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novemberthewriter · 2 months ago

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i need to write about how that school district was also on some weird cultural xtian shit in addition to the covert (and overt) racism bc like, i went to actual xtian school b4 i moved to this state and did k-12 in public school that was supposed to be secular ... like obv i get how baked in certain things are w like almost every us public school (major breaks scheduled around xmas easter etc) but it was also things like teachers firmly chiding kids for saying 'oh my god' every minute and it would drive me nuts ... this was well before i even started questioning my views on faith. on a base level i would think 1) that's not what 'taking the lord's name in vain' means and 2) this isn't even a xtian school. i went to xtian school. why do you care what anyone is saying as long as they're not actually cussing??

#ooooh when i finally move away from this area i can tell the juicy juicy stuff about the town i grew up in and its relation to racism #like why were we singing/playing hymns in music class/band/choir etc and all this . did the music curriculum really require the explicitly #religious music?#and back on the racism tip i remember when they first created the black student union at my high school as i was graduating it was a whole #controversy over it. and i remember my junior year these kids did blackface to do a cool runnings cosplay for halloween. etc etc #insanity luvs #it was sooooo much internalized self hate and shame i had to unlearn lmao

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