#it was deffo tough remembering people and i feel like some of you will be like 'why am i on this' LMAOOOO but just know you're all great xxx

[cursivebloodlines]

Before I continue I must say: excuse the awful graphic. Lmao. Anyway! I’ve realised that I have never done a Follow Forever or anything like this in my life?? So I decided that now I should hop on the bandwagon and spread some of the love. Not because I’ve reached a follower milestone but so I can give you all a quick thanks for putting up with me really. I know I have never been the best in replying to drafts at a reasonable speed, that I ramble too much and take twenty-odd years to reply to a single message and yet you guys still talk, follow me and want to interact with me and my muses? Honestly, I’m blessed. :’) Just know I love you all and wish you the Happiest of New Years. Alright let’s go --

SOME SPECIAL MENTIONS:

☼ @floires​ ;; Becky, oh Becky. You’re my sister so I guess you have to be on top of this list?? lmao. You don’t realise what an amazing writer you are. Like so good that Tumblr made us both unfollow each other? Like what was that all about? Haha! We have stupid arguments over nothing and over everything but know that I love you regardless of those. We need to write together also! Your muses are the cutest and I could honestly go on forever but I don’t want to make your head bigger than it already is. You’re the best sister anyone could ever ask for or want etc etc and no matter the idiotic things that leave my mouth sometimes, you just so happen to be one of my favourite people on this planet. Ew, I’m getting cheesy now. How gross is that. And one day I will persuade you with my almighty powers to edit a theme because you always end up making the finished product so good and like SHARE YOUR TALENT PLEASE.  ALSO THIS IS RANDOM BUT JUST KNOW YOU CAN SING GREAT. (If you E V E R say you sound like Celine Dion though...I may just start laughing. You know exactly what I’m talking about here.) Never change for anyone or anything and I sincerely hope that 2019 is kind to us because 2018 was the most Evil. And besides, 2018 was so last year lmfao. All my love to you sis. P.S: you smell. xx

☼ @brokenbcys​  ☼  @dreamxcatchcr​ ;; Emma and Dani! I’ve put you both here because I know I’ll end up repeating myself lmao. Where do I start with you both? You’re two of the best friends anyone could ever ask for; both on the internet and in real life. You’ve been there for me for so many years and you know -- I think this year it will be like...9 or 10 years since we’ve been friends? That’s gone so fast! We’ve had many laughs together and honestly I never would have survived the hell that is school if it weren’t for you two. Thanks for putting up with me when I take ten years to reply to a simple message dkjlsdgsd. And I also love how no matter which characters we throw at each other, they all end up being bezzie mates. I have such a good writing chemistry with you two it’s just so easy :’) Our friendship must have been reflected on our characters haha. We’ve been in some hilarious RPs together though -- like the twins one! Our TMR RP (groupc) will always be one of my favourite rps (Not because we ran it pfft) because I’ll always treasure our Glader Trio. One day I will persuade you both to watch all of AOS and not just the first episode hehe. Here’s to many more years of friendship! I love you both sm and I know I can come to you about anything and yeah :-) xx

☼ @wckdfortressx​ ;; Hannah! I know you’re not really on the RP scene anymore but I couldn’t do a Follow Forever without including you! We’ve been friends for goodness knows how long now -- it’s definitely been a good few years. And I love that you love Agents of SHIELD as much as I do :’) AND ULTIMATES IS THIS YEAR!!! So the fact I might finally get the chance to meet you irl is so exciting! You’re a lovely person and you’re always fun to talk to even if I take a billion years to reply to a simple message lmao. I’ve always loved every single one of your characters and I think you’re an amazing writer. And if you ever decide to return to RP know that I’m always willing to throw any and every one of my muses at you. <33 You’re an awesome person and I hope this year treats you well!

