing to listen about your condition, if you wished to tell him whether you were born with the defect or why you ended up crippled later in life. Either way, he’s all ears
-If you would rather not speak about it, he wouldn’t pry and respect your decision because he knows it’s not his place to pressure you
-Because of your paralysis, it’s quite obvious to demons that you are even weaker (physically speaking) than most humans and that usually puts a target on your back
-Howver, never fear, because Lucifer is pretty quick to put lower rank demons in their place with just a mere stare
-Oop one of them passed out from the fear, haha
-In conclusion, he’s the most responsible when it comes your comfort and safety during your stay
-He makes sure you are always left in good hands and and provides most of the requirements you need
-Y’all should see how his wings puff up when he senses a threat approaching you, he looks like a peacock ready to go on attack lol
Mammon:
-The second born is unsurprisingly a bit of a jerk at first
-He stays really grumpy the whole day of your arrival because he’s stuck babysitting you stupid human
-“Lucifer c’mon, what’s all this workload for? The human can’t even walk by themselves, why do I have to help them out?”
-Wtf Mammon you can’t say shit like that
-Anyways, the following very few days, the only thing he’s thinking about is how much money he could sell your wheelchair for
-He’s the literal incarnation of greed, what else did you expect from him?
-After a while, he starts feeling a bit guilty every time he thinks about it though
-Mammon is gonna take this secret to the grave (laughs in immortal) but he actually really likes pushing you around
-Maybe it’s because it’s a clear indication to everyone around him that you are HIS human, under HIS protection and therefore you trust HIM the most since he was your FIRST MAN
-He will insist on helping you get out of that thing when you need to go to bed and stuff every night and he will get pouty real fast if you let any of his other brothers do it
-You wake up to him trying to roll around in your wheelchair one night at like 3am
-At some point, he stole a wheelchair from the human realm to match with his human. You can guess the consequences of his actions
-I can imagine you having to face a staircase or something at school and Mammon being like:
-“Fuck it, imma carry this fragile human instead; wheelchair and all!”
-Like you were a sack of potatoes or something smh
-Cue his brothers watching him from a distance as he heaves you and basically weight-lifts you up the stairs
-Ok but every now and again, he gets so sad thinking about you not being able to walk, like he starts crying kinda sad
-While you stand there like 😐 “Why are you crying?”
-He’s so quick to help if he senses you’re in danger too
-It’s canon that Mammon is crazy fast if he wants to be so if he has even the slightest impression that your life is threatened, his feet are already moving
-He will charge at your immediate threat at around 120 miles per hour-do not try him when he’s mad
-“The Great Mammon saved the day! C’mon MC, let’s go buy some ice cream. My treat! Ya better be grateful!”
-He says while the demon that tried to eat you lies on the floor with about a dozen broken bones
-Mammon is the second most powerful demon out of all of his brothers, even if he doesn’t resort to violence often
Levi:
-He didn’t really know how to react when you first teleported to DevilDom
-I mean, from the very beginning he considered you to be a human normie but at the same time, he felt bad you were stuck with his brothers for the rest of the year
-I think he would understand you would have an even harder time integrating yourself in their house because of your disability and he knows his siblings are really fucking annoying, always pushing you around and whatnot
-So, he kinda lets you hide in his room quite often
-You guys chill out in there all the time, much to the dismay of the other brothers who also want to spend time with you
-At some point, Levi definitely begged asked Lucifer to let you start online classes with him
-“But wouldn’t it be easier for MC to do online school from home rather than go to R.A.D since there aren’t any ramps or anything around there???”
-“The answer is no Leviathan.”
-“Ugh fine! What a fucking boomer-“
-For some reason, he gets so flustered whenever you ask him to push you around
-He blushes right to the tips of his ears and then he starts sputtering some nonsense that you can’t make out at all
-But he’s more than happy to do it, especially if you guys are going to a convention or if he’s dragging you out to buy new merch
-You two would get along in the sense that Levi realises the struggles you faced all your life were tough to overcome and he believes you are just like him
-Usually left out by other people, ignored even
-He knows you always listen to him ramble on about whatever he is currently obsessed with and how much you check up on him to make sure he never isolated himself
-He wants to do that for you too! Talk to him about your hobbies, please I’m begging you-he feels so bad whenever he’s doing all the talking
-If you ask him to help you with anything (getting something, helping you into bed—that sort of thing), he legally and physically can’t say ‘no’
-And he would get envious enough to stop talking to you for a day or two if you let his brothers do it instead (the second and third born are indeed similar lmao)
-S T A Y I N H I S R O O M, W H E R E Y O U C A N B E P R O T E C T E D !
