#it was too overwhelming sensory-wise and task wise but i did love the dogs and my coworkers

[amoripomoea]

i got fired out of nowhere for being neurodivergent today 🤪 big wall of text ahead

i've been making some mistakes at work and have told my supervisors many times that i think i'm just struggling to get the hang of things since i've only been there a couple months, and that ill get more confident as i get more practice. i do things that seem to be common sense only for them to turn out to NOT be common sense and have some other nuance that i was supposed to just somehow telepathically understand.

my manager pulled me aside to briefly talk about it a week and a half ago and also wanted to check in on how i was feeling. based on what she said and how she said it, it felt like a casual conversation more so about my progress since im new. i brought up those small mistakes too and told her that it was a busy week the last week and i was overwhelmed and stretched thin, so i unintentionally missed some things while trying to get us caught up. i explained my nd experiences/symptoms in a roundabout way and i owned up to the mistakes, showed her that i learned from them, and wouldn't do them again. she said okay and that was that.

fast forward to today and she's furious w me. a customer got irrationally upset and made a whole fucking scene about a small mistake i made and went to corporate about it. most of the issue was a miscommunication on the customers part; i did everything i could to communicate as clear as possible but i guess it wasn't good enough bc she insisted i didn't tell her everything she needed to know. because my manager is a stickler for making the business more money, naturally she followed up with the customer. no matter what i had to say and no matter how much sense it made, it was the customers word over mine. my manager said she'd do more research on it but that i was essentially suspended until thursday, even though she said that she wanted to fire me on the spot.

fast forward again to an hour and a half after my shift ended. she starts calling me. i'm upset and not in the right headspace to answer so i let it go to voicemail. i listen to the voicemail and she fired me over the phone. didn't even have the decency do to it in person. i had no official write ups or formal disciplinary conversations either. just immediately fired.

now i'm mass applying to jobs again and also applying to unemployment because i don't have an income to fall back on.

i mean... clearly i dodged a bullet. if this is how she handles mistakes, then she showed me that i can't be comfortable coming to her for support. i can't work for someone like that. i'm still upset because i loved my coworkers and i loved the dogs, but so much was expected of me for minimum wage and i know i can get so much better elsewhere.

idk i'm having a lot of weird feelings today. i'm upset, irritated, disappointed, sad, but also relieved