☼ @ravenousdiaster​ ;; Your URL popped up before I even typed ‘r’! I think Tumblr knows how much I lav you hehe. :’) I’m so happy that we started writing together! I always get so happy when I see you’ve replied to a thing or tagged me in something. And we can spend ages and ages just headcanoning and it’s beautiful <3 You’re an absolute pleasure to write with and Dougie/Dahlia are precious babies who I love sososooo much. We love putting them through Shit because we are angst fiends ;) but I wouldn’t have it any other way because I’m terrible. I always love when I see I have a message from you and you’re so lovely to talk to OOC as well. Thank you for being you and carry on being your amazing self. I lav youuu. <3

☼ @strawberryxwrites​ ;; You have legit got to be one of the most patient people I know, omg. When I always take a lifetime to reply to a single message or poof randomly in the middle of a conversation, you’re still more than happy to have a chat and??? I am ever so grateful for that. I know I can be a pain in the arse when it comes to reply speeds but I’m so glad to have the chance to write with you :) I love your characters dearly and I love writing our threads as well. I hope you have a fab year in general and just know I enjoy writing with you and talking to you and thanks so much for your awesome self and wanting to write with me.

☼ @valplum​ ;; Every time you reply to our thread or I see you on the dash I am honestly just???? floored by your writing because it’s just beautiful and HOW DO YOU ENGLISH??? Every time I have a notification from you I’m like !!!!!!! I know I’ve had trouble with my muse for Logan recently but know that I love Logan and Bardot so much and I’m also excited to write with your other muses at some point to :) And you’re such a wonderful person to talk to I’m <3 I don’t know how to English so just know I love you okay ♥

☼ @heroxwithxdreams​ ;; remember that time we tried plotting and I ended up completely forgetting to reply to the message? ahh. I’m so happy that the second time around worked out. Because I always did want to reach out because I thought ‘ahh they seem so nice! I’d love to write with them’ and then I got lucky :) You’re so sweet to talk to even if we haven’t spoke for a while but I know that’s because you’ve had a break from Tumblr which I completely understand since I’m technically I’m on a semi hiatus haha! but just know when you’re back I’m ready to love you. <3

☼ @faerietaled​ ;; My motivational fairy! I’m so sorry I tend to forget to reply to my messages ah but you always seem to appear in my messages at just the right time :) Whenever I’m not feeling so great or stuck in a pickle you always reach out and say hey. Honestly you have no idea how much that means to me. <3 The fact you take some time out of your day and listen to my rambles; you’re an awesome bean. I hope this year treats you brilliantly because you deserve nothing less than the best. ♥

THE REST OF THE BEST:

Whether you’ve been following me for months or for hours, whether we’ve written 500 threads together or only one or even not at all yet, whether we’ve spoke to each other or haven’t interacted yet, thank you all for ever giving me a second glance, for being so patient and understanding when I forget to reply to messages or my snail’s pace of reply speeds. You’re all such lovely people and without you my indie rping experience wouldn’t be what it’s like today :) Thanks for lighting up my dashboard with your greatness every day! Keep on doing you and know that if you ever need anything I’m here for you. And if you ever wanna start a new thing then I would be completely down with that!! Happy New Year! xx

☼ @domuslux  ☼  @finalisms  ☼  @heartonanoose ☼ @merryxchaos  ☼  @ferociousrex  ☼  @disapprcve  ☼ @inechoingsilence  ☼  @thefangedman  ☼  @ofbookshelves  ☼  @ofxmuse  ☼  @caringspirit  ☼ @evcrlasting  ☼ @mnemxsyne-writes  ☼ @darkwinterwinds  ☼  @dramaqxeenbitch  ☼  @thexnyctophiliacs  ☼  @the-red-red-rose  ☼  @anatcmies  ☼ @swordsandmagic  ☼  @kingxfmischief  ☼ @pseudonyist  ☼ @poignantisms  ☼  @novusorbus  ☼  @futureofnothing  ☼  @svimmingfools  ☼  @shewritcsx  ☼  @ofstrangevariety  ☼  @lavenderrpages  ☼  @cheapxseats  ☼  @scinglives  ☼  

(If I’ve missed you please do not take offence and know it was not my intention. My brain never remembers to reply to my messages let alone remember everyone for my first follow forever. I don’t love you any less so please don’t think that. )

[sugakuns]