-He will feel so much more at ease if you’re in his room because to him, that’s his haven
-If you’re in there with him, that means you’re not getting involved in his siblings’ endless and dangerous shenanigans
-Whenever you’re at school, he can’t help but worry about your well-being
-Because you’re human! You’re gonna get killed!! Do you know how much your organs sell on the black market in DevilDom??? 100x more than in the human realm, that’s for sure
-Would they have a black market or would it be a regular market lol
-For some reason, he also likes staying in your wheelchair when you’re not using it
-I think he just takes comfort in knowing it’s something that belongs to you and smells like you and-
-OK Levi, sit back down
-He wouldn’t treat you any differently if you had a disability tbh, but he’d be more concerned because you can’t even run away or anything
-So he’s so fuckin’ relieved when you guys are just vibing in his room
-He could die happy knowing he kept his best friend/ partner safe
Satan:
-Satan would be even more prepared for your arrival than Lucifer would, in a sense
-Out of all of his brothers, he’s most likely to understand and recognise paraplegia (either from studying human illnesses/birth defects/disabilities or from encountering humans with said disability)
-He’s a smart boy, alright?
-Always seems to be the first to notice if you need help or if someone’s bothering you
-Though in the very beginning, he was pretty tempted to just let you get killed to see how angry Lucifer could get
-Seeing dear Luci’s misery brings him great joy 🥰🥰🥰
-Once you two manage to build a very honest and strong relationship, he feels more and more inclined to keep you out of harm’s way
-Pls, he would feel so honoured if you let him push you around (it’s like you asked him to h*ld h*nds or something)
-If you require treatment of any kind, he would be so happy to help
-But in a subtle way...?
-Satan makes it seem so smooth too like he doesn’t mind lending a helping hand when in reality he’s all giddy inside
-*Kinda wants to rub it in his brothers’ faces but at the same no, because he’s definitely the bigger person here
-He wants to know how your wheelchair works
-It’s got all of these neat mechanisms and he wants to learn how they’re constructed because he never had the chance to inspect one before
-He’s such a sweetheart about asking you as well and never pries about your disability unless you start elaborating yourself
-Most of the time, he acts all charming and very gentleman-like
-So people have a hard time spotting and acknowledging the building rage inside of him every time he sees you are threatened by some moronic low rank demon
-Satan’s usually chill when it comes to injuries, unless he can see you’re in horrible pain
-There’s nothing a few spells can’t accomplish
-But when others purposefully try harming you?
-It’s like he loses all the self control he’s been trying to perfect over the centuries and he can’t help himself from at least breaking someone’s rib cage
-Satan’s a weird one because he’s protective of you even though he’s more on the relaxed side when compared to his siblings
-He very much acknowledges that you made it this far in life with your predicament so he doesn’t feel the need to baby you or anything
-You’re strong and he knows this
-It’s one of the many things he clearly loves about you
-That one time you rolled over Mammon’s foot with your wheelchair on purpose, he was wheezing
Asmo:
-Even now, he can’t help but wonder what it would be like to be stuck inside a wheelchair for the rest of his eternal life
-I mean, he’d obviously still be absolutely fabulous, have you seen him? He’s gonna be gorgeous either way
-But after the two of you meet, he definitely starts thinking about how he takes his feet for granted all the time
-It would be so difficult to complete his daily tasks without the ability to walk or run around
-That’s why he gets sad every time he remembers that’s your reality and on days like that, you’ve noticed he gives you a helluva lot more attention than usual
-He knows you don’t need pity or anything so he’s just making sure his human has all the support they can get
-Paraplegia or not, shopping trips are still a go-go
-He loves buying you clothes! And he loves helping you try them on! Asmo takes it very seriously
-Might have a go at the employees if they’re being rude to you
-You don’t even ask him to, but he subconsciously starts pushing you around himself whenever the two of you are out together
-“MC! Look at that new shop that’s just opened! Isn’t it adorable? We have to check it out!”
