#it was like people with hEDS are 5 times more likely to have OCD than the average person or something

[antigonescholar]

sometimes i'm like hmmm it's shitty luck that I have both EDS & OCD but then other times i really don't think it's coincidental at all

[perturbed-pigeon]

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1: Borderline personality disorder, anxiety, c-ptsd, autism, adhd, hEDS, POTs. (I have also been diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder and ocd but idk)

2: I think I've always known but I didn't want to accept it.

3: I use an ankle brace, knee brace, walking stick, wraps on fingers and wrist, I also have a walking stick. Eventually when I can I'll get some compression socks, compression gloves, and smart crutches (because the walking stick is horrible for my wrist and fingers...honestly might need a wheelchair but I haven't accepted that yet). I customised my walking stick with minecraft and dinosaur stickers!

4: I know one physically disabled person irl, and almost (if not all) of my friends are mentally disabled in one way or another.

5: I think they don't really affect each other rather they share the same symptoms a lot of the time.

6: The realisation that no matter what my boyfriend loves me. That I'm allowed to take care of myself, that I don't have to push myself, that I'm not just dramatic. That I have people around me that will help me even if I'm too embarrassed to accept it.

7: The fact that I get so many dirty looks. I was aware that going around with a walking stick would get some insults (and it did) but almost every single person looks at me like I kicked their puppy. Like I can be 18 and disabled...leave me alone.

8: I used to love going for hikes and camping. These things aren't really possible for me anymore, I never let myself rest and always pushed through so I accelerated my deterioration. It makes me sad.

9: I use spell slots! I love dnd and played it a lot so it makes more sense to me.

10: Allowing myself to stop and rest, making sure I'm drinking enough, and gaterade my beloved.

11: Unsure honestly.

12: Honestly this is about myself. I had no idea my dental crowding was because of EDs...I thought it was just a funny little fact about me.

13: I could put so much here, my parents and older brother are the "push through it you crybaby" type so. Probably "I don't care if you can move your knee cap with your fingers, hoover the house"

14: Not really, the only physically disabled person I know lives like 5hrs away so.

15: It means being able to allow myself help, that my internalised ableism isn't more important than my health.

16: How expensive and hard it is to get a diagnosis. I live out of home and don't have a job so money is tight. For years I was dismissed for being AFAB, told I was just a liar. It is so so hard to get diagnosis for things that aren't "common".

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[plushievash]

first half of questions for leo, second half for felix❣️

1. Do they have siblings? How many? How is their relationship? If not then would they want siblings?he did have 2 younger siblings but theyre dead nowtheir relationship was good when they still had one…they were all playful loving kids

2. Are they LGBT+? If so what’s their sexuality/gender?leo is gay and hes a nonbinary boy

3. Do they have any disabilities/mental illnesses/disorders?he is missing his right arm from the elbow down and the sight in his right eye;; but he uses a robotic prosthetic now made by dasha! (only after felix finally convinced him to..)he has ptsd, severe depression and paranoia, ocd, and struggles with survivors guilt (which is why he felt unworthy to use the prosthetic dasha made for him for like 2 years now)

4. Do they like to read? If so what do they like to read and how do they like to read it?he does! he doesnt read books very often tho when he does he likes murder mysteries;; he mostly reads up on news and unsolved cases and things like that on his phone in his free time

5. Do they believe in the paranormal?he does! he lives with a bunch of ghosts after all bc of talias haunted doll collectiontho hes pretty oblivious to the paranormal….he cant rly detect when one is around or hear or see them

6. Do they believe in aliens?maybe! he thinks its absurd to think theyre the only planet with life on it but at the same time hes also just :^/ hmmhe doesnt think abt aliens that much

7. Do believe in mythical creatures/cryptids?he definitely likes them but im not sure if he entirely believes in them(aside from maybe demons….)

9. Do they live with their parents? How is their relationship? If not then why?he does not..as both his birth parents and adoptive parents are dead…his relationship with his birth parents was perfect and good;; just as a relationship between parent and child should be..loving and caringhis adoptive parents were awful they used him at every turn but he still blindly defends them whenever anyone tries to point that out…he thinks he owes them everything and is still heartbroken about their sudden end

10. Is your OC in a relationship? Will there be any romance between them and other main characters?hes not and probably wont be but its not definitehe strays from romantic relationships bc hes not entirely comfortable with them tho at the same time he kind of wants one…for now he just decides hes too dangerous to have that sort of thing

11. Does your OC have a nickname? Who gave it to them?yes! feli and felice;; they were both probably first used by his mom and everyone else just caught onhes also called acciai by people hed rather not be in contact with

12. What is your OC’s full name? Do they like their name? Does it have any meaning?Felix Acciai Ruggieri;; he does! he thinks its okej (he just hates his “real” last name) his first name means happy! (which is also why one of his nicknames is just “felice”)

13. What is your OC’s favorite animal?crows! but if you asked him hed say lions

14. Is your OC human? If they aren’t then how do they feel about humans?hes a mutant;; he doesnt have a special opinion on humanshes never really cared to since his mother and (originally) his brother are humanshe knows when to be cautious around certain ones thoother than that as long as ur entertaining to him he doesnt really care if ur mutant or human

15. How many languages does your OC speak?3;; tagalog/italian/englishhe also has learned bits of russian by now from dashabut isnt actively learning it

16. For older OCs: are they a virgin? If not then when did they lose their virginity?hes not;; in his teens

17. What is your OC’s favorite past time?building/repairing things! but since thats also his job..if that doesnt count..he loves sword fighting!