[hc] miya twins, sakusa & wakatoshi with a med school s/o

I wrote these as hcs since it would take me too long to write separate imagines! I hope it’s okay 🥺

◈ miya atsumu

#1 hype man!!

is the type to be like “hey babe what’s this called?”

spoiler it’s his bicep

I feel he would be strangely invested in what you do..like he would lowkey be reading your notes when he’s bored so he’ll just spout out some random medical knowledge

he would deffo show you off and in interviews and such he’d always find a way to mention you and your career path BAHAHA

“well i keep healthy cause my s/o is a doctor/nurse”

“‘tsumu im still a student..”

“shhhh”

expect a lot of “I THINK ITS BROKEN”

he stubbed his toe

he hounds you to take care of yourself, definitely the type to offer you a massage after you’ve been leaning over your desk for too long

baby acted like you were dying when he came home after a training camp and you literally looked like a zombie

dark eye bags is a no-no for him! he will whine at you to go to sleep early cause you need your beauty sleep!

a lot of “ you know I’m so proud of you baby, right?” or “who knew someone like me would end up with such a smartie like you”

he calls you his smart cookie 🥺

◈ miya osamu

ah, the less chaotic twin

he’s legit very proud of you

if you had to do practicals and stuff he’d be very interested in what you do

idk what a med student would do I’m going on a limb here LOL

studying for tests is a nightmare so lil osamu would feel bad and every now and again cook you something to eat

although he would probably never admit it, he worries that you’ll overwork yourse bc we all know how hard it is to memorise stuff for med school

he likes to show you off, but not like atsumu

if someone would ask him he’d be like “oh y/n? They’re in for med school” with such a cocky expression

like his twin, offers some ‘stress relievers’ from time to time (wholesome and not so wholesome 😉)

if you voice your worries about an important test coming up, osamu would be such a good listener

he also always makes sure you never fall into the typical med school student who’s running on 3 seconds of sleep and their blood is 95% coffee or energy drinks

this mans will make sure that you have time in a day to get a shower, have a good meal, study and relax!! don’t test him

tbh, pretty fkn proud

◈ sakusa kiyoomi

omfg he simps

obvs you’ll be a clean person who knows about hygiene so this is a plus in his books

but also if you go to the hospital do not touch him until you’re ‘clean’ again lmao

sakusa may find it a little hard to tell you how proud he is of you

because he’s not dumb,, he knows how much effort and self-involvement it takes to be in med school

he’s very self conscious about asking you to do things too!! like after a big test that he knows just took your soul from your body, tsundere baby will do things for you

but don’t ever bring it up or else he’ll huff

i hc sakusa to be able to make some pretty good herbal teas!! definitely knows a few good relaxing drinks

he won’t flaunt you like the twins, but does feel pride when he does mention your career path

he’ll never admit it, but like osamu, when he sees you cramming at night he can’t help but feel so worried

before he leaves for practice he always says stuff like “remember to take a break, idiot” or “don’t overwork yourself like last time”

he thinks he sounds so authoritive (in a nice way) but in reality he has a flush on his face and he can’t even look you in the eyes when he says these things

every now and again he’ll chime in with a “is there any illnesses going around” when he gets paranoid about people coughing or sneezing regularly around him

◈ ushijima wakatoshi

he’s a tough cookie to crack in the emotions department

ushijima is a bit..weird

we all know that but still

ofc he’s proud of you!! I mean, you’re literally IN med school

maybe he’ll show interest by dropping little things like “would you like to be our temporary nurse?” baby just wants to show you that he believes in you

ushijima is good at stress relief, i cannon him as a character who has a routine to de-stress

he’ll offer to help give you massages if you ask for them (be warned, baby’s a little rough)

he does little things (like the others) and tbh,, baby is a bit clumsy

tries to make you tea? spills some on the floor

tries to make you food? it’s burnt on the edges

he’s very blunt with praise and will definitely make you blush lol

it’s like the way he can simply say “I love you” with a straight face, it’s very flustering to see someone say it like that

hmm, if anyone mentions you and what job you have he’ll be like “oh y/n is in med school” but only you can see that little glint in his eyes

when you tell him you aced a test he’s give u that lil smirk and an “I’m proud of you”

daddy

sorry that ushi’s is a bit short! i struggled with him TT

[youjustwait-sunshine]

so so so late with this but i was tagged by the lovely @babettevdw so thank you! 💖

