#it was so cool i felt like id really done somwthing yknow

[summerlycoris]

So I may have had a tier 5 girl moment today (broke down crying) because I'm writing a fic and. Eventually I'm going to have to write her going back to school and dealing with Inclusive tm school classes. And that just sucks.

Like, this things in America? So I had to do research on how America does its special Ed system and so on. And there's so many studiees- from America, Britain, and Australia, about how Good and Brilliant inclusive classrooms are.

But like. Some of my worst years in school were when I was mainstream and "included". Some of my best were when I was able to take learning access (townsvilles euphemistic way of saying special education) classes. Like, if you're struggling to make friends with normal kids, but can make friends with kids who are like you. Then you get punished for it? That's just throwing us to the sharks. May as well throw some chum in on top of us imo.

(If you can't tell, I got thrown to the sharks. So did my brother. So did so many of my friends...)

And I can't help but wonder. Did any of the people arguing for inclusion above all else talk to disabled people? Or is it just disability mummies, and teachers who want brownie points, and government fuckers who want to be so pc that they forget to include the people they're trying to protect?

Getting away from my frayed nerves and back to the fic- i want it to be accurate. But I also want it to be fun. And not make me cry pls pls pls. So I don't know what to do. I don't want to write her struggling in pe class with her new disability. I want to write her in a class like what I had (outdoor rec.) But that doesn't seem realistic. But it'd be funner. So much funner.