18. Is there anything they’re talented in? Do they enjoy it?hes the best at sword fighting…….he loves it…….hes proud of it………..hes based his entire personality around it…..whats cooler than a giant sword collection AND being able to properly wield them all

19. Do they have anything in common with you?e.everything. felix Is me

20. Share a random fact!felix actually likes horror more than he thinks…he says he hates it but it still draws him in and makes him interested since so many of his loved ones are into that sort of thing..he likes to enjoy stuff with themso he actually loves things like silent hill..he just like..hates the feeling of actually getting scared by horror content LMAO

[sh3ddingvelvet]

7-12, and 22-26!

i’ll answer these for chiaki, alistair and ai 💖7- does your oc have any irrational phobias?chiaki’s fear of abandonment isn’t entirely irrational given their past? other than that they have a phobia of dentists !alistair is afraid of spiders and has a lot of fears related to his ocd that are mainly to do with food, how he’s perceived by others, and relationships (mainly them going wrong)ai is scared of tall/intimidating men (which again isnt something id consider to be fully irrational), loud/continuous noises, large groups of people and that other people are secretly making fun of them/talking about them negatively ..

8-how is/was your ocs relationships with their parents ?chiaki was very close with their mother and felt very comfortable with her .. they loved her a lot.. their father was more distant and detached ? he didnt really have the time to spend with them …alistair felt like his mother was too overbearing for a long time but appreciates her now … and his father is more like a friend than his dad ? alistair was mainly raised by his mom but his dad was aroundai loves their parents ! one of them is very intense and forward and no nonsense which can be a bit too much sometimes .. whereas the other is quieter and gentler , but they care a lot about them !

9-does your oc feel a pressure to achieve or are they content and calm with doing what they can at the moment?chiaki just ignores pressure ? they aren’t very motivated when it comes to achieving and prefers to just , take things slow and relaxed … in the past it caused problems with their education but now it’s finealistair feels a lot of pressure socially and with his appearance ? he puts a lot of work into maintaining both but he manages even if he does get very stressed sometimes…ai works very hard for their grades .. they consider studying to be one of the most important things in their life but because theyre so dedicated to it they dont stress too much? they struggle and get stressed when they dont understand things though ..

10-does your oc guard their emotions by being tough? if not how would they?chiaki absolutely does … they act very cold and distant from most people , they dont like letting their guard down easyalistair prefers to act like hes “perfect” and hide anything thats going on ? he acts super polite and composed around most others even if its not how he really feelsai is too nervous to display their emotions but around the few people theyre comfortable with they cant guard emotions well

11-how would your oc react to hearing they’re adopted ?chiaki wouldnt care at all ? it wouldnt change anything for them reallyalistair would probably be a little surprised … but he’d accept it quickly i thinkai would only be upset if it was kept secret from them ? they wouldnt mind otherwise .. as long as their family love them thats all that matters to them

12-what is one of the most primary things your oc feels that is missing from their life ?chiaki is honestly rather content … i feel like they just miss their parents and want to see their sister more ? alistair would want a family i think? theyre stuck between living happily as a young couple with chiaki but part of him definitely wants to settle down with children … maybe move back to france ? but he’s not 100% on it yetai just wants company ? they want friends … please

22-how does your oc usually show affection? are they openly affectionate or more restricted with their affectionate emotions?chiaki is the type to be a little more reserved … they’ll be physically affectionate but not super giggly/smiley with it ? they like doing chores, making dinner, small gestures, to show their partner their affection… and they are rarely super affectionate publicallyalistair is the sort to use classic romantic gestures, lots of gifts, fancy dinners, hotel stays… he’s very traditional and sensual when it comes to expressing affectionai is very physical with their affection and will express affection through cuddling, snuggling, sharing a bed, and sex … in contrast to chiaki theyre super open and giggly and will readily say romantic things… they like making gifts, or picking very personal gifts …

23-does your oc tend to hide something about their personality/essence when meeting new people? if yes, what?chiaki is just generally very cold at first? they hide that theyre very clingy, dependant and submissive . also that theyre a kinky masosub but thats . umalistair tries to act like hes perfect when in reality hes a total airhead who cant cook, cries hysterically at romance films, has a lot of britney choreography completely committed to memory and lived off of take out food for a solid 5 yearsai is too shy to be themself from the beginning … once they relax they start being themself, so i guess for ai its basically … everything ? theyre really nervous

24-how would your oc react if they got humiliated by someone in front of a group of people?chiaki would not let that happen ? theyd come up with some sarcastic comeback or style it off somehow and afterwards just be like “god im upset im going to get my boyfriend to fuck me so im less upset”alistair would probably laugh it off ? to be fair he’s not someone people typically would try to humiliate ? but he would absolutely cry about it afterwards and chiaki would strongly consider taking a temporary break from their pacifism ai would cry hysterically and not be able to handle it at all it’d just be . their worst nightmare, basically . but honestly who would do that theyre so cute and soft why on earth . i feel like other people would rush to comfort them, though, because theyre so delicate ?

25-how would your oc process the grief caused by the death of a loved one?historically speaking for chiaki: Not Very Well . depending on who it was their reaction would range from them going into an extended deeply depressed state or being straight up suicidal themselfalistair would . probably react fairly standardly i feel ? itd be hard and hed suffer but hed probably just cling to friends and loved ones until he became able to cope againai would be really bad at handling it … it would make them very very depressed and theyd just close off even more and just . stop doing things for a while

26-what is the most intense thing your oc has been battling with?chiaki-dependancy and abandonment issuesalistair-ocdai-loneliness and hopelessness