Answer 17 questions, tag 17 people

nickname: pippa, pip, pips...

zodiac: have always been gemini, but apparently they've changed now and im taurus??? im saying gemini ♊

height: about 5"5.5/5"6ish??

hogwarts house: slytherin 🐍

last thing i googled: the state of kerala in india, it's where the book im reading's set

song stuck in my head: nothing atm which is amazing for me... last song i remember being stuck in my head was bad idea from waitress lol

followers: a lot less than my old blog put it this way... ive only had this for maybe 6 months? if that 🤭

amount of sleep: i don't even want to talk about that lol it makes me anxious to sleep... i sleep terribly, especially when im off work 😔

lucky number: i don't think i have one??? my favourite number has always been 32 for some reason though??

dream job: oh my god, i have many... I always wanted to be on stage when i was younger (still do i mean come on!), id also love to work in f1 in some sort of strategist role, that would be quite exciting (i have no background in motorsports or engineering or anything 😂), i have a degree in political science so id also love to do something research based, think tank or something like that!

wearing: black t-shirt, grey pyjama shorts (it's muggy and stormy)

favourite instrument: piano, no doubt, im also a sucker for a cello tbh (and a harpsichord for some reason 😂)

aesthetics?: i don't really know with this one... i guess minimalism?? deffo what i go for with clothing/interiors

favourite song: i don't think i could pick just one! there are songs that always stick out to me though as ones i feel iconic to me personally,

even if they're not by my favourite artist! like, baba o'reilly by the who, into the mystic by van morrison, just like heaven by the cure, young forever by jay-z (this one is mine and my bfs song- i don't even know why), asleep/rusholme ruffians/william it was really nothing/suffer little children by the smiths... i could go on but nobody needs to hear about that! 😂

favourite author: this is so tough as i wouldn't say im tied to one particular author... in that i don't tend to read lots of books by one particular author (unless it's a series)... i think jane austen is probably the author whose work ive read the most in my lifetime! i love khaled hosseini's work (the kite runner is a masterpiece imo), and corban addison also tells beautiful, extremely emotional stories (a walk across the sun absolutely shook me, 100/10 would recommend this book)

favourite animal sound: ohhhhh ummmm, i love when im on holiday and the crickets are chirping as im walking to dinner on an evening??

random: i love gaming! but im very very specific in what i like 🙃

That was fun!!!

Because im so late I doubt i could tag 17 people that haven't done it! so as usual im leaving an open invitation to anyone who wants to do it!! just say i tagged you 🌼🌼🌼🌼

[john-bull-leun]

1. He’s out here acting all big and tough and scary and then blushes over hand holding in the next second. You can’t fool me boi I know you’re baby beneath that act.

2. This man knows how to make an entrance👏 CEO of being a dramatic bitch. he’s really doing gods work with his powers, making butterflies fly off of his kimono just for the aesthetic. Side note: the hair flowing along side the butterflies?Pocahontas could never.

3. Was this picture necessary for the next point? Not really. Will I put it here anyway? You bet your ass I will, he looks majestic. Back on track, the poor thing doesn’t like punishing humans, it hurts him so much when he does, but he does it anyway bc he has too. What a selfless boi! No but in all seriousness the fact that he dedicates his life (an ETERNAL life) to doing something that must break his heart kills me. It makes me so sad, like he loves humans let him join wishes!!