-He can’t help it! There’s so many places he wants to visit, he sort of just drags you with him wherever he goes
-Even at home, he always pops out of nowhere to coax you into coming to his room
-Y’all have so many skin routines to do each day
-Like he’s in your room most nights to greet you goodnight and tuck you in, with the rest of his brothers it gets so awkward at times
-Asmo just wants to see you smile, ok? He thinks you have a beautiful smile and laugh and he wants to remind you that you’re marvellous, disability or not
-And if anyone does anything to put an end to your self confidence, he will swiftly put an end to their life
-Please, he’s a pro at ruining lives, he’s been doing it for centuries
-Asmo has such a huge influence over the people in DevilDom, he just needs to make this one post on Devilgram to end said demon’s whole career
-I mean, who is he compared to him, Hmm? So don’t worry MC, scum like that don’t even deserve to breathe the same air as you :)
-That one time Mammon tried lifting you up the stairs and Asmo started shrieking, like put them down! Don’t manhandle them like that, poor human :(
Beel:
-I know I sound repetitive, but he would be an overall sweetheart to you no matter the circumstances
-If Mammon is not by your side, then Beel definitely is
-His big, scary aura and figure usually scares off any threat in a 10 mile radius
-Most demons don’t fancy being eaten by the Avatar of Gluttony, ya know?
-Idk why but I feel like he’d be the type to ask for oral consent every time he wanted to push you around
-He doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable :(
-Surprisingly also the type to lift you and your wheelchair whenever an obstacle gets in your way
-You basically weigh the same amount as a paper plate compared to him, so he has no problem doing so
-He doesn’t really understand your condition as well as Satan may do, but he’s trying his best
-You mean so much to him and he feels it’s only fair he learns more about your disability as a thank you for what you’ve done for him
-He has a rough time keeping up with you when it comes to stuff like physical therapy because he’s very unfamiliar with it but that doesn’t mean he’s not gonna help
-Of course, Beel believes that this is the second best way to show you how much he cares for you besides the obvious ‘I love you’
-Giving you a hand whenever you need his support the most
-That’s his way of saying “I’m not going to let you down. I want you to trust me, the same way I trust you.”
-And knowing him, he will try to do everything in his power to keep you safe and sound
-After a while, you’re bound to notice he’s the first one to pull you out of his brothers’ pranks before you have a chance to get hurt
-Beel is always the one handing you stuff from high places you can’t reach, without teasing you for it like Mammon might do
-Always the first one to remind you to get plenty of rest and to eat enough
-He wants to protect you and his brothers because he knows he failed to do so with Lilith so yeah, he’s a bit overprotective at times
-He doesn’t mean to be overbearing, but he gets so anxious knowing you’re by yourself
-After a few months of getting accommodated with him, your disability is no longer brought up in the conversation
-Because he doesn’t care that you are crippled and forced to use a wheelchair
-You are part of his family and he loves you no matter what
Belphie:
-He didn’t really care, even when you first met and his hatred for humans was at its very peak
-It didn’t matter that you had a disability
-All that mattered to him at the time was killing you to satisfy that deeply rooted need of vengeance inside of him
-Though he was sort of surprised his brothers didn’t get to you first
-In general, he’s pretty chill about you being crippled in both legs
-It takes too much effort to worry about your well-being 24/7 after all
-Surprisingly, he does keep an eye out for you if his siblings aren’t nearby
-It’s his redemption arc people, he’s trying to be nicer
-But he has such an irritating way of showing his affection for you
-Do not let him push you around
-He’s either going to a) fall asleep after 30 seconds and slump over you in the middle of RAD’s halls
-Or b) be annoying and fling your wheelchair in every direction possible just to piss you off
-He likes messing with you because you give him the best reactions and he thrives on that
-You’ve almost fallen off your wheelchair multiple times because of this asshole
-Not that he’d actually let you fall, he just wants to see how easily he can get you to yell at him
-Speaking of said wheelchair, like Mammon and Levi, he also loves using it when you’re not
-You’ve woken up to him curled up and asleep in that thing quiet often and he’s gotten in trouble over it every time with Lucifer
-But he doesn’t care
-And at this point, I don’t think even he knows whether he’s doing it to get a reaction out of you or because he somehow found a way to make himself comfortable there
-He would low key use you as a mode of transportation every time you go to RAD
-Just clings the damn wheelchair and almost topples both of you over
-“Belphie, there’s nothing stopping you from walking 😐”
-“Shh, just bring me to class and let me nap until then.”
-He doesn’t mention your legs but he still lays his head on your lap often
-Might make you hold him like a bride every time you stroll around the house
-It’s done out of love, I promise 😌😌
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Al~
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