#it was quite warm so i didnt actually wear it for most of the gig but there we go lol

[quarterprioritymidnight]

did you make an outfit for the eras tour? I hope you had a great time!

hello! and yes kind of i guess. i made another one of my silly little varsity jackets based on miss americana & the heartbreak prince (bc of high school metaphors ofc) here she is:

and i had an incredible time. honestly its two days later and i still feel like im not done processing it 😭

[jakathine]

So I’ve been mulling it over and I’m still quite unsure what it means but I had a hella weird dream last night (that I kinda also loved???)

Ok for one, I’m dropped off at this large boarding school like complex (I only know it as that rather than a hotel bc like, there were people w/textbooks in hand filing in with me). I can’t see behind it it’s so huge and it’s wedged into like, a valley area so there’s no way to see on either side of it really. It’s actually quite dark outside because we got there wayyy late but it’s creepy bc of the whole One way in / out point. So I go in, sign my name, and take my (quite numerous) bags to my room (i can’t remember the room #).

Well, I put all my stuff down, say goodbye to my mom (who was the only one who went w/me oddly enough n helped me) and meet my roommate (idk who they are / what they look like bc i can’t remember. All i know is that person was vaguely feminine so w/e) and roommate is an older student who tells me the first two days are move-in free days (this was on a Thurs and so students could use Thurs and Fri to move in, have the weekend, and start on Monday). I was like,awesome, didn’t know that bc it didnt really say anywhere (brain: where did you see this place???)

anywho.

That night I unpack all my stuff and get it arranged nicely but the next day I planned to go to the other side of the complex it’s raining like crazy so I stay inside. I’m sad I don’t get to explore but that’s ok because my roommate tells me about this friend of hers she wants me to meet and takes me to his dorm.

Said friend is not but looks a lot like john boyega (he introduces himself with a different name) and I’m like wow! hi! his dormmate looks a little like donnie yen (like, wayyyy young version of donnie yen) so i’m like !!! holy shit??

So they three tell me about this music gig set up later that night down the ways into the complex, it’s so deep down into the side building the staff/faculty don’t care as long as no one goes completely nuts/trashes anything. SO I go with them later that night and opt to wear some casual jeans and a t-shirt n flipflops (kinda like my usual clothing really). 

The party is fuckin’ weird.

like

it was hazy in the room (not cig smoke not exactly weed smoke but kinda like steamy misty?? but i still got pretty loopy feeling off it), the music was some sort of screaming-rock music up on a temporary stage set up (I couldnt see the band through the misty smoke, just flashes of their instruments and watching air ripples cut through the mist). The room is fucking packed. Like, stuff full of people yet somehow we’re able to all fit and it’s not blistering hot in there either...

At one point there’s a music break (i guess since it was quiet and the band was sitting / drinking water instead of signing plus the misty smoke generation has stopped and it’s settling down on the crowd/floor) there’s food brought out and we all chat and enjoy it. When the break’s over the music resumes and that misty smoke does too and it’s even thicker than before and I’ve never felt so energized.

at another point I’m doing a dancing grinding thing w/the john boyega and donnie yen lookalikes + the roommate (elusive roommate who are you??? JFC) and honestly having the time of my life. Then the world starts to go all fuzzy??/ and warm feeling??? and I realized I’ve “woke up” in a cuddle pile with the lookalikes, and roommate is no where to be found. I’m still dressed and whatnot and feel a little groggy.

Sit up and look around to see everyone in piles here and there, sleeping peacefully, and the stage is empty. there’s litter on the floor but not that much really. Mostly the litter is stuffed into overflowing trashcans. I notice that behind the stage are some windows that are filtering in some really nice sunlight so I get up, let the lookalikes snuggle up to each other and make my way towards the back of the room to find a service/exit door.

I go through it and turn back to test to see if it’s unlocked from the outside (it’s not) so I stick my flipflops as a wedge. Then I actually blink a few times and take in what I’m seeing. Yeah, the complex is settled oddly but in the back view it’s amazing.

My eyes follow up this humongous ridge on my left that is covered with deep green forest with that lovely blue morning mist curling between the trees, and there’s a lake stretching out very wide at its base. But it’s not cold or clammy or anything. In fact it feels like a really nice day and the sun is shining quite warmly. My attention is drawn to a barking noise and I see some students already out and about, using a jogging path that apparently is off to my right with a dog trailing behind that I assume belongs to one of them. A few bicyclists are not far behind, laughing about something and giving me a nod of “hello”.

A few clinking noises alerts me to the fact that there’s a horseshoe game set up and picnic area on the other side of this part of the running path. I see someone who looks like they could be a professor (judging from the fancy shirt and pants) get up from one of the picnic tables and he waves at me. He looks a little familiar but idk how and before I can think he goes towards the building and enters another door further down from me. 

I looked down the rows and rows of doors, all matching greyish service doors, and the place looks entirely too wide for the space I saw out front. Confused, I go back inside, put my shoes back on, and see that not only is everyone else awake but half of them are painting the room. Bright green.

????

I ask what’s going on and the john lookalike goes “oh anytime after we party like that we re-paint the room so nothing sticks to the walls”

Confused, I ask what that means because wasn’t that just idk, water mist or at most weed mist? and he just smiles and goes “no.” and there are others that look at me strangely (idk who these people are / who they remind me of i just see faces of confusion my way) and one pipes up  (i couldnt decipher their gender) “new kid? Welcome. That’s just the start...” and smiles really toothily.

then i woke up (in real life).

I literally sat there going............w h a t was that?!?! for a while.