4. Would die for you in a heartbeat no question. His whole thing is following the rules v strictly and usually he’s so torn bc of it but he drops all of that immediately when you’re in trouble. You’re the most important thing in his life and it worth breaking a HUGE rule for. And he STILL feels guilty for it! Does he not just break your heart

5. This list really wouldn’t be complete without me mentioning those luscious locks. Not cannon but he deffo lets the MC play with it when he’s sleepy and you’re lying in bed together. Dunno if it’s just me that wants that but... I’m putting it on the list anyway

6. This one might be a bit risky bc I know you like leon but... for Zyg I must do it. Leon’s meaner to him than he is back like look at this. Wasted of space? Bit far innit. Ziggle was going to write an apology letter for being an inconvenience to him when he was going to be killed in his sequel. (At least I think it was this wording don’t quote me on it tho).

7. The leon fans love to talk about character development and let me tell you no one does it as well as this man right here. He’s so cold to the MC at the beginning (not really rude like some of them were) but she’s just genuinely nice to people for a few episodes and he’s like oh no you’re meeting all my standards. then he’s so soft. We’re talking constant blushing. He’s such a shy lil grumpy, cute boi. Don’t believe me? Ask Karno. (I can’t find the screenshot sorry but I know there’s a time he calls him “bashful”)

I Don’t remember what number it’s like 2 am. He’s overworked and honestly just needs a break, a massage and a big box of chocolates. Oh that’s another thing he likes sweet things, adorable. Personal head cannon that he sits there drinking from a fancy tea cup and everyone thinks it’s black coffee or something cool but it’s just the most disgustingly sweet hot chocolate. Ack I just remembered that scene where the waiter gives you his order and him yours bc he ordered something that seems so out of character. He. So. Cute.

Ah I’m sorry for the long post...but I did say to prepare yourself! Can I at least get points for effort :) ?

I lied to myself

I’ve read all the gods and I have the final rankings of who’s my favorite and alas......Leon is still number one. I thought the king got bumped down a peg or two.

I should never have thought such blasphemous thoughts. He didn’t agree and came back in FULL force.

So here’s my Star Crossed Myth favs in order.

Leon

Ichthys

Krioff

Aigonorus (He’s baby)

Dui

Huedhaut

Karno

Scorpio

Partheno

Tauxolouve

Teorus

Zyglavis (sorry bb ☹���)

Also out of boredom I’m making them all Spotify playlists from songs I listen to (which should be linked in their names but who knows tumblr is broken as all shit and I did this on mobile) so that’s a fun thing to follow if you like that I guess idk

[mistfvlly]

