#it’ll be a bit bitersweet if I do have it cos it means I’ll have gone 12 years without help because of stereotypes but OH WELL

[komaedian]

Happy personal ramble just gotta get it outta my system before I spill my medical history out to all my coworkers tomorrow lol

So since I was like 15 I’ve thought I had adhd but kept getting dismissed cos I was a ✨smart girl✨ and that means I couldn’t have it 🫠

After getting a diagnosis of bipolar and being in treatment for a few years a psych agreed they thought I had ADHD cos it’s a common overlap and the bipolar meds weren’t treating the executive dysfunction. I got referred but that was in March 2020 and for obvious reasons that all kinda fell apart and I moved back to Scotland for a year and a bit so couldn’t be re referred to the team

Last summer I was finally referred again and put on the wait list for an assessment but the wait list was 2 years long because of how backed up they got during the pandemic 🥲 there’s still 18 months to go BUT yesterday I got a call out of the blue from the ADHD team and they’re running a research study on how to properly treat ADHD in people with bipolar disorder, I meet the criteria and they’re gonna get me assessed WITHIN THE MONTH AND IF I HAVE IT IMMEDIATELY START MEDS AND SUPPORT

I’ve been so worried over whether I’m gonna be able to finish my PhD cos it had gotten so bad and the original assessment wasn’t scheduled until after my thesis hand in date, ngl I cried a little from relief when the researcher told me😭 either I get a diagnosis and immediately get help, or we find out I don’t have it and it rules something out and proves we need to change my other medication because it’s not working properly, BIG WIN EITHER WAY 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