Hello New Year, I suppose | 2017

I hadn’t really written a proper post for 2017, but it’s Chinese new year on Saturday so I guess that’ll be my excuse for writing this now. The things I thought at the start of this year and at the end of last year, are now coming back to me. I can’t sleep at all for some reason, so I’ve decided to finally put my thoughts out. Well, Happy New Year, I suppose. I mean what is it really? It’s just another day, yet the numbers jump out at me a lot. My birthday recently past so I’m 17 now. One year until I’m officially an adult. One year until I finish college and have to move onto the next chapter of my life. One year and I’ll have to finally make a decision. One year and I’ll have to face many, many fears. One year until I possibly leave this country. One year… a very daunting year despite the fact that I’ve been waiting for this ‘one year’ for so long… one year till I realise I cannot live up to my dreams. But let’s focus on this year. Why is this year special? It marks a date. An important one. A very important one. For the past few years, I’ve been telling myself “2017 is 10 years since it happened, that’s ___ years away.” From four years away, to three years away, to two years away, to one year away, and now, to 'it’s the year’. It’s the year that marks 10 years since I moved to Abu Dhabi, the place most dearest to me. August 17th, 2007. That was the day. And this year, I will experience weird feelings on that day; August 17th 2017. It’s weird. Very peculiar, it’s the first time I’ve thought of this date in such a way - written down that is; visually in front of me. Weird. The frequency of 7’s make it trippy for me, as it seems to have a ring to it. Now, these next few years, I’m going to have to live constantly remembering and thinking about the stuff that little me did back in Abu Dhabi. I mean, that’s the most memorable part of my life. More memorable than my time here, even though I am older. Here my brain remembers these memories in a dull colour; that’s how I picture it. My memories from Abu Dhabi are always bright, colourful and vivid. They’re bursting with positivity and happiness. Whilst growth is part of both set of memories, the growth in my memories from Abu Dhabi seems better. The growth from my memories here are.. slow and negative, tough and grey, boring and not as memorable. I mean, from my time here, all I remember is; being ridiculed, having to face stupid, ignorant people, self harm, sadness, self pity, annoyance with others and myself, hatred for everything, massive drops in confidence, changes but changes that are not working, the colour grey, jealousy, downfalls, disappointment, break ups, drifts, addiction, isolation and, well now we are here. What I am experiencing now is fear. And yes, between all that of course I can be happy. I’m a crazy person and I talk a lot with close friends and act hyper. But at the end of the day, these feelings and memories are what I remember the most. Literally. Grey. My whole time here can be described with the colour grey. It’s just, dull. I’ve gone through experiences that have helped me learn, I have made good friends, but for some reason, at the end of it all, I’m not proud of myself. I feel unjustified. I feel disgusting. I feel fake to some extents. I feel conflicted. When i was in Abu Dhabi, the things I remember are all represented with the colours yellow and orange and maybe blue. I think of, school (I hate school now, but back then I loved my school), sports (our astro turf, swimming pool, tennis court), extra curricular activities, hobbies, friends, malls, ice cream [cake], books (my school library ♡), hypermarkets (even though I used to hate going to them lol, we’d spend like 3 hours there ahahah, the vegetable weighing was the worst), my apartment, my friends’ houses, parks, beaches, the area I lived in Abu Dhabi (i dont want to name it, even though I’m anonymous here and I don’t live there, I just feel to open giving that out for some reason), car rides at night, witnessing all the lights from the skyscrapers, travelling to other cities in the UAE, PEOPLE, EVENTS, ACTIVENESS… Just GAH I could go on. It was lively. I had a lively life. I did things, I went out, I was more active, I performed more than well at school, I had many interests and had time for them, I was just happier and I want it all back but I CAN NEVER HAVE IT BACK BECAUSE IT’S BEEN 10 YEARS AND IT HASN’T RETURNED. I feel like I have moved on but I will never, EVER fully move on from that time. It’s like they say, the thing you love the most can become your worst enemy. I’ll never be able to recover from moving back. I just have to accept it. I can’t believe it’s been 10 years. It’s been 6 years since I came back… I’ve lived her longer than I’ve lived there, yet I love it the most. And now I have to face the present and my future, which I’m so scared about. I’m not ready. Oh God just please give me more time! I honestly can’t do this. I hate my situation. I wish I could rewind time and start again. I wish I could start from the beginning. I’m such a waste of space honestly. I really want to change that. I can’t sleep. Ughhh. I am like, 30% happy/unmindful that I have gone through everything that I have been through these past six years, but at the same time, I am not happy with it. I wish it all went differently. I mean, before I was 5% happy. Only recently has it bumped up to 30% (in fact, that may be too generous). But that’s because I realised that I have learnt from my experiences here. It’s just that now I’m quite negative I suppose. Well… I’m not THAT negative compared to when I was 12-15 ish. It’s just that, I put myself down a lot. I ignore the things around me that I dislike and make them turn into white noise as much as I can, but now I am just harsh on myself. And tbh, I need to be harsher. I want to be so harsh that I change for good. I want to become better. I hope to God that happens. I hope to God I change. I hope to God my life improves. And I hope to God I am just satisfied and GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO HAVE NOTHING. I HAVE SO MUCH COMPARED TO THEM, YET I’M STILL COMPLAINING. I’m sorry. I really am. I hope one day I can look back at this and just facepalm or wish that I could tell my current (or then younger self) that I needn’t worry, and that everything will turn out better than I would have hoped for. My younger self from 10 years ago will not be proud of who I am now, in fact she might run away (well she’d deffo run away from my 13/14 year old self), but I hope my self now can be proud of future self, and in turn, I hope that makes my 7 year old self proud of my future self too. Let’s see what happens. This is the purpose of my ramblings, so that I can witness my old self and see how much I have changed. I hope to change for the better. See you soon, future self.